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(birds singing)
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[Taylor] To be honest,
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I'm a little shocked we're here right now.
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You know, the morning after.
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I mean, you never stay the night.
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My roommate, Jessica,
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says I should stop hooking up with you.
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She says you can't trust a
man who won't spend the night.
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She's thinks she's so smart.
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But you finally did.
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And I don't know, I think this could be
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the start of something
good for the both of us.
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What the fuck does Jessica know anyway?
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But between you and me,
I think she's just jealous.
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She thinks you're using me,
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draining our emotional bank account.
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I think she just needs to get fucked.
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Like, I can't remember the
last time she had someone over,
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and I think it's starting
to get to her head.
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Like a couple of days ago,
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she tried to tell me numerology isn't real.
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Can you believe that?
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Like, take us, for example.
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You can tell I'm a five because
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of my adventurous spirit
and boundless energy.
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And you're clearly a one,
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emotionally distant and you
take life a bit too seriously.
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(phone vibrating)
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But maybe if you opened up a little bit,
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we'd balance each other out.
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We'd inspire each other to
higher planes of consciousness.
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Imagine how that'll help your writing.
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I don't mean to pry,
but it's the only thing
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you do talk about when
we're not hooking up.
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Don't get me wrong, I
love when you come over,
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but I need more.
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Sometimes I feel like
you're not even here with me.
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I never know what's going on with you.
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Getting anything meaningful
out of you is a chore.
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Just give me something, Carter.
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So, how is your writing going?
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[Carter] I'm sorry,
Taylor. But this isn't working.
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What do you mean?
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I mean, we've been
hooking up for, what, a month?
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In that month, we've had some
good times, some great sex.
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Yeah, we have.
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I like you. And I like
spending time with you.
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I even slept over last night
and you know I don't do that.
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I like you, too.
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Because I thought this
would yield some inspiration.
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Inspiration?
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Yet I'm left uninspired.
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I'm not feeling anything.
You know what I mean?
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And how can I possibly hope
to write anything worthwhile
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if my heart is left unignited
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and my soul just grounded, unable to soar?
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What the fuck does that even mean?
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What the fuck is this? Like, say something.
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You're a writer. Use your fucking words.
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What else do you want me to say, Taylor?
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Jessica was right about
you. You're just using me.
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Shit, she'll never let me hear
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the end of this, that smug bitch.
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Who's Jessica?
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Wow. This is your problem, Carter.
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It's no secret.
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How do you expect to be inspired
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when you don't give anything?
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You haven't even made a
single deposit into our EBA.
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EBA?
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Yes, our emotional bank account.
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But I'm sure you don't
remember that either.
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It's our account of trust,
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and do you know a few
easy ways to make a deposit?
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How?
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By listening, by sharing something.
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But you just take and take
and take and give me nothing.
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I want to be there for you.
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I want this to work, but I
need you to be in it with me.
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I'm here, aren't I?
I'm giving you my time.
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What could be more valuable than that?
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I could be writing,
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or better yet, finding
inspiration elsewhere.
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Fuck you, Carter.
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So I guess this isn't
working for either of us then?
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Fuck you.
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(footsteps departing)
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(footsteps approaching)
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Fuck.
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(somber instrumental)
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♪ Strange as it seems, been
having this dream, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ I grab my keys and cruise
down the street, yeah, yeah ♪
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♪ I try to fly but I fall down mmm ♪
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♪ Somebody come wake me up now ♪
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♪ Feels like déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ (Damn) ♪
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♪ I'm living the worst day
over and over again (again) ♪
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♪ Rescue me, 'cause I feel like a fool ♪
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♪ Stuck in déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ I'm living the worst
day over and over again ♪
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♪ Wake me up to another dream come true ♪
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♪ Stuck in déjà vu (déjà vu) ♪
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♪ I've been getting thirsty
for that one special friend ♪
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♪ Wake me up to another dream come true ♪
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(music ends)
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(door closes)
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[Mitch] Got the Netflix series callback.
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I go in next week.
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[Carter] Hell yeah! Congrats, brah.
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Yo, this could be it like the big one.
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This for one of the leads, like.
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(Carter screams)
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Let's go!
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Let's go! You gonna kill it, brah.
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Man, thanks, man.
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You've been working
way too hard not to, man.
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I appreciate it, like for
real. What happened to you?
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Taylor spilled my coffee on me.
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(Mitch laughs)
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(both laughing)
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By accident?
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No, I ended it between us.
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Oh my God. You just
can't help yourself, can you?
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What?
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Can't help but get into
some dramatic ass shit.
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Oh, I'm dramatic?
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Yeah.
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So we're gonna pretend
whenever you and Tonya break up,
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you don't Drake and drive?
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Look, first of all,
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"Take Care" is a fucking classic
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and there's absolutely nothing wrong
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with getting in touch with your feelings.
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You guys probably broke up this morning.
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Last night, actually.
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And yes, I did take a
drive to go clear my head.
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Boy, "Marvin's Room" really hit sometimes.
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I rest my case.
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Hold up. I have my moments, but you?
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(Mitch chuckles)
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You, Mr. Drama, Professor Extra, out here,
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searching for somebody to ignite
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your soul or whatever the hell.
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(both laughing)
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Whatever, brah.
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That's why you my nigga though.
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You trying to get drinks later?
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I don't know. I gotta get some work done.
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I lost the Slamhouse contest.
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For real?
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Damn.
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You good, man.
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Like for real. You gonna get your shot.
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Yeah.
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Anybody else home?
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Who knows?
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(tense music)
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(clock ticking)
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(tense music intensifies)
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(music ends)
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(phone vibrating)
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[Carter] Hey, mom.
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[Carter's Mom] Hey, sweetie.
I'm here with your father.
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[Carter's Dad] Hey, bud.
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So what's up?
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[Mom] Well, I got your
text this morning about rent.
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Yeah. I think I might
be a bit short this month.
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[Mom] We talked about this.
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I know, but I had to take a few days off
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to finish the script for
the Slamhouse contest.
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I figured if I won, I'd
be set for this month.
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[Dad] Did you hear back yet?
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[Carter] I didn't get it.
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[Mom] We believe in
you, sweetie. We really do.
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But it's getting too expensive
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for us to support you
from across the country.
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Maybe if you came back
home, you can work here...
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I need to be here.
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I need to be in the thick of things.
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It's not the same back home.
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[Dad] We understand,
son, but it's been five years.
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We're not saying give up, but
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maybe you should look
for other job opportunities
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so you can support yourself.
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I mean, you are almost 30.
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I know.
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[Dad] Son, you know, there's always
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a spot here at the office.
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You're always welcome back.
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Thanks, Dad.
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[Mom] We'll help you this month,
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but if it happens again...
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It won't. I'm working on something new.
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And if it doesn't work out,
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I'll come back home and take that job, dad.
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But I just need one more shot.
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[Mom] Okay...
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[Dad] All right. Knock
it out the park, bud.
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Love you, guys.
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Help me, please.
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Come on.
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(moody music)
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ (Rap) I can imagine
what it's like to have wings ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Flying around with fairytale things ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ But it's more stress the more I grow ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ More money come up, more money go ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Look, I was 5, I played outside ♪
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♪ I rode my bike, I flew my kite ♪
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♪ I took a nap, I hated baths ♪
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♪ I threw my cap, there wear no apps ♪
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♪ And 26 ain't the same ♪
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♪ Now the lease say my name ♪
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♪ Now the lease is five page ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪
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♪ Is this real time? Is this my time? Aye ♪
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♪ Hey, hey, over here,
I don't seem to age ♪
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♪ And over there, they still get gray ♪
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♪ No time without disgrace ♪
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♪ Liked it better when I was 8 ♪
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♪ I liked it better when I was free ♪
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♪ I liked it better when I could be me ♪
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♪ No judgment aye ♪
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♪ Just loving aye ♪
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♪ Just peace, just peace,
magic dreams come again ♪
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♪ Take me back to Neverland ♪
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♪ Magic dreams come again ♪
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Write something!
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(moody music ends)
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(knocking on door)
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Yeah.
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[Mitch] You okay?
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Yeah. Just working.
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Mm-hmm.
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I'm about to go in like 30. You coming?
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I don't know. I gotta get some work done.
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Come on, man. Just a couple of drinks.
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I don't know, bruh. I need to focus.
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You've been in here all damn day.
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From the sound of it, you need a break.
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I need inspiration, Mitch.
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Carter, if you need inspiration,
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you'll find it out there, not in here.
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I'm broke.
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I just asked my parents for help with rent.
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Jerry's bar tending tonight.
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Free drinks?
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Free drinks.
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I'll be ready in 15.
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My nigga. (laughs)
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(door closes)
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(shower running)
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♪ (Rap) I had glory turn
into sad stories of mad gory ♪
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♪ A crying blood all for my
dying love like flying doves ♪
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♪ Yo, I just wanna be free ♪
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♪ But the devil on... ♪
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(water running)
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[Carter] You got this.
263
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(bottle opening)
264
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[Mitch] Ooh Wee
265
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So you really done with Taylor?
266
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Uh-oh.
267
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[Carter] Yep.
268
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(Mitch laughs)
269
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You a cold dude, man.
270
00:16:37,450 --> 00:16:38,626
When you said you were spending the night,
271
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I thought it was getting serious.
272
00:16:40,390 --> 00:16:42,148
Look, man, I tried.
273
00:16:42,190 --> 00:16:44,548
I thought spending a little
more time with her might help.
274
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But whenever I'm with her,
275
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all I'm thinking about is
what I should be working on,
276
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or how is this helping me
to become a better writer?
277
00:16:51,790 --> 00:16:54,298
Nothing was pulling me to engage
278
00:16:54,340 --> 00:16:57,028
and I don't have time to invest
in something going nowhere.
279
00:16:57,070 --> 00:16:58,243
I'm almost 30.
280
00:16:59,770 --> 00:17:03,343
Dude, you're 27. Relax.
You have three more years.
281
00:17:10,030 --> 00:17:13,123
You know, I think Taylor might have helped.
282
00:17:15,370 --> 00:17:17,490
I mean, you guys were only
hooking up for like a month.
283
00:17:17,514 --> 00:17:19,366
You barely even knew each other.
284
00:17:23,050 --> 00:17:25,263
Wait, how long have we
been sharing that room?
285
00:17:26,260 --> 00:17:27,346
I don't know. Four years...
286
00:17:27,370 --> 00:17:28,168
Sounds about right.
287
00:17:28,210 --> 00:17:30,688
And you know, in that time,
288
00:17:30,730 --> 00:17:32,398
I just realized I've never seen
289
00:17:32,440 --> 00:17:34,918
you date anybody longer than a month.
290
00:17:34,960 --> 00:17:35,751
Your point is?
291
00:17:35,793 --> 00:17:39,748
And it's always the same damn story.
292
00:17:39,790 --> 00:17:41,368
She didn't ignite my soul.
293
00:17:41,410 --> 00:17:43,948
What the fuck does that even mean?
294
00:17:43,990 --> 00:17:46,588
It means there was no reason for me
295
00:17:46,630 --> 00:17:49,303
to stay longer than I needed to.
296
00:17:50,170 --> 00:17:52,837
Professor Drama at his finest.
297
00:17:55,690 --> 00:17:59,578
Look, you think that love will help you
298
00:17:59,620 --> 00:18:01,348
write something transcendent, right?
299
00:18:01,390 --> 00:18:02,278
Of course.
300
00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:07,018
Okay, well, in order to
be in love, you have to give.
301
00:18:07,060 --> 00:18:09,928
And right now, you're just taking.
302
00:18:09,970 --> 00:18:13,408
Yeah, I know. Emotional bank accounts.
303
00:18:13,450 --> 00:18:16,768
What the fuck are those?
What are you talking about?
304
00:18:16,810 --> 00:18:18,418
Nothing, Dr. Love.
305
00:18:18,460 --> 00:18:20,668
But, look, forgive me for not wanting
306
00:18:20,710 --> 00:18:23,638
to share my life story
with every girl I'm fucking.
307
00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:25,213
That's not what I'm saying.
308
00:18:26,710 --> 00:18:29,728
But look, you gotta
eventually let one of 'em in.
309
00:18:29,770 --> 00:18:32,188
You gotta let one of
these relationships grow.
310
00:18:32,230 --> 00:18:37,230
Mitch, a muse isn't
someone you grow fond of.
311
00:18:37,660 --> 00:18:41,429
A muse is someone who
enchants you immediately.
312
00:18:41,471 --> 00:18:42,743
(Mitch laughs)
313
00:18:43,810 --> 00:18:45,763
Okay. Do you.
314
00:18:54,400 --> 00:18:57,118
But what if you don't win this contest?
315
00:18:57,160 --> 00:18:58,460
Are you really going home?
316
00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:02,188
I mean, it's been five years.
317
00:19:02,230 --> 00:19:06,223
I've been spinning my
wheels for five years. Nothing.
318
00:19:07,450 --> 00:19:08,878
I love those short films you did.
319
00:19:08,920 --> 00:19:09,920
Same here.
320
00:19:10,750 --> 00:19:12,898
I'm also a big fan of your specs.
321
00:19:12,940 --> 00:19:16,033
If only you were judging
one of those contests, Mitch.
322
00:19:18,610 --> 00:19:20,010
Don't worry. It'll happen.
323
00:19:20,920 --> 00:19:22,003
But when?
324
00:19:22,900 --> 00:19:25,308
We're still eating ramen every other night,
325
00:19:25,350 --> 00:19:26,698
sharing a room,
326
00:19:26,740 --> 00:19:29,323
living with more roommates than rooms.
327
00:19:30,790 --> 00:19:32,123
I'm tired of this shit.
328
00:19:32,165 --> 00:19:34,098
It's like a fucking hostel in here.
329
00:19:38,350 --> 00:19:39,388
No offense.
330
00:19:39,430 --> 00:19:40,858
[Roommate] Fuck you, Carter.
331
00:19:40,900 --> 00:19:43,828
Is that all anyone can say today?
332
00:19:43,870 --> 00:19:47,698
Forgive me for wanting
more, for having a dream!
333
00:19:47,740 --> 00:19:50,833
Professor Extra, chill, my nigga.
334
00:19:51,700 --> 00:19:54,964
Nobody wants to live like this forever.
335
00:19:55,006 --> 00:19:56,758
It just takes time.
336
00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:58,828
What's so important about 30 anyway?
337
00:19:58,870 --> 00:19:59,788
I don't know.
338
00:19:59,830 --> 00:20:01,858
It just seems like I should have
339
00:20:01,900 --> 00:20:03,868
my shit together by then, right?
340
00:20:03,910 --> 00:20:07,303
I mean, who knows?
We're in entertainment.
341
00:20:09,190 --> 00:20:11,998
I've been going out on auditions for years
342
00:20:12,040 --> 00:20:13,468
and I'm just now getting to a point
343
00:20:13,510 --> 00:20:16,288
where I'm going out
for a real leading role.
344
00:20:16,330 --> 00:20:19,168
Can you imagine if I had
given up when I was 27?
345
00:20:19,210 --> 00:20:21,808
This shit can pop off anytime.
346
00:20:21,850 --> 00:20:23,338
But if you give up...
347
00:20:23,380 --> 00:20:25,678
I know. If I give up, it'll never happen.
348
00:20:25,720 --> 00:20:28,938
Exactly. You do listen to me sometimes.
349
00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:33,328
Look, it's the pursuit of the dream
350
00:20:33,370 --> 00:20:36,051
that forces life changing events to occur.
351
00:20:38,500 --> 00:20:39,477
You're right.
352
00:20:39,519 --> 00:20:40,519
I know!
353
00:20:42,113 --> 00:20:42,904
(phone vibrating)
354
00:20:42,946 --> 00:20:43,946
Hold on.
355
00:20:46,180 --> 00:20:50,909
Car's here. Let's find
you some inspiration.
356
00:20:50,951 --> 00:20:54,313
Amen to that.
357
00:20:54,355 --> 00:20:55,158
(Mitch yells)
358
00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:57,617
(upbeat club music)
359
00:21:05,382 --> 00:21:06,306
[Bouncer] My guy.
360
00:21:06,348 --> 00:21:07,706
[Carter] My guy!
361
00:21:07,748 --> 00:21:08,748
What's good?
362
00:21:10,689 --> 00:21:13,561
[Mitch] Boy, it's about
to be a game seven here!
363
00:21:13,603 --> 00:21:16,186
(upbeat club music)
364
00:21:20,140 --> 00:21:21,814
[Young Man] Yeah, they're gearing up
365
00:21:21,856 --> 00:21:23,938
for this huge Netflix series.
366
00:21:23,980 --> 00:21:25,923
I'm in the running for one of the parts.
367
00:21:26,956 --> 00:21:29,205
[Young Woman] One of the leads?
368
00:21:29,247 --> 00:21:31,048
Well, it's not the lead per se.
369
00:21:31,090 --> 00:21:32,818
Well, it's more like a guest appearance.
370
00:21:32,860 --> 00:21:35,848
But I mean, that can
turn into a recurring...
371
00:21:35,890 --> 00:21:36,890
Cool.
372
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:39,231
[Mitch] There he is.
373
00:21:39,273 --> 00:21:41,683
[Both] Jerry! Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!
374
00:21:43,213 --> 00:21:44,968
[Jerry] Man, what's good, boys?
375
00:21:45,010 --> 00:21:46,486
- [Carter] What's good, Jerry?
- [Mitch] My guy.
376
00:21:46,510 --> 00:21:48,808
Man, what's it looking like tonight?
377
00:21:48,850 --> 00:21:50,356
- It's looking good, man.
- [Mitch] Yeah?
378
00:21:50,380 --> 00:21:51,526
[Jerry] It's looking real good.
379
00:21:51,550 --> 00:21:53,968
Y'all might even get a little lucky.
380
00:21:54,010 --> 00:21:55,403
- Come on, Jerry.
- Come on, Jerry.
381
00:21:55,427 --> 00:21:56,578
(Mitch laughs)
382
00:21:56,620 --> 00:21:59,827
You know it's never luck, ever.
383
00:22:01,183 --> 00:22:03,766
(upbeat club music)
384
00:22:05,620 --> 00:22:06,711
[Jerry] Hey, man
385
00:22:06,753 --> 00:22:08,852
you hear back about that Netflix series?
386
00:22:10,651 --> 00:22:13,757
(upbeat club music slows)
387
00:22:13,799 --> 00:22:15,867
No, bro, I'm telling you.
It's like really a banger, too.
388
00:22:15,891 --> 00:22:18,657
Like one of them ones, what the?
389
00:22:18,699 --> 00:22:22,633
- [Jerry] There he go.
- Yep. Yep. That's my dog.
390
00:22:22,675 --> 00:22:24,717
(Mitch barking)
391
00:22:27,373 --> 00:22:29,266
[Carter] Are you waiting for someone?
392
00:22:30,250 --> 00:22:32,133
[Woman] Do you need something?
393
00:22:34,420 --> 00:22:36,476
Better ice breakers.
394
00:22:38,620 --> 00:22:40,408
Can I get you a drink?
395
00:22:40,450 --> 00:22:42,148
I already have one.
396
00:22:42,190 --> 00:22:43,798
Yeah, of course. I was just...
397
00:22:43,840 --> 00:22:45,870
And I'm waiting for someone.
398
00:22:45,912 --> 00:22:46,912
Oh.
399
00:22:48,370 --> 00:22:49,370
My bad.
400
00:22:50,890 --> 00:22:52,365
Guess I'll just go then.
401
00:22:54,820 --> 00:22:57,913
But whoever it is, they are really lucky.
402
00:23:02,470 --> 00:23:04,415
You give up pretty easily, huh?
403
00:23:08,363 --> 00:23:12,208
Well, I was hoping my humbling acceptance
404
00:23:12,250 --> 00:23:14,893
of rejection would be endearing.
405
00:23:16,750 --> 00:23:18,103
Surprisingly, it was.
406
00:23:20,950 --> 00:23:22,348
Does your offer still stand?
407
00:23:22,390 --> 00:23:23,908
Of course.
408
00:23:23,950 --> 00:23:26,173
What do you want? Yo, Jerry.
409
00:23:27,010 --> 00:23:28,423
Another Cape Cod, please.
410
00:23:29,560 --> 00:23:30,748
Cape Cod.
411
00:23:30,790 --> 00:23:32,608
Vodka cranberry.
412
00:23:32,650 --> 00:23:35,953
Really? I didn't know it
was called anything else.
413
00:23:37,215 --> 00:23:38,415
Now you know.
414
00:23:42,940 --> 00:23:44,257
My name's Carter.
415
00:23:46,568 --> 00:23:48,403
Amber. Amber Leigh.
416
00:23:49,360 --> 00:23:51,423
It's nice to meet you, Ms. Leigh.
417
00:23:52,495 --> 00:23:55,078
(mellow club music)
418
00:23:58,777 --> 00:24:01,573
You come here a lot, huh?
419
00:24:01,615 --> 00:24:02,406
Why you say that?
420
00:24:02,448 --> 00:24:03,628
That little exchange
421
00:24:03,670 --> 00:24:06,433
right there was just a little too smooth.
422
00:24:07,480 --> 00:24:10,544
You didn't give him a card so
I'm guessing you have a tab,
423
00:24:11,710 --> 00:24:15,223
or more likely you know
him and he takes care of you.
424
00:24:16,420 --> 00:24:18,470
Is this where you pick up all your girls?
425
00:24:19,330 --> 00:24:20,772
The majority of them.
426
00:24:21,610 --> 00:24:22,960
You trying to pick me up?
427
00:24:24,659 --> 00:24:27,856
I am. How am I doing?
428
00:24:27,898 --> 00:24:29,072
You're not failing.
429
00:24:31,079 --> 00:24:32,493
So what do you do?
430
00:24:32,535 --> 00:24:35,638
Is that the only thing
people care about in this city?
431
00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:38,668
Whatever we do takes
up majority of our time.
432
00:24:38,710 --> 00:24:41,383
Seems reasonable to ask what that might be.
433
00:24:42,370 --> 00:24:44,403
Well, I'm still figuring that out.
434
00:24:44,445 --> 00:24:45,677
Really?
435
00:24:45,719 --> 00:24:46,969
Yeah. Really.
436
00:24:47,955 --> 00:24:50,588
You seem too put together
437
00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:53,813
to be figuring things out.
438
00:24:55,750 --> 00:24:57,346
Looks can be deceiving.
439
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:01,257
How old are you?
440
00:25:02,208 --> 00:25:03,208
27.
441
00:25:04,082 --> 00:25:05,332
How exciting.
442
00:25:06,713 --> 00:25:08,513
How old do you think I am?
443
00:25:09,763 --> 00:25:11,005
Doesn't matter.
444
00:25:13,395 --> 00:25:16,312
Good answer. But really, how old?
445
00:25:19,039 --> 00:25:20,039
Mid 30s?
446
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:22,825
37.
447
00:25:22,867 --> 00:25:25,450
Good guess. How could you tell?
448
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:29,000
Well, first off, you ordered a Cape Cod.
449
00:25:30,990 --> 00:25:32,765
And secondly, your hands.
450
00:25:33,983 --> 00:25:36,088
I can usually tell by a woman's hands.
451
00:25:36,130 --> 00:25:37,562
Really?
452
00:25:37,604 --> 00:25:40,753
Yeah. And at your age,
they're particularly easy to spot.
453
00:25:41,710 --> 00:25:42,710
Why is that?
454
00:25:43,750 --> 00:25:45,133
Because they glow.
455
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:47,788
In my experience,
456
00:25:47,830 --> 00:25:51,169
I found that women blossom in their 30s,
457
00:25:51,211 --> 00:25:53,511
and are especially radiant.
458
00:25:55,752 --> 00:25:56,953
(upbeat club music)
459
00:25:56,995 --> 00:25:57,995
You dance?
460
00:25:59,011 --> 00:26:00,785
You're on a roll.
461
00:26:00,827 --> 00:26:03,410
(upbeat music intensifies)
462
00:27:35,412 --> 00:27:39,961
♪ Splish, splash got me seeing color ♪
463
00:27:40,003 --> 00:27:44,133
♪ Under the sky ♪
464
00:27:44,175 --> 00:27:48,153
♪ Van Gogh, you're so undercover ♪
465
00:27:48,195 --> 00:27:51,781
♪ Discover my light ♪
466
00:27:51,823 --> 00:27:54,825
♪ 'Cause we're going hard tonight ♪
467
00:27:54,867 --> 00:27:58,037
♪ The gallery is on fire ♪
468
00:27:58,079 --> 00:28:00,661
♪ Burning down, burning down ♪
469
00:28:00,703 --> 00:28:04,214
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
470
00:28:04,256 --> 00:28:09,256
♪ Won't you wake me up, so unusual ♪
471
00:28:09,359 --> 00:28:12,901
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
472
00:28:12,943 --> 00:28:17,941
♪ All your stranger ways
make me fall in love ♪
473
00:28:17,983 --> 00:28:22,981
♪ You're so experimental ♪
474
00:28:23,023 --> 00:28:26,521
♪ Experimental ♪
475
00:28:26,563 --> 00:28:31,563
♪ You're so experimental ♪
476
00:28:31,647 --> 00:28:36,017
♪ Experimental ♪
477
00:28:36,059 --> 00:28:38,490
♪ Step back, I have never seen this ♪
478
00:28:38,532 --> 00:28:39,782
[Mitch] My boy.
479
00:28:41,099 --> 00:28:42,165
Yeah.
480
00:28:42,207 --> 00:28:45,280
Like I said, one of the leads.
481
00:28:45,322 --> 00:28:46,659
[Young Woman] Really?
482
00:28:46,701 --> 00:28:47,809
Yeah. Really.
483
00:28:49,135 --> 00:28:52,517
♪ Move me once more ♪
484
00:28:52,559 --> 00:28:55,261
♪ Cause we're going hard tonight ♪
485
00:28:55,303 --> 00:28:59,845
♪ We'll paint the town
just like a starry night ♪
486
00:28:59,887 --> 00:29:03,913
♪ Picture me in all the golden light ♪
487
00:29:03,955 --> 00:29:07,279
♪ The gallery is on fire ♪
488
00:29:07,321 --> 00:29:10,033
♪ Burning down, going down ♪
489
00:29:10,075 --> 00:29:13,333
♪ You're so avant-garde ♪
490
00:29:13,375 --> 00:29:18,375
♪ Won't you wake me up, so unusual ♪
491
00:29:18,443 --> 00:29:23,261
♪ You're so experimental ♪
492
00:29:23,303 --> 00:29:27,205
♪ Wake me up, experimental ♪
493
00:29:27,247 --> 00:29:31,437
♪ You're so experimental ♪
494
00:29:31,479 --> 00:29:34,062
(both panting)
495
00:29:36,182 --> 00:29:37,182
(music ends)
496
00:30:05,634 --> 00:30:07,034
[Amber Leigh] What?
497
00:30:08,020 --> 00:30:09,538
[Carter] Nothing.
498
00:30:09,580 --> 00:30:11,308
It's just really cute
499
00:30:11,350 --> 00:30:14,218
when a girl puts your shirt on afterwards.
500
00:30:14,260 --> 00:30:16,273
It's like a sign of a job well done.
501
00:30:19,030 --> 00:30:20,083
Well done indeed.
502
00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:39,748
You know, you're my first...
503
00:30:39,790 --> 00:30:40,790
Black guy.
504
00:30:41,770 --> 00:30:43,708
How'd you know?
505
00:30:43,750 --> 00:30:44,866
There's only so many things
506
00:30:44,890 --> 00:30:46,470
you could have said after that.
507
00:30:47,380 --> 00:30:49,783
So you've been in this position before?
508
00:30:50,890 --> 00:30:52,003
A few times.
509
00:30:53,800 --> 00:30:55,183
What happens next?
510
00:30:56,551 --> 00:30:58,255
What do you mean?
511
00:30:58,297 --> 00:31:00,823
I mean, what does the girl say next?
512
00:31:04,600 --> 00:31:09,300
Usually, something
about how big my dick is,
513
00:31:09,342 --> 00:31:11,098
you know? 'Cause I'm black.
514
00:31:12,250 --> 00:31:14,383
Makes sense. But then what?
515
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:17,923
I don't know. We go to sleep.
516
00:31:19,030 --> 00:31:20,953
I'm not big on talk afterwards.
517
00:31:22,210 --> 00:31:23,210
Why's that?
518
00:31:24,670 --> 00:31:25,670
I'm just not.
519
00:31:27,730 --> 00:31:30,298
So is that the reason you
brought me back tonight,
520
00:31:30,340 --> 00:31:31,703
to fuck a black guy?
521
00:31:33,340 --> 00:31:34,340
Honestly?
522
00:31:35,140 --> 00:31:36,140
Yeah.
523
00:31:38,380 --> 00:31:40,288
Not entirely.
524
00:31:40,330 --> 00:31:42,088
But I mean, I'd be lying
525
00:31:42,130 --> 00:31:44,953
if that didn't add a layer of intrigue.
526
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:49,295
So why did you?
527
00:31:53,410 --> 00:31:54,433
I don't know.
528
00:31:55,510 --> 00:31:59,500
I liked you and I could tell you liked me.
529
00:32:04,343 --> 00:32:06,609
I wanted intimacy
530
00:32:06,651 --> 00:32:09,742
and your spirit was warm.
531
00:32:11,260 --> 00:32:12,763
My spirit was warm?
532
00:32:13,599 --> 00:32:15,148
Yeah.
533
00:32:15,190 --> 00:32:19,783
You seemed earnest and real.
534
00:32:28,630 --> 00:32:29,630
I like that.
535
00:32:32,290 --> 00:32:33,940
So why'd you try to pick me up?
536
00:32:34,811 --> 00:32:36,678
You have a thing for older women?
537
00:32:37,810 --> 00:32:40,148
Doesn't every guy at some point?
538
00:32:41,231 --> 00:32:42,585
I mean, I've been with a few
539
00:32:42,627 --> 00:32:44,523
who are a couple of years older than me,
540
00:32:44,565 --> 00:32:47,291
but never anything like this.
541
00:32:49,363 --> 00:32:51,763
Oh, yeah? How was this?
542
00:32:53,290 --> 00:32:57,733
Well, like I said, I've
never had anything like it.
543
00:33:10,570 --> 00:33:12,020
That's good to know.
544
00:33:15,151 --> 00:33:17,359
But me approaching you
545
00:33:17,401 --> 00:33:20,608
had nothing to do with your age.
546
00:33:20,650 --> 00:33:21,650
Yeah?
547
00:33:22,420 --> 00:33:23,753
What was it then?
548
00:33:29,611 --> 00:33:32,083
I thought you were enchanting.
549
00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:35,330
It was like you were glowing.
550
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:37,280
Yeah?
551
00:33:37,990 --> 00:33:39,590
My hands right?
552
00:33:41,950 --> 00:33:43,303
All of you, really.
553
00:33:45,460 --> 00:33:47,797
Nobody has ever said that to me before.
554
00:33:50,035 --> 00:33:51,452
That's a shame.
555
00:33:57,007 --> 00:34:01,063
But you also seemed interesting,
556
00:34:02,799 --> 00:34:05,038
and I really need interesting right now.
557
00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:06,288
Interesting how?
558
00:34:08,171 --> 00:34:11,938
Like, there's a lot going on up there.
559
00:34:11,980 --> 00:34:14,893
You don't want to know
what's going on up there.
560
00:34:14,935 --> 00:34:16,185
Oh, but I do.
561
00:34:23,586 --> 00:34:26,023
So who were you waiting for tonight?
562
00:34:29,950 --> 00:34:30,991
I don't know.
563
00:34:33,430 --> 00:34:35,337
What do you mean, you don't know?
564
00:34:43,960 --> 00:34:45,478
I was waiting for someone,
565
00:34:45,520 --> 00:34:47,841
but I didn't know who I was waiting for.
566
00:34:50,170 --> 00:34:51,170
Okay.
567
00:34:52,480 --> 00:34:53,980
What does that mean?
568
00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:03,343
I went there tonight because
I wanted to feel something.
569
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:08,263
I wanted to be pursued, desired.
570
00:35:10,090 --> 00:35:11,640
You get that urge a lot?
571
00:35:13,330 --> 00:35:14,413
Lately? Yeah.
572
00:35:15,550 --> 00:35:17,293
So no boyfriend then?
573
00:35:22,073 --> 00:35:24,323
No, but I have a husband.
574
00:35:31,299 --> 00:35:32,407
(Carter sighs deeply)
575
00:35:33,523 --> 00:35:34,523
Shit.
576
00:35:36,235 --> 00:35:37,343
Yeah.
577
00:36:31,135 --> 00:36:33,802
(water running)
578
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:44,248
[Amber Leigh] Water?
579
00:36:44,290 --> 00:36:45,290
[Carter] Please.
580
00:36:52,050 --> 00:36:53,133
(glasses clank)
581
00:36:59,710 --> 00:37:02,443
I was right. You are interesting.
582
00:37:04,300 --> 00:37:05,650
That's one way to put it.
583
00:37:08,827 --> 00:37:10,185
Is this the first time?
584
00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:13,738
Yeah, if you can believe that.
585
00:37:13,780 --> 00:37:14,780
I do.
586
00:37:15,847 --> 00:37:16,847
Is it yours?
587
00:37:17,560 --> 00:37:20,533
What, have I ever slept
with a married woman?
588
00:37:22,120 --> 00:37:23,548
Yeah.
589
00:37:23,590 --> 00:37:26,537
No, this is a first.
590
00:37:30,038 --> 00:37:32,848
I don't think I would
have done it if I knew.
591
00:37:32,890 --> 00:37:34,040
Why, because of that?
592
00:37:35,110 --> 00:37:36,201
Yeah, you know
593
00:37:36,243 --> 00:37:38,626
the sanctity of marriage and all.
594
00:37:38,668 --> 00:37:41,488
Well, you're clearly not a virgin.
595
00:37:41,530 --> 00:37:44,383
What about premarital
sex? Sin is sin, right?
596
00:37:45,610 --> 00:37:46,610
Touché.
597
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:53,428
I guess I figured as
long as I wasn't married
598
00:37:53,470 --> 00:37:55,588
or hooking up with anyone who was,
599
00:37:55,630 --> 00:37:57,103
God wouldn't mind as much.
600
00:37:58,240 --> 00:38:00,073
That's morally convenient.
601
00:38:01,090 --> 00:38:03,118
This doesn't mean I'm a saint.
602
00:38:03,160 --> 00:38:06,613
Just that I'm consciously
trying to be decent.
603
00:38:11,140 --> 00:38:12,281
Why'd you do it?
604
00:38:20,020 --> 00:38:22,661
My husband was fucking his assistant.
605
00:38:22,703 --> 00:38:25,243
Really doesn't get any
more cliché actually.
606
00:38:28,270 --> 00:38:31,483
Can't lie. That makes
me feel a little bit better.
607
00:38:32,770 --> 00:38:34,153
I wouldn't want to be
608
00:38:34,195 --> 00:38:36,302
responsible for ruining your marriage.
609
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:38,616
Understandable.
610
00:38:40,660 --> 00:38:42,060
How'd you find out?
611
00:38:44,980 --> 00:38:46,348
I went through his phone.
612
00:38:46,390 --> 00:38:48,876
The pictures and texts
weren't hard to find.
613
00:38:49,900 --> 00:38:51,988
I confronted him, we had it out,
614
00:38:52,030 --> 00:38:54,013
and he left a few months ago.
615
00:38:56,620 --> 00:38:58,828
You haven't seen him since?
616
00:38:58,870 --> 00:39:00,508
Here and there.
617
00:39:00,550 --> 00:39:01,978
I stay at our place in the bay
618
00:39:02,020 --> 00:39:04,003
and he got an apartment in Oakland.
619
00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:07,857
You think you'll work it out?
620
00:39:10,180 --> 00:39:11,288
I don't know.
621
00:39:11,330 --> 00:39:12,330
We're actually gonna talk
622
00:39:12,363 --> 00:39:14,033
about it when I get back on Sunday.
623
00:39:15,820 --> 00:39:18,118
It's been months, right?
624
00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:20,473
Why wait until tonight to find someone?
625
00:39:23,410 --> 00:39:28,270
I didn't. I've been out.
Been to a lot of bars.
626
00:39:29,410 --> 00:39:30,618
Met a lot of guys.
627
00:39:32,326 --> 00:39:35,626
But I never found who I was looking for.
628
00:39:39,213 --> 00:39:41,138
I guess I was looking for you.
629
00:39:45,415 --> 00:39:46,498
But why me?
630
00:39:49,210 --> 00:39:51,352
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
631
00:39:52,269 --> 00:39:54,568
You never said what you do.
632
00:39:54,610 --> 00:39:55,823
You never asked.
633
00:39:56,890 --> 00:39:57,890
Well?
634
00:40:00,700 --> 00:40:02,393
I'm a writer.
635
00:40:02,435 --> 00:40:03,609
Oh
636
00:40:03,651 --> 00:40:06,068
Anything I've seen or read?
637
00:40:07,630 --> 00:40:12,630
Probably not. But I
have some stuff out there.
638
00:40:12,850 --> 00:40:13,850
Yeah?
639
00:40:16,387 --> 00:40:18,973
Are you working on anything right now?
640
00:40:20,050 --> 00:40:21,073
Yes and no.
641
00:40:22,030 --> 00:40:23,438
How do you do that?
642
00:40:25,660 --> 00:40:29,458
Yes. Technically,
I'm working on a script.
643
00:40:29,500 --> 00:40:32,128
No, I haven't written anything yet.
644
00:40:32,170 --> 00:40:33,270
Why is that?
645
00:40:34,210 --> 00:40:35,968
No inspiration.
646
00:40:36,010 --> 00:40:37,873
Is that always a requirement?
647
00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:42,418
No, but like anything else,
648
00:40:42,460 --> 00:40:44,118
if I only worked when inspired,
649
00:40:44,160 --> 00:40:45,918
I'd never get anything done.
650
00:40:47,830 --> 00:40:49,498
But in this case it is.
651
00:40:49,540 --> 00:40:50,741
And why is that?
652
00:40:54,130 --> 00:40:55,913
Because nothing I've written yet
653
00:40:55,955 --> 00:40:57,762
has truly resonated
654
00:40:57,804 --> 00:40:59,262
with those who have to judge whether
655
00:40:59,304 --> 00:41:00,503
it's good or not.
656
00:41:02,410 --> 00:41:04,228
Meaning my previous sources
657
00:41:04,270 --> 00:41:07,213
of inspiration weren't authentic enough.
658
00:41:08,830 --> 00:41:10,044
What does that mean?
659
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:18,448
That I have not yet felt what I need
660
00:41:18,490 --> 00:41:21,403
to feel to be the writer I want to be.
661
00:41:22,720 --> 00:41:25,303
Little dramatic, but
I follow you. (laughs)
662
00:41:27,853 --> 00:41:29,671
My friend says that all the time.
663
00:41:29,713 --> 00:41:31,269
Says what?
664
00:41:31,311 --> 00:41:32,211
That I'm dramatic.
665
00:41:32,253 --> 00:41:34,648
Well, I would assume that a propensity
666
00:41:34,690 --> 00:41:35,856
for the dramatics
667
00:41:35,898 --> 00:41:37,564
would be an occupational hazard.
668
00:41:37,606 --> 00:41:39,618
(both laughing)
669
00:41:40,810 --> 00:41:41,810
I agree.
670
00:41:49,510 --> 00:41:53,023
I have this room until
Sunday. Stay with me.
671
00:41:56,110 --> 00:41:57,238
You're married.
672
00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:58,881
Separated.
673
00:41:58,923 --> 00:42:00,277
I usually don't stay the night.
674
00:42:00,319 --> 00:42:01,228
Why is that?
675
00:42:01,270 --> 00:42:02,608
I have my reasons.
676
00:42:02,650 --> 00:42:04,498
Well, I'm not asking you to move in.
677
00:42:04,540 --> 00:42:05,983
Just stay the weekend.
678
00:42:07,930 --> 00:42:09,583
I'd really love the company.
679
00:42:14,260 --> 00:42:15,260
Okay.
680
00:42:17,042 --> 00:42:18,617
(Amber Leigh laughs)
681
00:42:26,800 --> 00:42:28,233
[Amber Leigh] So when you do write,
682
00:42:28,257 --> 00:42:29,666
what do you write about?
683
00:42:30,820 --> 00:42:32,158
[Carter] Love.
684
00:42:32,200 --> 00:42:34,288
Like romance?
685
00:42:34,330 --> 00:42:36,009
Everything about it.
686
00:42:36,051 --> 00:42:37,348
The way it manipulates us,
687
00:42:37,390 --> 00:42:38,938
the way it gives mothers the strength
688
00:42:38,980 --> 00:42:41,098
to lift cars off their children,
689
00:42:41,140 --> 00:42:42,489
but it can also cause people
690
00:42:42,531 --> 00:42:43,881
to take their own lives.
691
00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:54,148
When I was in high school, my cousin,
692
00:42:54,190 --> 00:42:57,118
and honestly one of my
best friends at the time,
693
00:42:57,160 --> 00:42:58,242
he slit his wrists
694
00:42:58,284 --> 00:42:59,967
because his girlfriend dumped him.
695
00:43:01,150 --> 00:43:03,088
Can you imagine?
696
00:43:03,130 --> 00:43:04,738
You don't even know how much
697
00:43:04,780 --> 00:43:08,421
you don't know when you're 16 years old,
698
00:43:08,463 --> 00:43:09,808
but this feeling,
699
00:43:09,850 --> 00:43:12,748
this longing for someone else convinced
700
00:43:12,790 --> 00:43:14,578
him life was now meaningless
701
00:43:14,620 --> 00:43:16,768
because a girl said it was over.
702
00:43:16,810 --> 00:43:21,463
That's fascinating. And
to be real, scary as fuck.
703
00:43:23,890 --> 00:43:24,898
Did he die?
704
00:43:24,940 --> 00:43:28,423
No, but he was
institutionalized for a while.
705
00:43:29,620 --> 00:43:32,053
His family moved away
and I never saw him again.
706
00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:35,338
I'm sorry to hear that.
707
00:43:35,380 --> 00:43:36,380
It's fine.
708
00:43:38,710 --> 00:43:41,338
I actually don't tell people that,
709
00:43:41,380 --> 00:43:43,543
especially women I've just slept with.
710
00:43:44,890 --> 00:43:46,828
You've never talked about it before?
711
00:43:46,870 --> 00:43:50,128
No, I guess it was
just one of those things
712
00:43:50,170 --> 00:43:51,988
that I compartmentalized.
713
00:43:52,030 --> 00:43:53,653
Out of sight, out of mind.
714
00:43:54,730 --> 00:43:56,346
Yeah, I know what you mean.
715
00:43:58,446 --> 00:44:00,479
So have you ever been in love?
716
00:44:03,139 --> 00:44:04,585
No.
717
00:44:04,627 --> 00:44:05,968
So how can you judge?
718
00:44:06,010 --> 00:44:07,738
How can you even write about it?
719
00:44:07,780 --> 00:44:09,755
I mean, that's my problem.
720
00:44:09,797 --> 00:44:11,518
I have love in my life.
721
00:44:11,560 --> 00:44:16,183
My parents, my siblings, my friends.
722
00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:19,348
I've had my share of girls.
723
00:44:19,390 --> 00:44:21,005
Some of them I even really liked,
724
00:44:21,047 --> 00:44:23,105
but I wouldn't cry over any of them,
725
00:44:23,147 --> 00:44:24,247
let alone die.
726
00:44:26,853 --> 00:44:28,528
That's unfortunate.
727
00:44:28,570 --> 00:44:29,852
For my craft, yeah.
728
00:44:29,894 --> 00:44:32,278
But personally, I don't know.
729
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:34,588
Why would I want to fall
in love with someone only
730
00:44:34,630 --> 00:44:36,471
for them to end up in some hotel room
731
00:44:36,513 --> 00:44:38,333
with another guy?
732
00:44:38,375 --> 00:44:39,166
Touché.
733
00:44:39,208 --> 00:44:40,438
And what happens if I do,
734
00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:42,989
and it ends because everything does
735
00:44:43,031 --> 00:44:44,489
and I lose my shit?
736
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:47,128
What if I try to kill myself,
737
00:44:47,170 --> 00:44:49,813
or worse, hurt them because they dumped me?
738
00:44:51,310 --> 00:44:53,586
People do crazy shit
when they love too deep.
739
00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:55,640
Wow.
740
00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:59,100
Is that why you don't spend the night
741
00:44:59,142 --> 00:45:00,142
or pillow talk?
742
00:45:01,270 --> 00:45:02,743
You just hit and run.
743
00:45:04,420 --> 00:45:07,933
More like I hit, hit, hit then run.
744
00:45:10,559 --> 00:45:11,659
You won't feel anything
745
00:45:11,701 --> 00:45:14,008
worthwhile that way, sweetie.
746
00:45:14,050 --> 00:45:16,351
Maybe, but I don't think longevity
747
00:45:16,393 --> 00:45:17,766
legitimizes feelings.
748
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:20,138
I suppose,
749
00:45:20,180 --> 00:45:23,240
there's something to
be said about longevity.
750
00:45:24,130 --> 00:45:26,098
I mean, when you haven't
experienced something,
751
00:45:26,140 --> 00:45:28,453
it's easy to judge, easy to speculate.
752
00:45:29,740 --> 00:45:32,038
But I've been in it
and I can tell you, yeah,
753
00:45:32,080 --> 00:45:34,096
that flame fades if you don't both
754
00:45:34,138 --> 00:45:35,998
shield and protect it.
755
00:45:36,040 --> 00:45:37,573
But when it's raging and
756
00:45:37,615 --> 00:45:40,258
you're both basking in its glow,
757
00:45:40,300 --> 00:45:41,717
there's nothing like it.
758
00:45:43,150 --> 00:45:45,233
That person, for better or worse,
759
00:45:45,275 --> 00:45:47,638
is perfect in your eyes.
760
00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:50,098
And you'd do anything to see
761
00:45:50,140 --> 00:45:53,218
them smile or protect them from pain.
762
00:45:53,260 --> 00:45:55,378
Because when you're in it long enough,
763
00:45:55,420 --> 00:45:57,583
their joy and sorrow are yours.
764
00:45:58,870 --> 00:45:59,950
And when it gets like that,
765
00:45:59,980 --> 00:46:02,008
you take on a small part of that person
766
00:46:02,050 --> 00:46:03,853
and they take on a part of you.
767
00:46:05,226 --> 00:46:06,242
And you'll both carry
768
00:46:06,284 --> 00:46:08,248
that with you for the rest of your lives.
769
00:46:09,370 --> 00:46:10,370
Wow.
770
00:46:13,690 --> 00:46:17,578
I get that as much as I can.
771
00:46:17,620 --> 00:46:18,778
But I do think you can have
772
00:46:18,820 --> 00:46:22,243
that same flame in a
tryst that lasts only days.
773
00:46:23,590 --> 00:46:25,468
I guess anything's possible.
774
00:46:25,510 --> 00:46:28,348
And to feel something like that
775
00:46:28,390 --> 00:46:30,948
is to be able to draw on a well of
776
00:46:30,990 --> 00:46:32,981
infinite inspiration.
777
00:46:35,860 --> 00:46:37,467
So what you were looking for tonight
778
00:46:37,509 --> 00:46:38,509
was a muse?
779
00:46:39,490 --> 00:46:40,490
Yeah.
780
00:46:41,350 --> 00:46:42,473
You don't go looking
781
00:46:42,515 --> 00:46:44,818
for something like that, dear.
782
00:46:44,860 --> 00:46:45,860
It finds you.
783
00:46:47,140 --> 00:46:49,663
But when will that be?
784
00:46:50,650 --> 00:46:53,803
Like, I want to do great work now.
785
00:46:55,330 --> 00:46:56,743
You remind me of him.
786
00:46:57,640 --> 00:46:59,248
Who?
787
00:46:59,290 --> 00:47:01,078
My husband.
788
00:47:01,120 --> 00:47:05,848
When he was younger.
Must be some male thing.
789
00:47:05,890 --> 00:47:08,083
So eager to be great.
790
00:47:10,360 --> 00:47:12,028
What does that even mean?
791
00:47:12,070 --> 00:47:13,093
I don't know.
792
00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:19,158
It's kind of like, you know...
793
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:22,947
Hold that thought.
794
00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:29,968
[Amber Leigh] These might help.
795
00:47:30,010 --> 00:47:31,200
[Carter] Are those edibles?
796
00:47:31,242 --> 00:47:33,448
Yeah. They're gummy bears.
797
00:47:33,490 --> 00:47:34,772
I bought 'em earlier.
798
00:47:34,814 --> 00:47:36,378
They're supposed to be strong.
799
00:47:36,420 --> 00:47:37,211
How are those gonna help?
800
00:47:37,253 --> 00:47:39,028
Trust me, what you're trying to describe
801
00:47:39,070 --> 00:47:41,908
is very abstract and quite subjective.
802
00:47:41,950 --> 00:47:45,913
So these might help
crystallize those thoughts.
803
00:47:46,870 --> 00:47:48,671
Besides, I bought them
intending to eat them
804
00:47:48,713 --> 00:47:50,551
so that's what I'm gonna do.
805
00:47:50,593 --> 00:47:51,609
Come on.
806
00:47:57,040 --> 00:48:00,493
Open up. You get two 'cause you're bigger.
807
00:48:01,453 --> 00:48:02,986
(Amber Leigh laughs)
808
00:48:04,753 --> 00:48:05,753
Your turn.
809
00:48:15,820 --> 00:48:20,113
So what, we wait 15-20
minutes till they kick in?
810
00:48:21,900 --> 00:48:23,353
Yeah, give or take.
811
00:48:24,220 --> 00:48:25,918
What do we do till then?
812
00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:27,027
Just keep going.
813
00:48:32,260 --> 00:48:33,355
About greatness?
814
00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:36,080
Yeah.
815
00:48:46,540 --> 00:48:49,468
Do you know who Preston Sturges is?
816
00:48:49,510 --> 00:48:50,510
No.
817
00:48:51,610 --> 00:48:54,568
He was this writer and director
818
00:48:54,610 --> 00:48:56,568
in the 1930s and '40s.
819
00:48:57,430 --> 00:48:59,008
The first of his kind.
820
00:48:59,050 --> 00:49:03,016
And during this period of five or so years,
821
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:06,318
writes and directs a string of
822
00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:08,548
bona fide classics.
823
00:49:08,590 --> 00:49:12,665
"The Great McGinty", "Christmas in July",
824
00:49:12,707 --> 00:49:16,325
"The Lady Eve", "The Palm Beach Story",
825
00:49:16,367 --> 00:49:20,167
"Sullivan's Travels", "Hail
the Conquering Hero",
826
00:49:21,017 --> 00:49:23,669
"The Miracle of Morgan's Creek".
827
00:49:23,711 --> 00:49:25,018
And depending on how you feel
828
00:49:25,060 --> 00:49:26,618
about "The Great Moment",
829
00:49:26,660 --> 00:49:27,928
and "Unfaithfully Yours",
830
00:49:27,970 --> 00:49:31,483
his streak doesn't end until the late '40s.
831
00:49:32,950 --> 00:49:35,010
Wait, so you want to direct too?
832
00:49:36,070 --> 00:49:39,077
Yeah. I've made a couple of short films,
833
00:49:39,119 --> 00:49:40,408
but yeah.
834
00:49:40,450 --> 00:49:43,573
That's the dream, to direct what I write.
835
00:49:44,410 --> 00:49:45,628
Wow.
836
00:49:45,670 --> 00:49:46,828
Ambitious.
837
00:49:46,870 --> 00:49:49,470
If you're gonna dream,
you gotta dream big.
838
00:49:51,070 --> 00:49:53,320
So what kind of movies did Preston make?
839
00:49:57,070 --> 00:49:59,548
Mainly screwball comedies.
840
00:49:59,590 --> 00:50:04,590
But his dialogue,
impeccable, ahead of his time.
841
00:50:04,780 --> 00:50:08,580
And his films, masterstrokes.
842
00:50:10,180 --> 00:50:12,379
This was a man who by his late 20s
843
00:50:12,421 --> 00:50:14,087
was a failed inventor
844
00:50:14,129 --> 00:50:17,908
and songwriter with no clear direction.
845
00:50:17,950 --> 00:50:20,938
And in an act of spite
towards a former lover,
846
00:50:20,980 --> 00:50:23,208
writes a play that launches his career.
847
00:50:26,140 --> 00:50:28,443
Love is a hell of a motivator.
848
00:50:28,485 --> 00:50:29,709
I mean, look at this,
849
00:50:29,751 --> 00:50:31,875
I'm talking about his work today.
850
00:50:31,917 --> 00:50:35,758
That's great work. That's greatness.
851
00:50:35,800 --> 00:50:37,150
And that's what you want?
852
00:50:39,989 --> 00:50:41,639
I want my life to have purpose.
853
00:50:44,500 --> 00:50:49,500
I want to write something
meaningful that lasts.
854
00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:53,128
Something that'll get me my own apartment
855
00:50:53,170 --> 00:50:55,978
and kick-start my career.
856
00:50:56,020 --> 00:50:58,768
And hopefully, people will read
857
00:50:58,810 --> 00:51:00,778
or watch that thing I created
858
00:51:00,820 --> 00:51:03,538
and decide they too
want to create something.
859
00:51:03,580 --> 00:51:06,080
That's a thing worth striving for,
860
00:51:06,122 --> 00:51:07,397
at least to me.
861
00:51:08,320 --> 00:51:12,553
Yeah. I agree. But
not everyone wants that.
862
00:51:13,540 --> 00:51:15,433
Some people just want to exist.
863
00:51:16,810 --> 00:51:18,001
How about them?
864
00:51:23,530 --> 00:51:25,093
Then they can do that.
865
00:51:26,500 --> 00:51:28,363
You can live however you want to live.
866
00:51:29,290 --> 00:51:31,127
That's the beauty of it.
867
00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:35,068
It's not always that simple.
868
00:51:35,110 --> 00:51:36,688
Why not?
869
00:51:36,730 --> 00:51:38,048
People, society,
870
00:51:38,090 --> 00:51:40,121
they force their beliefs on you.
871
00:51:40,163 --> 00:51:41,760
Some people are never given the chance
872
00:51:41,802 --> 00:51:43,075
to live their own life.
873
00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:47,548
What are you doing? (laughs)
874
00:51:50,163 --> 00:51:53,518
You're wearing my shirt
and I was getting cold.
875
00:51:53,560 --> 00:51:55,623
Plus this is comfortable as fuck.
876
00:51:55,665 --> 00:51:58,332
(both laughing)
877
00:51:59,830 --> 00:52:02,751
I think I'm starting to
feel those gummy bears.
878
00:52:02,793 --> 00:52:03,861
(both laughing)
879
00:52:03,903 --> 00:52:07,431
Really? I don't think
I'm feeling mine yet.
880
00:52:07,473 --> 00:52:08,998
(both laughing)
881
00:52:09,040 --> 00:52:10,374
At all.
882
00:52:27,730 --> 00:52:30,562
I think everyone gets a chance
883
00:52:30,604 --> 00:52:32,029
to live their own life.
884
00:52:33,760 --> 00:52:35,363
For some, it's just much harder
885
00:52:35,405 --> 00:52:36,992
to get that opportunity.
886
00:52:37,034 --> 00:52:38,518
But as long as you keep fighting,
887
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:41,593
it's yours and it makes for a better story.
888
00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:44,923
Shit happens. Horrible shit.
889
00:52:45,771 --> 00:52:47,398
But I really do believe
890
00:52:47,440 --> 00:52:49,223
all of it serves a purpose
891
00:52:49,265 --> 00:52:50,780
if you can ride it out.
892
00:52:54,220 --> 00:52:55,795
I suppose so.
893
00:52:55,837 --> 00:52:59,188
But what if you're not
sure what your purpose is?
894
00:52:59,230 --> 00:53:01,562
What if you've lost your way
895
00:53:01,604 --> 00:53:04,318
or you don't even have one?
896
00:53:04,360 --> 00:53:05,425
I think we're always right
897
00:53:05,449 --> 00:53:07,193
where we're supposed to be.
898
00:53:07,235 --> 00:53:10,633
And everyone has a
purpose, whether big or small.
899
00:53:12,220 --> 00:53:13,558
But who am I to judge
900
00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:17,395
how big or small a person's purpose is?
901
00:53:17,437 --> 00:53:18,687
True.
902
00:53:20,369 --> 00:53:22,618
But if you'll indulge me for a second.
903
00:53:22,660 --> 00:53:23,660
Yeah.
904
00:53:32,220 --> 00:53:35,848
In the end, I don't
think anyone's purpose
905
00:53:35,890 --> 00:53:38,053
is more important than anyone else's.
906
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:41,683
In the eyes of God, it's all equal.
907
00:53:42,970 --> 00:53:46,498
In fact, I think each of our purposes
908
00:53:46,540 --> 00:53:48,165
actually serve each other.
909
00:53:49,810 --> 00:53:52,798
It's like, we're all different ingredients
910
00:53:52,840 --> 00:53:56,953
in this massive cosmic cake.
911
00:53:59,170 --> 00:54:03,193
And when we pursue whatever
it is our hearts truly desire,
912
00:54:04,390 --> 00:54:09,390
we not only release our own
unique flavor into the cosmos,
913
00:54:09,520 --> 00:54:12,343
but we inspire others to do the same,
914
00:54:14,770 --> 00:54:18,133
producing this divine dessert.
915
00:54:21,790 --> 00:54:24,028
It's the pursuit of the dream
916
00:54:24,070 --> 00:54:27,598
that causes life changing
encounters to happen.
917
00:54:27,640 --> 00:54:31,168
You end up at the right
place at the right time
918
00:54:31,210 --> 00:54:36,103
to meet the right person, like you and me.
919
00:54:37,450 --> 00:54:39,101
You and me?
920
00:54:39,143 --> 00:54:40,143
You and me.
921
00:54:48,760 --> 00:54:49,760
I like that.
922
00:54:53,034 --> 00:54:55,678
That actually reminds me of my mom.
923
00:54:55,720 --> 00:54:56,720
How so?
924
00:54:57,760 --> 00:55:01,228
She's a teacher, and
she's one of those teachers
925
00:55:01,270 --> 00:55:03,103
who really loves what they do.
926
00:55:04,360 --> 00:55:09,360
It's not a job to her, but
a privilege and a duty.
927
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:12,388
She really invests in her students
928
00:55:12,430 --> 00:55:13,963
like they were her own kids.
929
00:55:14,943 --> 00:55:17,518
I mean, I can't even
tell you how many times
930
00:55:17,560 --> 00:55:20,143
over the years they've
come back to thank her.
931
00:55:22,900 --> 00:55:25,438
You said when we pursue
what our heart desires,
932
00:55:25,480 --> 00:55:27,583
we inspire others to do the same.
933
00:55:28,840 --> 00:55:31,193
Reminds me of all the lives she touched.
934
00:55:33,010 --> 00:55:34,991
Sounds like an amazing woman.
935
00:55:36,640 --> 00:55:37,807
What about your dad?
936
00:55:40,930 --> 00:55:44,113
I don't know. He walked out on us.
937
00:55:46,270 --> 00:55:47,270
I'm sorry.
938
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:49,400
Me too.
939
00:55:52,630 --> 00:55:53,630
What?
940
00:55:55,060 --> 00:55:57,478
I don't normally tell people that.
941
00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:00,283
I usually just say he
died before I was born.
942
00:56:02,140 --> 00:56:05,113
I guess it's just one of those
things you compartmentalize.
943
00:56:06,190 --> 00:56:07,190
I feel you.
944
00:56:09,160 --> 00:56:10,578
Do you have any kids?
945
00:56:13,330 --> 00:56:14,330
No.
946
00:56:15,940 --> 00:56:18,223
I've never had that motherly instinct.
947
00:56:19,480 --> 00:56:22,423
I guess my mom kept my share for herself.
948
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:27,593
I mean, I love kids, other people's kids,
949
00:56:27,635 --> 00:56:31,528
mainly because you don't
have to take 'em home with you.
950
00:56:31,570 --> 00:56:34,888
It sounds so horrible
out loud, but I don't know.
951
00:56:34,930 --> 00:56:36,793
I've just never had that urge.
952
00:56:37,810 --> 00:56:40,030
My husband used to feel the same way.
953
00:56:41,440 --> 00:56:42,506
He wants them?
954
00:56:44,290 --> 00:56:45,081
Yeah.
955
00:56:45,123 --> 00:56:46,248
And you don't?
956
00:56:47,770 --> 00:56:48,958
No.
957
00:56:49,000 --> 00:56:51,400
You think you'll ever change your mind?
958
00:56:55,216 --> 00:56:56,513
Who knows?
959
00:56:58,333 --> 00:57:00,000
What are your parents like?
960
00:57:03,790 --> 00:57:08,473
Kind, loving, steadfast.
961
00:57:09,550 --> 00:57:11,248
They worry about me at times,
962
00:57:11,290 --> 00:57:14,188
but it all comes from a good place.
963
00:57:14,230 --> 00:57:15,570
Worry about what?
964
00:57:16,750 --> 00:57:21,613
Typical stuff like, am I
eating anything besides noodles?
965
00:57:22,930 --> 00:57:25,333
Am I homeless on skid row?
966
00:57:26,380 --> 00:57:28,033
Will I ever get a real job?
967
00:57:30,400 --> 00:57:32,943
I actually told them if I
don't win this next contest,
968
00:57:32,985 --> 00:57:33,985
I'm going home.
969
00:57:34,990 --> 00:57:36,540
Do you think you'll win?
970
00:57:37,960 --> 00:57:39,960
Depends if I ever write anything.
971
00:57:44,890 --> 00:57:46,630
I'm sure it'll come to you.
972
00:57:50,709 --> 00:57:51,959
Hey, come here.
973
00:57:55,210 --> 00:57:56,601
What are we doing?
974
00:57:57,460 --> 00:57:59,663
My husband and I used to do this.
975
00:58:00,880 --> 00:58:04,423
It's a breathing technique
to harmonize our energies.
976
00:58:05,830 --> 00:58:07,648
I think there's something really powerful
977
00:58:07,690 --> 00:58:09,283
about two souls in sync,
978
00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:12,351
and I want to be in sync with you.
979
00:58:13,570 --> 00:58:14,570
Okay.
980
00:58:15,670 --> 00:58:16,903
Call me Bluetooth.
981
00:58:19,570 --> 00:58:24,570
Do you believe in higher
power, spirits, souls?
982
00:58:29,407 --> 00:58:31,298
(heavy breathing)
983
00:58:33,130 --> 00:58:38,023
Honestly, I'm high
enough to believe anything.
984
00:58:40,660 --> 00:58:41,998
Well, you have this cross
985
00:58:42,040 --> 00:58:44,473
and you were talking about God before.
986
00:58:47,190 --> 00:58:48,682
Do you think he's real?
987
00:58:49,684 --> 00:58:50,684
I do.
988
00:58:52,306 --> 00:58:53,306
Do you?
989
00:58:56,140 --> 00:58:59,520
I definitely think there's
more to life than what we see.
990
00:59:04,210 --> 00:59:07,663
When I'm stressed, I
like to go to the beach.
991
00:59:08,740 --> 00:59:10,513
And when I look out at it all,
992
00:59:11,410 --> 00:59:14,083
it never fails to put
everything into perspective.
993
00:59:15,370 --> 00:59:20,370
How insignificant I am,
let alone my problems.
994
00:59:21,970 --> 00:59:24,620
The water reaches further than I can see
995
00:59:25,630 --> 00:59:27,613
and is deeper than I can imagine.
996
00:59:28,630 --> 00:59:31,708
Blown this way and that by a force
997
00:59:31,750 --> 00:59:33,883
I can neither hold nor a see.
998
00:59:35,200 --> 00:59:39,538
An entire ecosystem
thrives beneath its surface,
999
00:59:39,580 --> 00:59:41,968
warmed and sustained by a giant ball
1000
00:59:42,010 --> 00:59:47,010
of fire floating in the
sky millions of miles away.
1001
00:59:49,480 --> 00:59:52,453
But why, and for who?
1002
00:59:53,770 --> 00:59:58,183
Me, you, God?
1003
01:00:01,510 --> 01:00:06,510
Questions for a much less
stimulated mind than myself.
1004
01:00:09,550 --> 01:00:13,663
But I do think our
insignificance is our freedom.
1005
01:00:15,790 --> 01:00:17,218
All of this is gonna continue
1006
01:00:17,260 --> 01:00:19,753
on to some extent long after we're gone.
1007
01:00:20,890 --> 01:00:23,938
So in the meantime,
1008
01:00:23,980 --> 01:00:26,472
we might as well put this time to good use,
1009
01:00:27,400 --> 01:00:30,778
try to do our best, be our best,
1010
01:00:30,820 --> 01:00:33,586
and leave it a little better
than how we found it.
1011
01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:41,263
You're adorable.
1012
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:50,818
My head's spinning.
1013
01:00:53,590 --> 01:00:56,368
A little too adorable.
1014
01:00:56,410 --> 01:00:59,713
No, seriously. I think
I need to lay down.
1015
01:01:01,030 --> 01:01:02,030
Okay.
1016
01:01:06,850 --> 01:01:07,875
Come here.
1017
01:01:18,070 --> 01:01:20,778
I've never talked to
someone like this before.
1018
01:01:23,404 --> 01:01:26,563
I've never met someone like you.
1019
01:01:30,784 --> 01:01:32,790
I think I'm...
1020
01:01:32,832 --> 01:01:33,926
Shhh...
1021
01:01:33,968 --> 01:01:35,468
Just having fun.
1022
01:01:38,031 --> 01:01:39,958
A lot of fun...
1023
01:01:40,000 --> 01:01:41,500
(gentle music)
1024
01:02:21,366 --> 01:02:23,441
(shower running)
1025
01:02:36,186 --> 01:02:37,811
(gentle music ends)
1026
01:02:37,853 --> 01:02:40,770
(typing on keyboard)
1027
01:02:45,853 --> 01:02:47,686
[Amber Leigh] How are you feeling?
1028
01:02:53,500 --> 01:02:54,773
[Carter] Fantastic.
1029
01:02:56,767 --> 01:02:59,008
I could get used to waking up to you.
1030
01:02:59,050 --> 01:03:00,673
Enjoy it while it lasts.
1031
01:03:01,887 --> 01:03:02,887
I plan to.
1032
01:03:09,850 --> 01:03:11,562
Did you sleep at all?
1033
01:03:11,604 --> 01:03:12,395
A little bit.
1034
01:03:12,437 --> 01:03:14,400
- Yeah?
- I just woke up myself.
1035
01:03:15,610 --> 01:03:17,066
I got some room service some is on
1036
01:03:17,108 --> 01:03:18,751
the table if you're hungry.
1037
01:03:24,640 --> 01:03:25,861
What were you doing?
1038
01:03:25,903 --> 01:03:27,208
Just a little work.
1039
01:03:27,250 --> 01:03:28,409
Yeah?
1040
01:03:28,451 --> 01:03:29,451
Yeah.
1041
01:04:02,380 --> 01:04:04,063
So really,
1042
01:04:04,105 --> 01:04:07,855
what do you do? This place is beautiful.
1043
01:04:08,740 --> 01:04:09,960
I'm in real estate.
1044
01:04:10,810 --> 01:04:12,028
What kind?
1045
01:04:12,070 --> 01:04:13,288
Commercial.
1046
01:04:13,330 --> 01:04:16,304
My husband and I have
a very successful firm.
1047
01:04:16,346 --> 01:04:17,670
Oh
1048
01:04:17,712 --> 01:04:19,795
How does that work now?
1049
01:04:20,967 --> 01:04:23,084
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
1050
01:04:24,010 --> 01:04:26,158
If we officially split, do I buy him out,
1051
01:04:26,200 --> 01:04:27,235
does he buy me out?
1052
01:04:27,277 --> 01:04:29,173
And if I sell, what do I do then?
1053
01:04:30,940 --> 01:04:33,250
Do you like real estate?
1054
01:04:33,292 --> 01:04:35,878
Yeah, it's been good to me.
1055
01:04:35,920 --> 01:04:39,401
It's been kind of me and
my husband's shared passion.
1056
01:04:39,443 --> 01:04:41,638
We work well together.
1057
01:04:41,680 --> 01:04:44,097
It's been like that
since we met in college.
1058
01:04:45,820 --> 01:04:47,578
I make this trip a couple of times
1059
01:04:47,620 --> 01:04:49,693
a month to check on our accounts.
1060
01:04:50,950 --> 01:04:53,008
I'm good at managing relationships
1061
01:04:53,050 --> 01:04:55,813
and talking to people and
he would close the deals.
1062
01:04:56,800 --> 01:04:58,543
We made a dashing power couple.
1063
01:05:01,180 --> 01:05:02,683
When we first started, I,
1064
01:05:03,910 --> 01:05:06,583
we both had this dream
of building an empire.
1065
01:05:07,988 --> 01:05:09,418
I can understand that.
1066
01:05:09,460 --> 01:05:12,253
Sure you can. But things changed.
1067
01:05:13,540 --> 01:05:14,540
How so?
1068
01:05:16,510 --> 01:05:17,551
We got older.
1069
01:05:18,670 --> 01:05:20,218
He just turned 40 this year
1070
01:05:20,260 --> 01:05:23,203
and we started wanting different things.
1071
01:05:26,920 --> 01:05:30,073
Sounds like you could use a fresh start.
1072
01:05:31,900 --> 01:05:32,900
Maybe.
1073
01:05:37,570 --> 01:05:39,928
You want to shower and get out of here?
1074
01:05:39,970 --> 01:05:41,453
I'd love some fresh air.
1075
01:05:43,660 --> 01:05:44,660
Yeah, sure.
1076
01:05:58,960 --> 01:06:01,627
(shower running)
1077
01:06:03,342 --> 01:06:05,492
(Carter humming)
1078
01:06:23,170 --> 01:06:24,922
[Carter] Does it count if you take a shower
1079
01:06:24,964 --> 01:06:26,548
and get back into the same clothes?
1080
01:06:26,590 --> 01:06:28,001
[Amber] Well, that depends.
1081
01:06:28,043 --> 01:06:29,292
Did you wear those clothes
1082
01:06:29,334 --> 01:06:31,858
all day yesterday or only last night?
1083
01:06:31,900 --> 01:06:33,568
Only last night.
1084
01:06:33,610 --> 01:06:35,548
Well, the jeans should be good.
1085
01:06:35,590 --> 01:06:36,766
You can wear this shirt for now
1086
01:06:36,790 --> 01:06:40,168
and we can get you another
one on the boardwalk.
1087
01:06:40,210 --> 01:06:42,508
Whatever you say Mrs. Leigh.
1088
01:06:42,550 --> 01:06:44,368
Amber is fine.
1089
01:06:44,410 --> 01:06:46,084
Come on. Where's the fun in that.
1090
01:06:46,126 --> 01:06:47,434
You're my Mrs. Robinson.
1091
01:06:47,476 --> 01:06:48,942
Shut up!
1092
01:06:48,984 --> 01:06:52,484
(Amber Leigh shrieks and laughs)
1093
01:06:54,504 --> 01:06:57,087
(romantic music)
1094
01:07:02,500 --> 01:07:04,318
[Amber Leigh] So did you play any sports?
1095
01:07:04,360 --> 01:07:05,360
(romantic music ends)
1096
01:07:05,392 --> 01:07:07,346
[Carter] Why, 'cause I'm tall and black?
1097
01:07:07,388 --> 01:07:08,388
Yeah.
1098
01:07:09,430 --> 01:07:11,428
I played basketball in college.
1099
01:07:11,470 --> 01:07:12,561
Look at you!
1100
01:07:13,570 --> 01:07:15,343
Yeah, it was my first love.
1101
01:07:16,240 --> 01:07:19,140
Well, you're in LA, so I'm
guessing you're a Lakers fan?
1102
01:07:20,244 --> 01:07:23,683
Not so much, but I was
a big, big Kobe fan though.
1103
01:07:24,610 --> 01:07:26,266
Yeah, I was actually
in line to board a plane
1104
01:07:26,290 --> 01:07:28,610
when I heard about that accident.
1105
01:07:28,652 --> 01:07:29,743
It was so tragic.
1106
01:07:30,640 --> 01:07:32,338
Yeah, it was.
1107
01:07:32,380 --> 01:07:34,708
The whole city mourned for weeks.
1108
01:07:34,750 --> 01:07:36,870
On some level, I think always will.
1109
01:07:38,080 --> 01:07:40,205
But if I took anything
away from his death it's that
1110
01:07:40,247 --> 01:07:42,508
if we dedicate the short amount of time
1111
01:07:42,550 --> 01:07:45,770
we have to the pursuit of
greatness, then it's attainable.
1112
01:07:46,630 --> 01:07:49,318
Well, you're consistent
in thought at least.
1113
01:07:49,360 --> 01:07:50,510
That's what it takes.
1114
01:07:51,640 --> 01:07:54,148
So you had no professional aspirations?
1115
01:07:54,190 --> 01:07:57,178
Of course, but I
discovered I had other loves
1116
01:07:57,220 --> 01:08:00,673
and had I given basketball all I had, so.
1117
01:08:01,840 --> 01:08:04,993
How about you? You're pretty fit yourself.
1118
01:08:06,100 --> 01:08:09,568
Thanks. Personal
fitness is a passion of mine.
1119
01:08:09,610 --> 01:08:10,401
I run.
1120
01:08:10,443 --> 01:08:14,998
And in high school, I
danced and played soccer.
1121
01:08:15,040 --> 01:08:17,548
Actually just started dancing again.
1122
01:08:17,590 --> 01:08:18,848
How's that going?
1123
01:08:20,020 --> 01:08:22,318
Pretty good. It's different
than what I'm used to.
1124
01:08:22,360 --> 01:08:23,360
How so?
1125
01:08:25,360 --> 01:08:27,130
It's a pole dancing class.
1126
01:08:27,172 --> 01:08:29,578
(both laughing)
1127
01:08:29,620 --> 01:08:31,288
Are you any good?
1128
01:08:31,330 --> 01:08:33,669
I mean, I'm starting
to get the hang of it.
1129
01:08:33,711 --> 01:08:35,056
But, you know, it's fun and it keeps
1130
01:08:35,080 --> 01:08:37,048
me motivated to stay in shape.
1131
01:08:37,090 --> 01:08:38,908
I have to come see you perform.
1132
01:08:38,950 --> 01:08:41,788
Not a chance, and it
won't be for a few months.
1133
01:08:41,830 --> 01:08:44,158
Come on. I'll make the time.
1134
01:08:44,200 --> 01:08:45,625
That's sweet, but no.
1135
01:08:45,667 --> 01:08:47,566
No, seriously. I'll come
to the Bay and then...
1136
01:08:47,590 --> 01:08:49,528
Sweetie, this isn't a permanent thing.
1137
01:08:49,570 --> 01:08:51,118
It ends tomorrow. I'm married.
1138
01:08:51,160 --> 01:08:52,768
Separated.
1139
01:08:52,810 --> 01:08:55,168
Let's just enjoy the time for now.
1140
01:08:55,210 --> 01:08:56,341
Fuck the future.
1141
01:08:59,710 --> 01:09:00,710
Sure.
1142
01:09:02,596 --> 01:09:05,179
(romantic music)
1143
01:09:46,540 --> 01:09:49,018
[Carter] You ever notice
how most interracial couples
1144
01:09:49,060 --> 01:09:50,954
are black guys with white girls?
1145
01:09:50,996 --> 01:09:51,787
(romantic music ends)
1146
01:09:51,829 --> 01:09:53,080
[Amber Leigh] I guess so.
1147
01:09:53,122 --> 01:09:54,463
Why do you think that is?
1148
01:09:54,505 --> 01:09:58,980
Do white girls have a black
guy fetish or vice versa?
1149
01:10:00,460 --> 01:10:04,528
I think it's a mutual
fetishism. Can I be honest?
1150
01:10:04,570 --> 01:10:05,728
Always.
1151
01:10:05,770 --> 01:10:07,931
Black guys have always had this stigma
1152
01:10:07,973 --> 01:10:10,438
you know, like they're off limits.
1153
01:10:10,480 --> 01:10:11,848
My mom didn't care either way,
1154
01:10:11,890 --> 01:10:13,558
but the girls I grew up with,
1155
01:10:13,600 --> 01:10:15,598
their parents wouldn't stand for it.
1156
01:10:15,640 --> 01:10:18,118
You don't bring a black guy
home unless you want a fight.
1157
01:10:18,160 --> 01:10:19,618
And anything like that
1158
01:10:19,660 --> 01:10:22,768
is immediately attractive on some level.
1159
01:10:22,810 --> 01:10:23,993
Plus, all the talk about
1160
01:10:24,035 --> 01:10:26,376
how big you guys', you know... (laughing)
1161
01:10:27,784 --> 01:10:29,738
Makes a girl very curious.
1162
01:10:29,780 --> 01:10:31,118
(both laughing)
1163
01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:31,951
I feel you.
1164
01:10:31,993 --> 01:10:35,158
With white girls, it's
a little bit different,
1165
01:10:35,200 --> 01:10:37,138
but also very similar.
1166
01:10:37,180 --> 01:10:38,296
If you bring a white girl home,
1167
01:10:38,320 --> 01:10:40,025
you'll get the typical flack like,
1168
01:10:40,067 --> 01:10:42,298
"You couldn't find yourself a black girl?"
1169
01:10:42,340 --> 01:10:45,778
Which annoys the hell
out of me. But I get it.
1170
01:10:45,820 --> 01:10:47,746
There's this feeling that
if you get a white girl,
1171
01:10:47,770 --> 01:10:49,948
you've made it or you're on your way.
1172
01:10:49,990 --> 01:10:51,598
So I understand the resentment.
1173
01:10:51,640 --> 01:10:54,096
But at the same time,
you like who you like.
1174
01:10:54,138 --> 01:10:56,158
I mean, I've been with all sorts of women.
1175
01:10:56,200 --> 01:11:01,200
Black girls, white girls,
Latinas, Asians, Indians.
1176
01:11:01,570 --> 01:11:02,668
I love women.
1177
01:11:02,710 --> 01:11:03,551
Oh, really?
1178
01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,563
I do. I'm an artist.
1179
01:11:05,605 --> 01:11:07,402
They're my greatest asset.
1180
01:11:07,444 --> 01:11:08,998
Shut up. (laughing)
1181
01:11:09,040 --> 01:11:10,487
I'm just being honest.
1182
01:11:11,530 --> 01:11:12,988
I remember this one time,
1183
01:11:13,030 --> 01:11:16,228
I took this girl out and she was white.
1184
01:11:16,270 --> 01:11:19,198
And her dad was not a
fan of black guys at all,
1185
01:11:19,240 --> 01:11:23,038
which he made very clear
throughout the course of the night.
1186
01:11:23,080 --> 01:11:24,958
I mean, every couple of minutes,
1187
01:11:25,000 --> 01:11:26,128
he was blowing her phone up,
1188
01:11:26,170 --> 01:11:27,975
and eventually she read
me some of the texts.
1189
01:11:28,017 --> 01:11:29,945
It was this fucked up shit like,
1190
01:11:29,987 --> 01:11:32,765
"DON'T COME HOME TONIGHT
YOU FUCKING NIGGER LOVER!"
1191
01:11:32,807 --> 01:11:33,598
In all caps.
1192
01:11:33,640 --> 01:11:35,128
What the hell? That's horrible.
1193
01:11:35,170 --> 01:11:36,118
I know, right?
1194
01:11:36,160 --> 01:11:38,576
So later that night while we're hooking up,
1195
01:11:39,730 --> 01:11:41,774
I kinda start laughing to myself
1196
01:11:41,816 --> 01:11:42,991
because I feel like I'm doing
1197
01:11:43,033 --> 01:11:46,215
my ancestors a solid by
fucking this racist's daughter.
1198
01:11:47,080 --> 01:11:50,368
Wow. What do you want me to say to that?
1199
01:11:50,410 --> 01:11:51,793
Congratulations?
1200
01:11:52,960 --> 01:11:54,748
I'm just saying, I agree with you.
1201
01:11:54,790 --> 01:11:56,398
The forbidden is attractive
1202
01:11:56,440 --> 01:12:00,073
because at one point,
this was truly forbidden.
1203
01:12:01,083 --> 01:12:02,083
I know.
1204
01:12:03,647 --> 01:12:06,898
So all these girls and you've
really never been in love?
1205
01:12:06,940 --> 01:12:09,898
No. They didn't seem worth the risk.
1206
01:12:09,940 --> 01:12:13,078
The risk? That's one way to put it.
1207
01:12:13,120 --> 01:12:15,478
I told you, love's the biggest risk.
1208
01:12:15,520 --> 01:12:17,493
My cousin tried to slit his wrists.
1209
01:12:18,820 --> 01:12:22,258
So how are you ever gonna
write about it convincingly?
1210
01:12:22,300 --> 01:12:23,920
Well, my theory is you can have
1211
01:12:23,962 --> 01:12:27,058
the high and inspiration
of love without the pain.
1212
01:12:27,100 --> 01:12:30,538
Just keep your relationship
short and passionate.
1213
01:12:30,580 --> 01:12:33,043
You don't need to fall
in love with your muse.
1214
01:12:34,429 --> 01:12:35,998
But that hasn't worked.
1215
01:12:36,040 --> 01:12:37,507
Doesn't mean it won't.
1216
01:12:48,730 --> 01:12:50,472
Let's keep walking.
1217
01:12:50,514 --> 01:12:51,514
Okay.
1218
01:12:52,406 --> 01:12:53,696
(romantic music)
1219
01:13:16,472 --> 01:13:17,763
(romantic music ends)
1220
01:13:17,805 --> 01:13:18,805
[Amber Leigh] What?
1221
01:13:18,830 --> 01:13:20,042
[Carter] You ever notice how things
1222
01:13:20,066 --> 01:13:21,898
in life work differently for you?
1223
01:13:21,940 --> 01:13:23,645
What do you mean?
1224
01:13:23,687 --> 01:13:25,198
Well, you're a beautiful,
1225
01:13:25,240 --> 01:13:27,748
blonde white woman in America.
1226
01:13:27,790 --> 01:13:29,890
That's like the ultimate cheat code.
1227
01:13:33,850 --> 01:13:36,388
Have you ever heard
of David Foster Wallace?
1228
01:13:36,430 --> 01:13:39,418
Yeah. I'm actually surprised you have.
1229
01:13:39,460 --> 01:13:41,689
Why? Because I'm blonde?
1230
01:13:41,731 --> 01:13:42,778
Well, yeah.
1231
01:13:42,820 --> 01:13:45,298
Well, I have. I actually love to read.
1232
01:13:45,340 --> 01:13:46,678
Thank you very much.
1233
01:13:46,720 --> 01:13:48,478
So you've read his stuff?
1234
01:13:48,520 --> 01:13:49,873
I mean, sort of.
1235
01:13:51,130 --> 01:13:53,728
I picked up this little
book once in a bookstore
1236
01:13:53,770 --> 01:13:56,788
and it was basically a
commencement speech he gave.
1237
01:13:56,830 --> 01:13:58,360
I read it on the spot
1238
01:13:58,402 --> 01:14:00,313
and it stuck with me ever since.
1239
01:14:01,420 --> 01:14:03,298
Aren't you full of surprises?
1240
01:14:03,340 --> 01:14:08,038
Real estate exec, pole dancer, avid reader.
1241
01:14:08,080 --> 01:14:10,258
Not your typical blonde.
1242
01:14:10,300 --> 01:14:12,463
No. Far from it.
1243
01:14:15,100 --> 01:14:17,938
Well, anyway, in this
speech, he tells this story
1244
01:14:17,980 --> 01:14:20,848
of these two fish
swimming along in the ocean.
1245
01:14:20,890 --> 01:14:23,158
And while on their way,
they pass by this wise,
1246
01:14:23,200 --> 01:14:25,648
old fish going the opposite direction.
1247
01:14:25,690 --> 01:14:27,935
And when the wise old
fish passes by, he says,
1248
01:14:27,977 --> 01:14:30,718
"Morning, boys. How's the water?"
1249
01:14:30,760 --> 01:14:32,158
The two fish don't respond.
1250
01:14:32,200 --> 01:14:34,828
They just keep going
along until a bit later,
1251
01:14:34,870 --> 01:14:39,162
one turns to the other and
says, "What the hell's water?"
1252
01:14:39,204 --> 01:14:40,661
(Carter laughs)
1253
01:14:40,703 --> 01:14:42,958
That's kind of how it is, you know.
1254
01:14:43,000 --> 01:14:45,088
At first you're just going through life,
1255
01:14:45,130 --> 01:14:48,508
totally unaware of this obvious
thing until someone brings
1256
01:14:48,550 --> 01:14:53,098
it to your attention
and the glass shatters.
1257
01:14:53,140 --> 01:14:55,978
You realize that things
are a little different for you,
1258
01:14:56,020 --> 01:14:58,828
that you can get away with
things someone else can't,
1259
01:14:58,870 --> 01:15:00,970
that people treat you a certain way.
1260
01:15:02,140 --> 01:15:06,088
Have I used that to my
advantage at times? Of course.
1261
01:15:06,130 --> 01:15:07,798
Wouldn't you?
1262
01:15:07,840 --> 01:15:10,588
Well, yeah, because I have.
1263
01:15:10,630 --> 01:15:12,988
It's like when I was playing basketball,
1264
01:15:13,030 --> 01:15:15,868
people treat you differently
when you're good at something.
1265
01:15:15,910 --> 01:15:17,473
They just let things slide.
1266
01:15:18,370 --> 01:15:19,833
I think we're all suckers
1267
01:15:19,875 --> 01:15:24,133
for proficiency or status or beauty.
1268
01:15:25,090 --> 01:15:26,148
Yeah, me too.
1269
01:15:27,990 --> 01:15:29,474
You know, what's interesting though?
1270
01:15:29,498 --> 01:15:30,289
Hmm?
1271
01:15:30,331 --> 01:15:33,838
How people treat you when
you're no longer that thing.
1272
01:15:33,880 --> 01:15:34,880
Go on.
1273
01:15:38,320 --> 01:15:41,773
So when I first started to
introduce myself as a writer,
1274
01:15:42,700 --> 01:15:44,578
I'd get these funny looks like,
1275
01:15:44,620 --> 01:15:46,468
this basketball player's gonna write?
1276
01:15:46,510 --> 01:15:47,510
Yeah. Okay.
1277
01:15:48,250 --> 01:15:50,727
And I get those same looks
when my stories weren't
1278
01:15:50,769 --> 01:15:53,788
about the hood, slavery, or sports.
1279
01:15:53,830 --> 01:15:56,698
Suddenly, the respect they
had for me as a hooper had
1280
01:15:56,740 --> 01:15:59,638
this patronizing undertone
1281
01:15:59,680 --> 01:16:02,968
and it's been insanely frustrating.
1282
01:16:03,010 --> 01:16:05,638
Like, I'm capable of more
than one thing, you know?
1283
01:16:05,680 --> 01:16:08,823
And besides that, there are
other black stories to be told.
1284
01:16:08,865 --> 01:16:12,223
And I want to tell them.
Shit, I'm going to tell them.
1285
01:16:13,161 --> 01:16:14,508
I know you will.
1286
01:16:14,550 --> 01:16:15,936
I'm so serious.
1287
01:16:15,978 --> 01:16:16,978
Me, too.
1288
01:16:25,726 --> 01:16:27,659
(waves crashing)
1289
01:16:32,416 --> 01:16:33,899
(romantic music)
1290
01:18:12,263 --> 01:18:14,088
(romantic music swells)
1291
01:19:10,815 --> 01:19:12,598
(romantic music ends)
1292
01:19:17,422 --> 01:19:19,081
(romantic guitar music)
1293
01:19:22,600 --> 01:19:24,133
[Carter] Beautiful song.
1294
01:19:28,982 --> 01:19:31,074
(romantic guitar music fades)
1295
01:19:36,010 --> 01:19:38,848
[Amber Leigh] Real tragedy,
the homeless situation here.
1296
01:19:38,890 --> 01:19:39,890
Yeah, it is.
1297
01:19:41,255 --> 01:19:42,595
I can't even imagine.
1298
01:19:42,637 --> 01:19:44,038
I've actually been there.
1299
01:19:44,080 --> 01:19:45,521
Seriously?
1300
01:19:45,563 --> 01:19:46,521
Thankfully, it was only
1301
01:19:46,563 --> 01:19:48,628
for the first couple of
weeks I was out here.
1302
01:19:48,670 --> 01:19:50,833
Slept in my car until I found a place.
1303
01:19:51,820 --> 01:19:53,548
You don't realize how nerve-racking
1304
01:19:53,590 --> 01:19:55,828
it is not having a place to chill,
1305
01:19:55,870 --> 01:19:58,648
let alone call your own until you don't.
1306
01:19:58,690 --> 01:20:00,268
So over a long enough period of time,
1307
01:20:00,310 --> 01:20:03,110
yeah, I could definitely see
how it can break someone.
1308
01:20:06,340 --> 01:20:07,648
Where are you from?
1309
01:20:07,690 --> 01:20:10,386
Ohio. Have you been?
1310
01:20:10,428 --> 01:20:11,708
No, but I know you can get
1311
01:20:11,750 --> 01:20:14,188
a lot more for a lot less there.
1312
01:20:14,230 --> 01:20:16,498
True. But winter's a bitch.
1313
01:20:16,540 --> 01:20:18,268
I mean, we pay for this weather out here
1314
01:20:18,310 --> 01:20:20,563
and most days, it's actually worth it.
1315
01:20:22,360 --> 01:20:23,360
Yeah.
1316
01:20:25,450 --> 01:20:27,478
So where's God there anyway?
1317
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:28,738
What do you mean?
1318
01:20:28,780 --> 01:20:29,878
The homeless people.
1319
01:20:29,920 --> 01:20:32,338
I mean, how can there be so much suffering
1320
01:20:32,380 --> 01:20:34,258
in the midst of so much wealth?
1321
01:20:34,300 --> 01:20:36,300
Wouldn't a loving God intervene?
1322
01:20:39,430 --> 01:20:41,008
I guess that's my problem with God.
1323
01:20:41,050 --> 01:20:44,548
I just, I don't understand
why. I don't get it.
1324
01:20:44,590 --> 01:20:46,888
I don't think we're supposed to.
1325
01:20:46,930 --> 01:20:49,618
I was reading somewhere
how some scientists spend
1326
01:20:49,660 --> 01:20:52,843
their entire lives working
on a single question.
1327
01:20:53,680 --> 01:20:56,128
I mean, that right there says it all.
1328
01:20:56,170 --> 01:21:00,718
Whoever or whatever
put all this into motion
1329
01:21:00,760 --> 01:21:03,388
had to not only understand those questions,
1330
01:21:03,430 --> 01:21:06,898
but the countless others
we haven't even asked yet.
1331
01:21:06,940 --> 01:21:07,828
I mean, I can get behind
1332
01:21:07,870 --> 01:21:10,318
the idea of a supreme intelligence,
1333
01:21:10,360 --> 01:21:13,018
but the idea of that
intelligence being all loving,
1334
01:21:13,060 --> 01:21:14,806
is where I have trouble.
1335
01:21:14,848 --> 01:21:15,639
Why?
1336
01:21:15,681 --> 01:21:16,472
Just everything,
1337
01:21:16,514 --> 01:21:18,106
I mean, kids being gunned down at school,
1338
01:21:18,130 --> 01:21:20,908
cops shooting the people
they're supposed to protect,
1339
01:21:20,950 --> 01:21:22,528
people living and shitting
1340
01:21:22,570 --> 01:21:25,168
in the streets of these wealthy cities.
1341
01:21:25,210 --> 01:21:28,018
I mean, just the other day
I saw a homeless guy pull
1342
01:21:28,060 --> 01:21:29,938
down his pants and
take a shit in the middle
1343
01:21:29,980 --> 01:21:32,698
of Hollywood down the side of a building.
1344
01:21:32,740 --> 01:21:34,678
And the worst part of it
was nobody even cared,
1345
01:21:34,720 --> 01:21:38,254
they just continued on
like nothing was happening.
1346
01:21:38,296 --> 01:21:39,738
What do you want me to say?
1347
01:21:39,780 --> 01:21:41,683
I don't know. What do you think?
1348
01:21:42,580 --> 01:21:44,188
Can we sit for a sec?
1349
01:21:44,230 --> 01:21:45,230
Sure.
1350
01:21:55,180 --> 01:21:57,295
[Carter] I do think God is all loving.
1351
01:21:58,630 --> 01:22:03,253
I think he's so loving, he
allows us to do whatever we like.
1352
01:22:04,150 --> 01:22:06,388
But at any time if we need him
1353
01:22:06,430 --> 01:22:08,428
and decide to change our ways,
1354
01:22:08,470 --> 01:22:12,103
he's right there to help
and forgive us if we want it.
1355
01:22:13,540 --> 01:22:15,838
What do you mean by right there?
1356
01:22:15,880 --> 01:22:16,708
The way I see it,
1357
01:22:16,750 --> 01:22:19,258
God's walking beside
each and every one of us.
1358
01:22:19,300 --> 01:22:22,738
Like how people imagine guardian angels.
1359
01:22:22,780 --> 01:22:26,938
So right now, God's here
individually with you and with me.
1360
01:22:26,980 --> 01:22:28,228
The beauty of it is that
1361
01:22:28,270 --> 01:22:31,198
even though we both have
different relationships with him
1362
01:22:31,240 --> 01:22:34,078
and different levels of belief in him,
1363
01:22:34,120 --> 01:22:35,811
neither relationship is more important
1364
01:22:35,853 --> 01:22:38,368
to him because God doesn't show favoritism.
1365
01:22:38,410 --> 01:22:40,198
So at any point, either of us could ask
1366
01:22:40,240 --> 01:22:42,257
him for something and he'd listen.
1367
01:22:44,110 --> 01:22:47,533
So he's a genie. We
just have to make a wish.
1368
01:22:48,460 --> 01:22:50,158
I didn't say that.
1369
01:22:50,200 --> 01:22:55,158
It's more like when you're a
kid and you ask your parents
1370
01:22:55,200 --> 01:22:58,608
for something and that same
thing is something your parents
1371
01:22:58,650 --> 01:23:02,728
want to give you so they
don't hesitate getting it for you.
1372
01:23:02,770 --> 01:23:03,770
Yeah.
1373
01:23:06,430 --> 01:23:07,918
When you're in tune with God,
1374
01:23:07,960 --> 01:23:10,498
which means you're spending time
1375
01:23:10,540 --> 01:23:13,678
with him and building
a relationship with him,
1376
01:23:13,720 --> 01:23:15,898
then the things you want start to change.
1377
01:23:15,940 --> 01:23:17,998
Therefore, the things you pray for change.
1378
01:23:18,040 --> 01:23:20,578
And suddenly, you start
to see things happening
1379
01:23:20,620 --> 01:23:22,588
around you because now you're asking
1380
01:23:22,630 --> 01:23:24,738
for the things he wants to give you.
1381
01:23:26,170 --> 01:23:29,053
I'm hearing you, but I'm not convinced.
1382
01:23:30,132 --> 01:23:32,848
Well, I'm not trying to convince you.
1383
01:23:32,890 --> 01:23:34,507
You asked what I thought.
1384
01:23:35,650 --> 01:23:36,478
Well, if I were God,
1385
01:23:36,520 --> 01:23:38,080
the first thing I'd do would be to wipe
1386
01:23:38,110 --> 01:23:41,458
out all the people who
choose to hurt others.
1387
01:23:41,500 --> 01:23:45,508
I feel you, but that's the beauty of God.
1388
01:23:45,550 --> 01:23:47,518
Like, he values the
life of the worst sinner
1389
01:23:47,560 --> 01:23:49,588
just as much as the greatest saint.
1390
01:23:49,630 --> 01:23:52,513
And I think that's what's
hard for us to wrap our heads
1391
01:23:52,555 --> 01:23:55,378
around because we don't think like that.
1392
01:23:55,420 --> 01:23:57,268
Well, yeah, I know I don't.
1393
01:23:57,310 --> 01:24:00,088
My father got my mother pregnant and left.
1394
01:24:00,130 --> 01:24:02,205
How could I value them the same?
1395
01:24:03,400 --> 01:24:05,320
I guess from God's perspective,
1396
01:24:05,362 --> 01:24:08,653
he understands people do
selfish shit when they're scared.
1397
01:24:09,490 --> 01:24:10,661
Scared of what?
1398
01:24:14,320 --> 01:24:15,501
Change, I guess.
1399
01:24:20,571 --> 01:24:22,190
Hmm.
1400
01:24:22,232 --> 01:24:24,358
You know what I prayed for yesterday?
1401
01:24:24,400 --> 01:24:25,738
What?
1402
01:24:25,780 --> 01:24:28,498
That God would send me help.
1403
01:24:28,540 --> 01:24:29,540
And?
1404
01:24:30,550 --> 01:24:31,550
I met you.
1405
01:24:44,140 --> 01:24:46,318
You want to watch the sunset?
1406
01:24:46,360 --> 01:24:47,360
Yeah.
1407
01:24:53,380 --> 01:24:55,644
[Amber Leigh] So don't be offended
1408
01:24:55,686 --> 01:24:57,287
by what I'm about to say.
1409
01:24:58,750 --> 01:25:01,573
[Carter] Hard thing to promise, but okay.
1410
01:25:03,610 --> 01:25:05,943
You don't seem like a black guy to me.
1411
01:25:07,790 --> 01:25:09,728
(Carter laughs)
1412
01:25:09,770 --> 01:25:10,943
What?
1413
01:25:12,760 --> 01:25:16,378
That's incredibly offensive
and kind of fucked up,
1414
01:25:16,420 --> 01:25:17,420
but I get it.
1415
01:25:18,280 --> 01:25:20,488
Is it because I'm not saying nigga this
1416
01:25:20,530 --> 01:25:22,213
or nigga that every word,
1417
01:25:23,470 --> 01:25:25,323
or because I'm not walking like this?
1418
01:25:25,365 --> 01:25:26,531
Come on. Geez.
1419
01:25:27,670 --> 01:25:30,745
Is it because I enunciate
when I talk or because I talked
1420
01:25:30,787 --> 01:25:33,368
about Preston Sturges instead of Spike Lee?
1421
01:25:33,410 --> 01:25:34,410
I guess.
1422
01:25:35,418 --> 01:25:38,708
Well, I am a black man. I love Tupac,
1423
01:25:38,750 --> 01:25:41,848
but that doesn't mean
I can't love The Killers.
1424
01:25:41,890 --> 01:25:43,678
I mean, Singleton and Spike paved the way,
1425
01:25:43,720 --> 01:25:45,178
but that doesn't mean I can't relate
1426
01:25:45,220 --> 01:25:47,608
to some eccentric white guy who kind
1427
01:25:47,650 --> 01:25:49,767
of happen to see the world like I do.
1428
01:25:51,032 --> 01:25:52,768
You said you wouldn't be offended.
1429
01:25:52,810 --> 01:25:54,977
A hard thing to promise.
1430
01:25:56,819 --> 01:25:57,819
Let's sit.
1431
01:26:05,170 --> 01:26:07,783
But simply put, I'm a man,
1432
01:26:08,680 --> 01:26:11,920
and my interests shouldn't
limited to the color of my skin.
1433
01:26:11,962 --> 01:26:14,308
I mean, that's insane.
1434
01:26:14,350 --> 01:26:15,433
Look at all this.
1435
01:26:17,260 --> 01:26:19,948
Limiting yourself in a world of endless,
1436
01:26:19,990 --> 01:26:23,338
endless possibilities because
it wouldn't be black enough
1437
01:26:23,380 --> 01:26:27,553
to do this or that is honestly
a disservice to your soul.
1438
01:26:30,823 --> 01:26:33,070
I see your point, and I apologize.
1439
01:26:34,368 --> 01:26:36,048
It's okay.
1440
01:26:36,090 --> 01:26:38,413
Thanks. But no, it's not.
1441
01:26:40,960 --> 01:26:43,777
When I think about it, it
was a stupid thing to say.
1442
01:26:45,010 --> 01:26:46,536
But it's a real thing I felt.
1443
01:26:46,578 --> 01:26:48,148
I mean, black men on TV
1444
01:26:48,190 --> 01:26:51,643
are always portrayed so
violent, angry, masculine.
1445
01:26:52,780 --> 01:26:54,354
Masculine isn't horrible.
1446
01:26:54,396 --> 01:26:56,608
Hush, but you don't seem like that.
1447
01:26:56,650 --> 01:26:58,408
Ouch. That hurts.
1448
01:26:58,450 --> 01:27:03,450
Stop. I just mean that
you just seem like you.
1449
01:27:03,613 --> 01:27:05,248
I guess that's your point.
1450
01:27:05,290 --> 01:27:08,113
Pretty much, just like you're you.
1451
01:27:09,983 --> 01:27:13,228
People are always far more complex
1452
01:27:13,270 --> 01:27:14,968
when you get to know them.
1453
01:27:15,010 --> 01:27:17,980
Stereotypes are just a way
for us to avoid doing this.
1454
01:27:19,720 --> 01:27:21,478
People are lazy.
1455
01:27:21,520 --> 01:27:24,733
People are unpredictable.
They change on a whim.
1456
01:27:26,440 --> 01:27:29,563
To an extent. Some people
choose to stay the same.
1457
01:27:30,610 --> 01:27:34,543
True, which is why long
term relationships are so hard.
1458
01:27:37,840 --> 01:27:39,733
Take my marriage for example.
1459
01:27:42,730 --> 01:27:44,553
I mean, when we first got married,
1460
01:27:44,595 --> 01:27:47,368
we were head over heels
in love with each other,
1461
01:27:47,410 --> 01:27:49,948
ready to take over the world.
1462
01:27:49,990 --> 01:27:52,978
And for a while, that's
exactly what we did.
1463
01:27:53,020 --> 01:27:54,670
We built a successful firm,
1464
01:27:56,590 --> 01:28:00,193
but time passed, and one of us changed.
1465
01:28:02,290 --> 01:28:04,153
Suddenly, he wanted kids.
1466
01:28:04,990 --> 01:28:06,598
But we had decided years ago
1467
01:28:06,640 --> 01:28:09,493
it was just gonna be the
two of us and our career.
1468
01:28:11,320 --> 01:28:14,008
Nonetheless, he decided a family
1469
01:28:14,050 --> 01:28:16,085
was more important than the firm.
1470
01:28:17,710 --> 01:28:19,885
He felt we were established enough.
1471
01:28:23,170 --> 01:28:26,668
But I'm not 27 anymore.
I mean, I'm almost 40.
1472
01:28:26,710 --> 01:28:29,563
I don't even know if my
uterus can take that shit.
1473
01:28:30,880 --> 01:28:34,623
I was always enough for
him, but now he wants more.
1474
01:28:35,530 --> 01:28:37,897
And I don't know if I can give that to him.
1475
01:28:39,183 --> 01:28:41,518
Even if I did, I mean,
1476
01:28:41,560 --> 01:28:43,666
what if he decides he wants nothing
1477
01:28:43,708 --> 01:28:45,796
more to do with us and leaves.
1478
01:28:47,710 --> 01:28:50,230
He changed once, he could change again.
1479
01:28:53,440 --> 01:28:56,210
So naturally, we started
growing further apart
1480
01:28:58,827 --> 01:29:00,778
and we were no longer in sync.
1481
01:29:02,920 --> 01:29:04,216
I mean, it was little things at first.
1482
01:29:04,240 --> 01:29:06,418
You know, like we'd be in the shower
1483
01:29:06,460 --> 01:29:08,128
and I'd ask to pass the shampoo
1484
01:29:08,170 --> 01:29:10,033
and he'd pass the conditioner.
1485
01:29:11,680 --> 01:29:14,323
But those little things
grew to be big things.
1486
01:29:16,208 --> 01:29:19,818
One day I just woke up and no
longer recognized him anymore.
1487
01:29:25,060 --> 01:29:26,926
You think that's why he cheated?
1488
01:29:28,000 --> 01:29:29,000
Maybe.
1489
01:29:30,700 --> 01:29:33,358
So you're saying all this time
1490
01:29:33,400 --> 01:29:36,458
you've been together and
you've never changed at all?
1491
01:29:38,500 --> 01:29:39,613
I don't think so.
1492
01:29:41,290 --> 01:29:45,268
I think you were right when
you said people stay the same,
1493
01:29:45,310 --> 01:29:47,633
choose to stay the same, because I did.
1494
01:29:49,630 --> 01:29:53,758
All I wanted was him and
we were doing everything
1495
01:29:53,800 --> 01:29:57,357
we set out to do, so why
would I want to change?
1496
01:30:04,783 --> 01:30:06,171
(somber music)
1497
01:30:17,247 --> 01:30:22,247
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1498
01:30:23,879 --> 01:30:28,879
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1499
01:30:30,627 --> 01:30:32,804
♪ So don't try and find me ♪
1500
01:30:32,846 --> 01:30:37,817
♪ Please no more questions now ♪
1501
01:30:37,859 --> 01:30:42,859
♪ I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now ♪
1502
01:30:44,819 --> 01:30:49,819
♪ And will you stay in the dark with me? ♪
1503
01:30:51,359 --> 01:30:56,359
♪ Though I cry and I can't barely speak? ♪
1504
01:30:57,087 --> 01:31:02,087
♪ I've shifted so many times this morning ♪
1505
01:31:03,403 --> 01:31:08,403
♪ Who am I? I hardly know the story. ♪
1506
01:31:10,511 --> 01:31:14,488
♪ I'm unraveling I've been winding down ♪
1507
01:31:14,530 --> 01:31:17,367
♪ (I'm dissolving, I'm dissolving now) ♪
1508
01:31:17,409 --> 01:31:21,137
♪ Hopefully evolving, I
guess we'll just find out ♪
1509
01:31:21,179 --> 01:31:24,206
♪ (I'm unraveling, I've
been winding down) ♪
1510
01:31:24,248 --> 01:31:29,248
♪ So please forgive me if
I raise my voice too loud ♪
1511
01:31:31,451 --> 01:31:35,717
♪ I'm dissolving to a whisper now ♪
1512
01:31:35,759 --> 01:31:38,369
♪ (Settle down, just settle down) ♪
1513
01:31:38,411 --> 01:31:43,411
♪ And will you stay in the dark with me? ♪
1514
01:31:44,649 --> 01:31:49,649
♪ Though I cry and I can't barely speak? ♪
1515
01:31:50,499 --> 01:31:55,499
♪ I've shifted so many times this morning ♪
1516
01:31:56,750 --> 01:32:00,917
♪ Who am I? I hardly know the story. ♪
1517
01:32:04,191 --> 01:32:07,315
[Carter] I think you're
too hard on yourself.
1518
01:32:07,357 --> 01:32:08,848
[Amber Leigh] What?
1519
01:32:08,890 --> 01:32:10,978
You want to get a car or walk?
1520
01:32:11,020 --> 01:32:12,937
Car, but what were you saying?
1521
01:32:15,580 --> 01:32:17,680
I think you're too hard on yourself.
1522
01:32:18,520 --> 01:32:20,543
I think you'd be a fantastic mother
1523
01:32:22,019 --> 01:32:23,878
if you were with the right man.
1524
01:32:23,920 --> 01:32:25,618
Are you that man?
1525
01:32:25,660 --> 01:32:26,726
I could be.
1526
01:32:28,865 --> 01:32:31,798
What's the longest relationship
you've been in, sweetie?
1527
01:32:35,740 --> 01:32:37,243
A month, I guess.
1528
01:32:38,440 --> 01:32:41,383
And why is that? Because
of your theory on love?
1529
01:32:42,970 --> 01:32:46,843
Yeah, but you seem worth the risk.
1530
01:32:48,100 --> 01:32:49,191
Am I now?
1531
01:32:51,483 --> 01:32:54,041
What about not falling
in love with your muse?
1532
01:32:55,960 --> 01:32:57,043
I was wrong.
1533
01:33:01,240 --> 01:33:03,325
Sweetie, you like the idea of love,
1534
01:33:03,367 --> 01:33:05,443
but you don't want to actually feel it.
1535
01:33:06,459 --> 01:33:09,448
Because to do so, you'd
have to be willing to open up,
1536
01:33:09,490 --> 01:33:10,621
to be vulnerable.
1537
01:33:12,280 --> 01:33:13,685
I don't think you really want that
1538
01:33:13,727 --> 01:33:16,610
or you would've allowed
yourself to experience it by now.
1539
01:33:18,250 --> 01:33:20,258
My man has to be able to do that.
1540
01:33:22,916 --> 01:33:24,408
(Carter exhales deeply)
1541
01:33:29,026 --> 01:33:32,488
I almost left yesterday
when you went to the bathroom.
1542
01:33:32,530 --> 01:33:34,113
Not because you're married,
1543
01:33:35,140 --> 01:33:38,128
but because I could feel some part
1544
01:33:38,170 --> 01:33:40,081
of myself wanting to let you in.
1545
01:33:41,200 --> 01:33:44,053
And you're right. I don't do that.
1546
01:33:46,960 --> 01:33:48,273
So why'd you stay?
1547
01:33:50,290 --> 01:33:52,393
Because when I got up to go,
1548
01:33:54,100 --> 01:33:57,598
suddenly, I got this
feeling like God was saying
1549
01:33:57,640 --> 01:33:59,900
I was right where I needed to be
1550
01:34:01,270 --> 01:34:04,033
and that I'd be a fool to leave.
1551
01:34:11,560 --> 01:34:15,403
Amber, you got me wide fucking open.
1552
01:34:34,060 --> 01:34:36,160
I think I'm in love with you.
1553
01:34:51,753 --> 01:34:53,387
(footsteps departing)
1554
01:34:58,505 --> 01:34:59,613
(Carter sighs)
1555
01:35:06,576 --> 01:35:08,151
(elevator chimes)
1556
01:35:46,373 --> 01:35:50,488
[Carter] So this is it
then, our last night?
1557
01:35:50,530 --> 01:35:52,258
[Amber Leigh] Sadly.
1558
01:35:52,300 --> 01:35:53,968
But why?
1559
01:35:54,010 --> 01:35:55,048
Sweetie.
1560
01:35:55,090 --> 01:35:57,688
What? You said it yourself.
1561
01:35:57,730 --> 01:35:59,818
You and your husband are drifting apart.
1562
01:35:59,860 --> 01:36:04,133
You don't recognize him. He cheated on you.
1563
01:36:04,175 --> 01:36:05,977
I'm 10 years older than you.
1564
01:36:06,019 --> 01:36:06,810
So?
1565
01:36:06,852 --> 01:36:09,523
So that's a decade of
experiences you haven't had yet.
1566
01:36:10,900 --> 01:36:15,148
By the time you're my
age, I'll be almost 50.
1567
01:36:15,190 --> 01:36:17,893
I'm sure you'll be just as beautiful.
1568
01:36:20,290 --> 01:36:21,688
That's not the point.
1569
01:36:21,730 --> 01:36:25,858
And by then, we'll have a
decade of shared experiences.
1570
01:36:25,900 --> 01:36:28,318
We already talked about this.
1571
01:36:28,360 --> 01:36:30,598
Then let's talk about it again.
1572
01:36:30,640 --> 01:36:34,510
Don't you feel it, this energy between us?
1573
01:36:35,740 --> 01:36:37,558
You've ignited me.
1574
01:36:37,600 --> 01:36:41,668
It's like my wings have
finally caught this breeze
1575
01:36:41,710 --> 01:36:46,483
I've been waiting for, for so long, but...
1576
01:36:48,760 --> 01:36:49,760
But what?
1577
01:36:51,310 --> 01:36:54,058
I'm starting to get really nervous
1578
01:36:54,100 --> 01:36:56,938
because it feels like that breeze is about
1579
01:36:56,980 --> 01:36:59,473
to vanish and I'm going to fall.
1580
01:37:01,240 --> 01:37:05,668
Isn't this what you wanted,
to really feel something?
1581
01:37:05,710 --> 01:37:09,928
It is, and it's just as
fucking scary as I thought.
1582
01:37:09,970 --> 01:37:12,199
I don't want to lose you.
1583
01:37:12,241 --> 01:37:13,498
We just met yesterday.
1584
01:37:13,540 --> 01:37:14,957
You don't feel it then?
1585
01:37:17,080 --> 01:37:17,938
I didn't say that.
1586
01:37:17,980 --> 01:37:19,003
So you do?
1587
01:37:19,848 --> 01:37:20,848
It's...
1588
01:37:23,531 --> 01:37:24,997
It's just not that simple.
1589
01:37:26,020 --> 01:37:27,868
You keep saying that.
1590
01:37:27,910 --> 01:37:29,788
Well, let's make it simple then.
1591
01:37:29,830 --> 01:37:33,523
You and me work. Boom. Simple.
1592
01:37:34,450 --> 01:37:35,450
I'm married.
1593
01:37:35,489 --> 01:37:36,358
Separated.
1594
01:37:36,400 --> 01:37:38,893
No, I'm married, Carter.
1595
01:37:41,110 --> 01:37:44,593
I can't leave my husband. He's a good man.
1596
01:37:45,970 --> 01:37:47,953
I thought I could, but I just can't.
1597
01:37:50,140 --> 01:37:52,980
Don't think I wasn't
tempted to run off with you.
1598
01:37:54,820 --> 01:37:55,820
I adore you.
1599
01:37:58,180 --> 01:37:59,230
I feel it, too.
1600
01:38:02,380 --> 01:38:05,279
In another time, who knows
what we could have been?
1601
01:38:07,720 --> 01:38:09,763
But in the here and now,
1602
01:38:13,390 --> 01:38:17,443
I have to go back and
hope he accepts me back.
1603
01:38:20,200 --> 01:38:23,773
You mean he should
hope you accept him back?
1604
01:38:28,690 --> 01:38:29,690
No.
1605
01:38:37,930 --> 01:38:38,930
Shit.
1606
01:38:41,740 --> 01:38:43,215
He didn't cheat, did he?
1607
01:38:50,830 --> 01:38:51,830
Fuck.
1608
01:38:53,410 --> 01:38:54,410
Fuck.
1609
01:38:57,280 --> 01:38:58,280
Fuck!
1610
01:39:02,955 --> 01:39:04,548
This is adultery.
1611
01:39:04,590 --> 01:39:06,988
I've ruined a marriage. Lord, forgive me.
1612
01:39:07,030 --> 01:39:10,363
I've ruined a fucking marriage. Fuck!
1613
01:39:11,830 --> 01:39:14,128
Sweetie, nothing's changed.
1614
01:39:14,170 --> 01:39:15,928
Everything's changed!
1615
01:39:15,970 --> 01:39:18,358
It's one thing if he's
fucking your assistant,
1616
01:39:18,400 --> 01:39:19,786
but another if he's at home wondering
1617
01:39:19,810 --> 01:39:21,418
how's his wife's trip going.
1618
01:39:21,460 --> 01:39:25,078
Breaking news, my guy. She's
getting fucked by a black dude!
1619
01:39:25,120 --> 01:39:26,521
It's all the same.
1620
01:39:26,563 --> 01:39:29,938
It's just as much adultery
now as it was before.
1621
01:39:29,980 --> 01:39:31,846
Yeah, but it's easier on the conscience
1622
01:39:31,888 --> 01:39:33,281
the other way around.
1623
01:39:36,460 --> 01:39:37,633
Was it all a lie?
1624
01:39:39,220 --> 01:39:41,186
Is your name even Amber Leigh?
1625
01:39:42,112 --> 01:39:43,359
Does it matter?
1626
01:39:43,401 --> 01:39:47,308
Does it matter? Of course it matters!
1627
01:39:47,350 --> 01:39:49,318
I'm over here talking about igniting
1628
01:39:49,360 --> 01:39:51,958
my soul and spreading my fucking wings,
1629
01:39:52,000 --> 01:39:54,118
and I don't even know your goddamn name.
1630
01:39:54,160 --> 01:39:56,083
This is why I don't do this shit!
1631
01:39:57,910 --> 01:39:59,918
You don't have to be so dramatic.
1632
01:39:59,960 --> 01:40:03,478
Dramatic? I think I'm acting
pretty fucking reasonably.
1633
01:40:03,520 --> 01:40:05,335
Do you know what you've awakened in me,
1634
01:40:05,377 --> 01:40:07,333
and you're just gonna go back to him?
1635
01:40:10,540 --> 01:40:14,398
And why the hell are you
so damn calm about all this?
1636
01:40:14,440 --> 01:40:18,403
Shouldn't you be sad, upset, something?
1637
01:40:19,240 --> 01:40:22,438
I'm calm because nothing
between us has changed.
1638
01:40:22,480 --> 01:40:24,780
I asked you to stay the
weekend. Nothing more.
1639
01:40:26,680 --> 01:40:30,088
Yeah, I lied about a few things.
1640
01:40:30,130 --> 01:40:31,453
He didn't cheat on me.
1641
01:40:32,590 --> 01:40:34,349
But we had been drifting apart
1642
01:40:34,391 --> 01:40:37,378
ever since he changed his mind about kids.
1643
01:40:37,420 --> 01:40:41,803
So that story about checking
his phone and the assistant?
1644
01:40:42,910 --> 01:40:46,393
I told you it was cliché.
Took it from an airport novel.
1645
01:40:47,680 --> 01:40:49,918
I was worried if I told you
that he hadn't wronged me,
1646
01:40:49,960 --> 01:40:50,751
you might have left.
1647
01:40:50,793 --> 01:40:51,748
Damn right!
1648
01:40:51,790 --> 01:40:53,480
And I wanted you to stay.
1649
01:40:55,540 --> 01:40:59,008
Look, we do have an assistant, our nephew.
1650
01:40:59,050 --> 01:41:01,642
I don't think they're
sleeping together though.
1651
01:41:02,770 --> 01:41:04,723
That isn't funny.
1652
01:41:05,678 --> 01:41:07,084
I know. Can I finish?
1653
01:41:10,600 --> 01:41:12,065
I mean, we had gotten to the point
1654
01:41:12,107 --> 01:41:14,272
where he no longer touched me anymore
1655
01:41:15,220 --> 01:41:20,220
and he withdrew from
me and I allowed him to.
1656
01:41:21,400 --> 01:41:23,743
So I started looking
for intimacy elsewhere.
1657
01:41:25,120 --> 01:41:29,563
And the thing is I hadn't found
anyone worthwhile until you.
1658
01:41:32,140 --> 01:41:34,070
I didn't bring anyone else up to my room.
1659
01:41:34,112 --> 01:41:36,707
No one else even made it past the bar.
1660
01:41:36,749 --> 01:41:37,918
I feel so special.
1661
01:41:37,960 --> 01:41:40,318
Well, you should because
you saved my marriage.
1662
01:41:40,360 --> 01:41:41,360
How?
1663
01:41:43,240 --> 01:41:46,513
Your spirit and ambition reminded
1664
01:41:46,555 --> 01:41:49,280
me why I fell in love
with him in the first place.
1665
01:41:50,929 --> 01:41:53,566
But if I leave him for
you and I haven't changed,
1666
01:41:53,608 --> 01:41:55,026
wouldn't you just expect me
1667
01:41:55,068 --> 01:41:57,428
to put you in the same position later on?
1668
01:42:02,830 --> 01:42:03,830
I guess.
1669
01:42:06,070 --> 01:42:09,358
Like you said, people do selfish things
1670
01:42:09,400 --> 01:42:11,242
when they're afraid of change.
1671
01:42:12,460 --> 01:42:14,893
That's what I was, afraid.
1672
01:42:17,500 --> 01:42:19,108
Afraid of what it would do to my body,
1673
01:42:19,150 --> 01:42:21,538
afraid he'd abandon me and the kids,
1674
01:42:21,580 --> 01:42:23,913
afraid of not being a good enough mother.
1675
01:42:24,970 --> 01:42:26,888
Instead of embracing the chance
1676
01:42:26,930 --> 01:42:28,871
to grow with him, I just ran...
1677
01:42:31,013 --> 01:42:31,928
Like my father.
1678
01:42:31,970 --> 01:42:33,703
And I refuse to be like my father.
1679
01:42:36,970 --> 01:42:39,693
Maybe you're right.
Motherhood might suit me.
1680
01:42:42,241 --> 01:42:44,640
Being with you helped me realize all that.
1681
01:42:51,819 --> 01:42:53,733
I helped you realize all that?
1682
01:42:55,240 --> 01:42:57,965
Well, you got me thinking
along the right lines.
1683
01:42:59,380 --> 01:43:01,263
You see why I have to go back?
1684
01:43:04,557 --> 01:43:05,557
Of course.
1685
01:43:08,530 --> 01:43:11,488
Sweetie, I don't want this to end badly.
1686
01:43:11,530 --> 01:43:13,528
I asked you to stay the weekend.
1687
01:43:13,570 --> 01:43:15,169
I want you to stay tonight.
1688
01:43:16,570 --> 01:43:20,728
No, that's insane. Fucking insane.
1689
01:43:20,770 --> 01:43:22,720
I still don't even know your name.
1690
01:43:22,762 --> 01:43:23,848
It's Amber.
1691
01:43:23,890 --> 01:43:24,890
Come on.
1692
01:43:25,870 --> 01:43:27,478
It doesn't matter.
1693
01:43:27,520 --> 01:43:30,178
Look, we've had something that we'll carry
1694
01:43:30,220 --> 01:43:32,098
with us for the rest of our lives.
1695
01:43:32,140 --> 01:43:33,853
Something we both needed.
1696
01:43:36,520 --> 01:43:38,313
My feelings for you are real.
1697
01:43:40,540 --> 01:43:42,282
What matters besides that?
1698
01:43:44,800 --> 01:43:48,163
Why end something so
beautiful on a sour note?
1699
01:43:53,590 --> 01:43:55,858
Did you mean what you said
1700
01:43:55,900 --> 01:43:58,267
when you said you were in love with me?
1701
01:44:03,250 --> 01:44:06,418
Yeah, but what does that matter now?
1702
01:44:06,460 --> 01:44:07,505
I'm losing you.
1703
01:44:11,835 --> 01:44:14,300
Sweetie, you know why
your cousin hurt himself?
1704
01:44:14,342 --> 01:44:15,868
Yeah, because of this.
1705
01:44:15,910 --> 01:44:18,478
The girl he loved didn't want him back.
1706
01:44:18,520 --> 01:44:19,798
No.
1707
01:44:19,840 --> 01:44:21,808
Because of pride.
1708
01:44:21,850 --> 01:44:23,758
Love isn't meant to be possessed,
1709
01:44:23,800 --> 01:44:27,403
but felt and allowed to flow freely.
1710
01:44:28,270 --> 01:44:29,476
And it's when you try to control it
1711
01:44:29,500 --> 01:44:31,453
that tragedy is inevitable.
1712
01:44:34,930 --> 01:44:37,003
We found love here, you were right,
1713
01:44:37,900 --> 01:44:39,643
we found it in no time at all.
1714
01:44:42,850 --> 01:44:46,633
We have one more
night. Let it run its course.
1715
01:44:52,733 --> 01:44:55,243
Don't touch me. I can't do this.
1716
01:44:55,285 --> 01:44:56,927
(dramatic music)
1717
01:46:30,200 --> 01:46:35,200
♪ You're so ♪
1718
01:46:38,808 --> 01:46:43,808
♪ You're so ♪
1719
01:46:47,460 --> 01:46:52,413
♪ You're so experimental ♪
1720
01:46:52,455 --> 01:46:56,178
♪ Experimental ♪
1721
01:46:56,220 --> 01:47:00,811
♪ You're so experimental ♪
1722
01:47:00,853 --> 01:47:04,237
♪ Experimental ♪
1723
01:47:32,028 --> 01:47:36,258
♪ Experimental ♪
1724
01:47:36,300 --> 01:47:40,506
♪ Experimental ♪
1725
01:47:40,548 --> 01:47:44,254
♪ Experimental ♪
1726
01:47:44,296 --> 01:47:47,812
♪ Experimental ♪
1727
01:47:58,288 --> 01:47:59,721
(dramatic music ends)
1728
01:48:24,363 --> 01:48:25,621
(birds singing)
1729
01:48:26,846 --> 01:48:27,953
(Mitch sighs)
1730
01:48:35,620 --> 01:48:36,620
[Mitch] Shit.
1731
01:48:38,110 --> 01:48:41,242
If that isn't right on
brand, I don't know what is.
1732
01:48:43,027 --> 01:48:46,168
You really can't help yourself, can you?
1733
01:48:46,210 --> 01:48:48,260
[Carter] I'm not in the mood, brah.
1734
01:48:51,620 --> 01:48:54,688
You didn't get her
number, Instagram, nothing?
1735
01:48:54,730 --> 01:48:57,363
No. I don't have her number.
1736
01:48:57,405 --> 01:48:59,788
I don't even know her name.
1737
01:48:59,830 --> 01:49:02,353
It's almost like it never really happened.
1738
01:49:03,580 --> 01:49:06,178
And if I didn't feel how I feel right now,
1739
01:49:06,220 --> 01:49:08,316
I would swear it was just a dream.
1740
01:49:09,857 --> 01:49:11,698
That wasn't no dream, man.
1741
01:49:11,740 --> 01:49:13,715
Your ass been gone all weekend.
1742
01:49:16,660 --> 01:49:18,710
What was so special about her anyway?
1743
01:49:20,440 --> 01:49:22,678
What was so special about her?
1744
01:49:22,720 --> 01:49:26,518
That's like asking, why do birds sing?
1745
01:49:26,560 --> 01:49:29,984
Or why do suburban white kids
1746
01:49:30,026 --> 01:49:33,033
want to be black so damn bad?
1747
01:49:33,075 --> 01:49:36,518
Some things are just beyond
our understanding, brah.
1748
01:49:37,570 --> 01:49:40,363
I see Professor Extra
working on his thesis.
1749
01:49:42,820 --> 01:49:44,368
I'm being serious, man.
1750
01:49:48,190 --> 01:49:50,257
She really lit a fire in you, huh?
1751
01:49:56,020 --> 01:49:58,843
You have no idea. No idea.
1752
01:50:00,730 --> 01:50:02,788
Then you know what you need to do.
1753
01:50:02,830 --> 01:50:06,268
Nigga, what? No, I don't know.
1754
01:50:06,310 --> 01:50:07,528
Yeah, you do.
1755
01:50:07,570 --> 01:50:12,570
No, I don't. Like, I don't
even know what to feel.
1756
01:50:14,380 --> 01:50:17,173
I'm so fucking mad I can't have her.
1757
01:50:18,100 --> 01:50:19,908
Why couldn't she choose me?
1758
01:50:21,010 --> 01:50:24,553
I got love in me now. Brah, I can feel it.
1759
01:50:27,164 --> 01:50:28,922
But at the same time, I get it.
1760
01:50:31,000 --> 01:50:34,228
I'm just so happy that I
got to meet her, that I...
1761
01:50:34,270 --> 01:50:35,361
Shut the fuck up.
1762
01:50:35,403 --> 01:50:36,194
Yo.
1763
01:50:36,236 --> 01:50:38,158
I can't listen to this shit, bro.
1764
01:50:38,200 --> 01:50:39,681
You should be thankful.
1765
01:50:40,630 --> 01:50:43,273
You really feeling something here, finally.
1766
01:50:44,470 --> 01:50:48,148
And I pray, bro, I pray
that this is the only pain
1767
01:50:48,190 --> 01:50:50,338
that you feel from this situation.
1768
01:50:50,380 --> 01:50:52,398
And I know you not
thinking straight right now,
1769
01:50:52,440 --> 01:50:53,743
but she's married.
1770
01:50:54,790 --> 01:50:57,508
You know how messy that
shit would've got, right?
1771
01:51:01,630 --> 01:51:04,678
Sounds like you both got what you needed,
1772
01:51:04,720 --> 01:51:06,695
and you both should be thankful.
1773
01:51:09,550 --> 01:51:11,442
You know what you need to do.
1774
01:51:12,280 --> 01:51:13,432
So go do it.
1775
01:51:14,763 --> 01:51:15,879
(bong bubbling)
1776
01:51:22,270 --> 01:51:24,021
You're a good friend, Mitch.
1777
01:51:25,360 --> 01:51:26,877
You know it, nigga.
1778
01:51:28,835 --> 01:51:30,100
Now go write something, damn.
1779
01:51:30,142 --> 01:51:32,137
What you still sitting here for?
1780
01:52:15,900 --> 01:52:18,388
(tense music)
1781
01:52:18,430 --> 01:52:20,388
(heart beating)
1782
01:52:29,853 --> 01:52:31,211
(soothing music)
1783
01:52:43,876 --> 01:52:45,126
(typing on keyboard)
1784
01:53:47,152 --> 01:53:49,393
(soothing music swells)
1785
01:54:18,973 --> 01:54:20,539
(inspiring music)
1786
01:54:34,724 --> 01:54:36,290
♪ I've worked my whole life ♪
1787
01:54:36,332 --> 01:54:38,642
♪ What if I never get it right? ♪
1788
01:54:38,684 --> 01:54:42,359
♪ So many long nights, long nights ♪
1789
01:54:42,401 --> 01:54:46,250
♪ And If I'm uptight, that's
just cause I'm so tired ♪
1790
01:54:46,292 --> 01:54:48,671
♪ Don't have the money to burn tonight ♪
1791
01:54:48,713 --> 01:54:51,558
♪ So I'll work until I pass out ♪
1792
01:54:51,600 --> 01:54:53,535
♪ Pour some more espresso ♪
1793
01:54:53,577 --> 01:54:57,966
♪ Madness, yeah, I guess so ♪
1794
01:54:58,008 --> 01:55:01,402
♪ But it's a good night to
the write the way I'm feeling ♪
1795
01:55:01,444 --> 01:55:06,444
♪ I'll catch it in a bottle
so everybody can drink it ♪
1796
01:55:06,528 --> 01:55:11,528
♪ Here's to the dreamers,
painting the sky, hey ♪
1797
01:55:13,054 --> 01:55:17,050
♪ 'Cause you've got the vision ♪
1798
01:55:17,092 --> 01:55:22,092
♪ And the courage to try and make a move ♪
1799
01:55:24,248 --> 01:55:27,940
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1800
01:55:27,982 --> 01:55:31,678
♪ (Oh - o - o - oh) ♪
1801
01:55:31,720 --> 01:55:36,720
♪ I'm making moves (Yeah) ♪
1802
01:55:37,104 --> 01:55:41,126
♪ You work your whole
life hoping to be inspired ♪
1803
01:55:41,168 --> 01:55:44,818
♪ Whispers keeping you up at night ♪
1804
01:55:44,860 --> 01:55:48,374
♪ But don't give up when
you're three feet from gold ♪
1805
01:55:48,416 --> 01:55:53,306
♪ That dark night of the soul
is just how the story goes ♪
1806
01:55:53,348 --> 01:55:58,348
♪ Here's to the dreamers
painting the sky, hey ♪
1807
01:56:01,192 --> 01:56:03,714
♪ 'Cause you've got the vision ♪
1808
01:56:03,756 --> 01:56:08,756
♪ And the courage to try and make a move ♪
1809
01:56:10,976 --> 01:56:15,101
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1810
01:56:15,143 --> 01:56:18,434
♪ (Oh - o - o - oh) ♪
1811
01:56:18,476 --> 01:56:21,893
♪ I'm making moves (Yeah) ♪
1812
01:56:24,805 --> 01:56:27,896
(inspiring instrumental)
1813
01:56:39,901 --> 01:56:44,901
♪ This one's for the dreamers
painting the sky, hey ♪
1814
01:56:47,756 --> 01:56:52,572
♪ 'Cause you've got the
vision and the courage to try ♪
1815
01:56:52,614 --> 01:56:55,886
♪ And make a move ♪
1816
01:56:55,928 --> 01:56:58,101
♪ This one's for the dreamers ♪
1817
01:56:58,143 --> 01:56:59,165
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1818
01:56:59,207 --> 01:57:02,056
♪ Painting the sky ♪
1819
01:57:02,098 --> 01:57:03,456
♪ (Oh - o - o - oh) ♪
1820
01:57:03,498 --> 01:57:05,938
♪ This one's for the dreamers ♪
1821
01:57:05,980 --> 01:57:10,726
♪ I'm making moves ♪
1822
01:57:10,768 --> 01:57:13,534
♪ Old Man Failure ♪
1823
01:57:13,576 --> 01:57:17,746
♪ Finally takes his flight ♪
1824
01:57:17,788 --> 01:57:21,836
♪ Drops to his knees and sighs ♪
1825
01:57:21,878 --> 01:57:23,848
♪ That's one crazy b... ♪
1826
01:57:23,890 --> 01:57:26,490
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
1827
01:57:26,532 --> 01:57:29,354
♪ Old Man Failure ♪
1828
01:57:29,396 --> 01:57:33,270
♪ Finally takes his flight ♪
1829
01:57:33,312 --> 01:57:37,430
♪ Drops to his knees and sighs ♪
1830
01:57:37,472 --> 01:57:39,398
♪ That's one crazy b... ♪
1831
01:57:39,440 --> 01:57:41,390
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
1832
01:57:41,432 --> 01:57:43,607
♪ That's one crazy light ♪
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