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# Only, only, only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh, ooh, oooooh. #

MUSIC: 'Kinda Love You'd See
In A Movie' by Ryan Mack

Ayce, look.

ROMAN AND MATILDA LAUGH
He's so excited.

I love that jump.

Whatever it is, I like it,
and I think we need to do it.

# And make my heart race

# Slow-motion silhouettes... #

Do you wanna help hold the bucket?

Look, stroke it, look.
Argh! Ha-ha-ha-ha!

Ayce, go help Matilda
feed the donkey.

# And that won't ever change... #

Well done, Ayce.

Huh? They're so strong.
They're so strong.

They're so strong. They're so...
ROMAN LAUGHS

# I never wanna let go, see... #

MATILDA SCREAMS

I don't like it.
ROMAN GIGGLES

You got to deal with this, babe,
because I don't think I like it.

Here you go, here you go. Argh!
BLEATING

# Anytime you want me
I'll be there in a heartbeat... #

Thank you so much.
Thank you so much.

Beautiful.
Lovely.

Cheers.
Cheers.

THEY LAUGH
Did you have a nice weekend?

You know what,
I had the most chilled weekend,

but I feel like I needed it.

You are wild...

Thank you.

..so the fact that you actually...

the fact that you actually had
a chill weekend,

I'm really proud of you.
I know.

# We'd dance till the sun went down

# You kiss me and tell me
That you don't wanna... #

Feel like that looks classy
when they open it.

Yeah, I agree, and a nice bow.
Yeah.

But I just want people just to
get them and open them and be like,

"Wow, Harry's worked so hard
on that. That looks so good."

But, babe, you should be
really proud of yourself

because you have worked...

Thank you.

God, I've rang you, the past month,
and you've been out...

like, you've been up
every hour, Harry.

# You kiss me and tell me
That you don't wanna lose me

# It's the kind of love
You'd see in a movie. #

Kids! Hello.
Saffy! Mwah! You OK?

Hi, Dansy girl.
Mwah!

Oh, you smell lovely.
You smell delightful.

Oh, yeah. Just another fragrance.
Like a lovely summer's day.

How are you?

SAFFRON SIGHS
Yeah, all good. Dansy?

Listen, I-I-I knew that you felt
a bit... a type of way

after the passing party.
HE SLURPS

Mm. Sorry, you're just sipping
that really aggressively.

Just taking it in.
Don't know what's about to happen.

And I didn't want you
to feel a type of way about it.

I did really appreciate
you throwing that passing party.

Oh, no, listen,
I know you appreciated it. Yeah.

But it just got a bit awkward,
and I thought... Oh, yeah, very.

The invite was open,
it become small. Yeah.

And, listen,
it didn't really land well, did it?

No, not at all.

I just needed to remove myself
cos I thought, "Do you know what?

"Everywhere I go, I'm sort
of causing quite a lot of damage."

Well, at first, initially,
when I got there, I thought,

"OK, she's not respecting
my boundaries.

"I'm not happy about it."
Oh, you're joking?

But as soon as we spoke and you
explained, you invited everyone.

You don't speak to Girlband.

You don't know what they're doing.
I didn't know Amber was having a do.

As soon as that happened,
I was sweet.

Like, everyone was busy,
but I knew that.

But you're not to know that.
Like, I get that. No.

Obviously, him leaving
and being upset,

obviously, naturally,
it's gonna make me feel like...

I do feel a bit bad, but it's not
gonna change my boundaries.

I still don't wanna be his friend,
even when I do feel sorry for him.

I mean, he got choked up.
Mm.

Is he OK?
Yeah, yeah.

OK.
Listen, he got choked up,

but then you get Junaid
the other side of him,

where he's like,
"We're not gonna be friends,"

but I think that's a defence thing
with Junaid.

The reason why I don't like
having him around me

is cos it brings things back up.

I've got to start talking
about what's happened in the past.

I've put it behind me.
I won't ever be his friend again.

And you don't trust him.
I do not trust that boy.

But there isn't no bad blood,
so when we're in a big setting,

I would say hello, but it's only
ever gonna be the hellos.

If everyone come,
and it was a big thing,

I wouldn't single him out
and not let him come.

Him and Joe could be there.

It's just more so the fact
that it was intimate. Yeah.

So I don't want him getting confused

and thinking we're friends
and we're on that level,

where he's at a close dinner,
cos he isn't.

I explained that to him.
I said to him...

He doesn't care anyway

cos he doesn't wanna be my friend,
like he said, so...

I don't think he was saying it
in a bitchy way, though.

It's not bitchy,
but he's just boring.

Yeah. Anyway,
I'm glad we've cleared it up.

# I hope that someone gets myyyyyy

# Message in a bottle... #

It's so rewarding because I look
at this product, and I'm like,

I made this at a time
when I was so in a bad way,

hence why I called it Cry Proof,
cos I want you to say to me,

"Cor, you cry a lot,
but your make-up always looks nice."

So, who are you
sending these out to?

I feel like I'm gonna send it
to everyone in the group because...

I even thought about sending it out
to Joe and Junaid as well.

Oh, my God.
HE LAUGHS

To be honest with you.
Are you joking?

Not to be muggy, but I wouldn't be
in this position now...

If it weren't for them.

..if it weren't for them two.

If them two never done
what they did...

Oh, my God,
I want to be a fly on the wall

when they open this package
from you, Harry.

So, here I am, living proof,
one year later - things get better.

I'm so... Honestly, Harry,
I think it's amazing.

I know. I'm proud of myself.

Really am proud of myself.
Babe, how you been?

I feel like I've seen you,
but not loads. Yeah.

Erm, I went to Dan's launch,
didn't I, with all the boys? Yeah.

Obviously, Freddie was there and Joe
and Junaid, cos it obviously...

Oof. Eurgh! I don't know.

I just... I've got the shivers
because I see 'em. Yeah.

Junaid was basically saying, like,

"Listen, we just wanted
to clear this air.

"We don't wanna make you
feel uncomfortable.

"We don't like this awkwardness."
Sorry?

Yeah, that was along the lines
of what he was saying.

What they should be saying, "We are
so sorry what we've done to you.

"We are so sorry,
from the bottom of our hearts."

Which is literally...

You've took the words
right out my mouth.

But he just always fails
to say sorry.

He says what makes him feel better,
I think, sometimes.

He doesn't say what's right.

So by going, like,

"Oh, we don't wanna
make you feel awkward,"

it's, like, putting it on me.

But they feel awkward,
so they just blame it on you.

"Oh, you feel awkward, Harry,"
but you don't.

You are the strongest person
I know now.

I'll always, always remember it as
one of the hardest times of my life.

But also the biggest,
biggest learning chapter of my life.

Yeah, course.

For that,
maybe it was always meant to happen.

Maybe I was meant to go through that
to be where I'm sitting now.

# Gotta keep it on
Keep it on moving

# Yeah, you're stuck in the past

# Yeah, you're moving too fast
My love... #

Aycer, do you think Uncle Ro should
propose to me and we get married?

No.
No?

Oh.
Why should we not get married?

Because I don't want you to.
MATILDA GASPS

Shall we go down the slide together?
Come, then.

Ayce, go down with Matilda, then.
Come.

No. Wait, you do it.
What, I got to go? Argh!

He pushed you.
He pushed me down the slide.

Aw, and now I've got a muddy bum,
don't I?

Now show me
how you drive a tractor.

Whoa! You're going absolutely nuts
in that truck.

ROMAN LAUGHS
# Just keep on driving. #

You suit that tractor. You suit it.
You suit a tractor.

Oh.
Is that your car?

Yeah.
Yeah?

I don't know how parents do it.

No, it's hard to keep kids tamed
at a fun place.

They can't sit still, can they?

That's the one reason why I'm not
ready yet for a baby. No way.

You can't even look after yourself,
let alone a baby.

Oh!
THEY LAUGH

Says you.
Says me?

Actually, you do look after me.
I do look after you all the time.

True.
I'm up here.

Hello!
Wow, hello!

Jump.
Don't tell him to jump, babe.

It's dangerous.
I just got here.

That's not dangerous, is it?

It's dangerous to jump from there.
Well, don't trust me... Oh, see.

Well done!

How nice was us getting baptised
the other day?

I know, babe. I think that was up
there with the best day of my life.

Best moment of...
One of the best memories ever. Yeah.

I think just seeing our families
together in a place

where they're celebrating us
was, like...

That was just a moment.

It's the most special day ever,
from start to finish.

That's the most I've cried
for a while.

I know, and your mum.
And Mum.

Everyone cried.
Like a flood.

It's such an emotional thing.

It is an emotional thing.
It's a huge thing.

I think it just made it so special
that we did it together. Yeah.

I'm just gonna keep thinking
about that day now.

Now we've got to keep going
to church,

making the effort with this stuff.

With your community.
Mm-hm.

You got to get out of bed early cos
it's you that never gets out of bed.

There's a 5pm service,
so that's not even an excuse.

Oh. Oh, OK.
Shhh.

Why don't you go to that one, then?
HE CHUCKLES

Erm, and then bible studies,
we got to start doing.

Bible studies.
We just need to learn it. Mm-hm.

Ever since
I was going through stuff,

that's when I first started learning
about God.

Mm. Helped you so much.
Helped me so much, yeah.

And every single day...
Ro-Ro!

What?
Look.

Llama. Wow.
Oh!

I don't like them.
ROMAN CHUCKLES

Oh, he's going backwards.

And then every single day,
I just kept, like, praying

and asking just to guide me
and get me through this hard time.

And I think that's why it was
just such a, like, emotional thing.

As soon as we was both baptised,
I think you don't realise...

We both started
absolutely bawling our eyes out.

I was absolutely bawling
my eyes out, and I loved it.

It was insane.
It was insane.

It was the best thing ever, though.
High five.

What a great step
in our relationship. Mm-hm.

# Open arms

# Holding you naked
Middle of Sunset. #

# The only way is up. #

# Talking to you
Gives me butterflies

# Wanna text you all the time

# I can't help
That I feel like this... #

This looks so cute.

No, honestly...
It's like being back in Bali.

Doesn't it give, like, Bali vibes?
It's giving Bali vibes.

Look how cute it is.

Cos I know how much you love
the outdoors, so look over there.

How nice! Oh, thank you!
Cos I can't.

What do you think?
Oh, I actually really love it.

There's also a sauna. I know
you love a bit of outdoor fun.

No way! Are you joking?
JUNAID LAUGHS

Oh, how cosy does it look?

Oh! And I know you love
a little bathtub.

Oh, my God,
I've just seen the heart!

Thank you. I love you.

Oh, my God, that's so cute!

# That's why they call it a crush

# It will never be love... #

Girls, you've obviously
been playing before,

so you got your strap on,
yeah, love that.

Oh, you put your strap on?

Well, you've got to make sure
you've got it in your hand.

Yeah, so you don't lose it.
No, not tight.

It can bounce once.
She likes bouncing more than once.

All right, Saff,
don't bait me out, babe.

Don't, cos I'm getting...
You'll make me start sweating.

Don't sweat, Will.
Hey, you guys!

Hi!
Whoo, whoo!

Right, hold on, this is Will.
Nice to meet you. You all right?

This is Elma.
Nice to meet you.

Look at you three,
all got new outfits on.

I've just come straight from work.
We've got all the gear, no idea.

No, that is true.
Yeah.

We can all hit balls.
I don't... Yeah. Mm, yeah.

THEY LAUGH
That's true.

# It will never be us

# That's why they call it
A crush... #

Guys, thank you so much
for coming today.

It means the world to us...
It's not an Oscar!

What, to the opening
of a swimming pool?

Well done, Amy. Well done, Bill.

Girls, but listen, thank you so much
for coming. Beautiful.

It's stunning.
Shall we get it open?

Let's cut this rope
cos the kids wanna get in.

# Baby, I'm crushed... #
Wait.

CHEERING
# It will never be us... #

Come on, Ame! Go on, girl!
SHE SCREAMS

HE LAUGHS
# Just a crush

# It will never be love

# Baby, I'm crushed... #
CHANTING: Billy, Billy!

Whoo!

Jordan!
CHEERING

# That's why they call it
A crush... #

Whoa!
# It will never be love... #

Ame, thank you so much
for having us, though.

This is so nice,
all the girls with the kids. Yeah.

This is literally the dream,
isn't it?

How stressful
was getting the pool done?

Girls, being honest with you,
me and Bill were so bad

to the point where I felt
that we was gonna break up. Yeah.

Stop it!
No!

We put so much pressure
on ourselves,

but we've turned a corner.
Yeah.

You and Jordan,
you had it last year.

Oh, my God,
and we were so open about it,

and it's what made us stronger.

You see he's went through
so much stress recently,

he went through so much,
so when we went to Italy,

we finally got that time
where we could just be us.

We're just trying
to just be me and him

and just enjoy life without kids.
You made it.

Whoa! Anyways, Becks,
enough about me. How are you?

Yeah, babe, I've been good.

So, actually, I've got something
up my sleeve. What?!

So, obviously, you know
that I've got epilepsy. Yeah.

So, I basically work with
this charity called Young Epilepsy.

I went to an event with them
a couple of months ago.

It was unbelievable
hearing everyone's stories.

So you wanna do the charity
for that, which is so amazing.

Raise a little charity night, like,
a little charity ball, maybe quiz.

Amazing.
I don't know yet.

What about everyone? Is it everyone?
I'm gonna invite everyone.

Everyone? Yeah.
I'm gonna invite everyone.

People better put their money
where their mouth is. They better!

Let's hope they do.

2022, I had my first fit.

I was at home.
God, I bet that was petrifying.

Completely blacked out,
unconscious on the floor.

Can you not remember any of it?
Don't remember nothing.

So, the epilepsy I've got
is called myoclonic epilepsy,

where you have jerks, sudden jerks,
and they last for two seconds.

So when I'd get really anxious
or I was talking about something

or if I hadn't ate all day,
like, I would do this thing

where I'd go, like...
SHE GASPS

Like that.
SHE GASPS

Like, it was...
At work, like, all the time.

But at the age of 28,

being diagnosed with epilepsy
is crazy.

And she's just had two young babies.
Two young babies, I couldn't...

It was so hard, babe,
so they give me medication.

Since then, it's controlled...
kept my epilepsy at bay.

So you've been all right so far?
I've been two years seizure-free.

The thought of you even having that
makes me so sad. Aw!

You love each other so much.
Yeah.

You're so lucky
that you've got each other.

Liv, you've probably been there
when she's went through it all.

Yeah.
Aw!

I love you.

# Every day, still worry

# That you don't feel the same... #

Let's go. That's up.
ELLA SCREAMS

Smooth.
Smooth. Yes, Ella.

ELMA: There we go!
Yes.

Go on, Ella. That's it, Ella!
Best day of your life.

Yeah, but it's out the court.
Oh, girls!

I'll get it babe.
Be a gentleman about it, Will.

THEY LAUGH
That's it. All day.

Shot. Smooth.
Right, now go.

Perfect. Oh, my God!
That's my point!

Oh, what a day, just smacking balls.
ELLA LAUGHS

# You keep on running around

# With all the women in town... #
Go on, Ella.

Well done.
Oh, sorry.

SAFFRON LAUGHS

At least you're hitting it.
I think that's not that bad.

Ella, I'll go and get that.
It's in the next court!

He's gonna hate me.

He's running around
like an 'eadless chicken!

That's the whole point.
Is it?

Yeah.
Well, what do you wanna see?

Get him hot and sweaty.
Oh!

You impressed?

Oh, honestly, you girls,
are absolutely nailing it.

SHE LAUGHS

# You keep on running around... #
Go on, Elma.

Oh, yes!
Yes, girl!

Come on, Elma!
I think I could take this up.

Ella.
That's it.

Go on, Ella! Go on, Ella!
Yes, Ella!

Oh.
Oh, well, that's it, then.

Right, Saff has just smashed that
right out the court.

That is the cue
to go and get you girls a drink.

All three of you
have absolutely nailed it.

# I will be kicking you out. #

Ah, that was a lot.
That was a lot.

I've never been run so ragged.
Ain't you? I bet you have.

ELLA LAUGHS
Dirty little cow! Right...

I actually really enjoyed that.

Same!
It was good, weren't it?

I actually enjoyed it
more than I thought.

Yeah, same.
And he was a good teacher.

Yeah, he was, he was.

I've known him for years.
He used to sing to me 15 years ago.

I know, you told me.
He used to serenade her.

He's very much on... the scene.

Yeah, I've heard. Yeah.

Not only do I have to run
out the court, also get drinks now.

Oh, nice little juice.
Oh, that looks nice.

I should have got a juice.
What did you get, water?

Water.
No ice, though.

Thanks for today, girls.

I enjoyed it, honestly.
No, thank YOU!

You ever thought
about being a padel teacher?

HE LAUGHS
I haven't, actually.

You were quite good.

I've got the patience.
Uplifting...

Yeah, patience.
That's what you've got.

The running ability.
Ella, thank you very much. Exactly.

New to it today.
I appreciate that, thank you.

Thank you for picking up my balls.
My boss, telling me, "Yours!"

"You take it."
Getting told... Yeah, that's it.

My padel coach. "You take that one!"
THEY LAUGH

"Yours! Take it!"
So, what do you do, then, babe?

Erm... "Babe"!

Sorry.
I do eyelash extensions.

Oh, nice.
Yeah.

Yeah, no, I could do with
a bit of an eyelash turnout.

What about you, Ella,
what do you do?

Just be me, babe.
Love that.

Yeah, just be me.
Yeah, love.

Saff, I know you're
a solid ten out of ten anyway.

Thank you.
That's smooth!

I'm doing
the background entertainment,

and all of a sudden...
But I know, like...

So, what's going on with you, Will?
Talking to anyone?

No. Just, like, if something
comes along, it's just...

I've got so much... Where I work
with my dad, with the flowers,

I start work
at three in the morning,

I'm singing till one in the morning,

I'm two, three hours' sleep,
and I go again. Grafter.

Like, it is tough to find something.

But listen, if it comes, it comes.
If it don't, it don't. Yeah.

SAFFRON SNORTS
So, when you free?

THEY LAUGH
Yeah!

# Don't call tonight
Unless you wanna hurt me

# Don't call tonight
It's not because you care

# Don't call tonight
Don't call tonight

# Don't call tonight. #

Whoa!
Oh, Jordan!

Oh, youse have been so good.
Little Jordan!

Little Jordan! Jordan!
Go get your mum.

Get your mum,
give her a big cuddle, quick.

Come and sit on the big bed.
Give her a cuddle, quick.

JORDAN LAUGHS
Oh, no, you're wet!

THEY LAUGH
Sonny!

Oh, my God. Right...
Ohhhhh!

Go get in the house.
I think it's time to get out.

So, Billy is playing padel...
Yes.

..with Elma, Ella and Saff.
With Elma. Yeah.

Do you know what? With Billy,
I've always said it all along,

he just needs someone
who is really fun,

and when I think about that,
I do think about Elma straightaway

because she's one of us.

Listen, love Ella, but for me,

I just feel like Elma's
probably more up his street,

do you know what I mean?

So, he's with Saffron as well?

Cos they've had a fling,
haven't they? Yeah.

Shut up! No, they ain't.
Yeah, they have.

They've kissed.
When?

They was very, very young.
OK.

Talking of Saff...
Yes?

Obviously, I spoke to Harry
and spoke to Ella -

we was all at Harry's yesterday -

and I just feel like
they sort it out now, Jordan.

100%. Needs nipping in the bud.
Thank you. I feel exactly the same.

I'll tell you what, me and you
will nip it in the bud, right?

Yeah.
I'm gonna take Saff to the pub.

Right.
You take Harry to the same pub.

Oh, I like this. I like this.
Oh, my God!

No!
Come on, Jordan!

CHEERING

# High on me

# High all through the day
All through the night

# Bite on me
Bite all through the day

# All through the night

# High on me... #
You all right?

Oh, it's so nice.
How lovely is this?

Oh, it's like a bath.

Isn't it? It's like a warm bath.
Aw.

Love you.
I love you.

To one year.
One year.

And the rest of our lifetimes.

THEY LAUGH
Oh, it's a long old time!

Cheers.
# High on me

# High on me, high on me. #

Can you believe it that we've
actually made it to a year now?

We went from hating each other...
Yeah.

Couldn't stand you.
Yeah. Same.

Obviously, in Cyprus, when we got
to know each other properly,

do you know what,
it really changed my opinion of you

cos I just thought, "He actually is
a nice guy with a lot to say."

But before that,
I never really got to know you.

Do you know what I mean?
And it's been an adventure.

The best year of your life.

It has been the best year,

but also the most dramatic year
of my life.

I know. Oh!
The most stressful year of my life.

It has been dramatic.

But I wouldn't have you
any other way.

It was a big old risk.
A massive risk.

But I'm glad to say that it was
the best risk I've ever taken. Aw!

I would genuinely wish no-one
was hurt in the process and...

Yeah, obviously, yeah.

I never intentionally went out
to be with you to hurt anyone.

I don't think you've done the same.

No. But I don't regret it because,
at the end of the day, like,

I did get my happily ever after,
do you know what I mean? Mm.

My family love you so much.
No, I love them!

Obviously, I can't forget
little man.

My little baby boy.
Daice. Oh, my God.

He loves you so much.
This weekend...

Honestly, right,

I feel like, since we've moved into
the house together, has been like...

We are, like, that family unit.

I know. I love it.
Do you know what I mean?

He's just such a happy little boy.

I know he's your world,

and obviously, I just love
having that family unit around,

like, just doing things together,

and now I feel like
I'm just so settled.

You're who you're meant to be.

Yeah, and you've brought that out
in me.

You're the first person
I've been with where I'm like,

do you know what,
I can actually see a life with you.

Like, a proper long,
happy life as well.

Love you.
I love you.

Have you had the best one year?
I've had the best one year.

This has been absolutely amazing.

I love that.
Thank you so much.

# Can I have your heart? #

# The only way is up. #

# I don't wanna talk about it

# I drink up not to fall behind

# You're leaving now
But I don't mind

# Some things are better... #

Aw!
Morning, cherub.

This is something new.
Breakfast for the king.

Oh, lovely.

I thought it's only right,
considering that...

Aw, this is cute.
You've never done this before.

I love it.
I love you.

I thought you said you love "me".
You said you love "it".

I love it, and I love you.
Thanks.

THEY LAUGH
Let me...

This is very thoughtful of you.
Shall I feed you a strawberry?

I'm so hungry this morning.
I'm so tired.

Aw!
Mmm! I could get used to this.

# I wanna be here all the time... #

Left, right, left.
Left, right, left again.

Let's go.

Always taught that, but I don't know
why you do the second left.

Just in case a car turns up that
you never seen in the first place.

Yeah, true, actually.
I want a nice chocolate milkshake.

SHE GASPS
Do you?

Mm.
I want a hot chocolate and a cola.

Ooh! After you, darling.
Treat yourself.

Thank you.

# But I don't mind
Some things are better left unsaid

# I follow the rhythm... #

I think Joe's been missing
your creamy chicken pasta.

What?! No, he hasn't
stole your recipe, Harry.

JUNAID: 'Guys, cook this unreal
creamy chicken pasta.

'Let me show you how to make it.'
Is that not...?

Not my recipe!
Oh, my God! Not the...!

Wait. Right...

'Bit of sea salt, bit of pepper,

'paprika, Cajun,
and I'm trying to think what else.

'Just my usual...'
It's everything I use!

You use them ingredients, H!

That's literally, like,
the exact same ingredients.

It's exactly step by step.
Mozzarella.

I've only just got over him to,
like, stealing my man.

Fucking stealing my recipes now.

He stole your recipe!
Like, he stole my recipe!

How do you feel about the whole
Dani situation from the other day?

I mean, listen, it was awkward.

And the thing with Dani is,

I know the friendship's well
and truly done,

and I'm so fine with that,

I accepted that
a very, very long time ago.

And I feel like for me, I'm not one
to ever beg for anyone's friendship.

And I went to congratulate her
for her passing her test,

it was because it's such
a big part of her life,

I know how long
she's been trying to do it.

I know. I just tried to be
the bigger and better person.

I know you just wanted to be nice.

I tried to be
the bigger and better person,

and she never...
she didn't take that in.

Very mixed signals, innit?

One minute, she's all right,
then she ain't.

It's just chaotic.

I think, obviously, as well, like...
seeing Harry the other day,

it's the first time
I've spoken to him in, like, a year.

Yeah.
Do you know what I mean?

And, obviously, like,
he did look quite upset,

which made me automatically feel
so sad for him.

What is it
that you actually felt sad about

when you see Harry, though?

It just made me sad.

Like, just seeing him sad
made me sad. It made...

I think it was, like,
a realisation for me,

like, this must have really hurt him
and must hurt him a lot.

Like, you was obviously his ex,
and I was his ex-best friend.

It was like...

But then don't you think,

by you saying that
and having that realisation,

that maybe a year down the line,
an apology might be a good thing?

Whereas before,
you didn't actually care.

Whereas now, a year has gone past,
you have seen how it's affected him,

you do genuinely feel bad.
Yeah.

And I think, in a way,

it might actually bring you
a bit of peace to the situation.

I'll be honest,
I don't know if he'll come on a...

Like, that receptive towards me.

Listen, but you can't worry...
I know, I know.

..about what he's gonna do,
do you know what I mean?

Anyways...

I love you,
and I'm very thankful for you.

Love you more.

And you make me very, very happy.

You make me very happy.

And you can now drive us
back to Essex.

# Whoa-oh-oh, walking away

# Could've been my disco cowgirl

# But you rode off into the sunset
Without me. #

Is this your products?
Can you believe it's ready?

Have you not seen it yet?
Oh, my God, it looks unbelievable.

I've got it for everyone.
He's even sent it to Joe and Junaid.

What?!
Yeah.

You didn't!

They probably think
I'm being a total bitch,

cos I've written it, saying,
"Thanks..."

What did you say?!

I writ, "This wouldn't have happened
if it weren't for youse, thanks."

I'm screaming.
Oh, my God. That is hilarious.

I'm not being funny,

they said they wanted to stop
the awkwardness the other day,

what better way than to include 'em
in the product launch? Yeah.

It's less about them.
Thank you so much.

You look stunning. Do you love it?
Oh, I love it.

Unbelievable.

So, I had a catch-up the other day
with Freddie.

And, obviously, I invited Saffron,

because the last time I'd actually
seen her was at the passing party,

when it all went a bit tits up
and she walked out. Yeah.

And so I invited her as well,
and we basically cleared the air.

Initially, I was blaming her because
I didn't understand the situation.

But as soon as she said,
like, she invited everyone,

it's not her fault,
do you know what I mean?

Where do you stand with Saffron,
how do you feel about that?

I did talk to her a little bit
about it all.

To be honest with you,
I kind of want to get it squashed,

and try and see her
and try and speak to her,

because the longer this is going on,
it seems to be getting worse.

I feel like it's just been blown
way out of proportion.

Like, really, what has either of you

really that deeply done
to each other,

that you can't actually speak
and move forward? Yeah.

And I think the whole of Essex
is sick of this.

Do whatever feels right. Do you know
what you need to do tonight?

This is what I've done before,

and this actually, hand on heart,
has worked for me before, right?

Look at the moon tonight
and just say,

"If I'm meant to be friends
with Saffron, show me.

"If I'm meant to go there, show me."

# Take me, baby

# Cherished and so holy

# Take me, baby

# Cos I'm your lover only. #

Cheers.
Cheers.

With your mango.
I know. Let your man go.

Let your man go!
Let your man go.

Healthy queen.
Is it healthy, though, really?

Come on.
Well, mango's a fruit.

Mango might be a fruit,
but what about all the cream on top?

Well, balance, innit?
Health is wealth and all that jazz.

Oh, lovely.
HE LAUGHS

How have you been, though?
I'm all right. Are you?

Yeah, I'm good. So, how was padel?

Oh, padel was fun.
How lovely is Will?

Really nice man.
Flirting?

Erm... I would say yeah, like,
surface-level flirting.

This is so cute!

Look, Fred,
it might not be anything.

Do you know what I mean?
So what if it ain't?

I'm not going into this thinking,
"Oh, my God, I really want a fella."

No. I'm going into this because one,
it's something that's exciting

and it's new.
Yeah.

Two, it's getting me
back into the swing of dating,

cos I feel like I've lost my way
a little bit.

I don't really know where to start.

And three,
I could just make a mate out of it.

I think that's a good idea.

I just wanna go out
and get back into the swing

of, like, being around male company.

Do you know what I mean?
Yeah, and having a laugh.

Having a laugh.

But how do you actually feel
about the whole situation

with you and Dan?

Erm... I don't really think
there's anything to say.

I know what you mean, cos I feel
like what is done is done.

But it still doesn't mean
that you're not...

..left feeling a certain way.
Yeah.

And if I am gonna be
completely honest,

and this might be a little bit
heartless and a little bit cold,

and I don't mean it to be at all,

if I could turn back time, I wish
I coulda left it as a fling in Bali.

Really?

Mm. Because there'd always still
be a friendship there now.

Listen, regardless, you and Dan
did care about each other,

and there was a lot of love there,
right?

Yeah.

So to have someone in your life
like that,

and then for it to just be removed,
I would be hurt.

I know you don't wanna get back
with Dan, I know that for a fact.

Yeah. This ain't about you wanting
to get back with Dan,

or rekindle with Dan,
it's not about that.

But you're still a human being,
and you still are allowed to feel...

hurt by things,
do you know what I mean?

Yeah, like, I still have a level
of care for him.

Yeah, of course.

Like, I wouldn't say I have...
love for him because I don't. No.

I would say I have love for him
as a person

that I would never want
to see get hurt. Mm-hm.

And that's the most
frustrating thing about it all,

is that I had this perfect
little image in my head

of what I thought
it might have been,

and what we could have made
together.

But he's just not built like that.

But it is what it is,
and he's moving on, I'm moving on,

and it's just one of them things.

Like, if there's supposed to be
a friendship there,

then it will happen in time.

If not, then it can stay
where it is.

# I'm not an easy lover. #

# The only way is up. #

# My Euro, Euro, Euro Country... #

All right, Saff?
Darling.

You OK?
Yeah.

Good to see you.
What would you like to drink?

Little pub date.
Little pub date. Why not?

# Country

# The present is past... #

Mum!
Terry, we're here.

Bet she's in the garden.
Oh.

THEY CHUCKLE
She's always there.

Oh, hello.
Oh, hello. Hey!

You OK?
Yeah. You? Mwah.

You look so nice.
Oh, thank you.

Very summery.
Not mumsy.

She'll kill me if I say that.
THEY LAUGH

# My Euro... #

You have to pot that.
I will.

Go on, I'll get the beers.
That's going in.

Wow.

Here you are, mate.
Perfect.

Thank you very much, sir. Cheers.
Cheers.

Right. That was for beers.

Next game,
let's play for something else.

I'm thinking maybe,

when it does, the time arrives
and the time comes about,

who moves out the house.

LAUGHTER

No.
Who moves out the house, me or you?

Who's done most of the work
to the house? Me.

Who's supplied all the stuff for it?

You think I'm gonna go and paint
another fence? Nah, ain't happening.

I'm not saying yet, anyway.
I don't wanna move out yet.

Listen, I said,
she missed her chance.

She wanted to do it straightaway.

She broke up with me at Christmas,
we was all over,

and then this is where we're at,
so she can't complain.

You need to trial living together
as three people, instead of...

Like, it's great that you want kids
and get married.

I get all of that, completely.

You're the happiest
you've ever been,

I can tell you're strong,
you should be looking to do that.

But also, you don't know...

Your problem when you split up,
you didn't wanna move to Essex,

you didn't know what
the living situation was gonna be.

You've never really got over that.
I agree with what you're saying.

Basically, when we went safari,

the mums give us the same advice
that you've been giving us,

and saying, "Look, before you start
talking about babies and marriage

"and everything,
slow it down a little bit.

"Like, not everything,
but slow down what you're doing."

Am I breaking, yeah?
Go on, you break.

Cheers.

She knows I wanna move in with her,
she knows I want kids.

But it's just she wants to work
on a faster timeline a little bit,

and I wanna work on
a slower timeline a little bit.

Yeah, but also...
she's a lot younger than you.

I feel like you need to be the one,
out of the two of you,

to go, "Look, I get it,
I want all these things,

"same as you do,
but also, the way things have gone,

"we've gotta work
to a timeline of..."

I know, but you say this now to me,

and then
when I start talking to her,

then I get all excited about that.

You fold about it, and say to her,
"Yeah, let's just do it."

I do need to take control of it
a little bit.

And also,
not being unrealistic with it.

I need to just say, like,

"It's gonna take a little bit longer
for us to adjust."

Also, it's not like
you've been waiting years.

You've literally just
got back together this year. I know.

A few months ago.
Yeah.

So it's not like you're doing
anything unreasonable.

You're just doing the right thing,
and taking it slow,

and being sure about it.
Yeah.

The last thing you want
is for her to move up here,

move Bear up here,
find Bear a school up here,

and then youse live together
for six months

and realise that, do you know what,
it doesn't work for whatever reason.

Yeah. It might not,
but if that does, then what happens?

He's just starting school,
Bear, yeah,

so not a good time
to do this right now.

Can't pull him out after he's been
in school for four weeks, and go,

"Right,
you're coming down to Essex."

It's not gonna happen, so we have
to think about this properly.

Probably a better time to look at it

will be at the end
of that year of school,

I would say,
if we're gonna look at it properly.

The end of the whole year of school,
which will be next September...

I would say.

Pfft!

Just quickly, yeah,
before you say one word,

I'm gonna do a trick shot here.
You ready?

DIAGS CHUCKLES,
CLAPS

Fucking brilliant, that was.
Huh?

LAUGHING: That was sick!
That was so sick!

Anyway...

Right, so, all right,
you get to keep your fences.

And the house?
And the house.

It's not till next year anyway,
so don't have to worry about it.

Right, listen, let's just cross
that bridge when it comes to it.

Yeah. Exactly.
Might all be over before then.

Probably not.
You never know.

Cheers.
A year's a long time.

It is.

# All I want is you and me time

# Drink you down
Down to the drop... #

Congratulations on
your first year anniversary. Cheers.

I know. We made it.
LAUGHTER

We did a year.
I think we could do a hundred now.

That's nice. It is nice.
Let's hope, eh?

So, come on, then,
tell me all about what's gone on.

Well, I surprised you, so...

So, it was, like, a little...
How can I describe it?

Like, log cabin-y,
everything's made out of wood.

It was really cute, actually.

A little treehouse
in, like, the garden,

sauna in the garden.

Jacuzzi.
Jacuzzi.

It was really, really romantic,
actually.

I walked in, there was a big
love heart on the bed of petals.

It was cute. I think that you should
tell Rod all about that, actually.

Why?
Well, he might take me.

LAUGHTER

Actually, there's a package for you.

What? A package?
Package.

I haven't ordered nothing.

Well...
What?

Let me see.

There you go.
I brought some scissors.

It looks pretty...

What the hell is that?

..pretty taped together.

I'm scared to open it.

What is it?
I don't know.

I don't know,
and I promise I don't...

It's not money inside.
Money?

Aw.

"For the attention of Joe
and Junaid."

Aw, that is so cute.
That is so cute!

Oh, my God, someone loves me!
And me.

It come to my house, though.
Oh, it's going everywhere.

"This wouldn't have happened
if it wasn't for you. Enjoy."

What have we done?
What?

Ugh! What the fuck?!
Oh, what?

Oh, my God.
Doesn't it say who it's from?

It's from fucking Harry.

It's from Harry? Does it say Harry?

It's got his name on the front
of it.

Oh, that's nice.
Is it nice?

Course it's nice.
It says "Cry Proof".

Oh.

There's obviously a hidden message
behind. Show me the box.

At least it's not nothing nasty.

Well, no,
but what is the need as well?

Like, Cry Proof powder?

I actually thought
it was gonna be something nice.

That is weird, though.

What is the purpose of doing that?
He's a fucking idiot.

Well, look, it's not...
Do you know what, this is the thing.

Me and Junaid, the other day,
we walked past him,

and we was nothing but nice to him,

we wished him well
on his journey in life.

Junaid was even saying
that he's feeling bad

about how it all went down.

And you was actually starting
to think about going to talk to him,

and maybe being, like...

What has happened,
he does feel bad about it,

he wanted to attempt
to apologise again.

I think on the basis
of what's just happened, let him...

Leave him, let him crack on.

I'm gonna let youse talk about this.

You're not talking about it?
No.

Fucking little weirdo.

Always comes in between our
relationship, it's what he wants.

Sad, really.
Who does that?

I haven't been with you for a year!

What are you doing? Why are you
sending things to my house?

I just don't know what to say.

Do you know, what it is,

him sending me
that product hasn't...

That's not why I'm fuming
at this moment in time.

I've got the hump because Junaid...

Junaid wears his heart
on his sleeve,

that's just how he is,
he's never gonna be different.

And I know Junaid
like the back of my hand,

he's gonna be absolutely fine
in an hour.

But he just gets the hump,
and he runs away.

And that's just how he processes it.
He's hurt, isn't he?

But that's why I'm even more hurt,

because you've pissed off
my boyfriend.

And I'm not gonna stand for it, Mum.

Where do you think Junaid's gone?

He's just texted me,
saying he's gone home.

I do get why he's annoyed.

This is the thing,
Junaid wanted to talk to him,

but I know now
there is no way on this Earth

he will go up to that boy
and give him another apology.

There is just no way
he's gonna do it.

# I'm thinking about you

# On repeat

# I keep seeing you
Saying goodbye. #

There you are, Saff.
Take a seat. Let's have a little...

This is nice,
just like back in the day. Yeah.

I feel like I'm back to 25 again.

Local pub, little gossip.
Yeah, absolutely.

# On repeat. #

How's things been?
Oh, my God, I'm an auntie.

What, Sasha?
Yeah.

No way!
I'm an auntie.

No way! Cheers to that.
Yeah. Little girl.

That's unbelievable.
Oh, she's so cute, Jord.

She had a girl?
Yeah, she had a girl.

And she's so cute.
Is she?

Yeah, I went to the hospital
the other day. No!

She's diddy.
Is Sasha all right?

Yeah.
That's unreal.

They're getting into the swing
of it now.

We've got Becks's charity event
coming up. So, that's for epilepsy?

That's for epilepsy, yeah.
I think it means a lot to them.

Liv got quite upset, talking about
what Becks has been through

when they was younger.
Aw, really?

This is obviously a great cause
for everyone.

Yeah, cos I don't think
loads of people know. No.

But we need to raise money for it.

I've got some ideas. Hear me out.
Go on.

Raffle's always a good one.
Either raffle or auction.

I think we can raffle a few prizes
that are, like, get your tickets,

we could do Dan's hair product,
we can do Harry's make-up.

We can do everything like that.
Then... I've got a brilliant idea.

What? You know I had
the argument with Chloe?

Yeah. Not the hat.
Yeah.

LAUGHING: The hat!
You was looking from the balcony,

and you said, "I seen this hat round
the pool." This big... No!

Yeah, people will want...
That'll earn money.

You gonna put it in the raffle?
Course I am.

Do you think Chloe will bid for it?
Yeah.

She could put hers in and all,
cos she had a little basket hat on.

So we'll auction the hat.

Hello.

Hello.
Hello.

You all right? Hello, mister.
You look nice.

Hello.
You all right?

You all right?
You good?

Yeah.
Mwah. You all right, Ame?

Not bad, not bad.
Love the denim.

Do you like it?
Yeah, it's a look.

Double denim day, yeah?
You all right, Saff?

Come in, take a seat.
You all right?

You good?
OK. Right...

You look a girl on a mission,
Miss Childs.

Yeah, I am on a mission.
What's that, then?

Well...
You've gone quiet.

What's going on here?
Right...

Listen, me and Ame
had a conversation yesterday

when we was round at Amy's,
with all the kids having a party.

And I think... We both think
youse two really need...

I know you tried before,
and it didn't really go,

but some time has passed now,

we think youse two need
a conversation, just youse two.

Sorry to throw youse all at it,

but I didn't think
there was any other way.

Listen, it's sad for all of us,
because we are all so close. Yeah.

You know, and it upsets me,
because... you know, we...

I love you, I love you,
do you know what I mean?

It's all just trying.

But I do think you need to sort
of say like how you both feel.

I think you've got to put
it all on the table,

because otherwise,
it's not gonna get anywhere. No.

Yeah.
But hear each other,

and we're over there
if anything goes wrong.

And no arguing.
Right, a plan in place.

Listen, I don't argue,
that's the thing. Right.

HE SIGHS
Well, that was a...

Yeah.
..crafty little idea from them.

It worries me
they're gonna fall out again.

If they do, then it's game over.

But they're like brother
and sister.

They have tiffs, everybody does.

I said to the girls the other day,
I felt a bit like...

It's just so...

It's just been so awkward,
because when I see you at...

Courtfest.

..at Courtney's,
that was so weird for me, Saff.

Cos, like, I was saying
to the girls,

like, naturally, I felt myself
kept gravitating towards you. Yeah.

And it was like
I was gonna go and talk,

and, like, nothing had happened.

Then I've had to take a step back
and go,

"Oh, shit, we ain't talking,
this ain't normal." Yeah.

I feel like you're upset,
because you thought, probably,

I was gonna help a situation
for you.

Yeah.
I was gonna make a situation fair,

and both-sided, but I've not,
and I've took one side. Yeah.

That, I understand, but...

That's what's gutted me, though, H,

because out of everyone,
I've backed you to the ground.

These girls that you're
knocking about with, right,

lovely group of friends for you.

That day when you come in the caff,

and I've said this to people,
so I'll say it to you,

you come in like Amber Turner
with short back and sides,

and I didn't recognise you.

You're not the first person
to say it. It threw me.

You're your own person,
and that's what upset me,

because I thought to myself,
it's such a shame,

because you don't need
to follow suit.

The one time I've said to you
about an opinion,

and you didn't like it,
but this is what's happened.

No, H.

This is what's happened.
It's the quality of the friendship.

You're not bringing me
what I like in a friendship,

and I'm not bringing you
what you like.

That is one situation.

You've gotta remember
how much he's been hurt.

And this is his chance to maybe...

He's finding himself a bit,

and thinking, "I'm not having
people walk over me again."

Listen, relationships end,
but so does friendships.

Sometimes, just... they drift.

I don't want you to get upset, H.

I really don't, cos I do love you.

I know you've been through a lot,

so I know that hurt people
do hurt people.

Like, I know, deep down,
you've got love for me.

Deep down, I've got love for you.
Of course I have.

Listen, I wouldn't be having
a conversation now with you

if I didn't care about you.

No, I know, and likewise.

But I...
We're coming at loggerheads.

How many months
has this gone on for?

Like, do you see a way forward?

Because I...
I don't know what I see here.

I've been trying
to move this forward.

There comes a point
when two people sometimes

just have to say, "Let's have
a break from this for a minute."

Look, bottom line is,
yes, we've had a lot of history,

but I also don't wanna be
in this position again,

where we're going...

we're round another table,
discussing our friendship.

Cos we're better than that,
and we are 30 years of age.

Mm-hm.
You know, it's silly.

I do think
we're both in this situation

cos of things
that have happened over time,

and it's just frustrating
that we've got to this point

and, potentially,
gonna chuck 15 years of friendship.

I don't personally want that.

Going forward, we just need
to put all this to bed.

And hopefully, Harry, we can build
on something again in the fu...

Time will tell.
We'll see.

Right, well, I'm gonna make a move.

SIGHS
All right.

See you later, H.
See you. Bye.

# You don't mean it

# It's mean
When you don't mean it. #

Pull your trousers down!
Pull your trousers down!

CHEERING
Wahey!

We went through so much together,
that's what hurts me more.

Youse know how much me and Soph
want what we want.

You gotta be strong. I love you.
It's scary, man.

Ella wants to go out again with him.

I don't find it funny,
you're still doing it.

It's a joke.

What's your problem?
I've gotta get out.

I'm not ready to meet anyone else.

I'm still hurt that it never worked.

# The only, only, only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now. #

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