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This wasn't the first time for me.

I've been in other situations just like this one.

First with my husband and then another man, Philip.

Very wealthy.

Very perverse.

I said stop.

Look, if you need something to relax you, I got whatever you need.

I don't need to relax. Just leave.

You're in a peevish mood tonight.

You should have never called him. I told you I wasn't in the mood.

You always say that.

And you never listen.

After a while, I've learned not to.

What you say and what you do.

They're contradictory.

I am not a hypocrite. I'm not saying you are. I just don't think you know

yourself.

That's where I'm further along.

You're nowhere.

Wherever I am, you're right there beside me.

No, I'm not.

Not the big goodbye scene. It was old the first time you pulled it.

You want to know why I'm leaving you?

I'm about to walk out that door and you sit there and make fun of me.

You're very amusing.

You think you're running away from me?

You're really just running away from yourself.

Right.

You'll be back.

I guess I should thank him.

He gave me a reason to leave and a lot of presents.

He'd given me some expensive jewelry, a BMW.

I sold them.

In between the two, I had enough money to get a decent place.

Hi, Fred Banter. Pleasure.

Come this way. Come this way.

Well, here she is.

Beautiful, don't you think?

Listen, this place... Ah, yeah, yeah.

My wife and me, we lived here since they laid that last brick.

But it's a little too remote for her out here. You know, she likes being in the

thick of things and all that.

So, uh, you married?

No. Entertainment life?

No, not that I think that's any of your business.

It's not, and you're absolutely right.

Anyway, this is a sweet, sweet house we got here. Most quiet neighborhood you

could possibly ask for. It's like living on Mars.

Take a look at this view out here, would you?

You know, all the time we lived here, we ain't never heard a peep out of nobody.

And how much would you be around?

Well, I do the yard work.

Other than that, I'm never here.

Let's see the rest of the house.

You're going to absolutely love it. It's a beauty.

Fred annoyed me, but in the end it was the best place for the money, so I moved

in.

And that was the first time I ever saw Steve.

I don't know.

There was just something about him.

And I can't even tell you what it was.

Yeah, Mom?

It's Joanna.

Yeah, I know it's been a while.

Yeah, I just moved into a new place and I wanted to give you my new... No, I'm

not with Philip anymore.

Yes, I know he's rich.

No.

It just didn't work out, okay?

I know I have to get a job. I was going to look next week.

I'm sorry.

Who did you say was sick?

Yeah.

Well, tell Aunt Jenny I hope she feels better.

Okay, bye.

So McMahon takes me into his office, and he says to me, I've noticed quite a

change in you since you've become a Christian.

You're much more involved in your work. You're never late, not even a single

second. And to top it all off, you go and marry the... prettiest girl of any

in the office.

Oh.

It's true, honey.

Anyway, he says the minute Johnson talks retirement, I'm as good as junior

partner.

Dave, that's wonderful news, isn't it, Steve? Yeah, Dave.

Good news.

Catherine, everything looks delicious.

Thanks.

Actually, before we say grace...

Mary and I have a little announcement to make.

I'm expecting!

Oh my gosh!

Congratulations!

Thank you!

More good news, Dave.

Well, we're gonna go.

It's that time, huh?

Yeah.

Look what you've done to this place.

I haven't done anything.

Catherine did it all.

Even so, you should be very proud.

No, Dave.

You should be proud of yourself.

Yeah, well, Mary and I were very lucky.

Yeah, you and Mary, you're lucky.

You get that sweet little wife of yours between the sheets.

A little sweat.

A little hip action.

Voila.

You got yourself a kid.

You know, Dave, has that ever happened before?

What is your problem? You.

You're my problem.

You come around here, make your grand announcements.

Did you ever stop to think?

That every time Mary says she got something, that Catherine's going to

too? Well, pardon me.

The next time I'm about to make love to my wife, remind me to ask your fucking

permission. Lower your voice.

I'm on with you two minutes and I turn out as bad as you.

You don't know how bad I want to be.

What are you talking about?

What?

You ever look at another woman and wonder what it would be like to be

her?

How it'd feel, smell, the thrill of it?

Is that what this is about?

How long has it been going on?

Forget it, Dave.

There's nothing going on.

It's all up here.

It's in my head. These are my thoughts.

Forget it, Dave.

Well, I gotta go.

You know, you got a little slice of heaven here.

If you want to just blow it.

Good night.

After I moved in the house, I'd lie awake at night and I'd think about what

would make me happy.

Love you, Jonah.

But that didn't seem to be enough.

There was something else I needed.

I just didn't know what it was.

Good morning, Miss Avery. How you doing?

Hello. A little gardening, huh?

Are you going to finish up today?

Yes, ma 'am, I am. I'll get my tools and get started.

Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you.

You steal my stuff?

No harm done, man.

Really.

Sorry.

Just a little heart.

Fred was right.

It was like being on Mars.

I had no friends, no job.

And I was running out of money.

Fred, please, before you come over, I would appreciate a phone call.

Yeah, yeah, sure.

I said stop.

You think you're running away from me?

You're really just running away from yourself?

At night I'd look out at Steve's house, and I'd wonder what he was like.

Excuse me.

Hold on a minute. The security guy's bugging me. Yes?

Do you think I can use your bathroom?

Down the hall to the left.

To the left.

Okay. Thank you.

Oh.

You don't have to worry about my husband.

I could fuck someone right in front of him he wouldn't notice.

Excuse me.

What did you fall in?

Hello?

Here we are.

Let's step on it. I have company in an hour. Just a minute.

Catherine? Catherine!

What?

So what got into you earlier?

Well, there's some fashion lusts for my wife.

Are you sure?

Of course I'm sure.

Am I sure?

Why?

I'm sorry.

It's just that things haven't exactly been good between us lately.

I was beginning to think that it was me.

Steve, you're my whole life.

I don't know what I'd do without you.

I didn't have time to put in my diaphragm earlier.

You didn't have your diaphragm in?

No, I...

God damn it, Catherine.

What the hell are you telling me now for?

Well, you didn't exactly give me any time.

Oh, right. It's my fault.

Why are you so upset?

It wouldn't be so bad, would it?

Having a baby? I mean, just look at Dave and Mary.

Just look at Dave and Mary. You know, I'm sick of Dave and Mary. Everything is

Dave and Mary, Dave and Mary. It's like a broken record.

God, I can't believe you didn't put your goddamn diaphragm in.

What is wrong? Where are you going?

I got work to do.

Hello?

How did you get my number?

Great expense.

I made a new friend.

I told him all about you and he was wondering if maybe you'd like to stop

I told you that's all over.

Screw you.

Two years together and now you treat me like a whore?

Philip

was

so sure I couldn't live a normal life.

I had to prove him wrong.

And maybe it was something I needed to know for myself.

That's great.

That's great. Give me that pally lock.

That's terrific.

Oh, that's good. Beautiful.

Beautiful. Arch your back. Arch your back.

Open up to me. Oh, that's great.

I'm hot.

I know, baby. I know. Smile.

No, I'm really hot.

Physically. Come on, please. Just a few more shots.

Just a few more will be done, okay?

You've been saying that a goddamn hour already.

Cindy, look.

Where the fuck is that?

Eric, you said this was going to be a closed set. It is. It is. Can I help

Yeah, I called earlier about the stylist position. Don't get dressed. We're not

finishing, all right? Well, I'm through. I'm burning up.

Don't you have a fan?

I told you, it's broken. Please, just stay put. Listen, you came at the worst

possible time. Leave a resume. Come back later. When? A couple hours, all right?

We'll finish up now, okay?

He was a jerk, but it was a job I could do, and I knew there weren't too many of

those.

That's great, Cindy.

I wish you could see how beautiful you look. The light is great.

Come on, give me a smile.

Come on, baby. That's it.

I'm on fucking fire here. Cindy, please. I gotta get this shot. I can't do it

without you, baby. Come on.

Save the sweet talk, asshole.

I'm out of here.

Who the hell is this now?

Yeah.

Come on, I told you a couple hours. Please.

I brought you a fan.

You bought me a fan?

Yes.

Cindy, we have a fan.

Now we could finish if you'd just give me a few more minutes.

Well, so long as I'm not sweating my ass off.

Want to plug it in?

I got the job.

You got the job?

Mm -hmm.

I'd gotten a job, but I still felt like Philip was manipulating me.

Can I have a little more coffee, please?

See, a job was just a part of the problem.

I still had myself to deal with.

You have to understand how dead I felt.

I mean, this was the first feeling of being alive I'd had in a long time.

And this was the guy I'd been watching.

The guy I'd been thinking about.

So...

I wasn't trying to seduce him, really, I wasn't.

I just let him do what he wanted to do.

Watch.

And I let myself do what I wanted to do.

And let myself be seen.

Hey. Hi.

You're beautiful.

Thank you.

I didn't sleep for the rest of that night.

I kept hoping he'd come knock at my door.

He didn't even have to come inside, just stand there.

And if I couldn't have that, then at least in his own house, in his own bed.

He was thinking about me.

I got the proofs from the shoot with Cindy and some Chinese food.

So, tell me, Joanna, what do you think?

How honest do you want me to be?

Brutally honest.

Well, the truth is she's a much prettier girl than you have here.

You haven't done her justice.

You go right for the jugular, don't you? I'm sorry.

No, no, I like that in a woman.

Look at this.

And be brutally honest.

Interesting.

Thank you.

You've got talent.

I do, don't I?

Uh, Fred, hey, it's been a while, huh? Hey, Steve, yeah, que pasa?

Uh, your tenant, uh, your new tenant had a, well, there was a flood, uh, back

here, and she, she was pretty upset, so she asked me if I'd come back, take a

look. Oh, then, uh, I can assume that it's fixed and working properly.

I changed the sprinkler head.

No charge.

Terrific. I like that.

Look, you better have a talk with that gardener, huh? Hey, I'm getting ready to

fire that bastard anyway.

Hey, hey, take care, huh?

The kind of thing I was doing with Cindy, that's just bread and butter, you

know, to make a living.

Unfortunately, I have to do a lot of it.

Not just sex stuff, but advertising, product illustration, everything.

But as for my vocation, that's a different story.

Sacred, huh?

Yeah, you could say that.

So sacred you screw all your models?

I don't do that.

And I used to, but, um...

It just always left me feeling, uh, empty.

I know what you mean.

The dinner.

I'll be right there.

I'll make you a proposition.

What do you say we skip dinner and head straight upstairs?

You? Come on.

Come on. I can't talk you into it?

Not after I've cooked all this great food.

No, that's not fair.

How was work today?

It was all right, you know.

Usual.

I mostly just sat around all day.

I did have lunch with Judith.

Yeah?

Who's Judith?

One of the other secretaries.

Stephen, do you ever listen to one word I say? I must have mentioned Judith a

hundred million times.

Well, I listen to you. It's just I can't remember everything.

She's getting a divorce from her husband, caught him fooling around on

Really?

Well, good for her and bad for him, huh?

Yeah.

She started to get suspicious when all of a sudden he started to get romantic

again. I mean, one minute nothing, and the next he just couldn't keep his hands

off her.

Save it, Catherine.

I'm not having an affair with another woman.

I didn't say you were.

You didn't have to.

You think I'm stupid?

Because I'm not stupid.

All right?

You got something to say.

It's real simple. You just say it to me.

Because I don't need to hear these bullshit secretary stories.

It's not a story. That's exactly what she said to me. Well, who cares what you

talked about, all right?

Secretaries say this.

Secretaries say that.

It's got nothing to do with us, absolutely nothing.

Look at me.

This is the last time I want to say this.

I am not seeing another woman.

Well, you sure didn't look at them enough.

What'd you say?

I asked you a question.

I said you look at them enough.

I look at them enough?

So I can't look anymore?

Why don't you pick my eyes, Catherine, all right?

Because then I would be blind. Would that make you happy? Is that what you

Stephen, please. Tell me, Catherine, is there one single, solitary, goddamn

thing that I can have for myself?

Is there anything?

You had to get married.

We got married. You had to have the perfect house in the perfect

and you got those, too.

Tell me, Catherine, why can't that be enough?

I got no more to give.

I am telling you, no more. I'm drowning here, okay? I am drowning.

Stephen.

You're my whole life, Stephen.

My whole life.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Yeah, that's good.

That's good.

Look at me.

Yeah, that's nice. Nice. Okay.

All right. Good.

Good. That's good.

At the studio, I'd find myself watching Eric. Okay.

And he'd be looking at me.

You. Her or me?

You, of course.

More like it.

All right.

Okay, that's good.

That's good.

Look down.

That's good.

Okay.

Now look to the left.

We'll get it next time, okay?

Don't worry about it.

See you later.

Is it the temperament that's the problem?

Five years ago, I would have thought that girl was great. I would have been

over her.

I think that's what she had in mind.

No way.

I'm not interested in relationships like that anymore.

Thanks for your patience, Joanna.

Joanna, take a good look before you jump in, because these aren't just come

online.

At this point in my life, I'm interested in more than just having a good time.

And that's how I found out.

At first, I didn't even recognize it as a camera.

But when I did, I figured I knew exactly who put it there.

Fred. Huh? I know about the camera, okay?

What camera?

The one you put in my bedroom.

I don't know what you're talking about.

You put it in the air vent.

Honestly, Miss Fleming, I don't know anything about it.

Well, if you didn't put it there, who did?

Hey, don't look at me. Why don't you talk to your neighbor Steve over there?

He was over to fix the sprinkler.

The sprinkler?

Yeah, yeah, like you asked him, remember?

Right.

And that's what did it.

Everything I'd been fighting came rushing back.

At that moment, I lost all control.

I just wanted to feel the excitement.

And I wanted Steve to feel the excitement, too.

White Russian, please.

You're looking for a white Russian.

Look no further.

My last name is Tolstoy. Right.

Did you believe Dostoevsky?

I don't think names are really important.

So, are we going to see each other again?

Well, if we did that, tonight wouldn't be special anymore, would it?

And

that

was the truth.

I didn't think it could ever be that special again.

I didn't have any self -control.

I'd pick up a different guy every night for a couple of weeks.

And not just men.

And finally I had to make contact.

Hi. Do you know who this is?

I've got a pretty good idea.

My name is Steve, right?

That's a good guess.

Just an instinct.

I love instincts.

I live by them.

I bet you do.

Do you think I always act this way?

I don't know. I can only go by what I see, but I sure hope so.

That was for you.

Just for you.

Really?

Well, then I tell you, I must be the luckiest man on Earth.

Because most people would have gone to the police.

I'm not most people.

No, Joanna, you're not most people.

And neither am I.

Look at you.

You know you're perfect.

You're absolutely perfect.

The things that I would like to do to you, Joanna.

Tell me.

Tell me what you want to do.

For a while, it seemed perfect. It was like we had the screen between us to

everything from getting too real.

And that suited us both just fine.

All right, come on. Give me that thick tuba.

Good. Good.

Good. All right, that's good. That's nice. That's nice.

Good. Watch your back a little.

Yeah, nice.

Nice. Go here.

Good.

Wait a minute.

Good.

Look over here.

Look over here.

All right. All right, good. That should do it for today. Thank you.

Don't break down the set, Joanna.

I want to continue. I just need a new girl.

Well, if you think you can get a girl in such short notice.

It all depends.

What do you do in the next few hours?

I don't think so, Aaron.

Why not?

Afraid of what the camera might say?

Afraid of what I might say?

Maybe.

He was right.

I was afraid.

I just wanted to go home that night, turn off the lights, unplug the phone.

But it was like an addiction.

I had to have my fix.

The usual?

No, I'll have a gin martini with an olive, please.

Okay.

Is the seat taken?

No.

But you left my spirits.

Yeah?

Yeah.

Oh, baby.

I live well.

This is strange for me.

Relax. Take it easy.

What's wrong?

What are you laughing at me?

What else?

Are you making fun of me? No!

Stop it!

Did he hurt you?

No. Look at me.

Did he hurt you? Did he? No.

You all right? Yeah. You sure? Look here.

You okay?

Yeah.

Okay, good.

Stay with me.

What?

Please.

Please.

Jordan, I can't stay, all right?

Listen to me.

I can't stay.

Because, you see, it's Catherine. It's Catherine.

I gotta go.

I gotta go.

It was like I'd seen something he didn't want me to see.

The way he enjoyed beating that guy.

And something else besides.

Excuse me.

You know, I really should apologize.

I mean, you've been living here for a couple of months now, and I've never

bothered to come out and introduce myself.

I'm Catherine Kittredge.

Joanna Fleming.

It's nice to meet you, Joanna.

Likewise.

Look, I'm just going to say this.

Is there something going on between you and my husband?

No.

Nothing at all.

Then why was he coming out of your place last night?

I was almost raped last night.

I was screaming and he must have heard me.

I don't know what I would have done if he hadn't come.

Is that the honest -to -God truth?

Ask your husband.

I already did. That's exactly what he told me.

God, I'm so relieved.

I was really beginning to have some doubts about him.

Thanks, Joanna.

I knew right then it was over with Steve.

Maybe that's why I decided to pose for Eric.

I decided I needed to go in another direction.

Okay, Joanna.

That's beautiful.

That's beautiful.

Just like that.

But the hard part was still to come.

I still had Steve to deal with.

Yes?

I just didn't have a chance.

It all worked out okay.

Well, time will tell, won't it?

She's awfully nice, your wife.

Bingo, you win the prize.

That's exactly what my wife is.

She's nice.

You don't appreciate her very much, do you?

Well, I really don't want to talk about her.

What do you want to talk about, Steve?

Do you even want to talk at all? When is this talk, talk, talk stuff all the

time? You sound just like her.

Well, maybe we're more alike than you think.

Oh, no.

Trust me, you are very different.

Now, you and me, that's another story.

You don't know me at all.

No, it turns you on.

Do you think so?

Where's the camera, Joanna?

Sitting here, got the monitor on, ready to watch.

What it does for me.

Unless, of course, you're afraid.

And if you are, we'll just let it go.

Okay. Okay.

I can see we're not going to play with the camera tonight.

Don't you ever call me again.

All of a sudden I felt dirty.

He was exactly like Philip, exactly what I'd been running away from.

Isn't that great?

That's my favorite.

I can see why.

You say I'm vain.

I'm talking about your work, not about me.

Well, you would have been right in either account.

Eric, you don't want to get mixed up with me.

I'll only disappoint you.

Well, I think that's a risk worth thinking, Joanna.

Don't understand. I'm screwed up, okay?

Who isn't?

Please don't.

That was the first time I ever really felt all right.

When I saw Steve, he ignored me.

So I figured I'd beaten him at his own game.

But Steve had other plans.

Mmm, that meal was just delicious, wasn't it?

Catherine, I swear, sometimes you make me so jealous I could scream.

You are so perfect.

Isn't she, Steve? Isn't she just perfect?

Yeah, I think so.

Well, I have a little announcement to make.

I'm expecting.

Think about it. Our kids will be able to grow up together and everything.

Congratulations, Stephen.

Yeah, that's some news, isn't it?

Thanks, Nate.

Hey, that's the house.

It's very, uh...

White? Why are you so nervous?

I don't know.

I guess I think you can see inside my mind by seeing inside my house.

What's wrong with seeing inside your mind?

I don't know.

What's the matter?

I can't do this.

What are you talking about?

You have to leave.

What's going on here?

What's going on?

I'm sorry. I can't tell you.

You just have to trust me, okay?

No. Talk to me.

I'll talk to you tomorrow, all right?

All right.

I'll talk to you tomorrow.

Bye.

What do you think you're doing?

Lower your voice. What is your problem? I said to lower your voice. Get out of

my... Sit here.

Be quiet.

That's some good news, Joanna.

I'm leaving my wife.

I'm leaving Catherine.

She doesn't know it yet, but I'm going to tell her.

Because, you see, I can't give her what she wants.

What do you think she wants?

She wants my soul.

She wants my soul, but she can't have it.

Nobody can have my soul.

But you know that.

I know that you know that.

I can say that to you.

But I can't even say that to my own wife.

I wish your wife would be exactly the same.

No.

Wouldn't. Be different. You're different.

We're not that different.

I'm sorry.

Too late.

What'd you say?

It's too late?

Yeah. It's not too late.

It's not too late.

Is that it?

When you brought her home?

Is that it?

Don't tell me that you love him.

That would be a big mistake.

You see, baby, that would be a big mistake.

A big one.

Because one night with me...

You'll be mine forever.

Don't start something you can't finish.

You can't get it up.

You need to do it.

I'm sorry. That was a mistake.

I made a mistake. Get out.

You get out.

Get out of my life. It's over. Finish.

Nothing is ever finished.

And they weren't just words.

A few nights later, he backed them up.

What the hell?

Oh, man, what time is it?

Ugh.

Yes.

Eric called and asked me to come over.

He said he needed me.

Hey.

Eric, what the hell happened?

I don't know, but I feel like I stopped the bus with my face.

Some guy just came here and beat the crap out of me.

You're really hurt.

Let's get you to the hospital. I don't want to go to a hospital.

You need a doctor.

Give me a ride, huh?

Somebody out there must really be pissed off at me for taking pictures of their

girlfriend or something. I don't know.

I knew it was Steve.

And I had to tell Eric the truth.

Steve was in the house before he'd even gotten out the door.

I don't need to hear anymore.

Where are you going? I'm going to kick that guy's ass.

You don't know him.

He's crazy. I don't care if he's crazy or not. He's out of control.

Miss Fleming, I took your accusation to your neighbor. He flat out denied it.

He said he was home last night at 9 o 'clock.

He's lying.

Well, his wife backs up his story.

Of course she does. She's his wife.

Well, Mr. Seavers here can't make a positive identification.

Yes, I can.

It's kind of a change in your story, isn't it? Well, sir, I just remembered.

You don't want to perjure yourself, do you?

Did you put him up to that?

How come my friend gets attacked and now we're the ones in trouble?

Thanks for nothing.

I'm going over there.

No. It's my problem. I'll deal with it.

I want you to know how much your support meant to me.

I don't know why she said all those crazy things, and I really don't care.

What matters is what you did for me.

Well, that's what wives are for.

You know, I was thinking, maybe we should move.

Now, I know we did a lot of work in this house.

We both did.

But it's just a house.

Home is where we are.

Where the baby is.

Look at you.

Come on, this is stupid.

I need to talk to you.

Can I come inside?

Whatever you have to say to me, you can say it right here.

All right.

I lied to you.

Steve did come to my rescue, but it didn't happen the way I said it did.

He snuck into my house. He put a camera in my bedroom.

He was watching me on a monitor. You're lying.

He told me you would say something like that. The monitor is in the garage. Go

and look for yourself.

Catherine!

Come on, Catherine, pick it up.

I see you, Joanna.

What are you doing here?

Time for your free service check.

I didn't know I got a free service check. Pardon the service, ma 'am.

Come in.

Hello? Catherine, it's Steve.

Look, I want you to get dressed up all pretty. I'm going to take you out to

dinner tonight.

No, I've got other plans.

You okay? You sound like something's wrong.

Yeah, you could say that.

I know about the camera you planted in Joanna's bedroom.

I don't know what you're talking about, camera.

What do you mean, camera?

I found your video set up in the garage.

For two years, I've known something was wrong, and I just ignored it.

Anything to keep us together.

Well, not anymore, Steve. I'm going to the police.

Catherine, hold on a minute, okay?

Now, now, hold on. Just calm down. Don't, don't be stupid.

I'm gonna, I'm gonna come home now, and we'll talk about this, all right?

Don't bother.

I'll be gone by the time you get here.

Oh, you'll be gone, will you?

You're gonna leave?

Well, then you go, God damn it, you leave.

But you know one thing, Catherine.

Joanna's gonna die.

Steve?

I don't know if Steve learned his lesson but I did.

Steve swears that he wants to stay with me.

He says that's why he lost control like that, because he was so afraid of losing

me.

Do you think I'd be crazy to take him back?

We all need a second chance, don't we?

Well, I don't want to be late for the arraignment.

Are you coming?

No.

I'm meeting Eric here later.

How's he doing?

He's great.

Thank you for talking to me, Joanna.

Sure.

Would you like some more coffee?

No.

I'll take a white Russian, please.

Be well.

Thank you.