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# The only, only, only
The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now
Ooh, ooh-ooh. #

# Hey, hi, hello. #

Are you done?

Mate, unpacked, the wash is done,
hung up, all back in the wardrobe.

This right now, that's
stressing me out, on the side, yeah.

Yeah, but I'm thinking,
do I even keep this?

cos I got a lot of stick for this.

I'd probably bin that.

Yeah, I might leave it
outside Harry Derbidge's.

THEY LAUGH

That hasn't been washed.

Mate, don't put it
all over the floor.

My mum's coming round soon.
She can help me.

She probably would help you.
Yeah, she probably would.

I'm looking forward
to some nice old grub.

Yeah, I've missed the food in Essex.
No, so have I.

Youse two can share
because I am about to order a feast.

I've lived on burgers for ten days.
I'll have another one.

I'm gonna go for a steak sandwich.

# Hey, hi, hello

# Cos I never wanted
To let you go. #

Cor, this is quite the hill
isn't it? I know.

Come on, get our steps up.
Getting our cardio in.

I need to burn off that wine
from Portugal.

Oh, God, that'll take me a year.
THEY LAUGH

I'm out of breath already!

# Cos I never wanted
To let you go. #

KNOCK AT DOOR

Ch-ch, ch-ch.

Mother!
Hiya.

All right?
How are you?

I'm good, thank you. You?

Yeah, not bad.
Good to see you. In you come.

Wen-dy!
Hiya.

How are you?
Wendy!

You good?
Ah, mwah.

I'm good, thank you. How are you?

Yeah, good.
It's a little bit of a mess,

cos we've been away for ten days,
but we're getting through it.

Yeah, sorry about the mess,
Dan's unpacking stuff.

Who do you think out of the two
people here is the messy person?

Sorry to say it, but...

All right, wow.
Listen, do you know what it is?

Clean life, clean body, clean mind.

I was gonna say clean mind, but...
My life is not that clean right now,

but...
I was gonna say!

On the surface, your life
is extremely clean. Yeah.

But delve underneath that surface
a little bit...

In there.
..up in here.

It's all a bit dark and dusty.
Yeah.

When you spend ten days on holiday
with two of your ex-girlfriends,

your head's...
Can't be that clean, can it?

I'm impressed
you haven't got more grey hairs.

I know. They're coming, trust me.

Right, I actually need
to go to work.

All right.
So...

I'll leave that, cos I'm in a rush.
Lovely seeing you.

Good seeing you, Wendy.

Mate, take that.
And you, darling.

Don't you wanna take this stuff,
before you go?

Glad everything's going well.
I'll sort it out when I get back.

Mate, just take it to your room.
I'll sort that out...

Dan, I'm in such a rush!
WENDY LAUGHS

Right, wanna go sit down, Mum?
Yeah.

See what I mean? Things like this.
Unnecessary, innit?

SHE LAUGHS

I know, Dan,
from when you were growing up,

how unnecessary it is,
you don't have to tell me.

Yeah, I dunno what happened, like...

I really don't know
what happened, but...

So, how was the trip?

It was, er... It was hard work.

Yeah?
Yeah.

Listen, I still had a good time,
but it weren't easy. Yeah.

Two ex-girlfriends
in the same hotel.

It was a big hotel, but there's
no hotel big enough to, to avoid...

Keep you that far apart!
..two exes, no.

Well, it shouldn't be too bad
with Amber now, I'm guessing?

No, look, Amber...
You know, it's been a while now.

Amber, we don't speak, we don't
even acknowledge each other,

so it's, like...
that's easier to deal with.

Yeah.
It's still awkward being around her.

And then obviously, you've got Ella,
who I still get on with,

still speak to,
which makes it even harder. Mm.

Because it's like
we haven't fallen out.

Yeah.
Still a lot of love there,

still care about her,
but it just wasn't working,

as a relationship, which makes it
harder to be around that person

and even harder for me
to not slip back into old routines

and go back in to something
that ultimately wasn't working.

No, well, if it's not right,
it's not right.

As you said, there's no point
in wasting time, sort of, you know,

carrying on with something
that ultimately is not gonna be,

you know, either of your
forever person. Yeah.

And you're missing out
finding that person.

It is a shame.
Yeah.

How we work things out now,
moving on, is another question.

Well, I mean, the advantage is,
when you're at home,

you're not surrounded by each other,
are you?

But when you're on...
you know, away somewhere like that,

it's full on, of that person
is around you all the time.

Yeah. Which makes it harder to deal
with those emotions.

But hopefully,
from her point of view as well,

that sort of being back
that, you know,

you're both sort of getting on
with your own lives

and sort of moving forward.
Yeah.

I've been in
a few long-term relationships now

where I've sat in it towards the end

knowing that that person
is not my person,

that it's not gonna go anywhere,
and I've stayed in things

when they've not always been right.
Mm.

I have to, as I'm getting older now,
sit there and think,

do you wanna waste time
in situations

that are not gonna serve you
long-term

or do you wanna explore
other connections, other options?

Because I need to be...
I wanna settle down.

I wanna find that person.
Mm.

If something's not right, I need
to recognise that straight away.

It seems as though
you're maturing in your outlook,

rather than just not falling back
into your old ways,

but I'm pleased it went well.

Yeah.
Or as well as things could, anyway.

So far, so good.
Well, I wouldn't say "good",

but so far, we're managing it!
SHE LAUGHS

We're managing it!

# I heard from the suburbs
That you wanna leave the pack

# Yeah, yeah! #

I've needed this.
Mm.

And I feel flat, like,

just from dealing
with all the drama out there,

I feel like
it has really drained me.

I'll be honest, I did feel flat.

I feel like
I've now got a new boost of energy.

But what about you,
how are you feeling?

I feel all right, to be honest.

What about Dan?
Have you spoke to him?

Erm...
Yeah.

Yeah, I've spoken to him.

Look, don't get me wrong -
yeah, I miss him,

but not being around him

has made me realise the reasons
as to why I'm not with him.

I think it's clearer now, the fact
that youse have gone to Portugal

for ten days
and nothing has actually happened,

I feel like youse have both probably
come back now with a clear mind.

If youse were kissing
and sleeping together,

that would have confused everything.

Oh, yeah, that would have made it
100 times worse.

And then obviously, when I spoke
to him, it was really emotional,

it was really sad, like,
because we get on so well,

but we're too alike for us
to actually work in a relationship.

And sometimes, having love
for someone isn't enough.

No, it's not.
Yeah, but that is OK,

and I feel like that is a good thing
to recognise that.

Like, at least it's not been bitter

and someone's cheated on someone
and it's gone left.

Yeah, it's gonna be, like,
a lot of emotions at the beginning,

but there's no reason why
youse can't gradually be friends,

or if youse are meant to be
in a few years' time or whatever,

you'll make your way
back to each other.

It's different now we're here.
The vibe was mental on that trip.

The vibe was... in-sane!
Fucking hell.

There was, like,
three separate groups on that trip.

So, there are a few people
that I am gonna apologise to,

Sophie being one of them,

because I shouldn't have shouted
at her the way I did. Mm.

Yeah.
And another person is Harry D.

Now, me and Harry have always had
a rocky relationship,

but there were some things
that I did say

that were probably
a little bit below the belt

and said out of frustration
and anger.

Like, I said
that he's obsessed with me.

I said that he still fancies me.
SHE CHUCKLES

Listen, I'm gonna be the mature one,
hold out that olive branch...

SHE GIGGLES
Mm, like that!

HE CHUCKLES
..and see where it takes me.

As long as we can be civil
at this moment in time,

then that's all I care about,

because I'm not gonna be
walking round Essex

with the atmosphere
that we did in Portugal.

I think Girlband,

they argued with you
and then they argued with Saffron.

I think, naturally,
it's gonna be a bit tense.

Like, I'm closer to youse
than what I am them.

Like, it's gonna be a bit awkward.

They know what I'm like now.

They know
I'm always gonna be honest.

If I think one of 'em or Harry
are acting a certain type of way,

I'm just gonna say, but that doesn't
mean I don't wanna be their friends.

It's just I'm gonna tell you
how I feel in that situation.

You're not gonna change who you
are to suit their friendship group.

No.
No way.

I think
their friendship group's weird.

And at least we all know
where we stand with each other.

True.
Always.

Always. Hands in?

HIGH-PITCHED TRILLING

Pozzy vibes with Freddie Bentley.

# Lady, runnin' down to the riptide
Taken away to the dark side

# I wanna be your left-hand man

# I love you
When you're singin' that song

# And I got a lump in my throat cos
You're gonna sing the words wrong. #

Look at that vista!
What a lovely view.

How beautiful.

I honestly think
it is hotter than Portugal here.

No, it is hotter than Portugal.
Is it?

I think it actually is.
What is it today? 30?

Someone told me it's, like, over 30.

It's still worth going abroad.

For the mems.
We had the best time, didn't we?

SHE STUTTERS

I did. I did, yeah.

It just spiralled out of control,
like, massively.

Obviously, all of this, like, there
are so many different falling outs,

but...
Mm, yeah.

..all of this stemmed from Freddie
in the group chat.

I will speak to Freddie.
I will give him that chance, again.

I don't think
we'll ever be friends-friends. Yeah.

But if he ever did say sorry,

I'll go, "Sweet, no problem.
Let's leave it." Yeah.

Let's leave it now,
because it ain't fair on anyone.

Now it's become an issue
with me and Freddie

that's now stemmed
from an issue with you and Freddie

to now an issue
with you and Saffron. Saffron.

And I just feel...
I feel bad because you're my mate,

and I know
you're only looking out for me.

Mm.
But it's just not fair,

cos I feel like
everyone's gunning for you

and everyone's got this big issue
with you now

when you're just a good friend.

Yeah, and listen, I said...

when he came over at the bar
on my last night,

I said to him I would have never
said anything, like,

to intentionally offend you,
and if I did, I am sorry.

Like, I just would never say
anything maliciously.

I just was repeating something
he said and, you know, backing you

because I worry about you -
like, I want to protect you.

I don't have a problem with Freddie.
Going back to, like, me and you,

I was in that shoes with Saffron
a couple of months ago,

and you kinda do feel like,
"Where's this come from?" firstly.

Secondly, you then go,
"Why is she doing it?"

And then thirdly, you go,
"We're obviously not mates."

I just feel like
I've been in a position before

where I've had to, like,
defend my character,

and I feel like
I'm having to do it again.

Listen, you don't have
to defend your character,

because we all know you.

Yeah.
You know that.

But I know that Saff knows me.
That's what's bothering me.

She knows me,
she knows how I would do things,

she knows how I would say things,
she knows how I would banter her,

and the fact that she's now trying
to take it out of context

and spin it in a negative way,
like, why?

The thing is, H,
is I just think, like,

I just don't really need friends
like that in my life.

That sounds like hard work to me.

I just...
SHE SIGHS

The thought of actually talking
to Saffron right now...

# I tell my sister all about you

# She says
"Skye, don't waste your time." #

# The only way is up! #

# Sapphire!

# Touching on your body
While you're pushing on me

# Don't you end the party
I could do this all week

# We'll be dancing in the morning
Go to bed, we won't sleep

# Cham-cham chamke sitare wargi. #

Ain't the weather lovely?
I feel like we're on holibobs.

Same. It's hotter than Portugal.
Who needs Portugal?

Who needs Portugal
when you got Essex?

Snacks, Elm. Snacks, babe.
Crisps would be really lovely.

All right, crisps. Hold on.
Let me put this back in the freezer.

It's melting.
No problem.

Right, guys, I don't do normal...
Oh! Look at this!

I don't do normal size glasses,
I do XL glasses.

There we go.
Thanks, angel.

We've got snacks.
Elma, plates!

Plate, oh! Oh, bowls!

Angel.
Elma.

Who would have thought
Elma the hostess, with the most.

In Courtney's house
without Courtney.

I really miss her. What the fuck?

Cheers, girls.
Cheers. Cheers.

Cheers, queenies.
Whooo!

# In the sky, sapphire! #

How is everyone feeling
now we're back in Essex?

So happy!

But what do youse think's
gonna happen, like, now we're back?

What I would like,
more than anything,

is everyone to kiss and make up

and the people that need to have
their dramas, have their dramas

and everyone else
just keep it moving.

Oh, girls, it was a lot.

Saffron and Chloe
got a little bit heated.

So, I went to a beach picnic
with Saff.

She was very upset.
Like, she was sobbing.

About what?
Just...

What was she crying about?
I'm sorry, but what?

You and Courtney had a conversation
with her, you've said ...

Yeah, I told her I don't appreciate

how you're speaking
to my best friend, that's that.

You should be more careful
about how your tone comes across,

because if you're saying something
from a place of love,

why on earth would you wanna say it
in a way that's gonna upset someone?

Listen, I'm only the messenger,
don't shoot me, but...

It just doesn't make sense.
But none of it, to me,

I feel it's been completely
blown out of proportion,

because Saffron don't cry,

and that's what took me aback -
she was sobbing.

Like, I didn't even know
what to say to her.

I genuinely did feel sorry for her.

You're giving me that look,
but I did feel sorry for her.

I'm really struggling
to find sympathy.

She was the one
that caused this problem,

and I'm gonna defend Chloe
to the end.

Do you think Chloe and Saffron
comes back from this?

Chloe said no, but listen...

They will.
If they do, then, fine.

Like, the problem is,
I think Chloe just feels like

she doesn't have time
to have a friendship with someone

that's just one minute, it's good,
then it's bad.

# You're driving me mad, so mad
So mad

# You're driving me mad, so mad
So mad. #

Here you go, bruvver.
Cheers, boy. Thank you.

Appreciate it.
RINGING CLAP

BOTH LAUGH
That was amazing!

That's mental.
That was amazing, bruv.

What you been saying?
How's life, bro?

Life's been great.

It's cool to be back, though, man.
I'm glad to be back in Essex.

Spoke to Elm since you been back?
Bro, it's a weird one, like...

When we had that last chat
before we left Portugal,

she sort of said like, she thinks
it's rude, blah blah blah.

What's rude?

She said it was rude
that I didn't say hello to her,

and I said, for one,
any time I saw you, I said hello.

Like, I stand on that.
Mm, yeah.

So, we had that chat,
and she got really upset,

and I got a bit upset as well,

but even though she had sat there
and frustrated me so much,

seeing her upset just broke my heart
again, do you know what I mean?

So I went over, I made sure she
was cool, give her a hug and that,

and then we've just been texting
a bit since, but it's like, mate,

it's a weird one now cos, bro...
It's...

No, no, no, I know what you're gonna
say, but I think it as well.

Yeah.
The thing is, I know I shouldn't.

It's gonna do you no good.
I know, it's not doing me any good,

but it makes me feel better
when I am texting her. Yeah, yeah.

But then I clock, I'm like, wait,
but this isn't gonna go anywhere,

so there's no point in texting her.
I promise you, you messaging her

is only gonna lead to one thing -
you getting hurt.

She won't be hurt
if you stop messaging her.

No, I know.
She won't be hurt at all.

I don't think Elms
actually understands your situation.

I don't think she realised
how much feelings you had for her.

No, she didn't.
Cos then she'd actually understand

why you're trying to be distant.
So, it's like you need to...

The thing is, I know this.
Listen, you're not dumb.

You know messaging her is silly.

You know messaging her
is very silly.

So, it's like,
you need to snap out of that

and start to live your life again,
heal, process it all.

And if you wanna speak to her at
one point, if you want, then cool,

but now is not the time
to be doing that.

Bro, listen, I'll... It'll be cool.

I just don't... I-I... Yeah.
ROMAN MIMICS STUTTER

I dunno.
ROMAN LAUGHS

I'm so stuck.

I'm so stuck.
You can barely even speak, bro!

Bro, it's bad.

Listen, yeah, I promise you now,
give it a month,

you'll be fine then,
and you'll actually be sweet.

Nah, it'll be cool.

# I heart you
In the middle of the night

# In the middle of the night
In the deep, dark night

# I heart you
In the middle of the night

# In the middle of the night. #

Absolutely smells divine.

Oh, what have we ordered here?
Right, nice chips.

How much do you want of this?
That's enough. I'm gonna be sick.

What?
Yeah.

We ain't even started yet.
Perfect.

This is lovely, Elm,
because I've been sitting on my own.

I've been waiting to see you
for ages.

Aw, it's been a lot.
It's all been going on.

It has, you're right.

I can't eat and talk.
Let's get into it.

To be fair, neither can I.

Well, I'm so glad to see you,
but what actually...?

I know it went all bizarre
at the end of Portugal.

It all kicked off again.

Oh...
But what happened?

Saff, can I be honest?
What?

I've missed having his company,

and I do feel like I'm the closest
to Sammy than I am to anyone. Yeah.

I feel like we think the same,
but that's...

You're in tune, Elm, for a reason.
Yeah. Yeah.

But we've been talking
since I've been home.

About what?
Just normal chat.

So what does he think, though?
That it's all right?

Well, I'd like to think he thinks
that we're on talking terms, yeah.

That's all I wanted.

Yeah, but have you ruled it all out,
Elm?

I think it was pretty fucking clear.

I ain't buying it.
You are.

I can't.
You've got to.

I can't accept it.
You've got to.

I can't.

My head hurts. I'm glad I'm home.

So am I.
That was all a lot.

Yeah, it was.

I think it was a lot for him
as well.

It was a lot for you, for me.
Yeah, he was upset, weren't he?

Yeah, a lot.

SAFFRON SIGHS

You just missed the girls,
as it goes, though.

Liv, Beck and Amber
come round earlier.

Oh, did they?
Yeah.

What did they have to say?
Well, I was just trying to...

Cos obviously, I only really spoke
to you face to face

about the disagreement
that you had with Chloe. Yeah, yeah.

And listen, it was hard
to see you upset, Saff, it was,

and I'm not disputing that,
you know,

Chloe's in the wrong,
or you're in the wrong.

I feel like it was just
very much youse had an argument

over something that youse
didn't need to row over. Yeah.

And I felt like
you felt a little bit sensitive,

because obviously,
you felt like she dug you out,

and she feels like
she had that banter with you,

so she was OK to do that,
and I can understand

from both perspectives
how it got to where it did,

but what I can't understand is why
you both can't move on from that.

Anyone is entitled to have their
own emotions, their own feelings,

and she argued it out with me,
and that was it.

Yes, there was raised voices,
yes, I did impersonate her

of what she was doing in the club, I
thought it was sore and unnecessary,

but I didn't think for one minute
they'd be turning round to me going,

"She never wants
to talk to you again."

And delivered the news - was Amber
and Courtney telling me that.

You ain't a friend.

Do you know what upset me
and hit a nerve

and why I was crying to you?

Listen, I'm not gonna beg a friend.
I've got enough friends.

But I do think a lot of Courtney
and Chloe.

I've supported them.

I've always been the one
to message Chloe

when she's talked
about personal things.

I'd never dream of discussing
her business with anyone.

Everything was heightened
on that holiday, it was.

Everyone's ready to blow,
and that's the truth of it. Yeah.

These little itty-bitty rows
are nothing big enough

for us to all say we're never
speaking to each other forever

over something, to me, so minute.

Anyway, just to top all of it off,
you know I was backing Harry

and I've had a go at Freddie
and encouraged them to be friends,

Harry's turned round and thinks I'm
getting off on Chloe being upset.

I don't think Harry
would have said that, though.

I actually don't think.
I don't think Harry...

Oh, he said it, directly to me.

To you?
Yeah.

When?
In Portugal.

So that's upset me,

because I don't know whether
I'm coming or going with him.

If I could scrap
that whole last three days,

I would do anything in my power
to do that.

There's enough going on.

I know.
Do you know what I mean?

It's just shit.
I know.

I know, Elm.

# Oh, my
Oh, my

# All I want is a wonderful
Boring normal life. #

# The only way is up! #

# If it wasn't for this
And wasn't for that

# It could be a better world
Yeah. #

No!
Sorry.

No, no, no, no, no.
Sorry, sorry.

There's a child in here.
You!

No, no, no, no, no, no.
What?

Out this way. You're in
the right place for a kid's party.

Obviously,
it's Bear's birthday, yeah.

This doesn't look like a kid's
birthday party at the moment, right.

Not at all. No effort at all.
I need your help here.

Growl!

GROWLING
Sammy!

Sam, Sam!

Help, then, guys.

TRILLING

That's it.
Set up like a little zoo.

LAUGHTER

Aw! Little prick!

It can't be a Bear party
without a bear.

Give him a glass of vino.

# If you go down in the woods today
You're sure of a big surprise... #

Welcome!
Yay-hey-hey!

To Bear's birthday partyyyyyy!

# Will gather there for certain

# Because today's the day
The teddy bears have their picnic. #

# If it wasn't for this
And wasn't for that

# It could be a better world, yeah

# If it wasn't for this
Wasn't for that. #

Hey!

Danzi-girl!
Angel! How are you, you OK?

Oh, yeah, I'm good, thank you, girl.
You look lovely with the hair up!

Yeah, just a little girlie today.

Little love hearts,
love heart on the arm.

Always matching with the earrings.
Oh, it's a lovely look.

I feel like I've had zero drama
since coming back.

It's been quite nice.
Ooh, that's lovely for you.

I've only seen Ella and Freddie.
Well, Freddie carries the drama.

What's been going on?
I know.

But I feel like
he has turned a new leaf.

Like, he doesn't want the agg.

Like, I feel like...
Blow me.

No, but he...
Blow me!

He needed to apologise
to a few people,

and I feel like
he's in that headspace now.

Like, he wants to say sorry
to Sophie,

he wants to say sorry to Harry,

but when it comes to Girlband,
he's not bothered.

I went to Elma's last night...
Yeah.

..and had a bit of dinner,
and she had said she had seen

Livvy, Becks and Amber in the day.
Right.

Now, Elma told me
that she said to Amber,

"Look, I don't want someone upset.

"I'm good friends
with Chloe and Saff.

"If Freddie and Harry can sort it
out, why Saff and Chloe can't.

"Ultimately, it's because of them."

And she...
So true.

Amber turned round and went, "I've
got no sympathy for her tears."

Oh, fighting talk.

Oh, so she's not bothered
whatsoever?

Do you know what it's called?
The thing is, you don't cry...

Lack of empathy and compassion.

The thing is, is I would get it
if it was a massive row

and this all stemmed from you
and Chloe and youse had problems,

but I cannot believe
what this has turned into.

And it's always personal to her,
Dan. It's huge.

This was never to create
a massive divide. No.

Like, there's a divide
within a divide now.

Yeah, it is.
Erm...

But it's hard,
because you're simply just doing

what you would do
to any other friend,

and that's tell 'em how you feel
about a situation,

whereas they've taken it
as if you're coming for them

and it's negative, you want a row.
It's not like that.

And last night, Elma was giving

probably a bit of that same energy
to Amber, saying...

Didn't... Not agreeing with her,
basically, or the Girlband vibe,

but Elma has said to me...
It's all a bit harsh.

Away from them,
she has said to me,

"Saff, I'll ride solo
if it comes to it."

It shouldn't cause a massive fallout
in their group,

just cos Elma's
got a different opinion.

I don't want her falling out
with the girls, but it ain't...

It don't look great, yeah.

Because she's not sitting there,
going along with their script,

so it may end up
with her falling out with them.

Yeah.
I hope it doesn't,

because it'll just be
another falling out

that stemmed from Freddie and Harry,

who are probably gonna end up
being friends.

Yeah.
It's ridiculous.

It's a real shame
that it's got to this.

It is all bizarre.

I mean, Harry,
I don't know where I stand with him.

What was the last thing
that happened with you both?

He did imply, which has upset me,
I was happy that Chloe was upset.

No, I know.
And that's what's thrown me.

No, that's the thing where I think,
if anything,

he owes you an apology
for saying that,

because he knows what you're like,
he knows what your delivery's like,

like, he knows that's it
not coming from a bad place,

so why is he saying that?
But where is Harry...

Where is this Harry coming from
in general?

He's trying to be cut-throat
with everyone,

but then I feel like he's coming
away from it and feeling sad.

Yeah, and overthinking it.

I feel like also, obviously,
the girls are in his ear.

But it's cos the girls
are like that.

He's got their back, hasn't he?
They've got his back.

They're all fighting
each other's corner,

they all agree with each other,

so I feel like he's just trying
to match that energy

and do the same
as what the girls do.

Oh, well.
Oh, it's bad.

# Put your back up in it

# Don't go frontin' right, right now
Want it, you can get it

# Tell me, Are you down, down, down?
Put your back up in it

# Back up in it, back up in it. #

# Teddy bear pic-nic! #

GROWLING

Oh, no!
LAUGHTER

Aren't they crazy bears?

Did you fall?
Stop being a naughty bear.

That, refreshing.
Thank you.

Yeah. I can't imagine what it must
be like in a fleeced-up bear outfit,

sitting in this baking hot sun,

but this would be refreshing.
You know what?

ZIP RASPS

Really, for the kids?
Sorry, Bear.

I feel like I've taken life...
I'm more of a bear now.

I feel like I'm 50% bear.

No, listen, boys,
I appreciate the party.

Yeah, thanks guys.
I actually really enjoyed it.

Thanks, thanks for inviting us.

Did you have a nice time, Bear?
It's been a good day.

Bear, who's been
your favourite today?

Ahh!

You just give me a bear
for no reason!

I love you. I love you, Bear.

It was so nice
actually seeing Matilda

and getting to know her
a little bit better.

She actually really enjoyed it
out there. Yeah, it was nice.

Obviously, she was saying
that she was, like, scared

to come out there cos, like,
it's your first away trip

with loads of people,
you're obviously...

No, I completely get that.

The first couple of trips I went on,
I even still get nervous now. Yeah.

She was really nervous.

That's why I spent time
making sure she feels comfortable,

but she said everyone around her
was really looking after her

and obviously making sure she was
OK and making a conscious effort.

But, no, yeah, she has...

Listen, if you come away with
new people, it's always gonna be...

Especially
when everyone knows everyone.

But you should have come out
a bit more.

You know what it is? Since I...

This is my thing, I used to be
the life of the party, yeah?

I used to party every single day
and just be with youse like that.

We used to love
doing the party stuff.

Now I'm in a relationship,
that side of me,

I don't enjoy partying as much
no more, I really don't.

I actually really don't.
I really don't, and I'm actually...

To be fair, I hear it, I hear it.
I'm actually happy. I'm...

Don't listen to him!
No.

ALL TALK AT ONCE

Don't listen to this guy,
but when me and Jodie were together,

when you were single, I don't know
if you remember a time...

I don't know if you remember a time
when that was,

we was in a relationship...
Two years ago.

I still made plenty... We still both
made plenty of time for you,

and I don't wanna offend you.
You were our little child!

I was on my own.
You slept in our room every night!

I was on my own.
Yeah.

I was on my own.
Was he in a cot?

We can all do that together now.
Yeah, bruv.

That is a very bad evaluation.
Then we can all do it together.

We can all do it together, Ro.

# I wanna be the lion in your pride

# I wanna feel the sunshine
All the time

# Let's get down
Let's get down

# Let's get down, down, down
Down, down, down

# Down, down, down. #

DOORBELL CHIMES

OVER INTERCOM: 'Hello?'

BEEP
Hello?

You all right, H?

I thought I'd come round
for a little chat.

All right, I'll let you in.

'Thank you.'
DOOR BEEPS

This is gonna be fucking awkward.

KNOCK AT DOOR

Hi.
You all right?

Can I come in?
Yeah, course, come in.

Thank you.

OK. You've sat in my seat,
but that's fine.

Do you wanna sit here?
No.

You're more than welcome!
HARRY LAUGHS

First of all,
I've come with a peace offering.

HARRY SIGHS

A lasagne.
Thank you, Freddie.

What do I owe the pleasure?
Well, listen...

So, obviously, I feel like
everything that's happened

between me and you has got messy
over something actually quite small.

Yeah. Agree.

But for anything that I have said
to you that's below the belt,

I am actually really sorry, H,

because it didn't need
to get spiteful,

on both sides, the way it did.

Listen, I think we've both
been muggy towards each other. Mm.

Obviously, it started from you,
with the group chat.

I responded,
and it just got out of hand.

I don't think we're ever gonna be,
like, close friends again.

I'm gonna be honest.
No, I agree.

Cos, like,
as much as I like you, Fred,

I would find it really hard
to trust you now.

Yeah.

And it's a shame because I feel like
we've known each other for so long.

You've known me longer than Ella.
Mm.

And that's quite hurtful,
and I think that's just...

I don't like saying things
like that,

but I've just got to a level now
where it's gotta be...

I... I just give what
I think is being given.

And I feel exactly the same, I do.
I feel like with our friendship, H,

we've had a lot more negative
than we have positive,

unfortunately,
and I think it comes to a place now

where we obviously
don't see eye to eye on things,

and that's fine, and...
Yeah.

..there is no reason whatsoever

that we can't be civil
and be polite to each other.

We don't need to be arguing,
we don't need to be bitching,

and I think we should just bury it.

I'm more than happy to bury it
and try cos I...

I'm getting tired
of this constant energy.

It's not good for me.
It's not good for you.

It's good for no-one.
No.

And it's all stemmed
because of me and you,

and I feel like we just all need
to get to a place now

where everyone
needs to be a bit more cool,

everyone needs to be
a bit more chilled,

because this ain't fair
on anyone now.

Yeah, I think naturally, your
friends are gonna have your back.

I think Saffron wasn't happy with
the way Chloe said certain things,

and she had my back,
and I think you are right -

it does stem from me and you,
but at the end of the day,

the least we can do is squash this
between us,

and then hopefully, everyone else
can then come together.

I agree.
I like this Freddie. Mature.

Thank you.
It's growth.

It's growth.
I love it.

# I'm that sweet, that salt
That taste

# That made your life better
Ain't I good for you? #

# The only way is up! #

# Say my name

# Every colour illuminates

# We are shining

# And we'll never be afraid again. #

Beautiful fiancee to be.
Oh, thank you very much.

After you.
Oh, this is lovely.

This is beautiful, innit?
Thank you, bubs.

Oh, lovely.
HE EXHALES

This is nice.

# Say my name!

# Every colour illuminates

# We are shining! #

Hello.
I'm not that ticklish.

You are, you get it under here.
Oh, look at you two, lovebirds.

Terry!
Oh, lovely to have you, boys.

Oh, you've got Prosecco.
You OK?

We love it.
Of course!

You are the queen of Prosecco.

Look at her,
she sits up all proudly!

THEY LAUGH

# Every colour illuminates. #

It's bedtime.
Right, shall we read you a story?

I'm going to read two stories.
WHISPERS: Two stories?

Oh, my goodness!
BEAR GIGGLES

What the...?
GIGGLES

No, we need to calm down,
because it's bedtime.

Tickle me.
GIGGLES

# We'll never be afraid again
Never be afraid again. #

Aw, it's so nice.

I was looking forward
to getting away

and just us sort of being away
as a family and spending time away

but...
It was really full on.

The twins.
They just were another level.

It wasn't a break for us,

and there was so much going on,
with it all.

It's mad to say this,

but it was nice to get home
to have a break

from being on holiday.
From all the drama going on.

I know.
That's how mad it is.

And obviously,
Harry, him and Freddie,

remember it all kicked off?

I've always liked Freddie.

Do I think what he done
with Harry was wrong? Absolutely.

Mm.
100%.

But Freddie did turn up
at Harry's last night. Right, OK.

With two lasagnes, and I think he
just wanted to apologise to Harry,

which you gotta give it to Freddie,

I do appreciate him.
Yeah, which is nice.

Do you know what I mean?
I think that needed to happen.

They're never gonna be
friends again, close friends,

and Harry said,
"I'm always here for you, Fred,"

whatever, which I think
it's been left nice.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Ah...

But, I saw Mum yesterday.
Yeah, how did that go?

Cos I've not sort of seen her yet.

I feel like with Mum, she just needs
to look after herself more. Mm.

Your mum is amazing, like,
the way that she helps us out,

I don't think that we'd be able
to do half the things that we do

without your mum and dad.

Agree.
And I think for your mum,

she's gotta realise
that she has gotta take it a bit...

She's had a, you know,
a major heart attack. I know.

You know, she does need
to take it a bit easier.

I know.

Do you know what would be nice?

Just me and you just spending
more time together. Yeah.

Doing nice little dates like this
and just finding our relationship.

Yeah.
Yeah?

And then getting married next year?

To the future Mrs Delbosq.
AMY SIGHS

Next year.
Next year.

It's gotta be next year, babe.
2026.

Right, let's drink,
cos it's bad luck. Ooh.

How is Jord?
Jordan's on the golf trip.

Are you missing him?

Wild. He's wild.
He's Facetimed us a million times.

Aw.
That's cute though.

No, girls, it's just a lot.

I'm trying to run around
my normal day-to-day stuff

and I'm getting Facetimed.

He's, like, five beers down.

Aw, so he's missing you, though.
Yeah, but I'm not that girl.

Like, when I go away with
my friends, I don't ring him 24/7.

He's getting not spoken to
for a few nights!

Do you know what I mean?
Yeah.

But it's quite nice, like,
just to have a little bit of time,

especially coming out with youse
and being with the girls.

Like, me and Jordan,
we've got a lot going on

the next few months,
so in a couple of weeks' time,

we're gonna be going to get
our, like, fertility treatment.

Yeah, I wanted to ask you
about this. Yeah, yeah.

So, the update is they basically
take Jordan's blood cells,

which is mental,
inject them into my body,

so my body accepts his cells,
so that we can create an embryo.

Oh, my gosh, that's so smart.
It's so smart.

It's mental, like mental.

It's pure science.
It's pure science.

So, from now till then,
like, Jordan's away,

and I was like, "Look, go and have
a break with the lads, enjoy it."

I wanna have fun.
I wanna be with you guys.

I wanna be with the girls,
and it's like a little bit

of a last hurrah,
do you get what I mean?

It is really, because
if everything's successful, like,

I'm sure it will be, then
the next step is you being pregnant.

Well, cheers
to maybe the last hurrah.

The last hurrah.
Cheers.

Let's just invite Sophie out
every night. Everywhere!

Just in case
that night can never happen again.

The Geordie Shore Sophie is back for
one time and one time only. Whoo!

But, yeah, what else
has been going on?

Update us.
Oh, I see Freddie yesterday.

Oh, my God. Yeah, how did that go?

So, he came round, and he sat down.
He had a little bag.

I know what it was.
Don't tell me - a bloody lasagne!

He obviously told you.
It's gotta be lasagne.

It was a lasagne.
Oh, God!

A lasagne, cos obviously,
that was the thing that we done

that made us laugh, didn't it?

He brought it round,
which was nice,

I felt like
it kinda broke the tension.

Broke the ice a bit.
It broke the ice, and he said sorry,

and when he said it, I feel like
he actually did meant it.

OK. He knows he's annoyed a lot
of people, and I think he gets it.

I have said to Freddie,
like, I don't think

we'll ever be friends -
like, close friends.

You two have been through so much
in a short space of time.

A lot of back and forth.
A lot's gone on.

I feel like naturally, you're gonna
feel like you've got your guard up.

But...
I think that's fine, though.

I think the main thing is,
is that there's no agg.

Who's to say youse can't be friends
in the future?

That will happen naturally.

I think the main thing
was just clearing the air.

Mm, yeah.
And it's clear now.

But, what's happened now
is that me and you have gone,

all right, it's fine now,
we'll be mutual, it's fine.

The damage is done for others.

The damage is done
for everyone else.

Like, Chloe, Chloe's crying,
Saffron's apparently crying,

everyone's crying,
you're all arguing.

I mean, I'm head-to-head with him.
It's blown up massively.

Because I haven't even spoken
to you properly, Chloe.

Like, you and Saffron
have been friends for so many years,

do you feel like that friendship
is actually done?

Like, you don't wanna ever speak
to her again,

or do you feel like
you can move past it?

I feel like she's just taken things
that I've said out of context

and is trying to use them
to make me look bad,

but I just don't need that
around me.

No, I get... I don't need
that kind of friend around me.

My friends,
like, we love each other.

We speak to each other with respect.
Like, there was no respect.

The conversations I've had with her,
she does not want you to be upset,

and I think when she found out
you was crying,

she did feel gutted about that,

cos that weren't her intentions,
she don't want you to be upset.

I heard that she was going round
in the bar that night going,

"Is she crying? Is she crying?"

Like, all happy about it.
She did.

I had a private conversation
with Saff at the bar,

and she said along the lines of,
"If people don't like who I am,

"yeah, then they're probably
best off not here."

Something along that line,
directing it at Chloe.

It's two different energies,
to different people.

And then asked me, three times,
"Is she crying?"

I went, "No, she's not crying."
Why does that make you happy?

"Is she crying?" and I said to her,
literally, later on, I went,

"Saff, I'm gonna be honest, I didn't
like it when you said that."

Listen, I've had my separate
conversations with Saffron,

and she said
that she has actually not felt great

about the fact
that she's made you cry.

I think she's being clever
about what she's saying

and to who
and when she's saying it.

She's saying different things
to different people.

Are you sure you haven't taken
that the wrong way, Harry?

I don't think she's over the moon
you're crying.

I do, I can hear her say it.

I've known her for years,
I can hear her saying it.

I'll be honest,
I don't wanna fall out with Saffron,

but every single thing that happens
in this group is this,

Saffron, Saffron, Saffron,

her opinions, her opinions,
her this, this, this.

I've had enough.
I really have had enough of it now.

I just think
for how small the situation is,

is there any point
in us all falling out?

The divide's only getting worse,
she's not really speaking to you,

and she's now got awkwardness
with you.

I feel it's my prerogative to decide
if I wanna be her friend or not.

100%. I appreciate
where you're coming from.

Do you feel like it's done?

As of right now,
there isn't a chance

that me and Saff
are gonna be friends again. Really?

We can coexist in the same room,
but I am - I'm done.

# Baby, will you miss me
If I'm not around?

# If I'm not around

# If I'm not around

# Baby, will you miss me
If I'm not around? #

Calm. Calm!

Is he asleep?
Just.

Oh, you did it?
Yeah.

I just, just got him off.
That was a hard one.

Do you know, he's been so excited
for the whole day.

Getting him to bed,
he just didn't want it to end.

You did good, though!

I walked past, and I heard you
telling him a little weird story.

Do you know what, I like to mix
my stories with a bit of truth.

Mm.
Bit of fiction, but a bit of truth.

Well, you're such a natural.
I am getting better, aren't I?

I feel like it took you a while,

but now you've got it,
you're just the best.

I'm definitely getting better.
You're so good.

I wasn't that great at the start.

No. I don't...
I was all right.

You've never been around children.

You've always had,
like, the party lifestyle

and it hasn't ever been anything
that you've been around,

and now it is your life.
Yeah, but I've never want...

I've never wanted to be around it
for anyone.

Yeah.
Until I met you.

And now I want to do it,
do you know what I mean?

There's a difference between just
being around it for the sake of it

and then actually wanting to make
a conscious effort to do something.

Hey, I'm in love, ain't I?
So it's... You do things like that.

And now I love Bear.
It's the best.

I know you do, I can tell,
and he loves you so much.

Like, it's actually insane.

On the way down here, he was going,
"I just love him".

You could feel
it was coming from within. Yeah.

That's good. That is a good sign.
That's a good sign.

I mean, listen,
if it's like this with Bear,

then obviously, in the future...

I'm just saying, like,
if it's this good now,

obviously, I'm thinking -
well, I want a kid.

Yeah, I know.
Not saying right now.

Yeah.
But I definitely do want that.

I know you do.
SHE GIGGLES

And I, obviously,
want to give you a child.

I want us to experience
that together and go through it

and it just be, like, this
magical thing, but it's scary.

It's not something
I'm sitting there saying,

like, I want this, I want this,
I want this right now,

but I do think, for us,
going forward...

It's so hard, because I'm happy
with just obviously Bear.

I want to give you a child,
but I don't wanna like wait ages,

and then Bear, like, grow up,
and then I have to restart again.

I'd rather just have to deal
with, like, two children

that are young at the same time
and just get it done.

I think you're see...
I think you're seeing it

from a point of where
you dealt with it on your own,

whereas this will be
a different story. Yeah.

Listen, we've, obviously...
we've only just, really,

since Christmas, got back on track,

and I feel like we're in a better
position than we ever have been.

Do you know what I mean?
We're actually in the best position.

Even though it was horrible,
I feel like it was...

Like, it was shit,
but we've come back stronger.

Yeah, it was pretty shit, yeah.

Yeah. Didn't enjoy it, but, yeah.

I think, look, sometimes,
these things happen in life.

Do you know what I mean?

You have to lose something
to realise what you've got,

and I feel like that's something
that we definitely went through,

and now we're in the position
where we're more in love than ever,

and I think people can see that.

No, we're very lucky to have you.
You're the best. Yeah.

Actually the best.

The best?
The best.

No, you're the best.
Ohh!

SHE LAUGHS

# Oh, my, my love

# I take one look at you

# You're taking me
Out of the ordinary

# The angels up in the clouds
Are jealous

# Knowing we found. #

Cheers, first of all.

Cheers, and I'm so pleased
that you're back from Portugal.

It's nice to be home.

Oi-oi!
Hey!

Hello.
I've got him holding my stuff.

Oh, are you all right?
She's got me at it.

How are... Mwah, how are we?

Lovely garden.

I love youse.
I just need a break, a minute.

Love the outfit, Saffy.
You're so bright!

Thank you.
What's been going on? Tell me.

Well, obviously, it was
a whirlwind out there, weren't it?

Here, darling. You OK?

Drama central.
Cheers.

Cheers. Good to have you back
from Portugal.

Yeah.
What a time it was.

I know.
I'll see you guys later.

LAUGHTER
I'll catch up with you after, yeah?

Yeah, lovely.
Come on, Moo.

Saffy, you're not yourself.
Right. Where do I start this?

So, I went to Elma's
after seeing you.

Remember I wanted to check in
on her?

Oh, how was that?

She'd had Amber, Becks and Liv round
in the afternoon.

Obviously, it's still very much
about this me and Chloe M business.

Right.
So, she just sort of said

look, like,
they're sticking to their guns,

and basically,
there is no friendship left.

Elma's in the middle.
Dani's in the middle.

Elma has really had my back,
and Dani has.

They've said, "Look,
her delivery might have been wrong,

"but ultimately,
it weren't coming from a bad place,"

and I definitely didn't think
it was gonna blow up.

You always mean well,
and that's the thing.

You check in on everyone.

When we've had a hard time...
I'm angry.

No, but it's not fair, Saff.
Oh, Saff.

Oh, girl.
Oh, my God...

It's a lie. That's the worst thing.

I know.
But you mean so well, though.

You do.
And that's the thing.

But everyone loves you and knows you
for who you really are.

No, but I've had to go around
fucking Essex justifying myself.

I ain't gonna...
I ain't gonna change.

You shouldn't have to change.

Course you're not. You're
a good fucking friend, Saffron.

You actually defended Harry
with that situation with me.

Can I be really, really honest
with you, Saff? Mm.

I don't think they ever valued you
as a friend, which is sad

cos I know how much time
and effort you've given them. Yeah.

# I need to give it a rest
I need to put it to bed

# My head is not my friend. #

Oh, hello.
You OK?

Have you come to
tell me I'm uninvited?

You don't wanna be wondering, is it
gonna kick off at your birthday?

He has thrown fire to them witches
you would not believe.

Whoa!
ALL SHOUT AT ONCE

LAUGHTER
Smile.

It was Harry I didn't recognise.

It was Amber Turner
with a crop, back and sides,

sitting in front of me.
ELLA LAUGHS

Let me walk out with you.

Courtney's just walked out.

I think she's just found out through
social media there was an NFI party.

Mate, is this the party?
NFI.

It's going on for too long,
over fuck all!

Are youse listening to yourselves?
It's over fuck all.

Over a fucking cup of tea over
Saffron's house.

Like, it's stupid.

Listen, we can either be friends
or... or not.

# The only, only, only

# Only, only, only

# The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now

# The only way is up

# Baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ohh! #
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