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Professor Kim, can't we change the direction, and perform the tracheotomy?

No.

No matter where, the baby may die due to excessive bleeding.

Professor Kim!

We don't have time. The mother is bleeding too much.

And her heart is too weak. We need to take the baby out, and close her up.

Professor...

Professor Kim, you did the best you could.

We need to give up on the baby.

No!

We need to save them both.

There's a fifty/fifty chance that both can live.

They both have hope.

So, we need to save them both.

Otherwise, the one who survives will be sad, very sad.

- We will make the incision from the side. - It'll be hard like this.

- The anatomical structure is all twisted up. - You may damage the surrounding nerves.

- This is the only way to save the baby. - Then, check the sonogram.

We have no time.

Park Shi On, come over here and find the location of tracheostomy.

Feel the neck, and match up the location with the past MRI image.

How can he determine the location just by touching?

Just trust us.

Scalpel.

Park Shi On, hurry up!

Here.

It's this part right here.

This is the location for the second and third tracheal rings.

2.5 tube. Hurry.

- You can cut the umbilical cord. - Okay.

Clamp.

We've installed a monitor to check the facial nerve.

We will remove the lymphangioma.

Scalpel.

All the cysts are removed.

Dr. Cha, finish up, and move the baby to the NICU.

Yes, sir. Good job.

Did you call me?

Did you say that both the mother and baby had a 50/50 chance of survival?

Yes.

To me, there was a 100 percent chance that both would die.

Starting with 100 percent death risk...

it's the surgeon's job to lower that percentage as much as possible.

After the percentage is reduced, that number becomes the final probability.

The 50/50 you mentioned was not a calculated percentage, it was only your wish.

Don't ever estimate a number when you are dealing with life and death.

Do you understand?

Yes, sir.

You may go.

Park Shi On.

Good job, today.

I'm sorry.

For what?

Scolding you for asking too many questions at the meeting.

It's okay.

I was so sleepy that I don't even remember getting scolded.

In any case, all the variables you questioned came up.

That was nothing...

You are being haughty?

I'm not being haughty.

You are being too cocky.

I should take care of this kid.

How arrogant...

Good for you!

The night shift room is that way.

You're not going?

Are you walking me to the main entrance?

No.

Is it because you think I'll be scared to go alone in the dark?

No, it's not like that.

Convenience store...

I was going there to buy bread.

If you open my drawer, there's bread inside you can eat.

Not bread...

I'm going there to charge my cell phone.

I have a charger in the drawer, too.

Hammer...

I'm on my way to buy a hammer.

Hammer?

They sell hammers at the convenience store?

Yes, they do.

Let's go.

Professor Kim.

Get in.

I'll take you home.

It's right here. You don't need to take me.

It's on my way.

Don't forget to buy the hammer.

See you tomorrow.

Hey!

It's so beautiful.

Dr. Cha.

Just say it already!

Did you eat?

Right...

Did you make up with Manager Chae Kyung?

What if she dumps you?

Then, I'll get dumped.

I know you'll take out all your stress on us.

Before...

I loved Chae Kyung a lot.

You were truly a lovey dovey couple.

Just thinking about it...

makes my skin crawl.

I don't know why I forget everything these days.

I feel like I'm surrounded by curtains all around me.

I can't remember how I lived.

And I don't know how I should live from now on.

I wonder about what I did all day long.

It must be because you have too many things to think about.

I'm sorry.

Bringing you down when you must already be tired.

It's okay.

I'm sorry that I can't help you unload your burdens more.

I'm so proud of you...

You even know what my burdens are.

I'll go in.

Okay.

Good job, today.

Get home safely.

I guess they really do sell hammers at the convenience store.

Yes. They had it underneath the light bulbs.

7,000 won?

Tae Yang hardware store?

There's a convenience store called Tae Yang hardware store?

Is there?

What's wrong with your face?

Your complexion has gotten so bad in the past few days.

I've been having a lot of surgeries.

You should still take care of your health.

It's not like I can take care of you.

Your plans...

Nothing has changed?

I see.

Do Han.

I make you that uncomfortable?

It's not that you make me uncomfortable.

Your plans make me uncomfortable.

What has happened to us?

I should be sad that you want to take time apart.

We should both be very upset.

But, neither one of us feels anything.

More than your words, it makes me sad that I don't feel anything.

Are you here to see a baby?

Yes.

What's the baby's name?

I don't think the baby has a name, yet.

The mother's name is Lee Soo Jin.

The surgery went well.

And the recovery is going well, too.

Have you gone to see your wife?

The one who's struggling the most is your wife.

But, she has no one next to her.

Do you know why Ms. Soo Jin is so great?

She doesn't resent anyone.

It's not because she's foolish or overly nice.

It's just her way of loving her family.

That's why she's strong.

She will be a better mom than anyone else.

You call that a love confession?

What is that?

'Did you eat?'

Seriously...

I couldn't say anything.

You can't express yourself. You can't confess your feelings.

What's the point of coaching you?

I can finally understand why my teachers gave up on me.

Does that lady look at you as a child?

Then, it can make confessing your feelings hard.

Whether she's older or not, if she looks at you as a child...

It will be very hard.

Tell me the lady's name and birthday.

I'll read your fortunes, and see if you are a good match.

Fortunes?

Yes.

I just need to know her name and birthday.

Really?

Of course.

I read fortunes for all my couple friends.

- Her name is... - Yes?

- Snow... -Snow...

- Wha... - Wha?

That's a tacky name...

And?

White...

Forget it! I don't want to know.

She looks like Snow White to me.

Did you talk to your husband on the phone?

He just left me a voicemail.

That he's sorry he couldn't come.

It must be hard for him, too.

People call him a 'mama boy.'

But my mother-in-law is very burdensome.

Anybody would be like that around my mother-in-law.

I want to see the baby.

But I haven't been able to see him because of my condition.

Wait one minute.

I took a picture.

He's so cute.

Honey.

Honey, I'm sorry.

When you were going through so much...

I couldn't be with you.

And thank you.

For protecting our baby.

You don't need to thank me.

That's what mothers do.

When you are all better...

let's take the baby and go to the U.S.A.

Honey.

I'm sorry.

I'm really sorry.

I told you to come on time for the test.

I'm sorry.

I'm late because I had to tend to patients.

You have to answer me as soon as I ask the test question.

If you pass five seconds, I'll mark it as wrong.

Are you ready?

Yes.

A child is vomiting. It's not indigestion or enteritis.

What can you suspect? Tell me two categories.

It's categorized into bilious vomit and non-bilious vomit.

If it's bilious vomit?

It could be mid-gut volvulus, intussusception, ileus, intestinal fistula, or incarcerated hernia.

- Non-bilious vomit? - If there is hypertrophic pyloric stenosis...

gastroesophageal reflux...

Convulsion, narcolepsy, or hypotension...

it could be congenital metabolic abnormality.

Below the right rib, there is a tumor the size of an acorn, the child vomits, and turns cold...

- What's the problem? - It's hypertrophic pyloric stenosis.

- What's the surgery method? - Ramstedt's pyloromyotomy must be performed.

An experienced surgeon should perform the surgery to reduce fatal complications.

Next question.

When a newborn has swelling in the stomach and there is a delay in meconium discharge...

and microcolon is seen in colon study...

it could be total colonic aganglionosis, small intestine obstruction, or meconium ileus.

Good.

That's it for today.

You passed all the questions for today.

Go.

Okay.

Thank you.

Yes.

How did today's testing go?

He passed all questions.

What a monster-like kid...

They were the most difficult questions?

Yes.

He even answered my third question correctly.

What was the question?

Pediatric stomach fever.

I didn't even know the answer because it's an Eastern Medicine topic.

How is Joon Young?

The doctor didn't say much?

Just stay there.

You don't need to come to Korea.

I'll call you back later.

You have two days left before you have to leave.

I know.

It's okay if you want to leave before then.

I'll take care of it.

I will trust that you will take care of everything.

Director Choi.

You should have held onto me.

Dr. Park is doing so well.

Really.

Just yesterday, he was a big help to us.

I'm sure you are teaching him well.

No, he's trying very hard.

When I think about Shi On as a young boy...

This is really like a dream.

He couldn't even talk well.

I worried so much about him.

I thought about dying together several times everyday.

This is all my fault.

He should have met a better mom.

It's not like that.

Don't say that.

But...

You don't know where Shi On's father is?

I don't know.

I saw him for the last time when I left home.

I've done wrong, too.

But Shi On's condition got worse because of his father.

Shi On and I used to get beat up constantly.

Shi On got beat for being different from others.

I got beat for giving birth to Shi On.

It may be wrong of me to say...

but, I hope he never shows up in front of Shi On.

I'm sure you were contacted by the marketing department.

There must be other departments better fit for making this documentary.

No, the pediatrics surgery department here is so well known.

It sounds like a good cause. You should agree to it.

Should I change into something different? I look rather grungy.

No, we can shoot just the way you are.

Dr. Park, what are you doing?

I heard I'll be coming out on TV.

Park Shi On.

- What time is Min Soo's surgery? - 12:30.

Okay. Prepare for it.

Yes, sir.

Please confirm this patient's NPO order.

What should I help with?

Dr. Park.

Look here.

Dr. Park.

Stop looking.

Should we try again?

Why are you looking into the camera like that?

I always do that when I see a TV camera.

No matter how far away the camera is, I run over and put my face in.

You want to be a celebrity?

No.

I do that in case mom and dad happen to see my face on TV.

I heard that parents recognize their children's faces even when they're all grown.

If they see me on TV, I hope they will recognize me.

Hey!

Did you see my interview? They said I was the best.

I know... You can do this.

Look at you talk...

But did Professor Kim and Dr. Cha go home already?

Yes. They left together earlier.

They left together?

Yes.

Where did they say they were going?

I don't know about that.

But...

is Professor Kim and Manager Chae Kyung on bad terms these days?

She hasn't been coming by lately.

Hey... I'm sure they date outside.

Those are the kids that start the false rumors.

Wait.

Are Professor Kim and Manager Yoo Chae Kyung dating?

They are engaged to get married.

Really?

Hello.

Are you here to see me?

Yes.

Where are we going together?

You'll see when we get there. Don't ask me.

Are you kidnapping me? You should at least tell me where we are going.

I want to treat you as your senior for the first time in 12 years.

You haven't taken care of me for 12 years... Why all of a sudden?

You really need to talk back like that?

I don't always talk back.

Maybe once for every two times you speak.

Why are you bringing me here?

Pick one out.

I have a lot of clothes.

You always complain that you only get to wear grungy gowns.

That's a gown.

And I don't wear expensive clothes like these.

Just do as I say.

Just buy it for Manager Chae Kyung. I'll pick one out for you.

Finish in 10 minutes.

Finish what?

There's someone I like...

I need to confess my feelings.

What?

But, I don't know how to do it.

So, I was curious how Professor Kim confessed his feelings for you.

Professor Kim is such a great man. I'm sure he confessed in a really cool way.

Why don't you ask the professor then?

If I ask him, he'll just say one thing.

What's that?

Park Shi On.

Get out!

Go home!

Please tell me.

But, what do I do?

I'm the one who confessed first.

Oh...

Then, Professor Kim never confessed his feelings for you?

He did later.

What did he say?

Well...

I don't know...

I can't remember.

I think it was really touching...

Why can't I remember?

It's possible to not remember.

I can't remember my mother.

I'm sure we had good memories.

But, I can't remember.

But...

Thinking hard about it...

I think I'm the one who's trying not to remember.

When I was young, it was so hard and painful.

I wanted to erase all memories of that time.

As I was erasing, I think I lost everything about mom and dad, too.

I wanted to erase all the bad things...

but the good things got erased along with them.

Still... How can the four of us share this one bottle?

I can drink two bottles by myself.

Dr. Han.

We won't get caught.

We came so far away from the hospital.

Stop.

We may have an emergency, so just drink this one bottle.

Dr. Han, what's wrong?

Hold on.

He'll be back soon. Let's eat.

Welcome.

In Young.

How did you know about this place?

I saw you walking into this place.

Then, you should've just gone your way. Why did you follow me in?

It's amusing seeing me like this, right?

This is how I live.

It's a life that people like you can't understand.

Did I say something?

'You are so amusing. Living like this...'

'I don't know about this lifestyle.'

Did I say that?

As soon as I saw you, I had a doctor's thoughts.

'It must be hard for her trying to save up enough money for In Hye's surgery.'

'She must be harming her health because she has to work so late into the night.'

In any case, I'm sorry.

For making you get upset.

I'm sure you won't, but please don't say anything to In Hye.

Why are you out here?

I was just hot.

Are you coming back from somewhere?

Yeah, I had to go somewhere.

I bought some clothes.

I see.

Do you have something to tell me?

It's nothing.

Good night.

I have to go back to the hospital.

I'm so proud of you.

You even know what my burdens are.

The rumors about our hospital were true this time.

A few days ago

the vice president gave the director a proposal for opening up a 'for-profit' hospital.

The vice president?

I don't know who the leader is, but I think the vice president is involved.

- He approached Professor Kim Do Han, too. - Really?

He needs the director and Professor Kim, too.

For the value of the hospital.

What is it?

The banks called, asking us to pay off all the loans.

What?

You scared me.

- What if you fall? - I won't fall.

I'm not a kindergartener.

What is it? You need more info about my sister?

Good morning.

Hello.

Dr. Park.

Yes?

Are you upset at me?

No.

Then why are you acting like that since yesterday?

I'm not doing anything.

Park Shi On.

Follow me.

You still look anxious during every surgery.

The first time you assisted, your hand was shaking.

If it wasn't for Dr. Cha, you would have made a mistake.

You are the best at memorizing and organizing information.

But, you will never become a surgeon like this.

You need to be able to control yourself completely.

You'll only be able to overcome your weakness if you withstand the worst case scenarios.

- Do you understand? - Yes.

You have the ability to conjure up mental images in your head.

Imagine what I am describing, and become the main surgeon.

- What? - Let's start.

On this table, there is a premature newborn born with a ruptured membrane.

There is extreme metabolic acidosis. The platelet level is low.

There is extreme abdominal bloating, and the color is blue. What's the problem?

It's meconium peritonitis!

Within the procedural knowledge you have, you will operate on this baby.

If you waste any time, the baby will die.

Begin.

What are you doing?

Scalpel.

This is an emergency surgery.

Yes.

Don't you know that you'll damage the newborn's liver if you press that hard?

- Army navy. - Army navy.

Forceps.

Mixter.

Forceps.

It's bleeding wherever enterolysis was performed.

Hurry and find the point of origin.

The baby's body temperature is dropping. What's taking so long?

Bleeding is getting heavy. Pulse is dropping. Arrest!

The baby died.

This is an imaginary scenario, you can't even do this?

If you continue like this, you'll never perform a surgery.

You'll just be a shell of a surgeon blabbing on...

That's what you want?

No.

Don't even think about telling yourself that you've improved a lot since before.

The way I see it...

You haven't changed at all.

You worked hard.

Did you see what I did?

No, I had a patient. I didn't get to see.

Just think of it as a simple practice.

Professor Kim said that the patient died.

He said that to make you work harder.

Don't rush it.

You can work it out slowly.

You still have a lot of time.

You are training him a lot tougher than I thought you would.

This is extreme training, but he should bear through it.

I think he's more sensitive to psychological pressure.

More than others with autistic tendencies.

He had severe trauma regarding his father when he was young.

Father?

Before, when I couldn't do something right

I just thought to myself that I'm just a bit handicapped.

But these days, I feel embarrassed, and it makes me feel bad.

Of course.

Nobody is proud of something they can't do well.

I don't want to show people things that I'm embarrassed about.

I can't do that.

There's still too many things that I can't do right.

- I'm just a shell of a surgeon. - Stop saying that.

Who's only a shell?

Are you embarrassed about showing this side of yourself to that lady?

How did you find out about Park Shi On's history?

I heard from the director.

I'm not going to train him any less harshly because of that.

I'm sure Park Shi On always felt weak as he was growing up.

He was used to sympathy and pity from others.

I need to break that.

No matter how painful it is.

Come out. It's about to begin.

For the future of the children... And for the happiness of the family...

These are the pediatric surgeons from Sung Won University Hospital.

Let's listen to the beautiful stories of these doctors who work daily to help these children.

Children are our dream. Children are our hope.

What's this?

Everyone watching this will think that we are all like him.

What's wrong with that?

Woo Il Kyu, watch what you say.

Okay.

The nurses and doctors will never stop trying to help these children.

Over here!

Get me another bottle!

Stop drinking.

You don't even have the money to pay.

I'm going to pay you back.

Otherwise, I'm going to break everything here!

Fine, I'll give it to you.

It's my dream that there will be no more sick children in this country.

Sick children need to get treated right away.

Come to the hospital whenever you need to.

Park Shi On.

Follow me.

What?

You don't want to do it?

You're not going to do it?

I'll do it.

There's a 10 year old boy with abdominal bleeding from a fall related accident.

Spleen and liver hemorrhaging is possible.

A branch has caused a big laceration in the abdomen.

Think over the surgery steps.

Don't let the child die like last time.

Do you understand?

Yes.

Scalpel.

The child's breathing is becoming unstable.

What is it you need to do in this situation?

I need to check whether it's pneumothorax or hemothorax.

Hurry! Can't you see that the saturation level is dropping?

Chest... Chest tube.

Arrest!

Defibrillator... no. Atropine...

Atropine.

Defibrillator. Defibrillator!

Dead.

You lost the chance before the asystole.

Defibrillator is of no use.

Nothing has improved!

I'll stop for today.

Who said you can? Do it again.

I'll practice by myself.

What will change if you are alone?

You are not easy to give up.

I can't do it!

Then, quit.

If this continues, you are not a surgeon healing people with a scalpel.

You are a murderer holding a knife.

It's okay. You can practice.

Why did you come to see?

I came to see if you are doing well.

But...

I didn't do well.

I messed up again.

Shi On, should we go eat something?

Or should we go for a drink?

I...

I won't feel better by eating.

And I...

I'm not a little kid who only likes eating good food.

Shi On!

Shi On!

I've been following you for 10 minutes! Say something!

I know you are upset.

You should give yourself some time.

Shi On.

- Professor Kim just wants to make you stronger. - I know.

I know why the professor is doing this.

Then, why...

I'm embarrassed.

I'm upset because I don't want to be embarrassed in front of you!

You don't need to feel embarrassed in front of me.

I didn't feel that way before, but now I feel embarrassed.

Why now?

Because I like you!

Every time I see you, I hiccup and my heart starts beating fast!

I don't want to look like a fool in front of someone I like.

I want to do better, I want to brag...

But, it's not that easy.

Shi On!

Hey!

If you bumped into us, you should apologize!

I'm sorry.

Hey!

Do it more respectfully.

I'm sorry.

- Doesn't he sound like he's mocking us? - I know.

I'm not mocking you. I'm being sincere.

What's wrong with his speech? Is he not normal?

No.

Don't speak like that.

Are you going to hit us?

I don't like people who start arguments.

Please stop.

This kid...

- Are you preaching to us? - Are you crazy?

You want to die?

Get up!

Get up!

Who do you think you are?

You want to die?

You want to die?

It's not like that.

We were just walking along, and he hit us first.

I understand, just give me your social security number.

What do you understand? We are telling the truth.

Whatever. Just give me your social security number.

He's the one who hit us first!

You beat up that other guy first!

They are lying. Can't you tell that he's a retard?

What did you say?

I said he's a retard! What?

A retard?

A retard?

Hit me!

A retard?

How did you find out?

A call came through regarding verification of identity.

Why were you just getting hit like that?

You should have beat up at least one of them!

I can't hit people.

How much longer are you going to live like this?

Letting them call you a retard like that?

I'm not a retard.

Then, prove it.

If you continue what you did in the operating room before, you'll never change.

Professor Kim!

Shi On.

What you said before...

I'm sorry.

It's nothing to be sorry about.

In this world, there are many qualifications.

Qualifications to become a student... Qualifications to become a doctor...

Qualifications to become a man...

And...

Qualifications to like or love another person.

I still have a lot of qualifications I need to achieve.

If I don't have qualifications, there's nothing I can do.

I...

I want to walk alone.

I didn't like walking alone.

But, I want to walk alone today.

Okay.

I understand.

Surpass me.

I'm teaching you how you can remain in this hospital.

I think his pride was hurt yesterday.

I never saw him like that.

That's a good thing.

If he has pride, he'll be more persistent.

But...

But, what?

It's nothing.

I'll do it again.

I won't give up easily like yesterday.

Can I trust you?

Yes, Professor Kim.

I'm sorry to interrupt.

Dr. Park, you have a visitor outside.

Shi On.

Park Shi On.

This bastard...

he hasn't changed at all.

You retarded kid!

Retard!

Why did you have to be born?

Just die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Shi On.

It's your father.

Your father is here!

Get over here!

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