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She was brought here with intussusception diagnosis, so we called for you.

She's had stomach pains and hematochezia since 10 hours ago. She is dehydrated.

Run a blood test. And arrange for an emergency operation.

Are you in your right mind? It's already too late.

As soon as you open her up, she will go into cardiac arrest!

I will perform the surgery.

You better stop now!

This is my last warning.

The surgeon, Cha Yoon Seo, will start the surgery.

One more.

The child is not moving well.

It's cardiac arrest!

I will give her atropine.

One, two, three.

50 joules.

Move out of the way! Shock!

- It's dropping again! - Raise to 100 joules.

Shock!

The rhythm's not coming back.

Please...

Please...

Professor Kim.

Please...

Please hang in there.

Just a bit more.

- Dr. Cha... - Be quiet!

Dr. Cha, that's enough.

Get out! Get me the defibrillator!

Dr. Han.

Close her up, and move her to the ICU.

Report the death to the guardians.

Just wait!

What are you doing?

We'll wrap up.

I told you not to!

You did what you could!

Leave me alone.

Please...

Except for the ones who can't accept the death, leave the operating room.

Get out!

Dr. Jung and the nurses, you should leave, too.

Park Shi On.

Park Shi On!

Come here.

Get over here!

Close her up.

And move the body to the ICU.

Doctor.

It was too late.

Min Hee.

Min Hee!

Min Hee... My daughter...

How can you say so easily that she's dead?

Why did you let her die?

If you operated on her, you should have saved her.

Why did you do that?

You call yourself a doctor?

Someone who kills a person is a doctor?

Please calm down. We did our best.

My child died.

My baby died!

We understand that you are upset, but it's not her fault.

It was already too late when she arrived here.

Shut up!

I'm going to sue all of you!

My Min Hee...

You made my Min Hee die.

I'm sorry, Min Hee...

It's mommy's fault...

I'm sorry, Min Hee.

Leave it.

I'll do it.

That's why I said we should have transferred her to another hospital!

That's easy to say.

That would be like leaving her to die on the way.

Professor Kim, don't you know that this will cause a problem?

The parents will sue us for malpractice.

We should turn down a patient out of fear of getting sued?

Dr. Cha tried her best.

How frustrating...

And who will acknowledge that?

You think the parents who just lost their child are going to understand that?

Is that why you pushed the surgery onto a doctor without any experience?

What do you mean?

I didn't allow for that surgery.

Cha Yoon Seo went on her own...

You think it's right for a doctor to pick and choose his patients?

How dare you...

How can you say that?

That's all I can say...

What are you doing there?

I was sewing up Min Hee's clothes.

Why would you do that?

I think she would be embarrassed if she wore this on her way to heaven.

Dying is not about going to a different place.

It's the end of a life.

That's not true. My rabbit and my brother are there, too.

We couldn't save the patient. And she died.

That's the whole truth.

What you are doing now...

That's not helping Min Hee, at all.

It's just a selfish act to make yourself feel better.

No. I'm helping out Min Hee.

If you wanted to help her, you should have saved her!

I don't consider you a doctor.

But if you are a real doctor, you shouldn't be saying these things.

Losing a family member...

and dying when you don't have to...

That's everlasting pain for the remaining family members.

And...

no consolation can undo that pain.

Never.

No, I'm sure there is a heaven.

Fine.

You believe in that.

And don't forget that your belief will make you into a fool.

I know that people take me as a fool.

When I was young... and still now...

That's why I'm okay.

Min Hee...

Min Hee...

Min Hee, I'm sorry.

What do I do? My poor Min Hee...

This is all Park Shi On's fault.

If it weren't for him, Professor Kim wouldn't have been suspended.

He would have performed the surgery.

And this wouldn't have happened to Dr. Cha.

Stop making excuses.

Even if the professor performed the surgery, nothing would have changed.

I'm not making excuses.

Nothing's been going well since he came here.

Woo Il Kyu!

If Park Shi On does something wrong, it's okay to scold him.

But, making him responsible for something that's not his fault...

I will not allow you to do that. Do you understand?

Okay, I understand.

What's going on?

Go back to your stations.

I will go back to the NICU.

Make sure that Dong Soo is pooping well.

Yes.

Okay.

It's nothing.

Please put a temporary lift on my suspension.

I will receive the punishment later at an appropriate time.

Fine.

In this situation, I'm sure the board will understand.

Thank you.

I'm sure the child's parents are very upset.

This happened again...

Even if one hospital had a pediatrics department...

Even if they had a pediatrics department, there aren't enough doctors.

If there's an emergency, they would only have interns or residents available.

They would have to turn away the patient.

Did they take the child's body?

No.

I think it will be sent to the funeral parlor.

Is Dr. Cha okay?

Yes.

It was her first surgery, and she lost a child like that.

She must be very hurt.

I thought Dr. Cha was in charge of the surgery.

Shouldn't she be the one taking care of the aftermath?

I'm sorry, but I need to stay here.

- You're on suspension right now. - It's been deferred.

What?

I need to take care of this. And Dr. Ch is very upset.

The manager can take care of the aftermath.

And Dr. Cha is not a child!

She can't control herself?

Please understand this time.

I'll send the car with Mr. Choi.

Fine.

I'm hanging up.

Get up, Dr. Park.

You can't stay here like this.

Yeah, what if Professor Kim finds out?

Let's go eat. I'm sure you didn't eat breakfast.

Yes.

You're always acting up. Get up!

Yes, I understand.

There's an 8 year old girl in the ER who's been having stomach pains for three days.

The pain is on the lower right side.

WBC count is 12,000. CRP is 3.

We have to go, but you have to get up soon, okay?

Do you have the CMV results for Ye Eun?

No, I think it will be ready after lunch.

Please check Yoo Jin's drainage amount.

Hey! She's really something else.

It was her first surgery, and the child died.

How can she be so fine?

How can you read her so well?

You think you can see her emotions externally?

You think it's obvious like a wound or bleeding?

The pain is in the lower right side.

We ordered a blood test because of her vomiting.

We suspect appendicitis from looking at the increase in white blood cells.

Mesenteric lymphadenitis or a simple enteritis may cause similar symptoms.

Don't jump to any conclusions.

Take an image and a sonogram.

- After a diagnosis is made, prepare for surgery. - Yes, sir.

Where's Dr. Cha?

We didn't notify her, yet.

Why not?

I told him not to. I thought she would need time to recuperate.

Who put you in charge?

I'm sorry.

Why are you here?

This is not a place for you to be, so go.

I was always there.

Even when my childhood bunny and my brother went to heaven.

It's scary to be here.

But, I don't want my bunny, my brother, or Min Hee to be alone.

I hate that more than being scared.

What I hate is when you act like a child.

Do you also believe that there's no heaven?

Yes, there's no such thing.

That's what Professor Kim Do Han said as well.

That there's no heaven.

That's what the family and friends of dead people believe in.

But to us, it's just a useless word.

To the kids...

Heaven is being alive.

Being loved by their mom and dad...

Playing with their friends...

We took away heaven from Min Hee.

That's not true.

I'm sure Min Hee would be grateful to you.

When I was an intern at Choon Chun, something like this happened three times.

Everyone gave up, and didn't have the surgery.

They returned all three patients.

You're the first one who performed the surgery without turning her down.

The director once told me...

'Curing a patient is important...

but giving a chance for a patient to live is just as important.'

'A chance'?

We didn't even have a chance.

One hour.

If she had arrived an hour earlier, we could have saved her.

If I had one more hour, I could have saved Min Hee.

When the asystole occurred...

it felt like my heart would stop.

I couldn't do anything.

I don't think I'll be able to forget Min Hee's face until I die.

No, Min Hee...

What do I do now?

What will I do if I remember Min Hee's face every time I hold a scalpel?

Yes, Professor.

I told you to come in three minutes, and eight minutes have passed already.

I'm sorry.

Eight year old girl with appendicitis, with a possibility of perforation.

Study the patient, and get ready to perform the surgery.

I can't perform the surgery because of the suspension, so you do it.

I'll just watch.

You really have to do this?

I understand that you want me to get stronger.

But, I'm not happy about your one-dimensional training method.

Whether it's one-dimensional or not... it's true that you are weak.

Are you going to do it, or not?

I won't penalize you if you don't do it. Just tell me.

Are you going to kill the patient wasting time like this?

Fine.

I'll ask the manager to do it.

I'll do it!

I'll be performing the surgery.

Prepare the 10mm scope and the 5mm set.

You?

Woo Il Kyu, put up the results of the lab tests and sonogram.

Understood.

You can start.

Scalpel.

Hold it.

5mm trocar.

Do you know where Park Shi On is right now?

He's kneeling down in front of the morgue.

It's completely incomprehensible.

With his mentality, this can't go on.

And the patients' guardians are all aware of that.

I see there are a lot more complaints from the guardians than I thought.

Yes, I've already sent them to the Foundation's board, too.

You should have given me a heads up.

I didn't think of that.

I apologize.

We wasted our time unnecessarily.

This takes care of everything.

You think you can get rid of the director and Park Shi On with this?

Of course.

I'm sure of it.

You came this far to have lunch with me?

It's food for the hospital staff. It's been awhile since I've checked it out.

The restaurant's been well managed since the previous chairman.

Director...

Yes?

The board has received guardians' complaints against Dr. Park Shi On.

Pardon?

The main complaint is that Dr. Park is not fit to be a doctor.

If they want to complain, they should do it directly to the hospital...

- Why the board? - You don't get it?

Somebody's manipulating this.

What guardian would think to file a complaint to the board?

I'm sorry for making this difficult for you.

Lower it.

There's not much synechia, and the appendix base is visible.

You can take care of it easily.

It's not even a difficult case, what's taking so long?

It's almost finished.

Suction.

I think the surgery went well.

- Close him up. - Okay.

Even if there's an emergency, you shouldn't go into another surgery.

Just talk to the professor.

I'm fine.

Is Park Shi On still there?

I think so.

Eat.

Yes, Nurse Kim.

Yes.

I'll be right there.

Excuse me.

Yes?

I'm sorry, but can I ask you for a favor?

I'm sorry.

A doctor in our department hasn't eaten anything all day.

What's that money for?

You don't need to go.

I don't know about anywhere else, but it's the funeral parlor in our hospital.

It's enough that you expressed sorrow after the surgery.

That was me as a doctor, and this is personal.

Since when were you good at distinguishing work and personal life?

Don't go to the funeral.

I'm going.

Don't go.

This is an order.

If you even go near the funeral parlor...

I'll remove you from all surgeries for the next month.

Professor Kim Do Han.

Hello.

I heard you went through a lot today.

I'm fine.

You don't look fine. You should rest.

I didn't want to bother Mr. Choi, so I just took a cab in.

I'm sorry.

No, we can go another time.

But, about Dr. Cha...

She's gotten very pretty.

She used to be so nerdy.

She went through a lot today, why were you yelling at her?

If she did something wrong, she should get yelled at.

I envy her.

You never yell at me like that. You never even raise your voice.

You don't do anything for me to get mad.

No, I do.

Maybe you just didn't notice.

Punishing someone means that you care about that person.

But, if you want Dr. Cha to grow, it will be better for you to be a little indifferent.

Relying on someone will become a habit.

I did experience something like heaven once.

Really?

A long time ago, when I was about to die in the ER...

At that moment, all my pain stopped, and I felt at ease.

I saw a white light, and I kind of saw an angels' wings.

You saw an angel?

But, I found out later that it was because of the medication.

They must have given me a lot of pain killer.

We are not kids... Why would we believe in such a thing?

Santa Claus and heaven are the same.

People say they exist, but they really don't.

What do you mean there's no heaven?

Heaven exists!

It does!

Ye Eun...

Why did you have to hear that?

Please sit.

Representing the pediatrics department, we convey our sincere condolences.

We apologize for not being able to comfort you after the surgery.

No, we weren't in our right mind, either.

Please tell that female doctor that we are sorry.

We treated her wrong.

I will.

Until before, we resented that doctor.

We thought she just let our Min Hee die.

But...

we were mistaken.

We believe that she did her best.

That she was hurt, just as much as we were.

We know that now.

And...

Please tell that male doctor, too, that we are grateful.

He stayed there, so that our Min Hee wouldn't be alone.

May I help you?

What brings you here?

This.

I had something urgent come up, so I couldn't bring up the food before.

I felt bad, so I wanted to give him this.

Thank you. I will give it to him.

Yes, please do that.

Okay.

But, how did you know that we work in this department?

I don't think I told you before.

I just found out.

I'll be going then.

Doctor...

Yes?

You seem like a warm person.

Worrying about someone else...

No, not really...

Wow, it's potato soup.

It's something I used to eat in my hometown.

It's very delicious.

But... I didn't see this on the menu.

I think the lady made that especially for you.

Wow...

It's so good.

It's the same.

It tastes the same as the one I used to eat as a child.

Do you want some?

No, thanks. You eat it all.

Thank you.

Min Hee's parents said they were grateful to you.

For staying by Min Hee.

If something like this happens again, you're going to do the same thing?

Yes.

Even if the professor and I yell at you?

Yes.

A long time ago, my brother said to me...

that no matter how scared I get, I have to do what I really want to do.

That the one who endures it until the end, is the greatest person in the world.

I'm scared of the world and the people, too.

I'm scared of everything.

But, whenever I think about my brother's words...

I feel stronger.

I really missed this in America.

- Let's eat. - Enjoy.

But, I heard that the rookie has a petition filed against him.

How did you find that out?

The manager of the pediatrics department and the executive director did that behind my back.

They are so shallow.

But, do you think he's really worth it?

Yes, we'll have a lot of use for him.

I have faith in your decision.

I'll take care of the petition sent to the board.

No, let it be.

Within a day or two, something good will happen.

When that happens, they will naturally forget about the petition.

- May I ask what that is? - You'll see.

It'll help you out, so don't worry.

Ma'am! Can I get some pork sausage to go?

There's nothing to eat at the hotel.

This place is really good.

Hello.

Yes, I have to organize something.

You're a true resident.

I hope you'll be able to lead a normal resident life, soon.

Hi, my lady!

You can't sleep?

Ye Eun!

Ye Eun!

My daddy...

When I was one, he had a liver transplant for me.

Because I had... biliary atresia.

Yeah, I know that.

He worked so hard for me and my mom...

And he died of liver cancer.

Why are you telling me that story again?

Because I heard there's no heaven.

Who said that?

In Hye did.

Why is she saying useless things...

My poor daddy...

If there's no heaven, then where is he?

No.

There is a heaven.

I mean it.

No.

I know In Hye is right.

It doesn't exist, just like Santa Claus.

Ye Eun.

Do you remember your dad's face?

Yes, I remember.

What about playing with your dad? And receiving gifts from him?

Yes.

That's good.

You have the door for your father to enter into heaven.

A door?

Yes.

A door.

But, if you cry everyday, and say that there's no heaven...

the door will disappear.

But, if you only remember the good times you had with your dad, and keep smiling...

a big door will appear.

Your dad goes to heaven through that door, and sometimes comes to visit you, too.

My bunny and my brother do that, too.

This reminds me of a song....

'Knock, knock, knocking on heaven's door...'

People who say that there's no heaven, say that because they don't have that door.

Thinking about it like that...

I feel happy all of a sudden!

I feel good, too.

Daddy!

You have to come visit me everyday.

Me, too.

I'm going to knock on the door for my bunny and my brother.

Then, me too. At my mom...

Mom, did you eat?

I will ask my bunny and my brother...

to play with you.

They'll play with you, so that you don't get bored.

The director once told me...

'Curing patients is important...

but giving a patient a chance to live is just as important.'

Where are you?

I'm home.

Why aren't you sleeping?

I'm preparing my thesis.

Come out.

No, I have to continue what I was doing.

I'm in front of your house. Come out.

You're still unhappy with me?

No.

I'm unhappy with myself.

For over ten years, I've been so busy...

I forgot all about it, but I remembered today.

I'm not a doctor treating sick kids...

I'm merely a technician.

I invested my life into working at a hospital, not a factory.

Giving a chance for children to live... Giving them a future...

I think that's the job of a pediatric surgeon.

The surgeons who are wrapped up in those ideals fall easily.

I've seen them with my own eyes.

They didn't fall because they had ideals, it's because of their fear.

Fear that they may not be able to live up to their ideals...

That fear is what made the surgeon weak.

I won't be like that.

You're acting like Park Shi On.

Hasty sense of responsibility, blurs a surgeon's decision-making ability.

And that leads directly to mistakes.

I don't think Park Shi On is acting that way out of some unfounded sense of responsibility.

I thought that in the beginning, too.

But, Shi On is not a robot.

Please help Park Shi On to remain in the pediatrics department.

Whether he remains there or not is not up to me.

You have the power.

Further neglect is like violence.

I can't just watch.

You want to give more despair to Park Shi On?

Don't be protective of him anymore.

That's giving him unfounded hope.

No matter what you do, nothing will change.

The result will be the same.

Why aren't you asleep?

I can't sleep.

I counted 1,785 dragonflies, but I still can't sleep.

Can I come in for awhile?

Wow, it's been a long time since I've been here.

You drew all this?

Yes.

You draw so well.

This is Min Hee?

Yes.

And this is heaven?

No.

Here.

This is it.

What's that?

Well...

'Knock, knock, knocking on heaven's door.'

I mean...

You don't need to explain.

I think I understand.

I knew you were smart.

Thank you, Park Shi On.

Thanks to you, I'll no longer just be a technician.

If you have a guest over, you should bring something out.

Hurry.

Okay.

Can I ask you something?

Yes.

How did your brother die?

When he was young, he went inside a mine...

and it collapsed.

I was the only one who survived it.

I see.

My brother died because of me.

Because I was scared, he went in with me.

And... it collapsed.

That's the thing I threw out by accident.

My brother bought this for me on my birthday before he went to heaven.

He told me to become a doctor.

He saved up his allowance to buy me a toy hospital set.

I need to keep the promise I made to my brother.

I need to become a doctor.

Yes.

No matter what happens, you have to keep that promise.

Dr. Park Shi On!

I rang the bell so many times, and you are still sleeping?

Hey!

I saw everything before. Why are you covering up now?

I have to hurry, and go to work.

Today is Sunday.

You never went out to have fun after coming to Seoul, right?

Is there anywhere you want to go?

Should we go watch a movie?

Or... should we go eat something good?

PC room?

I'll count to five.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

I want to go there.

We're already here.

Let's have a good time.

White tiger.

You don't get to see this often, so enjoy yourself.

Okay.

It's that amusing?

I'm sorry.

Hey, Park Shi On!

How many rounds are you making?

You like animals that much?

Yes.

Why do you like them?

Animals are like children, and children are like animals.

They are both cute and nice. They play together nicely.

You're right.

And they are both hard to handle.

They must be hot.

They won't even eat. They are just drooping around.

Hey! Where are you going now?

It was acute enteritis.

It would have been bad if the two of you didn't discover it.

I gave him antibiotics, so he should be fine.

I guess it's bad for both kids and animals to be drooping around.

That's right.

The two of you must be veterinarians.

No, we are pediatricians.

Oh, really?

Here.

Thank you.

You're so funny.

Are you a vet? Examining animals?

When I was an intern..

I didn't have many chances to see how small a child's organs are...

or how hard it is to operate on them.

So, I went to a town vet, and observed the surgeries every weekend.

I imagined that the animals were children.

Then, you learned veterinary skills on your own, too.

You don't want to become a vet, instead of a doctor?

I do, but we are both stupid.

Stupid?

Animals are stupid. At least, I should be the smart one.

But, I'm not.

I know you have a special fondness for the pediatrics department...

but, it will be impossible to fund them further.

We can't just look at the pediatrics department for profit building purposes...

Then, why don't you use your own money to build a children's hospital?

What?

Please watch your attitude.

This is a formal place.

I must have made a mistake. I'm sorry.

What is it?

Within the next day or two, something good will happen.

When that happens, they will naturally forget about the petition.

Based on the above statement...

Woo Myung Group will no longer support Sung Won University Hospital with financial funding.

- Doctor... - What happened?

It's a ten year old girl. She's no joke.

What do you mean? What happened to your hand?

Is there a dog inside?

What's going on?

There's a big ruckus going on in the ER!

There's always something going on in the ER.

It's not like that.

Doctor!

Dr. Park.

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I want to be the doctor in charge of Eun Ok.

But, you don't even try to communicate with people.

Can't you just be proud of me for once?

You have to keep a clear head, do you understand?

If you have a girlfriend, share it with her.

- Why do you keep hiccuping around me? - That happened to my brother because of me.

An illness in the heart can't be cured by a book.

Are you okay?