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[graphic whizzing]

[arrow whooshes and thuds]

[soft somber music]

[water pattering] [soft somber music]

[rumbling]

[slow somber music continues]

[water continues pattering]

[somber music continues]

[rumbling]

[water sloshing] [gentle poignant music]

[Lily and Mac yelling]

[Lily] Give it back! Stop!

- Guys, what are you fighting about?

He stole my toy.

- I did not! - Guys, stop!

Four minutes, if you're quiet for four minutes,

I'll get you ice cream.

Six minutes.

That's my kind of negotiation.

- Eight minutes. That's my final offer.

- Guess they're not gonna be lawyers.

[Lily and Mac] What?

- Nothing. I said you guys will make great lawyers.

[Lily and Mac yelling]

Ah! Ah.

- [Lily] No! - Cal!

- It's mine! - Hey, Cal!

I could use some help, I'm gonna be late.

Cal? Cal?

Hey, Janie.

Sorry, man, I was up all night writing.

I need to sleep at some point.

Did you get a lot done?

Yeah! Yeah, yeah.

Come on! There's, like, nothing delicious in here.

No Oreos. Nothing processed at all.

- Yeah, well, you know, Oreos are out of season.

They don't harvest them til the spring.

- Then I think we should get a tree.

So if there was ever any kind of massive disaster,

we could live off the land, one Oreo at a time.

Oh, you would be so happy.

[Cal sighs] [phone line ringing]

Hey, Dad, it's me, um, I tried your earlier,

I couldn't get you, but I'm off to work.

Um, I'll be back later tonight, so gimme a call.

Okay? Love you.

[fridge door thuds]

Okay, I gotta go. I'm late.

Okay.

[Jane] Love you, guys!

- All right, honey, I'll put the rest of it away.

- ♪ Sunlight - [Jane] Hey, Alex,

it's me, uh, have you talked to Dad?

I keep trying him. I don't know where he is.

Okay, well, call me. Love you.

[Jane gasping]

[group gasping]

[actress whimpering]

[group screaming]

[Sound Tech] Okay, cut.

All right, great job, guys.

That was a fun one.

Next up, we got a rooftop dance party. Have a look.

Let's make this one sexy.

Come on, I need big energy.

Whoops, hollers, that kind of thing.

Let's try to make this scene come to life.

I'll beep you in.

[machine beeping]

[group laughing and cheering]

[group yelling]

Cut! You can do better than that.

No, that was shit.

I went to fucking Yale drama.

[patrons chattering]

So what am I supposed to do?

I'm 41, and guess what?

They cast me as the mother of 30-year-olds.

30-year-olds. I'm 41.

[Jane laughs]

I should have gotten a real job.

It's true though.

It's like when Cal and I first met, we were so,

you know, wide-eyed and artsy and brimming with passion,

but it's not exactly the stuff mortgages are made of.

- Well, but you know, I got the girl

using all that wide-eyed passion, didn't I?

[laughs] Yeah.

I've told you this story?

- No! - No, I don't think you have.

- Oh God, okay, so when I first met Cal,

he had just had his first short story published.

He was so full of himself, I can't even begin to tell you.

He was, he was like I was meeting Hemingway in his heyday.

Oh, that is so not false.

[group laughs]

- So a friend of mine invited me to a poetry reading.

He swaggers over to me,

starts chatting me up.

A couple hours later we're wrapping it up,

I'm saying my goodbyes.

On my way out he stops me.

And he says, "Tonight, Three of Clubs, 10 o'clock.

Be there, if you know

what's good for the rest of your life."

- [group laughs] - It was not that bad.

- So I'm on my way home that night,

and I remember sitting, you know that intersection

where Hollywood Boulevard and Laurel Canyon meet up?

- Yes. - I just sat there

at that stop sign thinking,

"Right, I go home, left, I meet the guy."

So, I went left.

- Well, I wanna propose a toast to the passionate,

brave, and ridiculous people we once were.

- Yes. - Cheers to that.

[Stephanie] Cheers.

[gentle poignant music]

[Jane] Ah, tickle searcher!

[children yelling]

Get over here, you little monkey!

[phone chiming] [son yelling]

What? [gasps]

Okay. Hello?

- [Alex] Janie, it's Dad. He's in the hospital.

He did it again. You need to come home.

Okay, so ballet's at 4:15.

Don't forget, you should get there a little bit early,

okay, to get her ready.

Also, you know, without me here,

you should probably just pack lunches

the night before, right?

And remember, it's gotta be SunButter.

Okay? Peanut butter's the devil.

We'll get kicked outta school.

- You're only going for a couple of days.

Now, their outfits might be a little weird,

but they will be fed and clothed and read to.

Oh, that reminds me.

This is his favorite book.

"Donut Worry."

He's gonna try to get you to read it to him.

Don't fall for it.

I got it. Promise.

The question is, are you okay? Hm?

You sure you don't want us to be there?

- No, no, no, my sisters will be there,

it'd be too much for the kids.

Okay, okay.

Just say the word, and we're there, all right?

- Okay. - Yeah? All right.

Kiddos, where are you?

Come here. Come here.

I love you, I love you, I love you and I miss you already!

Okay? I'll see you soon.

- Okay. - [Lily] Mom, he hit me!

- Oh, Jesus. Okay. [children yelling]

[soft poignant music] [plane whooshing]

♪ Starlings free-form

♪ Over these moors where my heart lies ♪

♪ Cemented in all of time

♪ And all past loves, hmm

♪ Over on the hills

♪ In five years still all remains here ♪

♪ Untouched by the turns of life ♪

♪ I get lost in mine

[traffic whooshing]

You know, you would be shot for driving that thing in LA.

Oh my God, you get one Prius

and now you're the arbiter of morality.

[Jane chuckles]

- Hi. - Hi.

♪ Breaking out of line [Jane groans]

- Wow, I like, uh, I like the hair.

- Really? I was bored, Lennie hates it.

- Well, it's not really the trophy wife he signed up for.

- Well, fuck him. - Oh-oh!

- No, I mean, I love him, but also, yeah, fuck him.

[Jane chuckles] You got that, right?

♪ This time [gentle poignant music]

How's Dad?

- Well, he tried to kill himself.

He's in a psych ward.

He thinks he's ready to go home,

but I mean, other than that, he's great.

He's really great. ♪ Of a moving train

[gentle poignant music] ♪ For who we are

♪ Little do I know

♪ Come, come and go and love

♪ Ooh, we build

Okay, I will meet you inside and Cici's on her way.

Okay. Uh, is she still, ah?

[soft gentle poignant music]

- Okay. [car door thuds]

♪ I'll be still as the wind spills its body ♪

[TV audience screaming] [Jack laughs]

♪ I'm breaking out of the line

[Jack sighs and laughs] [TV audience laughing]

[gentle poignant music]

♪ I'll be calm as the winter storms surround me ♪

Hey, Papa.

- Janie! - No, Dad, don't get up.

- Don't get up. - Oh, Janie,

I'm sick in the head, my body's just fine.

Let me look at you. How's my girl?

- I'm okay. You know, little worried about you.

- Oh, let's not talk about me. [chuckles]

Sit down.

[TV audience yelling]

[Jack laughs and sighs]

She's, uh, she's a funny lady.

Reminds me of your mother.

- Lucille Ball? Yeah, I hear she was a bitch in real life.

- What? Don't tell me things like that.

You and your Hollywood stories, you ruin 'em for me.

Every tough guy I've ever liked, you, you tell me

they're 5'4" in real life.

- Well. - Oh my God,

it smells like old people.

We've gotta get you outta here.

Oh, crazy people. Even worse.

- Ugh, when does he get out? When do we get him out?

- Oh, just give him a second. He just got here.

- He's not gonna get happier here.

Have you walked around this place?

- [gasps] I came as fast as I could.

Hi. Hi, Daddy.

- Hey, sweetie. - Hi.

Ah!

- Aurora, Queen of the North, so glad you could make it.

- Okay. - Now, you can address me

by my real name, I'm off-duty.

- You don't want Your Highness, or?

- Can you just be nice to me, Alex?

You look beautiful.

Thank you.

We had an appearance up north,

so we all just got in our royal bus and came straight here.

- You, they're all, every, the royal freak show's here?

Oh, this is the best news ever.

[group chattering]

[bright music]

- Maybe you guys should wait on the bus.

May thou goest to the bus.

- [bright music] - Oh!

[group chattering]

Ah!

[Cici sighs]

[Alex] Oh my God.

- Your friends seem, um, interesting.

Thanks.

Queen of the Snow. [chuckles]

- That's where all the Ren Fair weirdos go in the winter,

and she's the, the queen of 'em all.

- Well, you know, we all have dreams, right, Alex?

- Okay. [knocking on door]

I, uh, see you have company.

I just wanted to get you your meds here.

- Um, hi, I- I'm Jane, his daughter.

These are my sisters, Cici and Alex.

- I'm Ryn, I'll be helping your dad

until he's ready to be discharged.

Ryn, short for Kathryn?

- Hm, most people don't guess that.

- Oh, it's a nice Irish name. You Irish?

- Yeah, just a little bit, actually. [chuckles]

- [chuckles] You know, the Celtic people

have a bond no other people have.

- Here we go. - Yeah.

- What? - [Jane] Here come

the Irish stories.

Wow! This is quite the neighborhood.

Yeah.

[Jane] [laughs] Holy shit.

- This is your new house? - Yeah.

It's cute, right?

♪ Don't hold back [gentle upbeat music]

♪ Oh-oh-oh

[door creaking]

- Okay. I thought your last place was nice.

This is insane.

[door thuds]

I recommend marrying rich.

I tried poor, I tried drunk. I really like rich.

Huh, third time's the charm.

Lennie!

Lennie!

Ah, good, he's not home, we can talk about him.

[Jane sighs]

♪ I think I'm

You talked to the kids?

- Uh, no, it's too late. We'll FaceTime in the morning.

How's Cal?

He's good. You know, the same.

He's, he's good.

♪ So much for

How's the writing?

It's, um, slow.

Hm.

- [sighs] I'm pooped, honestly, I-

Oh my God.

- What? - You're deflecting.

Yeah, I talk about my shit all the time,

and then the subject turns to you and it's just shot down.

- That is not true. I am, [chuckles] I am tired.

I will bitch about my life in the morning, I promise.

- You better, because I really, it's not fun by myself.

- [laughs] You're so good at it though.

I'm an expert, but still,

I don't wanna do it alone all the time.

[both laugh]

[vocalist softly humming]

You know, Dad's gonna be okay, right?

- Is he? I mean, how did this happen again?

I talk to him five times a day. He seems totally fine.

I feel like, I just feel like an idiot.

- There's nothing that's different.

This is how he always has been. I mean, he's bipolar.

He laughs, he jokes, he charms everyone

into thinking he's on top of the world.

- Yeah, until he turns around and tries to kill himself.

- Yeah. - I don't know,

I mean, I guess it made more sense after Mom died.

She kept him together. She kept him on track.

And without her, it... But this.

- I don't think he was trying to do it this time, honestly.

I think he just woke up and was sick of how he was feeling,

and then he just, I don't know.

I feel like we let him down.

- He's fine. I'm gonna have him move in here.

[vocalist softly humming]

What?

- He's not, you keep trying. He's never gonna move in here.

Well, he can't be alone.

- No. - And what, what,

is he gonna be with Cici

and her little gypsy wagon of merry men?

- No, God, no. [Alex laughing]

[birds chirping]

[keys clatter]

[gentle upbeat music]

[traffic whooshing]

♪ I'm all alone

♪ Out on this boat coming home

♪ To you

[patrons chattering]

♪ Lights in the sky

♪ And here's where I'll die

Hi, um, medium Americano. No room, please.

♪ Of the true

♪ Only you knew

Thanks.

[soft gentle upbeat music]

[patrons chattering]

♪ Hammers and nails

♪ Could fix fairytales in the stars ♪

Thank you.

[Abby] Janie?

Abby! Whoa!

- Oh my goodness. You look exactly the same.

- Oh, no, and the last time I saw you, you had braces-

And a perm. Don't remind me.

- I do remember the perm gone wrong.

[laughs] How are you?

I heard you moved to LA, became an actress?

Yeah. Yeah.

- You know, I- I saw you in a show.

I think you were like a ghost, or something?

I called Harrison to tell him,

but by the time he caught it, you had disappeared.

[sighs] How is he? Harrison?

Oh, he's great.

Just lives a charmed life. Always has.

Married, three kids.

Wow.

- And your dad, how is he these days?

- Uh, he- he's great. He's, he's, he's really, really good.

So fun running into you.

- Oh. - And you know what?

Will you please tell Harrison I say hi

next time you see him?

- Yes. And tell your dad the same.

- Okay. [Abby chuckles]

- Janie! Wait, I don't know what I'm thinking.

Our cousin's getting married this week,

and then Harrison flies in today.

You should meet us for a drink or something.

- Oh, um. - The wedding's over

at Pinecrest, so, you know, we'll end up at McCormick's.

So come, have a drink. Harrison would love to see you.

Okay. Yeah.

- So I'll see you tonight, right? Right?

- [laughs] Yeah. - Okay. Bye.

[Jane sighs] [gentle bright music]

[Ryn] Good morning.

Ryn!

Can I call you Kathryn?

I suppose.

Hm! Are you here to drug me?

- Doctor wants to run some tests so he can adjust your meds.

- Yeah. - You okay with needles?

[chuckles] Do I have a choice?

[intercom beeps]

[PA announcer speaking faintly]

I think you spend too much time around depressed people.

[Jack chuckles]

- Knock, knock. I brought bagels.

- Oh, Kathryn, you know my daughter Jane?

Yeah, she's an actress in LA.

Worked with Dick Van Dyke.

- Wow, anything I might have seen you in?

- Oh, um, you know, I've done a lot of different things.

Nothing's really popped.

- Hey, she pays the bills as an actress. That's huge!

- Well, I'll leave you two with your bagels.

[Jack chuckles]

- Okay, Dad, you gotta stop bragging.

No one's ever heard of me. It's embarrassing.

I'll never stop bragging.

How many people in this hospital, in this whole city,

have chased their dreams all the way to Los Angeles

and achieved them?

- [chuckles] Well, you have a loose interpretation

of my dreams if you think I've achieved them.

Onion or plain?

I'll take both.

[Jane laughs]

- [Mac] Burnt-out buildings! That gets in his way!

What? What's his name again?

[Mac] Destructo Man.

Destructo Man. [chuckles]

- Is he getting you all caught up there?

Oh, he is, he is.

- "While you sleep, the Avengers fight on!"

[Jane laughs]

Okay, everybody, I'd like to talk to Mom. My turn.

Hello, honey.

Hi.

- So, how's your dad? How does he seem?

Uh, you know, kinda, fine.

You know, that's the really F'd up thing about it all.

Swear jar!

- Hey, I said F, that's not even a word.

- Well, you look nice. Where you headed?

Guess!

McCormick's. Oh God.

You know, these people freak me out.

- Yeah. - You guys are all over 40,

and you drink at the same bar every night,

like 20 years later.

It's kind of weird.

It is. Yeah.

I gotta go. Hey kiddos, where are you?

How much does Mommy love you?

- This much! - At least so much more!

All right, I love you. Mwah!

I'll call you guys tomorrow.

[computer beeps]

[car door thuds]

[soft upbeat music]

♪ Pale moon shine [patrons chattering]

♪ Was beaming down cold

Hi, just a vodka soda, please.

♪ I was falling apart

♪ But you came with heart

♪ That morning it was clear

♪ I can let my fear

♪ Let go

♪ Dawn the rising sun [energetic upbeat music]

♪ I can already feel the heat of the light ♪

♪ Oh dawn

♪ You've finally come

♪ You're all that I need

♪ To get through the night

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ The following days

♪ I was falling apart

♪ But you came with heart

♪ That morning it was clear

♪ I can let my fear

Thanks.

♪ Let go

- [Harrison] Hey! [energetic upbeat music]

Hey! [laughs] It is you.

It is, um I, me. Yes.

- God. - No.

- Hi. - [laughing] Hi.

Uh, vodka soda?

- Um. - I remember you,

you drank, uh, wine to relax,

vodka when you're stressed or nervous.

Which is it?

- That is a very strange thing to remember about me.

- I- I remember everything about you.

Come on, it's been 19 years.

You're not getting outta here that easy.

- Okay. - Okay.

- So Mac is six, Lily eight. - Mm. Mm-hmm.

- Um, God, I met Cal, uh, at a poetry reading,

[Harrison laughs] in our angsty-

- Of course. - In our angsty youth-

- Ah-ha. - And the rest is history.

- Oh. - You?

- Um, met Whitney right outta college.

Three girls. 6, 8, 10.

I have no say in anything ever.

[Jane chuckles]

So wait, how long are you in town?

- Oh, just a couple days. I'm staying with Alex.

She's got a, uh, little McMansion up on Cooks Bay.

- Oh, wow. So she's arrived. [chuckles]

Ish. [laughs]

- My sister- - Yes.

- Ran into you, right? - Yes.

- Every time we go to the cabin, she talks about you.

Remember, Jane, we used to drive her up

and then she'd catch us in the, in the bunk,

- in the morning. [laughs] - Oh, I don't, yes.

[laughs] How did our parents let us do that?

Like, why were we allowed to be there alone?

They shouldn't have.

We were getting away with a little more than we should have.

- I know, yeah. I miss your parents.

I didn't even know about your mom.

- Yeah. - Until months after.

You should have told me.

- Well, that's, I mean, I hadn't seen you in about a decade,

it might have been a little weird.

- Well, I would've been here. I loved her.

How's your dad?

Uh, he's, he's good. You know?

Um.

♪ We can wake up staring at the stars above it all ♪

He...

[sighs]

He, um, tried to kill himself a couple days ago.

So that's, that's why I'm here.

God, I'm so sorry.

- He's had an uphill battle, as you know.

And since my mom passed, it's just been...

Right.

And you? How are you?

- [chuckles] God, I mean, I, huh, I would lie

and say I've never been better,

but if anybody can call me on my bullshit,

it is probably you, so.

Yeah.

It seems so crazy now.

God, I was so swept up in us, you know?

I- I- I don't even remember high school.

I just remember, us.

I don't know.

The funny thing is, it doesn't even seem that long ago

sitting here with you now, you know it doesn't seem that crazy.

[patrons chattering] [soft upbeat music]

Very fun to catch up.

You, uh, you make a good grown up.

- Oh, thanks. You are the same, only better.

- Right? - I'm not kidding.

[Jane chuckles]

[Harrison grunts]

Uh, well, safe flight, and um,

I guess I'll see you in another 20.

Well, I hope not.

Bye.

[car door thuds]

[car engine rumbling]

[intercom beeps]

[PA announcer speaking faintly]

- [knocking on door] - Kathryn!

What kind of prodding have you come for now?

- Hm, no prodding. Just your meds.

[Jack] Yeah.

Who's winning?

Me!

That's one perk of playing against yourself,

you always win.

I used to play with my wife, and she usually won.

And after she died, I just started playing myself.

Less lonely. You play?

- Me? Oh, no, no, I- I never learned.

Well, you wanna learn?

- Well, I don't, I don't know, I...

I probably wouldn't be any good.

And I have patients I have to check on.

- Well, what do you do after work?

I go home.

Oh. To?

To? Oh, myself.

What does that have to do-

So come when work is done.

20 minutes, I'll teach you all my tricks.

Take your meds.

- I'm scrapping this game even though I'm winning.

So you'd better come.

- [Jack chuckles] - [Alex] You little minx.

I knew you were up to something

with the heels and the makeup.

Shut up.

Is he still hot?

Every guy I've dated is either fat, bald,

can't get it up, or all of the above.

I mean, I really don't get it.

I look better.

I legitimately look better, and they've all gone to hell.

He looks good.

Still pretentious?

He was not pretentious.

He came from money, yes, but he was nice. Always.

- He was a beat away from wearing an ascot.

He was pretentious. [Jane scoffs]

- Anyway, it was really good to see him.

You really loved that guy.

I've never seen you like that with anyone.

I mean, you were crazy about him.

Well, it was good to see him.

Yeah. Yeah, you said that.

Well, he can't live with me.

- He can live with me. It makes the most sense.

- Yeah, it does, but honestly, he can come to LA.

We have the space. The kids would love it.

Right?

Right. Right.

- Uh, why are you looking at me like that?

- I'm not. - You are.

No, I'm just, I'm wondering

if you're gonna stay there forever.

I mean, it's LA, it's really, it's gross.

I mean, you have kids now,

and you're not really, you know?

I'm not what?

Well, you're not really acting

in the way that you wanted to,

and so it's like, why stay there?

I mean, at some point, don't you just have to kinda call it?

- Oh my God, what is wrong with you?

She's mean. You're mean.

- I'm honest. Someone has to say it.

If I don't say it, who's gonna say it?

- Nobody. Because people don't say that stuff.

They let other people figure their own lives out.

- I kind of feel like you're taking too long.

- Oh, Jesus. This is why I don't live here.

[crowd chattering]

- Do you even own real clothes anymore?

These are real clothes.

[Alex] Okay.

[elevator whirring]

- So this may not be the best time,

but I pass the royal crown to the new queen on Saturday,

and I'd really love it if you guys were there.

- Hm! Anything shitty you wanna say about that?

We'll be there.

- [elevator dings] - Wouldn't miss it.

[PA announcer speaking faintly]

[TV actors yelling]

Hi, Dad.

Hey! There they are.

You three having fun being together again?

- Oh, yeah. - So much fun.

- Mm. - Hey, Daddy.

- Yes, sweetie. - How are you?

Yeah, I'm good.

[Cici sobbing]

- Cici. Cici, you can't do that to him.

- What? He tried to kill himself, I can't cry about that?

- [Jane and Alex] No! [Cici sobbing]

- No. - All right, can you?

- Um, there's a jello cart out here. I saw the jello cart.

- Can I get outta here already? [grunts]

- Yes, soon, but you can't go home by yourself.

Alex says you could-

I don't wanna live with Alex.

If I was deaf, maybe, but to listen to her fight with...

What, what's his name?

- Lennie. - Yeah, they fight,

then have sex, fight, then have sex.

- Ugh. - No thanks.

And sweet Cici.

She's 35 going on 14, bless her heart. [exclaims]

[Jack sighs]

So come live with me.

- You live in LA. I can't leave your mother like that.

Mom would want you to go.

She's here. I'm here.

I go to the cemetery three days a week. That's that.

- Well, you can't live by yourself again, Dad.

You took too many pills and you almost didn't wake up.

You laugh and you do your happy Irish leprechaun thing,

but you can't do that to us again.

I'm tired, Janie. [sighs]

- [Jane] I know, Papa. So let us help you.

I'll be okay.

I'm good.

Hmm. [chuckles]

- [Jane] So, like, do you know the people

- that live around here? - [Alex] No, you think I talk...

I don't talk to anybody.

- [Jane] Who is that? - [Alex] I don't know.

- [Jane] It's your house, nobody even knows I'm here.

- [Alex] It looks like someone knows that you're here.

Yeah, okay. Okay.

- Alex! - Harrison!

Look at you.

I would love to talk more, gotta wash my hair.

[Harrison chuckles]

What are you doing here?

- Uh, I had some business and uh, I thought

I'd stay on for a day or two.

I didn't have your number,

but you told me where Alex lived, so.

Can I buy you a drink?

Yeah.

[pencil clatters]

I knew you'd come.

There you go.

Thank you. [sighs]

- Full disclosure, I plan to let you win. [chuckles]

So you don't wanna move more than one or two

of your pawns in the opening.

Then you keep your king safe.

You could also castle your king.

Oh, we'll talk about that later. [chuckles]

So, uh.

Hmm! Interesting.

[laughs] I like it.

[Kathryn chuckles]

So tell me, this face is beautiful when it smiles,

but it does not smile very often.

Hey, you say you, you go home to yourself.

No, uh, husband, kids, grandkids? Uh.

Okay. You want me to start?

I had a wife.

A wife I loved more than anything.

I met her one night at a bar, of all places.

I was drunk.

Pretty standard at that time in my life.

She was at this Irish place, Nick's, downtown.

And I talked to her,

I thought I was being funny and charming, [chuckles] happy.

She just listened quietly.

And when I finally shut up, she just looked at me

and asked why I was so sad.

She caught me so off guard. She saw everything in me.

Nobody could ever see me like that.

Except Janie.

Since her mother died, she's the closest.

I had a son.

[upbeat music] [car tires crunching]

Oh my God. It's still here?

Yeah.

[Jane chuckles] [Harrison laughs]

- [Jane] Whoa. When was the last time you were here?

I, ages. I don't know.

I mean, not since my parents sold the cabin.

- It's just crazy. - You know? Hasn't changed.

[Jane laughs]

- [Lyle] Hey, kids, go. Enjoy yourselves.

All right, what can I get you?

[Harrison] Hey!

[Jane laughs] [Harrison laughs]

Well, I'll be damned!

How y'all doing?

- Good. - How you been, Lyle?

- No, I've been good. I've been real good.

- [Harrison] Yeah? - Leinenkugel, right?

- [Jane] When in Rome. - Line- hey, hey, hey!

Sit your asses down. I'll bring 'em right out.

Drinks are on me.

- You sure? - Okay.

- All right. - Put your money away.

- Go on. - All right, hey!

- Go on. - Hey!

[Lyle laughs]

- Like, he just seemed so old back then.

[Harrison laugh] Right, didn't he?

Well, he was probably our age.

Oh, God, don't tell me that.

[Harrison] Maybe younger.

Hope you ain't driving.

You ain't leaving here sober.

- We accept, we accept the challenge.

- Yeah. - Cheers.

Cheers!

Richie. That's my son.

Hm.

He was shy like me.

He worked at a movie theater.

[Jack] Hmm.

- He loved the movies. [chuckles]

[Jack chuckles]

Seen everything.

And we would talk before he left,

and talk when he got back.

So, um, one day

I just didn't hear from him.

So I called him.

Nothing.

But I didn't, I didn't panic.

In the morning, when I still hadn't heard from him,

I got dressed and I remember

putting a, a brown sweater on,

and thinking,

"This is what I'll be wearing."

I just had a feeling.

So I went there,

and there was a sign on the door from his neighbors.

It said, "Richie's family,

please let us know when the service is.

We'd like to be there."

I guess the police never thought to call me.

He used to ride his bike to work.

And I remember taking comfort in that

because it was safer.

[gulps] He got hit by a car on his way

and he died in the ambulance.

And that was that.

I still have his ashes.

I've tried.

I have,

but I can't.

[Kathryn sobs]

It's all I have left of him.

[Kathryn sniffles and sobs]

- We were 17, probably your best customers.

- Yeah, I figured if you were gonna drink anyway,

you might as well drink here.

Nothing was gonna happen to you on my watch.

I had my eye on you.

- Ah. - You know,

I always figured that you two would end up together.

You got kids?

Yeah. Kids and everything.

Yeah? That's great.

Here's you two all grown up with kids. [laughing]

Hey, uh, I got something for you.

I'll be right back.

- You don't think he's gonna get-

- I- I do. I, really-

- He's gonna get the little sausages?

- I'm pretty confident it's gonna be those little sausages.

No, you can't, I cannot.

- I- I- - I'm too-

- Definitely can't. - I cannot eat those.

- 20 years ago, maybe, I could stomach it,

but it's not.

[gentle bright music]

- What? - What?

Not bad, huh?

- Ah! - Come on. Come on.

I can't believe you remember.

- I remember everything. Come on now.

Look at you! Mm-hmm.

Now come on in here now.

I'm too old to be doing this, buddy.

She's too, she's too young for me. Go on ahead.

♪ So

♪ Beautiful means you

♪ Your beautiful soul

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ Shining like gold

♪ You're oh

♪ You're beautiful

♪ Your laugh's the petals on the daisy ♪

♪ Your eyes show wisdom like an old oak tree ♪

♪ And your smile

♪ And when you smile

♪ It sends all wishes to the stars above ♪

♪ Making more people wanna fall in love like the first time ♪

♪ Over and over again

♪ You're beautiful

♪ You're beautiful, baby

♪ You are full of beautiful things ♪

♪ Your beautiful souls

♪ Shine like gold

[Jack laughs]

♪ You're

[Jane laughs] [Harrison laughs]

- How many times do you think we stumbled down this path?

I could do it in my sleep.

I could do it drunk in my sleep.

That's one of the things I always remembered about us.

We were buddies, you know, like,

I mean, we were in love,

but like, you were so cool and funny,

and we just did stuff together like friends.

I never had that again.

- [bird screeching] - Hmm.

[gasps] Oh. [gentle poignant music]

I thought you said your parents sold it.

They did.

[gentle poignant music]

[bird screeching]

Wow, it looks exactly the same.

I know.

[gentle poignant music]

This will be the true test.

[doors rattle and creak] [gentle uplifting music]

[Jane laughs]

- Oh my God. - Whoa.

[Harrison laughs]

[laughs] Okay.

[gentle bright music]

[box rattles]

[Jane sighs]

[Harrison] Oh!

What, oh!

- Oh, oh, no. That cannot be okay to drink.

That's been sitting here since we were like 18 years old.

Let's try it. Oh.

- Okay. Here we go. [liquid sloshing]

- Right. - Okay.

[Harrison inhales sharply] [gentle poignant music]

[Harrison groans and coughs]

It's good. It's really good.

- [laughs] I mean, it, it weirdly tastes kind of fine.

- Hm. - No?

[groans] I don't know.

[Jane laughs]

Do you see this? Look at this box of fireworks.

Look at this.

- Oh-oh. [sighs]

Do you have a match?

[Jane chuckles]

This is going to blow your mind,

if it's not like too old and doesn't flop.

[Jane chuckles] But I have hopes.

Oh! Did it go?

No, it did not.

Come on. Come on, baby.

Come on.

No!

[Jane chuckles] No! It's a bust.

It's not gonna happen.

- [Jane] You really put your best effort in though. [laughs]

What a bummer. [groans]

You realize Lyle thinks we're married

to each other, right? [laughs]

I mean, he seemed so happy.

I just, I couldn't correct him.

- Yeah. [fireworks crackling]

- Oh! - Oh my God.

[Harrison laughs] [gentle poignant music]

[Jane] You did it.

[Harrison exclaims] [fireworks crackling]

[gentle poignant music]

So why aren't we?

Why aren't we what?

Married to each other?

Yeah, I- I can't stop asking myself.

I just wondered if you had a good answer, because I don't.

[fireworks crackling] [gentle poignant music]

[door handle clicks] [door creaks]

[door thuds]

[Alex] You slut.

- [sighs] Nothing happened. Okay?

It was a trip down memory lane.

It's 3:00 in the morning.

And nothing happened. Okay?

- I love you, J, don't mess up your life.

[footsteps tapping]

I cannot believe we're validating this weirdness.

- Yeah, well, she's weird, but she's our sister.

We can't be total shitheads.

- Are we really shitheads if we don't condone this?

I mean, she calls them her royal family.

- [Juggler] Good morrow, my ladies.

[bright upbeat music]

- Ladies and gentlemen, I, Titan of the North Wind,

come to you today as a member of the royal courts.

We gather here to crown a new queen.

And we say goodbye to our going queen Cici Kelly.

[crowd applauding] [soft gentle bright music]

And today, she passes on the crown

to our next queen, Anastasia of Excelsior.

[crowd cheering and applauding]

All right.

[crowd cheering and applauding]

- Queen Cici shall pass on her crown,

but not without the support of two fair maidens.

This thing's hot.

- Maidens Jane and Alex, please approach the royal stage!

[crowd applauding]

Can Queen Cici's sisters, Jane and Alex, approach the stage?

[crowd applauding]

Oh shit.

- What? What, what, what? - They're waiting for us.

[Alex] Oh!

[crowd applauding and cheering]

[soft gentle bright music]

[birds chirping]

Please kneel.

- I'm sorry, what's that? - [Jane] What?

Please kneel.

- Like, right- - There?

- Do we, right now. - Right, on the con-

- Okay. - On the concrete,

That is? Okay.

- Here we go. - Okay.

And bow.

Really pushing it, buddy.

Really pushing it.

It's fine. Just gonna go with it.

- Cici Kelly, Queen of the Snow, step forth.

[birds chirping]

And will our new queen, Anastasia of Excelsior,

please step forward? [crowd applauding]

This is a true honor.

I am humbled to assume the role of your queen.

And Cici, though you will just be a commoner again,

you will always be a queen in my eyes.

[crowd cheering and applauding]

- I hereby pass the honorable crown.

- Wait! [crowd exclaims]

[Crowd Member] Oh God!

- Thy kingdom has made a grave error.

She's not supposed to be queen.

- It's supposed be me. - I do, I-

- Queen Ci- - She-

Give it, give it.

- No. - Give it to me.

- Now, merry revelers, merry rev-

- Give it! - Merry revelers!

[phone chiming]

- No! No! - Give it to me!

- Hey! - Hello?

- Merry revelers, merry revelers, may we remain calm.

Oh yeah. Hey, how are you?

- Give it to me! - Remain calm!

I'm queen.

[Anastasia grunts] [fist thuds]

[crowd exclaims]

- You know what? Not a good time.

Okay, that's it.

You wanna punch somebody? You punch me.

Let's go.

- Alex, you don't need to get-

[crowd yelling] Give it a shot.

Come on, give it a shot.

Ladies, please! No, ladies!

[fist thuds] [crowd exclaiming and yelling]

- I am really sorry about that. That really got away for me.

I still really wanna punch you in the face.

And we're back.

- Ha! - All right,

a little much, a little much.

[crowd screaming and yelling]

Oh my God, what is happening?

- I said, let's go! [crowd yelling]

- [Alex] My lady. - [Cici] Thank you.

[Alex] Hmm.

- Well, I'm pretty sure that's never happened

at a crowning ceremony before.

- Yeah. Well, you guys are crazy.

I mean, you are crazy, but you!

You know, for a rich housewife, you're pretty scrappy.

- Don't mess with my sisters. I'll take you down. [chuckles]

[Cici chuckles]

- Well, we just made that whole thing

a lot more interesting.

- We can say that. - [Alex] 100%.

- Right? [laughs] - [Alex] 100%.

Cici, I gotta ask you something.

Why? Why the Ren Fair of it all?

I mean, you've always been really weird,

but this kinda tops it.

The truth?

- No, I'd like a load of bullshit, thanks.

[sighs] I was 33.

I was working in this shitty cubicle job I hated,

I was single and depressed and I just thought,

"I need a thing."

You know? "I need something that's mine."

I mean, you guys. [scoffs]

Alex, you could be getting a divorce

and getting fired and you'd still come off

like you have this perfect life.

You have your shit together more than anyone I know.

And Janie, you have Cal. You have two amazing kids.

You're living this interesting life,

pursuing exactly what you wanna do.

And I just thought, "What am I doing?"

At least with this I have people, I have respect.

You guys might think they're losers, but they love me.

You know, they gimme something to hold onto.

♪ On a sunny day [soft gentle music]

- Really thought you were gonna say

you just like the outfits.

[Cici and Jane laugh]

I do like the outfits.

- [Alex laughs] - I'm so glad

you hooked us up.

I mean, this doesn't smell like a hundred years

of body odor at all.

No. Yeah, they're great.

- [Jane] Really nice. - They're really great.

- [Cici] Look, I've always been the baby.

You two are kind of a hard act to follow.

- God, well, don't follow my act.

I'm not doing much of anything, right?

Bullshit.

- Okay, instead of working and living the dream

as an actress, I do loop group.

I am the background noise to the other people

who have actually made it.

My husband is not ready to give up his dream,

which means I have no choice but to show up

and stare my failure directly in the face,

which, um, sucks.

Cici, you have a wide open playing field.

You don't know who you're gonna marry.

You don't know what's gonna happen next.

You don't know how the movie's gonna end, right?

And I mean, sometimes it's kinda hard

to have all the questions answered.

[soft gentle music]

Wow.

This is really awkward, because my life

is pretty perfect and you guys are making me feel

really guilty about that.

- [chuckles] Okay. [Alex chuckles]

It seriously is though.

Guys line up to fall in love with you.

You're the most confident person I know.

What are you stressed about?

- Well, mm, three marriages later,

I've had four miscarriages,

10 rounds of insemination,

five rounds of in vitro,

countless shots, blood tests,

tears, two divorces, and I have officially

gi- given up.

What?

It was just, it was easier

to say that I didn't want them

than to make you feel bad

for having 'em so easily.

I'm tough. I mean, that, that's, that's what I do best.

- Wow, I've never seen you cry before. This is so weird.

- Hey! - Oh my God.

I'm so sorry.

- Yes. - No, don't they,

they won't actually fall out.

They're just gonna kinda go back in

and I'll probably pee 'em out later.

[Jane laughs] That is enough.

The emotional window is closed for business.

I'm sleeping with Titan.

Quick turn, quick turn.

- Really quick turn. - What?

- Okay. - Prince of the North Wind.

The guy I just punched?

- Mm-hmm. - [Jane] Wait, hold on.

- Isn't he your- - Brother.

- Brother. - Mm-hmm.

So that's some sick shit.

- Okay. - You know.

- Hang on. We were right at eye level-

- Oh, we were. - With, you know.

- Right in there. - You know?

- So you met him? [Jane chuckles]

- King of the North Wind is wielding a mighty sword.

- Mm-hmm. [Jane laughs]

- That's, he's got a lot going on down there.

- You know what? To the mighty sword.

- Mightiest! - Girl!

- Mightiest. [glasses clinking]

[Jane and Alex chuckle]

[staff softly chattering]

- [Man] Thank you, dear. - [Woman] You're welcome.

[Jane] Hi, Papa.

Oh, there's my girl.

How you feeling?

I feel good.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

- I, uh, I just talked to the kids.

Mac wants me to tell you that he pitched a no-hitter.

- Oh! Well, bring him with you next time, will you?

I will.

Hey, uh, you gonna be okay with Alex?

Would you be?

- [laughs] No. [Jack laughs]

Yeah, I'll be fine.

So, um, Alex tells me you saw Harrison?

God, she's got a big mouth.

[Jack scoffs] Uh, yeah, I saw Harrison.

- Mm-hmm?

And that's it.

I saw him. Yeah, he looks great, and...

[sighs] What?

- Nothing! - I-

[Kathryn] Can I interrupt?

- Huh! - I have your lunch.

- Ah, Kathryn and I are in the throes

of a chess championship match.

I was letting her win until I realized

she was just winning, whether I let her or not.

So now, I am playing to win.

[chess piece clunks] [Kathryn giggles]

Ooh, you wore purple again.

I told her purple was her color.

- [scoffs] Purple scrubs, very glamorous. [chuckles]

[Jack laughs] Cheese ravioli,

- peas and jello. - Mm!

Ugh.

Delicious.

[Kathryn laughs]

- [laughs] Thank you. - Welcome.

- Not as delicious as the brownies

she made me from scratch.

Beautiful, and bakes. What more do you want?

- Oh, Jack! [chuckles] Let me go get your meds.

[exclaims] Ah, she's, uh.

Beautiful, and bakes?

Are we, [chuckles] were you gonna tell me about this,

or just let me figure it out?

I like her. What can I say?

[both chuckle]

Eight years since Mom died,

I have never once seen you so much

as bat an eyelash at another woman.

- Mm, now you know I love your mother first,

more than anything.

- No, no. Dad, are you kidding me?

I'm ecstatic. I'm thrilled.

I don't want you to be alone, missing Mom.

I want you to be happy.

I mean, you, you deserve to be happy.

Well, beautiful nurses aside,

you gotta get me outta here.

This, this stuff is gonna be the death of me.

[chuckles] Want a taste of it.

- No, I'm good. - Come on.

I'm good, thank you.

[Jane chuckles] [Jack chuckles]

I'm telling you, he's smitten. [light upbeat music]

[Alex] I just, I don't buy it.

Well, buy it.

'Cause they're like a couple of hopped up 7th graders,

all giddy and giggling.

Well, it's pretty cute.

- Wasn't it weird though to see him with someone else?

Mm.

No.

You know? I mean, Mom's been gone for eight years.

I think he deserves somebody like her.

Well, yeah.

- No, no. No, no, I have an early flight.

- Yeah. - I can't, I can't-

- Yeah. No, you should just move here.

Everything's better when you're here.

- I mean, that's, that's an aggressive pour.

Hm!

Hey.

I'm headed home, I wanted to say goodnight.

Sit with me.

It is past your bedtime.

- I'm 75 years old. I don't have bedtime.

[laughs] Okay.

Yeah. [chuckles]

[both chuckling]

Tell me the best memory you have with Richie,

of all of 'em, tell me the best.

Hmm.

When Richie's father left,

we, um, we were tight on money.

And so, for his graduation,

I saved up as much money as I could,

and took him on a trip to California.

- Mm! - He always wanted to go.

So I rented a convertible and we started in San Francisco

and drove all the way down the coast together.

It was just beautiful. [gentle music]

The jagged cliffs overlooking the ocean,

and you feel like you could just slide off the road

and be gone forever.

I mean, it was terrifying.

It was terrifying, but exhilarating.

And I remember Richie, he was driving,

and he had this big grin

on his face.

And I remember looking up at the sky

and the sun was shining down on us,

and for the first time,

I felt like everything was gonna be okay.

Hm, we were really, truly happy

in that moment.

Mm.

Mooch over.

So, I get outta here in a few days.

And what do you say, you and I go to those cliffs?

We rent a convertible and we set Richie free.

We set you free.

I mean, you and I have seen enough sadness, haven't we?

[Jack chuckles]

[stone clattering]

- You know we're grownups now, right?

You could just go to the front door.

- With Alex guarding it? No, thank you.

[Jane scoffs]

You leave tomorrow, right?

[bird screeching]

In case another 20 years go by,

I had to say goodbye properly.

[Jane scoffs]

Come on!

Okay. [chuckles]

[gentle music]

What, are you kidnapping me?

- Well, I was thinking more of a little tailgate cocktail,

but I'm open to the kidnapping idea.

[Jane laughs]

Sit right there.

Oh, what's this?

- Mm-hmm.

[cork squeaks and pops]

She was a girl who stole my heart at 15.

More beautiful now than ever.

- Oh, please, it's like a load of bullshit,

but I will toast to it anyway.

- I'm not, I'm not finished yet. Okay?

Um, I've realized something. Okay?

I've realized

that you've had my heart all this time.

That, that I've lived my life and you live yours,

but I- I've, I've never,

I, Janie, I can't stop thinking about you.

I- I- I can't, I can't sleep at night.

I've pushed my flight back four times,

because I don't wanna go back

when I know you're here.

And I feel, I feel my heart skip a beat,

and I don't think we're old enough

to not ever feel that way again.

And look, I know that maybe you don't feel the same,

but I can see that, that you're happy around me.

That like, we're still us,

even though 20 years has flown by.

I mean, you know, the way you dance at Lyle's,

and sneak outta your sister's house,

I see you're happier and lighter.

- But we were 17- - I know.

And I don't know if you've thought about me,

but I have not stopped thinking about you.

- Harrison, we are- - Oh, I know, I know, I know.

I get it. I get it all, trust me.

But Janie, I can't shake this feeling.

We had magic

that we let slip through our fingers.

I have tried to tell myself otherwise, but I don't know,

from where I'm standing now,

I think I was absolutely crazy

to ever take one step away from you.

Harrison, I don't,

I don't know if I understand exactly

what you're even saying-

I'm saying I made a mistake.

It should have been you.

It should have been us all along.

[soft gentle music]

[phone chiming]

- Yeah? - [Alex] Where are you?

I'm standing in your room and you're not in it.

- Alex! Alex, calm down. - [Alex] It's Dad.

He collapsed in the hospital.

They don't know why. We gotta go right now.

If you wanted to get out of staying with me,

you didn't have to be so dramatic.

- [chuckles] I thought you were leaving this morning?

Don't stay because of me. I am fine!

- I'm just gonna stay another day or two.

Cal's gonna bring the kids. They wanna see you.

Oh, you think I'm dying?

- Nobody thinks you're dying, Dad,

I, if I'm gonna stay another day or two,

I wanna see the kids.

And Cal? Maybe Cal too?

And Cal.

- Yeah, Mac and I can throw the ball around a little bit.

Yeah. [Cici sobbing]

- Okay. Okay, Cici, can you pull it together?

He's gonna be fine!

- You heard the doctor! He might not be fine.

- Okay. Can we talk about this later?

- No! I'm allowed to feel my feelings.

- Dammit, Cici. - This is a time

to be open and honest with each other.

- Okay, but- - Pull it together.

- What's wrong with you? - Okay, just go easy

- on her, Alex. - Oh,

the adulterous has spoken.

Yeah, let's all go easy on the crazy one.

I'm not crazy!

Shut it, Alex.

[Alex] You know what? No.

You guys want openness and honesty?

I couldn't find Jane when the hospital called,

because Jane had snuck out my window

to go continue her little tryst with Harrison,

who I'm, I'm pretty sure she's seen more

than Dad since she's been home.

- You know what, I'm getting a little sick

of this big-sister-is-watching bullshit!

- [Cici sobbing] - [Alex] Oh my God!

And you, would you pull it together?

He's not dying! At least not today!

What is wrong with you?

I'm emotional.

- Big news flash. We all know that!

I'm pregnant. Okay?

[Jane] Oh my God.

You're pregnant?

With who? Nanook of the North?

Oh!

You start sleeping

with unemployed Renaissance Festival loser

and you're, you're pregnant?

She tells you she's pregnant

and that's what you say to her?

- [Alex] You know what, you know, no,

this makes sense, this makes sense.

'Cause neither of you has a job,

except for playing dress-up with all the other losers,

so why not?

Why not just have sex all day with the fucking weirdos?

Do you even know which one it is?

- The thing that you're doing right now?

This is what you do to everyone.

You drive everyone away with your nasty sarcasm

until once again, you're all alone.

- Wow. Wow, little Cici throwing out the big-girl insults.

Well, guess what? You win.

'Cause Lennie wants to leave me, so.

Does that make you happy?

Well, why wouldn't he?

- Fuck you. - No, fuck you.

- And fuck you for messing with the one thing

any of us has going!

[footsteps tapping]

[Jane sighs]

- Really? - Oh, yeah.

[Jane groans]

Cici! Alex!

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ When my eyes open

♪ Awash in light

♪ From another morning alive

♪ I wanna hear you laugh

♪ I wanna hear you cry

♪ Just wanna hear you use your lungs ♪

[Jane sighs]

♪ Call it God, call it happenstance ♪

♪ A second chance

♪ But I can't lose you

♪ I can't lose you

[phone chiming]

♪ I can't lose you again

[gentle upbeat music continues]

♪ Oh bless

- [Girl] I like your necklace. ♪ These heavy arms

Thanks.

♪ For they must lift this heart ♪

[vocalist humming]

You okay?

I will be.

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ When I close my eyes

♪ I can see your life

♪ Tiny ember set ablaze

♪ You're still laughing

♪ And you're still crying... [music fades]

What are you still doing here?

- Um, I wanted to see you by myself.

Ah!

[Jane sighs]

How you feeling?

Uh!

Everything okay with your sisters?

- Yeah. Same drama, different decade.

[both chuckle]

And you?

[Jane sighs]

Hmm. Harrison, huh?

Yeah.

I mean, I love Cal, you know I do.

And I love my kids more than anything.

But it's hard,

life and worrying about money and work.

And I feel tired.

Then I come back here and see Harrison

after all these years, and he said to me,

I- I seem lighter, and I do. [chuckles]

I feel young and pretty,

and like I have so much ahead of me,

and I guess I just haven't felt that way in a long time.

I mean, that sounds stupid, but it's true.

Doesn't sound stupid.

Did I ever tell you about the girl I met in Zurich?

There was a girl in Zurich?

- There was. Before your mother, of course.

I guess I was about 23.

I was on the train, minding my own business,

when this girl came on.

And this was, hands down,

the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen.

I couldn't take my eyes off her,

but of course I- I had no courage to say anything to her.

And then maybe, uh, three hours went by

and I looked at her, and sure enough,

she was looking at me.

She smiled, said hello, and we talked,

and it was magical.

And then the train slowed down in this little town

outside of Zurich, and she stood up.

It was her stop.

I wanted to go with her, but I was paralyzed.

She got off, and just as the train was pulling away,

she turned back and stared at me, smiling.

And all of a sudden I realized this could be it.

This was my chance.

So I, so I- I ran to try to get off the train,

but I, it was too late.

So I- I got off at the next town, I went right back,

but she was gone.

And I waited for hours and hours.

Never saw her again.

That is so depressing.

Wasn't depressing, my love,

because I met your mother,

[chuckles] and I fell madly in love with her.

But whenever your mother and I would have fights,

when we really had it out,

and I'd think to myself,

"I would've been so much better with her."

But that's because it wasn't real.

[gentle poignant music]

What your mother and I had, mm, it was real.

And it came with, with fights and bruises, [chuckles]

crying babies, teenagers slamming doors,

but it was real.

And it was perfect.

Hm.

[gentle poignant music]

I think everybody has that person,

that one that they,

they still wonder about,

that lives unblemished by our reality.

But they're a mirage, sweetie.

Yeah, there was this beautiful painting

of a girl in Zurich that hung in the recesses of my mind.

And then,

there was your mother,

that I hugged and, and loved,

listened to her belly laughs. [chuckles]

[gentle poignant music]

Don't,

don't trade a, a faded portrait for real love.

No, you.

[sighs] No.

[chuckles] Yeah.

Uh, what do you got? Oh.

- Uno! - Oh!

Huh, I used to be unbeatable at Uno!

I've lost my touch.

- [Nurse] Good morning, I'm so sorry, Mr. Kelly,

but we have to get you to your appointment

with Dr. Grayson pretty soon here.

- That's fine. - [Jane] Okay.

Hey, kiddos, let's go find Daddy.

He went and got you some food at the cafeteria, okay?

Okay.

- Yeah. - I love you, Papa.

Yeah. I love you.

[soft gentle poignant music]

[Jane sighs]

[gentle poignant music]

[Jane chuckles]

[Mac and Lily yelling]

Tonight?

Yep, she called to lecture me,

said I had to be nice 'cause he might come in wardrobe.

Like royal attire?

I don't know.

That baby's gonna be born into such weirdness.

Anybody want a beer? Janie?

- No, Janie's off the beer. Strictly bourbon these days.

I'd love a beer. Thanks.

[sighs] Strictly bourbon, huh?

- She's been just reliving her glory days

- since she's been here. - Okay.

- A little stroll down memory lane.

They're gonna love you.

- Heaven on Earth, I've won by wooing thee.

- What? Maybe let's tone it down just for my sisters, okay?

Maybe talk about baseball or something?

- I do not wish any companion in this world, but thee.

Current events?

- Be what I love, with thee live my life.

- Okay, we're gonna talk about the weather.

Kinda like, "Lovely weather we're having.

Oh, look, it's sunny out."

- Okay, I don't know, is that wardrobe? What's wardrobe?

- [Jane] I don't know. - [Alex] That's a tall boot.

[Jane] Okay, yeah, it is.

Hey, guys. This is...

Dan. You can just call me Dan.

- Okay. These are my sisters, Janie and Alex.

Janie's husband, Cal, and their kids, Lily and Mac.

- [Alex] All right, I'm gonna make a toast.

- Okay, Alex, maybe we let Dan get settled-

No, no, no!

Come on. Don't drink that though, 'cause, you know.

Okay, Cici, yesterday you told us some pretty big news,

and I did not react in a way that I am proud of.

You brought Dan here to meet us and we welcome him.

As strange as you two may be, you're having a baby,

and that is a miraculous wonder to be celebrated.

Dan, we don't know you, but hopefully you're somewhat normal

and have a, a real job aside

from this little dress-up hobby that you play around in.

Yeah? Okay, to Cici and Dan.

- That's about as nice as she gets, so enjoy.

I'll drink to that.

- Salud. - Salud.

- [Alex] You can just lick the salt around the edge.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

[Mac laughs]

- Come on! Get the ball, it's gonna fall.

Alex, would you happen to have a soccer net?

- [Alex] Uh-oh. Um, I don't know.

Lennie's got a bunch of crap down in whatever that thing is.

- Okay, I'll go look. - Okay.

[phone chiming and buzzing]

Hello?

[soft somber music]

[somber music continues]

[somber music continues]

[somber music continues]

[car door thuds]

[somber music continues]

[Jane sighs] [slow soft somber music]

- [Jack] "When you are old and gray

and full of sleep,

and nodding by the fire, take down this book,

and slowly read, and dream of the soft look

your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep.

How many loved your moments of glad grace,

and loved your beauty with love,

false or true.

But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,

and loved the sorrows of your changing face.

And, bending down beside the glowing bars,

murmur, a little sadly, how love fled

and paced upon the mountains overhead,

and hid his face amid a crowd of stars."

[Jane sighs] [somber music]

[book thuds]

[Jane sobs] [somber music continues]

[soft somber music]

There you are.

Been looking for you.

What are you doing in here?

[Cal sighs]

You know those car washes?

The, uh, the kind you drive your car into

and then it just pulls you through

with all the crazy brushes and everything?

[Cal] Yeah.

- The weirdest thing keeps happening to me.

The last three times

I've gone through one of those, I've cried.

[scoffs] Like, real tears streaming down my face.

You know I'm not even a crier,

and so what the hell am I doing,

crying in a car wash?

It occurred to me the last time,

as I was sitting there,

not driving, just being pulled through,

that that's how I feel.

Like we're moving, but nobody's driving the car anymore.

Being here and getting away from it all

I think I just realized,

we're getting older, the days come and go,

but we're not moving forward, we're stuck,

just being pulled along by time,

and I don't wanna just be pulled along anymore.

I've let you down.

- No, it's not-

Yeah, I've let you down.

[Jane sighs]

You know, when we met, we were young,

ready to conquer the world.

Had our sights set on some pretty big dreams.

- I feel so far away from those people.

You feel far away from me?

[soft slow somber music]

[somber music]

- [Priest] "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures.

He leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul.

He guideth me along the paths of righteousness

for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley

of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil,

for thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff,

they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me

in the presence of mine enemies.

Thou anointest my head with oil, my cup runneth over."

[guests chattering] [soft gentle bright music]

- [Cici] There's something for everybody.

And there's like Lusty Lassie's Night and Pirate Night,

but that's not really for the kids.

What it really is is like a celebration of the 16th century.

[gentle bright music] [guests chattering]

[Woman] Yeah, yeah. So.

Refill?

Sure, why not?

Hey, who is that?

That's Harrison.

Oh. That's Harrison.

So how long has he been back?

Hm,

long enough.

[soft gentle bright music] [footsteps tapping]

[Harrison] You must be Cal?

Harrison Whitaker.

So glad we could finally meet,

I've heard great things about you.

- Oh, you heard a lot of great things about me, huh?

Now was that before or after

you tried to sleep with my wife?

That's, uh, not fair.

- Wh- what's not fair? Huh?

The fact that I'm in LA with my kids

while you two play out some star-crossed lover of bullshit?

What are you doing here anyway, huh?

Trying to see what kind of post-funeral action you can get

while she's most vulnerable?

- Listen, you don't know the first thing about me or us.

Us?

What, us, like, like, like you and Janie, huh?

- Hey, Cal, Lily's looking for you.

[claps hands] Perfect timing.

There's not much more to say here.

[footsteps tapping] [soft gentle bright music]

- Oh, Cal! Cal, I wanted you to meet...

This is my dad's neighbor, Benny.

Uh, Benny, this is Cal, my husband.

- Yeah, well, how'd the two of you meet,

and what do you do in Los Angeles, Cal?

Uh, we met, uh. [laughs]

I think Janie was having a very vulnerable moment

and I, uh, swooped in.

Something she may regret now.

Oh, and I'm a writer, Benny, not a very good one at that.

Nice to meet you.

[soft gentle bright music] [footsteps tapping]

Uh.

What was that about?

[Cal] Why don't you start?

You tell me what's going on and I'll fill you in.

What does that mean?

- I'm, I'm standing at your father's funeral

and I feel like I'm watching a bad romance novel unfold.

High school lovers reunited,

making eyes at each other

while their spouses and children stand by.

- Cal, th- - You gave me

this whole analogy of a car wash and feeling stuck.

This, this, this whole monologue of bullshit.

When in fact you saw your old boyfriend

and he looks pretty good, right?

I mean, isn't that what this is really about?

And I felt awful.

Like, like, like I created this by, by, by not writing,

and not being able to let it go

and get a real fucking job,

and all that other shit I tell myself.

And then today, I see you and Harrison

and I think to myself, "Huh, wow,

we were doing pretty good before she came here,

so is this really about me or is it about him?"

- But we weren't okay. I wasn't okay.

Yes, I have seen Harrison, and you know what?

For the first time in a long time,

I don't feel like a robot on autopilot.

I feel [chuckles] alive, and-

Alive. Wow.

[Jane sighs]

Well, far be it for me

to stop you from feeling alive again.

I'm gonna, [clears throat]

I'm gonna take our kids back to LA.

And you figure out exactly what being alive means to you.

Because last I checked, we had a life.

It wasn't perfect, but it's certainly not

something I would've thrown away.

[Cal sighs] [solemn music]

[footsteps tapping]

You okay?

Mm. No.

I don't know what the hell I'm doing.

I do. I mean, I get it.

But you throw the old model out for a new one

and pretty soon they're the old model too.

You know that, right?

I joke about my shitty track record,

but the truth is, I've messed up a lot of things in my life.

And I've always admired you

for just...

Not.

You always do the right thing,

even if it's not the shiniest thing in front of you.

I know Cal's not perfect,

but trust me, they all look shiny

when you're not married to them.

And then you get in there,

and whatever it is, there's something.

I'm on my third marriage and the truth is,

the first one was probably the best,

but I couldn't see it then.

I mean, being married pretty much sucks.

I don't know why I keep trying to get it right.

[both laugh]

But I do.

It's hard. It's not sexy, it's not exciting.

I mean, shit, being a grown-up on your own is hard enough.

I think this is about you.

It's not about Cal, it's not about Harrison.

It's about you, Janie.

- How come you didn't tell us about the baby thing?

I didn't, I didn't know

how to need you guys.

I mean, I- I- I mean, I need, I need you guys.

I didn't, I didn't know how to admit it.

[soft somber music]

Lennie loves you.

You know, maybe you could stand to soften

the blows every now and again.

[somber music]

- I'm sorry, why are we talking about me?

Are you deflecting?

'Cause your life is royally screwed,

and I would love to just focus on that.

I think that's really the focal point here.

[Jane laughs]

[Jane sighs]

[soft gentle poignant music]

[paper rustling]

[book thuds]

[gentle poignant music]

[traffic whooshing]

[car engine rumbling]

[seat belt clicks]

[gentle poignant music]

[door thuds]

[car door thuds]

[footsteps tapping]

- [Harrison] This is a nice surprise.

You got my texts?

Yeah.

You see this?

Yeah. [chuckles]

This is us.

We are here in this picture.

It occurred to me tonight that every single person

I have ever loved has lived in the shadows of us.

Even me.

And tonight I realized why.

For me, you represent everything I was supposed to be.

Everything I was going to be, every dream I had.

You knew me when I believed it was all possible.

And being here with you makes me feel like that girl again.

- Well, isn't that what you want?

Isn't that how it's supposed to be?

- Yes. It's made me question everything.

You know, retrace my steps,

wondering if I did everything wrong,

but, but the truth is,

we were never real.

You know, we're like that first time you get drunk,

it's magical and euphoric,

but there's no hangover the next day,

there's no job, no diaper, no mortgages,

and, and I would not trade it for anything.

But I also wouldn't trade

the mortgages and diapers and headaches for anything.

- Janie, this sounds like a very fancy way

of saying you're settling.

No.

I have this life that's real,

that's actually pretty great.

And better yet, I have this person to do it with

who is my favorite person in the world.

And yeah, we may bug each other,

and, and disappoint each other,

but in the end, he's my person.

- Oh, that's bullshit. Janie, that's bullshit.

I'm your person.

Come on. You're still my brown-eyed girl.

[Jane chuckles]

You love that song.

Always called me your brown-eyed girl.

Even though my eyes are blue.

[gentle poignant music]

- You finally pull your head outta your ass?

- [sighs] I hate it when you're right.

- All right, well, what are we waiting for?

Let's get you to the airport.

[Jane gasps] [plane whooshing]

[gentle upbeat music]

[door clicks]

[Cal coughs]

[door thuds]

[Cal pants]

[Cal sniffles]

- [Jane] "10PM, Three of Clubs.

Be there if you know what's good for the rest of your life."

♪ I don't waste my time with these little punk boys ♪

♪ Only got time for the kings of my choice ♪

♪ I don't, I don't need to cry for you ♪

♪ To know that I'm the one

[clock ticking]

♪ What I got on, yeah

♪ I got that energy, yeah

[upbeat music]

♪ Ain't never stopping it, yeah ♪

♪ I got that energy, yeah

[bottle clinking]

♪ I know you wanna get, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ I got that energy, yeah

♪ Ain't never stopping it, yeah ♪

♪ Just got that energy, yeah

♪ I was born with it, yeah

♪ Born with it

♪ Born with it, yeah

♪ Born with it

♪ Born with it, yeah

♪ Born with it

♪ Born with it, yeah

♪ Born with it

♪ Born with it, yeah

♪ You got a problem, then get it fixed ♪

♪ Try to take what I got

Listen to me.

Maybe we're not perfect, okay?

Maybe we need to make some changes,

but one thing I do not wanna change is you and me.

I've been stuck.

Now I've been hanging on to all these ideas

of what I should have been and not waking up

to who I actually am,

and I think I actually like who I am,

and I know I like who I am with you.

I don't wanna be the background noise

to somebody else's scene.

I want our kids to see us doing something

that we love, that matters.

I don't know what I want to be when I grow up,

but I really know I wanna be standing

next to you when I do it.

[upbeat music]

♪ I know you want it, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Time ain't free like a mansion on the beach ♪

♪ Better work real hard if you wanna catch me ♪

♪ If I choose to wave hello

♪ You should feel really relieved ♪

♪ That there's something about you and me likey ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah

♪ Born with it

♪ Born with it, yeah

[dramatic music]

Hmm.

Huh? Shall we do it?

- [Jane laughs] - We shall.

♪ Go crazy

♪ I'm about to act a fool, go stupid, go dumb ♪

♪ On your mark, here I come

♪ Go crazy

♪ You can call me insane

♪ Bring out the champagne

♪ Let me show you how to run this town ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ Yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ Yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah

♪ Show you how to run this town ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ Yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ Yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah

♪ Show you how to run this town ♪

♪ Sitting in a room, brain working overtime ♪

- We're way too old for this place.

[both laugh]

You wanna go home?

Yeah.

Let's go.

♪ I'm a grouch if I don't eat

♪ Bird get the worm if you got an early... ♪

[gentle poignant music]

[gentle bright music]

[vocalists humming] [gentle poignant music]

[vocalists continue humming]

[gentle poignant music continues]

[gentle bright music]

[vocalists continue humming]

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ On a sunny day we walk

♪ And talk about you and me

♪ And what the future might bring ♪

♪ And the birds sing

♪ On a sunny day we lie

♪ In the grass and we think

♪ About the love that we shared ♪

♪ How much we cared

♪ On a sunny day

♪ In a funny way

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

♪ 'Cause on a sunny day

♪ In one million ways

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

♪ On a sunny day

♪ We ride and hide

♪ In the woods

♪ So no one can see

♪ Us hide in them trees

♪ On a sunny day we kiss

♪ And miss none of our friends

♪ And do so until the end

♪ Until the end

♪ On a sunny day

♪ In a funny way

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

♪ On a sunny day

♪ In one million ways

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

[gentle bright music]

[gentle upbeat music]

♪ On a sunny day

♪ In a funny way

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

♪ On a sunny day

♪ In one million ways

♪ I love you still

♪ And I, I always will

[bright upbeat music]

[gentle upbeat music]

[gentle bright music]

[bright music]