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Previously on The Real Housewives of
Salt Lake City... Rico!

Hit it, Rico!

At some point, I want to talk to you.
You're open to it.

You know what?

You've had two months to reach out to
me. I just want you to know I love you,

and I'm really, really sorry.

Leave me alone.

I'm hearing rumors left, right, and
center about Lisa. Yeah, Lisa's

there.

We need to get to New York for a pre
-trial meeting.

My trial is seven weeks from today.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't
scared.

Why don't we go and take a quick trip
before Jay goes to New York? And us

Arizona. Oh my God, I'm in. Let's go.

So the past keeps showing up over and
over.

Because I don't have a memory of it.

Clearing out this trauma with your early
childhood allows you to move forward.

Yes, please do.

I'm fighting for my life, not your
approval.

I am more of a free spirit without the
Holy Spirit.

I'll always have your back if you stop
dabbing me in mine.

When I take a shot, I always hit my
mark.

I may be a bad Mormon, but I'll always
be a good fan.

If I lose, you give me a three -hour
massage?

No.

I'm impressed that you're up. Like,
didn't you have your fraternity sorority

thing last night?

I did go out last night, but, you know,
I'm up and going. I didn't know that

Thursday nights were big nights.

In my defense, they weren't big nights
at BYU.

Have you talked to your counselor about
colleges or places you want to go? Not a

lot. Kind of just like briefly went over
it. We really got to get serious about

this. Do you want me to call the school?

You know he doesn't want you to do it. I
know.

That too big?

Jen?

Hi, Mom. I'm in the kitchen.

Oh, okay.

Oh, how nice. A keto -friendly
charcuterie snack board for you. I got

favorite thing for us to do.

What is that?

A puzzle.

Oh, good.

Ever since the legal situation happened,
my mom is somebody I lean on a lot.

Let's sit down over here.

The fact that I can be accused of these
things that I'm innocent of, it scares

me. I need to know that I'm going to be
okay, and she gives me that reassurance

and comfort.

This puzzles the North Shore, Hawaii.

About 1 ,000 pieces, really?

Oh, wait, look, here's three pieces I
put together.

Yay, there you go.

So I had a call with my lead trial
attorney, Priya.

It's getting, you know, it's getting
closer.

Yes. So yesterday was like a mock trial
of the prosecution side.

It was rough because you have to sit
there and not say anything.

You have to listen to all of these
things being said about you where you

be like, no, that's not true, no, that's
a lie.

Oh, okay. So I only stormed out like
twice.

Oh, that's good.

So I have to fly to New York next week.
Next week already?

Just for meetings with the legal team.

How are the boys doing with all of this,
though?

It's been hard.

Sharif told me the other day that he
walked into Omar's room and Omar was

crying.

He's like, what's wrong? And Omar said,
I just don't want to be without my mom,

dad.

I know it affects him a lot, but he just
tries to be super strong around me.

It breaks my heart knowing that Omar is
worried about me.

I know how I would feel if I was
wondering if my mom would be around

because I relied so much on her.

You know, if I didn't have a great,
loving husband and kids, Mom, I wouldn't

still be here on this earth.

I could not get up every day and listen
to Omar. All of the negative shit that

is thrown at me.

And people saying all this stuff, people
that don't know me.

They want to just tear you down until
you don't want to live anymore.

Every single day.

I get bullied every single day. And then
it's Sharif's job to come home and try

to lift me up this much so that I don't
want to.

Kill myself and just not be here.

It's too painful. Every day for a year
I've been dealing with this.

Jen, you know what? Right now, you're...
I don't know how to... Mom, I just am

telling you. I know, I know. But you
know what? I don't have answers for you

other than I need you here.

We'll get through all of this together.

And as much as it might hurt the boys
and everything else, just think what it

would be like if you weren't here.

But, Mom, that's what makes me mad.

I haven't done these things, and my
family doesn't deserve this, and you

deserve it.

You know what? That's okay. We're strong
people. We'll get through this

together.

Thanks. Yeah.

Rocky, Rocky, stay, stay.

Hello. Hi. Doing a little dog training.

I love it. Yeah, come on in. I was just
making you a charcuterie board. Oh, wow.

Oh, that looks beautiful. You made this
yourself?

Yes. Really? Yeah. Great job.

Chardonnay. Yeah, that would be great.

Fabulous. Thank you, honey.

Your job makes mom's job easy. Right.

Hi, guys.

What's going on?

I made them walk today because it's such
a nice day. Come give me a hug and then

go wash your hands.

Hi, Brooks.

Did you wash the soap? Yeah, go put your
stuff away.

Brooks needs me.

Yes, Brooks. You know that Meredith has
a son named Brooks, right?

Do you want to sit outside?

Yeah, let's sit outside. I can get you a
blanket. I think you might need a

jacket. Yeah.

In all the years that I've known
Meredith, she's never shown any interest

coming over to my house and spending
time with me.

Do you want to sit right here?

Sure. But since her recent following out
with Lisa, it seems she has time for

me.

You can wrap yourself up in that. Thank
you so much. Now I'm comfy cozy.

So what else is going on? Tell me.

It's been a little...

A little crazy, right?

Yes. I mean, I feel like I need to ask
you how you're doing.

I'm okay, you know.

Did you have fun at the party?

Yeah, I mean, it was awkward with Lisa.

You know, it's just, there's no, like,
practice what you preach with her. So,

just... hypocritical and then she's
always telling everyone else that

hypocritical and they're wrong and
they're this and they're that. She has

mouth every single one of us in our
circle.

I don't want to lose our liquor license
over somebody's wedding in their

basement with a stripper pole.

I used to hear stories I think she was
like the one that was like honor code

what?

She was meeting up with somebody other
than her family.

You said to yourself, whoa, why are you
so busy trying to put everyone else down

in this way when there were all these
rumors flying about you?

Well,

what have you heard?

Jen just made reference to there having
been affairs.

What do you know?

I just heard that she was, you know,
doing favors to help get places to come

Tequila. I have no idea if it's true or
false. It sounds absurd to me.

I know that it sounds absurd, but it's
really not because I've actually heard

the same thing.

You have heard that? Yes.

I have a friend, and it's a mutual
friend of Lisa's.

and he's very wealthy and very well
-known in Utah, and I've heard that she

slept with him to slay him to invest in
her businesses.

I don't know, but I feel bad talking
about her.

The last thing I want to do is sit and
talk about Lisa behind her back. I'm

trying to understand, like, how did we
even get here?

I don't know, but...

During my last healing session with
Megan, my energy healer, I was able to

connect to Lisa.

It's still stuck. What's coming to mind?

Actually, it's Lisa.

I always see her as like big, mean,
nasty, but I just saw her as like a

little girl. The inner child. Yeah.

Wow. When I felt her and saw her, I
realized.

that maybe there is something there that
is, like, worth fighting

for. Wow.

I hear you. I just didn't know.

At this point, in my view, like, why am
I bothering, you know?

Yeah, but hear me out.

So we have this trip coming up, and Jen,
I know that she needs us.

And I am hijacking all the bullshit.

It really is going to be about healing.

Okay, for real?

For real.

We can do this. We can come together.

Okay.

Coming up.

I used to feel like I was a safe space
for you, and I'm sorry.

You are not a safe space, Lisa.

Never mind.

Oh, are you kidding me?

Are you kidding me?

That extra foot you grew is coming in
handy.

You ready for some competition?

Uh -huh.

Ooh.

Maybe not.

Come on, try and take it away.

Ooh.

Let me see you do a little layup.

How's everything going with your SATs?

Oh!

Very mid -tier after retaking.

What are you thinking about with
college?

I don't know.

Like,

you still want to go or no?

I don't know.

You don't know?

Like, if you don't go to college, what
would you do?

I don't know. Probably end up richer
than I want to go.

So walk me through this logic.

Whoa.

So, like, walk me through your logic.

Well, I already own a company, so
that's, like, mine.

Killer company.

So if I just kill it with that, then I
can start other companies and just

successful.

Jack has always been a straight -A
student, like, always a leader in his

always involved.

And so this whole thing is, like,
surprising me. I'm like...

Why are you all of a sudden so emphatic
about not going to college?

You know, the way my dad raised me,
like, I graduated from high school when

was 17, and my dad was like, you're on
your own now, basically.

I love that you have your own business,
but you have your own business because

Daddy and I worked hard, too.

This is Fresh Wolf. It's a company me
and my brother started.

A lot of different products, like
shampoo, conditioner, pomade, hair wax,

beard oil.

I love it. Wow.

You know, without those kind of
connections, it kind of sucks.

And, like, you need to think about that.

Not many people your age have what you
have, but it's also because I went to

college, you know?

Fudge college, honestly.

There's no need for it.

I don't even know what's happening right
now.

I don't know if I push Jack to this
point because I was raised so

I'm one of six kids, and I had to be
grown up. And I think with that, I have

very high set of expectations on myself,
and I think I've naturally just

imparted those on my children.

Listen, this is supposed to be
conversational. You're taking it like

telling you my experience. Just listen.

College is where they go to build
machines, not humans.

You know, it's like, oh, my gosh, did I
create this?

Hey, take a break for a sec.

No.

Fuck. No, it just hurt my feelings.
Like, I'm trying to, like, understand

you're coming from. It seems like you're
giving attitude. Like, I know

everything. I...

Understand everything you don't. You
have me and dad supporting you. Like,

you can get to a point where you're
funding your own business all by

and I don't have to invest any money and
your dad doesn't have to invest any

money, then you can be like, I got this.
I'm amazing.

You can't do that now.

That's not how it works, Jack.

Okay. Well, I'm going inside.

Justin. Yeah.

Come here.

What's up?

I'm going to fill up your glass.

What's going on?

You okay?

No.

I just got off the phone a while.

I didn't talk to you.

What's up? Are you okay?

Uh -oh.

Babe, what's going on?

I'm sorry. I just don't know where to
start. Just tell me. What happened?

What did he say to you?

I was just trying to find something to
get together with him.

And I just told him how I've been doing
all the therapy and healing work.

And he shared with me that he was doing
EDMR.

What's EDMR?

It's like a form of, like, memory recall
based on hand -eye coordination.

Like, you know how I always, like, tell
you that I don't

remember details of my childhood?

Yeah.

Will told me that he...

There was the EDMR therapy, remember?

That I was actually abused, and I just
don't remember it.

Oh, my gosh.

A lot of my childhood I have blocked
out, and as I've been on this healing

journey, I have relied on other family
members to help fill in the

pieces. Because with much healing that I
do, there are certain things that you

cannot remove from a child's brain.

All of those memories that I've
suppressed are all flowing through me

And there's just so much pain. I'm just
feeling so much pain and so much anger.

And it just feels very overwhelming to
take this all on right now.

Well, I don't even know if I, like, am
comfortable saying it. But

when Megan came to our house,

and we staged the house, every bathroom
she went in, she

was like, there's so many demons in your
bathroom. I don't know what it is about

with you in bathrooms.

Did Will say something that gave you
some clarity on that?

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Because I'm still so scared.

I know what I remember.

Babe, I'm so sorry.

This is so f***ed up.

Like, do you still love me?

Of course I do, man.

Of course.

As much as I often question if it would
be easier to not know and unsee it and

unremember it, I don't think so. I think
that you

have to allow yourself to go through it
and acknowledge it.

And survive it.

There is a trauma hidden deep, deep
inside of me. And I

know that.

I know you were obviously able to block
out things that were hurtful to you.

And I know that's a big reason why
you're going through what you're going

through right now.

You definitely can't take that on
yourself.

I don't know what to do without you.

Will you go grab me that over there and
hand it to me?

Listen, Jen said she wanted a lingerie
party.

I do not want to let Jen down, ever.

What

are

you doing? What is that even for?

We're going to plan a little party.

It's going to be called the Garbage
Trash Whore Lingerie Party. That's the

theme? Yes.

Please don't. I'll just say GTW.

GTW.

Are

you

sure you should be going on this trip?

Yeah. I mean, it's not the best timing,
but, like, for me, what's really calling

me to Arizona is, like, me just trying
to...

heal and connect with my family and move
on from all this past trauma.

After I got the phone call from Will, I
called my other half -brother, Curtis,

and I told him I was supposed to be
coming to Arizona on a girls' trip, but

didn't know if I was strong enough to
go.

But he said, no, come, and you need to
see me and your sister.

We got you. We're going to be here for
you. We'll help you get through this.

It feels right, and it feels good to be,
like, connecting with them.

Are you ready?

How many bags do you have?

I have too many. Oh, you do?

Okay,

we got to go. We're going to miss our
flight.

Hey, are you good?

Yeah, we're good. I just have to go
backwards.

I invited Lisa to fly ahead with me
because the thought of the five of us

together right now, I think I'd have a
full -on panic attack just trying to

sure that no one got in a fight.

specifically Lisa and Meredith.

You can go in first.

Thank you, sir.

I think the other girls, their flight
gets in a little bit.

They're not too far behind us.

Do you guys know our gate?

Oh, there we go.

Are we excited?

I love Arizona in the winter.

You don't seem that enthusiastic about a
girl's trip to Arizona.

It's the red -headed stepchild of Utah.
It's just Utah, warmer, and with more

white people. If that's even humanly
possible.

I wouldn't mind Saint -Tropez or Bali or
the Maldives, something like that.

Well, I don't think Jen can leave the
country.

USA all the way!

Yes!

Utah, part two.

Oh, my gosh.

Look at the game. Oh, I like the entry.

Oh, this is so pretty.

Oh, they have costumes waiting for us.
That's amazing.

Hello. Hi.

Hi. I love it. I'm so happy to be here.

I know. Becca and Whitney.

Hi, Whitney. Hi, Lisa. So nice to meet
you. Thank you.

Oh, I would love one. Thank you.

Cheers. Yay.

Are you ready to go? Yes.

Yes.

So pretty.

Is this one of Mary's houses?

Walking into this house, I feel like
we've stepped foot into Mary Cosby's

foyer.

It's almost like Mary is still with us.

Women.

Okay. Oh, is it all by itself?

Oh, oh.

Oh, wow.

This is like Dynasty.

It literally looks like Barbie's dream
house.

Circa 1984, their house is massively
outdated.

But I do think it's a good party house.

So the rest of the house is that way.
I'm going to let you guys enjoy it.

you. This makes me kind of Miss Mary.

Coming up... I love you both, and maybe
it's at the point now where there can be

a conversation, and she can hear you.
Have you talked to her about it?

This is you and Meredith's fight.

I'm going to get my sunset on.

We need some sun.

We never get to spend one -on -one time
together. It's been nice.

Cheers, Lisa.

Oh, my gosh.

I dare you to drink from that. Drink
from it.

Here, let's cheer.

You're the good time girl.

Sorry, Heather, you've been replaced.

Well, thanks for inviting me to come in
early with you.

Yeah, thanks for coming.

I think it's been good. Like, I feel
like I'm getting to understand you

and I love that.

Well, and it helps me, too, because I
started this, like, path of healing.

I'll share with you. I, like, I don't
remember my childhood.

You've lost it out?

I've lost it out.

From age 8 to 17, it's, like, it goes
pretty deep. I

started doing this energy work, and,
like, I'm just starting to have

I'm going to be honest. It's, like,
really hard for me.

to talk about it right now.

But it's just, sorry.

It's okay.

My trauma is pretty intense for me right
now, and it's just so much to process

and so much to take in. And right now,
I'm just not feeling like it's something

I'm comfortable sharing.

When you say you black out things, like,
I don't necessarily black out things,

but I remember things where I'm like,
that was stressful for me. My sister and

were talking so much about, like,
childhood traumas my parents were little

raising little kids i'm the middle child
but i assume everything for all of my

sisters i like was the one to do like
even my little sister's hair like every

morning before school like my parents
both worked and like i got three younger

kids ready for school i've been an adult
my whole life you know when i started

college my dad was 39 he had two other
kids in college had already funded Two

missions and had three younger kids
still in school. We just knew what we

do to support our parents. Like, we just
knew.

So we started to lean on each other. And
when anything goes wrong for any of us,

we are there for each other.

And, like, I'm very close with all of my
siblings. And so for me, like, you know

when I say, like, oh, I love you like my
sister, that's a big deal to me.

Because I'm so used to having girls
around me, but not everybody loves me

same way back.

And I'm realizing that, like, for
example, like, I feel like even with

I was definitely more invested and in
love with the idea of being, like,

Meredith's best friend, like her sister.
And it wasn't what I thought it was.

I was a great friend of Meredith for 10
years.

And it was, like, my one mistake made
her feel like, you're a horrible person.

You haven't been my friend for 10 years.
And, like, that's bullshit.

That is bullshit.

I love you both, and I think that you
both share very similar feelings

on it for different reasons and
different causes. But maybe it's at the

now where there can be a conversation,
and she can hear you. Have you talked to

her about it?

Yes.

Thank you.

Zach, the snack. Thank you.

You guys, this is awesome.

Look at the view.

And how did you feel based on your
conversation? I think that this is you

Meredith's fight and battle.

I don't want to get how I feel. I feel
like that's you and Meredith.

Okay. Wow.

Whitney.

I've forgiven myself, and I can't
control what she...

If she forgives me, but I do know, like,
if there's a path for resolution, like,

I'll be on it with her if she wants
that. But she has to want that. It's not

to me at this point. But I can't wallow
in self -hatred, and I'm not going to

slip my wrist for anybody at this stage
in my life. Like, I said sorry four

times. If they can't forgive me, there's
nothing I can do about it.

Coming up.

I don't want to be put in the middle of
Meredith and Lisa's fight.

I'm trying not to smile.

What's up?

We brought you champagne and a half
-drank bottle of Fireball. I did not

drink the Fireball. This is Meredith.

I do wear glasses. I don't have them on
right now.

But I can definitely see that Meredith
does not want to talk to me, and I don't

want to push myself on her.

I miss you!

It's definitely very awkward between
Lisa and Meredith. I didn't expect them

have, like, a warm welcome with each
other, but I expect something, like at

least a hello.

It's okay. It's fine.

Do you feel like saying hi, Lisa?

No.

We looked for Kit Kats for you and
Trigger Babies. All I could find were

tamales and milk that they were out.
What do you mean they're out? Wow.

Oh, my gosh. This is in the kitchen.

This is awesome.

So I'll give you the rundown.

We have a salmon coming, and she
recommended not drinking.

Did you explain to her a little bit
about our background?

This is my third attempt of doing some
sort of healing.

For all of you, if this one doesn't
work, I'm retiring.

Who doesn't trust Jen? Raise your hand.

Okay.

Hey, we have to go.

Like, I went out of my way to put this
together, but we don't have light. We

only have sunlight.

Thank you for, like, indulging me on my
journey to Hill, and I know that Jen

needs us now more than ever.

I just wanted a girl to get away for
Jen, come together, and to spend time

just show you our love and support for
you. I wasn't expecting this.

And I really need them now more than
ever, so thank you.

It's times like these that you really
see who shows up for you.

It means a lot. Thank you, you guys.

These four women, they've shown up for
me, and I'm very, very grateful.

This is a beautiful home. I'm thrilled
to be here. I'm thrilled to be here with

all of you. I'm glad everybody came.

Thank you, Whitney.

Thank you so much.

With that, so I pre -selected the room.

I just wanted to avoid the headache and
all of the drama.

We'll just set it up as you, me,
Heather, Meredith, and Jen.

There's only two things that I need to
make sure happen.

Meredith's on one end of the house, and
Lisa's on the other end of the house.

We decided to give you the master.

Oh, my God.

Look at your shower.

You keep getting the best room every
time.

Ever since the arrest, all I know is I
keep getting the master bedroom.

Wait till you see the bathroom. We're
all going to be getting ready in here

school style.

Are you ready?

You guys, no, this is literally Barbie
dream shower.

I mean, maybe this is one area that's
working out for me.

Heather Gay, this is your room.

Your gift is there.

Can we open it? Bring it to Meredith's
room. Okay. I hate, I never get

And yours is indoor -outdoor concept. I
love it.

Can we open my gift?

Yeah, open it.

What? What is it? Be you, stay wild.

I love this.

These are so cute. Yeah, matching
pajamas with your little initials and

slippers. Look at that.

I love it.

unpack, get dressed. You can wear like a
boho chic dress, flowy dress, just

something you can sit.

Can I wear an oversized man's t -shirt
and bobby socks?

No.

The

energy

when I walked in was weird and I was
Surprised by Jen's reaction, she got

emotional when you said what the trip
was for.

Well, I mean it. I really hope that we
can all, like, stick together for her,

you know?

What is Lisa's expectation?

Was she nervous about seeing Meredith?
She's not nervous, no.

She should be nervous. Why is she not
nervous? Well, she's being really

vulnerable, and that's, I think, a good
space to start.

No, for sure.

I just feel, like, icky, because I don't
want to be put in the middle of

Meredith and...

Lisa's fight. You have Meredith who's
coming to me with rumors.

Meredith has talked to you about rumors
about Lisa?

I'm trying not to smile.

Why does that make you want to smile?
Because I can't believe that Meredith

would ever Has she not shared anything
with you?

Oh,

she fully came over to my house and
brought up rumors about Lisa having like

affairs.

She only alluded to affairs.

Multiple? Yeah, but what Meredith has
heard, out of Meredith's own mouth, that

Lisa has performed sexual favors for the
advancement of the town.

Yeah,

so that people will take it.

Stop, stop, stop. I know, I know. And
then she's like, isn't that absurd?

Who is she servicing?

Vendors?

Bartenders?

bar owner, state liquor store official.

Listen, my point now is now that I've
heard Lisa out and I feel like I've

to know her, I feel bad because I fully
participated because I've heard the same

rumors about her too.

Part of me just wanted to give her a
heads up or ask her about it. I don't

I don't know what to do. What do you do
in this position?

Need I remind you that we are on a
girl's trip for Jen.

And this is not the time to give Lisa a
heads up about horrible rumors that

Whitney may have heard.

Hell no.

Don't say a word.

I think our goal should be just to
celebrate Jen, and we'll deal with that

this.

Coming up.

Are you okay, Whitney?

meet in person you look beautiful and
with the slippers i'm really excited to

meet with the shaman because i feel like
now more than ever i need to release

this pain and this heaviness and who
better to do it with than this group of

girls who are equally as up let's heal
so you want to go ahead and start we

one more one more i want to get going
okay let's go no let's start

Meredith is late once again to one of my
healing ceremonies, but this time I'm

starting without her. And there's a
saying amongst healers in the universe,

those who need the most healing avoid
healing.

Hi honey, how are you?

Hey, good, how are you?

I'm good.

Have you seen Lisa yet?

Well, I'm in a house with four other
people, so, um, yeah.

Have you found out where all the exit
doors are?

What's on the docket?

We have a shaman coming.

I'm not sure if that's like the right
thing for me right now.

I've worked with a shaman before and it
was an incredible experience, but really

intense. And my current dynamic with
Lisa definitely plays a big part in my

hesitation to run outside.

You know, you're opening your energy,
and she's shown me that she's someone I

should be protecting my energy from.

All right, ladies.

I am so excited to be guiding you in the
ceremony tonight. I'm going to come

around and pass out the cacao elixir.

Cacao is a deep heart -opening medicine.

I thought it would taste different.

It's not hot cocoa.

It's not hot cocoa.

The flavor in my mouth.

Is it weird that I like it?

Yes. I love chocolate, so why wouldn't I
love cacao?

It's earthy. I'm boring. I've never done
a drug in my life. I've never even

smoked weed. I barely take Advil. Like,
I had my augmentation with nothing.

I, like, went and got a Diet Coke after.

So, what we're going to do is set an
intention to release.

It can be something very small. It can
be something very big.

Once we let go of that pain, we create
all the space to call in whatever we

truly want, literally our life's
desires.

We'll start with Whitney.

Go ahead and share what it is you're
releasing.

I'm letting go of past trauma, past
hurt.

And what are you calling in? I'm calling
in oneness.

We'll feel that intention for Whitney.

I am releasing shame of not making my
family proud, and I want to call

in love and understanding.

I'm releasing the fear of going to trial
in 30 days.

I'm calling in my innocence and to just
show my...

I love them every single second of every
day.

Lisa, I suck at this.

I'm releasing hurt and sadness, and I'm
calling in love, support,

and kindness.

Go ahead and close your eyes and hold
that cacao to your heart.

As the cacao starts working through our
system, we're going to go ahead and

start with the breath.

I will tell you a little bit about the
breath work.

So there can be, hello.

Hello. Welcome.

Hi.

Go ahead and have a seat.

When you arrive late, you don't get to
pick where you sit.

And now Meredith has to sit next to
Lisa.

For the lady that joined us a little bit
late, did you have something that you

want to release that you want to share
with the group?

It could be a specific person,
situation, relationship, anything.

I'm not ready to share right now.

Okay.

Okay. No problem.

All right, ladies, go ahead and use the
cushion that you're sitting on. Flip it

and go ahead and lie down.

We're all going to start the breath
together.

Good.

Remembering what it is you're releasing,
what it is you're letting go of.

You are not what happened to you.

It doesn't define you.

Let the tears come.

You don't have to hold it back.

I'm right here with you. I know it's
scary.

My eyes are closed, and I'm just seeing
the people that I love most in my life.

Coach is so strong. He's like my biggest
cheerleader, but it's hard for him.

Just like I'm sure I know it's hard for
my boys.

Omar wondering if I'm going to be at his
football games, or Reefy wondering if

I'm going to be at his white coat
ceremony in medical school.

It's just stuff we don't talk about, but
that's just the reality of the

situation right now.

You're so worthy of love, unwinding
yourself from all those stories.

They're not yours to carry.

It's okay.

Let it come up for release.

Good. What I was expecting to release
was the hurt and sadness I felt with my

friend.

Lots coming up for you over here.

What I ended up releasing was something
totally different.

It wasn't what I was expecting.

And what did you release?

Abandonment.

Big releases coming for you.

Big shifts coming for you.

You're ready to let it go. I know you
are. Feel it.

The only memory that kept coming to my
mind...

was me as a little girl.

We were in this play area, and there was
a slide, and I kept going up and down

the slide, and my dad said, last time,
we're done. We're leaving.

And I waited until they walked ahead of
me, and then I turned around and went

right back to the slide.

After about 20 times going down the
slide with these other kids, I went up

the desk and told the lady, like, hey, I
don't know where my mom and dad are.

That's the only thought that kept going
through my head, is I'm like, oh my

gosh, you didn't even notice I was gone.

Beautiful, ladies.

Really good releases.

Really good releases. Stay with it.

Give yourself this gift.

As I'm going through all of this, the
truth is I'm being brought to where I

last year.

Dealing with my father, dealing with my
nephew. I had a nephew with mental

health issues.

The treatment I received over it and the
pain.

We're building up for a big release
here, ladies, okay? So build up that

okay? Everything we've been holding in,
we're about to let it go with a big

yell. I did not pack Costco -sized box
of Kleenex because I did not anticipate

this many tears.

This is night one.

On the count of three. One, two, three.
Out with a yell.

Good.

Powerful work, everyone.

I want to go ahead and give a round of
applause to all of you for being so

brave. The whole point of this
experience with the shaman.

It's to be vulnerable and to be open and
to work through something hard. What I

got from that experience is that I'm
going to need my friends to lean on and

help me get through this. I can't do
this alone.

How are we feeling?

My body was like numb and tingly and fed
off of like I could.

feel everyone's energy and it helped
push me a little bit farther to release

more and how about you love what was
that like for you it was intense and

not my first time working with ushaman
and so i apologize to all of you for not

getting here in a timely fashion but i
had some anxiety about it to be quite

honest it stems from me not feeling very
safe

Do you feel that way, like, right now?
Like, after this whole experience, do

feel any safer?

I'm very much triggered by our last trip
and having my father's death

weaponized against me. And now I'm here
with the same group a few days after the

anniversary of losing him.

And it's a lot for me.

Well, I used to feel like I was a safe
space for you, and I'm sorry.

You are not a safe space, Lisa. I know.
I said, I said, I...

Never mind, I won't say another word.

Bye.

I'm not going to lie.

What did Lisa say to you first?

She said she used to think she was a
safe space for me, and I said you are

safe space.

I'm not going to lie.

I'm going to go grab Lisa.

I'm just going to see if I can convince
her to come back.

Meredith,

I'm here to work through things with you
and give you support for whatever you

need to, because I know how.

Painful and hurtful it is.

Hey, are you okay?

I won't walk away.

I'm like, okay, listen.

Nothing can be resolved tonight.

Just if you walk away, it breaks.

No, no, no. I just had to. I needed a
break. I know, I know. But now you're

coming back. Thank you for coming to get
me.

Right now, I know you ladies are
probably starving. So maybe at dinner

this could be a lovely...

Segway to keep these conversations
flowing.

I just think we have to get in it. You
know what I mean? I know. I'm fine. I

know. I know. I'm glad you did in that
moment because it started to turn.

Come on. They're already at dinner.
Let's go.

Oh, wow. Thank you.

This is a caprese salad.

And then we have the charcuterie board
over there. I am starving. I don't know

about you, but emotional breathing takes
a lot out of me.

Thanks for putting that together,
Whitney. That was awesome.

Thank you for participating.

You're welcome. It feels good to come
together.

What did everybody set as their thing to
release?

You want to start?

I wanted to be able to release the fear
of going to trial in a month.

The other day I had like a little bit of
a breakdown because, you know, I get

new information, right, from the
attorneys saying, oh, there's a new

I got in the car. It was like 3 in the
morning, and I drove down to my dad's

grave. Aw.

So coach is like, hello, where are you?
And then I blocked him.

He did nothing wrong, but, you know, I
was just having a moment.

Every time the phone rings, I don't know
what I'm going to hear on the other end

of the phone.

What is the new accusation? What is the
new motion that needs to be filed?

I am on edge 100 % of the time.

I think we all kind of thought at Coach
Da's party how much love and support.

That felt really good to me as your
friend to see, you know, the family show

celebrate Sharif, celebrate you.

Are you okay, Whitney?

I've been on this healing journey for...

Honestly, probably a year now.

My childhood has blocked from, like, 9
to 17.

And as I'm doing all this work, like,
memories are coming up, and it's been

really hard.

I was in a very abusive situation, but
I, like, stuffed it so deep that I

blocked all memory of it.

You? Yeah. You're brave, Whitney. Yep.

Next time on The Real Housewives of Salt
Lake City.

All aboard the Jetsaw Express!

Are we supposed to clap or just like
respect? I think you should clap.

Are you just going to move on with Lisa?
I'm not willing to open myself up to

somebody who's just going to stab me in
the heart. Stop being a condescending

superior bitch.

I have talked with Meredith about rumors
about you.

Does this feel good?

Like hurt me more.

I didn't know. I didn't know.

Told you everything, Heather.

We were at the jazz game with Andy.

And she goes, that's who Lisa sleeps
with for the jazz tickets.

Wait, well, guess what? I didn't hear
that.

You are lying right now. Thank you for
calling me a liar.