Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: {1322}{1399}There's some things|I never told you about Maria. {1401}{1476}Save the details till|after the honeymoon, homeboy. {1556}{1604}She has some problems. {2234}{2306}Daddy, I think there's a snap undone.|Would you take a look? {2339}{2401}I don't think so, honey.|Are you sure? {2509}{2555}I'm not feeling very well. {2557}{2633}Of course you don't. You're getting|married. Get used to it. {2729}{2834}- Here we go.|- She's a bit compulsive. {2858}{2930}Maybe I should say|compulsive and neurotic. {2932}{2985}Yeah, I know. She's Maria. {3010}{3055}She sleeps with a flyswatter. {3057}{3139}Hell, if I looked like Maria,|I'd sleep with a bazooka. {3171}{3218}So you guys got some issues. {3219}{3278}It's called modern romance. {3627}{3701}If you need it, there's an ice chest|under your mother's seat. {3750}{3830}I'm okay. I feel better now. {4213}{4261}Careful of your dress, dear. {4304}{4437}She, uh... She cleans the house|twice a day on her day off. {4439}{4486}Yeah, well, at least she works. {4487}{4537}We get to go to all those|great magazine parties. {4538}{4645}Hey, remember Claudia from|the "Elle" party? Oh, man. {4647}{4697}She's always locking|the bathroom door. {4764}{4829}She gets suicidal|from time to time. {4831}{4899}All women get suicidal|from time to time. {5040}{5085}God, I love her. {5383}{5434}So how long have you|known all of this? {5470}{5565}They just sort of creep up|on you, you know? One by one. {5566}{5659}- And before you know it...|- I say, don't panic. {5661}{5714}It's probably just a phase. {5716}{5778}Yeah. {5780}{5826}Yeah. {5827}{5874}Here she is. {6023}{6114}- You guys are awfully late.|- We're supposed to be late. {6116}{6189}- Mom, you got my train?|- I got it, dear. {6217}{6313}- Come on, Dottie.|- I still think that dress is too tight. {6349}{6450}I require and charge you both as you|will answer on the Day ofJudgment... {6452}{6549}when the secrets of all hearts|will be disclosed... {6551}{6617}that if either of you know|any impediment... {6618}{6713}why you may not be lawfully|joined together in matrimony... {6715}{6763}do now confess it. {6829}{6875}{y:i}How much do you love me? {6877}{6932}Oh, a thousand. {6934}{7007}Only a thousand?|That's not very much. {7009}{7119}I can even count to a thousand.|One, two, three, four... {7121}{7178}Okay, a hundred thousand|million billion. {7212}{7321}That's better.|We're gonna be late for Alfred. {7322}{7410}Yeah, but I love the reason.|Besides, myJuliet... {7412}{7482}wilt thou leave me|so unsatisfied? {7571}{7711}How much satisfaction|can'st thou get in 11 minutes? {7737}{7785}I'll be nicer in therapy. {7980}{8044}How about the issues|we were discussing last time? {8046}{8105}Things are still the same. {8107}{8202}He's not nice to my friends|or my parents. {8203}{8308}He's cheap. He flirts,|and he has a terrible temper. {8332}{8397}But I'm a loving,|tolerant woman, so... {8437}{8485}Oh, that feels so good. {8681}{8743}She keeps bugging me to build|another room on to the house. {8767}{8833}- We don't have any money, so...|- It would, of course... {8834}{8901}put his car out in the driveway|for a couple of months. {8903}{8951}Okay, okay. {8977}{9044}Yes. Yeah. {9046}{9140}Oh, right there.|Right there. Yes. {9142}{9233}Maria, why is this new addition|to the house so important to you? {9234}{9291}Because I wanna have a baby. {9402}{9450}Go deeper. {9475}{9558}With all this talk about a baby,|how's the sex? {9610}{9661}You go first. {9663}{9712}- You want me to?|- Sure. Why not? {9792}{9840}Okay. {9969}{10017}I have a confession to make. {10182}{10225}I fake my orgasms. {10227}{10315}Oh! Oh! Oh! {10346}{10421}- You what?|- I didn't wanna tell you. {10450}{10497}I didn't want to hurt you. {10550}{10601}You're telling me|you've never had an orgasm? {10694}{10741}Not with you. {10818}{10881}Joseph, it's important|you appreciate the risk... {10883}{10940}Maria's taking in|communicating this to you. {11456}{11504}Do you think|I'm a lousy lover? {11532}{11578}Hmm? {11886}{11933}I love you, you know. {12019}{12054}Whoa! {12055}{12103}Tell the balcony crew|those doors are in. {12105}{12174}Yo, Nick, you must have|fucked up big. {12175}{12229}We is humbled by youse|royal presence, Sir Suits. {12231}{12260}Relax, Carlos. {12262}{12361}Yo, Nick, I go out on a limb to get|you this job, like I always do... {12363}{12446}I wouldn't work without you,|Joseph, my white patron saint. {12448}{12509}Well, thank you, Nick,|but the problem is... {12511}{12576}we're about four months behind|after two months on the job. {12578}{12653}You geniuses made the schedule.|I just took the job. {12655}{12688}Hey, Nick, what's this? {12690}{12749}Oh, yeah, go ahead, Tanner.|Take a look. {12751}{12829}- Yeah?|- It's a little discovery of Carlos's. {12831}{12958}- Every hour on the hour.|- Holy shit! Oh, man! {12960}{13005}This is unbelievable.|You gotta check this out. {13006}{13066}- This is unbelievable.|- Must be the redhead. {13116}{13203}Oh, man. Mm-hmm! {13238}{13287}Ooh! {13289}{13337}You guys are perverts. {13338}{13443}Are you kiddin'? This guy's|a national treasure. One of a kind. {13445}{13497}- Holy shit!|- What do you mean? {13499}{13566}This guy has anywhere from four to|six women a day, one after the other. {13568}{13641}And word has it he pleases|every one of'em. {13643}{13752}- Joseph, take a look.|- No, I can see just fine. {13790}{13841}Oh, my God!|Here comes another one. {13927}{14003}I don't believe it. They just|passed each other and said hi. {14005}{14073}They said hi to each other. {14074}{14126}- Oh, Jesus.|- Tanner. {14128}{14174}- Yeah?|- Let's check out the site. {14176}{14245}All right, Joseph, I am. I am. {14280}{14344}- It's gotta be an implant.|- An implant? {14346}{14393}Yeah, an implant, you know.|A lot of guys got 'em. {14394}{14440}It comes with a pump. {14442}{14497}You just pump it up,|and it just stays there... {14498}{14545}you know,|whenever you need it. {14546}{14613}- Sounds like a good idea.|- Yeah, I gotta talk to that guy. {14614}{14686}That redhead was to die for.|Oh, man, I wanna die. {14722}{14782}- Tanner?|- Yeah? {14783}{14830}Does Vicky have orgasms? {14832}{14895}- What?|- You know, does she... {14897}{14985}Does she come when you're|doin' it, or does she fake it? {14986}{15081}What? No!|Of course she has orgasms. {15082}{15130}I mean, man, she goes crazy. {15131}{15222}How do you know?|I mean, she could be fakin' it. {15224}{15288}You can tell. I mean,|they quiver all over. {15290}{15357}Believe me, they quiver all over|even when they're fakin' it. {15449}{15497}Shut the fuck up, would ya? {15632}{15680}Come on, Freddie,|you little bugger. {15704}{15750}Would you help me|with my tie, sweetheart? {15752}{15800}Out, baby. Get out. {15824}{15865}Maria, we're gonna be late. {15867}{15949}Freddie listened to me.|He just flew out the window. {15950}{15997}How do you know it's a he? {15998}{16051}Because it bugs me, darling,|so it must be a he. {16146}{16213}How do I look?|Do I have lipstick on my tooth? {16214}{16261}Honey, every time|we come see your parents... {16262}{16318}you obsess|over the way you look. {16320}{16390}Is my dress, okay? Do I need|to pull it down or anything? {16392}{16456}You look fine.|Did you hear me? {16491}{16546}Joseph, your tie is a mess. {16666}{16726}Well, hello.|And how are the newlyweds? {16728}{16778}- Hi, Dottie.|- We've been married seven months. {16780}{16853}Yes, dear. Come on in. {16880}{16928}Your father's|in the living room. {17049}{17105}- Joseph, what are we...|- Surprise! {17349}{17419}I'd say she's excited.|What would you say, hmm? {17421}{17514}On a scale of one to ten,|about a four. {17516}{17564}Oh, my God! {17598}{17650}- Martini time.|- Yeah. {17652}{17745}How are you?|Oh, my gosh! Look at you! {18162}{18209}Why is it when we go to parties... {18210}{18261}I always have to track you down|with a homing device? {18373}{18437}If you loved me, you'd get in|that British fantasy of yours... {18439}{18487}and drive me to Vegas. {18565}{18700}Okay, let's play|"If you love me," shall we? {18751}{18807}- Go on. You start.|- Okay. {18838}{18922}If you loved me, you'd take me|to Paris on our second honeymoon. {19010}{19120}If you loved me, you wouldn't miss|your appointments with Alfred. {19122}{19181}You'd buy us a house|in Briarwood... {19182}{19289}with a big pool|and a little froufrou dog. {19339}{19461}And you would stop|rearranging my closets. {19507}{19557}A baby girl... {19558}{19607}and an air-conditioned garage... {19609}{19698}for my 1974 Ferrari|Daytona convertible. {19735}{19840}- I love you, Maria.|- Shut up. It's still my turn. {19842}{19910}It can always be|your turn, sweetheart. {19911}{19980}- Oh, baby, is that so?|- Mm-hmm. {20117}{20174}It's your turn now. {20175}{20228}Honey, that's enough. {20230}{20289}Oh, we'll both know|when it's enough, darling. {20401}{20461}Joseph, even though|I can't have an orgasm... {20532}{20584}I still enjoy|making love to you. {20872}{20921}Sometimes I wonder|if he loves me. {21053}{21145}I feel he always avoids me.|He never returns my calls. {21146}{21206}His secretary, Connie,|is always apologizing for him. {21207}{21254}That's not true. {21255}{21338}- You're distorting things again.|- Just let me finish, okay? {21439}{21486}Connie is embarrassed|every time I call... {21487}{21534}because he won't|pick up the phone. {21535}{21591}She practically admits|you're avoiding me. {21593}{21637}She calls seven|or eight times a day. {21639}{21699}- Seven or eight?|- Yes, you do! And you embarrass me... {21701}{21761}in front of my secretary|and my associates. {21786}{21832}Connie doesn't know|how to handle her because... {21834}{21883}half the time you call,|you're hysterical. {21885}{21948}I just need to connect with you|during the day, okay? {21950}{22010}Just once or twice.|Is that too much to ask? {22012}{22103}Just listen to her, Joseph.|Just listen to what she's saying. {22128}{22165}You gotta be kidding me. {22167}{22211}Why are you so afraid|of being close? {22213}{22273}Why in the hell are you|always focusing on me? {22301}{22354}I'm just tryin' to do|my job, for Christ's sakes... {22356}{22445}and all we ever do in here is|talk about her problems with me. {22446}{22521}What I do, what I don't do,|who I am or who I'm not... {22522}{22586}that she has an issue with. {22857}{22915}I just... I can't handle it|when he gets so angry. {23078}{23131}Joseph,|what is it you want? {23184}{23232}I want a good marriage... {23296}{23344}a supportive wife. {23426}{23474}And I wanna work|all these things out... {23475}{23522}so that we can have the baby|that she wants so much. {23523}{23581}Joseph, Maria's doing so much|better the past few months. {23582}{23633}She's standing up for herself.|It's wonderful. {23634}{23676}I know. {23678}{23752}But she's still very fragile|with you at this point. {23754}{23807}This kind of confrontation|can't work. {23962}{24010}You're right. I know. {24044}{24119}It's just that I feel like I have|to stay on top of the situation... {24121}{24164}or it'll fall apart. {24209}{24258}She'll fall apart. {24543}{24601}Hello? Tanner! {24602}{24693}No. No, I'll meet you|at the site. {28274}{28357}You got a sick patient here,|Alfred. I suggest we talk in private. {28422}{28476}Come here, Alfred.|I have a few questions for you. {28478}{28558}Joseph, what's going on here now?|You're scaring me. {28560}{28606}That's good,|'cause you know what? {28608}{28673}I'm not totally in control|of myself right now. {28674}{28726}Sit down, Alfred. {28989}{29042}What does the name|"Baltazar" mean to you? {29174}{29225}You're gonna tell me everything... {29227}{29290}and you're gonna start|with this doctor. {29292}{29346}Do you know him?|Did you refer her to him? {29348}{29418}No, no.|I don't know him. {29419}{29510}All I know is, he's a sex therapist|that practices on the edge of the law. {29512}{29621}They tried to shut him down,|but nobody will testify against him. {29622}{29671}Can you tell me|why she does this? {29673}{29745}Forget the bullshit psycho-babble.|I need to understand! {29862}{29972}All I can tell you, Joseph, is that|Maria exhibits most of the symptoms... {29974}{30043}of what is called|a borderline personality. {30076}{30153}By that I mean|she has no real identity. {30154}{30267}She has to look outside of herself|for assurance, comfort, love. {30337}{30387}She can find|no sustenance within. {30535}{30622}- Shouldn't I have been told this?|- Oh, come on, Joseph. {30624}{30713}You've witnessed this for years.|I mean, her heightened personality... {30715}{30774}her need for control|at any cost... {30775}{30837}the fly obsession,|the phone calls. {30901}{30957}Joseph, you lived it. {30958}{31007}You're the expert. {31254}{31315}{y:i}Most borderlines|{y:i}are incurable, Joseph. {31359}{31423}{y:i}They need to be|{y:i}totally reparented. {31741}{31797}One of our construction sites|is on Hinton Street. {32010}{32057}I know about Baltazar. {32106}{32170}It's not what you think. {32172}{32230}Oh, really?|What is it then? {32268}{32330}Do you come with Baltazar?|Is that why you go? {32332}{32382}- To learn how to come?|- It's not about that. {32384}{32432}Then what is it about? {32469}{32566}You know what? You're a lie!|Our whole marriage is a lie. {32568}{32638}- Fuck you.|- You wanna tell me why? {32663}{32712}I don't feel very close|to you right now. {32714}{32783}You don't feel very close|to me right now? {32785}{32834}You're paying some guy|to fuck you... {32836}{32909}and you don't feel|very close to me right now? {32911}{32981}- I'm your husband, for Christ's sakes...|- I don't care who you are. {33665}{33712}The door is open. {34276}{34324}Come in. Sit down. {34666}{34741}- Listen...|- Ah, you must beJoseph. {34742}{34848}I've been expecting you.|Maria's husband. {34850}{34897}She's a very special woman. {34974}{35056}Look, I don't know who you are|or what you think you do... {35058}{35138}but I need you to do me a kind favor|and stay away from my wife. {35172}{35242}- She's not a well woman.|- I agree. {35243}{35294}That's why she came to see me. {35346}{35429}Someone would have to be very|disturbed to come here seeking health. {35496}{35549}You don't understand,|my friend. {35610}{35660}You understand this, Dr. Fuck! {35701}{35770}You stay away|from my wife, okay? {35772}{35827}I know what goes on in here,|'cause I was here. {35829}{35918}And it wasn't love or therapy.|It wasn't even sex! {35920}{35968}It was sadistic abuse. {36063}{36146}I hope I've made myself clear.|It's over. Now. {36515}{36563}Cup of tea? {36736}{36789}I'm a therapist, Joseph. {36790}{36841}There's a reason|for everything I do. {36905}{36973}Acting out her abuse fantasy|is what enables Maria... {36974}{37049}to get past the guilt|and anxiety of being intimate. {37114}{37227}If we don't express these fantasies,|they run our lives insidiously. {37229}{37341}When she stops asking for abuse,|her need for it will be gone. {37474}{37556}This is insane.|It's insane. {37558}{37618}I'm sitting here having tea with|the doctor who's fucking my wife... {37620}{37673}and trying to convince me|that it's good for her. {37675}{37781}Don't you get it, man?|She needs medical help. {37782}{37899}Maria's been in traditional therapy|for seven years. Three therapists. {37901}{37966}Which therapy do you think|will work at this point? {38154}{38224}Do you know what|a borderline personality is? {38226}{38301}They told you there was no cure,|and they were right. {38303}{38383}There is no|psychoanalytic cure. {38385}{38510}The mind...|cannot change the mind. {38512}{38567}Real change|is not a mental process. {38674}{38765}Let me guess.|You think sex... {38767}{38862}your sex, in particular...|will heal Maria, is that it? {38863}{38937}Yes and no. I hold|no dominion over my teachings. {38939}{38986}I only know they work. {38988}{39098}But, yes, conscious sex|that achieves bliss... {39100}{39160}is the greatest healer there is. {39199}{39252}So the way to heal the woman|is to fuck her? {39254}{39384}No. Conscious sex, physically|and emotionally integrated... {39386}{39448}is one way to heal|a human being. {39450}{39497}Ecstasy heals the unconscious. {39536}{39587}A woman can heal|a man as well. {39589}{39648}Well, I hope you|don't mind, Doctor... {39650}{39709}but I'm gonna try some|other approaches at this point. {39710}{39757}I know you love Maria, Joseph. {39758}{39819}I'm not here|to take that away from you. {39889}{39939}Just don't make me|take this any further. {40026}{40073}I am not the enemy. {40140}{40188}I don't know what you are. {44723}{44795}Oh, hi, sweetheart.|I'm almost done with the kitchen. {44876}{44955}- What are you doin'?|- What does it look like I'm doing? {44982}{45076}The entire house|is infested with bugs. {45078}{45165}First I spray with the Raid|to kill any eggs, and then I seal. {45189}{45285}Maria, we discussed the fact that|flies do not lay eggs in the house. {45287}{45350}Ants, Joseph. Ants! {45352}{45413}The wastebasket was full|of them this morning. {45531}{45579}Maria, we've gotta talk. {45581}{45675}Okay. Just let me|finish the kitchen first. {45699}{45754}And if you wanna help, you can|start cleaning the bathroom. {45756}{45804}Just go through|your drawers, okay? {46280}{46335}Hi. {46337}{46389}What time is it? {46450}{46537}It's 5:45 a.m. You busy? {46538}{46618}No. No. Of course not. {46651}{46699}Well, I guess|we'll have some breakfast. {46876}{46924}Maria's gettin' worse. {46979}{47029}I'm sure she's very frightened. {47110}{47161}Therapy isn't working. {47297}{47349}I want you to teach me|what you do. {47400}{47447}You want to learn from me? {47449}{47496}I wanna learn|how to heal my wife. {47532}{47580}That's not possible. {47718}{47803}You fascinate me.|First you want to destroy me. {47805}{47857}Now you want|to become my acolyte. {47964}{48029}Do you play|a musical instrument? {48058}{48094}No. {48227}{48329}Do you think you have the ability|to put aside your rage and listen? {48331}{48393}Look, the rage is gone, okay? {48394}{48469}The only thing that's important|to me now is helping Maria. {48516}{48562}If I agree to help you... {48564}{48651}you must understand|it means precisely that. {48653}{48766}I'm helping you.|Maria has her own path. {48792}{48841}I understand. {48842}{48943}- I'm not sure you do.|- And you have to promise me... {48945}{49001}that you'll never see Maria again. {49002}{49098}Ah! Is that what you're|really doing here, Joseph? {49100}{49183}- Preventing me seeing your wife?|- Do we have a deal or not? {49247}{49295}I doubt the rage is gone. {49297}{49389}But we can put it to good use. {49390}{49454}And I agree with you. {49456}{49504}As I teach you|the ways of love... {49528}{49603}it would not be|my place to see Maria. {49708}{49777}I saw you at the symphony|the other night. {49779}{49842}- I followed you there.|- I'm the substitute. {49844}{49935}I'd like to play more, but I don't|have the time to devote myself. {49964}{50010}So, we have a deal. {50012}{50111}You can choose to leave at any time,|and I may ask you to leave. {50113}{50245}But the work and our relationship|must remain strictly confidential. {50574}{50621}Do you really|love Maria that much? {50789}{50836}Too bad for you. {50886}{50980}{y:i}Okay, describe to me how|{y:i}you make love to a woman. {51032}{51127}And tell me, in detail,|when and how you make love. {51192}{51228}Well... {51280}{51352}one of us starts|kissing the other one... {51354}{51401}usually at night|before we go to bed. {51491}{51584}- Then I kiss her breasts for a while.|- How? {51586}{51622}How? {51788}{51828}I kiss. {51865}{51900}I suck... {51958}{51994}twirl my tongue. {52073}{52125}How does it feel? {52126}{52167}Aroused. {52238}{52285}Like I want her. {52312}{52396}Then... kiss her tummy|for a while. {52486}{52555}Turn her over sometimes|and kiss her bottom. {52584}{52661}- I like to do that.|- How does she feel? {52762}{52799}I don't know. {53029}{53151}Then I usually kiss her|down there for a while. {53153}{53190}Down there? {53192}{53235}You mean, her vagina? {53271}{53309}Yeah? {53311}{53411}- Go on.|- And... {53442}{53548}Sometimes, I use my fingers. {53550}{53619}I... So I can hold her while we... {53673}{53710}You know. {53919}{53993}Then I get inside her... {54025}{54071}and we make love... {54113}{54160}like normal, I guess. {54185}{54228}Anything else? {54312}{54356}Sometimes she cries. {54514}{54599}Does Maria|ever have an orgasm? {54625}{54668}No, I guess not. {54670}{54752}- Not with me anyway.|- Not with anyone, Joseph. {54754}{54809}Maria is frigid. {54853}{54929}- Do you make love to yourself?|- Hmm? {54930}{55057}- Do you masturbate?|- No. No. Not... {55058}{55113}Rarely when I'm in a relationship. {55115}{55181}Well, we'll have to change that. {55182}{55229}How can you make love|to someone else... {55230}{55287}if you can't make love|to yourself? {55414}{55491}So, Joseph, what are you|doing to help Maria? {55493}{55564}Well, I do what I can, you know.|I try to make her go to therapy... {55566}{55621}Only do what I say. {55622}{55714}I don't want you to make love|to her until I say otherwise. {55716}{55818}I want you to hold her|and talk to her in bed... {55820}{55879}about intimate things... {55881}{55936}the most intimate feelings|you're having. {55964}{56065}When you sleep, spoon her. {56066}{56114}{y:i}Right side to the bed. {56142}{56221}{y:i}We call this|{y:i}the nurturing position. {57550}{57625}Come on in, Joseph.|Go into the room on your left... {57627}{57686}and take off all your clothes|except your shorts. {59241}{59288}Naw, forget it. {59457}{59504}Come and stand over here. {59529}{59626}I want you to look in the mirror|and tell me what you see. {59628}{59690}Tell me about your body. {59692}{59742}You're jokin', right? {59760}{59855}Okay then.|Is this as far as we go? {60054}{60103}I guess I'm a bit too thin. {60173}{60220}My legs are|definitely too skinny. {60315}{60378}I don't know.|It's fine. Why? {60380}{60464}Well, you stand as if|you don't like your body. {60466}{60513}I like your body. {60515}{60563}It's lean... {60565}{60601}strong. {60657}{60719}Capable hands,|well-defined feet. {60754}{60789}Of course, you could|change it if you wanted... {60790}{60850}but it's better to change|how you feel about it. {60919}{60973}Anyone that doesn't|totally accept their body... {60975}{61023}can never experience ecstasy... {61056}{61139}can never enable another|to experience it. {61177}{61235}What do you think|about your penis? {61343}{61391}Well, to be honest, I like it. {61393}{61457}It's... large and powerful. {61459}{61526}Good. I want you|to feel that way. {61528}{61582}I'm sure it's true. {61584}{61632}Later on, I can|give you some exercises... {61634}{61693}to further increase its size. {61695}{61743}Good for you.|Good for Maria. {61772}{61855}Now, every night|before you go to sleep... {61885}{61943}{y:i}I want you to practice|{y:i}what I call... {61945}{62001}"the bliss" carezza." {62069}{62132}{y:i}Barely touching Maria... {62134}{62229}{y:i}tenderly stroke her body|{y:i}from head to toe with your hand. {62328}{62378}{y:i}We are sensitizing her body... {62435}{62497}{y:i}awakening her ecstatic responses. {62575}{62648}{y:i}Then, her hand on you. {62774}{62823}{y:i}Imagine life energy... {62825}{62882}{y:i}flowing through her hands. {63038}{63085}{y:i}Feel the electricity. {63562}{63612}{y:i}I promised Joseph|{y:i}I wouldn't come here. {63698}{63745}I don't want to hurt him... {63768}{63804}or us. {63909}{63944}It's just... {63982}{64030}Sometimes, I get scared. {64274}{64322}Would you like to dance? {64428}{64489}I always wanted to be|a ballroom dancer... {64491}{64581}you know, the kind|that dons a tux every night and... {64583}{64631}dances the world. {65525}{65572}Did you enjoy the dance? {65618}{65665}Yes. {65667}{65720}As did I. {65722}{65769}Very much. {65786}{65842}And if you enjoy the dance, Maria... {65899}{65969}Then the dance is enough. {66023}{66059}I promise. {66112}{66172}Have a cigar.|They're very mild. {66174}{66222}- Oh, no. No, thank you.|- Have one anyway. {66608}{66671}Most men fear|women's power, Joseph. {66708}{66808}A sexually conscious woman|is as powerful as any being on the planet. {66846}{66908}We are entering a new era. {66910}{66973}It will be the resurgence|of the divine feminine spirit. {67006}{67053}We must honor that spirit... {67055}{67112}in ourselves... {67114}{67161}and in others. {67210}{67265}You have to suck on it|once in a while. {67266}{67314}Otherwise, it goes out. {67663}{67743}The goal of sex|is not orgasm, Joseph... {67745}{67792}but ecstasy. {67831}{67912}Maria's satisfaction|will give you ecstasy. {67914}{67949}Nothing else. {68002}{68077}There are nine levels...|movements, I call them... {68079}{68130}to a woman's orgasm. {68132}{68233}Now, most lovers|only achieve level four... {68235}{68293}the ultimate release... {68295}{68345}but it's just the threshold. {68347}{68412}Between movements five and nine... {68414}{68465}is where true healing occurs. {68501}{68560}To reach these movements... {68562}{68637}you must practice with diligence|the exercises I give you. {68639}{68687}One of their purposes... {68689}{68776}is to make orgasm|and ejaculation a voluntary act. {68778}{68825}I thought|they were the same thing. {68827}{68875}Most people do. {68877}{68955}In truth, both orgasm and ejaculation|are governed... {68957}{69033}by different|neurological mechanisms. {69084}{69161}You must learn to separate|and control each at will. {69210}{69258}What do you mean? {69260}{69323}The only way to really satisfy|a woman and yourself... {69325}{69386}is to have control... {69388}{69461}complete control|over your ejaculation. {69525}{69596}Then you are no longer|led around by your penis. {69647}{69719}This has far-reaching implications|in all areas of life... {69721}{69768}don't you think? {69881}{69976}Well, sir, are you saying that|I'm never supposed to come? {69978}{70025}When you choose. {70042}{70107}That way, you don't|dissipate your life force. {70109}{70177}Don't you feel tired|after you've made love? {70238}{70301}I will teach you|how to "injaculate..." {70336}{70422}so you can have many orgasms|without losing your power. {70450}{70523}Yes, I will teach you and Maria... {70525}{70592}a greater pleasure|than you imagine possible. {70631}{70687}Go on. Let's see how you do. {71185}{71240}I can go a lot further. {71242}{71324}I just got|some lungs in my water. {71435}{71535}Okay, using your left hand,|close your left nostril... {71537}{71620}and breathe in through your right nostril|to a count of seven. {71646}{71701}Then close both nostrils... {71703}{71768}and hold for a count of 14. {71770}{71817}Open the left nostril... {71819}{71885}and breathe out|through a count of seven. {71886}{71943}Close the right nostril... {71945}{72017}and hold for a count of 14. {72019}{72080}Keeping the left nostril open... {72082}{72152}breathe in to a count of seven. {72154}{72201}Close both nostrils... {72222}{72307}Two, three, four, five. {72356}{72404}Why would anybody|wanna do this? {72519}{72573}Okay, Joseph,|I'm ready to come down. {72651}{72699}Joseph, come on. {72815}{72863}No sex without condoms. {72865}{72912}No booze, no drugs. {72914}{72962}Now you tell me|I can't even come? {73009}{73056}I know.|It's depressing, isn't it? {73058}{73094}Boy! {73256}{73292}- Hey.|- Hey. {73294}{73341}I just have to run an errand.|I'll be right back. {73343}{73391}- Okay.|- Done your exercises? {73418}{73484}Well, I tried, but... {73486}{73533}I don't know.|I just can't do it. {73535}{73611}I can't just think of myself.|I need to fantasize. {73642}{73725}Go to the white room, Joseph.|Try again. {73727}{73793}Concentrate|on your own sexual power. {73794}{73842}Don't throw it away on fantasy. {73886}{73957}You don't want me|to take you through them, do you? {75184}{75232}{y:i}Maria remains a mystery. {75262}{75359}{y:i}It's hard for me to determine the roots|{y:i}ofher sexual dysfunction... {75361}{75437}{y:i}or the extent|{y:i}ofher childhood trauma. {75438}{75516}{y:i}There have, to date,|{y:i}been no repressed-memory flashes... {75518}{75567}{y:i}or nightmares... {75569}{75669}{y:i}yet she lives in a constant state|{y:i}of suppressed paranoia. {75736}{75801}{y:i}Maria is oddly protective|{y:i}ofJoseph. {75835}{75891}{y:i}He seems to be a good person... {75893}{75948}{y:i}captured by Maria's|{y:i}intense passion... {75950}{76044}{y:i}which often springs forth|{y:i}to surprise me at any moment... {76046}{76127}{y:i}captured by her beauty|{y:i}and seductive charms... {76129}{76215}{y:i}and, most likely, captured|{y:i}by his own need... {76217}{76313}{y:i}to suck love from those who are|{y:i}too wounded to give it freely. {76402}{76450}{y:i}I know this man. {76820}{76851}Finally. {76853}{76945}{y:i}Hera:|{y:i}Trials of the Goddess Obscura. {76947}{77021}First published in 1908. {77023}{77079}It's been out of print|since 1932. {77107}{77166}You have yet|to let me down, Eva. {77199}{77277}I find the combination|of charm and intelligence... {77307}{77371}a rare union these days. {77534}{77591}{y:i}Maria will take time. {77593}{77681}{y:i}She is in the darkness|{y:i}before self-realization. {77683}{77731}{y:i}She needs to feel free... {77733}{77805}{y:i}to express herself in ways|{y:i}she cannot with her husband. {77807}{77855}{y:i}She needs to be released|{y:i}from the burdens... {77857}{77906}{y:i}ofher shame and self-hatred. {77935}{77983}I will try. {78182}{78237}How are the exercises going? {78302}{78338}Fine. {78365}{78412}Everything's going fine. {78414}{78463}I want you to do them|three times a day. {78485}{78532}Draw the energy|up to the heart chakra... {78534}{78602}and then progress to the third eye,|as we discussed. {78636}{78694}I work all day. {78722}{78769}Then I suggest you close your door. {78820}{78868}Can you explain it to me? {78894}{78988}Well, Joseph, you know,|the construction supervisor... {78990}{79084}is talking about chakras,|reads books about Hinduism. {79086}{79143}MyJoseph|is talking about chakras. {79145}{79196}I think thatJoseph's discovery|that his relationship with you... {79197}{79265}is not what he thought it was|has had a profound effect on him. {79267}{79350}It's like... he has this inner life|that I... {79443}{79479}What? {79510}{79558}Nothing. {79560}{79617}I just had a bizarre thought. {79721}{79774}Anyway... {79776}{79833}last night, we just... {79835}{79919}sat in bed and talked... {79921}{79968}sort of. {79988}{80029}Tell me. {80030}{80081}I can't. I can't. {80189}{80224}Okay. {80301}{80349}He sat me down|in front of a mirror... {80351}{80401}and he asked me|to masturbate for him. {80442}{80508}He wanted me to show him|step-by-step... {80510}{80557}how I like to be touched. {80594}{80641}He wanted to know|how to please me. {80692}{80740}How did that feel? {80742}{80803}I wouldn't do it at first.|I was too embarrassed. {80847}{80895}Then he did it. {80941}{81050}I learned so much about him|by watching him... {81105}{81152}how he touched himself. {81222}{81269}Then I did it. {81329}{81389}Do you feel you got closer|to an orgasm? {81407}{81491}Oh, God, no!|I was far too self-conscious. {81493}{81540}But this is good. {81617}{81670}Before we end, though, Maria,|I would like to encourage you... {81672}{81720}to return to therapy|with a greater commitment. {81722}{81770}I don't know. {81822}{81887}I worry too much|when I see you. {81889}{81981}- I try to control my thoughts.|- We are what we think, Maria. {81982}{82062}Life is learning to come to terms|with our thoughts. {82064}{82136}The terms of my thoughts|are unreasonable, Alfred. {82191}{82243}It's just as well|I leave them alone. {82287}{82290}Start by using|your ring finger. {82290}{82373}Start by using|your ring finger. {82374}{82449}Slip it in gently|and curl it... {82451}{82546}so your fingertip is touching|the ceiling of the yoni. {82548}{82597}Go as deep as you can. {82599}{82662}Then slide your finger down|until you feel it. {82726}{82806}- How will I know?|- Most likely, she'll tell you. {82808}{82856}She'll feel it if you don't. {82897}{82955}When you find the sacred spot... {82957}{83010}never break eye contact|with Maria. {83138}{83186}Does it hurt? {83210}{83281}- It's just sensitive.|- Is it too much? {83357}{83404}It feels raw... {83435}{83483}almost like it's burning. {83586}{83657}The first few times|the sacred spot is touched... {83690}{83738}it can be frightening. {83740}{83793}She may experience pain. {83795}{83857}I'm scared, Joseph. {83859}{83895}It's okay. {83897}{83952}Just keep stroking. {83953}{84021}The sensation will change. {84187}{84250}Stay with me, okay? {84252}{84321}- I love you.|- I love you too. {84551}{84642}Stay with her for only|30 seconds or so... {84644}{84697}and then slowly withdraw... {84699}{84762}but hold her very closely. {84784}{84882}You are assuming the role of healer|in this act, Joseph. {84911}{84984}All Maria's abuse|and psychic hurts... {84986}{85037}reside in this sacred spot. {85061}{85108}It will take time|to release them. {87501}{87548}A bit late,|aren't you, Joseph? {87590}{87654}I feel it, you know,|what you've been talking about. {87656}{87728}I've been doing the exercises,|and I feel it. {87767}{87815}Describe this feeling. {87867}{87935}It's like this, you know, this sadness|that I've been carrying around... {87937}{87987}has just, you know...|It's lifted. {87989}{88059}And I feel...|I just feel the love. {88061}{88137}I feel in love with myself. {88423}{88509}So, what's on for today? {88511}{88570}Nothing's on for today, Joseph. {88572}{88620}I have a very busy evening... {88622}{88685}a performance and a date. {88704}{88745}You have a date? {88765}{88800}Indeed. {88802}{88847}And so do you. {88865}{88912}It's time for you and Maria|to make love. {89046}{89097}Now remember... {89099}{89150}make love from the heart... {89152}{89200}nowhere else. {89202}{89237}Keep your eyes open... {89251}{89301}move extremely slowly... {89303}{89352}and, most importantly... {89378}{89467}with love and adoration. {89514}{89577}What about|the nine levels of orgasm? {89579}{89655}Later. Don't concern yourself|with orgasm. {89657}{89738}For Maria, it will take much time. {89740}{89797}For you, it's forbidden. {90049}{90097}I feel the love. {90154}{90210}I love myself. {90212}{90263}- I love myself.|- Congratulations, buddy. {90336}{90387}I love myself three times a day. {90389}{90436}I feel the love. {90961}{91025}Okay. I'll talk to you later.|Bye. {91516}{91600}- Hello.|- What's so funny? {91645}{91694}How did you know|I was laughing? {91761}{91820}I just know. {91821}{91873}I've been learning more... {91875}{91933}and more about you|every day. {91985}{92032}So I see. {92069}{92135}- When are you coming home?|- Soon. {92155}{92204}When I do... {92205}{92253}do you wanna make love? {92377}{92427}I thought|you wanted to wait. {92489}{92565}I mean,|are you sure you're ready? {92731}{92779}Under one condition. {92842}{92878}What's that? {92902}{92950}We do it my way. {93029}{93103}Hon, maybe we should just, you know,|hold each other first. {93105}{93140}Shut up. {93529}{93593}Why are you doing this? {93595}{93643}'Cause I love your toes... {93677}{93724}and it excites me. {94078}{94114}Don't move. {94358}{94404}- Hon!|- Huh? {94637}{94673}It hurts. {95596}{95656}I love you|so deep inside me, Joseph. {95726}{95813}Oh, God, I feel you so...|so deep inside. {96024}{96072}Not so fast. {96126}{96176}- I'm not supposed to come.|- Huh? {96177}{96211}- I'm not supposed to...|- What? {96213}{96265}- I'm not supposed to...|- I can't hear you. {96266}{96314}- Don't make me come.|- Why? {96452}{96511}Too bad, motherfucker. {97180}{97228}Did you like it? {97257}{97318}I guess she surprised us, huh? {97320}{97368}Yeah. {97369}{97417}I felt... {97419}{97455}Scared? {97492}{97576}A woman's anger|can be very scary. {97578}{97645}Most don't feel they have|the right to express it. {97683}{97783}Maybe we should encourage Maria|to vent hers more often. {97785}{97836}- In bed?|- Why not? {97907}{97971}Repressed anger... {97973}{98041}chokes us, closes us down. {98160}{98237}Are you sure it was|Maria's anger that scared you? {98239}{98288}What do you mean? {98289}{98337}How did it feel|to be fucked? {98376}{98435}Out of control. {98437}{98484}How did you feel? {98570}{98606}Fear. {98885}{98947}I was over on Hinton Street|the other day. {99332}{99380}Does he make you feel safe? {99638}{99686}Does he love you no matter what? {99841}{99888}So do I. {100062}{100098}Follow closely. {100142}{100190}Let me into your subconscious. {100849}{100896}Touch her like a harmonic... {100898}{100946}gently, yin... {101149}{101208}but sure, definitive. {101480}{101528}It's nice, huh? {102180}{102228}Look at me. {102261}{102296}Look at me. {105037}{105112}"Now movements" f"ive to nine." {105143}{105197}{y:i}Support her neck|{y:i}with your hand... {105198}{105278}{y:i}precisely at the fourth and fifth|"ce"rv"ical vertebrae." {105334}{105408}{y:i}Begin your toning|{y:i}and breathe into her neck... {105409}{105457}{y:i}through your hand. {105494}{105565}{y:i}Energy follows consciousness. {106094}{106142}Are you okay? {106144}{106203}Hon? Hon! {106283}{106319}Honey? {107710}{107758}Yes, I'm Joseph. {107789}{107878}- Do you mind if my friends...|- Anyone you want. {107911}{108005}Okay. When Maria|first arrived... {108007}{108069}her throat|was almost swollen shut. {108071}{108140}We injected the throat|with a strong anti-inflammatory. {108141}{108209}We also administered her a sedative|so she would rest. {108262}{108311}Now, to your knowledge... {108313}{108389}has anything like this|ever happened before? {108390}{108438}Is she allergic to anything? {108440}{108507}- Any medication she might have taken?|- Not that I know of. {108509}{108593}What were you doing|when this occurred? {108677}{108726}We were making love... {108757}{108810}and she started crying... {108833}{108889}and then she started choking. {108890}{108957}She's been under a lot|of abnormal stress lately. {108989}{109046}She had a severe breakdown. {109048}{109101}She had a body memory. {109102}{109190}Maria has endured some form|of repeated child abuse. {109192}{109246}She shows almost all|the external symptoms... {109248}{109296}but it's locked|in her subconscious. {109328}{109387}Now she can begin|the road to recovery. {109389}{109436}That's possible. {109438}{109524}Her memory could've triggered|a spontaneous regression to some incident. {109525}{109609}Oral sex is one of the most common|forms of infant abuse. {111135}{111234}It's more about acceptance|than forgiveness for me. {111274}{111322}I got a letter a year later. {111355}{111412}Now she denies|that anything ever happened. {111476}{111512}That's all. {111774}{111833}My name is Maria... {111835}{111948}and I'm a survivor|of child sexual abuse and incest. {112079}{112115}- Hey.|- Hi. {112117}{112164}It's Maria's mother on the phone. {112354}{112402}{y:i}Hello, Dottie? {112517}{112612}I support her, and I am doing|as best as I can... {112614}{112665}as her husband|in this situation... {112667}{112724}but does it really matter|what I think? {112766}{112843}I realize that you think she's ill.|She is getting help. {113047}{113096}Because I've seen her suffer. {113141}{113188}Well, I'm sorry, too, Dottie. {113653}{113709}- Honey, it's the fifth time today you've taken...|- Leave me alone. {113738}{113787}We have to talk|about this, Maria. {113821}{113869}I just needed a shower. {114108}{114205}The other night, when you got up|to go to the bathroom... {114207}{114263}I knew it was you... {114265}{114354}but what I saw was him|standing there... {114413}{114469}naked... {114470}{114518}ready to come to my bed. {114566}{114664}We need to separate, Joseph.|I know I'm going crazy. {114666}{114729}You have to let me inside. {114731}{114779}You have to let me|try to help you. {114781}{114830}I don't feel comfortable|around you. {114832}{114908}- The things that you do frighten me.|- Just tell me what I can do. {114909}{114980}When you touch me,|I feel numb. {115140}{115236}I'm gonna sleep in the guest bedroom|until you find another place to stay. {115709}{115800}Living room, bar, kitchen...|if you wanna call it that. {115801}{115837}Closets. {115839}{115922}Clean towels, fresh linens|every other day. {115924}{115960}Any questions? {116638}{116707}Not your most confident stride,|Joseph. {116902}{116951}Maria asked you to leave. {117039}{117097}Listen, if you know everything|that's gonna happen in my life... {117099}{117143}for the next two years,|why don't you let me know... {117145}{117215}so I can plan my vacations and know|when to put my house on the market. {117267}{117322}Tell me what happened. {117685}{117735}It's what Maria's going through. {117789}{117865}What has to do with you... {117867}{117922}has to do with you. {118037}{118085}What's that supposed to mean? {118122}{118208}You married a scarred and|emotionally dysfunctional woman. {118237}{118305}Has it ever occurred to you|to ask yourself why? {118306}{118399}Why you put up with so much|in return for so little? {118401}{118469}Because I'm in love|with her, okay? {118471}{118568}And because I believed in you.|I believed that we could help her! {118569}{118669}Our relationship has never|been about Maria. Never. {118671}{118765}You don't love Maria, Joseph.|You want to mold her. {118766}{118823}You want to make her|something forJoseph. {118825}{118883}And you've only ever|proven to me... {118885}{118932}that you'd do anything|to make that happen. {118933}{118992}What do you know|about love? Huh? {119065}{119135}Love is being there when|they hate your fucking guts! {119137}{119181}Love is being there|when they bleed. {119222}{119311}Have you ever been with a woman|for more than one hour? Ever? {119610}{119708}Wendy takes small steps every day|to make herself attractive. {119709}{119797}She eats. Then she eliminates|through the esophagus, mind you. {119799}{119863}That's when she's not taking|the latest laxative on the market. {119904}{119950}A beautiful woman, Leslie. {119952}{120069}God made her 5'5"|and a voluptuous 128 pounds. {120071}{120131}But sometime, probably|when she was a teenager... {120133}{120192}she got the idea that|she wasn't so beautiful. {120194}{120247}Maybe it was because her friends,|Debbie and Connie... {120249}{120295}were getting all the boys. {120297}{120359}But she started a program|of repetitive surgery... {120361}{120417}to suck all the fat|from her body. {120418}{120492}She started with her hips,|her thighs, her tummy. {120493}{120566}Next month, unless|we do something to help her... {120568}{120616}she'll continue with|her arms and her ankles. {120618}{120654}They always do. {120675}{120790}Candy's had four implants.|She just can't get it quite right. {120831}{120921}Evelyn injects her face|with cow fat six times a year. {120946}{121010}Jane: Two hours|on the StairMaster... {121012}{121071}an hour on a treadmill, daily. {121120}{121210}They dress to flaunt this,|to hide that. {121212}{121269}They cover their faces|with poisons. {121270}{121380}You're right. They do bleed, Joseph.|And do you know why? {121414}{121512}Because they're desperate|to sell what men buy. {121513}{121611}Desperate to be what|they're not, to be loved. {121613}{121652}Like Maria. {121695}{121812}Have you ever thought|that maybe your focus on Maria... {121813}{121903}is a distraction from|your own fear of abandonment? {121954}{122039}Your own emptiness?|Your own life? {122101}{122184}You want to be a healer?|Heal yourself. {122717}{122781}This'll be painless.|I promise. {122783}{122872}- You're a deceptive asshole.|- All you gotta do is meet her. {122873}{122938}She just got divorced.|She was married for two years. {122940}{122988}You guys got a lot in common. {123012}{123085}Now she's|a little bit flat upstairs... {123087}{123146}but Nancy tells me|she has a bodacious ass... {123148}{123196}and is not afraid to use it. {123231}{123316}Tanner, do me a favor, okay? {123318}{123373}Never talk to me about a woman|like that again. {123445}{123492}What is wrong with you? {123884}{123930}{y:i}Joseph, are you with me? {123932}{124000}Hmm? Yeah. Sorry. {124025}{124093}Okay. Arthur wants you to take|a meeting with the Kensor group. {124094}{124131}Will you do it? {124161}{124208}No. You know what? {124210}{124274}Cancel my 2:30 meeting|with Cruise, too, would you? {124299}{124359}- Where you going?|- Goin' out for a while. {125503}{125539}Hello? {125593}{125640}Yes, Doctor. {125677}{125727}No. No, I'll be there. {125769}{125816}3:00 Tuesday? {125852}{125924}Yes, ma'am.|Yes, I understand. {126095}{126165}{y:i}They don't want to be alone|{y:i}in their healing anymore. {126167}{126250}{y:i}They want you to understand,|{y:i}to be aware... {126276}{126328}and to hear them. {126329}{126420}Beyond that, there are|no expectations. {126455}{126501}Are there any questions? {126631}{126705}Okay. Who would like|to go first? {126741}{126788}I would. {126969}{127013}My name is Maria... {127037}{127105}and my husband is Joseph. {127293}{127369}From the time I was a baby... {127371}{127437}until I was about|ten years old... {127439}{127521}I loved my father|more than anything else. {127523}{127595}Nobody could say anything bad|about him to me. {127597}{127653}The world loved him too. {127746}{127833}I have recently remembered|a lot of things. {127902}{127976}I remembered that|my father's favorite thing... {127977}{128049}was to kiss my vagina|when I was a baby. {128103}{128199}I remember I'd wake up in the middle|of the night sucking his penis. {128256}{128304}I didn't even know|what it was. {128389}{128460}My mother went away on a trip|when I was five years old. {128517}{128584}This was the first time|he put his penis in me. {128622}{128670}I bled for days. {128744}{128826}He told me that's what|daddies and little girls do... {128862}{128909}that it was our secret. {128957}{129051}He made me believe that every father|did that with their daughter. {129116}{129162}So I believed him... {129303}{129351}and I became that. {129434}{129482}And I enjoyed it too. {129570}{129632}It seemed to stop|when I was about 11 or 12. {129634}{129690}I don't know why... {129721}{129769}but I still loved him. {129793}{129841}I had no choice. {129881}{129941}I became the woman that|my father wanted me to be. {129943}{129989}I dressed how|he told me to dress. {129991}{130089}I presented myself|as a happy, bubbly girl. {130161}{130202}Still do. {130262}{130321}It's the way|that I block the feelings. {130377}{130437}It's the way|that I block the pain. {130680}{130732}I know I've been away|a long time. {130817}{130887}I had to confront my self-hatred... {130889}{130948}and I am terrified of you... {131013}{131095}but it's because|you make me feel so good... {131137}{131184}like my father did. {131212}{131330}My father, who was supposed to|keep me safe from harm, was the harm. {131403}{131449}Can you understand? {131593}{131637}Do you? {131851}{131911}{y:i}Look at the courage she has. {131913}{132013}So many people go|the other way, live as victims. {132044}{132155}They use their abuse as an excuse|to close down, to give in to life. {132192}{132237}How do you let it go? {132264}{132323}You look it straight|in the eye... {132325}{132384}and risk letting someone love you. {132409}{132457}Maria did that today. {132574}{132637}She's gonna be a different woman|when she gets through this. {132696}{132742}Yes. {133119}{133233}You know, it's not good for you|to have so many orgasms. {133235}{133283}You need to learn|to preserve your yang... {133285}{133331}and prolong your sexual activity. {133333}{133402}Good for you.|Good for your wife. {133404}{133497}- Okay. Thanks.|- Sure. {134018}{134099}I know.|I feel the same. Yeah. {134134}{134213}That sounds good. Okay. {134215}{134273}Right. Yeah. {134811}{134865}- Hi.|- Hi. {134959}{135013}Do you want|to have a seat? {135014}{135050}Sure. {135294}{135342}Do you want to play|"If you love me"? {135445}{135480}Okay. {135563}{135601}Okay. {135708}{135756}If you love me... {135780}{135843}you'll understand|that I needed time... {135869}{135928}to separate you from my abuse. {136028}{136093}I still wake up every morning|with my memories... {136158}{136200}my nightmares... {136230}{136275}but I'm facing them. {136336}{136398}I can't help feeling ugly... {136429}{136483}and ashamed. {136669}{136716}If you love me... {136765}{136813}let me come home. {137713}{137757}- Hi.|- Hi. {137758}{137799}I'm Eva. {137823}{137863}Are you here|for a violin lesson? {137889}{137936}No... Yes. Yes, yes, I am. {138011}{138110}I think I've got the wrong time,|so I'd probably better just... {138168}{138219}Eva, this is Joseph. {138265}{138300}We met. {138325}{138356}Bye, lover. {138529}{138579}I'll see you Friday... {138581}{138643}unless you want|to drop by the library. {138765}{138810}Good night, Joseph. {139006}{139055}- Client?|- No. {139093}{139163}That's the healing room.|This is my bedroom. {139275}{139316}A violin lesson, huh? {139317}{139364}Yes... No. {139413}{139500}I haven't exactly told her|what I do. I... {139529}{139576}I need a bit more time. {139707}{139763}Isn't she glorious? {139765}{139828}And you don't have to heal her? {139905}{139943}Do you... {139945}{140017}Do you ever smell her fragrance|when she's nowhere around? {140051}{140091}And do you... {140117}{140201}Do you know what she's thinking|before she even begins to tell you? {140237}{140286}Do you dread all the moments|in between? {140498}{140532}Too bad for you. 50580