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# The only, the only, the only
The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now
Ooh, ooh-ooh. #

# Why can't it always be like this?

# Why can't we just stay here
Forever, forever? #

I think I'm two different colours
on two different arms. See?

This one's like more of an orange
and that one's more of a red.

Oh, yeah.
That one's more pinky.

That's a browny brown,
the other one's golden.

How have you managed that?
I don't really know!

# Why can't it always be like this?

# Why can't we just stay
In the moment

# Together?

# Why can't it always be
Like this? #

Whoa!

Quick, catch it! Catch it!

Yeah-heh-heh! Woo!

James wants to be the wicket keeper,

because he doesn't wanna run
any more.

Oh! He's off.

Get him, Jordan!
Yay!

Don't hit it backwards.

Wow!
Boys! Boys! Boys!

I think that's a home run.

Why is no-one running for it?!

Well done.

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

Wait here.

# Why can't it always be
Like this? #

How was the wedding?
Oh, my God.

I had the best time.

It looked so good. It was the
most magical thing in the world.

Imagine when one of us get married.
I'm definitely not getting married,

but... I always say to Elma,
she's gonna get to 90,

she'll be like,
"I'm ready to get married."

How are you, though?
Have you spoke to Sammy?

Do you know what, all I wanted was
for me to have a friendship with him

where we can at least speak
to each other and it's not awkward.

And I feel like
we've finally got there. Mm.

We're getting messages,
back and forth, it's not awkward,

it feels like it's flowing.
If he messages, he messages,

if I message, I message,
or I don't and he doesn't.

It's just nice.

This is good.
Mm.

Sounds like you're both
on the same page. I think we are.

I see Freddie the other day.
Oh, how was that?

He buzzed my buzzer at my flat,

and there he was
with a little bag with two lasagnes.

Ah, no, that's hilarious!
Hilarious.

That is really funny.

It's nice, he come in,
broke the ice. Yeah.

He said sorry,
and I did appreciate it,

and I do think he was being genuine.
Mm.

You both handled that
as well as it could have been,

considering how bad
it was in Portugal.

That last night when we were
together on the terrace,

that got so messy, it was awful.
Shambles.

It was messy, wasn't it?
It was messy.

The annoying thing about all of this

is that it stemmed from
Freddie having a problem with me,

me having a problem with Freddie,

and now it's Saffron and Chloe
that have got a problem.

And now by the sounds of it as well,
the other day,

me and Saffron
have now got a problem,

and I'm like this all stems...

Why, what's happened between you
and Saffron?

SIGHS

So, me and Saffron had
a conversation away from everyone

when we was in Portugal,
and she just said some things

that I just didn't really agree with
and like.

Like what, or you don't...?
She said, "This is who I am,

"and if people don't like it,
then they should leave."

And then after that proceeded
to then go...

"Was she crying?

"Was she crying?" about Chloe.

I thought, "Why do you
keep asking me is she crying?

"Did you want her to cry?"
Like, was that the goal?

I just said to her, literally,
I said...

"I didn't like it
when you said that."

Have you spoke to her?
Yeah, so obviously for me,

I'm friends with both Chloe
and with Saffron, and I can see

where both parties are coming from,
I get it completely.

It just feels like probably everyone
now has turned their back on her,

and I don't want it to seem that
it's everyone all at once.

The problem is with us, and I think
this is why we get the name we get

which is mean girls,
pack of wolves, whatever,

was when you go at one,
it's a domino effect.

You're at all of us.
Mm.

It's a sisterhood, we're sisters,
that's just what it is.

No, I get that fully.
And I really like Saffron,

I really do, I've had really deep
conversations with her,

and it's just put me
in an awkward situation,

cos obviously, if you didn't know,
it's my birthday this week.

Woohoo!
Obviously invited Saffron.

I've got my nearest
and dearest people coming.

Like, it's not the event
where people having arguments,

people feeling awkward.

So, what's your thought process?

I feel like something is telling me,
like,

Saffron needs to sit this one out,

but I do wanna say it to her
face to face.

Maybe you should do that,

and I think maybe
she would appreciate that

and then I think that way, I think,
is better than sending a message.

# Maybe it's the end of the world
But whatever

# We can just forget the pressure

# So what if it's not forever?

# I'll be staying light
Like a kite, like a feather

# Maybe it's the end of the world
But whatever. #

Rounders!
I am sweating.

SIGHS
Yeah, it's warm.

That was a good game.
Well done, gang, well done, gang.

That was serious rounders.

I've never played rounders
since I was like in school.

I think I'm pretty good at rounders.
Beg to differ!

Oliver, what's this?
A tennis ball. That's it.

Oh, that's better. That's better.
Throw it for him.

Throw it for him. Throw it, throw.
Throw it.

Never comes back. What a game, man!

I haven't played rounders
since I was at school.

Since I was five.
Well, a couple of years ago, then!

Yeah.
Ha-ha!

It's often a game grown men play.

What's been going on, guys?
Updates. Updates.

How was Bear and Diags?
It was good.

They're literally,
aren't they so cute?

Even you were saying.
Yeah.

I was saying like see with Diags,

the only Diags I know is jokey,
stupid Diags.

Yeah, yeah.
But actually seeing him around Bear,

I was like do you know what? He's
actually, he's a very good figure,

do you know what I mean?
He is. He's so good.

I feel like we're a family now.

Yeah, exactly.
I feel like I have that family,

and it, like it's just,
everything's worked out perfectly.

Aww. It's lovely. Sammy?
Love to hear it, Jodes.

How's you?

It's all territory
I've never really been in before,

and I wanna navigate it
in the right way,

but I don't really know
what the right way is.

And I don't wanna upset Elma, but
I also need to look after myself.

I wanna be friends with her.
I'll always want her in my life,

but it's so difficult right now.
I feel like you can be friends,

but I feel like the best thing to do

is let this situation
kind of fizzle out

and not make it a thing
where you have to talk

and make everything really deep

because the relationship has ended.
I know.

You have ended on pretty good terms

where you can talk to each other
if you see each other.

Elma is an amazing,
gorgeous, lovely person.

I don't think
she's gonna be extremely hurt

by you not messaging,
she'll understand. Yeah, no, I know.

So I think as much
as it's gonna hurt

and as much as she wants you
to be friends,

there's just gotta be a little bit
more time for you to heal. Yeah.

I think if you see her again -
you probably will -

I think you just need to talk to her
and like not avoid her,

and be friendly or even just say hi
and give her a hug,

a kiss on the cheek, whatever.

But then you've gotta just sorta
leave it at that and...

Yeah, I know. It's just difficult.

I know it is, and I know and...
That's why I'd rather just like...

Any relationship
I've had in the past is like,

I've completely cut it,
and that's what I like to do.

But a lot of lads do that, and it
is weird. That's what's difficult.

You can be friends with your ex.
You can, course you can.

Things do get easier,
and time is a massive healer.

Yeah. But I think, you know,
it's easy to get in your own head,

but you need to just try
and talk to whoever you can.

We're always here for, you know,
you can talk. I appreciate that.

So I think there's gonna be a day
where you will be friends,

but for now, it's just baby steps
to getting there.

I'll be cool. You'll get there.
You will get there.

# I know

# If not now, it's soon

# And whatever is right for you

# Will guide you through

# Cos if not now, it's soon

# Whatever is right for you. #

The last time we was here,
we was packing up your stuff,

and now you're back here.
I'm back here to see the dogs.

I needed some, I need some R&R and
just a bit of company with the dogs.

Yeah. Do you know what?
I'm... I'm gutted about Harry.

Mm.
Why has he got so involved?

Like, you're not involved, you're
not involved, Elma's not involved.

I think he's acting in anger,

and he's probably listened
to the girls quite a bit,

but I think he's gotta remember

you and him go back a long way.
Way before.

But as it stands, I don't need
people like that around me.

Listen, regardless whether
people are in the wrong or right,

you will always support
what's right, Saff.

I think too many people
are saying too many things now.

I mean, listen, the 30th,

I've not heard, not heard a word.
It would be a shame...

You was originally invited, though,
wasn't you?

Yeah, yeah.
I've always been invited,

cos obviously
there was a friendship there.

As this stands,
I don't wanna go to a party

where I've got a group of girls that
are talking to me and atmosphere,

it's her 30th.
Yeah.

But actually, whilst you're saying
that, I've got a card for her,

so I'm gonna give it
to one of youse.

Oh, really? Oh, Saff.
Just in case.

You're, honestly what...
Aw, don't.

I know, I'm gonna cry.

Saff, you are...
Yeah, but...

..a good fucking person,
you know that.

I haven't fell out with Courtney,

so I'd still get her a card,
do you know what I mean? Mm.

She might dislike me for something
with her best mate.

That makes us upset. I feel sorry
for you. Don't get upset.

I just think it's so nice.
I know, it is.

Because you don't deserve like loads
of people saying these things,

cos it's just not true.

I get like you might have an issue
with one person,

but it doesn't warrant then three
other people then having problems.

Too much.
And I weren't personal to her.

No, I know.
I was saying to her, you were there.

I was saying to her while you were
there, Sophie,

"You're a nice girl, Chloe."
I know.

Yeah, and you've got...
But this is what I said to Chloe,

Saffron has always spoke
really highly about all you girls,

hence why I speak to them girls now.
It is what it is.

Yeah. I can't beg a friend,
you get what I mean?

No, absolutely not, yeah.
Yeah.

It's been made quite clear to me
that that's the situation,

but obviously
it ain't nice that every...

KNOCK AT DOOR
What's that now?

Oh, the door?
It's the door.

BARKING

Stay there.

Oh, hello.
Hi. You OK?

Who's that?

You all right, Court?
Yeah, I'm OK. How are you?

Yeah, I'm all right.

# And I don't wanna speak

# So I carry the grief
It repeats. #

# The only way is up! #

# Damn, here we go

# Ticking time bomb going off

# Bang-bang, critical... #

You all right, Court?
Yeah, I'm OK. How are you?

Yeah, I'm all right.

# Merry-go, merry-go. #

What's she come down for,
to invite her to the party?

I-I just...
I haven't wanted to do this,

cos I just feel like...

if I had it my way, I'd want you...

I'd want it all to be fine,

but like obviously you know
my birthday's coming up. Yeah.

And like the whole thing
with you and Chloe,

like, it's just,
I just wish it never happened.

Yeah, I do as well.
It's, pfft, Court, what can I say?

I know.

If I was being selfish, I'd be
like, "I want Saff to still come."

Like, I want the girls to be there,

but like if I'm being logical,

I don't want you to come
and feel awkward,

and I don't want Chloe
to feel awkward as well.

Have you come to tell me
I'm uninvited?

I'm not saying uninvited,
but I just don't want you to turn up

and feel awkward around the girls,

cos where you've not spoken
to Chloe, to Amber,

you're not really talking to Harry.
Listen...

WHISPERS: She's uninviting her.

No, she should be invited.

But with you, I just think,

what, now I don't have a friendship
with four of youse?

No, I don't want you to take this

as me and you aren't gonna have
a friendship again,

cos that's not the case at all,
like I do have a...

I do have a place for you
in my heart,

and I'm not not gonna
ever speak to you ever again.

I just think, just for my birthday
and this situation,

I just think
we need to just leave it.

Yeah.
Like I just think leave this one out

and then hopefully you and Chloe
can have a conversation after

and just like, I dunno, try and get
to some sort of... Clear the air.

Because all it is
is like a miscommunication.

Yeah.
Like, Chloe loves you.

She loves you as a person.

She was just taken aback
by the way how she was spoken to.

I thought the friendship...
had more respect than that.

Whether she's done with
the friendship, at least tell me.

It feels bitchy, because, listen,
it don't get me -

I don't get upset over no reason.
I've been in tears.

I care about Chloe,
I care about you,

and that is the bottom line to it.

This is where I think they go wrong.

Courtney should be inviting her
and pushing 'em together.

Break the silence.

Rather than going,
"You're not coming."

It makes it worse. She's been
sitting here getting upset for days,

now the knock on the door saying,
"You're not coming to my party."

I don't like that.

Whilst you're there, one sec.

Are you OK?
Better person than me.

I give it to the girls to give you.
Ah, Saff, thank you so much.

That's all right.
Well, have a lovely day anyway.

Thank you. Can I have a hug?
Yeah.

I hope it all gets sorted out.

I really don't want this.
I don't want this at all.

I don't, but obviously,
until I talk to Chloe,

it's sort of getting worse.
Yeah.

Well, I hope it all sorts out.
Yeah. Have a lovely birthday anyway.

Thank you. Bye, Saff.
30 ain't as bad as you think.

Well, that's that.
So, what the hell was going on?

Did you hear it?
Well, a little bit.

The gist of it.
It was Courtney.

Courtney's obviously come here
trying to do the right thing,

and I get that, but I feel like it's
only prolonging the whole situation.

Situation. And making it worse,
making more of a divide.

Do you know what it is for me,
is if it had been my big birthday

or a normal birthday,

and I uninvited her,
I'd mean business.

Yeah.
Mm.

So keep me out your mouths now,
because it's getting tiring.

# Come to the party
Tell me you're sorry

# Tell me you want me
That would be lovely

# Come to the party. #

I'm in. Watch my toes.

LAUGHS

BUZZING

You see old geezers in their gardens
and think, cor, that must be easy.

No. I respect their green fingers,
cos that was tough.

# Come to the party
Tell me you're sorry #

KNOCKING

Hello?
Come round the side.

Hey, calm. Open the gate.

Shh, Calm down.
What's happening?

Oh, it's Sammy. Ooh.

You all right?

That calm, that calm, that calm.

Be calm with him.
What's happening, bruv?

Hello, Oliver.
Nothing but respect.

Sit down.

DOG WHIMPERS,
SAMMY WHIMPERS

Ahh. Just takes time
to get used to new people.

It's like you two, innit,
at first, like.

Everyone was trying to beat me up
cos I spoke to Ella,

and now he's got his head on my lap.
Now look at us.

Now we're boys.
We're gonna have a good times.

We're gonna go
to Courtney's birthday party.

I don't know
if I'm gonna be on the list.

I don't think I'll be on the list
somehow.

I've got an invite.
Well, obviously.

Oh, you've had an invite already?
Yeah. Court-fest, baby.

Yeah, you've always got on fine.
PHONE CHIMES

Court-fest. What?
Freddie.

"Hey, assuming you're not invited

"or going to Courtney's birthday
party,

"I'm inviting you to the NFI,

"not frickin' invited, party.

"Love to see you there. Freddie."

Hm. Unlucky.

LAUGHTER

I... I really wanna go to that,
to be honest.

Shall I get you invited
to Courtney's? Shall I ring her up?

To be fair, I don't really know
what one's better.

PHONE CHIMES

Oh, no.

LAUGHTER

Let me guess.
You're on the list, mate!

Let me guess. NFI party, bitch!
Oh!

# If it's love that you want

# I'll give my everything

# And have I made
The right assumptions?

# Do you feel the same? #

Oh, here's our little...

Hello.
..birthday princess.

I'm sorry.
Thank you for ordering my pasta.

Your pasta's just
this second sat there. Mm, God.

What's wrong?

Oh, I just went to see Saffron
this morning.

Mm.

Obviously I went to her door,
and I was just standing at her door.

And I just saw like
a lot of sadness in her eyes,

and we kind of spoke about your
conversation with her in Portugal.

And I feel like she's sad that she's
upset you, that's what she's saying.

So she's...
That's great.

She didn't want it to get like that,

because obviously when she's upset
you, knows it dominoes onto me

and it dominoes onto,
like, our group,

because obviously when someone feels
it in our group, we all feel it.

I think that's where we get
the mean girl name.

You upset one of us,
you upset all of us.

I think that's where we get
the whole mean girl name.

And then, yeah,
I feel like she took it all right.

I didn't wanna do it. I didn't.

In an ideal world, I'd have everyone
there and everyone be happy.

I didn't tell you to do that.
I know, I never said you did.

I did it cos I don't want you
to feel awkward,

I don't want her to feel awkward,
and I don't want my day to be...

Dominated by,
"Ooh, look, there they are."

Are they gonna have a conversation?

Are they gonna argue?
I don't want that at my birthday.

She'd be welcome to come

if the whole thing with Chloe
didn't happen. 100%, like, 100%.

It wouldn't have even been
a thought in my mind.

Yeah.

I did wanna let her know,
like, by me saying for her

to sit this one out doesn't mean
I'm never gonna speak to her again

or be friends with her again.
Did you say that, sit this one out?

Yeah, I said that to her, like,
I said... Just sit this one out.

What am I gonna say?
How do I word it?

You're uninvited.

No! You're even worse.

I'm joking!

I didn't want it to be mean.
It's not funny.

I don't know why I'm laughing.
I didn't want it to be mean.

"Sit this one out" sounds not great.
It's sore, like, it's sore.

What are we meant to do?

Like, the whole situation is sore,
do you know what I mean?

I've heard from multiple people now

that obviously she's really upset
and been crying,

and I wouldn't want her
to be in a situation

where she would feel, like, sad
or like in a position...

She's obviously going through it
at the moment,

so I wouldn't think that
she would want to come anyway,

but, I mean, "uninvited"
and "sit this one out"

are not the words that I would use.
No, listen...

What else are you gonna say?
What am I meant to say?

As long as you said
you were thinking of her.

I was, but that's the reason
why I've done it.

I would hate her
to walk into my party

and think, "Oh, Chloe, Amber,
Harry aren't speaking..."

Can I just say
that this just speaks volume

about how much of a nice person
you are,

because this girl has disrespected
you, she's been so nasty to you,

you're worried about how she feels
cos she's been uninvited.

And this is just an example,

because it's like you're being
portrayed to be this nasty person,

but even after everything, you're
still cautious of her feelings,

which I just think speaks volumes,
and she should know this.

Cautious of her feelings
cos she has been upset and stuff,

but also cautious that people do try
and run with the narrative

that we're mean girls,
and I just don't want...

Listen, we're getting called
mean girls

because we have each other's backs,

not because we're being horrible
to anyone.

That's the difference.

Yeah. But, listen,
it wasn't the best.

I didn't feel great about it,
but I've done it now,

and now I can just try
and enjoy my birthday

and have, like, good vibes then...
Try?

We're gonna enjoy your birthday,
honey.

We're gonna enjoy my birthday,

and I feel like it's not
gonna be a situation. Yeah.

# This ain't right

# Am I winning or am I losing?

# Twisted paradise. #

Oh, I'm glad you're smiling!

There you are, I am.

I know, it does matter.
It's all right, I don't mind.

Oh, little girlsy.

You all right?

Yeah.
Great.

Glad that we've come
for a bit of something.

Brunch?
Yeah.

How did you feel
after seeing Court?

Yeah, no, it weren't great.
It weren't great.

For me, it's all a bit -
it's got a bit out of hand,

and it's just looking a bit silly

from every angle at the minute.
I know. It's really escalated.

It really has.
I mean, Harry... wh-what?

Well, you might hate me,
but I have invited Harry to come.

For what? Just, cos I feel
like youse two need to speak.

He's got a few things
he wants to get off his chest.

I'm gonna let him do the talking,
I don't wanna speak on his behalf.

He doesn't wanna row,
just to put that out there. Mm.

He said he doesn't wanna argue
with you. No.

And I feel like there might be
a misunderstanding

that maybe things might have been
said and might not have been said,

but I think we just need to clear
it up, because it's getting...

It's messy.

It's messy, it's stupid,
it's ridiculous.

I just don't want us
to all have a row.

You all right?
Hello.

Hello.
You OK?

Yeah, good, thank you. You?
Yeah, good.

So glad you could make it.

Thanks for messaging.
That's all right.

SIGHS

I mean...
I ain't seen you or heard from you.

Yeah, I've not seen you
since Portugal. Yeah.

But obviously I know you've been
upset and there's a lot going on,

and that's the last thing
I wanna hear,

so that's why I wanted
to come and see you,

cos I don't wanna hear you're upset.

But I feel like enough's enough.

With what?

Just with the tone of the voice,
the way, it's the abruptness.

Oh, so you're coming to tell me
about myself, I didn't know this.

No, I'm not coming to tell you,
Saff.

I just want you to understand
that, I don't know,

I feel like I've been listening
to Chloe,

and I feel very protective
of Chloe... Yeah.

..cos she's obviously been upset
about a load of stuff. Yeah.

Harry, you've known me too long.

I am not a bad person.
I might deliver things wrong.

No-one's saying you're a bad person.
But you've just come in and said,

well, there's enough.
Harry, it's like...

No, but enough, because I feel
everyone's just getting a bit like,

you know, we have conversations
with you, Saffron,

and it's just so heavy all the time,
it's very...

Who has conversations with me?

You do, like.
Who?

Me, you done it to me
a couple of months ago. What?

Do you know what it is?
I've got to a point with you, Saff.

I'll let you talk.
I really have,

and I feel like you don't realise

the amount of people
I defend you in rooms,

you don't realise that, yeah.
Oh, really?

Bloody hell, what, three girls?
People say, "Oh, she's rude,

"she's this," and I've always
forever been going to people,

"Oh, that's just Saff,
you need to just get...

"Once you get to know her,
everything's great,

"that's just Saff, she's lovely."

But my opinions weren't bad for you

when I was sticking up for you
to Joe, Freddie,

they weren't bad then
when I was voicing 'em, being loud.

No, but this has got nothing to do
with Joe, Junaid and all that.

I appreciate...
But I've been a good friend to you.

And do you not think
I've been a good friend to you? No.

You don't think
I've been a good friend?

Because, Saffron...
Look at this shit.

Out of anyone,
you could have diffused this,

but you've added to it.
No.

Because I feel like I've had enough.
Do you know what I think it is?

I'm only trying to be your mate,
and I'm only trying to tell you

exactly how people are feeling.
I don't need a justification...

And if you can't listen to me...
..of my personality from you.

Listen, youse have got a friendship,
had a friendship 15 years.

Do you wanna throw away your
friendship? That is the bottom line.

I've honestly come here
to sort this out. Right.

But, Harry... I didn't come here
to be angry or start on you.

But you are angry.

Do you know what, H,
listen, I can take it,

but what I am saying is is that
please don't pull my character apart

and sit here and go
"enough's enough".

I'm fine.

I've had a hard time.

Don't get upset.

Don't get upset.
So...

I don't want us all to get upset.
Listen...

Please can we just stop doing this,
you're not leaving yet.

You're not leaving, cos we're not
finished. This is too much.

We're not finished.
Saffron, we've not finished.

No, it's too much.
Don't leave.

It's going on for too long
over fuck all.

Are youse listening to yourselves.
It's over fuck all.

Over a fucking cup of tea,
over Saffron's house.

That is stupid.
But this is too much.

We're not doing it.
I don't want you to be upset.

This - I love you.

Harry, I don't think you realise,

cos we're not around each other
as much how much I do defend you

and you will see that.
And I defend you.

Yes, I know, but what I'm saying...
I've defended you.

It's only since I've got home
and I've just got upset with you.

Course you have, and listen, you've
had a lot of people in your ear, H,

and I didn't get no joy
out of her being upset,

and I definitely ain't getting joy
out of this situation.

I know. Let me tell you this.
I really ain't.

# Mm-mm, we could be nice to

# Oh, to each other. #

# The only way is up! #

# Heartbreak survivor

# Feeling lighter
I'm sweeping myself... #

JORDAN: What shall we have?
I dunno. What do you fancy?

Right, what do we want?
Oh, is it on Jordan Brook?

It's on me. For one, one time only.

Prosecco for the queens.
Prosecco, prosecco, prosecco.

I'll have a prosecco...
It's OK.

Could I have four Proseccos, please?
Ooh!

Birthday girl's here!
ALL CHEERING

Courtney! Courtney! Courtney!

Shall we give her the bumps?
Yeah! Go on, then.

ALL TALK AT ONCE
No, my bum will be out!

Stunning girl!

Oh!

# Lovin' myself

# Myself, lovin' myself

# Lovin' myself

# Myself, lovin' myself

# Lovin' myself

# Look in the mirror. #

Oh, Daniel!
Hello, guys. Hello, Saff.

Hello.
All right.

I'm glad you come to the invite.
Always.

Hi, Sammy boy!
You good?

Yeah, you good?
You OK?

Good, yeah.

Boys, welcome to the party.

Can I ask you, Sam,
was you invited to Courtney's?

Nah.
Oh.

Sammy. Well, I wouldn't
have been here otherwise!

No, but I was uninvited, Sammy.

Oh, well, another one chilling.
Well, NFI!

What, is this the party?
This is the party!

Party!

Are you happy to be here?

Listen, a few tequilas down, you'll
have the best time of your life.

Did you get an invite?
As if I want an invite to theirs!

Why didn't I have that mentality?

Fuck 'em!
LAUGHS

NFI!

NFI.

It's actually good.

# Myself!

# Myself, oh-oh-oh-ohh

# Nobody can la-la-love me
Like I'm lovin' myself. #

Cheers to Courtney's 30th!

Cheers to Courtney
finally turning 30,

and we can make her feel old because
she's done it for us for years.

Honestly.
How old are you?

31, but still, she makes me know it.
Oh!

I know, Jodie's the baby
of the group. The baby!

When are you 30?
In four years.

Oh, blimey!

OK, let's touch base in four years,
see where we all are.

But 30 is like where it is at.
I'll be like 60 in four years.

If I'm not married with at least
one baby by then, I swear to God!

Elma sent a TikTok
into our group chat,

and it was like everyone in their
30s, if you've not been married,

congratulations,
you've avoided your first divorce.

I was like I've ticked
that check list.

Yeah, that's how I feel. I actually
feel quite happy about that.

Chlo, how are you feeling
with the Saff stuff and that?

I just feel like I don't need it.
We're too old.

We had that when we were like
early 20s, do you know what I mean?

So, Saff was invited to this,
but I felt like Courtney felt...

She's not uninvited her?

So basically, she went to Saffron's
house, and she basically said,"

"Look, I don't want anyone feeling
uncomfortable at my birthday,

"it's where my friends,
my family..."

Obviously, Chloe's her best friend,
and you don't wanna be wondering,

like, is it gonna kick off
at your birthday?

Is anyone gonna feel awkward?

You'd feel awkward if she was there,
she'd feel awkward if she was there,

especially she thinks that no-one
is her biggest fan at the moment.

Yeah.
Courtney was a bit like,

"I just think the best thing for you
to do is sit this one out."

I've heard that she's been upset,
and so I just wouldn't think

she would want to be
in this environment anyway.

Also, it doesn't come
from a place of malice.

No, it doesn't.
It comes from, if anything,

a place of thinking of her,
thinking of my feelings,

of everyone's feelings, basically!
It's just a shame.

Me and Saff, I know we're obviously
gonna have to see each other

and talk, but Courtney's birthday

is really not the place for us
to do that.

# I'm unstoppable

# You liking what you see?

# I'm unstoppable. #

# Happy birthday to you! #

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

Blow out your imaginary candles.

That's beautiful.
I'm not trusted with it.

I'm not trusted with fire!

Smile!

Aw, love that.

# I take it low
Nowhere I can't go. #

FAINT WHISTLE

She's 30!

CHEERING

Yeah, Courtney, it's your birthday!

Oh, my God!

Cheers!
To being dirty 30.

Happy 30th, Court.

When you turn 30,
life is so different,

because you're like,
you're still young,

but you're an adult,
so, like, it's adulthood.

That's what I'm struggling with.
I don't wanna be an adult.

No, I was gonna say that, yeah.
How you finding that?

My mum's like to me,

"Now you're turning 30, you can't
call me to book your appointments.

"I'm not coming to the doctors
with you."

Does she still do all your washing?
No, I do my washing.

I actually enjoy doing my washing.
Same.

But, like, I'm just gonna struggle
to have to be mature.

You look so well, though.
Like, you look so young.

Looking at you, you would think
you're like about 24.

I love that.
Are you enjoying it?

I actually... I actually got myself
into a mindset,

going into my 30s single,

being like, "I'm enjoying my life,"
like, "I'm having fun."

Yeah. I am having fun, and
I'm excited to meet new people,

and I'm excited to meet my future
husband. Course, get out there.

Just enjoy it.
Yeah.

How long are you celebrating
this 30th for?

All month, I'm gonna do.
Too right.

I did the same. I think where I've
got so much going on in my family,

and, like, in my life,

it's the one day that is
a bit of attention on me, like.

Yeah, of course.

And I'm always celebrating
friends getting married,

getting engaged, having babies.

I'm always celebrating
for other people,

and I feel like it's the one day of
the year that people celebrate me.

No, I get that, yeah.

Do you ever feel like sometimes
all you're doing

is keeping everybody happy
for the plans they're doing.

Always. I do that with friends
and relationships,

and that's why I stay in things
for longer than I should

because I've put their feelings
before mine.

Look, you've gotta enjoy your
birthday now, get in the head space.

I know it's been shit,
but you're only 30 once.

The next one'll be 40.
Oh, God.

So enjoy it.
You've got another ten years.

Smile.
Smile.

And don't stop smiling all day.
Yeah.

# This is for all my ladies
Who don't get hyped enough

# If you've been done wrong
Then this is your song

# So turn it up

# One time for all my ladies
You looking good as what

# So tell 'em bye-bye
Cos it's your time to turn it up. #

Big cheers to the NFI party.

Yeah, NFI party, whoo! Whoo-whoo!

Always wanted to go to an NFI party.
I've never been to an NFI party.

How do you feel
about Daniel being here?

Since being back from Portugal,

I've only actually briefly seen him,

so today is gonna be
the first time that we're gonna be

in the same location,
this close to each other.

Do you get butterflies, or is it
more of like - not an anxiety,

but is it an excitement,
is it a weird feeling? No.

I don't get that any more.
Is it like numb feeling?

It is like a feeling of, like,
"Oh, my God, he's there,"

like, do you know what I mean?
It's awkward.

I don't know where we're standing
with each other.

Yeah.

# I can't tell my soul
Another white lie. #

Who's actually at Courtney's party
today?

Everyone but us four.

And Saff and Dan and Sammy.

Like, I would love
to be a fly on the wall.

Oh, my God, don't get me wrong,

I'd love to be
in a little corner hearing...

I'd love to be a bee
and sting the bitches.

LAUGHTER

Freddie!
Oh, I dunno what happened there!

Well, let's cheers to NFI.

Yes.
Oh, Saffron!

CHEERING

I'm matching!

I've had a bad time of it, ain't I?
I know.

What's happened?
What's going on?

What is the update?
So I went breakfast with Elma,

but I get there, she went,
"I've asked Harry to come here."

Oh, great.
That put you right off your food.

For God's sake.
So in he walks.

Oh, do you know what? I'm so livid.

All I can say is that it was
Harry I didn't recognise.

It was Amber Turner
with a crop, back and sides.

LAUGHTER

No, it was. It was.

It was. I've had a terrible week!

I feel like Harry has a point
to prove to these girls.

I think he's in such aura
of being their mates.

Yes, that's what I said, Ells,
so I said listen,

I said, with relationships
and friendships,

you've always been a follower
and you don't wanna rock the boat.

Well, he starts crying then,
because it hit a nerve.

You've hit a nerve with it.
Yeah. And anyway, I left.

I couldn't - I've left.
So I've had a text on the way.

Go on. Saying what?
From who? Harry.

Oh, for God's sake.

Does he even know where
to leave off?

Do you wanna hear?
Yeah, read it, Saffy. Go on.

"Seeing you cry really upset me
because you never cry."

Well, I do, that's how well
you don't know me,

I've cried for a week.

"I just wanted you to understand

"that sometimes your approach
and words can hurt people,

"and last week, I was angry
at the way people was feeling."

So now he's become angry after
Portugal, that's what he's saying.

"My intention was to sort it out,
not make you feel worse.

"I honestly thought
we might have laughed at the end

"cos the roles have reversed

"and it was me giving you tough love
this time."

So it's gone
from me being an arsehole

and this nasty person, to now it's
just called "a bit of tough love"

that he now thinks he's giving me.

"Maybe let the dust settle,

"and let me know when you feel
like you're ready to talk

"and I'll pop round and see you,

"but you don't deserve
to be crying as that's not fair."

You've been upset for so long, Saff.
It's too late!

Little too late, darling!

But that's where
it doesn't make sense,

because he's saying
you don't deserve to be upset,

but he's actually the cause of this.
Of the upset, yeah.

And he could have been the one to
defuse it, and I said that to him.

The best person to, really.
Out of it,

he's known me the longest.

He has thrown fire to them witches
you would not believe.

It's bring me down ultimately.

Listen, you've cried too many tears
the last week.

We've all been worried about you.
Yeah, we have.

You don't need that, Saff,
you're a good person.

People love the death you.
Yeah.

So much,
that's why we're here today.

ALL CHANTING: NFI. NFI. NFI.

The mascots.
Yeah.

NFI!

# Is it worse or is it me?

# No, no, sky is falling

# Is there something I don't see?

# No, no, swear I'm watching. #

Mm, mwah. Happy birthday.
Thank you.

How old are you now, what, 23?

I'm 21 again.
You look 23.

# When I can't even go
When I can't even go. #

How is everything? What's going on,
cos this is carnage.

It's been - It's a lot.
I know.

It's been a lot, and...

..I dunno,
am I a little bit to blame?

H, I've been on the receiving end
of it from Saff, more than once,

do you know what I mean?

We all have,
and she has held her hands up

and has taken accountability
for what happened in Portugal

with Chloe.

Yes, I know Girlband
were there for you,

but she's your ride or die,
and I just wanna say that to you,

and she's struggling with it,

and I know you don't like seeing her
upset, do you know what I mean?

I don't like
seeing her upset at all.

Obviously, I've briefly had
conversations with Courtney today,

and even that situation,
I feel like Courtney...

It must have taken a lot
for Courtney to not invite Saffron.

Mm. Do you think honestly,
honest opinion,

if Amber was in Dubai, do you think
Saff would have still been here?

I don't think it's Amber's problem.

Do you not think this has all
been blown out of proportion? Yes.

100%?
100%.

Listen, things have been said,
people don't agree with everything.

Everybody makes mistakes, we all
make mistakes, I've made mistakes.

I'm sitting in pure daylight making
mistakes, know what I mean?

Yeah, we all do.
I make mistakes.

We all make mistakes,
say things we don't mean sometimes,

but how do we move this forward now?

Because what's happening is
it's getting messy. Yeah.

I've tried to see Saffron,
I've tried to see her

and try and make this go forward,

and all it seems to be doing
is going backwards. Yeah.

Listen, you've knocked some sense
into me

because we have been friends
for fucking years, the three of us.

All I'm saying is, listen,
I love Girlband,

I've known Girlband
for so, so many years, so many years

but you be Harry, yeah?

Saffron's your friend,
and Girlband should grant that,

whether they like it or not,
they can't stop you from doing that.

You need to be Harry here.

Saff needs you, we need to have
a get-together, a nice one,

and lift Saff back up,
cos she's low.

She would do it for you,
she would do if for me.

She'd do it for Soph,
do you know what I mean?

# Call me when you need me. #

# The only way is up! #

# I'm not at this party

# I'm back in your back seat

# You're pulling it over
You just had to have me

# I can't hear this music
Cos I'm hearing you yell... #

Who's that?
James.

Hello, my friend.
Yo.

What's wrong? No mates over there?

Mister Lonely!

Mate, get over here.
All right, I'm leaving now.

All right. I'll see you soon.
All right, bruv, sweet. Bye.

Come on, champion.

Ohh!

# ..just how bad you got me

# I'm not at this party... #

Let me walk out with you.

We gotta go now.

# I'm not at this party. #

Girlies.
Hi!

You OK?
Mwah.

Mm, mwah. You OK?
Yeah, are you?

My Dani. You OK?
You OK, bubs?

Courtney's just walked out.
You know that?

Why?
She's really upset.

No, don't say that. Is she
actually upset? I'm gonna text her.

I think she's just found out
that there was an NFI party.

I think she just found out
through social media,

people are posting balloons going,
"There's a big NFI party!"

and I feel she's,
like, a bit mugged off by it.

NFI? What is it, then?

"Not fucking invited", it means.

Honestly, I feel sorry for Court,

she's the loveliest girl,
she doesn't deserve this.

I reckon maybe they've not thought
about how that's gonna come across.

No, I think what it was,

Freddie probably made that party
trying to uplift... As a joke.

..uplift Saffron, cos I think
that was the concept of it,

but obviously
from Courtney's perspective,

when you've got people
like Jodie and Diags leaving,

naturally she's gonna get upset,
do you know what I mean?

Like, people are leaving her 30th
birthday party

to go to another party
that's not even a party.

It is a piss-take. It's a liberty.

Like, I don't want this
to be her memory of her 30th.

This all needs to stop now cos
this is what it's all coming to.

It's affected everyone.

It's gone like a shit show
is the word.

A proper shit show.
The whole thing's a shambles.

# And every road
Leads me back to this

# Every aisle I look down
Looking like a missing kid. #

Oh, hello.
Hello, guys.

Oh, look, it's Jodie and Diags!

Oi-oi!

What's happening, guys?
Hey, grab us, grab us some drinks.

This is a better party.

Welcome to the NFI party!

CHEERING

Don't ruin my balloons.

Left the 30th for here.
Must have been shit!

LAUGHTER

My guys.
What's happening, bruva?

What's happening?

My guys.
Exactly.

What was the theme, anyone know?
Saffron.

LAUGHTER

Guys, to being reunited.
Cheers!

What was it saying? Describe it.

It was all right. It was nice.
Yeah, it was a nice party.

It was nice.
Did they have balloons?

Why do you leave?
Cos he missed you!

Cos you missed me?

I don't believe that's the reason
that you left.

FAKE COUGHS
And you, obviously.

Oh, sorry, no, Dan, yeah.

Adios, friends.
Enjoy, girlie.

I'm just gonna go to my other mates.

See you.
See you.

Hi, friends.
Hey, Ell.

You OK?
What's happening?

Yeah. Hot.

It is.
It's so hot.

Feel like I'm in a greenhouse.
So, it's a good party, though?

Have you had a good time?
Yeah, lovely.

How you been Ell, good?
Yeah, fine.

Have you?
Yeah, can't complain.

Just I didn't get invited
to this not invited party,

but I thought I'd come down
and see my friends.

Whose party is it?

Freddie's.
Oh, Freddie's?

Yeah, Fred's for Saff.

Why for Saff? Oh, cos she's
not invited. She got uninvited.

What even happened,
what even happened?

No, I spoke to the girls, and I
don't think she was like uninvited,

I just think it was a better
solution for her not to go.

Yeah, Courtney went to the doorstep
and said she's not coming my party.

Yeah.
Oh, well that's...

But she wasn't ever...
That is uninviting.

Pretty uninvited. No, cos she
wasn't invited in the first place.

Was she not?

I don't think so.
She was.

Oh. OK.

I mean, you have to invite someone
to then be uninvited,

you know what I'm saying?
Or else it wouldn't work.

Mm, yeah.

Well, I spoke to the girls earlier,

and obviously Chloe's
still really upset

and I think she's made, like,
a few people there upset,

and probably she wouldn't wanna
be there either, right.

Mm, I think to invite someone
then uninvite someone,

I feel like it's quite mean.

And Saff isn't a bad person,

I think Saff's great, but I think
just sometimes her delivery

can come across like a little bit...
just not very nice,

and I think Chloe is quite quiet.

But they've known her for
a long time to know what she's like.

Which is why I think... Her
point is why is it an issue now,

cos it's never been an issue for the
15 years that we've been friends.

No, but I think it was just
a little bit unnecessary,

and I think that they didn't expect
Saff to go for her the way she did.

I feel like Chloe Meadows
needs to keep her mouth shut

and stop making comments
about people,

then it probably
wouldn't go that way.

This is why we have two parties,
guys. Shall we go say hello to Saff?

Yeah.
Come on then.

Right, in a bit, guys.
Later on.

See you, guys.
See you in a minute.

Just take this posh jacket with me.
Give her my love.

I will.

Unc'y Saff!

# Fame is a gun and I point it blind

# Crash and burn, girl
Baby, swallow it dry

# You've got a front row seat
And I

# I got a taste... #

Whoop-whoo! Whoo!
Brilliant.

# I got a taste
Of the glamorous life. #

I just feel a bit weird.
I feel, I just...

Oof!
This floor!

I keep getting whiplash
off this fucking decking.

I just feel, like, bad for Courts.
Like, she's obviously just...

She's so upset. I didn't realise
she was crying. She's really upset.

I didn't think that she'd take it
the way she has.

Courtney loves birthdays,
and she doesn't like animosity.

It's not in her nature. It isn't.
It's not.

And I feel like this has just
really just escalated into something

that it probably didn't need
to go as far as it did.

She was so upset going to Saffron's
and saying, like, sit this one out.

Which is awkward for her because
she didn't wanna not invite Saffron,

she didn't even wanna say,
"You're not invited,"

cos it comes across as her being
nasty, but I just think for like...

Cos of what's gone on, it probably
would make it easier for everyone,

but I feel like...
She's selfless, so selfless.

Yeah. I feel like she's just
now getting a bit of stick,

and obviously they're doing a party
that's like "the NFI party".

And it's like taking the piss
out of her birthday a little bit.

People are forgetting, Courtney
has had the worst year of her life.

She actually has,
so it's so out of order

that, like,
people aren't seeing that

and recognising that, and,
yeah, it might have been a joke.

It's made it 20 times worse

to a point
that we've got Courtney leaving.

Do you know what I mean?
That's the bottom line of it.

For me, it's not about Saff
any more, it's not about Chloe,

it's about Courtney.
Yeah.

Courtney's 30th birthday is fucked
because of everyone else,

and that's where it stands.

# I'm not your thing

# I'm not your baby doll

# No puppet on a string

# This bitch can't be controlled

# I'm not, I'm not
I'm not your thing

# Can't buy me at the store. #

NFI!
Ahh!

How's the pair of you?
How are you, more like, love?

No, I'm good. Dealing with it.

It's not ideal.
I still, like, think about her.

I miss her quite a bit, but I'm
not gonna sort of chase something

that's not... that I'm not getting
back from, do you know what I mean?

Yeah.
I'm just sorta dealing with it

and cracking on really,
doing my thing.

Single life's fun.

Is it?
Yeah, so-so.

You been enjoying it?

Have you?
No.

I was asking you.
I didn't say anything.

The question was on you, Ella.
Er, yeah.

Yeah?

Yeah. It is what it is, ain't it?

Yeah, no. Focus on yourself. You
ain't gotta think about no-one else.

Nah, exactly.
Mm.

That's it.

Yeah.
Oh, I'm gonna leave youse to it.

Really good mates.

Really good mates?
Mm.

That's the word of the day.

Even though it's three words.
See you later, mate.

Later on.

All right?
Yeah, are you?

Yeah. I'm all right.

Good as I can be, yeah.

Good job we're down
different ends of the room, 'ey?

Yeah.

I come over and said hello.

Mm. Had a spray tan?

Nah. Been away.

LAUGHS

You know I've been away.

Oh, God.

I don't really know
what you want me to say, like.

I dunno, I said are you all right?

You went, "You had a spray tan?"

Yeah, what's wrong with that?
I'm not being muggy.

I don't, like...

I don't know what to say,
to be honest.

Er...

I feel like we've spoke
about everything

about a million times, so...

Yeah.
There ain't really much to say.

I dunno, I just, I...

I spoke to you loads
about everything,

and I don't know what to say.

I ain't come over
to talk about the relationship,

it's dead in the water.

Yeah.
That's it.

Listen, we can either be friends,
or, like...

..or not.

I think we should be associates.

Cos is not really working,
the friends, is it?

Well, so far, no.
No.

So, shall we cheers
to being associates?

Yeah.

Cheers.
Cheers.

# It is what it is

# You call it traumatic

# But it is what it is

# It's just family matters. #

Soph, keep still!
Hello.

Just take what you want and leave!

I don't hear anything
about a wedding here.

Well, I would love a ring.
I think someone's calling my name.

It's done.
Wow, I love you.

I've got more of a problem
with Harry.

I don't want the friendship
any more.

Me, Fred and Joe, I don't think
we really care about Courtney.

I bet what they'll try and do,
they'll now be like, "Fuck you."

Aw, it's making me gag.

It's a year since my nan passed,

but I'm lucky
that I had such a bond.

The last thing I needed was
that whole NFI thing...

No-one's laughing at you.
..which I really struggled with.

# The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now

# The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now. #

# Ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ohh! #

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