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the best family drama in years.

Tonight, the season premiere.

- How was your day? - It was okay.

I love a girl who loves a guy in a coma.

Other than that, it was pretty standard.

(Amy) Ephram Brown, meet Colin Hart.

- You want my dad to help Colin? - If you could talk to him.

You´re the last stop for us.

(Amy) Your father turned them down?

He´s never turned anyone down. My dad´s never met long odds.

What if it were your son?

It´s easier when I didn´t know my patients.

I didn´t care.

Colin came through very well.

- ´He´s coming home.´ - ´Too soon, if you ask me.´

Right now, Colin needs to get on with his life.

(Andy) ´With an injury like Colin´s´

patients can behave unpredictably sometimes.

Ah!

[coughs]

You´re sick and nobody wants to deal with it.

You thought it´d stop with the puking.

- You got a lot worse up ahead. - Don´t be crazy.

You don´t wanna deal with the severity of what´s happened.

He´s not out of the woods yet.

(Andy) ´A thrombus of this type is like a ticking bomb´

´inside of Colin´s head.´

Promise I won´t be a vegetable?

No.

Promise I won´t lose my mind or memory?

No.

- Count backwards from ten. - What can you promise me?

- Ten, nine.. - Nothing.

[indistinct chattering]

- Here are your drinks. - Lookie here.

Thank you.

- For a pretty girl. - You´re not giving me all.

- Ha ha ha. - Oh!

[Colin grunts]

Hey, alright, slow down there, Delia.

Remember, there´s no running by the pool.

That´s right, little lady. Unless, someone´s chasing you.

[all laughing]

Here they come.

Hey, I´m paying you to lifeguard or have fun?

- Well, I-- - Save it. Save it.

I sense a fight in the shallow end, so get to your posts.

And you. The Bahama Mamas get one umbrella each.

What do you think, I´m made of money?

So, uh, are we still on for tonight?

Colin, school starts tomorrow at, like, dawn.

Meet me underneath the diving board after it closes.

The place should clear out by 11:00.

Junior here? Most difficult year of my life coming up.

Chill out, Grover. You´re even smarter than you are pretty.

- You´ll have a perfect year. - Hey, soldier.

I´m thinking this mai tai has too much mai and not enough tai.

- I´ll get you another one. - Thanks.

And tell that bartender not to pansy out on the rum either.

- So I´ll meet you at eleven? - Eleven o´clock.

Good.

Don´t be late.

[clears throat]

Well, Colin and I weren´t, uh..

...exactly best friends or anything, but, uh..

But he´d say hi to me in the halls and stuff.

And he was always doing nice things

you know, even if he didn´t know you.

Like this, uh, one time in freshman year

uh, I forgot to study for Miss Powers´ algebra midterm

so he totally let me copy off of him.

´I always thought that was kind of cool.´

(male narrator #2) It´s hard to say what happened exactly.

For the most part, it depends on who you ask.

There are as many sides to a story

as there are pairs of eyes.

It´s always been that way.

One of those sides must be closer to the truth

but we´ll never know which one.

Tomorrow is closing day at the Everwood pool.

And, um..

...every year, Mr. Macabee throws a luau.

´And I never really thought much about it´

´but...that´s what I was doing just now.´

I was imagining Colin there.

I was imagining what he would do and what he would say.

[door opens]

I try even now to look back at that time.

Look past the blame and the outrage

that made it all so hard to see anything.

I try to piece it together.

What follows is all I know.

[theme music]

The funeral for Colin Hart

fell on the first warm day of spring.

For many who attended

it was the most difficult day they had ever known.

But the day was kind enough to pass.

I´d like to say it took a while for Everwood

to return to business as usual..

...but it didn´t.

By the time summer paid us a visit

things even gave the appearance of being normal again.

(boy #1) ´Oh! Ha ha ha.´

- ´There he is.´ - What are you kids..

Bright and Amy went back to their usual summer jobs.

Ephram joined them

though his duties were a little less glamorous.

- ´Marco.´ - ´Polo.´

Delia finally made herself that group of girlfriends

so important to a little girl´s youth.

Andy Brown, on the other hand

suffered the expected scrutiny of a community

that didn´t care to understand the intricacies

of Colin Hart´s surgery.

All they knew was that the boy they had loved dearly was gone.

And the man they deemed responsible

still walked amongst them.

Did I mention I´d rather be golfing right now?

(Rose) Only 500 times, Harold.

You know, Rose

it is one thing to insist that I take Fridays off

it is another thing entirely to make me spend them here

amongst these half-naked, sun-damaged chuckleheads

whose idea of heavy summer reading

alternates between "In Touch" magazine

and Hillary Clinton´s autobiography.

The next copy of which I trip over, I am tossing in the pool.

- Did you bring the sunscreen? - Yes, I did.

Only after your last application I don´t think there´s much left.

- Good morning, Dr. Abbott. - Good morning, Mrs. Greeley.

Uh, no, thank you. I already have two of my own.

It´s Edwin´s diaper rash. I think it´s getting worse.

I just prescribed the ointment yesterday.

It does not work overnight.

I´d feel more comfortable if you´d look.

I´d feel more comfortable

if you got Edwin´s bottom further from my nasal cavity.

(Rose) Harold.

Let me...mmm..

[crying]

He´s fine. He´s fine, Mrs. Greeley.

Give the ointment a few more days to work.

By the time you get my bill, he´ll be better.

- Your bill? - Yes.

For the medical services you just connived.

Have a nice day, Mrs. Greeley.

I swear, Harold, sometimes I think

you secretly enjoy being the most despised man in Everwood.

It´s no secret, Rose.

Although the last time I checked

that slot had been permanently filled.

(Delia) ´Stop here. Stop here.´

Delia, stay near Brittany and her mom and call me at lunch.

I guess you´re not coming in?

I would, but, uh, it´s a crazy day at the office.

Oh, you´re actually paying people to show up now?

Pick us up at five.

Hey, Bright, you want anything from the Snack Shack?

No, thanks. I´m alright.

(Brittany) ´Help! Help me. Help me. Help me.´

Help me. Help. Help.

(Bright) ´You okay, Brittany?´

Didn´t mean to go in the deep end. Sorry.

- I don´t know, I don´t know. - Just be careful from now on.

Oh, my gosh. He kissed you.

- I told you it would work. - Is it my turn now?

You have to wait 13 minutes, and then I´ll decide who goes.

Why do you get to decide?

Because I´m the one who made up the game.

Amy. Amy.

Amy, the Mollers told me they´ve been waiting

for their Colosso-Burgers for over 25 minutes.

- Did you put the order through? - Oh, um..

The kitchen is backed up now. There´s some kind of problem.

- Who are you? Why are you pale? - Ephram Brown, towel boy.

I was born with unusually fair skin. This is me tan.

- What happened in the kitchen? - The grill caught fire.

It´s a grill. It´s made for fire.

Want me to check?

Never mind. I´ll do it myself. You stay in the sun.

Sorry, I guess I just spaced there for a second.

No problem. Lying to Macabee breaks the monotony of my day.

Not that I don´t enjoy

retrieving wet towels from the ground.

Shoot. Where did I put the Mollers´ order?

- What´s wrong? - Um..

Can you hand this into the kitchen?

- Yeah. Yeah, sure. - Thanks.

- Can we talk for a minute? - Yeah, sure.

Um, I´m sorry to bother you.

The school called yesterday

and with the kids coming back next week

they wanna organize a memorial for Colin.

That´s a good idea, don´t you think?

I don´t know.

They want a few of his things, like his jersey.

I haven´t gone through his room yet.

I can´t possibly organize this.

And I can´t ask Laynie because she´s getting settled back in.

I´ll take care of it.

- You will? - Absolutely.

I´ll handle the whole thing. You don´t have to worry.

Thank you.

Oh, thank you.

[sighs]

It´s lunchtime, sarge.

Irv and I thought we´d get few Cobb salads at MJ´s. Wanna join?

No, thanks.

I´ve got some leftovers I was about to dig into.

The schedule´s light today, we thought maybe

we´d catch "T3" over at the Cineplex afterwards.

- Haven´t you seen that? - ´First six times don´t count.´

I was still learning all the lines.

Okay, but don´t make a habit of it.

´We´re not packing them in these days´

but there´s still plenty to do around here.

Sure thing, your crabbiness. Am I relieved?

Yes, you´re relieved.

[door closes]

(female #1) BP, 70/40. Blood pressure stabilizing.

(Andy) Here we go. Field is clear.

- How much blood have we lost? - Close to 500 cc´s.

(Andy) Half a liter? How long´s he been on bypass?

- Three hours and 20 minutes. - Andy, wait.

- There´s blood in the field. - It´s the vein.

It´s leaking again. It´s no good.

- Blood pressure still stable. - Prepare to harvest a new vein.

Wait.

That will take three hours minimum.

That puts us over six on bypass.

That´s too long.

- Prepare to close. - Andy, he won´t make it.

If the vein´s no good, he´ll bleed out in--

I said, prepare to close.

[knocking on door]

Knock, knock.

Oh, hey, I didn´t even hear you come in.

Yeah, I´m stealthy that way. Is Delia ready? Sam´s waiting.

Delia, Nina´s here.

So guess what?

I made reservations at Brenda´s new restaurant tonight.

Oh, I heard about this.

Some kind of Hollywood theme place.

Planet California.

Had to call a whole six hours in advance for a table.

For Everwood that´s pretty hip.

Yeah. So are you up for it?

- Thanks, but I don´t think-- - Oh, don´t say no.

Nina, I´m not--

Just one dinner. You have to eat.

And when was the last time you had an Ashton Kutcher hamburger?

What is that, some kind of sauce?

I´m ready.

Don´t forget. You have to buy me a sleeping bag.

Brittany´s slumber party is tonight

and we have to bring our own beds.

Right.

Oh, and it has to be purple, just like Brittany´s.

Purple sleeping bag. Got it.

Think about tonight, okay?

Okay.

Amy?

Your dad said you were up here. You busy?

No, no. I´m just, um, looking through some old stuff.

Come on in.

- ´When was this?´ - ´Oh, that´s freshman formal.´

I remember he was so freaked out because he forgot my corsage.

Oh, that´s right, yeah.

He dug up Mrs. Bennett´s rose garden to make one.

It was such a disaster.

- What´s that? - Oh, yeah.

Mom thought you could use this.

Colin´s computer.

Yeah, um, she thought you might want it. I don´t know.

Maybe there´s some stuff on there for the memorial or..

He did a lot of stuff with Photoshop

so maybe there´s some pictures or..

I don´t really know. She just wanted you to have it.

Thanks. Ahem.

I should have called you, Laynie.

- It wasn´t your decision. - No, you should´ve been there.

Sometimes I´m really mad about it.

Sometimes, yeah, I´m glad I wasn´t there.

´Cause I got a whole extra day to feel normal.

If you wanna help with this memorial..

I have a hard enough time walking past his room.

- I´m sorry but I can´t. - Okay.

I should get going. Um..

But if you ever want to hang out

or whenever, I´m around now.

Yeah, cool.

Thanks for doing this.

(man on TV) ´Wow, here we´re making..´

(man on TV) ´And building muscle more effective than ever.´

(man on TV) ´We have a low-pressure area´

´which has been there for three days..´

Cup container, which is this big one that we have down here..

(Colin) When they put me out tomorrow

if I don´t wake up the way I´m supposed to..

...if I´m not me again, I don´t wanna be.

Don´t bring me back.

- Listen, Colin-- - Please.

Just promise me..

...that you won´t keep trying.

I promise.

I, uh, wrote it down, in case.

(Andy) I understand.

But everything is going to be fine.

Okay?

(Colin) Okay.

[indistinct chattering]

- See how I´m doing it? - Kind of.

You have to memorize it the right way.

And you have to go slower.

Oh, my dad´s getting me my sleeping bag today.

And I told him it had to be purple.

I forgot to tell you, you can´t come to my slumber party.

What? Why not?

If you sleep over, your dad has to drop you off and pick you up

and my mom said that would be kind of weird.

Why?

No one likes your dad, Delia.

But don´t worry, we can still be pool friends.

[knocking on door]

Amy, I´m gonna go grab some ice cream, you wanna join me?

Uh, no, thanks, dad.

Honey, you´ve been locked in your room all day.

- Why don´t you take a break? - I can´t right now.

What time do we have to leave for the restaurant?

I´m not sure. Your mother made reservations for eight, so..

I´ll be ready by then.

"Dr. Brown?"

(Colin) Dear Dr. Brown

I, Colin Hart, being of sound mind

declare that if at any point during the surgery

I develop an incurable or irreversible condition

I do not want my life prolonged in any way.

[door opens]

Hey, how was the pool?

- Is she alright? - What do you think?

What happened?

If you´d been with us, you´d know.

What happened?

If you´d been with us

she wouldn´t have had the problem.

I see you´re angry, and we´ll deal with that.

But what happened to your sister?

Brittany uninvited Delia to her slumber party.

- Why? Did they have a fight? - You´re doing it again.

You´re doing the same thing all over again.

- What are you talking about? - Acting like a freak!

You hole up in your office. You don´t come out of the house.

We haven´t had dinner as family once all summer.

What has that got to do with being uninvited?

Brittany uninvited her because of you.

Because her mom didn´t want you in their house.

Well, I can´t control these people´s minds, Ephram.

I can´t make them like me. What am I supposed to do?

Take out an ad in the Pine Cone saying, "I´m Andy Brown?

I´m a nice guy and heck of a surgeon?"

- Forget it. - No, no. I´m serious.

You´re angry with me as though this is my fault.

- What am I supposed to do? - Stop acting so damn guilty.

Okay, you didn´t kill him, dad. He died.

Colin died, just like hundreds of other patients you´ve had.

Why is this so different?

You did your best, didn´t you? You tried?

- Of course I tried. - Then why can´t you let it go?

Why are you doing this to yourself?

I don´t know.

Well, you better figure it out.

Because the guiltier you act

the more these people are gonna convict you..

...and us.

I´m not sure when he wrote it. It´s not dated.

´I don´t even know if he gave it to Dr. Brown, but if he did´

Dr. Brown might not have done everything to save Colin

because of this letter.

Calm down. Give them a chance to process this.

It sounds crazy, but I really think we should find out

from Dr. Brown if he knew.

He did know, Amy. And so did we.

Colin spoke to us about his wishes

before he went to see Dr. Brown..

...the night before the surgery.

No, no, I was with him that day. That´s the day that we all went.

- He couldn´t have. - He did, Amy.

So you did know?

You came to me, asked me to plan the memorial.

You asked me to go back, find pictures

go through his things, and I did that for you.

And you kept this from me.

I am so sorry.

We-we should go. Ahem.

Y-y-you have to understand.

We thought we did the right thing.

Colin is dead.

How could that be the right thing for anybody?

- What you doing, kiddo? - It´s called cat´s cradle.

But it doesn´t really work with one person.

Well, maybe I can play.

- Why don´t you show me how? - Oh, that´s okay.

It´s stupid anyway.

- You´re mad at me. - No, I´m not.

Yeah, you are.

But it´s okay. I´m mad at me too.

It´s not your fault people hate you.

I mean, you didn´t mean to kill Colin.

Well, I didn´t actually kill Colin, sweetheart.

I know. It was an accident.

Well, I wouldn´t put it that way either.

So how would you put it?

Well, it´s kind of hard to explain, but..

...as a doctor, there´s always the possibility

that one of my patients won´t survive surgery.

´It´s one of the risks involved.´

But because I wasn´t able to save Colin

doesn´t mean that I killed him.

Do you understand the difference?

- Not really. - Okay.

Do you remember

when Gary the Hamster got sick back in New York?

Made him drink my cold medicine so that he would get better.

Right. Because you wanted to help him. But he died anyway.

Ephram said hamsters aren´t supposed to have people medicine

´and that I made Gary even sicker.´

Maybe, but that´s not the point.

The point is that you tried to help, and you couldn´t.

It was out of your control.

Sometimes, no matter what we do, sweetie..

...hamsters just die.

Like with mom?

Yeah. Like with mom.

Now, I know it´s not as cool as a slumber party

but Nina has made reservations

for all of us at that new restaurant in town.

- So, what do you say? Wanna go? - Totally.

Then get your shoes on, and let´s get going.

- Where are we going? - We are going out to dinner.

- Cool. Can I drive? - No.

Okay, no shoving, people. No shoving.

This is California, not New York.

Dr. Brown. Heh.

What an uncomfortable surprise.

Table for five, please, Brenda.

Oh, well, ha, as you can see

Planet California is quite booked.

Word of mouth travels fast in this town, so..

...if you´d like to come back another time

perhaps in a few weeks--

We have a reservation, Brenda. It´s under my name.

Well, aren´t you a tricky little thing.

Okay, right this way.

Please, notice the sand. Here you go.

Oh, would you listen to this? "Smoked trout nicoise salad

with field greens and Dijon vinaigrette dressing."

´Look at what Baxworth is charging´

´for this culinary catastrophe.´

- I think it sounds delicious. - Hollywood cuisine, my foot.

Take an ordinary piece of cauliflower

stick it in a blender, title it

"Puree of Sylvester Stallone," charge five extra bucks for it.

It´s obscene.

The Kelly Ripa salad looks pretty good, dad.

Except for the burned walnuts.

I´ll just ask them not to burn my nuts.

- What are you gonna have, Amy? - I´m not hungry.

Well, you have to eat something.

What is it, sweetie?

Amy.

- Amy, what a nice-- - Think I wouldn´t find out?

- I´m just curious. - Find out about what?

- I´m not sure I understand. - I found the letter.

Colin didn´t just die, you let him.

- You let him die, didn´t you? - What´s she talking about?

Your father, the number one brain surgeon in the country.

What a joke.

Why don´t you come by my office tomorrow, we´ll talk about this?

I wanna know now. I´m sick of everyone lying to me.

So why don´t you just tell me what happened? What did you do?

Nothing. There was nothing that left I could do.

- Nothing that Colin would´ve-- - That wasn´t your decision.

Amy, that´s enough. That´s enough.

You were his doctor. You weren´t supposed to play it safe.

I found you because you never gave up.

I didn´t give up, Amy. I tried.

You didn´t try hard enough, did you?

Did you?

No.

Why not?

You have to understand, it was such a risk to begin with.

That´s what you said the first time.

But he was fine, and he was perfect.

After everything we´ve been through, where was your faith?

I´m sorry.

Go put your pajamas on, Delia. I´ll be up in a minute.

I guess we know who you´re not taking to the prom this year.

Are we gonna talk about this?

Not much left to say.

I´m pretty sure you´ve heard it all.

Not from you, I didn´t.

There was a point in the surgery..

...after the vessel burst..

...where I could´ve tried something else.

A more complex version of the same procedure.

But we would have had to start all over again.

I just kept thinking about that night.

He was sitting on that couch, right where you are..

...pleading with me.

Making me promise something that I never should have promised.

And so..

I just stopped.

I stopped trying.

So he would have lived?

Probably.

But he wouldn´t have been the same boy that you knew.

At best, he would have been barely functioning.

Both physically and mentally handicapped..

...dependent upon those who loved him for everything.

At worst, he would have remained on a breathing apparatus

until the Harts themselves were forced

to make the same decision that I did.

I knew that the only way to keep my promise to him..

...was to let him go.

So you´ve been living with this all summer

and you haven´t told anybody?

- His wishes were confidential. - That´s crap.

I´m your son, you should have told me.

Why? So you could blame me too?

So you could hate me like the rest of this town?

I couldn´t take that risk.

Not after everything we´ve been through.

After everything we´ve been through?

The only risk you took was not being honest with me.

Well, now you know, Ephram.

And you can decide just like everyone else.

Did I kill Colin Hart, or did I save him?

Still?

The looping-under part keeps screwing me up.

- Just give me a clip-on. - Here.

How´s Amy doing?

Well, better than she was last night.

Let´s hope she makes it through the service okay.

What in the world?

Were you trying to strangle yourself with Armani?

I didn´t know she felt like that about Dr. Brown.

I don´t feel like that. I don´t blame him for what happened.

Nor do I.

If she blames him, she must blame me too.

I´m the reason that Colin even got hurt in the first place.

- You can´t keep going there. - I don´t want to. But Amy--

Your sister is in a lot of pain.

She´s looking for someone to take it out on.

At the moment, that unfortunate soul is Dr. Brown.

That doesn´t mean that she´s right.

Now, truth be told

I prefer she have these kinds of outbursts, unfair as they are

rather than keeping all her feelings inside.

[sighs]

It´s the only way she´ll ever move on.

You think she can?

I´m not sure. I certainly hope so.

- I do know one thing. - What?

It doesn´t mean that she loved him more.

There. That´s better.

Thanks, dad.

There sure are a lot of cars here.

(Andy) Yeah.

Thanks for pointing that out.

Are you gonna talk to all these people?

I´m gonna try.

Are you gonna tell them the hamster story?

Something like that.

That´s what I was doing just now. I was..

...imagining Colin there.

I was imagining what he would do and what he would say.

I don´t think he´d be too crazy about tonight.

He hated school assemblies.

He hated school assemblies but he loved..

...basketball and Coldplay

and Jim Carrey movies.

[sighs]

And he loved the month of October

because that´s when his birthday was.

But most of all, he loved Everwood.

´A lot of us talk about moving away from here someday´

but Colin never did.

He wanted to be a part of this place forever.

He is now.

I came here tonight to, uh..

...share with you my memories of Colin Hart.

And to tell you how sorry I am for your loss.

For most of you, these are empty words, I know.

But I offer them nonetheless.

As patients go..

...Colin was the best kind that you could hope for.

´He was willful.´

´He was determined..´

´...endlessly optimistic.´

´And why not?´

His recuperation from his initial surgery was hailed

as a miracle.

He was talking again.

And he was walking.

´Soon, he was running.´

´His failure to remember his past´

didn´t stop him from making new memories

´and new friendships´

´or from rekindling his old ones.´

For five months

he reacquainted this town..

...with his beautiful spirit.

Many of you believe that I was

somehow responsible for all of this.

And I let you.

Because I was desperate to believe it too.

We´re taught as surgeons to think that we are..

...in control of people´s destinies.

But the truth is, we are really just foot soldiers.

Colin knew this.

He didn´t expect a miracle from me

because he knew..

...that he was the miracle.

What he expected..

...was for me to do my best.

[sighs]

And..

...that is what I tried to do.

I´m sorry it wasn´t enough.

[sniffles]

I´m sorry that he´s gone.

Sometimes it is only with the ending of a season

that a storyteller can find the most appropriate ending

to his tale.

As the last hours of summer crept up

on the town of Everwood

it seemed everyone was just about ready for a change.

How about you? You want some of this?

A fresh start..

...filled with new adventures and new friends

and some old ones

and those somewhere in between.

Doctor.

Doctor.

For if death reminds us of anything

it reminds us of just how resilient

the human spirit is..

...when it wants to be.

- You almost done? - Yeah, pretty much. You?

I still got a few things left to do, so, um..

I´ll lock up. You can go home.

You sure? I mean, I can stay if you want.

That´s okay. I wouldn´t mind being alone for a little bit.

You know, after my mom died

everybody told me that I was gonna be okay

that it would take a little time but I´d heal.

Well, that didn´t ever happen. Not really.

What you´re feeling right now, Amy

it doesn´t ever really go away.

Not completely.

It´s not like you´re gonna go back to being

the person you were before they died.

The person´s gone.

It´s more like..

...something inside of you breaks

and your body finds a way to compensate for it.

Like if you busted your right hand

you figure out how to use the left one.

And, sure, you might resist for a while ´cause you´re pissed off

that you have to learn all this stuff again

that nobody else does.

Eventually your body takes over and it figures it out for you.

And you´re glad, because if it was up to you

you´d just..

...look at your busted hand forever

and try to figure out what it was like before.

I wish he wasn´t your father, Ephram.

I wish I didn´t have to think of him every time I talk to you.

Sometimes I wish he wasn´t my father too. Believe me, I do.

But he´s a good person, Amy

and he knows what you´re going through.

If you´re asking me to forgive him, I can´t do that. I´m sorry.

So, what happens now? With us?

We´re friends, Ephram.

Let´s just leave it at that, okay?

Okay. Sure.

I´ll see you at school.

See you at school.

They say that junior year is supposed to be the hardest.

But, I mean, after this last one it´s gotta be a cakewalk, right?

Yeah.

See you.

(Colin) ´Grover.´

Grover, over here.

Hey, look, it´s 11:00.

Remember? You promised.

Wait, stop. I´ll come to you.

[sighs]