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Wake up!

I don't want to have to remind you that until the inquiry takes place, we talk

to no one. Stick to what we agreed to say.

What about Izzy? I'll talk to Izzy.

What I remember is when Ted would make me wear a toilet seat around my neck for

two days.

Why did he do that?

Because he was a prick.

Oi!

Off! You're not going until someone tells me the truth. It was quick and

painless, Mrs. Dornfield.

Don't give me that.

That's what you diggers say to all the widows.

Don't touch me.

I loved my husband, and you didn't even want yours.

Don't listen to what anyone says.

Your dad was a good man.

What's this?

Just watch it.

I don't have PTSD, if that's what you're asking.

Who decided that I shouldn't read Ted's death letter?

And I know he didn't forget because he always writes one.

All right, listen up.

Specials left beer from the VIP visit. I need a few volunteers to unpack it.

Yep, yep. Hold up. All right, let's start.

What are we doing here?

Volunteering to dig holes.

I never volunteered for that. Yes, you did.

We're going to dig our way to the beer.

Just put the rubbish in the hole, peps.

What is it, boss?

Talibs are used in Chechen mercenaries as snipers for hire.

There's one up there now.

Pepsi, get your rifle.

I'm fighting H -Mail on the hill to the northeast.

Going!

Boss, it's a goat herd. Here, take a look.

That's Azidullah.

From the village, sir.

Sir, can't locate Talib.

Only local guard heard.

Take another look.

Two rounds on my order. Sir! Two rounds on my order! Can't stop!

What the fuck are you doing?

Sir, there's nothing up there. There's no threat.

Trust me.

Sir, I don't have a target.

Pepsi, engage the enemy.

That's an order.

Do you walk in the valley of kings?

Do you walk in the shadow of men who sold their lives to a dream?

Do you ponder the manner of things?

In the dark,

the dark, the dark, the dark.

Do you ever have visions?

Hallucinations?

In a place like Afghan, it's hard not to feel the ghosts.

Pressure arms?

Since you've returned?

No, sir.

Breath in and out?

Any trouble sleeping?

No.

Alcohol consumption?

A few beers, that's all.

Looking for the line?

Do you think about people that have died?

Sometimes. And what do you think about?

What I did.

What I didn't do.

Anything else happen that you'd like to discuss?

No sir.

You're good to go.

Thank you sir.

Welcome home.

have this when you can open it yourself, alright?

Can I try?

Yeah. My hands like this? Yeah, put them down.

I can't.

Are those boys at school still picking on you?

No.

Not anymore.

Cal, you can't just say you're going to kill someone, alright? Tell the teacher.

You kill people.

What's the difference?

Come on, come on, touch footy.

Mom?

Mom?

When are you back?

Just one night.

You look nice.

You going to house?

Yeah.

And be careful this weekend.

No guns.

And drinking.

That wasn't me that night.

The last thing I'd ever want to do is hurt you.

I love you.

Come here.

Bye, baby.

Be good, all right? OK.

Families with parents who come in and out of war, decompression, I think you

call it, have certain unique issues that they face.

Do you think I'm hurting my boy? I don't think that.

I know you love Callum.

Well, the army's hurting him then.

I respect your service. You know what my service is? Get the other guy before he

gets you. Is that what you're doing with me now?

What should I be looking out for?

With Callum?

Yeah. If we're clear on PTSD symptoms in general, perhaps it'll be clearer on

how they might affect Callum.

So, anxiety, sleeping problems?

Migraines, anger, any of those things unfamiliar?

How do you cure it?

With medicine.

The medicine's talking to someone like me.

And what if I can't talk?

I've seen depression, family break -ups, and at most extreme violence and

suicide.

You know, Monday is the biggest day of the week for suicide.

The weekend's the biggest for murder.

Now, I guess suicide is about failed expectations, not being able to face

another week of your life.

Murder, on the other hand, has a purpose.

Why do you think you wanted to tell me that?

It's a big cramp, mate.

I think we've found our ride.

Yeah.

What the fuck?

No point in taking two vehicles, mate.

Oh, no, this is my mum's car. She's a beauty.

Oh, Speedo, come on.

Wait, watch it. That's Aspen Letty.

Mate, chill. Just be careful.

I'm being careful.

I want to stay here.

Dad, you home?

Of course she is.

Has the nurse been today?

Lord,

we pray for our soldiers.

Help them all stay out of harm's way and that they have what they need to get

through each day.

What the fuck?

We ask this in and through the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Amen. Amen.

Amen. Thank you, sir.

It's been a bit of a tradition for our captain to get the boys together a few

days after coming back home. Yeah, everyone is traveling.

With his passing, I feel like we owe it to him, so thank him. Oh, thank you.

Have fun.

Be good, my son.

Where's Pips?

Oh, mate, he had some time out with his dad.

No alcohol with your medication.

Don't worry, man, he will be safe with us.

Promise.

Bye, son.

You know, I've had mum on one side of my bed, my wife on the other, 24 -7 for

five days.

I needed this.

Come and get it!

You know there's sharks in there, right?

Actually? Yeah, mate. Big ones. Bull sharks.

Fuck that.

No way.

Better to get it from Maya.

Okay. I posted it privately and someone must have just ripped it off and

reposted it. Who gave this to you? No one.

Who gave it to you? No one. Shit. What the... After the

wake, there was a... There was a USB in the mailbox.

You're going to show me where that USB is.

Well... Maybe if you did some washing up instead of snooping on me.

Go to class.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, Mum. I just... I just didn't want anyone to get in trouble.

Check safe here.

Wouldn't want you blowing any more of your own toes off, mate.

What?

Harden up, mate. It's a joke.

Although, shooting your own toe off is a classic send -me -home move.

I'll grab that for you. I'll hold it.

Now, let's go with our psych assessments, any dramas?

Ed?

Uh, no, I couldn't tell him much.

It's all a jumble up there.

You know what happens, mate.

Old days of my second tour, completely gone.

Well, did it ever come back?

Sometimes it doesn't.

You're lucky.

I

wonder

when you'll be home.

How was your tour?

Cruising around in an Azab, waving at locals.

His mum, huh?

Your mother passed.

Oh, son.

I'm so sorry. He was so quick.

I know.

I know.

Enjoy, Dad.

Enjoy.

Mm -hmm.

This must have been a hill fort for the Brits a hundred years ago.

What happened to them?

They won the war and died as heroes.

I don't know.

Sir, I think we should bury these properly.

It's bad luck to keep them here. It's the least we can do. No, leave them.

There's a million bones out here.

The whole country's bad luck.

It's just something you need to say to me, mate.

Not in front of him.

Go at it, little man.

Yeah, come on, go at it.

Forget it.

Has anyone seen things since they got back?

What?

Ghost.

I'm over there.

Come back here.

Oh, shut up, you idiot.

Now, what do you mean?

I just think we brought something home with us.

Like a curse for not... for not burying those bones.

I put a can of baked beans in the fire.

Are you serious? Yeah.

Could blow it any minute.

Dickens. Yes.

Are you joking or what? There's no beans in the fire.

How old do you think I am, 11? Yeah.

This trip was getting so gloomy.

For Christ's sake, I was joking.

Oh, fuck me!

What's your aspirin level?

Fuck me.

Mom's going to kill me.

Hi, can I take your order?

Chips. Large chips, is that correct?

Yep. $4 .50, please proceed to payment.

How do you weigh, you moron?

Can I take your order, please?

I'll have a burger with a lot in the large fries.

Proceed to payment.

Customers need a vehicle to use the drive -thru.

What? Customers need a vehicle to use the drive -thru.

You just took my order.

I'm going to have to ask you to step away from the window. Excuse me, bitch.

Give me my chips.

I just got back from Afghanistan.

I've been greasing terrorists so that the cars that come through your little

fucking drive -thru don't have bombs in them to blow your head off.

Show some respect.

One bag of chips.

Next, please.

Two rounds on my order!

Two rounds on my order!

Pepsi, stop! Ted!

Pat.

Stand down, mate.

You contradict me in front of the men again, and I'll fuck you straight out of

the army.

I don't think a converted shipping container is the most romantic place in

world.

I wish there was a place, maybe 50,

500 metres in the sky where I could lie you back

and look at the stars and give you that kiss that I've been

saving for you.

But I'm not going to tell you where.

You need a lift to school?

Yeah.

We weren't aware there was any footage of this contact.

It didn't come up at the debrief stage.

It was sent to my family anonymously.

I'll make sure it gets to the task force commander.

He'll be the one recommending any honours.

I only want what's fair.

How is everything?

Ted's loss was a huge blow to the battalion.

Have you got everything you need?

My family will be better when my husband's sacrifice is properly

This... This needs to go to the commander. Joint operations.

It's the only copy.

So it's important that it stays here.

Safe.

That's my mum's.

You want it back?

Get it off.

But it's so comfy.

What brand is it?

It's not funny. Get it off. It's expensive.

Or your leg stays in the tree.

What kind of evil ship would make you want to blast your own toe off?

I told you, mate, you didn't shoot yourself.

Well, how would you know? You weren't even there.

Yeah, he was.

Oh,

hello. Did you lose your car? Because I think I found it.

David, there's a young soldier here who says he's found the Magna. How

wonderful. How'd you get it here?

The thieves used the screwdriver in the ignition, sir.

It's not worth much, but we felt so unsafe when it was taken. Don't touch

anything. The police will want to fingerprint it. I don't think they'll

with that soon, now that it's been returned.

I was so nervous.

My heart was racing.

I mean, I've been in to see the CO before, but never like that.

All I could think was, this is the right thing to do. And if I have to play the

widow card, then that's what I will do.

What did he say?

He's going to take it to JOC.

Taron Cot makes any recommendations for honours, but if the CEO puts in a good

word, that is a big help.

Yeah.

I know that a medal is not going to bring Ted back, but I just want people

know that his sacrifice, the fact he gave his life up for his country, that

means something.

Enlisted November 2007.

Two cycles.

I've been to Afghanistan twice.

You're so young.

I'm 23.

Your mum and dad must be very proud of you.

Mum died last year.

Oh, I'm so sorry.

Happened while I was over there.

Where'd you find the car?

Just off Camden Valley Way.

You got kids?

Boy and a girl.

The eldest is in South Africa. He works for a health company. He organises

medical evacuations out of hotspots.

Could have done with a couple of those around with so many kids missing legs. I

did call the police. They asked if they could drop in so you could make a

statement.

So what were you doing in Afghanistan?

Well, if it wasn't top secret.

We were protecting the engineers, building a school in a Pashtun village.

First time girls had been educated.

It was dangerous.

Because the school was on the main road coming out of Pakistan.

The village was designated friendly.

And we thought it was.

But one of the local kids was a Taliban spotter.

And an RPG tore our turban to five pieces.

Then, what our boss said.

We've got to show them.

Kick down doors.

Show that family.

Remind them whose side they're on.

Afghan kids, they never cry.

No matter what happens, they just, they just stare at you.

That must have been very satisfying.

Building a school, very rewarding.

Time of my life.

Thanks for the hospitality.

Remember she was such a good sleeper. Now

she's awake every 40 minutes.

Vodka.

Vodka. For you, not her.

Shall we?

What time is it?

Sean put those on after that night.

He seemed to be as freaked out by what he'd done as I was.

Has he ever done that to you before?

No, no, never.

It was like it wasn't even me he was doing it to in that moment. Me, our

It was like we didn't even exist.

Has he been to see the psych?

Yeah.

They said he was fine.

Why don't you...

Come and stay at my place tonight.

I can't. Maya loves Ellie and the boys can top and tail. Who cares what the

street thinks? I can't.

They go back to Afghanistan in a week. I couldn't do that to him. I couldn't do

it to Callum.

You know, Ted had dreams.

Sometimes they were so bad, I'd think I'd lost him forever.

He always came back.

I just don't know which Sean is going to walk through the door.

My Sean or...

to fill out this questionnaire.

Diggers call it the tick and flick.

Did you see anything disturbing?

Did you feel like your life was in danger?

If you don't answer yes to any of the questions, then the army sucks, don't

follow it up.

And how do you feel about that?

hands were around my wife's neck don't panic tell me what the hell not

what you did with extreme but i've seen it before it's called hypervigilance

the symptom now the awareness you need in a war zone to react to danger before

it happens that's almost impossible to switch off when you come back home So

you're in a shopping mall and you're looking for kids' shoes and you're

every window for a gunman or at night when you should be sleeping, a body near

you is a threat, not a comfort.

What makes a good soldier can make you a bad civilian.

I just really need to burn it off.

Yeah, true.

That's the problem with the Australian team.

They're not eating the right food.

You know what I mean? On and on and on.

Why, you know? Hey, hey, hey, hey. You're not a visitor. Grab a bowl and

these. Thank you very much. All right?

Can you grab a bowl, please?

Yeah,

grab that. No, no, no. Come and sit down, please. It's time to eat.

All right.

How's Alexa?

It's getting better.

Just in time to run around after this one.

You've seen him play rugby?

He will run.

How do you know it's a he?

You know what?

It's not real until you hold that little one in your arms.

And then it's too late.

Are you okay, bro?

Do you need me to get something? Everyone okay for a soft drink?

Yeah, we're good.

Here you go.

He's a modest old good boy.

I felt like I just couldn't... I couldn't breathe.

You see?

Really?

Come on. Down, mate.

Come on. Come on, your mum's a bit allergic.

No, she's not.

Yeah, no, she's not. Yeah, remember?

That's why we got rid of the cat.

We had a cat?

Yeah, Big Daddy.

Who's Big Daddy?

The grumpy, half -blind old thing. What happened to him?

Well, your mum and me had just moved house and Big Daddy went missing.

We looked and we looked, but he was gone.

So I went back to base, and then I get this call from your mum saying she found

Big Daddy. He was two streets away from his front yard.

How'd he get there? Well, I get another call ten minutes later from your mum

again saying that there was two Big Daddies. Where? The real Big Daddy was

hiding, and your mum, your mum...

stolen someone else's cat from their front yard.

I wondered why he tried to batch me when I picked him up. So after that, no more

cats. And we got... You stole a cat from someone's front yard?

Yeah, I did.

You got a call from Halsworthy.

What about?

I don't know. They say they want to see you.

This is a serious security breach.

The contact where a soldier is killed leaked onto the internet.

Footage that, according to your debrief, doesn't exist.

Captain Norton, without order... Did I ask you to speak? No, sir.

What else are you hiding from us, Sergeant?

Nothing, sir.

Permission to see the footage, sir.

I knew this contact stank.

All of the statements are full of holes.

Whose helmet cam was it?

I don't know, sir, if I don't see the footage.

Well, we'll find out soon enough.

And when we do, it'll mean a hundred shades of shit for you.

You've been talking to Kim Nordenfeld about a higher honor.

I only told him Adels would go through China.

Bullshit!

I hope you know how close you are to being on a charge, Sergeant.

Sir.

This is not the end of this matter.

Thanks for meeting me.

That's alright.

What is this place?

I don't know.

It's just... It's to come here with Dad.

It's nice.

Why'd you join the army?

Didn't you want to go to uni?

I went to Gallipoli.

We were in, um...

We were in Europe, my brother's wedding. On the way back, we stopped for Anzac

Day, the dawn service. You've been there?

You're sitting up all night and dark and the cold, freezing, so cold.

And then the sun comes up and you see those cliffs and they're almost

vertical. You're thinking, diggers went straight up those cliffs, climbed right

into enemy fire and then just kept on doing it.

And I saw it.

Could I do that?

Am I that brave?

Wow.

Mum know about USB.

It's all right.

People should know. Your dad's a hero.

Then show me the rest of it.

What are you talking about? I know that you edited it.

Right, there's really nothing else on it. It doesn't belong to you.

Okay, he's my dad.

Well, I'm going to go, but thanks anyway.

All right?

You muppet, do you have any idea the shit that you just tore down? Fucking

animal.

You told me you destroyed that footage.

I only ever try to make her feel better. No, it's on the internet.

The fucking internet!

You're going to take me inside and you're going to give me that video file.

It's gone. Bend it.

So this is why you've been acting so fucking weird lately, is that it?

Huh? You're a bit nervous, I was going to find out.

Mate, it doesn't have to be a drama, okay? We can sort it, but I need the

footage.

Okay, dickhead.

You know what happens next, the MPs, they raid your computer, they raid Mummy

and Daddy's little house, and you wind up court -martialed.

Yeah, well, it won't be long.

I know what you did.

I saw it.

And I know what you are.

I just opened the guard door right onto it. Bang.

You never used to lie to me.

Babe, I'm sorry. It's... It was Jared.

His mum asked me to go and see him and talk to him. The kid's in a lot of pain.

Ow! Now I'm in a lot of pain.

Did you just tell him a knife?

I can't open it yet.

A nine -year -old?

With anger issues, you give a knife?

Don't you even think? Come on, my old man gave me my first knife. It's a big

deal. I can't cope with this, Sean.

You know, we didn't buy chili because I was allergic to cats.

We got a dog because I was scared of being alone with you overseas.

But now... Now we have locks on our doors.

And you pretend like nothing happened.

No, just don't.

I saw the counselor.

School one.

She was good. She thinks she can help me.

I mean, I really, I need her to help me.

I thought I was going to die.

You were going to kill me.

I'll give the guns away. I'll just do gone.

Bait the gone if that's going to make you feel safe.

I'll do whatever it takes. Yes.

Yes.

Honey, I need you.

I do, and I need the kids.

It's never going to happen again.

after you first deploy, blokes, hand around this book called On Killing by

army psycho at OS Point.

Pretty much every soldier reads it.

It says how in past wars, from Napoleon right through to Kokoda,

80 % of men never even fired their rifles.

You know, it seems

The act of looking at someone face to face and pulling that trigger is too

for most.

Even Anzacs.

After World War II, training changed.

You shoot before you even know what you're doing.

Takes the thinking right out.

Now blokes in Afghanistan, they all fire their rifles.

95 % shoot to kill.

The thing is, the training stops the thinking,

but it doesn't stop the feeling.

When you kill someone, you know about it.