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LOVE & HIP-HOP: ATLANTA...

SHE DON'T KNOW ABOUT...

YEAH, NOTHING.

NOTHING?

[laughs]

WHAT? WHAT? WHAT?

HEY, GIRL.

THIS IS SHAY,

SCRAPPY'S FRIEND.

FRIEND.

I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW

HE WAS THERE WITH A WOMAN.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO

SAY.

AND I'M GONNA LEAVE THAT DOOR

AGAIN OPEN FOR YOU, RASHEEDA.

I WOULD STILL LIKE TO GO

IN THE STUDIO WITHOUT KIRK.

SO BASIC, I'M ABOUT TO GET

FIRED, IS WHAT YOU TELLING ME.

[crying] I JUST DON'T WANT--

I DON'T WANT TO SAY THAT.

WHAT'S IN THE BOX?

WHOA.

I GOT GOOSEBUMPS.

WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THIS

BENZINO GUY I'VE BEEN HEARING

ABOUT?

I LIKE HIM.

HE LOVES ME.

SHUT UP, KARLIE.

THEY NEED TO GET YOU A HIT

MOTHER[bleep] RECORD.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

'CAUSE IT'S NOT LIKE YOU SO

MOTHER[bleep] HOT YOURSELF

EITHER.

I WANT US ALL TO SIT DOWN

AT A COUNSELOR SO WE ALL

CAN BE ABLE TO WORK TOGETHER.

ALL THREE OF US?

YEAH.

HE'S REALLY THINKING

HE'S IN A THREE-WAY

RELATIONSHIP.

YOU TRYING TO CONTINUE

ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH HER?

I'M--I'M WITH HIM RIGHT NOW,

JOSELINE.

YOU GUYS LIVING TOGETHER?

YES, I'M IN THE HOUSE.

YES, I HAVE BEEN THERE.

BITCH!

* THIS IS THE LIFE

♪ THIS IS THE LIFE

* YEAH

* THIS IS THE LIFE

♪ THIS IS THE LIFE

* 'SUP ♪

* THIS IS THE LIFE

♪ THIS IS THE LIFE

* HUH

* THIS IS THE LIFE

♪ THIS IS THE LIFE

* HUH

♪ THERE AIN'T NOTHING LIKE ♪

♪ HIP-HOP MUSIC

♪ MUSIC

* THIS IS THE LIFE

♪ THIS IS THE LIFE

JOSELINE, JOSELINE.

CALM DOWN, JOSELINE.

HEY, LET GO OF ME!

LET GO OF ME!

NO!

JOSELINE.

YOU KNOW, EVER SINCE I MET

STEVIE, HE SAY THAT MIMI'S

BEEN NOTHING BUT THE BABY MAMA.

HE TELLS ME HE LOVE ME,

BUT WHEN I'M NOT AROUND,

HE GOES HOME TO MIMI.

JOSELINE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND

WHY WE'RE THERE.

NOT TO PUNCH THE [bleep]

OUT OF EACH OTHER,

BUT TO MOVE FORWARD.

PUT IT ALL ON THE TABLE.

AND I DON'T REACT WELL

TO PUNCHES, SO HAD TO GET

THE [bleep] OUT OF THERE.

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT

ALL ABOUT?

BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY THERE'S

STILL [bleep] AND EVERYTHING

ELSE.

I'M SAYING, OBVIOUSLY

THEY'RE STILL [bleep]

AND HE'S STILL WHATEVER HE'S

SAYING TO HER FOR HER TO GO

TO [bleep] OFF LIKE THAT

IF I SAID I'M STAYING WITH HIM.

I JUST SAID THAT--

"OH, I BEEN AT THE HOUSE"--

JUST TO SEE HER REACTION.

SURE ENOUGH,

SHE JUMPS UP AND PUNCHES HIM

SMACK DAB IN HIS FACE.

DO YOU FEEL THAT YOU'VE JUST

COMPROMISED WAY TOO MUCH?

YES.

I FEEL LIKE A [bleep]

RIGHT NOW

FOR EVEN BELIEVING

THE BULL[bleep].

AGAIN.

I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS.

THIS IS BULL[bleep].

I WOULD LOVE TO GET HER SIDE

OF THE STORY, 'CAUSE I GOT HIS,

BUT I WOULD LOVE TO GET HERS.

LET ME SEE WHAT I CAN DO.

THE BOTTOM LINE IS,

HE'S NOT GONNA STOP.

GO DO YOU AND BE HAPPY

DOING YOU, 'CAUSE GUESS WHAT?

I'M ABOUT TO GO DO ME.

JOSELINE, WHAT HAPPENED

IN THERE?

HE ALWAYS LIES TO ME

AND TELLS ME HE WANTS

TO BE WITH ME.

EVERY TIME I LEAVE HIM,

HE ALWAYS COMES LOOKING FOR ME,

AND I ALWAYS TAKE HIM BACK.

BUT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THEY

WERE STAYING TOGETHER.

DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HIM

AND MIMI?

THAT'S MY PROBLEM.

I REALLY DON'T KNOW

'CAUSE HE'S ALWAYS AROUND ME.

HE ALWAYS COME TO ME.

HE ALWAYS COMES GET ME BACK.

"I LOVE YOU.

I WANT TO MAKE IT WORK.

I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU."

WHAT DO YOU THINK THE TRUTH

IS FOR YOU?

THE TRUTH IS, FOR ME,

I NEED TO LET THAT GO.

YOU KNOW, I NEED TO LET THIS

WHOLE SITUATION WITH STEVIE GO

BECAUSE HE'S A PLAYER,

HE'S A LAIR AND A CHEATER.

AND I HAVE TO DO WHAT'S RIGHT

FOR ME.

WHERE DO YOU COME FROM?

WHO'S YOUR FAMILY?

I DON'T KNOW.

I THINK I JUST HAVE A HARD

TIME BECAUSE I NEVER REALLY

HAD A MOM TO BE THERE FOR ME

OR A DAD TO BE THERE FOR ME.

SO I FEEL LIKE I TAKE EVERYTHING

AND I BELIEVE EVERYTHING

THAT HE SAYS TO ME

BECAUSE IT'S LIKE, I NEVER HAD

THAT FROM ANYONE.

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR MOM

AND YOUR DAD?

I HAVE A STEPDAD,

AND MY MOM, SHE NEVER REALLY

TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO ANYTHING.

I'VE BEEN ON MY OWN SINCE

I WAS, LIKE, 13.

13?

YEAH, I USED TO RUN AWAY

A LOT FROM THE HOUSE

'CAUSE I NEVER HAD NO SUPPORT.

I REALLY WONDER

WHAT JOSELINE WILL DO

TO BE LOVED, BECAUSE SHE NEVER

REALLY GOT THE LOVE THAT

SHE WANTED.

AND I THINK WE NEED TO FIND OUT

WHAT'S REALLY GONNA HAPPEN

WITH THIS SITUATION

BETWEEN THE THREE OF YOU.

YES?

YEAH.

OKAY.

AFTER TALKING TO K,

I'M GONNA HOOK UP WITH SCRAPPY

TO FIND OUT WHAT'S REALLY GOING

ON, YOU KNOW, AFTER FINDING

OUT HE SHOWED UP AT HIS MIX TAPE

RELEASE PARTY WITH SHAY.

AND WE JUST GONNA LINK UP

AT THE PARK BECAUSE I DON'T

WANT HIM AT THE HOUSE.

EMANI'S ALREADY BEEN ASKING

QUESTIONS.

SOMETHING YOU WANT TO TELL ME?

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO

HEAR?

I'M JUST PUTTING IT OUT

THERE.

IS THERE ANY INFORMATION

THAT I NEED TO KNOW

FROM YOU FIRST?

LIKE WHAT?

I WAS TOLD THAT, YOU KNOW,

YOU HAD YOUR MIX TAPE RELEASE

PARTY.

THEY SAY YOU WALKED IN

WITH A GIRL BY THE NAME OF SHAY.

SO I WANT TO KNOW, I MEAN,

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I KNOW HOW IT SOUND,

BUT THAT AIN'T WHAT IT IS,

THOUGH.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

LIKE, I AIN'T MESSING WITH THAT.

I AIN'T TOUCHING THAT.

JUST FRIENDS?

JUST FRIENDS.

WE JUST FRIENDS.

HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH HER?

NO.

NEVER?

NO.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

FROM WHAT I HEARD,

SCRAPPY AND SHAY ARE DEFINITELY

MORE THAN JUST FRIENDS.

HE HAS A PATTERN OF DOING THIS,

AND AT THIS POINT,

I DON'T BELIEVE HIM

IN ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM.

SHE NOT IN MY LIFE LIKE THAT.

EVIDENTLY SHE IS.

YOU AT EVENTS WITH HER.

YOU AT YOUR MIX TAPE

RELEASE PARTY WITH YOU WALKING

IN WITH HER.

THAT'S MY FRIEND, YOU FEEL

ME?

AND THEN I'M NOT WITH YOU,

SO AT THE TIME I CAN GO

AND DO WHATEVER I WANT.

WHY?

YOU NOT WITH ME, BUT YOU TEXTING

ME.

YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME.

YOU SAY YOU MISS ME.

YOU WANT TO KICK IT WITH ME.

BUT THEN YOU--

WHAT THAT GOT TO DO--

WHAT THAT GOT TO DO

WITH ME BRINGING MY FRIEND,

WITH MY FRIEND?

WHAT YOU WANT?

BABY MAMA TO JUST BE AT HOME

TAKE CARE--YOU MEANT,

"OH, YEAH, YEAH, YEAH,

THIS MY BABY MAMA."

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?

I CAN RUN WITH WHO I WANT

TO RUN WITH.

IT'S MY RELEASE PARTY.

SHAY IS MY BEST FRIEND.

SHE CAN BE THERE.

NO PROBLEMS, NO NOTHING,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

WE HAVING A GOOD ASS TIME.

AND MY WHOLE THING BE LIKE,

EMANI, LIKE, WHAT DOES SHE,

LIKE--A SEVEN-YEAR-OLD,

HOW IS SHE TO FEEL ABOUT

ALL THIS, YOU KNOW?

FOR, YOU KNOW, HER DADDY

TO DO HER MAMA LIKE THAT

INSTEAD OF HOW SHE'S SUPPOSED

TO BE TREATED BY A MAN?

LIKE, DO YOU WANT ANYBODY

TO THINK THAT?

I DON'T WANT ANYBODY

TO THINK THAT?

WHAT YOU THINK SHE GONNA BE

ABLE TO DO JUST LIKE WHO?

LIKE YOU, RIGHT?

HOW WOULD IT MAKE YOU FEEL?

MESS ME UP.

WHEN I SEEN ERICA CRY,

IT'S LIKE, WOW,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

LIKE, SHE REALLY GOT FEELINGS.

YOU KNOW, SHE REALLY MUST LOVE

ME, 'CAUSE I NEVER SEEN HER

DO EMOTIONS LIKE THAT.

I WASN'T THINKING THAT IT

WOULD HURT YOUR FEELINGS.

'CAUSE I WASN'T ALL UP ON HER

DOING NONE OF THAT.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,

I JUST LOVE YOU.

YOU'VE SAID THIS BEFORE.

"LIKE, LET'S MOVE FORWARD.

LET'S DO THIS.

I'M ALL IN."

BUT IT'S LIKE, DAMN,

YOU GIVE UP SO EASY.

HOW AM I TO KNOW THAT,

LIKE, THIS FOR REAL,

LIKE, YOU REALLY, REALLY

MOVING FORWARD?

WELL, CHECK THIS OUT:

AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN YOU

CAN'T DO NOTHING BUT TAKE

MY WORD FOR IT AND PRAY

ABOUT IT.

[knocking on door]

WHAT'S UP, JOS?

WHERE'S STEVIE AT?

HE AIN'T HERE.

HE NOT HERE?

NO.

I WENT TO BENZINO'S HOUSE

TO GO LOOK FOR STEVIE,

'CAUSE I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM

SINCE I PUNCHED HIM IN THE

THERAPIST'S OFFICE THE OTHER

DAY.

AND HE'S BEEN STAYING THERE

LATELY.

I NEED SOME ANSWERS FROM STEVIE.

HE'S BEEN PLAYING ME AND MIMI.

AND I STILL WANT TO TALK

TO HIM ABOUT IT.

HE TELLS ME TO GO TO COUNSELING

WITH HIM AND MIMI.

RIGHT.

AND IT ONLY LASTED

LITERALLY TWO MINUTES

BECAUSE SHE SAID,

"WELL, I'VE BEEN STAYING WITH

HIM."

OH.

I CLICKED AND I PUNCHED

THAT [bleep] RIGHT IN HIS

[bleep].

YOU--

YES, 'CAUSE I WAS JUST HERE

WITH HIM THE NIGHT BEFORE,

HAVING SEX WITH HIM IN THE OTHER

ROOM.

YEAH, BUT SEX IS--

I KNOW SEX IS--

SEX IS WHAT?

I MEAN, DO Y'ALL MAKE LOVE

OR Y'ALL HAVE SEX?

IF Y'ALL ARE HAVING SEX,

THAT'S A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY

FROM MAKING--

WE DO EVERYTHING.

LOVE SEX, DIRTY SEX,

EVERY SEX.

WHEN YOU GOT INTO THE

SITUATION WITH STEVIE,

YOU KNEW THAT HE WAS WITH MIMI?

DID YOU KNOW THAT?

NO.

HE NEVER TOLD ME HE WAS IN

A RELATIONSHIP WITH MIMI.

WELL, LOOKIT, THOUGH.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,

YOU'RE STILL GONNA HAVE TO DEAL

WITH STEVIE, WHETHER IT'S GONNA

BE LOVE, WHETHER IT'S GONNA

BE BUSINESS.

AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU HAVE

THE MENTAL TO SEPARATE THE TWO.

NO, YOUR HOMEBOY DOESN'T

HAVE IT.

I HAVE IT.

YOU AIN'T GOING NOWHERE.

OH, YOU SOUND LIKE HIM NOW.

STEVIE'S IN LOVE WITH TWO

WOMEN, BUT NEITHER OF THEM

IS REALLY WILLING TO WALK AWAY.

JOSELINE KEEPS SAYING SHE'S

GONNA MOVE ON, BUT COME ON.

WE ALL KNOW THAT SHE AIN'T

GOING NOWHERE.

I JUST DON'T SEE IT.

YOU AIN'T GOT TO SEE IT.

I MEAN, YOU KNOW--

'CAUSE I DON'T LIKE THAT

[bleep], BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHY?

IT'S NASTY.

I JUST HAD SEX WITH YOU

IN THE ROOM.

WE DON'T USE CONDOMS.

YOU BE LYING TO ME ABOUT

SLEEPING WITH MIMI.

YOU DISGUST ME RIGHT NOW.

BUT YOU LOVE HIM.

HOW DO I THINK IT'S NOT

JUST THE [bleep] IS GOOD?

WELL, THAT IS A TYPE OF LOVE.

WELL, I CAN ALWAYS FIND

SOMEBODY ELSE TO PUT IT DOWN

LIKE THAT.

HE CARES ABOUT BOTH OF Y'ALL,

AND THAT'S JUST HOW IT IS.

YOU NEED TO TALK TO YOUR

HOMIE AND LET HIM KNOW

THAT I NEED MY ANSWERS.

HIM, ME, AND MIMI GONNA HAVE

TO SIT DOWN AGAIN,

AND THAT'S THAT.

I'M TIRED OF DEALING

WITH THIS [bleep].

BUT THIS TIME AROUND,

IT'S NOT GONNA BE NO PUNCHING,

'CAUSE EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE

ON THE TABLE.

THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT

OF THERAPY, JOSELINE.

TALK TO HIM SO HE CAN

DO IT AGAIN, 'CAUSE YOU KNOW

HE'S A SCARED LITTLE BITCH.

I'M GONE.

I'M TIRED OF TALKING ABOUT

THIS [bleep].

BUT WHAT ABOUT--

NO TALK TO HIM,

AND I SEE HIM IN [bleep]

THERAPY IF HE WANT TO TALK.

ALL RIGHTY, THEN.

WELL, AND YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY.

I'M STRESSED OUT WITH IT,

THOUGH.

YOU AIN'T READY FOR

A RELATIONSHIP.

HOW DO PLAYERS PLAY?

ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.

YA HEARD?

HEY.

IN MY PERFECT WORLD,

I COULD GET THEM TO WORK

TOGETHER.

YOU WANT TO LOVE THEM BOTH.

YEAH.

WHAT HAPPENED TO SAYING

I'M SORRY THAT HAPPENED TO YOU!

THAT MAN BEAT MY ASS!

SO YOU KNOW, I'M FITTING

TO GO GET MY WIG SPLIT,

MY HAIR CUT, YOU KNOW.

AT THE SAME TIME,

I TEXT MOMMA DEE, LET HER COME

BY, HOLLER AT ME ABOUT

MY LITTLE FEMALE PROBLEMS.

SHE USUALLY ON POINT WITH IT,

SO I'M TRYING TO SEE

WHAT SHE FEEL ABOUT IT.

I HAD A LITTLE CONVERSATION

WITH ERICA,

YOUR WAS-TO-BE DAUGHTER-IN-LAW,

AND ME AND HER HAD A

CONVERSATION ABOUT TRYING

TO MAKE IT WORK OR GET BACK

TOGETHER, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M

SAYING?

NO, DEAR, YOU DIDN'T.

WELL, THAT'S MY BABY MAMA.

I GOT A KID WITH HER.

GUESS WHAT, I GOT A KID

BY YOUR DADDY, BUT WHEN IT WAS

OVER, IT WAS OVER.

LISTEN, YOU AND MY DADDY,

Y'ALL ARE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE.

AND SO ARE YOU AND ERICA.

WOW.

YOU TELL ME WHAT MAMA

WALKING AROUND GONNA APPRECIATE

A WOMAN THAT WALK OFF

FROM HER CHILD WHEN HER CHILD

ALL MESSED UP?

YOU REALLY THINK I'M FEELING

THAT BITCH?

MA, DON'T CALL HER NO BITCH.

I MEAN, IT'S EMANI MAMA.

ALL RIGHT.

HE GONNA TELL ME HE DONE

DIPPED BACK IN THE DIP SACK

SAYING HE TRIED TO GIVE HER

ANOTHER CHANCE?

HE NEEDS TO GET A NEW PIECE

OF A-S-S AND MOVE ON.

AND, YES, SHE IS A BITCH.

B-I-C-T-H.

AND IN THAT ORDER.

HMM.

THEN YOU GOT MY--

YOU KNOW, MY BEST FRIEND,

YOU KNOW, WHICH...

OH, YEAH, SHAY.

I WANT TO BE LIKE HOW

I USED TO BE.

YOU KNOW HOW I WAS

WITH DIAMOND?

LIKE, I WAS LIKE--

BUT WHEN THAT [bleep] HAPPENED,

IT'S LIKE, I'M NOT EVEN

A GOOD JUDGE OF CHARACTER,

YOU FEEL ME?

NOT RIGHT NOW.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GIRLFRIEND

MATERIAL.

MM-HMM.

WHEN I GET WITH A GIRL,

I DON'T GOT THAT EXTRA OOMPH

THAT MAKE ME FEEL LIKE,

"OH, BABY, YOU KNOW..."

WOW.

I'M STRESSED OUT WITH IT,

THOUGH.

YOU AIN'T READY FOR A

RELATIONSHIP.

BUT KEEP IT REAL WITH THEM.

LET THEM COME IN AND OUT.

AND LET THEM KNOW

YOU ON THE IN AND YOU OUT.

DO WHAT PLAYERS DO.

HOW DO PLAYERS PLAY?

ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.

YA HEARD?

THAT'S WHY I LOVE MY MAMA,

BUT I DON'T KNOW.

LIKE, SHE JUST WANT ME TO BE

ON SOME [bleep] TYPE STUFF,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING,

SOME PLAYER TYPE STUFF.

AND I AIN'T TRYING TO HURT

ERICA, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

I LOVE HER.

AND SURE AS HELL AIN'T TRYING

TO HURT SHAY.

THAT'S THE HOMIE.

I'M GONNA PUT AN

ALL-POINT BULLETIN OUT.

SCRAPPY READY TO DATE.

[scoffs]

HE'LL BE GOOD.

HE'S IN GOOD HANDS,

AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT

ALL-STATE.

I'M NOT NODDING ON MY WATCH.

YA HEARD ME?

I'M GONNA GET OUT OF HERE.

ALL RIGHT.

I KNOW HOW TO FIND YOUR ASS.

YEAH, SEE YOU.

I LOVE YOU SO.

I LOVE YOU, TOO, MAMA.

HOLLA AT YA [bleep].

BYE, BABY.

BYE.

SO MY GIRL ERICA HIT ME UP

SO WE COULD MEET UP,

DO A LITTLE SHOPPING,

AND VENT ABOUT THESE CRAZY MEN

THAT WE HAVE IN OUR LIVES.

I MIGHT NEED A LITTLE ADVICE

ANYWAY.

SO GIRL, WHAT'S BEEN GOING

ON?

OH, DEALING WITH SCRAPPY'S

MAGGOT ASS.

I TALKED TO K, AND K TELLS ME

HE SHOWS UP TO HIS MIX TAPE

RELEASE PARTY WITH SHAY.

I MEET UP AND TALK TO HIM,

AND HE JUST LIKE, "OH,

WE FRIENDS," AND, "YOU KNOW

I LOVE YOU, AND I HAVE TO

CONTINUE TO TELL HER WE

FRIENDS."

WELL, IF THE BITCH A FRIEND,

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE

TO TELL HER YOU FRIENDS,

FIRST OF ALL?

I THINK HE'S [bleep] LYING.

MM-HMM.

OH, I KNOW THAT HE LYING.

LIKE, YOU NOT FOOLING ME.

YOU FOOLING YOUR DAMN SELF.

RIGHT, MM-HMM.

SO GO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO,

AND I'MA DEFINITELY DO

WHAT I WANT TO DO.

I'M GONNA BE HAPPY,

AND THAT'S WITHOUT YOU.

THE MORE I THINK ABOUT MY

RELATIONSHIP WITH SCRAPPY,

THE MORE I THINK IT NEEDS

TO END.

WE BOTH WERE MAYBE HOPING

FOR SOMETHING TO WORK OUT

IN A RELATIONSHIP,

BUT WE'RE HOLDING ON

TO SOMETHING THAT'S JUST NOT

GONNA WORK OUT.

I HAD TO REALIZE THAT HE'S

STILL A LITTLE BOY,

SO HE STILL HAS A LOT

OF GROWTH TO DO.

RIGHT.

AND THAT JUST COMES

WITH MOMMA DEE,

BUT ULTIMATELY HE'S GONNA END UP

LIKE HER.

HE'S GONNA BE 50 YEARS OLD,

MISERABLE, YOU KNOW,

WITH ONE FEMALE THIS WEEK

AND THE NEXT WEEK.

I MEAN, LIKE, MOMMA DEE,

DIFFERENT DUDE EVERY WEEK

BECAUSE SOMEONE HAS TO FILL

THAT VOID.

AND I THINK HE'S GONNA BE JUST

LIKE HER 'CAUSE IT'S ALL

HE'S SEEN.

RIGHT.

WELL, YOU KNOW,

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

BUT ENOUGH ABOUT ME,

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU, HONEY?

LISTEN.

EVER SINCE KIRK AND I

WENT AND MET WITH DEB,

I'VE BEEN STRUGGLING ON WHAT

TO DO.

I KNOW I HURT HIM.

I WASN'T INTENDING ON HURTING

HIM, AND RIGHT NOW I'M JUST

STUCK.

TO BE HONEST WITH YOU,

I FELT LIKE [bleep].

WE ARGUE ABOUT MUSIC.

THAT [bleep] TRICKLES

TO THE BEDROOM.

WE AIN'T TALKING.

[bleep] BE GOING DOWN.

AND IT'S JUST, LIKE

IT'S AFFECTING EVERYTHING,

YOU KNOW?

BUT THEN I'M TORN AGAIN

BECAUSE I'M LIKE,

WELL, WHAT ABOUT THE CAREER

THAT PUTS MONEY ON THE TABLE?

WHAT--WHAT THE HELL AM I

GONNA DO?

YOU BETTER PICK YOU

SOMETHING.

[snickers]

OUT HERE, GO HOME,

MAKE IT DO WHAT IT DO,

AND Y'ALL NEED TO JUST HASH IT

ALL OUT.

I'M WILLING TO GIVE IT A TRY,

BUT I'M GONNA HAVE TO TALK

TO HIM ABOUT IT, 'CAUSE I'M

LIKE, YOU KNOW, WE GONNA HAVE

TO MAKE A DECISION.

JESUS.

COME THIS WAY.

I WAS LOOKING AT THIS.

OHO, GIRL, NOW, I--

HONEY, WITH THESE LITTLE THINGS

HERE?

IT'S OKAY.

IT'S QUITE ALL RIGHT.

SO AFTER KARLIE TOLD ME

THAT SHE DID MAKE A CHOICE

AND SHE WAS GONNA ROCK WITH ME,

YOU KNOW, I DECIDED TO TAKE HER

SOMEWHERE NICE AND JUST TO GET

AWAY, LIKE, FORGET ABOUT

THE WHOLE CAREER THING

AND JUST SIT DOWN AND KICK IT.

SO I WANT TO GET SOME

SANGRIA.

SANGRIA? YOU LIKE SANGRIA?

I LOVE SANGRIA.

REALLY?

YEAH.

DOES SOMETHING TO ME?

MAKES YOU HORNY?

[laughter]

HOW DID YOU KNOW?

FOR REAL?

IT DOES.

OH, WE GOT TO GET GALLONS

OF THAT, THEN.

[chuckles]

SO YOU REALLY LIKE

THE PHOTO SHOOT?

YEAH, YEP.

THANK YOU FOR HOOKING THAT UP

FOR ME, BABE.

AND THEN ESPECIALLY VINCE.

YOU KNOW, I KIND OF, LIKE,

WANT TO FOLLOW YOUR LEAD.

YOU'RE MY MAN.

OH, YOU DO? WORD?

YEAH.

OKAY.

'CAUSE SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE

EVERYTHING REVOLVES

AROUND KARLIE RED AND HER

CAREER.

I DON'T SUPPORT YOU

WITH YOUR CAREER?

EVERYTHING'S BEEN REVOLVED

AROUND YOU SINCE WE'VE MET.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT IS.

I FEEL LIKE IT'S REALLY ABOUT

YOUR EGO.

MY EGO?

HELL, YEAH.

BENZINO BEEN ACTING REALLY WEIRD

LATELY.

I DON'T THINK HE GOT OVER

MY MANAGER CALLING HIM COLD.

IT'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.

LET'S JUST FORGET ABOUT ALL

THAT.

YOU KNOW, THAT'S NOT WHY

I BROUGHT YOU HERE.

BABY, MY CAREER MEANS

SO MUCH TO ME.

I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR IT,

AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL--

WE KNOW YOUR CAREER

IS IMPORTANT TO YOU.

OKAY.

AS LONG AS YOU KNEW THAT

FROM THE BEGINNING...

YOU EAT, DRINK, SLEEP, TEXT,

AND [bleep] CAREER.

WOW, THE ONE GIRL WHO'S

REALLY FOCUSED,

LIKE, THAT'S REALLY A BAD THING.

I LOVE KARLIE,

BUT IT SEEMS LIKE SHE CAN'T

TALK ABOUT NOTHING OTHER THAN

HER CAREER.

I MEAN, THIS IS THE GIRL

THAT I WANT TO SPEND

THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH.

YOU KNOW THAT RING I BOUGHT?

IT'S STARTING TO FEEL REAL

HEAVY IN MY POCKET RIGHT NOW.

YOU JUST WANT TO GET

ME HOME AND ME BE BAREFOOT

AND PREGNANT.

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?

NOT NECESSARILY PREGNANT.

BAREFOOT, BUTT NAKED.

[laughs]

I'M JUST SAYING DON'T

EVERYTHING GOT TO BE--

SO WHEN I GO TO THE STUDIO--

OH, MAN, FORGET ABOUT

THE STUDIO AND STUFF FOR ONE

SECOND.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT.

LIKE, I DON'T EVEN WANT

TO TALK ABOUT THAT.

LIKE, STOP, PLEASE.

LET'S MAKE A PACT.

THE REST OF THIS CONVERSATION,

WE DON'T TALK NOTHING ABOUT

MUSIC INDUSTRY, NOTHING.

YOU THINK WE COULD DO THAT?

YOU THINK WE COULD HAVE A

CONVERSATION?

WE'LL START IT OUT

WITH ME SAYING THAT I LOVE YOU.

AW.

TOAST TO THAT.

I DON'T WANT TO EVER

MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU EVER

HAVE TO QUESTION MY LOVE

FOR YOU.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT.

I GOT TO DEAL WITH MY

MANAGERS.

THEY'RE TELLING ME, LIKE,

DON'T [bleep] WITH BENZINO.

THEY ARE, LIKE, GOING IN ON ME.

THAT'S WHY I LIKE TO COME

HERE, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW,

I'M TRYING TO LOOK FOR LOVE.

THIS DON'T HELP IT NONE,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

MEAN.

THAT'S CRAZY.

I'M SCARED OF HEIGHTS.

JOSELINE CRAZY ASS INVITES ME

TO GO ROCK CLIMBING.

I'M NOT USED TO THAT [bleep].

* I TRY TO MAKE YOU HAPPY

♪ I TRY TO MAKE YOU SMILE

♪ I TRY TO MAKE YOU LAUGH

WOW.

YAY!

OH, MY GOSH!

YES, BABY.

GOOD WORK.

WE'VE BEEN GETTING ALONG

A LITTLE BETTER SINCE WE PUT

ALL THE "HE SAY, SHE SAY"

BEHIND US.

PLUS WE'VE BEEN SEEING EACH

OTHER A LOT SINCE STEVIE J

IS STAYING OVER AT BENZINO'S.

OMG!

YOU GOT A BIG PINK ONE

RIGHT IN BETWEEN YOUR CROTCH.

IT'S A PINK ONE.

OH, MY GOD.

GET ME DOWN.

JUST GET ME DOWN.

YOU GOT TO PUT YOUR FEET

ON THE WALL.

DON'T ACT LIKE YOU NEVER DID

THAT BEFORE, NOW.

AH.

STEVIE ASKED ME

DID I WANT TO DO A COUNSELING

WITH HIM AND, YOU KNOW, MIMI.

ANYWAY, I AGREED TO GO.

[bleep] WAS YOU THINKING?

I WASN'T THINKING,

BECAUSE IF I WOULD HAVE BEEN

THINKING, I KNEW I WAS GONNA

FLIP OUT, 'CAUSE I ENDED UP

FLIPPING OUT.

I JUST HIT HIM RIGHT IN HIS

FACE.

I HIT HIM RIGHT IN HIS [bleep].

JOSELINE.

BUT, BITCH, I WANT TO GO BACK

'CAUSE I NEED HIM TO TELL

HOW HE REALLY FEELS,

PUT IT ON THE TABLE.

SO I'M GONNA GO BACK.

SO WHAT MADE YOU PUNCH HIM

IN THE FACE?

'CAUSE HE LIED.

MIMI SAID SHE WAS STAYING

AT STEVIE'S HOUSE WITH STEVIE,

BUT I'M LIKE, HOW ARE YOU

STAYING WITH STEVIE,

BUT ME AND STEVIE WENT

TO BENZINO HOUSE.

BUT I GUESS HE WAS JUST TRYING

TO PLAY THE BOTH OF US.

YOU KNOW, HE GOT HER

AT THE HOUSE, AND THEN HE HAD

ME AT BENZINO HOUSE.

THAT'S WHEN I SEEN YOUR STUFF.

AND I WAS LIKE, "WHERE'S

KARLIE?"

AND HE WAS LIKE--

HE DIDN'T TELL ME ANYTHING.

I WAS LIKE, OKAY, WHATEVER.

SO WHAT HAPPENED?

WHERE THE HELL YOU WAS AT?

I WAS THERE FOR THREE DAYS.

WHERE YOU WAS AT?

GIRL, THAT'S A WHOLE

NOTHER BALLGAME RIGHT THERE.

I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING

ON WITH BENZINO AND KARLIE

'CAUSE THEY'VE BEEN SMASHING

OVER THERE FOR THE PAST THREE

WEEKS SINCE I'VE BEEN OVER

THERE.

AND THEN KARLIE'S BEEN MIA,

AND BENZINO'S BEEN WALKING

AROUND THE HOUSE LOOKING LIKE

HE'S SAID, LOOKING CRAZY.

IN THE BEGINNING,

HE WAS, LIKE, LOVEY-DOVE--

I MEAN, THE MAN SWEPT ME

OFF OF MY FEET.

SO WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?

AND THE SEX

WAS GOOD.

FOR REAL?

OH, YEAH.

[laughter]

BUT, GIRL, I MEAN,

YOU KNOW WHEN YOU CAME OVER?

THE REASON WHY I WASN'T THERE

IS BECAUSE I TOOK A BREAK

FOR A FEW DAYS.

AND THEN, OKAY--

WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT?

NEXT TIME YOU TAKE A BREAK,

TAKE YOUR [bleep],

'CAUSE THEN HE KNOWS

YOU'RE COMING BACK IF YOU LEAVE

YOUR [bleep].

I KNOW, RIGHT?

I SHOULD HAVE TOOK ALL MY

[bleep].

GOT TO START USING YOUR BRAIN

TO RUN GAME ON THIS MAN,

'CAUSE, GIRL, THEY RUN GAME

ON US.

I SHOULD HAVE TOOK ALL

MY [bleep].

WE KNOW YOU GOING BACK

'CAUSE WE ALWAYS GO BACK,

LIKE JACKASSES.

WE JUST BUNCH OF JACKASSES.

GO OUT TO THE CLUB,

MAYBE FIND YOU A BOO THING.

BUT THEN, YOU KNOW,

I GOT TO DEAL WITH MY MANAGERS.

THEY'RE TELLING ME, LIKE,

DON'T [bleep] WITH BENZINO.

LIKE, THEY ARE, LIKE,

GOING IN ON ME.

I CAN'T TELL YOU TO NOT

LISTEN TO YOUR MANAGERS.

THAT AIN'T WHAT I DO.

BUT YOU NEED TO THINK

ABOUT WHAT YOU REALLY WANT

TO DO.

YOU'RE RIGHT.

YOU CAN'T KEEP GETTING

PLAYED, GIRL.

WHAT YOU GONNA DO?

I'MA DO WHAT JOSELINE

HERNANDEZ IS GONNA DO--

BE ME--AND HE'S STILL GONNA BE

MY MANAGER.

AND IF I FEEL LIKE [bleep]--

BUT THE LAST TIME I TALKED

TO YOU, YOU WAS TALKING ABOUT

THAT HE WASN'T GONNA BE

YOUR MANAGER.

YEAH, I CHANGED MY MIND.

AT LEAST I'M KEEPING IT REAL.

I GOT TO GO TO THE STUDIO, GIRL.

WE NEED SOME CHILL ACTION,

DON'T WE?

UH, YEAH,

LIKE A VACATION.

IT'S BEEN A LITTLE CRAZY

SINCE HIM AND I MET WITH DEB

AND JUST TRYING TO FIGURE OUT

EXACTLY WHAT TO DO

CAREER-WISE AND MANAGEMENT-WISE.

AND AFTER THINKING ABOUT IT

AND HIM AND I TALKING ABOUT IT

AND GOING THROUGH EVERYTHING,

I THINK I'VE COME TO MY

DECISION.

I DON'T WANT TO EVER MAKE YOU

FEEL LIKE YOU EVER HAVE

TO QUESTION MY LOYALTY TO YOU,

MY LOVE FOR YOU,

MY ANYTHING.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT.

SO I DON'T THINK THAT THE DEB

DECISION IS SOMETHING THAT I

WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW.

I MEAN, TO BE HONEST WITH YOU,

I JUST FEEL LIKE,

YOU KNOW, IT'S BEEN ME AND YOU.

LET'S KEEP--LET'S KEEP THIS

THING GOING.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,

I JUST LOOK AT IT LIKE

IT'S ALL ABOUT ME AND HIM.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE HIM AND I

HAPPY AND DO WHAT WE NEED

TO DO TO TAKE IT TO THE TOP

TOGETHER.

I'M ALWAYS ON GRIND MODE,

AND I FOCUS IN ON WHAT I NEED

TO BE FOCUSED ON,

WHICH IS ME AND YOU.

SO I WAS THINKING...

OH.

DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD WANT

TO RENEW OUR VOWS?

YOU KNOW, BUT LOOK.

NOTHING BIG.

JUST SOMETHING REALLY SMALL

WITH THE KIDS

AND JUST, YOU KNOW,

GIVE OUR SELF A LITTLE--

A LITTLE THRUST.

[both chuckle]

12 YEARS AGO, WE JUST RAN

OFF TO VEGAS, DECIDED WE WANTED

TO GET MARRIED.

IT WAS JUST ME AND HIM,

AND IT WAS JUST SOMETHING

REALLY SMALL AND CUTE.

BUT THIS TIME, I THINK

I WANT TO, YOU KNOW, INVOLVE

THE CLOSE FAMILY AND FRIENDS,

RENEW OUR VOWS,

AND I WANT HIM TO UNDERSTAND

THAT OUR LOVE IS SOLID

AND I WANT IT TO STAY SOLID.

BUT FIRST, WE GONNA ENJOY

EACH OTHER TONIGHT

BECAUSE I GOT ON SOME CUTE

[bleep] UNDER THIS DRESS.

MMM.

[laughs]

YEAH, I WANT TO SEE.

NO, YOU DON'T NEED TO HAVE ON

NOTHING.

THERE YOU GO.

EXACTLY.

LET'S GET THE HELL ON.

LET'S TOAST FIRST.

TILL DEATH DO US PART.

DAMN.

THAT'S THE RINGLING BROTHERS

BARNUM [bleep] RIGHT THERE.

HOW LONG CAN YOU DO THAT?

TILL YOU TELL ME TO STOP.

WHOO!

HEY!

OKAY.

NICE.

THAT WAS NICE.

HERE YOU GO, MOMMY.

GOD BLESS YOU.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS,

BUT STRIP CLUBS

ALWAYS SEEM TO GIVE ME CLARITY.

SO I CALLED UP SLEAZO.

I TOLD HIM, "COME ON, MAN,

LET'S GO ON OUT FOR A COUPLE

OF DRINKS, MAN, AND JUST,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING,

REALLY TRY TO KICK IT

WITH EACH OTHER ABOUT ALL

THIS FEMALE STUFF."

SEE, I TOLD YOU ABOUT

THAT THERAPY [bleep].

I KNEW THAT [bleep] WASN'T

A GOOD IDEA; TRUST ME.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,

I'M NOT TRYING TO HIDE [bleep],

SO I'M GONNA PUT IT ALL

ON THE TABLE.

WHY DO THE THERAPY

AND AFTER THAT BOUNCE?

IT'S A BILLION WORDS YOU SAY.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO USE YOUR

FISTS, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

THAT'S CRAZY.

YEAH, BUT YOU GOT TO GO BACK,

THOUGH, RIGHT?

YEAH, WE GONNA GO BACK

TO THERAPY.

OKAY, YOU GOT TWO GIRLS.

OBVIOUSLY YOU CARE FOR BOTH

OF THEM.

HOW DO YOU GET THOSE TWO

TO, YOU KNOW, COME TOGETHER,

YOU KNOW?

IN MY PERFECT WORLD,

I COULD GET THEM TO WORK

TOGETHER.

YOU WANT TO KEEP THEM BOTH

IN YOUR LIFE.

YOU WANT TO LOVE THEM BOTH.

YEAH.

I'M IN LOVE WITH MIMI

AND I'M IN LOVE WITH JOSELINE.

ALL WE NEED TO DO IS GET

THROUGH ONE MORE SESSION

WITH DR. JEFF,

BECOME ONE WITH EACH OTHER,

AND WE CAN LIVE HAPPILY

EVER AFTER.

SO WHAT'S UP WITH YOU, MAN?

WHAT'S UP WITH YOU AND KARLIE,

MAN?

WHEN I MET HER,

I SEEN A LOT OF [bleep] ABOUT

IT; YOU FEEL ME?

RIGHT, RIGHT.

BUT THEN AS WE GO ALONG,

EVERYTHING'S ABOUT, LIKE,

HER CAREER AND HER MANAGERS.

WHAT ABOUT HER CAREER

AND HER MANAGER?

IT'S JUST TOO MUCH.

LIKE, EVERYTHING'S ABOUT

THE CAREER.

EVERYTHING'S ABOUT THE CAREER.

YOU LOVE HER, THOUGH.

SEE, MY LOVE AND YOUR LOVE

I THINK IS DIFFERENT.

THERE'S ONLY ONE LOVE.

THAT'S WHY I LIKE TO COME

HERE, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW,

I'M TRYING TO LOOK FOR LOVE.

THIS DON'T HELP IT NONE,

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

MEAN.

I THINK THINGS COULD WORK OUT

BETWEEN ME AND KARLIE,

BUT SHE'S GOT TO STOP THIS

[bleep].

IT SEEMS LIKE SHE JUST WANTS

TO TALK ABOUT HER

AND HER GRIND.

I KNOW THERE'S MORE TO LIFE

THAN JUST THAT.

TO KARLIE RED.

KARLIE RED.

TO MIMI.

MIMI.

JOSELINE.

both: HEY!

HERE IS KAIA, PARK PLACE.

TO DR. JERFF.

[both laugh]

[bleep] DR. JEFF.

[laughter]

[bleep] THAT MOTHER[bleep].

I'M TALKING ABOUT THAT.

ALL RIGHT, OKAY,

I UNDERSTAND.

LISTEN, JOSELINE--

I MEAN, MIMI.

EXACTLY.

THAT BITCH AROUND SO MUCH,

YOU CALLING ME JOSELINE.

I AM A WOMAN THAT LIVED

THROUGH THE VIOLENCE AGAINST ME.

I'M A SURVIVOR.

THE GUY SHE'S REFERRING TO

IS MARRIED TO ONE OF MY CLOSE,

CLOSE FRIENDS.

AND I DON'T REALLY WANT

TO TALK ABOUT IT.

I'VE KNOWN MIMI FOR YEARS,

EVEN BEFORE HER AND STEVIE

WAS TOGETHER.

I CALLED HER UP,

AND SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS AT

THE CAR WASH IN THE HOOD,

SO I DECIDED TO JUST DROP IN

ON HER.

HEY.

OH, Z.

I'M GLAD YOU DIDN'T LEAVE,

MAN.

I WAS TRYING TO HURRY UP

AND GET HERE.

CAUGHT ME.

LISTEN, I DON'T WANT NO BAD

BLOOD BETWEEN US,

EVEN THOUGH SLEAZO'S MY FRIEND,

I STILL WANT TO BE NEUTRAL

ON THIS.

YOU KNOW, THE REAL REASON I CAME

AND I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU

IS BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU

TO THINK THAT I'M IN THE MIDDLE,

YOU KNOW, PLOTTING AGAINST YOU.

I KNOW WHAT Y'ALL ARE GOING

THROUGH.

I'M GONNA STOP YOU RIGHT

THERE.

HE'S THE ONE WITH OTHER WOMEN.

IT'S NOT ME.

MIMI, JUST WANT Y'ALL

TO COME TO SOME TYPE OF, LIKE,

COMMON GROUND, MAN,

BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT I'M

SAYING?

IT'S LIKE YOU ALWAYS UPSET.

WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?

YOU CAN'T KEEP BARKING.

SO I'M JUST SUPPOSED TO SIT

DOWN AND LIE DOWN LIKE A DOG?

NO, NO, NO.

AND TAKE IT?

YOU GOT TO FIGHT WITH

KINDNESS.

WHEN HE STARTS RESPECTING ME,

THAT'S WHEN I WILL START

RESPECTING HIM.

YEAH, BUT--

AS LONG AS YOU'RE OUT

IN THE STREETS FLAUNTING

THIS BITCH, HANGING OUT,

[bleep] HER, SHE THREATENING ME

AND ASKS SOME MORE

WHAT DO YOU--I'M SUPPOSED

TO BE KIND TO THAT?

HOW LONG HAVE Y'ALL KNOWN

EACH OTHER?

A LONG TIME.

HOW LONG?

DAMN NEAR 15 YEARS.

15 YEARS, AND THIS IS ONE

WOMAN?

COME ON, THAT'S NOT BAD.

I KNOW A LOT WORSE SITUATIONS

THAN THIS.

TRUST ME.

THAT'S NOT BAD?

I'M TALKING ABOUT THE LAST

THREE YEARS.

WHEN I GOT PREGNANT

AND WE ARE LIVING TOGETHER

IN THE SAME HOUSEHOLD.

I'M TALKING ABOUT THAT.

ALL RIGHT, OKAY, I

UNDERSTAND.

LISTEN, JOSELINE--

I MEAN, MIMI.

EXACTLY.

MY POINT EXACTLY.

THAT BITCH AROUND SO MUCH,

YOU CALLING ME JOSELINE.

WHEN ZINO CALLED ME JOSELINE,

IT PROVED MY POINT 150%.

THAT BITCH IS AROUND CONSTANTLY,

TO THE POINT THAT YOU ARE

CALLING ME HER [bleep] NAME.

CASE CLOSED.

I HEAR YOU, BUT I'M NOT ABOUT

TO SIT AND LAY DOWN AND LET

THESE TWO [bleep] WALK

ALL OVER ME.

I'M NOT GONNA DO THAT.

WELL, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

ANYTHING YOU WANT TO TALK

ABOUT, I'M HERE FOR YOU,

ALL RIGHT?

I APPRECIATE THAT.

I MEAN THAT, FOR REAL.

WELL, HONEY, LISTEN.

I DON'T KNOW IF I FORMALLY

INTRODUCED YOU TO MY GIRL.

NO.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I SHOWED

HER.

SHE RIGHT HERE.

YOU SEE US ALL BIG AND BOLD.

BEEP, BEEP, BEEP.

[laughter]

ME AND MY GIRL RASHEEDA,

WE LINK UP.

WE FITTIN' TO GO SUPPORT

OUR GIRL K.

SHE'S DOING A PERFORMANCE PIECE

FOR A NON-PROFIT ORGANIZATION

CALLED SAVING OUR DAUGHTERS.

SO THIS, WHAT WE GOING TO,

IS THE SAVING OUR DAUGHTERS

THING, RIGHT?

UH-HUH.

SHE'S GOING TO SPEAK

TO SOME YOUNG GIRLS

TO TALK ABOUT HER EXPERIENCE

WITH DOMESTIC VIOLENCE

AND JUST TRY TO TEACH THEM

SOMETHING, HOPING THEY CAN

RELATE AND LEARN FROM

THE SITUATION.

YOU KNOW, WITH TALKING

TO K. AND STUFF ABOUT THAT

SITUATION AND STUFF,

I WANT TO SEE HER GROW

AND GET TO A BETTER PLACE.

BUT I JUST FEEL A LITTLE FUNNY,

LIKE, TO BE HONEST WITH YOU.

WHY DO YOU FEEL FUNNY?

BECAUSE, LIKE, THE GUY

SHE'S REFERRING TO

IS MARRIED TO ONE OF MY CLOSE,

CLOSE FRIENDS.

AND IT'S LIKE, WHEN ME AND K.

SIT DOWN AND WE TALK AND STUFF,

SHE BRINGS IT UP A LOT.

AND I DON'T REALLY WANT TO TALK

ABOUT IT.

I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A

DIFFICULT SITUATION BECAUSE

I FEEL LIKE, IS IT A LOYALTY

CARD I'M PLAYING WITH MY FRIENDS

I'VE HAD FOR YEARS?

AM I BEING WRONG FOR NOT BEING

SENSITIVE TO K.'S SITUATION?

I'M KIND OF STUCK.

IT'S SO CRAZY TO ME

BECAUSE HE'S, LIKE,

"THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN."

FIRST OF ALL, GIRL,

IT WAS YEARS AGO.

WHATEVER THE SITUATION WAS,

THEIR RELATIONSHIP WAS--

THIS IS SOMETHING THAT K.

DOES NEED TO MOVE FORWARD FROM.

SHE DOES.

SO THIS IS GOOD.

AND THAT'S WHY I WANT

TO SUPPORT HER.

THIS IS A GOOD, IN A SENSE,

BECAUSE SHE HAS TO--

YOU KNOW, WHAT'S THE NEXT THING

AFTER THIS?

THAT'S WHY I'M LIKE, LOOK,

LET'S DEFINITELY GO SUPPORT,

HOLD HER DOWN.

YOU KNOW, I'M NOT GONNA TALK

ABOUT NONE OF THAT.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

I REALLY JUST HAD THIS

CONVERSATION WITH YOU,

BUT SHE AND I EVENTUALLY

WILL HAVE THE CONVERSATION.

AND Y'ALL NEED TO.

WE DO, BUT JUST NOT TODAY.

LET'S JUST, YOU KNOW,

GO CHECK OUT...

BE SUPPORTIVE.

BE SUPPORTIVE,

HOLD HER DOWN,

AND--YOU KNOW, AND SHE AND I

CAN TALK ABOUT THIS LATER,

YOU KNOW?

JUST GO AND HAVE HER BACK

RIGHT NOW.

DEFINITELY.

MAYBE HE'S NOT DOING THAT

BECAUSE THAT'S NOT SOMETHING

THAT HE DID TO YOU.

RASHEEDA, HE DID THAT TO ME.

WHAT IS YOUR SOLUTION

TO BEING ANGRY ALL THE TIME?

HOW THE [bleep] ARE WE GONNA

TALK ABOUT A SOLUTION

IF YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW,

LIKE, WHAT THE PROBLEM IS?

THE PROBLEM IS THAT YOU'RE

ANGRY ALL THE TIME.

SAVING OUR DAUGHTERS

IS AN ORGANIZATION THAT,

THEY DEAL WITH YOUTH

AND WOMEN WHO'VE GONE

THROUGH VIOLENCE.

SO WHAT I WANTED TO DO

WAS PICK AN ORGANIZATION

THAT I COULD RELATE TO.

TODAY I'M GONNA INTRODUCE

K. MICHELLE, WHO IS A SINGLE

MOM, AND SHE'S ALSO OVERCOME

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE IN HER

PERSONAL EXPERIENCES.

WE HOPE THAT YOU GUYS CAN LEARN

FROM HER AND, YOU KNOW,

GAIN FROM HER EXPERIENCES

SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO

THROUGH THE SAME THINGS.

OKAY, MICHELLE.

YOU READY FOR HER?

[applause]

AS A GIRL,

I DREAMED OF A MOMENT

WHERE I WOULD WALK DOWN

THE AISLE INTO THE ARMS

OF THE ONE THAT I LOVED.

HE CAME TO ME

IN THE FORM OF A RECORD DEAL--

AN EXECUTIVE WHO SIGNED ME

AND GAVE ME MY DREAM.

IN MY MIND, HE WAS EVERYTHING,

AND I TRUSTED HIM WITH MY LIFE.

THEN THE LIGHT WENT OUT

OF OUR SMILES...

BECAUSE...

[sobbing]

THE ARMS THAT USED TO WRAP ME

WITH LOVE WERE NOW BRUISING,

CRUSHING ME, AND THREATENING ME.

I AM A WOMAN THAT'S MADE

MISTAKES.

I AM A WOMAN THAT GAVE HER HEART

AWAY TO THE WRONG MAN.

I AM A WOMAN THAT HAS CRIED

MYSELF TO SLEEP.

I AM A WOMAN THAT LIVED

THROUGH THE VIOLENCE AGAINST ME.

BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING,

I'M A SURVIVOR.

AS A GIRL, I DREAMED OF THIS

MOMENT RIGHT HERE,

WHEN I WOULD BE OKAY

WITH ME, WITH WHO I AM,

AND ACCEPTING OF MY FLAWS

AND EVERYTHING ABOUT ME.

FOR ALL OF YOU,

I WISH THIS SUCH MOMENT.

THANK YOU.

[applause]

WHOO!

WHEN I GOT DONE

SAYING WHAT I HAD TO SAY

TO THOSE GIRLS,

I FELT LIKE A BURDEN WAS LIFTED

OFF OF ME, AND I FELT LIKE

I HAD A WHOLE LOT MORE HEALING

TO DO, BUT AT LEAST I WAS TAKING

THE STEPS IN ORDER TO GET

COMPLETELY HEALED

FROM MY SITUATION.

[sobbing]

THIS IS GOOD FOR YOU.

LET IT ALL OUT.

BABY.

WHAT'S GOING ON?

I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.

ALL RIGHT.

AFTER BENZINO GAVE ME

THE KEYS TO HIS HOUSE,

I STARTED SEEING A WHOLE

NOTHER SIDE OF HIM--

THINGS THAT I DID NOT SEE

BEFORE I HAD THE KEYS.

HIS TEMPER, PERIOD.

PERIOD, POINT BLANK,

HE HAS A TEMPER.

SOMEWHERE DOWN THE LINE,

I DON'T KNOW, I JUST STARTED

TO SEE THIS ANGER.

YOU JUST CAN'T EVEN TALK

TO ME ANYMORE.

IT'S LIKE IT'S NOT EVEN

A CONVERSATION.

IT'S JUST ANGER.

NO, IT'S NOT THAT.

IT'S JUST THE ONLY THING

WE EVER TALK ABOUT

REALLY IS JUST ABOUT YOU

AND YOUR CAREER.

LIKE, OUR CONVERSATION,

CAN BE MORE TO IT

THAN JUST THAT.

OKAY, LET ME STOP YOU THERE.

WHEN I'M IN THIS HOUSE,

AND I'M COOKING FOR YOUR KIDS,

THAT'S NOT INDUSTRY.

THAT'S REAL LIFE EVERY

DAY-TO-DAY [bleep].

LOOK, LET ME EXPLAIN

SOMETHING TO YOU, ALL RIGHT?

NO, LET ME EXPLAIN SOMETHING

TO YOU.

OKAY, WELL, GO AHEAD,

EXPLAIN IT, THEN.

AND THEN WHEN YOU FINISH,

THEN LET ME TALK.

I WANT TO HAVE AN ADULT

CONVERSATION WITH YOU

WITHOUT YOU GOING IN A RAGE

AND BEING ANGRY.

I'VE HAD ISSUES WITH MY

TEMPER, THERE'S NO QUESTION.

BUT I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE

I'M SO MUCH--

CAN YOU ADDRESS THE FACT

THAT I SAID THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS

ANGRY ALL THE TIME?

I JUST DID.

WHAT THE [bleep] DO YOU WANT ME

TO SAY?

I JUST SAID THAT I HAVE A

PROBLEM WITH MY TEMPER.

OKAY, BUT--

WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?

I JUST, YOU KNOW, I MEAN--

YOU KNOW WHAT?

WHEN YOU TELL ME, "BABE,

WE'RE ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT

THE INDUSTRY OR WHATEVER,"

MY SOLUTION TO THAT IS,

YOU KNOW WHAT, BABE?

LET'S GO SOMEWHERE AND START

TALKING ABOUT US.

GET AWAY FORM EVERYBODY,

AND JUST ME AND YOU TALK

FOR EIGHT HOURS ABOUT US.

OKAY, LOOK, LOOK.

OKAY, THAT'S MY SOLUTION.

BUT WHAT IS YOUR SOLUTION

TO BEING ANGRY ALL THE TIME?

HOW THE [bleep] ARE GONNA

TALK ABOUT A SOLUTION

IF DON'T EVEN KNOW, LIKE,

WHAT THE PROBLEM IS?

THE PROBLEM IS THAT YOU'RE

ANGRY ALL THE TIME.

OH, THAT'S THE PROBLEM?

SO THIS IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM

BETWEEN ME AND YOU,

IS THAT I'M ANGRY ALL THE TIME?

THAT'S ONE OF THE PROBLEMS.

KARLIE JUST THINKS I'M ANGRY

FOR NO REASON.

I'M ANGRY BECAUSE SHE MAKES ME

THAT WAY.

LOVE IS A TWO-WAY STREET,

AND RIGHT NOW, KARLIE'S CAREER

IS TAKING UP BOTH LANES.

THERE'S SOME OTHER THINGS.

ABOUT WHAT?

SOME JEALOUSY SITUATION.

WHAT AM I JEALOUS ABOUT?

IF I SAY I GOT TO THE STUDIO,

I NEED YOU TO TRUST ME, BABE,

AND KNOW THAT I [bleep]

WITH YOU.

YOU MEAN THE TIME YOU SAID

YOU WAS GONNA WORK WITH

SOME JAMAICANS WHEN YOU DIDN'T

WORK WITH NO JAMAICANS

AND THAT YOU WENT AND WORKED

WITH THE GUY FROM TRINIDAD

THAT YOU TOLD ME HOW MUCH

YOUR MOTHER AND THEM WANTED

YOU AND HIM TO HOOK UP.

AND THEN YOU GO WORK WITH HIM.

AND YOU LIE.

BABY--

NO, BABY, MY ASS.

WHAT ABOUT--I SOUND CRAZY?

WHAT'S SO CRAZY ABOUT THAT?

WHEN I SAID I'M GOING TO WORK

WITH SOME JAMAICANS--

RIGHT, RIGHT.

OKAY, CARIBBEANS, JAMAICANS,

SAME THING.

DON'T [bleep] PLAY WITH ME,

YO.

LIKE, I'M NOT A [bleep] TOY, YO.

YOU KNEW WHO YOU WAS GOING

TO WORK WITH.

I DIDN'T TELL YOU FIRST

BECAUSE I KNEW YOU WOULD FEEL

A CERTAIN WAY ABOUT IT.

BUT I THOUGHT THAT YOU WAS

THE ONE THAT KEEPS IT REAL AND--

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?

BABE, I'M ADMITTING

THAT YOU'RE RIGHT.

OKAY, AND I APPRECIATE THAT.

WHEN THAT HAPPENS,

MAYBE THAT'S WHAT GETS ME

TO BE A LITTLE JEALOUS

OR A LITTLE BIT UPSET

WITH SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

IT'S JUST A NATURAL HUMAN

REACTION.

YOU JUST HAVE TO WORK ON IT.

I GOT TO WORK ON MYSELF.

YOU GOT TO WORK ON YOURSELF.

AND I'M READY TO WORK ON IT.

I'M READY TO BE THERE FOR YOU.

I MEAN, THAT'S COOL.

THAT'S COOL?

YEAH.

I THINK THAT'S A GOOD THING.

[chuckles]

NONE OF Y'ALL WAS THERE!

NONE OF Y'ALL!

THIS [bleep] STILL

IS [bleep] WITH ME,

AND DON'T NOBODY SAVE ME!

AIN'T NOBODY HELP ME AT ALL!

I GOT MY ASS BEAT!

WATCH BONUS CONTENT, SHAWTY,

K. MICHELLE WANTED TO MEET UP

AND TALK TO ME ABOUT

THE PERFORMANCE SHE HAD

THE OTHER DAY WITH THE SAVING

OUR DAUGHTERS.

AND I'M GONNA KEEP IT REAL.

I'VE BEEN DREADING THIS WHOLE

LITTLE SITUATION RIGHT HERE.

I MEAN, THOSE ARE MY FRIENDS,

MY REAL FRIENDS,

THAT SHE'S TALKING ABOUT,

AND SHE AND I ARE TRYING

TO DEVELOP A RELATIONSHIP.

SO IT PUTS ME IN A REALLY,

REALLY FUNNY PLACE THAT I DON'T

WANT TO BE IN.

RIGHT BEFORE I GOT ONSTAGE,

YOU KNOW, I GOT A TWEET,

AND IT WAS HIM.

AND THE TWEET WAS LIKE,

YOU KNOW, "I BOUGHT YOU TEETH

OR I BOUGHT YOU THIS,"

YOU KNOW, "I MADE YOU."

AFTER I READ THAT,

EVERYTHING, YOU KNOW, TOOK OVER.

AND FOR ME NOT TO SPAZ OUT

AGAINST HIM, THAT'S A LITTLE

BIT OF GROWTH.

SO I JUST THANK YOU FOR NOT

TAKING SIDES IN THE SITUATION.

YOU KNOW, I DON'T KNOW.

I JUST FEEL LIKE IT COULD BE

JUST HANDLED DIFFERENT.

IF YOU CAN SAY THOSE TYPE

OF THINGS TOWARDS ME WITHOUT

SAYING "I'M SORRY"--

BUT IF HE SAYS HE'S SORRY,

THEN WHERE DOES THAT PUT YOU?

DOES THAT TAKE YOU TO ANOTHER

PLACE?

YOU KNOW WHAT IT DOES?

IT LEAST MAKES ME FEEL LIKE

THERE IS SOME GOOD.

MAYBE HE'S NOT DOING THAT

BECAUSE THAT'S NOT SOMETHING

THAT HE DID TO YOU.

RASHEEDA, HE DID THAT TO ME.

I HAVE SCARS ALL ON MY LEG,

CARPET BURNS,

FROM FIGHTING.

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF A TOWEL

WAS OVER YOUR FACE,

SMO-THERED.

HE NEEDS TO APOLOGIZE.

I HAVE EVERY TEXT MESSAGE

WHEN YOU TRIED TO SAY

THAT YOU WOULD KILL MY SON.

SO IF I WAS A EVIL CHICK,

I WOULD SEND THAT TO A BLOG

RIGHT NOW.

I AIN'T DONE IT.

BUT IF YOU KEEP ON, I AM.

SO YOU NEED TO TAKE

YOUR ASS ON DOWN THE STREET

BECAUSE YOU WASN'T THERE.

THREE YEARS.

MY CAREER WAS RUINED

BECAUSE I COULD NOT TALK.

I DON'T HAVE THAT NO MORE.

I DON'T CARE

WHAT NOBODY GO TO SAY ABOUT ME,

'CAUSE THAT'S MY [bleep]!

NONE OF Y'ALL WAS THERE!

NONE OF Y'ALL!

THIS [bleep] STILL

IS [bleep] WITH ME!

I GOT MY ASS BEAT!

AND I GOT TO EXPLAIN TO THE

WORLD WHAT THE [bleep]

HAPPENED TO ME.

WHAT HAPPENED TO SAYING,

"I'M SORRY THAT HAPPENED

TO YOU?"

THAT MAN BEAT MY ASS,

AND I HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT!

SO I DON'T GIVE A [bleep]

WHAT NOBODY THINK NOTHING

I GOT GOING ON!

ON THE SEASON FINALE

OF LOVE & HIP-HOP: ATLANTA...

TO 12 MORE YEARS

AND 12 MORE AND 12 MORE.

I'M NOT GONNA BE RAN UP

OUT OF ATLANTA.

I'M GONNA SAY WHAT THE [bleep]

I WANT TO SAY, 'CAUSE YOU KNOW

WHAT?

I'M [bleep] HURT.

NO MORE TEARS.

YOU GOT A MAN?

IT'S COMPLICATED.

IT'S...

DOES THIS SHOW ANY DOUBT?

ARE YOU READY?

YOU KNOW, THAT'S JUST

SOMETHING THAT I WANTED,

THOUGH, A FAMILY UNION.

AS FAR AS TRUST AND LOYALTY,

I CAN'T GET THAT FROM YOU.

I CAN'T GIVE YOU LOYALTY?

MM-MMM.

YOU [bleep ] IT UP.

BUT THAT AIN'T EVEN

MY INTENTIONS.

YOU AIN'T THE ONLY ONE

THAT CAN BE HURT, BOO.

AND THAT [bleep] THAT HAPPENED

IN THE PAST, YOU CAN'T BRING

THAT [bleep] TO WHAT WE GOT

RIGHT HERE.

YOU PLAYING WITH ME NOW,

JUST LIKE THIS BITCH WAS

PLAYING WITH YOU.

HE IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE.

THE TWO OF YOU HAVE TO TAKE

CONTROL OVER YOUR OWN LIVES.

WHY AM I HERE?

'CAUSE I THOUGHT I'D BRING

YOU HERE TO LET YOU KNOW

THAT I WAS WORKING ON OUR JOINT

AND INTRODUCE YOU.

YOU COULD DO A SONG WITH HIM.

I'M PRETTY SURE IF YOU

[bleep] HIS [bleep],

HE'LL MAKE A TRACK.

I DON'T NEED--

TILL NEXT [bleep].

I DON'T NEED TO DO WHAT YOU

GOT TO DO TO MAKE A SONG THOUGH.

I'M JUST NOT DOING THIS

ANYMORE.

STEVIE, JUST SAY YOU'RE NOT

DOING--

YOU WANT ME TO SPELL IT OUT?

YES.

I'M DONE.