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(Irv) There´s a particular brand of pit

that grows in your stomach

when you know you´re losing control

and there´s nothing you can do about it.

Heavy as granite and moldering.

- We made it. - Yeah. Barely.

Let me take you to a theater

in town instead of worrying who might see us.

You wanna fight again or see the movie?

A little bit of both.

We have time to make the show if we divide.

- Buy tickets, I´ll pick snacks. - Why do you get snacks?

Because you have this weird thing

against fake butter. Go buy.

Hey. Can I get two for "The Last Samurai"?

Okay.

Hold it. I´m gonna need to see some ID, please.

Since when?

Since 1968, when the Motion Picture Association of America

said no one under 17 can be admitted

´into an R-rated film without a guardian.´

Well, I´ve been seeing R-rated films since I was born

so I was grandfathered in, I assure you.

There´s an 8:15 showing of "The Rugrats" if you want.

´There´s plenty of seats.´

I dunno how to explain this to you in the short time that I´ve

but this is very, very important, okay?

I´m on a date, which is rare.

You look like a guy who could appreciate that.

No, I´m not saying that I don´t think that you get action.

But, no, I´m sure you do

but...look, just, you gotta let me in. Alright?

Here´s the money. Take it. Keep the change.

Next.

I decided to compromise on the butter,

so I took it on the side, which is pretty vile.

Did you get tickets?

- Can I have two for "Samurai"? - Are you over 17?

And are you this boy´s parent or guardian?

You´re getting too good at this.

(Andy) ´Well, there are advantages to maturity.´

´Experience and wisdom.´

- And a vocabulary. - Well, there´s that.

"Plunder."

´Double-letter score for 28 points. Take that.´

Your turn.

Oh, I think I should just admit defeat gracefully.

Oh, come on, you can´t give up that easily.

Oh, here´s a little word just for you.

Oh, wait a minute. There´s more.

Now, I know you just landed a triple-word score.

but did you just proposition me?

Possibly.

Probably.

I should go.

- What? - It´s 9, gotta pick up Delia.

I thought she was at Brittany´s house.

She is. But if she stays too long

they find something to fight about.

Which, Delia says, means they´re best friends.

- Girls are complicated. - Yeah, we sure are.

This was great. Really.

See you tomorrow.

(Irv) It´s the way we´re built, I suppose.

A natural reaction to

the unstoppable spin of the Earth below.

Forever trying to wrest control of life, love, work and home.

And when we can´t get control there

we´ll fight for it where we can.

Don´t think we´re watching whatever you´re watching.

I was here first. Aren´t you on a date?

I was. Now I´m back.

It´s early. Didn´t you have a nice time?

It was great. It was better than great, actually. It was amazing.

- You? How was your date? - Fantastic. Couldn´t be better.

- Lucky you. - Lucky everyone.

Don´t even think about it.

(Irv) As if we think we could stop the world

from spinning just by being mad.

[theme music]

[music continues]

(Irv) ´There you are.´

- Oh, dear. - Cool, it´s just underwear.

You said that she´d park here till things

cooled down at home, not forever.

Now, how long is this gonna go on for? Another month?

- You´re not even listening. - I am.

I just don´t like anything you´re saying.

And what in God´s name made you think

you needed an extra helping of cobbler?

It´s our house.

I don´t have to put on a suit to get a glass of water.

We live here and are old and we should be able to walk

around in whatever we please. It´s our God-given right.

What do you want me to do, hurl my granddaughter out?

She´s too used to having the run of the house.

I love her, but she´s inconsiderate and messy.

Curfew´s not enough, you gotta lay down some rules.

Hello, just looking for the cordless, don´t mind me.

I´m, like, invisible.

You know, you should really leave it on the charger.

´Goodnight, guys.´

Oh, shove it.

I´m serious. My family´s driving me crazy.

That´s what families do. At least, the ones I´ve been part.

Not like this.

We went through dinner last night, and no one said a word.

This is my dad we´re talking about.

It´s like someone took the batteries out.

They´re scared if they say anything

it´ll start another fight.

Because of Amy?

Since she left, our house is a funeral home

It´s like Colin´s house, except for she´s not dead.

She just walked out so she could hang out with a druggie freak.

Why is that guy running? We only do five laps.

It´s that Gavin Curtis.

Wrestlers are doing weigh-ins. He´s shaving the last pound.

- Why? - He sucked last year at 160.

He comes in this year at 142, he´s undefeated.

If he wins regionals, he´ll be the first from

County in like forever to go to State.

Where are my clothes? I left them right here.

It´s like five degrees. It´s third period.

What am I gonna wear?

Yo, Diaphram!

Dude, go kick his ass.

- Why? - Because I said so. Go, kill.

How many times do I have to tell you? I´m not a dog.

(all shouting) Yeah!

In by a half.

Feeling ready?

- Gavin, you okay? - Yeah, I´m good.

(Andy) ´Seems okay to me.´

Are you sure?

Twenty laps on no breakfast, and I´d hit the floor too.

That´s my fault. I should´ve made

sure he ate something before he left.

Normally we sit together, read the paper.

I had an early meeting.

It was so stupid. I was holding off

on hydrating until after the scales.

It´s one thing to lose on the mat, but if I couldn´t compete

because I fell on my face three days before regionals, I..

After all, everyone´s helped me.

Don´t think about the weight okay? Just take care.

He will. I´m gonna be watching you like a hawk, kiddo.

I´m gonna feed you that water bottle myself. Got that?

Must be fun having people worrying about you.

I keep telling them not to.

Believe me, there´s a whole town

full of people depending on this kid.

´They´re having a pep rally for him at school.´

It´s the first for wrestling since they built it.

But I´ll be okay for the match, right?

I wouldn´t worry. There´s a spot on the Wheaties box for you.

But you know what? I´ll call for a scan

and some blood work, just in case.

Why don´t you take off your sweatshirt?

(Curtis) Well, we sure appreciate this, doctor.

I´m gonna need dentistry to sign this permission slip.

I don´t want him to miss practice

and they won´t let him train without it.

I´d like to wait for the results of the lab work.

I´d rather not rush this, and I think Gavin could use a rest.

He can take it. Gotta keep his momentum.

I´ll tell you what. I´ll push the lab for results

and run this slip over to your coach tonight. That work?

- Sure thing. - Great.

Those shorts make you look even skinnier.

(Delia) ´Did you wear them to school?´

(Madison) ´That´s an interesting wardrobe choice.´

Sort of retro-funk-jock-dork.

- Just going for a jog. - You don´t jog.

Yes, I do. I started, ever since I saw "28 Days Later."

I´m not in good enough shape to survive

a post-apocalyptic zombie world.

- Trying to get buff. - You don´t get buff.

Did you hear the Broncos are trading Kanell?

- No way. - I just saw it on the internet.

You should go check it out.

That was mean.

I think you look cute. Go team.

I can do a tracksuit next time we go out.

How about tomorrow? We can make up for the other night.

It´ll be tough, but I think

I know a guy who can get us into "The Rugrats" movie.

I can´t tomorrow. I´ve got this evil Abnormal Psych midterm.

Guess who put off eight chapters for the night before?

- I´ll be held in the library. - Want some company?

I could bring my Euro History.

We´re doing this interesting unit on Portugal.

That´s sweet. But, you know, I just..

I can´t risk seeing you in those shorts again and distracting me.

Besides, library´s on campus and you need an ID to get in.

Story of my life.

We could do a movie at home

after I finish my test. Your pick.

I´m gonna tell Delia you were kidding

before she has a heart attack.

Dinner´s at 6.

[whistle]

How could you not see that coming? Let´s go again.

- Hey, coach. - Hey, Dr. Brown.

I was told you were gonna stop by. What´s the word?

Word is good. I brought Gavin´s permission slip.

He was low on blood sugar.

Hemoglobin too. But he´s under the line for anemia.

Poor kid. He´s so set on winning.

We all want him to qualify for State

but he made himself sick just worrying about it.

- What do you mean? - He got a little queasy.

He threw up? No one mentioned that.

Nervous stomach is all.

He gets that way sometimes. Calls it stage fright.

- Why, is there a problem? - Oh, no, no, no.

You said you had that permission slip?

Oh, yeah. You know what?

I came here to bring it to you, and I left it on my desk.

I´ll have to bring it back. Sorry.

Make sure we get it. I´d hate to lose our chance

at State because of paperwork.

´Okay, come on, let´s go. Come on.´

Well, I was planning to run just a few basic tests.

And then something your coach said made me wanna look again.

Is there something wrong?

Well, I think there may be cause for concern.

And I actually want Gavin to be here when I say this.

I think the reason you passed out

the other day wasn´t overtraining.

I think that you induced vomiting to make weight.

And your electrolyte levels

plus the enamel damage shown in your dental records

lead me to believe that this has happened more than once.

I´ve only done it a couple of times

´when I thought I wouldn´t make weight.´

Lab results suggest it´s more chronic than a couple of times.

Listen, my son is not like some girl

who´s making herself puke because

she reads too many fashion magazines.

He has dropped two weight classes this season

and I´m concerned

that this could be the start of a very dangerous trend.

Gavin, I want you to wait outside for a minute.

You don´t have to worry about me, doc. I´m okay.

Gavin´s an incredible athlete.

Possibly the finest wrestler his age and his weight in the state.

This Saturday he´s got a chance to prove that.

(Andy) I think his health is what matters, Mr. Curtis.

And all the physical evidence I have points

to the possibility of an eating disorder.

Now, I don´t have the behavioral information that you do

but think about it.

Has he been uncomfortable at meal times?

Has he been excusing himself?

Has he been preoccupied with privacy?

(Curtis) I´m telling you that my son is alright.

What he needs is for you to sign that piece of paper

saying that you agree.

I´m sorry, Mr. Curtis.

I can´t sign anything that would allow him

to compete under these circumstances.

Yeah. Well, I´m sure we can find a doctor who will.

(male #1) ´We can all learn something from Gavin.´

From when he started the year as a powerhouse

to his 12-second pin last week.

I am as proud as I am amazed.

Now, are you all gonna be there with me to watch him win?

- Yeah! - Yeah.

Is he still talking?

Don´t tell me you´re not going.

- It´s a sporting event. - You should ask Madison to go.

She´s dying to get back into high school.

You say she never wants to be seen with you

but you should ask her to be seen.

You´d get your clothes stolen a lot less.

We´ve been in public already and hit our quota for disaster.

Convince her to go again. Do that cool talking thing you do.

(male #2) ´Yeah!´

Hi, Bright.

How´s the "no talking to me" thing going for you?

Glad to see you´re finally

sticking with something for once.

Look, just tell me how everyone´s doing.

How´s Mom and Dad?

Can you tell him that he´s proven

his point and can get over himself?

Will you tell whoever´s there that she can´t talk to you

because you´re my friend and not whatever you guys were.

And that you´re not welcome here anymore.

- What? Me or her? - Will you just go away?

Do you plan on keeping that up?

If it makes her feel what we´re feeling while she´s off with her

boyfriend then, yeah, it´ll probably be a while.

[bell ringing]

I got Math.

- Hey there, stranger. - Hey.

´Mind if I sit?´

No. Just knock that stuff out of the way.

Have you looked at the incidence of unhealthy weight-control

practices among student athletes, especially wrestlers?

Fasting, diuretics, binge-purge cycles?

They think sports is an excuse to do permanent damage.

Is there a chance you´ll be done with this by Saturday night?

- Is it my turn to make dinner? - No.

I was thinking of something more off-campus.

You know, break the routine a bit.

Look at this, 9.4% of wrestlers say they induced

vomiting at least once a week, and this is in high school.

Okay. Let´s try it this way, Andy.

- No talking for two minutes. - You and me or just me?

- Just me. Okay, I´ll stop. - Okay.

You don´t know this, but we are going on a nice date Saturday.

- You ready? - Mm-mm.

You pick me up at 6:15,

showered and wearing that blue jacket that I like you in.

You will have paid in advance for the babysitter

that you will have booked for the next six hours.

You with me?

I will take us to Monticello´s, a shockingly

authentic Tuscan restaurant for Colorado.

We´ll take our time, order dessert

and Bonnie Raitt goes on-stage at 9.

- You got tickets to-- - No distractions.

Just you and me and a lovely evening.

Please nod twice if this plan is acceptable to you.

Good. Pick me up at 6:15.

Don´t be late. Enjoy your reading.

Hello?

Hello?

Has anyone seen the cordless?

Hello?

Hey, has anyone seen my..

Oh, my God. Oh, my..

- Amy? - Oh, God.

Are you okay?

I don´t know anything right now.

Do we have to talk about that?

No, no, actually, we don´t. We don´t need to

talk about anything ever again.

I´m gonna go die now.

Nuts.

♫ We go out in stormy weather ♫

♫ We rarely practice discern ♫

♫ We make love to some weird sin ♫

♫ We seek out the taciturn ♫

♫ That´s the way we get by ♫

♫ The way we get by ♫

♫ Oh, that´s the way we get by ♫

♫ The way we get by.. ♫

Sorry I´m late.

- What are you doing here? - I needed to study.

This seemed like a clean, dry, well-lit place.

You were right about the whole needing-an-ID thing.

What you were wrong about is how easy it is to borrow one.

I just have to get this back to Ronadeep Banarjee by 11:00.

Exchange students are so friendly.

Let me try this again.

Relax, I just came by to prove a point.

Which is?

You kind of already proved it

by looking around to see who could see us right now.

How much time do we spend together?

A lot.

- How much fun is that? - A lot.

Good answer. Now here´s a tough one.

How many times have we had fun outside

the confines of my father´s property?

- Not a lot. - Try again.

- Never. - Exactly.

Look, we´re great, you and me. I mean

we like dumb movies, you laugh at my stupid jokes

you even pretended to like my dumb comic books.

And I appreciate that.

But, you know, we´re great

as long as we´re in this bubble and nobody can see us.

Which...has its charm.

But we´ve been at this six weeks

and I still haven´t met your roommate.

- Well, she´s a total bitch. - Okay.

But if we´re gonna be more than two people.

who sneak away to movie theaters

and make out in an ugly car four afternoons a week

you´re gonna have to get over it.

I´m not holding up my end of being

the mature one in the relationship.

Relax, you´re 20, not Barbara Bush.

The maturity expectation is pretty low.

Why don´t you come out with me on Saturday night?

There´s this wrestling thing at County.

It´s supposed to be can´t-miss.

At County? I swore once I graduated

I´d never walk those halls again.

Okay, think of it as an experiment.

We´ll go for one hour, no hand-holding or anything.

- Sounds swell. - Really?

Do your homework.

[doorbell rings]

Mrs. Curtis.

I´m not catching you in the middle of something?

No, no, no. I was just reading. Come on in.

What can I do for you?

I don´t know. Could we talk for a minute?

Sure, come on inside.

I probably should have been here months ago.

Strange how something in front of you makes no sense

until someone points it out.

What you said about Gavin, signs to look for.

You noticed something?

After school started, I found all this food in his closet.

You know, cereal, M&M´s.

Everything he loves but would never let me bring in the house.

I thought he was just keeping it for after matches

you know, as a reward.

Another time, he came home with his eyes all puffy

and bloodshot like he´d been in a fight.

And he told me that he had accidentally put in

contact-lens cleaner instead of saline.

How did I not see it?

How could I let this get so far?

Well, we all tend not to think about these things.

Not with our own kids and especially not with boys.

I thought I was lucky.

It´s not as if he´s got a problem with drugs or drinking.

Have you spoken with your husband?

Oh, he doesn´t want to talk about it.

He´s so proud of Gavin, you know? How well he´s done.

He said if Gavin needs any help

we can get it for him after the season.

Can you help him now?

Please?

You know, you´re the one who wanted to go.

Now I´m the one who doesn´t. Can we just go for a drive?

I haven´t been back to County since they kicked me out.

You said everyone was gonna be at this wrestling thing.

And that´s the problem.

What? Your brother´s gonna be there?

He´s still acting like an ass?

- He plays to his strengths. - Well, I tell you what.

I´m fine blowing this thing off

but you can´t keep ducking every time you see the guy, you know?

Why don´t we just go for an hour, and if you don´t like it

we´re back here making out by "Seinfeld?"

[Tommy chuckles]

- Hey. - Hey.

Half-hour to curtain. Now a bad time?

No problem.

I wasn´t sure you´d wanna see me.

I don´t blame you, doc. You´re just worried about me.

I appreciate it.

- Well, how you feeling? - Good. Strong.

That´s good.

I know you´d hate to disappoint everyone.

´Your parents, your coaches.´

You got a lot of fans here too.

In fact, I think you´re so afraid to disappoint them

that you can´t really see how bad this has gotten.

Look, I´m not sick. I only threw up a few times

just before tournaments.

I don´t believe you.

´I don´t even think this is about wrestling anymore.´

It might have been at first.

Maybe you threw up once to make weight. Then maybe one more

time after eating everything you couldn´t all week.

´By the time you got scared about´

´what you were doing, you couldn´t stop.´

´Your body was doing it for you.´

But you can stop, Gavin. You can stop right now.

You don´t have to win. You don´t even have to compete.

You don´t get it.

I´ve trained hard to get here. I used to be fat, slow.

I screwed up everything. No one knew me.

And they were right, I was nobody.

Now? I´m stronger than I´ve ever been.

I fight better. I study better. Girls look at me.

I can´t lose. I´m not gonna give that up.

- I´m not gonna be like them. - Because your friends are weak?

They let everyone control them, do what they´re told.

No one tells me anything.

Not as long as I keep training.

[Gavin sighs]

Look, don´t worry about me, doc. I´m fine.

[sighs]

[crowd cheering]

Hey, Senor Walker.

[speaking in Spanish]

- Madison? - Oh, my God, Josh.

- Josh? - I heard you were teaching.

He took me to the prom. He was this cool senior

and I was a completely clueless freshman.

So how do you two know each other?

I work for his dad. Babysit for the family. Pay bills.

(female #1) ´Mr. Walker!´

Look, I have to chaperone, but it was great to see you.

So you were my Spanish teacher´s prom date?

Let´s just find some seats.

Ephram, you came.

Yeah. You know, school spirit.

Oh, I don´t know if you´ve met Tommy.

Tommy, this is Ephram. Ephram, Tommy.

- How you doing? - How you doing, man?

- You´ve met Madison, right? - ´Yeah. Once.´

- You guys find seats yet? - No, we´re just looking around.

- You can sit here. - No, we can´t stay long.

We gotta get her back to campus.

Really soon, actually.

[doorbell rings]

Hey.

- Didn´t you get my message? - That was about an hour ago.

I´m so sorry. I must have just lost track of time.

But I´m really excited about tonight.

Yeah, me too.

Just this case I´m working on got tough tonight.

I´m dealing with this eating disorder

that no one wants to see or see treated..

You don´t wanna hear about my case?

Not really.

´Let me ask you something.´

How do you think this is going?

You and me?

- I think it´s great. - So do I. That´s the problem.

If things we´re going badly, we would just break up

and you wouldn´t have to hide from me.

I´m not hiding. This is a work thing.

´C´mon, Linda, don´t read into this.´

A patient came to me with a serious problem.

What am I supposed to do?

Nothing. Let´s just forget it.

Do you think I planned this?

Do you think I hired a bulimic to screw up our date?

No, but I think if it wasn´t this patient,

it would be another one.

Things are getting complicated here.

It makes sense that you would retreat into medicine.

You´re in control there.

Andy, you told me the stories about how you

used to miss birthdays with your kids.

And now it´ll be dinners with me.

I didn´t tell you to throw it in my face.

Sorry, I´m not, I´m trying to understand, and I do.

- No, you don´t. - You´re a doctor. It´s smart.

No one´s gonna argue with that. No one´s gonna say--

- Come on. Here we go. - ´No, don´t go help people.´

I can´t compete with that. Nobody can.

Oh, will you just stop it, Julia?

I am so sorry. I´m sorry.

I didn´t mean that.

You should go.

- Let me explain. - No need to.

[crowd cheering]

Now it is.

I´ll be right back.

- Come on, just let it go. - What do you want from me?

Tell me how you´re doing. You´re allowed to do that, right?

I heard you got the highest math grade. That´s great.

- Yeah. That´s great. - I get it, you´re mad.

You don´t have to keep doing this. Just talk to me.

I have nothing I wanna say to you.

Just go talk to your crackhead boyfriend.

- He´s not like that. - Says you.

Believe what you want. I didn´t wanna leave home.

You saw what Mom and Dad did.

You had your chance, and you chose him over us.

You wanna blame Mom and Dad for kicking you out?

You have no idea what you did to them.

You gave up everything you used to care about.

It´s Colin all over again.

Listen, man. I know this isn´t my thing--

No, it´s not, so just stay out of it.

She´s making peace. Cut her some slack.

Bro, whatever you´re about to say

is gonna be wrong, so just back off.

Relax, I´m not trying to start anything.

No, you did that when you came after my sister.

It wasn´t enough you messed up your life

now you gotta take down ours?

Oh, yeah, why not, what´s one more messed-up family, right?

No wonder she left you guys.

[crowd cheering]

Quit it.

Bright, quit it.

[cheering continues]

So is it that bad?

We´re gonna have to suspend you.

Come on. You´re gonna suspend me for going after Tommy Callahan?

´He got kicked out of school for selling drugs.´

Tommy doesn´t go to school here anymore. All we can do about him

is make sure that he stays off of school grounds.

We have a zero-tolerance rule about violence in school.

A week´s suspension is the minimum.

- Now, I got you a week. - Great. Thanks.

Don´t thank me yet.

A letter about this has to go out to school that you apply to.

You were fighting, Bright. What else could I do?

I know. I know, I screwed up. It´s what I do.

If you´re gonna yell at me, can you do it now?

I´m not gonna yell at you.

You know how I feel about fighting, Bright.

It´s completely unacceptable.

If I were you, I can´t say

I wouldn´t have done the same thing.

Which doesn´t mean I don´t expect more from you.

I´m sorry.

It´s just he got in my face

and I just kept thinking about what he did to you.

Me?

Ever since she left, you don´t talk anymore, you know?

You look miserable all the time. You´re like Amy used to be.

We´re your parents. We worry about you.

It´s not your job to worry about us.

I actually thought I had a chance to get into some schools.

Now they´re gonna see a suspension on my application.

Completely screw up everything I busted my ass for.

- What am I gonna do? - We´ll figure it out.

I figured I´d skip the saga of unreturned

phone calls and just ambush you.

- With pizza. - Well, you can´t eat flowers.

This is the more practical peace offering.

You have a lot to learn.

I´m pretty quick.

Look, I have a feeling I screwed up.

- I just wanted to be sure. - Be sure.

I´m not gonna defend what I know was stupid.

I´m just gonna say I´m sorry, mean it, stick with it.

I just wanted to introduce you to my world.

You weren´t introducing me.

You were using me and flaunting me.

And it was embarrassing and adolescent

and exactly like you said it wouldn´t be.

I just don´t want our lives to be separate anymore.

We´ve been trying to keep it a secret

and all I wanna do is shout your name from the rooftops.

Please, don´t.

Well, don´t worry. Rooftops are a lot lower in a mountain town.

It´s much more dramatic in New York.

This secrecy is making me feel you don´t wanna be in this.

It would help me that you were ready to be okay with this.

I am.

- But.. - But?

I´m not ready for other people not to be okay with us.

I don´t hide you because you´re a constant embarrassment.

Even if it doesn´t feel like it, we´re doing something wrong.

So what?

So we get that this is different.

But not everybody else will.

You might not like me lying to my old prom date about us.

But as your teacher he has a legal obligation

to make a phone call if he suspects something.

Well, we can´t stay in the bubble forever.

I mean, the bubble isn´t even that safe. The bubble could pop.

The bubble could burn down.

Somebody could rob the bubble.

How about we figure us out first before

we force ourselves onto the world?

Alright, but can we kiss and make up now?

Because I´m on the clock.

Inside.

Feel the wrist and then hips up. Pop it up.

Hey, Eric, can you give me a minute? Thanks.

So you´re going to State. You made it.

Yeah, it looks like it.

The paper says you´re the first one

from Peak County in 40 years.

- Want a copy? - My dad got a bunch.

I wanted to talk to you.

I thought we did that.

No, I tried to before your match

but that wasn´t you I was talking to.

That was your disease. And you do have a disease, Gavin.

I just won. I don´t need a lecture.

You´re a scary kid, you know that?

And here´s something else you don´t know.

What you´re doing doesn´t make you special

it makes you bulimic. It´s not exotic or new, it´s textbook.

Just like what´s gonna happen to you.

People don´t gain strength from bulimia, they get weak.

They get ulcers and heart failure, and they die.

- But I don´t need your help. - Yeah, I wish I could help.

I´ve done everything I can. I´ve told your parents

your teachers, your coaches.

It´s up to them to care enough now.

And it´s up to you to ask for their help.

- I don´t need their help. - Yes, you do.

You are a member of a very big club right now, Gavin.

And the one thing you all have in common is you think you can

control it, but you can´t. It owns you.

Your eating disorder is gonna be

the fiercest opponent you will ever face.

You may never beat it. The worst part is that not a single person

in your life is telling you that right now.

All they want for you is to win at State, the whole town does.

So I am gonna be the one lone, unpopular

voice out there when you wrestle.

I´m gonna root against you. I hope you lose.

I won´t.

I had no idea that Bright was that mad at me.

It seems like everybody is.

My dad can´t even look at me anymore

and I´m not sure my grandparents

are so psyched to have me around right now, either.

We can go to Mexico. I´ll drive.

Hey...this isn´t your fault, okay?

Or Bright´s. It´s mine.

You were just trying to talk to him.

Yeah. But you never had these..

These kinds of problems before you started

finding excuses to stop by the drugstore.

I told you then that you didn´t want someone like me around

and I probably should´ve bowed out a few weeks ago.

Don´t say that. I didn´t let my parents make my decisions for me

and I´m not gonna let you do that either.

Bright was right, I did choose you over them.

If I could have it all, I would.

But..

Are you sure this is what you want?

Yes.

[knock on door]

- Got a sec? - I gotta get to work anyway.

Hey.

I´m glad.

Bye.

Hi.

- Nice kid. - Yeah, I think so.

You know, you are always welcome here, rain or shine.

But you´ve gotta be more mindful.

Irv and I are out of practice having a kid around the house

and these are some tight quarters.

Yeah, they are. I´m sorry.

- I´ll try a little harder. - Good.

This will help. This is all yours.

To be plugged into your very own line being installed tomorrow.

And this goes on our bedroom door, pronto.

- Parenting accomplished. - Thanks, Grandma.

About what you saw.

I´m sure that wasn´t the picture you want on your bedside table

but you should be encouraged.

Shows some good strong genes. I am your future, you know.

[slow music]

[knock on door]

No talking for two minutes. That´s all I ask.

Andy, it´s fine. I understand. Really.

´I mean, you changed your mind about us´

and you certainly have every reason to.

It´s just that you were so sure about us before.

I know. It was fantastic.

The whole thing. I met you, and I couldn´t sleep.

I told you how I felt, and that was unstoppable.

And then I kissed you by all those Christmas trees

and you kissed me back and that was perfect.

The snow helped.

Listen...nothing would feel more right..

...than to take that next step right now and stay

and really not play Scrabble.

But I have a disease, and that scares you.

No, that´s not it.

I understand the risks ...and I´m okay with it.

Well, then why have you been hiding

behind a 16-year-old bulimic boy?

Because you were right.

Every time things get messy, I hide behind my work.

But if you´re not afraid of the HIV--

I´m not afraid of sleeping with you because of HIV.

I´m afraid because of what it means.

If we take this to the next level

I know...that we could be starting something

that´s a whole lifetime.

I haven´t been here in a long time, Linda

and...I didn´t think I´d ever be here again.

But I am.

I´m here.

Not for very long.

Wait a minute. You´re kicking me out? After all that?

Well, I think it´s almost 9.

I think you need to be skittering out of here.

Actually, Delia has a sleepover.

Oh, since when?

Since I made plans when I decided I was coming over here.

Well, what made you so sure

that I was gonna accept your apology?

[pleasant music]

[door closes]

- How was your night? - It was pretty good. You?

Fine. Quiet.

- Anything you wanna watch? - No, not really.

I passed one of those big eyed people cartoon marathons

I´m sorry. We can just flip.

(Irv) It´s amazing how far we´ll go just

to maintain some measure of control.

The world spins a circle within a circle

and we grip so tight it makes our knuckles white.

When all we really wanna do is let go

lose control

fall

see where we land.