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All of this shit's been going on
for so long now.

We don't wanna cause
any bad vibes here.

We want youse to have the best day.

We want you to have a nice time.

I'm worried...

You don't wanna be in a relationship
with Harry D.

Yeah. I don't.

I think I prepared myself
for you to come and say this anyway,

so I'm fine with it.

And as long as our friendship
isn't affected.

So, how is everything going
with you two?

Yeah, it's good.
Are you romantic?

I'm romantic, but I'm not good
at talking about it,

do you know what I mean?
Yeah.

But I'm quite awkward
talking about it,

so I think it kinda works.
Really? Why?

I avoid eye contact. I'm like...
AWKWARD GIGGLE

Oh, my Gosh! Oliver, come here!

Well, give him an answer.
Well, is that a yes or no?

Well, obviously! That's so cute.

# The only, only, only
Only, only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh. #

MUSIC: 'Here In Your Arms'
by Abi Flynn and Nathan Dawe

# Do you feel the rain, yeah?
Now that it's falling

# Falling on you, oh-oh

# I'm staying, I'm staying

# Staying, staying
I'm staying, staying, staying

# Staying, I'm staying... #

Oh, it's beautiful, innit?
It's beautiful. We're in Portugal!

Stunning!
Whoo!

# So scared of love
But I won't leave, I'm staying

# Here in your arms
I'll be right... #

JORDAN LAUGHS

Do you reckon
he's called that unicorn Elma?

Cos the amount of times
he's jumping on it is ridiculous.

# Here in your arms
I'll be right here waiting... #

What's happening, bro?

# So scared of love,
But I won't leave

# I'm staying here in your arms
In your arms, in your arms... #

Hello. Ooh, that's a good...
ELLA: You're in my way.

Ooh.
Oh, shit! Oh!

FREDDIE: Insane.

# I'm staying, staying, staying

# Staying, staying, staying

# Staying, staying, staying... #

You look so pretty today.
You look so handsome today.

Do I?
Yeah.

SHE CHUCKLES,
TUMMY SLAPS

Wahey!

# Here in your arms
I'll be right here waiting

# So scared of love
But I won't leave... #

Wee-ee! Yay!
LAUGHTER

# When you're ready, I'll be ready

# I'll be right here
If you'll let me

# When you're ready, I'll be ready

# I'll be right here
If you'll let me. #

Yo, girls.
BOTH: Oh, hi!

You all right? Good?
Yeah, are you?

Good, thank you. Good, thank you.

What you doing
in the children's pool? Weird.

Weird boys.
You've always got something to say.

DANI LAUGHS
Oh. It's hilarious.

ROMAN GROANS,
SIGHS WEARILY

I need a bit of shade. I'm sweating.

How was that seeing Elma just then?

Was it awkward seeing her?

Yeah. I mean...

I don't, like, it's weird
cos I, like, I don't really know...

We went from high-flying
and perfect couple to just...

Like, I don't even really know what.
Mm.

Do you know what? We got
comfortable, very comfortable,

and I think... Not "we" - "he".
He got comfortable.

Yeah. I think it was very much like
he'd got used to the idea of, like,

"Oh, I could just go round
to Elma and Courtney's

"and just chill there,
quick takeaway, whatever,"

and I just...
I feel like I wanna be wooed.

I don't wanna tell anyone
how to be in a relationship.

You want it to just happen.
To happen.

And I felt like because...

I think as well,
it's just we're different people.

It's weird
because when I see youse together

I thought, "Oh, my God,
this actually could be youse."

Like, this could be youse done.

But I feel like youse are actually
quite different personality-wise.

Yeah, we are, and do you know what?
This is the only way I can put it,

and I can't put it
any better than this,

is I want magic, and I feel
like I'm getting mediocre.

And I know that sounds horrible,
but it's the truth.

And I just feel like, we girls,
we actually shouldn't settle.

Bro, till this day, I have no idea

what just switched it up,
cos it was, like,

it was overnight, like...
It was so good.

The messages and stuff
we were sending each other... Yeah.

..was like we were in love.
Do you know what I mean?

And then out of nowhere,

it was like I was just talking
to some random... Random.

..girl.
That's nuts, man.

I don't really know
how to take it, bro.

I don't know where I stand.
Dunno what's going on.

It's actually gutting, bro.

Have you spoke to her about it yet?
Not really.

Not at all?
It's weird, bro.

I think now is the perfect time

to probably have a little chat
with her.

Do you reckon?

You need to have that chat
where you can get out the way.

Just ask her out for drinks
or something... anything.

Yeah.
Don't overthink it, though.

Let me chat to her.
Go on.

ELMA: Where we went
for lunch yesterday was really nice.

What did you get?
I got a prawn Caesar salad.

I didn't eat anything.
Hi.

Hey.
Hi.

Hey.
How are you?

How are you?
Good, thank you, babe. Are you?

Yeah, decent.
We ain't really spoke much.

I was gonna see if you wanted
to get a drink or something,

have a little chat? Catch up.

That's nice.
Huh? Yeah.

Have a good day.
Speak to you later.

Aw. Goodbye.
Bye.

What did you say?

Bro, we're gonna go for a drink.
Talk it through.

That's nice. Like...

Do you think
that's gonna be friendship, like...?

Do you know what it is?
I don't want it to get...

I don't want it to get awkward,

I don't want it to get bitter,
and I don't want it to get spiteful.

I don't think it will.
Those three things, I don't want.

I also don't wanna lose a friendship
with him along the way.

So what do you want to happen, then?

If she's not feeling it,
which she clearly isn't,

I just want her to say that
and just to move on separately.

Know what I mean?
Yeah.

It'd just be nice just to be able
to have a clear answer

of, like, "This is why."
Yeah.

"This is where I'm out."
"OK, fine."

This is why I'm feeling the way
I'm feeling.

And then we can... we can move on,
and I can cry myself to sleep.

Don't cry to sleep.
Feel like you need a cuddle.

Come on.
Come on, bro.

# Boys just ain't meant to cry... #

Hello, Daniel.
Hello, guys.

Oh, it's so nice to be here.

It's so lovely to be here.

Hot, though. I feel like
this is not hot compared to Dubai.

I could fall asleep, I'm so relaxed.

# Boys just ain't meant
To cry-aye-aye. #

When Matilda gets here,
Roman'll disappear. That's fine.

But then, he'll just be his own...
his own group.

We got Sammy with us now, cos I'm
not sure what's happening with that.

What is going on with that?

Don't know, mate. They don't seem
like they're together.

I don't think he knows what's
going on with that, does he? No.

From what Courtney said, I don't
think they're together any more.

No?
No.

He's stopped coming round the house.

Elma wants a little bit more effort,
is what Courtney was saying.

And then that got onto the topic
of you.

Obviously, the rumour's going around
that Ella was saying

that you didn't really
make an effort, blah, blah.

It was a two-sided thing,
in my opinion.

I don't think I fully put...
What we said.

I don't think
I fully put the effort in

cos I wasn't sure of it, long-term,

and I don't think she was putting
the effort in the other way.

We was both withholding,

and neither of us
was fully putting 100% into it.

Exactly what I said,

that you was pretty hurt and stuff
about the whole situation.

Which is true.
Well...

If you're being truthful.
Yeah. I think I was.

I know you was.
It affected me.

I was questioning it for a while.

I think the connection
and the chemistry is there.

Listen, as much as you can,
like, brush it under,

and you're quite
an emotionless person sometimes,

you don't really show your emotion
too much, you did...

You did this time,
though, I feel like...

Definitely hurt...
The things she was saying about you,

obviously, definitely hurt ya.

Yeah, cos I felt like we was cool,
and we...

Even though
we agreed to go our separate ways,

I felt like we did it in an...

It was a very amicable chat
that we had in the end. Yeah.

After the initial arguments,
there was...

We sat down, and we was like,
"Look, it's a shame."

Like,
"We both care about each other,

"but we don't feel like it's right."

And then I felt like, after that,

she then sort of portrayed things
in a way,

and said some things that felt like
she was throwing me under the bus,

and that it was just me, and she was
holding no accountability for it.

That connection we have
will always be there.

That won't go away. I know it won't.

We'll always be a little bit flirty,
it's just naturally, we have that.

Yeah.
Have you spoken to her yet?

Not about anything.
You haven't had a conversation?

No.
Do you think you will?

Yeah, look, we haven't seen
each other for a while,

maybe there's a chat there
to be had.

But for me, I feel in a good place
at the moment, I'm happy.

You've got a couple
of ex-girlfriends on the holiday.

Mate, you're telling me.
Maybe you should slow down.

I was in a good place
before I come out here.

Come out here on holiday
with two of my ex-birds. Mm.

Why'd you come?
LAUGHTER

Why did I come?
LAUGHTER

It is what it is, we're out here
now. Let's enjoy ourselves.

This situation's not ideal. Ugh.

Do you know what?
Come here.

JODIE GIGGLES
Come here. Mwah. Mmm.

Oh, yeah.
What you doing? You don't like love?

# Do you think about last summer? #

Whoopie!
# And all the colours

# It makes me wonder... #

Do you know what is nice, though?
We're in such a good space.

Yeah.
Like, we're happy. We're content.

I feel positive,
I'll be honest with you.

I think it's gonna be a good time.

# Do you think about last summer? #

JORDAN CHUCKLES

Mummy's coming, Bill. Look!
There she is.

Aw.
All right, ladies?

Hello.
All right, girls?

He is good as gold.

Honestly, Amy,
these kids are adorable.

So cute.
RASPY: So good, aren't they?

Can I just tell you? My voice...

What is going on?

Right, so Bill decided
to get air-con in the house.

Why's it always your fault?
I know!

And to be honest with you,
I hate air-con.

Girls, I cannot believe
that I'm here.

Like, honestly.
I am so proud of you.

I've not been away for five years.

You are kidding.
Babe, five years.

For me to be here -
it's a massive achievement.

So proud of you.
I can't believe I'm here.

I know it sounds dramatic.
Of course, no...

But obviously had a little bit
of a wobble getting here,

obviously leaving Larose,
but now I'm here, I feel so fine.

This is so good for you, Lauren.
Youse lot have helped me.

I know it sounds silly, when you
have kids, it changes everything.

Everything.
But for the better.

Yeah, but you also have to enjoy
your life as you. Yeah.

Cos it's never gonna be
the same again.

Being a mam, I can imagine, is the
most amazing feeling in the world.

This is why we've always been
so close, yeah? Like, all of us.

Like, family is key, yeah?
WOMEN: Yeah.

Me and Bill, though, as well,
all friends and family talking -

me and Bill
need to find ourselves again

because we do feel like we've lost
ourselves the past three months.

How do youse all feel it's been
out here?

Bit of a strange atmosphere,
don't you think? Yeah.

Everyone's in different groups.
What's going on?

Did you hear what happened in
the group chat we all had from Bali?

Oh, God.
What, with Freddie?

With Freddie and Harry?
Oh, God. What?

Oh, did you not hear it?
No.

We're all in a group chat,
Ella was doing her own thing.

Freddie wanted everyone
to support her, which I get,

so into the group chat,
he's fired into everyone.

Listen, obviously, things
have gone on with Dan and Ella,

Ella had fobbed Dan off
to go in there, really,

and mugged him off, not gonna lie.
Yeah, right.

And he's my... he's my pal.
So I'm with Dan, with the boys.

Naturally, we're not gonna
then post. You've got loyalties.

If Freddie wants to talk
about being a loyal friend,

I'm loyal towards Dan.
Yeah, course.

He went about it in a wrong way,
but it got personal.

Both of 'em going at each other.
Freddie going,

"Let me know if you're still cut up
about that date, baby boy,

"that single date that we had,

"let me know if you're still
cut up about it."

But there's 16 people
in this group chat watching,

and they was at each other.
Oh, no.

Bang, bang. It's been escalated
to such a level now, though,

that I feel like this could
potentially be a pressure cooker.

Yeah.
And it could go off out here.

Listen, at the end of the day,
none of us really want agg here.

So let's do whatever we can
to make it good.

WOMEN: Yeah!

If it goes off, we'll go to Spain.
I'm going to bed.

LAUGHTER
Yeah, we'll all go to bed.

# The only way is up. #

MUSIC: 'Jubel'
by Walkman

# You know I've been waiting
For this to come... #

Oi, oi, oi!
What's happening, lads and girls?

CHEERING

# I don't care what they say

# I'm gonna work it out

# Nothing's gonna stop me now... #

SCREAMING

Having the time...
Of my life!

# Tomorrow can wait

# Dancing with my walkman on

# Cos tomorrow can wait. #

I've learnt some Portuguese, girls.
Go on, tell us.

So, it is very tricky.
It's a lot harder than I thought.

Is it not the same as Spanish?

No. This is not Spain.
This is Portugal. Are we not?

It's on the same thing
on the map, though.

But Portugal is a separate country.

I've got some pick-up lines for us.

Una momento.
Uno momento.

IN BROKEN PORTUGUESE: "Ola, querida.

"Obcecada por ti."
Oh-err.

That's like, "Hello, babe..."
You sound fluent.

All I heard was,
"Hello, you got a potty."

No, it's like, "Hello, babe,
I'm obsessed with you."

Hello!
CG.

Very true.
That's actually very true.

Hello!
Come sit.

Aw, it's our little angel.

Oh, my gosh,
drinks are here, everyone. Amazing.

I've got the pineapple.
No, I'm not drinking lager.

I'll take the beer. I'll take it.
Thank you so much. Sorry.

I've never seen you drink a beer.
Look at me, being all manly.

Cheers, darlings.
Portugal!

Portugal! Let's go.
Whoo!

How exciting?
I know. Ain't it lovely to be here?

I know. How are you feeling?
Enjoying the sun.

Babe, I'm real.
What's been going on, though?

Babe...
What?

You seem stressed.
You seem really stressed out.

What's going on?
Babe, cos I just know it's coming.

Who? You've heard, obviously,
about the group chat, no?

Freddie and the group chat.
Yeah, we know about it.

Oh, babe, that was fucking a lot.

Hello, pretty people.
Ella Rae Wise!

Here she is.

Woman of the hour.
How are you?

Yeah, you look fucking amazing,
you do.

Hello.
You OK, Els?

You are a vision.

You look great.
Thank you.

I need to know the goss
from the house.

Straight out of the house.
Fuck me, give me a minute.

Oh, my God!
She's just sat down, J.

I can't believe it. You've been
a busy, busy girl, you have.

I have been a busy girl.
You smashed it.

Thank you. And everyone around you
loves you a lot.

Thank you.
We supported you every day.

Honestly, we loved watching you.

Yeah, it was so nice to see a little
bit of support from someone.

Yeah. Oh, babe,
well, talking about support...

There weren't much from anyone else.

No, there wasn't,
and it's quite sad.

Bitterness and jealousy speaks
volumes, Ella. Not from my behalf.

I did message you.

Oh, did you?
Yeah, I did.

What, when I was in there?
Yeah.

Oh, yeah, I wouldn't have seen it.
Sorry. No, I know, course.

I expected that, babe,
but I didn't want...

I come out of there, and I was
in such a whirlwind of emotions

and getting back to normal life.

I didn't have my phone
for three days.

Of course, babe,
but it weren't bad blood.

Like, it's awkward now,
do you know what I mean?

Cos we did get close in Bali,
do you know what I mean?

And maybe I should have posted,
but I didn't, and I should have.

At the end of the day,
I didn't expect anything from you.

You've got a daughter,
you've got children,

you've got two kids, you're busy.

I didn't expect anything like that,
but there's certain people

that I did expect it from,
certain people in this group...

Who did you expect it from?
From who?

SHE SIGHS

Jordan, Sophie.
I mean, yeah...

I didn't expect it from Girl Band

cos I think that would be weird.
Yeah.

Erm, and the rest, to be honest.

I'm not being funny,
I spent a very long time with Dan.

The boys on his side, I thought
maybe they would have supported me.

From what I heard, though, El,

apparently, you split up with Dan
to go in the Big Brother house.

Oh, for what? What would
I have gained to split up with him?

No-one knows,
and I'm not being funny...

You obviously wasn't happy
before you went in.

It doesn't concern anyone
why I split up with Dan.

I'm in love with the fella,
and I'm not gonna deny

that I don't still have love for him
because I do. Yeah, of course.

I don't want people to think
that I left him

to go in there,
because that's nothing of the case.

I wasn't happy with how it was.

Yeah.
And he knows that.

Communication was meant to be
a massive thing in our relationship,

and there was no communication.
Mm.

So it did not work for me.

Yeah, but other people
probably didn't see it like that.

At the end of the day,
you're not one...

Cos he might have not made it clear
to them

how that was,
do you know what I mean?

Hey, Fred.
Freddie, Freddie!

All right, girls?
You look unreal.

Thank you, baby.

Talking about...
Have you seen he's just walked past?

Can we just talk
about the group chat for a hot sec?

Can I just say, it was comedy gold.
I was sat there going, "Ahhhhh!"

It was entertainment.

Hi, Fred.
Freddie Bentley!

How are we?

How are you?
Are you OK, babe?

How fucking awkward's this?
Fucking awkward, are you joking?

What you've said in this group chat
has caused destruction around Essex.

Oh, you've caused murders, you have.
But I stand by it.

Freddie kept going,
"I don't want to be rude to anyone,"

and then being incredibly rude
to you. And then being so rude.

Like, I... Like, so incredibly rude
to Harry. Like what?

And I'm pretty sure
that, like, Ella and I,

and probably you,
and definitely you,

are of an understanding that

if she was to come out of that show
or that house and see...

She would never expect any of us
to post for her,

and it just would never happen.

I don't think... I'm, like, 98% sure
that wasn't directed at us three.

No way. I do think
it was maybe directed at you.

I think it was maybe directed
at Becks as well

cos Becks and Ella,
they were best friends in Bali.

I just feel like Freddie's on heat
all the time, so hot and cold.

We're all meant
to support each other.

I clap when people win,
and the fact that people don't

screams jealousy, bitterness,
and I think it's so wrong.

Yeah, but not always, though.
What do you mean?

But then what is people's reason for
not just putting up one little post

with a clap, like that?

It takes two seconds.
I'll do it for anyone.

I'm not being funny,
Jordan brought out a hair academy.

Who was the first to post?
Me, straightaway.

Yeah, but I think after that,

obviously, that was before
you went in, and I think...

I don't know if Jordan knows
what happened between you and Dan.

It's all excuses. It's all excuses.

Regardless of that,
at the end of the day,

I was never friends with these
people because I was with Dan Edgar.

Exactly. No, it's true.
But obviously, I was

because now I'm not with Dan,
no-one's talking to me.

I know, but they're all gonna
have his back, though, El. Like...

Well, don't go on benders, then!

It screamed fake behaviour of a lot
of people, that's what it screamed.

Becks, me and you ain't even
ever gonna fall out either, but...

Fred, I would never fall out
with you over that, babe.

But even you put in the group chat,
you turned around and said, like,

"We are supporting her from afar."

But it takes two minutes
to post on social media.

Of course, babe,
but I'm busy every day, Fred.

And, listen, that's fine.

I'm all about public support
on every length of the scale,

and I'm not gonna have someone try
and belittle me

in front of people because I'm being
morally right to my friend.

Fred, who tried to belittle you?

Harry.
When?

In the group chat, Jordan.

I'm only asking. When?

And I'm responding.
When?

Did you read it?
You was in the group chat.

Don't act dumb, please.

I'm not acting dumb.
I really haven't got the patience

for anyone's bullshit,
I'll be honest.

You've never had any patience.
I don't care.

You've never had any patience,
not one bit.

Why don't you just focus
on your bird? I do.

Well, we are. We do.

Shut up on our conversation,
getting involved.

I'm asking a question.
Don't ask me a question.

Why are you getting so irate?
Freddie.

We're just having a little earwig.
Chill out.

Getting involved.
Ain't your conversation.

It's embarrassing.
It's awkward.

Let's be quite frank, it is awkward.
I'm not awkward.

Well, I ain't fucking hardly spoke
to you.

You never speak to us.
You don't speak.

You're wasting your breath
speaking to me,

it's literally going in one ear
and out the other.

I'm talking to Ella.

BECKS: Too much for me,
I can't deal with stuff like this.

I ain't interested.
Shall we have a conversation?

Nah, I ain't interested.
Nah, course you ain't.

Ella, what's your problem?
Don't really have one, to be fair.

You're irrelevant.
So are you, love.

And you always will be.
Ta-rah.

Did she say I'm irrelevant?
No, she said Soph is.

Oi. Oi. Oi. Come on.

Who's saying fuck off?
Did someone say fuck off?

Oi, come on. Oi, come on.
I'm not having a conversation.

No, yeah, I'm coming
to join the conversation.

I don't want you
to join the conversation.

Move up cos I wanna talk to you.
I wanna talk to you, yeah?

Everyone needs to chill out.

Becks, come here.
That ain't for me.

What's go... What's going on?

I just can't listen to them all
being nasty. What's gone on?

Who's being nasty?
No, just, like, Junaid...

Wait, I told you
they're being nasty.

Explain it and talk.

Who was the first person
that uploaded your academy?

I get it,
but when you did that, yeah,

you was in a relationship
with one of my best friends.

I didn't do that cos
I was in a relationship with Dan,

I done that to clap
for your success, Jordan.

Listen, I'm not saying that.

What I'm saying is we live,
especially you,

especially you, we live off this
thing of being loyal people, right?

Now, I would be wrong,
and I'd be two-faced, Fred,

like you've called me in the past,

if Dan is sitting with me,
going through a lot,

and I start posting you...
Going through a lot?

No, listen. Do you not know
what your fucking best mate

did to me before I went in there?
Listen...

Exactly that. Sophie wouldn't stand
for it if you went on a bender.

Listen, please. She wouldn't
fucking be with you, would she?

I actually wouldn't mind.
I'd be with him, that's why.

Yeah, she wouldn't care.
Yeah, desperate.

Oh, my God, I can't even look.
It's been a long day.

I know, I feel awkward.

But, listen... What?

Yeah, I'm bored of this
conversation, an' all. Let's go.

So am I.
Don't call my bird desperate, mate.

SOPHIE:
Who's fucking calling me desperate?

Yeah, her.
Piss off.

I'm fucking desperate?
You cheeky little mug.

Grow up.
You all wanna fucking grow up.

Don't fucking speak to me like that,
you little tramp.

You're in your 30s.
Grow the fuck up.

I don't give a shit how old I am.
I look fucking 25.

Wow. It is getting ridiculous
cos everyone's so...

I mean, what the fuck have we done?

Yeah, but they're not the problem.
No.

He is. He's getting involved
in my conversation, like I want it.

I'm not.
You are.

I'm trying to make peace. Ella's got
the hump with me, I'm making peace.

I can understand why she's got
the hump. So I'm making peace.

I'm trying to have a conversation,
ain't I?

I'm being a gentleman,
trying to have a conversation.

It's literally all pathetic,
I'm gonna be honest.

What's pathetic? You're pathetic,
Fred. Group messages.

Yeah. You deserved it.
What?

You all deserved it.
Deserved what? What?

Deserved to be told about yourselves
because at the end of the day...

You.
If you don't care, go away, then.

I've never known so much drama
in Essex all my life.

We're in Portugal, hon.
Oh, yeah.

Don't fucking stand there
and speak to me.

Why, what you gonna do about it?
You fuck off.

Fuck off.
Who are you pushing, mate?

Who are you pushing?

Don't fucking do that.
I don't give a fucking shit.

ALL TALK
OVER EACH OTHER

Don't fucking start on him.
Don't start on him.

# I'mma get, I'mma get dangerous. #

# The only way is up. #

MUSIC: 'Get Loud'
by Valley Of Wolves

They're so rude to my face.

Yeah. She called you desperate.
I'm fuming.

Idiots!
Stop.

Get to... No.
Stop.

I hate 'em all. They're...
Stop.

I can't bear 'em.
Listen. Stop.

I can't bare 'em.
Fucking mean girls.

Mean girls.

"Mean girls"!

I was nice to him a few months ago.
Why am I mean?

I can't have him no more.
I'm bewildered.

What the fuck has just happened?

I can't actually have him no more.
It's mad.

I'm bewildered.
You all right, Jord?

Yeah, I just nearly chinned Freddie,
but I'm all right.

Is that a joke?

What the fuck is going on?
Oh, don't even know what to say.

No, seriously,
what is actually going on?

It kicked off because...

How have youse ended up
rowing with Jordan and Sophie?

Cos I turned around...

Jordan put his two-pence piece in
for no reason. About what?

Yeah. I've gone over, I've just
explained my points to my friends,

and basically,

Jordan's then piped up and tried
to get involved, and I said,

"Jordan, I don't want you
involved in my conversation."

It doesn't concern him.
It doesn't.

I'm having a conversation
with my friends,

clear you ears out
and leave me alone.

Me and Jordan
have never seen eye to eye,

so I don't understand
why he thought it was a good idea

to get involved
and make himself fucking busy.

I'm gonna tell youse all right now,

this whole thing
is a laughing stock.

The only people in the group chat
was me and Harry,

and she knows, and none of youse
would post for her.

Freddie and Ella
talk about loyalty, right,

and Freddie called me two-faced
not that long ago.

Now, I'd be very two-faced
if I sat with Dan when Dan's upset,

and I then posted Ella
in the Big Brother House.

They were just going on about this
whole group message thing, right.

It's irrelevant. If people
wanna support it, then be it.

Like, if I went around and said,

"Oh, you didn't support us,
you didn't support us,"

like, who cares? I don't care,
do you know what I mean?

With Ella,
she's just revealed herself

too many times to people now,
and we've all seen it.

We're all not stupid.
We've all seen it too many times.

Sophie, you've got more friends than
anyone here, so it's complete...

You're winning, my honey.

Ella is like a little...
a little grain of poo

on the foot right now.

LAUGHTER

My thing is,
is my best mate stuck up for me

when I went into the biggest
experience of my life, right?

Yeah. Anyone else would do that
for each other, that's normal.

Take it on the chin.

If you feel a type of way about it,
it's because you know deep down

that you should have supported me,
and you didn't.

Yeah, but don't let... I don't...

Honestly, like, I wouldn't let that
bother youse as much as it is.

If they're not gonna support you,
you don't need to have it with 'em.

They're not your friends anyway.

The main thing for you
is your friends have supported you.

I've supported you, Freddie has.
Other friends have supported you.

You don't need them to support you.

No, I know, and to be honest,

this probably
wouldn't have been a situation

if the people that were on this trip
were still going on about it.

It's ridiculous. I'm bored
of listening to Jordan Brook

being the ultimate bitch.

What a great start
to the holiday (!)

Well, it's only the beginning.
So, how's it gonna end?

# I'm chasing paradise with you

# I'm chasing para, paradise... #

Diags, help your girlfriend, mate.

He's got the beers.
Seriously?

I've got the most important thing.

Yeah, your girlfriend.
My beers.

Watch out, Jord.

Sorry, mate. Sorry.
I'm sorry, mate.

Ow.
Fucking...

LAUGHTER

Oh!

How nice is this?
Oh. The sea and the beach.

It's a little bit of luxury.
Beautiful.

So nice to be out.
Wow. Unreal.

Look at the view.
Stunning up here.

Look at the boats.
Oh, my God.

Shall we sit right there,
with that lovely view?

# I'm chasing paradise with you. #

What was yesterday?
JOE GASPS

What was going on?
What did you see?

What did you actually see yesterday?
Please tell me.

Yeah, I wanna know, actually.
I thought, "What is going on?"

All I could see
is Junaid clapping...

JOE LAUGHS

..and I thought
that is gonna infuriate anyone

cos he's so patronising
with the clapping.

THEY LAUGH

You're pointing your finger.

You were then saying
Jordan should support Ella.

It's where it's got escalated
that didn't need to.

It was bad. It was really bad.
It was bad.

It was really, really bad.

For the day one, I've never known a
trip abroad day one to everyone row.

The only reason I started shouting
at Girl Band and everyone else,

being like,
"Come and say it to my face!"

was because
when I was defending Freddie,

I thought
they were all laughing at me.

It doesn't matter if they are.

But I thought they were laughing
at me, so I felt that big,

and I thought,
"Oh, my God, "Oh, my God."

But then you don't have to do that.
I don't want...

You can just walk away and go,
"Do you know what, I'm gonna leave."

Junaid, I was dragging you.
I was dragging him down the pool.

Make it a hundred times bigger,
I know that's your personality,

you're very strong,
big personality, I get that,

but sometimes, situations that
didn't need to escalate to that...

I don't want...
..walk away.

I wanted to say this,
hand on my heart,

I came here with good vibes.

I don't want rows
I don't want arguments,

I don't wanna walk down,
I don't wanna...

You could've fooled me yesterday.
THEY LAUGH

That wasn't your row.
You didn't need to get involved.

You did. I was defending Freddie,
and I stand by Freddie.

But also, in our defence,
we was chilling on our own.

Yeah. Everyone come to us.
I know that.

Listen,
youse have been good as gold.

If you'd come to Portugal
15 years ago,

you'd be the one screaming
by the pool.

Oh, I get it. Yeah, I would.
You'd be in the pool.

# Oh

# You give me that velvet sunshine

# Like everything's all right

# Now, oh, oh-oh... #

Do you, erm, want me
to take the twins for an hour

while you can enjoy your prosecco?

Now we're talking!
Now we're talking! Yeah!

Seeing as it's your birthday.

Yay! Ready? Enjoy your prosecco.

Harry, I love you so much.

Couldn't have got me a double pram,
could you?

Not the single two prams.

Love youse.
See you.

How do you do this?!

Bye. I loved you. You were
the best girlfriend I ever had.

# Oh

# You give me that velvet sunshine

# Like everything's all right... #

SHE SCREAMS

LAUGHS

# You're my velvet sunshine... #

Oh. Grow up.

# You're my velvet sunshine
Sunshine. #

WHISPERS: Just listen.
Silence.

Pure silence.
I know.

No kids running around.
No screaming.

I know.

When was the last time
that we had act...

you know, five minutes on our own,
let alone... I know.

..a meal like this
amazing setting, on holiday?

With me and you, I think
we need to appreciate each other,

and I think lately, we have not
really been appreciating each other.

Look, I...
I love... I love our life.

It's absolutely amazing,
you know I love the kids,

like, it's...
it's a dream to have children,

you know, and I've got four.

It's... I absolutely love it, but...

..I still want our relationship
to be amazing as well,

and it hasn't been.

You know, it has... it...
I know it's been tough.

I feel like my world was,
like, falling apart, you know.

Yeah, but this is... You know, look,
when I got that call from your dad,

that... it just really upset me.

You know, and then
I had to break that news to you,

do you know what I mean?

Look, don't get upset.

Look, I know it's...
I know it's tough,

and I know it's... I know it's hard.

It was just so shit.

I know it was.
Look, it... You know, I...

I know you come in
and said Mum's had a heart attack,

I just didn't know, like, what to...
I just didn't know what to do.

Like, Mum... it was just...
My body was in shock.

If you're feeling low,
or you're feeling down,

or you wanna talk about it,
you come to me and talk about it.

I always put, like,
a wall up for everyone,

and sometimes,
I just need to let that wall down.

It's just been tough, babe.

She's had a...
like, a major heart attack,

you know,
you can't play anything down here.

You know, it's serious.
I know.

And it's gonna take time
for her to get through it.

I know, and everyone's, like,
coming up to me going,

"Why aren't you getting married?"

That's... Everyone's saying...
come up to me.

I just feel like everyone
is on me at the minute. Mm.

The best thing for me and you to do
was not get married this year.

Mm, no.
I think it's the best thing.

Even though, like, in a way,

I feel a bit gutted because
I was so excited to get married,

and I feel like that was...

every girl wants to get married,
don't they?

We're not saying
we're not gonna get married. I know.

We're not saying we're gonna...
we're breaking up.

You know, we're still together
and coming away.

I feel like the last couple of days

has just brought us
closer together already.

I've felt a bit flat lately.

Me and you have not sat together,
just me and you,

I'd probably say for six months.

I'd say probably longer.

I just think what we need to do

is if we can nick a little two,
three hours in the daytime

when no kids are around,
go and do something fun,

just me and you,
just take a bit of time out.

That's where I think
our relationship's gonna get back

to being, you know,
unbelievable again.

We just don't take the moments
for us...

..to have moments like this,
do you know what I mean?

And that's what we need.

And do you know what, I feel like
tonight, we definitely needed this.

Happy birthday, babe.

Give us a kiss.

# If heaven's for lovers
That's where we'll be. #

# The only way is up! #

# True as the sun sets
You'll be fine

# Tonight, I'll leave it all behind

# I can't breathe
You can't love me like I need

# If I stay
It won't change nothing but me... #

How are things, sir? You good?
Yeah, not bad. Yourself?

Amazing.
Please, what can I get for you?

Could I get a beer
and a porn star martini?

Beer and a porn star? Yeah.
Sure, I'll make it in a second.

# Will the world
Keep spinning round now?

# If I stay

# Yeah

# If I stay

# Yeah. #

Hello.
Hello.

All right?
CHUCKLING: Yeah. Are you all right?

Yeah, I'm not the one
that's had the hump all day.

But how can you expect me
to be any different?

What do you mean?
I've been absolutely fine with you.

No, I'm not saying about you,
but about everyone else.

Everyone else seems to think
that they know what's happened,

and they obviously don't.

Well, who's got opinions on it?
Your friends.

My friends?
Yeah.

Well, my friends...
Jordan has a lot to say.

Yeah, well,
my friends are only just going by...

Your story.
..what happened at the time.

What do you mean "my story"?
It was what happened at the time.

Yeah, but it wasn't...

What everyone's saying that it is,
it wasn't how it was.

I never left you to go on a TV show,
that wasn't the way it was at all.

No, yeah,
but I've never said that either.

But that's what Jordan screamed
across the pool.

I've said to everyone that me and
you agreed to go our separate ways.

You was the one
that started making out

that you'd called things off with
me - that weren't the way it went.

Me and you had a row, you went,

"I'm sick of this," and I went,
"Yeah, I'm sick of this,"

and we had a big conversation -
after our initial row -

we had a long conversation about how
we both agreed it weren't working.

I don't know
how much I could've give you.

I don't know what else
you really wanted from me.

I just feel like I don't think
you always think properly

about how you're being
in the relationship.

No, I probably don't.
It wasn't just about me.

So, what did I not give you
that you wanted from me?

You say I didn't put
the full amount of effort in,

I don't think
you really put effort into it.

Cos there was no communication.
Giving attention back with it.

No, cos I never got none from you.

It's a two-way street,
the relationship.

I never got anything from you.

There was times
I tried to make plans with you.

It's all, "Whatever,"
and blase with you.

Yeah, because I didn't feel
like it was off of your own back.

I felt like it was a situation where

you was half forced into
wanting to do them things for me

because I was
half begging you for it.

I should never have had to push you
to ask me to be your girlfriend.

It makes me sad,
cos I want someone to want me.

I didn't feel like you wanted me.
Yeah, but I was with you then.

I was fully with you in my eyes.

SHE SNIFFLES,
SOBS

I didn't feel
like you 100% wanted it.

So we both felt the same.
We was both acting the same.

And this is the problem
with this whole thing...

..is that we're too... we're almost
too alike for it to have worked.

Because we act the same
when we have an argument...

..we acted the same in terms
of the effort we put into it...

..and we was both waiting for
the other person to show something,

and we ended up both just...
never giving the full amount.

# I am hard to love
Know what you've thought

# Am I? Am I? Am I?

# I don't wanna be cold any more

# I don't wanna be cold... #

You all right?
Are you good?

Yeah, good thank you.

Thank you for my drink.
That's OK.

You all right?
Yeah, not bad, you?

Yeah, good, thank you.
You look lovely.

Thanks, babe. As do you.

How are you?
I'm all right. How are you?

Erm...

I don't know,
as all right as I can be.

Dunno. It's just... weird, nah?
Mm.

I don't know,
you seem to think that it's not.

Well, I do now, but...

..I didn't before, no.

I can't go at, like...

Obviously, you said you don't want
me to feel awkward and stuff,

and, like, I get that,
and I don't want to feel awkward,

but, like, I can't go from...

..like, having mad feelings
for someone...

..really, like...

like, fancying someone and staying
with someone and kissing someone,

to then just, like, just, all
of that's gone, and I'm just pals.

I think naturally for me,
it just felt like it fizzled out,

and I should've probably been
a bit more vocal,

and I do... think that
my communication skills are rubbish.

If your feelings have changed,
that's not your fault,

that's absolutely fine,
but it was like...

I remember I said to you
so many times, like,

"Something's different,
something's off,"

and you said, "No, there's not,"
but, like...

I feel like
it just sort of switched up.

I dunno, it just felt
like we didn't date as much.

I know, and you said that...
And that was just it.

..and then I took you out loads.

I feel like you don't realise

how much, like, I actually really...
did and do like you.

Like, I would've done anything.
Yeah.

That's one
of my favourite things to do is...

take the person you love out
and have a fun date night,

and that's what I love to do, but...

And I-I... Like I said,
I can't read your mind,

I didn't know that's what you'd
rather do until you said something.

I just felt like we went
from getting to know each other,

making all the plans
to, like, do loads of stuff,

only doing, like, a fraction of
the stuff when we actually got out,

to then it just being like we was
like we'd been together three years.

Just need a minute.
OK.

# And it crept up on us
In the way that it does

# And the moment disappeared... #
ELMA SNIFFLES

# In the desert of us
All our tears turned to dust

# Now the roses don't grow here

# I guess that
Love does what it wants

# And that's just too bad for us. #

I don't really know
what else there is to say. Mm.

It's a shame.

And that's all it is, really.
Yeah, it is a shame.

I know. I don't...

SHE SIGHS
I don't even know what to say.

But whatever you think I showed
or didn't show,

I want you to know that I cared...
cared a lot about it.

So I don't know
how we move forward from here.

Just see what happens.

Yeah.

Shit, though, innit?

Well, yeah, obviously.
HE CHUCKLES LIGHTLY

Course it is.

Can you stop looking in my eyes?

Because I really can't deal with it.
I'm just looking at you.

THEY CHUCKLE

You're looking in my eyes.

I'm not, I'm looking at your nose.
Looking at my nose?

HE CHUCKLES

Yeah.

Well, I wonder what the rest
of the trip's gonna bring.

It's not looking good, is it?
I might just stay in my room.

Yeah.

Take myself off.
Ain't a bad idea for ya.

Piss off.
HE CHUCKLES

Go find someone else to sit with.
THEY GIGGLE

Listen, and I don't know
how we do this moving forward.

It's not, obviously, it's not easy.

And if you feel something,
or you'd... or...

Whatever it is, if something
happens, just talk to me.

SOFTLY: OK.

I'll be cool with you,
I'll be there for you, of course.

Like, I... I care about you.

Don't go on the attack with me,
just talk to me.

I don't wanna go on the attack
with you. No, I know.

But it's more out of frustration...

that things didn't work
the way that I wanted it to.

Mm, yeah, I get that.
And that's it.

Let's be cool, then.

Do you wanna spud me?

Do you wanna spud me?

Mate.

HE CHUCKLES

You can call me that now,
cos I am your mate.

THEY CHUCKLE

Come on.

What about best mates?

Best mates?
Yeah.

HE CHUCKLES

What, you think
that's gonna work any better?

It did in the beginning, didn't it?
No, not for long.

# Don't smile because it happened
Baby, cry because it's over

# I want you to miss me
I want you to miss me... #

You sort of didn't really...

You didn't say it was done
in the text,

so I didn't know what was going on.

I said it was a shame that it...
that it, I-I wasn't...

Yeah, well, you just put, like,
"It's a shame."

So in my head, I'm thinking,
"Right, so..."

I thought I'd...

"Does that mean we're done...?"
I'm shit at communicating.

I read them messages
like I was saying...

Yeah, it's coming from you, you know
how you think about that. Yeah.

I'm reading them and thinking,
"Right..."

It shouldn't have been done
through message anyway.

But then I didn't...
I didn't know if it was done,

and I never saw you again until
we saw each other at the airport,

and then you're saying, "Oh, like,
why are you being awkward?"

And that's why.

My pals are asking, my mum's asking,
"Oh, so, what's going on?"

I was like, "I don't actually know,"
like.... I didn't know.

I feel my messages were clear,
though.

CHUCKLING: They weren't.

They were.
No, they weren't. You just said...

You put a big message
about a load of stuff,

and then just said, "It's a shame."

HE SNIFFLES

Don't get upset.
I'm not.

Please don't.

I don't want you to be upset,
this is so shit.

Just give me a minute.

Oh, Sammy, don't.

It's shit.
It's so shit.

TEARILY:
That's why I hate having feelings.

HE SIGHS

HE SNIFFLES

Anyone that knows me,
I'm not an emotional person.

It's like when I do get like this...

CHUCKLING: ..I don't know
what to fucking do.

I don't know how to cope,
I don't know how...

It's just all weird.

I don't even know what to say.

You don't have to say anything.
It's fine.

And now I know how you feel,
we can just, like,

we can just sort of put it to bed
and move on. And that's fine.

It was like, before we had
this chat, it was like I didn't...

didn't really know, like...

I didn't know
if I should be trying,

or if I should be leaving it,
like...

And now I know
I just need to leave it.

It's just so fresh that it's just
gonna take me a bit of time to...

..like, go back to being...
just, like, pals.

# You know it's over when it's over
When it's over, baby

# I guess it's time
To let it go... #

Well, I'll just give you time.
SAMMY SNIFFLES

That's all I can do.

Cos I don't wanna lose you
from my life completely. No.

And you won't.
I'm telling you now, you won't.

Like, I'll always be there,
and, like, anything you ever need...

Like I said to you, I think of you
so highly, and, like...

Just need to get used
to not kissing you.

HE CHUCKLES

# It's coming on real slow
It's out of our control

# And every time you breathe

# A piece of us is dying... #
Give me a cuddle.

I really...
It's fine!

# So tell me how you feel
Was any of this real?

# It's hard to see the good
Through all the tears I'm crying

# Thought we were meant to be

# Guess we were meant to be

# With other people. #

TEARILY: He was so upset.
Like, he was so up...

No, you don't understand, like...

Imagine seeing a geezer cry.

I'll be honest now, girls,
I'm very relevant.

The bottom line of it is...

Don't say that to her,
do you know what I mean?

You owe her an apology.

Ella hasn't really been
a friend to me for the last year.

And I feel like I'm taking a step
back from you, Ella, because...

I took a step back from you
a long time ago, Harry.

What's going on with you
and Harry D?

Harry took it upon himself
to play victim, like he does,

and make the situation about him.

I don't regret my opinion,
like, babes... Good on you, yeah.

Give me the mic,
I'll say it again.

I can't help
that I'm straight talking

and no-one can handle the heat.

You're not "straight talking",
you're fucking rude sometimes. OK.

Don't point your fingers at me.
Don't make yourself so busy, then!

No, you're giving it to me,
so I'll give it to you back.

# The only, only, only
Only, only, only, only

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# The only way is up, baby

# For you and me now

# Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh. #
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