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I had a car accident.
Lost a lot of my memory.

I want my daughter's heart back!

-I'd better give them a call.
-Best ask for Michael Hamda.

-UNOS agreed to send the heart.
-Does the board know what you just did?

You put our accreditation
at risk.

It doesn't matter how drawn I
am to you. This can't happen again.

I'm not looking
for anything serious.

The only thing you care
about is Danny.

He's gone and that's still
all that matters.

I keep flashing
on that damn snow globe.

Memory seizures?
I've read about that.

Your father filed
an HR complaint against Dr. Larsen

and a week later, he was gone.

Talking won't change anything.

Perhaps not, but...

your silence
won't either, will it?

You have cancer. You could die.

What do you want from me?

I'm just trying
to get through the day.

Ah. Stoicism.

A highly overrated virtue.

Vulnerability.

Now that's a lovely
kind of courage.

Besides, you can't
expect your wife

to carry all the pain
for the both of you.

I see the strength in you.

But there's also something else.

I'm scared.

Surgery's scary. Cancer more so.

I don't know how to do this.

You don't have to do it alone.

Hey. I'm here.

-Hey.
-You back there again?

Yeah?

Anything new
on your mystery man?

No. It's the right place,
but, yeah.

Nothing new
on the man in the crowd.

Well, it may not even
be about him.

What do you mean?

Katie called this morning.

She knows you've been
going there every day.

She also knows why that
snow globe is so triggering.

Okay, uh,
do you wanna tell me why?

She doesn't wanna talk about it.

But she's worried

and doesn't want you to keep
going there, chasing your tail.

Okay, why would she lie
to me about it?

And why is she
communicating through you?

You've been pretty distracted
since all this came up.

I think she's afraid
you're slipping into old patterns.

Well, I'm not.

And I will deal
with her directly.

Well, I guess I better...

get home.

Another night like this
and I'll be the one sleepwalking.

Well, we can help you with that.

Actually, there's a band
I'd like to check out tonight.

I can change my flight again.

Zero pressure, doc.

Yeah, yeah. Sure.
Why not? Sounds like fun.

Hi, Hannah. How are you?

Fine, thanks.

Everything okay?

Daughter drama.

She's a teenager.

It's a bit more than that.

Okay, interns.

Dr. Heller is on
a later call today,

and Dr. Ridley's out
at a medical conference,

so I've been assigned
to wrangle you.

I want to review
all of your patient exams.

Flag every abnormal lab.
And impeccable charting today.

Looking great today.

All right, all right.

All right, all right,
all right, I appreciate it.

I should get shot more often.

I thought you weren't
back till next week. Hi.

No way I'm sitting
on the sidelines

while Dr. Ridley plays
Hunger Games with my career.

-Man of the hour.
-Please don't.

Let's get to it.

We have a Code Orange
arriving momentarily.

The inmate
has a possible poisoning.

He's a convicted felon
with a violent history.

Armed robbery,
aggravated assault, gang affiliations.

He'll be treated and guarded
in the lockdown room.

No one enters without clearing
security protocols

with his corrections officers.

I'll take him.

My folks are both cops.
I know how to deal with these guys.

Take it easy, now.

Don't just stand there!
Come on! Help me!

Lockdown room for you then.

Are you short of breath?

At my age,
I'm short on a lotta things.

My boxing days are long gone.

Take a breath.

You're not moving much air.

How long have you had this rash?

A few months.

Pressure's up.
Got any pain in your chest?

Here and there.

If I'm being honest,
I'd say more here lately.

I am afraid you have
advanced vasculitis.

I was hoping the tears of blood
were a sign from God.

It's your immune system
attacking your blood vessels.

I'll start steroids to calm it,

but I want to be
honest with you.

Every organ in your body
is under fire.

It's hard to cure and...

the treatment will feel
worse than the disease.

If this is God's path for me,
I guess...

I'll have to see where it leads.

Well, I'll be leading you today.

He's fully restrained,

so if you need to unshackle him
for any part of your exam,

I'll come in.

I'm also watching from out here.

Any concerns at all,
just give me a signal.

Is he dangerous?

He likes to fight in the yard,

but never attacked
any CO or civilian.

He was poisoned, though,

so someone's unhappy
about something he did.

You're good to go.

Hi, Malcolm. I'm Dr. Coleman.

Did the oral Lidocaine
help with your pain?

Yeah. Pain's gone.

It's been like that
for how long?

Two hours.

And it ain't the only end
it's coming out of.

Mind if I examine you?

Go ahead, man. I don't bite.

Open up.

Hmm. Any idea
what they gave you?

Nah. Somebody must've
spiked my breakfast.

You looked away from your tray?

Hey, man, they got all kinds
of tricks on the inside.

Last year, a guy got killed
with crushed asthma inhaler powder.

Two weeks into his stretch.

I need to know what's going on
inside your stomach.

Means a camera down
your throat to take a look.

But first,
I need to check your back end.

You can't just take my word for it?
-Afraid not.

So? How's it going so far?

Uh, waiting for
the other shoe to drop.

Well, Dr. Ridley's email said
to give you a wide berth today,

so I think that's her way of
saying you're a serious contender.

Oh. What do you think?

Uh, doesn't matter what I think.

What matters is why
you want the responsibility.

Well, I...

I have interns to corral.

Can you give Chaplain O'Leary
a gram of methylprednisolone?

He's in for a hard fight.

I would not have gotten
through my divorce without him.

Talked me
out of first-degree murder. Twice.

He was one of the first people
to visit me after my accident.

Morning.

Heard you admitted Eamon.
That's a shame.

It is.

-Something wrong?
-Obviously, you can do what you want,

but the sister of a patient?

It's pretty public. Pretty fast.

-Amy, listen...
-Don't bother.

I'm a grown-up.

I can't access an organ
and I can't list my patient.

It's not just you.
It's the entire hospital.

UNOS has suspended
our transplant program.

Okay, well, that can't
be a coincidence.

We lied to them during
the hostage crisis.

I heard this morning, Michael.

We have a formal review with the
organ oversight committee today at 6:00.

I thought we were in the clear.
-Apparently not.

You have
any transplants scheduled?

Dr. Heller has one to list,

and so far,

three other potential candidates

looking to be ready
by the end of the week.

Well, I set a board meeting
for this afternoon.

We can formalize our response
before the review.

Be prepared with a narrative.

-What do we do now?
-You don't do anything.

You'll be called as a witness
since you handled the organ.

You say you were
following my orders.

They're gonna make you
the fall guy for this.

I guess we'll see.

You spoke beautifully.

I don't even know what I said.

That he was a happy child
and deeply loved.

Look,

I know you've never
been to our chapel,

but when you get back to work,
if you need a quiet place,

somewhere to think,

find hope, reach out,

it's there.

So am I.

Thank you.

It means a lot to us
that everyone was here.

Are you stalking me?

No, but we need to talk.

Not about this. Not today.

I don't even know what this is!

Sorry, I gotta get to class.

Katie. No. This is
obviously upsetting you,

and pushing it down
is only going to make it worse.

You'll come to
the hospital after school

and we will work it through.

Fine.

What up, sis?

Charlie, be serious!
I work here!

You're the one
blowin' up my phone

after I haven't heard
from you in months.

It took you four days to get back
to me, and now you show up here?

It's about Dad.

He didn't resign. He was fired.

I'm sorry. Come again?

This doctor I work with
used to be his chief.

She was a nightmare to work for.

Dad even complained
about her to HR.

Remember how squirrelly he was
when he stepped down?

It was because he didn't want
to admit he was forced out.

For standing up to her.

We need to find out
exactly what happened.

Do you think you could
get into Dad's old emails?

Oh, I tried after he died.

His personal one
didn't have jack about this.

I couldn't get into
his hospital one either

'cause they shut that down too.

What about that friend
of yours? Z?

Hospitals got, like,
firewalls on top of firewalls.

You need to get
into her computer.

How would I do that?

Any side effects from the meds?

Seems I've been getting
my money's worth.

The Lord only gives us
what we can handle.

Right.

I'm sorry. That was insensitive.

Old habit from an old preacher.

Spouting aphorisms
to my imaginary flock.

You've done
a lot more than that.

You've helped a lot of people
over a lot of years.

Wish I could've helped you
during your dark days.

I'm sure you tried.

Indeed, I did.

By all accounts,
I was impenetrable.

Must be like purgatory
for you now.

Missing that part
of your life's journey.

You could say that.

Your oxygen level is dropping.

You're bleeding into your lungs.

That doesn't sound good.

I was hoping the steroids
would be enough,

but I'm gonna start you
on an immunosuppressant.

And it is gonna be more
dangerous for your body.

I have faith in you, as always.

Malcolm's tox screens
came back negative,

and biopsy shows
liquefactive necrosis

from hydrochloric acid exposure.

Dr. Franco said it's
probably toilet bowl cleaner.

So someone did try to kill him.

She said the taste
is too strong.

No way to slip it into
somebody's drink without them noticing.

-So he did this to himself?
-Looks like.

-We have to tell the CO.
-Well, hold on.

We haven't even
talked to the man.

He lied to us.

I know, but even prisoners have
a limited right to confidentiality,

especially around mental health.

Unless they pose a clear
and present danger.

We don't know that yet.

He could be trying
to escape, TJ...

He's not Houdini.
He's chained to the bed.

I'm glad you're so confident.

Any other patient,
we'd call for a psych consult.

Fine, let's call Dr. Walker.

Well, I am not putting her
in a room with him

until I talk to him myself.

I'm coming with you.

Malcolm, this is
my supervising resident, Dr. Maitra.

Nice to meet you.

You want to tell us why
you drank toilet bowl cleaner?

Like you give a damn.

If you're afraid of what
you might do to yourself,

or if you're doing this
to get away from someone on the inside,

we can talk to the warden about
protective custody, therapy.

Therapy?

I live in crazy 24-7.

Malcolm, we've done
what we can medically.

You are ready to go back
unless there's some reason to keep you.

Oh, y'all just can't wait
to get rid of me, huh?

This is a waste of time.

Have a nice trip back
to Stillwater.

Wait, wait.

I was trying to get here.

To Westside.

Why?

My mom. She's got cancer,

but she's down in Oncology
and it don't look too good.

So, what, you think we're
gonna organize a meeting for you?

My mom's got a lotta reasons
to be mad at me.

I only know she's here
from my cousin.

I just want a chance
to make things right before she dies.

If you're lying to us,
I'll report all of this to your warden.

I'm not lying.

You were right.

It is quiet here.

It's pretty quiet up there, too.

The Lord is a good listener.

Not much of a conversationalist.

Neither am I, apparently.

My daughter. I-I know she...

she wants more from me,
and I just...

I don't know what to say.

I didn't see her at the funeral.

She didn't go.

My husband wasn't happy
about it,

but I wasn't...
I wasn't gonna force her.

I didn't even want to go.

It's just...

To see my son like that.

You can visit his grave
with her.

Tomorrow, next week,
a year from now.

Whenever you're ready.

I don't think
I'll ever be ready to go back there.

Oh, did you get
out of school early?

No, I have a free period
after lunch.

I just wanna get this over with.

Well, that's not
how I wanted to do this.

But, here, let's sit.

Okay.

Here goes. Um...

I lost my brother
and I needed you.

But you were so caught up,
you couldn't be there for me.

And then you moved out.

I wanted my family back.

I wanted my brother back.

And then you gave me
a snow globe at Christmas

and you expected me
to be excited about it.

And? We fought?

I fought you.

Okay, um, so, you found this
five days ago.

You said it was just
at the bottom of a closet

and before that you told me you
had no idea what I was talking about.

So it seems like...

Are you avoiding something?

No, Mom, don't overthink! I...

I'm done blaming you. I just...
I don't wanna go back there.

That's all it is.

And I have to go to school.
So, just let it go.

Please.

No, I won't let it go.

We'll talk more about it later.

I'd like you to be home
when I get home from work.

Linda has stage 4
pancreatic cancer.

She's near the end.

A few hours now,
maybe a day at most.

Can we speak with her?

We have her pretty sedated
most of the time.

Why?

Her son is here
and he really wants to see her.

-Son?
-He's been in prison.

But he's upstairs now.

He's a patient too.

I know it's a big ask,

but can you hold off
on Linda's next morphine dose?

Just for a little while,
while we talk to her?

This is her last chance
to see him.

Your kidneys are shutting down.

It's a toxic reaction
to the medication.

So what's next?

I'm still weighing our options.

Uh, one is too hard
on your liver.

The other one
puts your heart at risk.

And now you doubt yourself.

We all have doubts.

It won't scare me
if you admit it.

I'm not quite the doctor
that I was before the accident.

That must be difficult
to accept.

Well, there's nothing
to do about it

except keep charging forward.

Medicine is a science,

but it's also an art.

-Who told you that?
-You did.

Many years ago.

The artist is still inside you.

Something will come.

Well, it better

because I'm not
giving up on you.

Mrs. Ellison?

Mrs. Ellison?

Can you hear me?

I'm Dr. Coleman.
This is Dr. Maitra.

Can we speak with you?

Your son is here.

Can't be. He's locked up.

He poisoned himself
to get out of prison.

So he could see you.

He knows you're angry.

He just wants a chance
to apologize.

Apologize?

If there's a chance
we could arrange it,

-would you talk to him?
-No.

I'm done with him.

Miss Ellison, he went through a lot...
-I said no.

Tell him the last thing
I want in this world

is to see his face
right before I die.

That's enough.
This was a mistake.

-You're right. We'll go.
-Miss Ellison...

We're sorry we upset you, Linda.

You were gonna keep pushing her?

He's my patient.

You have no idea
what he did to her.

And when a woman says no,
it means no.

Right.

I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking
about it like that.

It's fine.

I can't tell Malcolm
what she just said.

You think he came here
looking for lies?

He came here looking for peace.

Maybe that's
what we should give him.

Dr. Maitra,
the chaplain's spiraling.

Pulmonary hemorrhage,
acute renal failure,

systemic inflammation.

You added cyclophosphamide?

He wasn't responding
to the steroids.

It's an acceptable escalation.

And aggressive and risky,
as you can see.

Hey. You're not going
in there without me.

I have to check the telemetry,
I'll find you in a few.

Authoritative.

Dr. Ridley put me
in charge of you today.

I'm responsible
for these patients

and I want to know your plan
before it happens.

-Naturally.
-So, what do you want to do next?

Therapeutic plasma exchange.

That's incredibly invasive.

Line complications,
bleeding, infection.

Well, if you have
a better idea, I'm all ears.

Okay. Try it,
but watch his numbers.

I'll write the order.

And prepare him for the worst.

You don't need to tell me that.

Why haven't you discharged
Mr. Pitney?

Um, I was about to...

You were supposed to do it
after his last dressing change.

Julie said you didn't show?

I'm sorry, I was tied up
with our post-op consults.

No excuse. Get it done!

-You're still here?
-Writing up the discharge.

The man's been waiting
four hours.

Go and explain to him
what is taking so long!

Sorry. Going now.

Heavy is the head, huh?

Being in a position of
leadership always has its challenges,

but in this case, I trusted
Dr. Larsen's hypothesis

that Rosie Cruz had an abscess,

which would make
the transplant viable.

Why is Dr. Walker
being dragged into this?

Because she was next to you
in the command post

when all these decisions
were made.

Thank you for coming,
Dr. Walker.

We'll get to you in a moment.

So, Dr. Hamda, you informed
the transplant network

you had a test
confirming the abscess.

We all know I stuck my neck out.

But three of my people
were being held with guns to their heads,

and the abscess
was ultimately confirmed

when Dr. Larsen drained it
in the ICU.

You also lied to the Eastside
donor unit in writing!

We did what we had to do.

We know that that's
what you think, Dr. Heller.

As I understand it, you were
the courier for the heart

and part of the fabrication
at Eastside.

I was in charge.
He was following my orders.

Dr. Heller, is it true
that you and Dr. Larsen

have been in
a consensual relationship?

At that time, no.

But that must've influenced
your decision to deceive Eastside.

Dr. Walker, based on
your professional opinion,

would you say Dr. Hamda's
judgment was compromised?

In my professional opinion,

I think it's pretty easy to Monday
morning quarterback three weeks later.

But what would you all
have done if you were there?

I'd like to think we would've
been more forthright

and trusting of our partners.

The point is,
none of us were informed

until all of the key decisions
were made.

If this is an exercise in CYA,

then maybe you ought
to be thanking Dr. Hamda

for keeping you out of it.

I'm not denying anything
that occurred that day,

so I don't know why Dr. Heller
and Dr. Walker are even here.

Especially since it's clear
you've already made your decision.

We hoped you would have
given us some ammunition to fight this.

We could smooth things over
with Eastside,

but UNOS wants
their pound of flesh

and you're leaving us
with our hands tied, Michael.

Well...

our patients need organs.

So, if throwing me under the bus

will secure our accreditation,

obviously, you need to do what's
in the best interest of the hospital.

We appreciate that.

Okay, this is a witch hunt.

You should all
be ashamed of yourselves.

You'll have my letter of
resignation by the end of the day.

I was happy to get your page.

It's been a few weeks
since we spoke.

Not for me. I have a patient
that needs spiritual counsel.

-Of course.
-Room 617.

I've missed our conversations.

I'm always here for you,
you know?

Well, when I want to talk about how
the death of my son is God's divine plan,

I'll come find you.

Ventricular tachycardia.
He's in heart failure.

It's myocarditis.
Get a stat echo.

He needs amiodarone.

Hold on, Eamon.

Eamon, I've stabilized you.

It was your heart this time.

Seems like I'm living
the Book of Job.

I don't know how much more
of this your body can take.

We spoke to your mother.

-Really?
-Yeah.

Can I get in to see her?

I'm sorry, but she's too sick
to see anyone.

And, honestly,
with your restrictions,

I'm not even sure we could pull that off.
-What'd she say then?

We told her what you had to do
to get yourself here,

and she really appreciated that.

-Yeah?
-It was hard for her to talk,

but she wanted me to tell you
that she knows you love her

and she loves you, too.

I know when
I'm being lied to, doc.

No. She wanted you both
to let go of what happened in the past.

You didn't even
talk to her, did you?

We did talk to her.
We pulled her out of a peaceful rest,

to give her more pain,

to upset her
in her final moments of her life,

to advocate for you.

-What'd she really say?
-She didn't want to see you.

Which really makes me want
to ask, what did you do to her?

That's none of your business.

You asked us to get you in a room with her.
-Dr. Maitra.

Look, we're done here,
all right? Get out!

Was that really necessary?

He's not ready to be helped,

and why are you
so invested in him?

I don't know. Some people, you can
just feel the world working against them.

I know, but he lied
to get himself here

and, worse,
he's lying to himself. Can't you see that?

I mean, your parents are cops.

Yeah. And they always told me
everyone is someone's child.

Find me when his final hemoglobin's
in and we'll discharge him.

He doesn't deserve
to lose his job.

He stuck his neck out
way further than I did.

That was his decision.

What?

When I went to Eastside
that day, to get the heart,

the nurse saw the wound
on my face,

and she... she knew
something was off.

And she went to call the transplant
department to confirm my story

and I told her
to ask for Michael.

It forced him
to lie to Eastside in writing.

Oh, I didn't know that.

Yeah, so half of this is on me.

Nothing you can do
about that now.

Did you ever read about
Our Lady of Akita?

It's a statue of Mary
in Akita, Japan.

Wooden.

And on over 100 occasions,

it was seen to be crying

what people thought
were tears of blood.

Hmm.

The belief was she was
taking on our collective suffering.

Whose suffering
are you taking on?

Maybe yours.

Oh, I hope not.

Perhaps that's why
God put us together today.

So I could heal you, instead of
the other way around.

I was put on this earth
to help people.

If I'm dying, you may
be the last chance I have

to fulfill my life's purpose.

And if there's one thing I know,

it's when people are trying
to hide their pain.

It's my daughter.

I failed her...

in the years after
Danny's death.

We used to speak about this
quite often.

And I wonder,
without your memory,

that you're missing
what you need to help her now.

I'm sure that much is true.

She didn't go
to Danny's funeral.

-Did you know that?
-What?

She was afraid,

and you were
trying to protect her.

But those rituals
exist for a reason.

Katie never had the chance
to mourn her brother that way.

And I don't think you knew
how to grieve either.

It's still so hard
to think about him.

Because I don't wanna
make it real.

Grief can be a lifelong process.

Which means it's never too late.

I've been praying for you.

Save it for someone else.

Eamon's latest labs are back.

Auto-antibodies are zero.
PLEX worked.

So the organ damage
was too advanced,

which is why
he's still getting worse.

Or when PLEX filtered out
the harmful antibodies,

it also removed some of
the protective immunoglobulins.

I-I'm not following.

The bad antibodies
were attacking his organs,

but the body
also had healing factors

that were trying
to fix the damage.

PLEX removed both.

So we just have to give him
back what he needs.

-How?
-IV immunoglobulin therapy.

It's a Hail Mary,

though I'm sure he's a big fan.

Okay, well, if it doesn't work,
you'll kill him.

It will work.

Okay.

Right hand.

Time to go.

Your labs are normal.

The prison infirmary
can take it from here.

Malcolm, I'm very sorry.

We just found out
your mother passed away.

She didn't suffer.

She wasn't in pain. She just...

fell asleep and didn't wake up.

It's true.

We just spoke to her doctor,

and she was at peace in the end.

When I was 17, I started
running with the local set.

You know,
it was just petty stuff at first,

but before you know it,

you're in the life.

But I never
brought that home with me.

Because of my mom

and my little sister, Nahla.

She was a smart kid.

Kind,

one of the best laughs
you ever heard.

One night, I took her
to her favorite pizza spot.

And on our way home...

somebody tried to take me out.

They killed her instead.

After that, I was lost.

I just went down
a path of darkness

and I just kept doing wrong,
you know, until...

Well, you know where I ended up.

It should've been me
that died that night.

And I live with that every day.

I just wanted my mom
to know that.

I'm sorry all that
happened to you.

And I don't know
what you believe,

but maybe there's a chance

your mother and sister
are looking down on you.

You still have a life
ahead of you.

In prison, and at some point,
in the world.

So, how do you want to spend it?

You wanna keep
punishing yourself,

or whoever else,
for your mistakes?

Or do you want to be
the kind of person

your mom could be proud of?

Who your sister
could look up to?

For what it's worth,
the guy I met today,

who went through all this stuff

to make things
right for his mother,

he's already on the path
he needs to be.

You just got to believe that.

All right, Malcolm.
Let's get you back. Okay?

Yeah, boss.

Eamon!

We did it. You turned a corner.

You'll be back in the chapel
in no time.

Good.

'Cause I wasn't ready
to meet Him yet.

No. I think we need you
around here a little bit longer.

Eamon said you worked a miracle.

He would.

So, I got something important
I got to tell you.

There's a lung path report
in there

for the UNOS meeting today.

They're coming after Michael.

Want him to resign.

This is going on Rosie's chart
to protect him.

You faked a test?

I just wanted to tell you
in case anyone asks.

But what if they ask why
you didn't mention it earlier?

I got hit in the head, remember?

Oh, come on, Jake.

Look, I was part of
the deception that day.

Something I did
put Michael in a bad spot.

I'm not gonna let him
take the hit for that.

Paperwork's in order.

Just make sure to CC the warden.

That tough love you gave Malcolm

was exactly what he needed.

He got the truth.

Well, maybe
the truth'll set him free.

You're a great doctor, TJ.

And you have genuine compassion.

If it wasn't for that,

we wouldn't have
gotten where we did with Malcolm today.

But every resident
needs to learn

that one of the most important
parts of our job

is navigating hard truths
with our patients.

Telling them things
they need to hear

even if they might
hate us for it.

Thank you for your help today.

Chief.

You're welcome.

Go rest that leg. Please? Okay.

Before you go in there,

this is the results
from Rosie's lung biopsy.

Turns out, it came in
right before you made that call to UNOS.

I guess in the chaos of
that day, it just got misfiled.

Well, this definitely
helps our cause.

Let's repeat the renal panel.

Anything changes
with her kidney function,

I need to know sooner than later.
-Will do.

Dr. Heller. A word?

Uh, yeah.

That was kind of an ambush.

Waiting for us
outside the conference room.

Well, I didn't wanna give you a
chance to argue with me about it.

Well, you shouldn't have
done it, but I appreciate it.

You can list your patient.
We got our privileges back.

Cleared us
on the organ misallocation

and issued a letter of warning
over the lie to Eastside.

It's not a slap on the wrist,

but if we're fully compliant
moving forward, we'll be fine.

I'm glad it worked out.

That was a pretty big risk
you took. For me.

You ever watch war movies?

Never leave a man behind.

Plus, I'm just not in the mood for
any more changes in leadership.

Oh, my God.

Hey! So, how'd your day go?

Up and down,
but I think I survived.

Harder than it looks, isn't it?

Well, if you have some advice,
I'll take it.

There's no right way to lead.

Everybody's got their own style.

Just bring
your personality to it.

Well, I think I'm still
searching for my style.

Just do what you think's right.
Do it with conviction.

The chips fall where they fall.

I think that'll fit for me.

Okay, well, I am running late.

-Uh, for Mia?
-No.

No. Actually, uh, I have a date.

-Oh, wow!
-Yeah.

Hey. You're getting back on that horse.
-Yeah, I'm trying.

Uh, well, have fun.

Yeah, you, uh,
you have a good night.

I know I wasn't there for you
when your brother died,

but I am gonna be there
for you now.

Even when you say
you don't need it.

You can't undo what was done.

No one can.

When I think about
the mistakes that I made during that time,

it seems to me that

it was all because I was afraid

to face my pain.

And if you learned
that from me...

then that's something that
we're gonna work on together.

I said something to you.

Something awful.

Well, you're already forgiven.

But you probably
should still tell me.

Get it off your chest.

I said, all you cared about
was Danny.

In a pretty cruel way.

You were angry,

you were a kid.

And I probably had it coming.

You need to forgive yourself.

Have you ever been
to the cemetery?

Once.

But not until his 11th birthday.

With Dad.

I should've made you
go to the funeral.

It was wrong to let you hide
just because I wanted to.

Would you go with me now?

I'm starting to figure it here.

Everything okay?

Yeah, um, sorry, it's work.
I'm on call.

Oh. You have to go.

Yeah.

Um, I'll be a while.

But, listen, this was a lot of fun...
-It was.

Goodbye, Jake.

Yeah.

Have a safe flight.