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I am Izmir.

Yes, named after the city itself.

They gave me this name so I�d become free and tall in the saddle like Izmir.

And they also wished my life to flow like the edge of a warm sea, like the Aegean.

But I am neither tall in the saddle like Izmir nor crowded like Kordon.

I am a prisoner of my own thoughts in a city famous for its freedom.

Alright guys, what did we cover in the last class?

Izmir!

How many times do I have to say it?! Phones are not allowed during class!

That�s my only friend.

Good, you can make a real one now.

So the situation boils down to this.

I talked with your father too, Izmir.

If you use your phone in class again...

you won�t be able to participate in the field trips scheduled for this term.

- Wishing you a good day. - You too.

You�d think they�re taking us to Paris.

Right.

Still, don�t use your phone during class again, dear.

Besides, a phone can�t be your friend.

Healing comes from human connections.

And it completes with love.

Okay but there is no one who loves me.

You have a family who loves you a lot.

Listen, when you think someone doesn�t love you...

know that they haven�t seen what I see in you.

But one day, they surely will.

Besides, jewels are...

meant to sparkle, my dear.

Okay?

Tell the neighbours not to park in the handicapped spot again.

Yes, sir.

Yes, sir.

I am 18 years old.

And I�m still waiting for a message from someone...

I�m not even sure exists.

Inside me, there�s a butterfly desperately wondering...

what it feels like to love and be loved.

Caught on the window sill, constantly fluttering its wings.

It sees that there is a life outside...

and the sky is blue.

But no one opens the window.

Finding like-minded individuals is the only remedy for people like me.

And the expectation is hinged on receiving one message through here.

"Go to sleep already."

I�ve been waiting for a message for all that time...

hoping my first friend, my first message to be meaningful...

advocating to my parents that friendships formed online can be valuable too.

And what do I get?!

Go to bed already.

Are you seeking attention?

The man who left never to come back.

Neverland.

19.

�No one leaves a place with the intention of returning.�

Draping metaphors with a fake account and all.

Idiot.

"I mean if you don�t sleep, you won�t be able to wake up, the pearl of the Aegean, Izmir."

"Nice to meet you."

"You�ll write to me tomorrow."

"Good night."

Smartass.

Bastard.

I won�t write.

Good night. Shut up al...

Go to sleep already.

Sorry to interrupt, there�s a delivery of flowers for Izmir Aksoy.

How did he find me?

No way.

I didn�t tell him my school.

Did I write in on my blog?

I guess I did.

Would he make all this effort if he were fake?

Have a good class.

�We love you very much and we are always by your side. Mom and Dad.�

Who sent you flowers?

There�s no name.

Who else would send flowers to this face with freckles but your dad?

Idiot.

Are you having fun, the man who left never to come back?

No, Izmir...

I� not making fun of you.

Why did you write to me, then?

Because I�m lonely.

Just like you.

I just tried to talk.

If you don�t want to, you�re free.

You�re at least as free as Izmir.

But if you need a friend, I am here.

Because I need one.

Me too, the man who left never to come back.

Me too.

I�ll write on one condition...

you need to tell me your name.

My name is Can, Can Dogan.

I bet now you�ll ask where Neverland is.

That doesn�t count.

I need proof that it is your window.

Make the letter �N� of Neverland with your hand, send me a picture.

Turns out it�s very difficult to make �N�.

You�ve made it upside down, anyway.

Alright, alright, I believe you.

You are nowhere...

I am no one.

So, what are we going to talk about?

Nothing.

We can have a long talk about nothing.

Go to sleep already.

Add to contacts.

The man who left never to come back.

See you, Can.

See you, Izmir.

Oh, before I forget... Tomorrow morning, you�ll write to me.

And after that day, I always wrote to Can.

He told me things I never heard from anyone else.

Good morning.

After such a long time, I didn�t wake up by myself.

You woke me up.

And how does it feel to be woken up by a message?

Like I�m not lonely.

I don�t think you are.

You are right. I�m not lonely anymore.

Tell me, why did your parents name you Izmir?

Because you live in Izmir?

I smiled.

For the first time in my life, someone is curious about me.

This person is not beside me.

This person is not in front of me.

This person is not even in my city.

This person is inside my phone.

Maybe he is far away from me.

What ties a man like him to me?

3 questions, 30 seconds, hurry.

I panic when you put it like that.

- 27, 26... - Okay, okay.

Well, it�s...

1, where is Neverland?

2, why are you there?

3, why are you lonely?

You have 30 seconds. 29, 28, 27...

1, Neverland is Germany.

2, I�m here for school.

3...

I�m lonely because...

My childhood was marked by an illness I now recovered from.

So I grew up a bit wild.

In fact, my mother used to coddle me a lot, and my brother was quite jealous.

It�s my turn now. 1...

How come I feel like I can hear your voice just by reading what you�ve written for 7 months?

2, I�ve never seen you but...

I always feel like I�m looking at you.

3...

are you sure we haven�t met before?

Izmir!

Mom.

Izmir, you�ve gone all red, dear.

It�s a bit hot in here, that�s why.

Why did you come?

Sweetie, the meal is ready, that�s what I came to say.

You haven�t eaten your fruit, either.

Alright, I�ll be there right away.

And let your hair down a bit, let it breathe.

Already 628 messages

7 phone calls and countless excitement.

For the first time ever, someone saw me.

Not with my freckled face or my hair unruly hair that I can�t manage...

but with my words.

Someone saw me with the poems I shared, what I read.

I was comfortable because he was both with me and distant.

That�s how I am, I don�t want to look people in the face.

I don�t want them to hear my voice.

I can�t let my brown hair down and walk freely around.

And I didn�t want him to see, either.

Until one day, when he wanted to call me.

Can I see you now?

Call.

You can�t be shy, can you?

Come on, let me see your face.

Whoa! He looks like Francisco Lachowski.

Izmir, won�t you say anything?

Hello.

I was so worried about you.

Do I look like as you expected?

It�s not that...

I was worried because you didn�t reply.

Oh...

�Oh�?

I suck at talking, right?

Well, you need a bit of practice.

I wasn�t expecting this.

What do you mean?

I picked you out due to your name.

And you are very beautiful.

At least as beautiful as what you write.

Thank you.

I mean... I�m just a regular person.

Photos we�ll never be able to be in.

Buildings we�ll never be able to stand in front of.

Stairs we�ll never climb.

Trains we�ll never be able to board.

Tickets we�ll never be able to buy.

Cities we�ll never be able to visit.

Sentences we�ll never be able to hear.

Days that won�t come, years that won�t pass.

Is this normal?

This is my life, Izmir.

This is everything I�ve been deprived of.

How strange that with you...

I...

I�ll just...

What is it?

Did it remind you of something bad?

A bit like that.

Let�s move on from this, then.

Maybe you can tell me another time.

So this is what it feels like to be understood without talking.

Monsieur Ege.

Izmir, just a second.

Can?

God damn it! Who is Ege? Who is that woman? Answer.

Izmir, come on, dear, wake up.

Izmir.

Izmir, did you cry?

Mom, I know, if there�s someone, I can tell you about him.

And in fact, I should have someone, these things are normal.

But I need to be careful.

And let you know.

Is there something I missed?

Izmir, I guess you don�t appreciate when I ask nicely...

so tell me, who have you been talking to in your room for days?

Well, making friends is a problem, not making friends is a problem.

I don�t know how to please you.

Try being a bit more social, Izmir... No, don�t bother socializing, Izmir.

You want everything done exactly the way you want, whenever you want.

What�s going on here? Why are you getting me involved?

Mustafa...

Come, come here.

Oh, my beautiful girl.

Let her see anyone she wants, I�ll protect my daughter.

Was he really lying for all that time?

She called him Ege.

I�m sure he lied to me.

He made fun of me.

Maybe she was his girlfriend.

Maybe his wife.

I didn�t know how much of what he said was a lie...

or if something bad had happened to him.

I guess this was my place.

Maybe my place was kilometres away from where he was.

Hello, Izmir, this is Koray.

I�ve been here for three years and I�ve been following you.

I�m thinking of starting a group with 4 people whose posts I like.

If you agree and if you are tired of loneliness too...

we�d love to have you, the pearl of the Aegean.

What do you think?

I want to tell you a very important thing. First of all, I�m Ege.

Ege?

Why did you lie to me when I had dreams about you?

You had dreams about us?

Is this what our issue is?

It is my issue.

I don�t want to keep talking to someone who deceived me.

My truth is so heavy that...

I can only explain it to someone who can dream about me, Izmir.

Because I no longer have dreams about myself.

I don�t want to dream of the impossible.

If you don�t, it�ll always remain impossible.

And I guess it�ll remain that way.

Until I met you, I had thought I was going to go crazy out of loneliness.

You showed me that it�s still possible for me to hold on to someone, Aegean�s pearl.

And what kind of a person I want in my life.

If you tell me about it...

maybe I won�t be afraid to dream.

I promise I�ll tell you about it one day, Ege�s promise.

I'll remember that promise, Ege.

We have a group called �Our Little Planet�, consisting of 5 people for now.

Koray is...

the guy who invited me to the group.

His username is The One Who Escaped from Uranus.

He is obsessed with planets.

And he thought of forming a group when he was about to go crazy out of loneliness.

Merve is a shameless flirt.

Her username is Can I Stay over in Merve�s?

Her greatest dream is to dye her hair blue.

And like the rest of us, she is very lonely.

Another member of the group is Doruk.

His username is At the Peak of Life.

And he is a total gamer.

So much so that even Ege has started to plan games with him.

And Omer Ege Zorlu.

In the group, he goes by the name Can.

He�s preparing for the faculty of law in a town near Paris.

I added him to the group so he wouldn�t feel lonely.

1... 2... 3...

If you weren�t able to reach me, if we weren�t able to talk so comfortably...

I mean if the conditions were more difficult...

would you give up on writing to me.

- Hello, Mrs Izmir. - Hello.

I called to answer your question but I�d like to learn what I win...

if I give the right answer.

What do you want?

Shall we go to the movie theatre?

Yes. Where and when?

In front of A le cin, at 5.

In front of Al lasin, at 5. Deal.

Not al lasin, it�s a le cin.

I don�t know French.

I�ll teach you.

First, the answer.

Can you tell me the name of your street?

Guzelyali, 351th Street.

From Le Butte 370 to Guzelyali...

3391 km.

We are exactly 3391 km apart.

Alright, you�re telling me what goes through your mind right now.

Hey!

A cloud passed in front of your eyes, don�t think I didn�t see it.

I thought there is a world between us.

We are 4 numbers apart.

Are we going to be afraid of 4 numbers lined up side by side?

You may be afraid but...

I�m not, Izmir.

No matter what the conditions are, once I fall in love, I�m not afraid.

Did I manage to give the right answer?

Izmir?

I really wished I could say you managed to give the right answer...

I�m not afraid, either.

But I am afraid.

I am afraid of drowning in an unfamiliar sea.

I�m afraid of him not loving me when he gets to know me...

of the possibility of him not being around while he is now.

But I can�t leave, either.

Because he asked me out to the movie theatre.

From kilometres, cities, seas away.

While I was invisible to the people beside me...

he asked me out to the movie theatre knowing it was impossible.

Ever since that night...

I�ve travelled a distance of 3391 km from the map in my ceiling.

Ege and I watched a film together.

We pressed the button at the same time, we looked at the screen at the same time.

I fell asleep while he was looking at me.

When he told me to dream, I neither wished I was under the Northern Lights...

nor travelled the world.

I just dreamed of him here, in my room.

I didn�t even tell him that.

Is it raining there?

Yes.

It has never stopped for two hours.

Ege...

reach your hand out of the window.

Why?

I have.

I�m waiting for you.

The same rain will soak our hands.

- As if our hands are... - touching.

Are you doing it?

I�m holding your hand.

Me too.

Which song are you listening to?

Tell you what, you�re a bit of an idiot.

Idiot?

- Me? - Yes.

You are an idiot who listens to sad songs and depresses himself.

You are an idiot too.

Excuse me?

Whenever I tell you about my feelings...

you are an idiot who is afraid of my feelings and your own feelings.

Fine, we�re a good match, then.

The great love of the Izmir, the idiot and Ege, the idiot.

Ege, let�s not do this.

We are thousands of kilometres apart and we�ll never overcome this.

Falling in love while knowing this would be foolish.

You want to end it?

No, I just want us to stop.

I just want you to control your feelings.

It�s too late now, Izmir.

We can�t stop it now, you can�t.

Make up your mind now, I�m either all in...

or all out.

What we have here can�t be love, Ege.

It would be suffering.

With you there and me here.

We�ll suffer.

We can�t hug.

We can�t touch, we can�t kiss.

Don�t you have any hope?

Maybe one day we�ll be side by side, maybe one day...

Maybe one day, I�ll touch you.

Maybe one day, I�ll kiss you.

I waited for weeks to talk to you.

I�ve been in your life every second for two weeks.

I know when you go to sleep, when you eat.

I know when you go out.

But I can�t be by your side.

I have no one here.

I�m all alone.

And I�m in despite the pain.

And I�m in for suffering too.

Are you in?

I am, Ege.

I am in.

- I forgot something. - What is it?

Izmir Tulum Cheese.

What happened?

Izmir, is something wrong?

Izmir, can you say something?

Izmir?

Izmir, where are you going?

Izmir, say something.

Izmir...

Izmir!

Izmir, I�m so sorry.

We lost your mother and father...

in a car accident.

You�ve got to be strong.

I love you so much.

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Calm down. Izmir, try to calm down.

If your parents saw you like this, they�d be very upset.

Don�t do this, Izmir.

- I can�t breathe. - Easy.

360 new messages, 135 missed calls

Izmir...

come on, pull yourself together.

If your father saw you like this, he�d be very upset.

Come on.

Dear Izmir...

My dear.

You know your grandmother has chronic diseases.

It�s not possible for her to stay here alone.

So we thought...

I mean we thought...

why don�t we take you to the States?

I can�t leave my mom and dad.

Izmir...

actually, you have one more choice.

Well...

There�s this scholarship that the Turkish Armed Forces provides.

If you don�t want to go to the States...

you can go to university with that scholarship.

But then, there won�t be anyone with you from your family.

The tranquillity of Izmir...

the peace of Ege, is left behind now.

It�s time to tumble down from the hills of Istanbul now.

The cheerful days of my life, resembling Izmir, are buried there.

Maybe now, I am more of an Istanbul.

An Izmir in Istanbul.

An Izmir that looks like anything but itself.

I swear I fell in the same way just a moment ago.

Izmir?

Merve?

What are you doing here?

Well, the scholarship here was abundant so we all decided to come here together.

Are you okay?

Can, too?

No, just Koray, Doruk and I.

But Can was very upset too.

I�m sure he�d come if he could too.

But he didn�t.

Merve...

don�t tell him I�m here, okay?

And thank you for your help.

I�ll take care of the rest.

Everything is in your closet, my girl.

- If you need anything, give me a call. - Okay, mom.

Izmir?

I�ve never had the chance to say it, I�m so sorry.

How are you?

How are you coping?

I�m managing.

Did you talk to your guy?

My guy?

Your guy, your boyfriend.

I�m not going to take this class.

See you later.

Bon apetit.

Isn�t it difficult to stay away from your family?

I don�t have a family.

I lost them.

I wish mine were dead too.

Are things really bad between you?

Well...

Excuse me.

Speak of the devil...

Yes, daddy?

Yes.

Drink?

Money?

My kidney?

You wouldn�t have anything to do with me even if it was my kidney, though.

Of course, it�s money.

Okay...

Alright, I�ll bring it tonight.

Are you always like this?

How?

Cheerful even when you�re sending your dad money for a drink?

What else can I do?

I mean there�s no one to cheer me up, so this is how I raise my vibration.

You got anything?

What do you mean?

Something that raises your vibration, cheers you up.

Like a boyfriend, girl, get it?

No.

I had one...

but not anymore.

Never mind.

That�s easy to say.

Why?

Did he cheat on you?

Not that I know of.

It�s difficult to know, of course.

My parents...

When my parents were gone, I went quiet.

And what he liked the most was talking to me.

So as you see, I�m not the person he loved anymore.

That�s just some cheap story.

Life can take so much more than that.

What was your name?

Izmir.

Izmir...

What�s the guy�s name?

Ege.

Wow!

Ege�s Izmir, eh?

Very good.

Listen, Izmir...

one day you�ll wake up and you�ll be 50. And everything will be in the past.

And when you look back, there�s only one moment you want to change.

Would you want such a moment?

Nothing would change even if I wanted.

We were going to break up one day, anyway.

Oh, so you were only too glad. Why?

Because he is far away.

Too far to come.

Judging from your look, you don�t look like a tree to me.

I think you can go where you are happy.

Anyway...

I should go now.

You had nothing to drink. Tea, coffee.

No, I should go.

By the way, you didn�t tell me your name.

I�m Buse.

Nice to meet you, Buse.

Call that guy.

This world is not worth fighting alone.

I�m worried about you... Where are you, Izmir? Please call me...

When I look at my shadow I can't see you anymore.

This world is not worth fighting alone.

Our shadows are still together.

Only one of it is in pain.

I�ve missed you so much, Izmir.

Ege came to my shore, and I became Izmir again.

ARAS UNIVERSITY MEE AND GREET PARTY

Merve is still motioning her hand for me to go downstairs.

She�s right. Because your life isn�t about texting me, right?

Ege, don�t talk like this, please.

I am happy with how things are.

It�s not a problem, you can go. Really.

I don�t stay here because it�s a problem, I do it because I want to.

Ege, can you stop, please? I feel dizzy.

Sorry.

I wasn�t aware.

You wouldn�t walk and talk, what happened?

Your absence left some damages in me, Mrs Izmir.

I�m sorry.

I wasn�t aware how my absence affected you.

Don�t apologize.

You had worse days than me.

So you deserve to...

go and have fun for both of us.

Please, go.

Please.

Ege...

One day...

will you trust me enough to...

tell me why you are there and what is so important that...

you couldn�t come here even when my parents died?

I swear to you there�s nothing I want more.

It�s just...

a little time.

I�m not pushing you...

but at this point, I�m expecting.

Okay.

Now that we�ve solved that...

I think we can solve the party issue too, right?

Come on.

Who�d make all this effort to send his girlfriend to a party?

I�m so lucky to have you, Ege.

Me too, love.

Come on, go.

Enjoy your new life.

At last.

Who�d avoid a party at 18?

I wasn�t really in the mood.

Luckily, we have things that you�ll like here.

We put vodka in it.

I don�t like it much.

Leave it, then. This is it.

Hold it, hold it.

I�ve just entered my orbit, guys. See you, take care.

Check her out.

Her libido is like a rodeo!

I�d be surprised if someone were to ride it without falling.

- Are you okay? - Are you okay?

I had the one with the vodka by mistake.

Drop it.

Who�d have a drink by mistake? It�s obvious she wanted the drink.

Hello. I�m Berk, by the way.

My worst habit is eavesdropping on neighbouring tables, I hope you didn�t mind.

I�m Koray, bro.

Doruk.

Izmir.

Izmir?

This is the first time I see someone named Izmir from Izmir...

who shies away from drinking.

Nice.

I like nice coincidences.

Departments?

We�re both doing psychology.

Cool, I�m doing sociology.

We have a lot of classes in common, we�ll see each other.

Yes, we will.

Hope we don�t.

Hello. I�m Berk. Berk.

They�re always the same.

Jerk.

"Open the doors of your city to me, Let's miss other cities with you there.

These houses, these streets, these squares, they�re not enough for us."

Amazing, right?

Hello.

Izmir...

How is the party going, dear?

I was just wondering.

I like nice coincidences.

I see, I guess everything�s fine.

Would you like to tell me too?

Oh... There�s this guy here...

It won�t sound funny because you don�t see it but he�s drunk and he�s dancing.

Look at him, Izmir. Gosh.

I guess you�re busy. We�ll talk later.

Ege...

She and I have things to do, mate.

Come.

I saved you.

You didn�t tell me you were a student.

I�m not. I wouldn�t have anything to do with university.

When you get on well with the security people, you can get in.

I thought I�d come and check this out once my shift was over.

You did so well.

Come on, let�s get a drink. Here

I don�t drink much.

Well done.

Buse, what happened?

I�m okay, nothing.

Buse, are you okay?

I need to go to the toilet.

Okay, come, hold on to me.

- Are you okay? - I am, I am.

Buse, there�s blood on your leg.

Why are you so scared, girl? Don�t you bleed?

Let�s go to the toilet, I�ll take care of it.

Buse...

Buse!

Buse!

Buse.

After operations it is normal to see such small bleeding.

Nevertheless, she should see a doctor.

Okay, thank you.

You may see your friend.

Don�t worry, I�m okay.

Everything will be great.

Only it would be great.

Istanbul is a strange place.

Loneliness is even stranger.

I used to think these things always happened to people I didn�t know.

Although...

I used to think death was something that always happened to other people, too.

Mrs Izmir...

you have a package.

- Thank you. - You�re welcome.

�So that you don�t fear the dark...�

�Remember, even when there�s no one, you have me. Dream about me, illuminated nights...�

Good morning Ege, last night I cried tears of happiness after a long time.

You did that. Thank you for your gift.

Good morning, the pearl of the Aegean.

As long as I�m here, you won�t be in the dark.

- Hello. - Hello.

I�m here for the scholarship announcement in Paris.

Can you tell me what�s required?

Sure.

First, you fill out this form...

and then bring it back to us with a wet signature and the approval of your advisor.

- Okay, thank you. - You�re welcome.

- Where were you, honey? - I had something to do.

- Are you okay? - Yes. You?

- Hi. - Shall I pass the phone to her?

You�re welcome, bro. It�s okay.

Kisses.

Your boyfriend.

He was worried about you.

God damn it. My phone is on silent.

I�m leaving.

Ege, hi.

Hi.

I forgot my phone on silent, I�m sorry.

I�m really sorry.

It�s okay, no problem.

How was your day?

Normal. I had a class.

And then, I was in the cafeteria.

Were you with Koray?

No.

Koray had another class.

- So you were alone. - Well.

Berk was there, he sat with me.

And I couldn�t tell him to leave out of kindness.

The guy whose voice I heard at the party?

Yes, him.

How did you remember?

Izmir, I waited all day for your call yesterday.

To say goodnight. How can I forget?

Ege, things I can�t tell you about happened.

A friend called Buse...

It�s a private matter.

But today, I did something very...

Alright, I get it, girl stuff. Let�s talk about this guy.

From what I gather, you didn�t tell him about me?

Ege, how can I tell him about you if I�m not asked?

- Hello, I�m Izmir and Ege is my... - Your what?

Your what, Izmir? Yes, I�m listening.

I can�t say Ege is my boyfriend.

I wish you could, Izmir.

Ege, I�m sorry but that�s not who I am.

I can�t hurt people.

So in this case, I am the only person you can hurt, right?

Ege, please don�t do this. Listen, today I did something...

Can we hang up now?

Let�s talk later, okay?

Okay.

Hello, Izmir.

Hi.

Are you okay?

You know I always told you I�d tell you about it when the right time came...

it�s now.

I can�t recognize myself anymore.

When I can�t reach you, the anger that washes over me...

the discomfort I feel when a jerk approaches you...

not being able to touch you...

not making you mine... I can�t bear it anymore.

I can�t tolerate myself anymore.

I bear my anger, my frustration.

Because every time I get angry...

I remember I�m a murderer.

A murderer?

I want you to know that until I met you...

every single day...

I wanted to go back to a few minutes before that incident.

A few days earlier.

I�d say...

�God, if only a miracle happened and I went back a few minutes.�

Now I don�t say that.

I can�t even bear the thought of not having known you, Izmir.

But this isn�t working out, either, Izmir.

This loneliness, this grief...

it�s unbearable.

Especially looking into the eyes of someone so innocent...

it�s unbearable.

I�m no good.

No good.

I accept that and quit.

Please, forgive me.

I love you more than you could imagine.

I love you a lot.

I�m so sorry but I have no other choice.

No, no.

Ege! Ege, no, please!

Ege!

I have no one but you, please!

No, I�m begging you. Please!

Ege, no! Please!

�Halit Zorlu�s son, Omer Ege Zorlu, is accused of murder.�

You can leave it on the table, I�m not hungry.

Ege.

You?

I thought you were dead!

Izmir...

Why did you leave me too?

Why did you leave me?!

I had no one!

I lost everything I had!

How could you do this to me?!

How could you do this to me?!

I�m sorry... I�m sorry.

How could you do this to me?!

- Leave me! Let me go! - I�m sorry.

- I�m sorry. - Let me go!

- Let me go! - I�m sorry.

- I�m sorry! - Leave me!

I�m sorry.

You know I lost my family, how could you do this to me?!

I�m so sorry.

I�m so sorry.

What I did was stupid.

I scared you so much.

I will never make the same mistake again.

I�ll never leave you.

Do you believe me?

I have no one else to believe in.

I did everything to be with you in your worst moment.

But I couldn�t come.

I�m so sorry.

Let�s not talk about this now.

I really wanted to surrender, Izmir.

I didn�t want to escape.

Everything happened because I couldn�t break my mom�s heart.

There was a fight at home as usual.

I confronted my father.

He was trying to take the stress of everything he was going through out on my mom.

I couldn't stay at home with that anger.

And then I went to my friends' party to clear my head.

I saw Yaren, my ex-girlfriend, there.

It wasn�t planned or anything.

Or I didn�t really care about Yaren, either but...

When I saw that jerk bother her, I lost control because of my anger towards my dad.

It was a simple fight but I couldn�t hold back.

And he provoked me a lot.

Everything spiralled out of control.

I swear it happened unintentionally.

He was already drunk too.

The guy fell into the pool and...

drowned.

I didn't know what to do.

When this incident happened...

my mom said she�d kill herself if I went to prison.

And she would do it.

Ege...

would you like to keep your promise?

Which one?

- Once you told me, one day... - we�ll get soaked under the same rain.

One day, I will hold your hands.

I promise you one day, our hands will touch, Izmir.

Come on.

I haven�t seen such a magical place in a long time.

Everything in the dormitory is in a single colour.

Haven�t we waited long enough?

Welcome, the pearl of the Aegean.

Izmir...

kiss me.

Izmir kisses Ege and Ege is filled with joy.

Ege, we�re soaked to the bone.

Shall we step out of the rain?

Let�s go.

Will we come back out to the terrace?

This is our terrace, Izmir.

We�ll step out whenever you want.

And this is our house.

Our room, our bed

Our chair, our cork board, our lights.

This is our world.

You�ll be in this house even when you�re gone. You�ll always be with me.

Really?

Watching the floor won�t work when you�re with me, though.

Let�s get you undressed or you�ll get sick.

Actually, I brought clothes.

I don�t care.

As long as you�re here, your clothes are forbidden.

Come on...

change your clothes.

Oh, okay, okay.

I�m not looking, alright.

Sorry.

Done?

God...

nothing for the bottom.

Okay, you can come.

God, nothing for the bottom?

- I�m going back to Istanbul. - Come here, come.

Come.

Warm up a little.

Get in, get in, get in.

You�re really bad.

It never happens like this in movies.

Because we are too real to fit into movies.

Shall we go to Paris tomorrow?

Ege�s promise?

Ege�s promise.

I�m with you.

She tells me to turn off the lights.

I�m already scared of the dark.

Bitch.

Alright, we had fun but you�ve had too many drinks, love.

This is enough.

Izmir, Izmir, Izmir...

Spilled something on myself.

Oh, really?

Look, I�m wet.

How could that happened? You weren�t supposed to get wet.

I see...

you�re making fun of me.

So be it.

It�s better.

It�ll get me even more drunk.

Can you tell them to...

change this ridiculous song?

- Tell them to play... - What?

- Tell them to play Muslum Gurses. - Muslum Gurses?

Excuse me... Could you please play...

Muslum Gurses?

Am I not speaking Turkish?

Why is she staring at me like that?

You�re speaking Turkish, my darling.

That�s the problem.

Am I really your darling?

Oh... Right.

We�re in France.

See?

They can�t play Muslum Gurses here.

But that can�t stop us from listening to Muslum Gurses.

What are you doing?

I�m playing Muslum Gurses.

Let�s make them hear some real music.

d If I hurt you d

d Be mad at me d

Someone is finally playing a real song.

- Hello. - Hello.

d If I suddenly turn into the night turn the sun towards me d

d My love, forgive me even if it�s a bit difficult d

d Forgive me in the late afternoon while my shadow extends d

d Forgive me in the afternoon whenever you want d

d Forgive me in the night-time while the moon hoovers d

d Forgive me before dawn just as separation is about to happen d

d Because you�ve become rain in my desert d

d You�ve become day in my night d

d You�ve become a companion to my soul d

d You�ve become a blanket to my winter d

I�ll be right back.

Okay? Right back.

Are you okay?

- Uh-huh. - Uh-huh.

We�re here.

Sit.

Wait.

Alright, what do we do first?

Take it off.

Izmir, if you could help me...

Are you getting me undressed?

Wait.

Did you get me undressed?

What?

I had to make sure you didn�t get pneumonia.

My eyes were closed the entire time.

I swear.

- You�re such a liar. - No.

For example, I didn�t see the mole on your knee.

Or I have no idea about the...

dimple on your waist.

You were so beautiful, Izmir.

So innocent.

Izmir...

I love you.

Ege, we�re going to miss the flight.

No crying, okay?

Write to me when you get there.

Izmir!

Izmir, are you okay?

I�m so sorry, I couldn�t see.

Come, let�s go to the hospital.

My phone, my phone is in the car.

Alright, I�ll bring your phone, don�t worry.

No fractures.

It seems to be just damage to the tissue and ligaments.

Oh, hi.

Hi, bro.

Try not to step on it on the first day.

Tell your parents to look after you a couple of days, Izmir.

How are you? How do you feel now?

I am okay.

Ege.

Hi, love. There�s a car waiting for you in front of the door.

Ege, are you here?

No, love.

Just get in that car without questioning, okay?

My family will take care of you until you get better.

Ege, I don�t even know your family.

But they know you.

Listen, don�t expect me to...

leave you alone on your own in that state.

Okay, love?

Come on, get in the car.

So this is the girlfriend of your most precious?

Son.

Welcome, my girl.

Ali, Ege�s older brother. Nalan, his wife.

And this is Lena.

And this is Ege�s room.

I haven�t touched his room.

I wanted him to find it the way he left it if he were to come one day.

Dear Izmir...

Dear, I�m so...

sorry about what happened to your parents.

I miss them so much.

I�ve never went back to my house out of fear of opening that door and not seeing them.

But I miss my house�s smell, their smell so much.

Izmir, dear...

go and say goodbye to them.

Or else this pain you feel inside will never stop.

Come on dear, get some rest.

If you need anything, just call out to me.

Thank you.

I�m Buse.

You got anything?

Like a boyfriend, girl, get it?

Ege�s Izmir, eh?

I�m here, love.

Ege you�re here.

Three days later...

two countries are 3391 km apart.

That�s a lot of distance.

I sneaked in like a thief.

Without being seen to anyone.

Let me go see my mom.

Uncle.

Sweetie.

Let me see, you�ve grown so much.

Ege, how did you come son?

- Mom. - Son, how did you come?

Ege, how could you do this?

I miss you.

We miss you too.

But how can you take this risk?

After all the effort we made for you...

you can�t come here as you wish, son.

I can�t bear to be there anymore, dad.

What did you bear, lad?!

You�re being taken care of like a king over there.

Hello to you too, brother.

Okay, enough. Please.

Come on, let�s sit at the table.

My son has come home after such a long time.

I don�t want to talk about these, please.

Come on, ask Izmir to come here too, son.

I�ll eat you up.

Careful, careful. Watch your foot.

Okay.

Where is Ege going?

He�s heading to Izmir. There�s a place he needs to visit.

Are you going to drive me insane?

What if he gets caught on the way?

What if his fake ID is exposed?

Do you want everything we did to go to waste?

Halit, do you remember what happened the last time you got this angry?

Please...

calm down this time.

And do something for your son.

Dad, dinner with the Italians?

I�ll take care of it without you too.

Take Salih with you and...

follow your brother from a distance.

Don�t let anything bad happen to him, okay?

Find a boat at that old port and get him across.

Am I supposed to go and babysit while there�s so much work to do?

Cut it out, Ali.

Salih!

Come, boy, we�re going to do babysitting.

Photos we�ll never be able to be in.

- Did it remind you of something bad? - A bit like that.

Wow.

Ege�s Izmir, eh?

Call that guy.

This world is not worth fighting alone.

Did he cheat on you?

After operations It is normal to see such small bleeding.

Don�t worry, I�m okay.

Tell the neighbours not to park in the handicapped spot again.

They parked in the handicapped spot again.

�We love you very much and we are always by your side. Mom - Dad.�

What�s going on? You�ll just have dinner outside.

Go.

Come on.

We love you so much, my dear.

And so much.

Me too. Come on.

You haven�t eaten your fruit either, dear.

Its mother had died too.

It grew up.

My mom didn�t let me take it home.

So I was taking care of it here.

Ege, what are you doing?

Hush. We�re kidnapping the cat.

Where? Where can I look after the cat?

We�ll think of that later, think of a name now.

Plane.

Plane? Why?

Because it's the only thing that brings me to you and you to me.

Shall we go to the movie theatre tomorrow?

Okay.

You sound a little out of sorts, Are you tired?

Yes, I�m a little tired.

- I need to take a shower. - I see.

Alright, text me before you go to bed, then.

I will.

I love you.

Me too.

Do we have a deal, dear?

Listen, you�re a smart girl.

Besides, one�s got to be able to forget and say goodbye to things at ended.

We can�t move on if we don�t forget, right?

Let this go, okay?

Alright, Yaren?

It�s not Yaren, it�s Buse.

Darling, it was incredible.

Yes, it really was good.

What about the philosophical basis of Sera? I loved it, it was really good.

Yes, the metaphors were impressive.

What metaphors, Izmir?

Well, those about Sera.

Izmir, there�s no character called Sera in the movie.

There�s no such character in the movie!

Are you messing with me!?

Ege, don�t shout at me.

I�m not!

Alright, alright.

I�m not shouting.

If you hadn�t gone to the movie theatre with me, who were you with, Izmir?

Who was I with, eh? Who was I with?

Apparently for you, it�s clear who I was with.

Come on, say it, I�m listening.

I don�t have a name in mind. You�ve been cold and different for days...

and you�re lying to me.

Wasn�t this our dream?

Didn�t we plan this early in our relationship?

What is more important for you than our dreams, Izmir?

Why didn�t you go to that movie theatre, Izmir?

I followed your ex-girlfriend.

- What? - Yes.

I followed your ex-girlfriend who...

like a pervert, found me, became friends with me.

What are you talking about?

That Buse I met at the cafeteria...

turned out to be Yaren.

Izmir, how long have you known this?

It�s been a couple of days.

And you�ve been lying to me for days, is that so?

You didn�t ask me, you didn�t talk to me. You took me for a fool!

We�re talking about two different things, Ege.

Are you the victim here too?

I thought when I comforted you during your nightmare, it was about another woman.

I�ve been sleeping with this thought for days and I�m the one to blame again?

Ege, I�m so tired.

I�m tired of worrying about my phone before my own life when a car runs over my foot.

Of feeling guilty when someone wants to help me.

Of feeling bad when I feel good.

I�m so tired of being wrong all the time.

You are angry with your dad...

but you�re becoming more like him, Ege.

Despite your sin...

I accepted you.

Izmir?

Izmir?

What happened to me?

You got poisoned from the fish, honey.

Or rather, everyone who had it did.

Did you bring my phone?

We let him know but he said he left you in our care.

And he didn�t say anything else.

Hello.

Hello?

You say �hello� only if it�s a casual call, Ege!

Not to your girlfriend whom you didn�t call...

when she was in the hospital due to poisoning!

I was sick!

I fainted, how could you not call me?

Koray was keeping me informed at the time.

Not enough!

I didn�t need you to be informed, I needed you.

You said you wouldn�t make the same mistake?

You said you wouldn�t leave me, I was in your care?

You really are like your dad, Ege.

Your intention isn�t to make me feel good but just to control me.

Let it end, Izmir.

You really are like your father.

Mum.

Something happened.

He got lost, I got lost.

Neither he nor I remained in this world.

But life didn�t give up on us.

It gave us another chance.

My dreams and hopes came close...

for me to reach and grab them.

But now, it�s too late for certain things.

I believed I was living in a tale.

Yet what started with a tale ended with reality.

So?

Saying, �it�s in the past now� isn�t that easy when you�re at the crime scene, right?

Why did you ask me to come here?

I thought maybe your conscience would bother you a little bit.

I didn�t come here that day to kill someone.

I came to see you.

- Good night. - I missed you.

Let�s meet?

I really needed you at that moment.

But you didn�t care at all.

For a moment I thought you were lying.

I am sick, I�ll be home today.

I sent you a disguised link to find out your location.

And you took the bait right away.

I found your location.

Information has been received.

While I couldn�t spend a second without you...

you seemed to be enjoying yourself at the party.

Go away!

What�s going on here?

They have a different issue.

Let it go, enjoy yourself.

What�s their issue?

Bro, she is his ex-girlfriend.

Ex-girlfriend?

Yes, bro. Never mind.

And on top of that, you were with my brother.

If I hadn�t found out about your past, everything could have been different.

Actually...

I was on my way out.

But...

I wanted to punish him.

When I saw the apple of my mother�s eye, her one and only...

took the love of my life from me...

I wanted to punish him.

Am I the love of your life?

Why didn�t I know that, Ali?

I couldn�t do it.

I have a family, a child.

If you had let me, we�d have one too, Ali.

So that�s why you went after Izmir, eh?

You were going to confess everything because I forced you to have an abortion?

Are you stupid, girl?

They�d take you to prison first for being an accomplice.

And ask you why you hadn�t talked all this time.

I was still in love with you.

I was going to forget it all and move on.

Despite the guilt...

despite being kept waiting for months...

you were like me too.

Never loved...

never seen.

I�ve grown used to not being loved.

You�ll get used to it too.

You know what, I even came to your door.

I thought if I needed him, he would need me too.

When your mom saw me in front of the house, she thought I was there for Ege.

That�s how I learned where Izmir was.

Then I found myself chasing Izmir.

I wanted to see what kind of life your brother, whose life you ruined, was living,

When I was how passionate Ege was about Izmir...

I understood what real love was.

What love, for God�s sake?

Who can talk about love in this age?

I�ll rewrite both my story and...

Ege and Izmir�s story from the beginning.

What a guy, this Ege!

What a guy!

All my life, he�s taken everything from me.

He took my mom, my dad, love, respect, praise, everything.

He took you too.

Why? Because he was sick.

Sick.

Alright... Alright, I�m sick now too.

I�m sick. Come on, heal me too.

Come on! My mom, my dad, you.

Ege, Ege�s girlfriend. Go ahead, heal me too.

Come on, heal me.

But you can�t do that, can you?

No, you can�t, right?

Because I�m worthless, right?

I have no worth.

They don�t love you...

still, you do everything for them.

They don�t see you...

still, you risk everything so as...

not to lose their love.

Everything.

Sometimes, people need another even to love themselves.

And if they are lucky...

they find their worth in the eye of the other.

For example, Buse...

She loved herself through our eyes.

And, I, through Ege�s...

You were right, daddy...

it all boils down to love.

And true healing...

comes from human connections.

Remember when we first met...

you told me I was at least as free as Izmir.

Now, you are at least...

as free as Izmir too, Ege.

You are as innocent as our love.

I�m sorry but...

it was your older brother who did everything.

Go to sleep already.

I can�t go back there anymore.

I can�t return to the place where my own brother set a trap for me, Izmir.

So if I were to ask you to come here...

would you come to the city of our dreams?

Are you having fun, the man who left never to come back?

No.

It�s just that I�m very lonely.

But if you don�t want to, you�re free.

You are at least as free as Izmir.

But if you need a friend...

a life partner...

I am here.

Because I need one.

When my parents were gone, it was Ege who picked me up from where I fell.

It was my turn now to be his everything.

Numbers...

Numbers seem to be another name for...

dividing, breaking, and classifying something.

However, neither pain nor love can be measured by numbers.

I learned this at the age of 18, when I lost everything that gave meaning to my life.

And when someone I�d known just for a few months became my everything.

When you dive into love this way, distance loses all meaning.

So now I�m coming to you with my own truths.

Maybe to get lost.

Maybe to find myself again.

Damn it, I forgot it was off.

I think there's a problem with your phone, may I help you?

They call the point where the sea meets the shore the zero point.

Today, I surpassed 3391 kilometres...

and reached my own zero point.

You are now in my care.

Yes.

Because you have grown so much.