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Hi. Hi.

Hi. Hi.

Hi.

Hi.

I really think we should go inside.

Let's go here.

See, Laura, I wouldn't see us. All right.

You don't have to make the first move.

Oh, my.

I'll be worth it.

Take your pants off. Come here

and give it to me.

Bye.

I gotta go.

I gotta go.

Study on voyeurism.

I don't know. I'm not sure.

Dr. Taylor, granted, I've been here only a week.

But of the information that I've looked at, of all the sexual problems that

human response associates sees, voyeurism is the one that we're least

treating.

I'd like to recruit some subjects and then do some preliminary clinical

observations.

As I remember, there's not much work that has been done in that field.

No, I think it's a really rich area for research.

What's your working definition of voyeurism?

The act of secretly observing unsuspecting people who are naked or in

process of undressing or participating in sexual activity for one's own sexual

pleasure.

First stage, I'd like to hold in -depth interviews and then look over the

information, and then I'd like to propose a program of therapeutic

recommendations.

Have you talked to Dr. Brand about this?

She's the clinician that designs the treatment protocols.

Well, I thought that I'd run it by you first.

My only concern here is you might be a bit too ambitious.

Well, I'll take that as a compliment.

But I must say that when you hired me, you did say to think outside the box.

Fast track it.

I think it's a home run.

Thank you.

Well, I'm looking forward to what you come up with because so far I have been

completely ineffective with the lawyers.

I think what we need to do is just see how much you can get them to disclose to

you. You know?

Mm -hmm.

Well, why is that an issue, though?

Well, women classically have had difficulty getting the subjects to

sexual intimate information in their lives.

Oh, well, that won't be a problem. That was my strong suit in grad school, so...

Oh, okay.

I didn't mean it that way. Gee.

Why are you so interested in doing this?

Well, I guess... I guess I'm

interested because I want to find out why I'm so interested in doing it.

All set.

We're on.

Hey, you. Hey.

Well,

I wish I could be there, but I can't. We have another gig tonight in San Luis

Obispo.

So I just wanted to wish you luck on your first subject, so you're going to

knock them dead.

I know you will.

I hope you don't actually knock them dead, though, because that wouldn't be a

good thing.

I don't know what else to say.

I was going to do this entirely naked, but I figured that if people were

watching, then that wouldn't be a good thing.

I don't care about these guys, though.

Yeah, rock on.

Good luck.

I miss you. I love you. I miss you. I can't wait to see you.

We all miss you. Oh, my God.

Yeah. Watch me climb up a truck.

I love you.

I love you. I'll see you soon.

Bye.

Okay, I'm going to put this microphone here.

There you go. Let me plug it in over here.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay, why don't you start by telling me a little bit about you.

My name's Dave.

I'm 28.

I'm single.

Never been married.

College graduate.

I work in advertising.

I'm a media buyer.

I'm the second of three brothers.

I like to play golf. I work out and watch basketball.

I'm a voyeur.

I haven't never told anyone about this.

Jesus Christ.

I just, I must have kept it inside me since I was a

child.

And why did you apply for this study?

I think my voyeurism is keeping me from being intimate with women.

Thanks for telling me that.

I appreciate that.

You're pretty easy to talk to.

That's good.

So how long ago was your first voyeuristic experience?

I was a teenager, and it was, man, I can see it as clear as when it happened.

And it was like being hit by lightning or something.

I mean, after that, I was hooked.

And what did that incident touch

in you?

I don't know.

This is all so mysterious to me.

But here are answers.

It's breasts and pussy.

So that's what everything looked like.

Moving, nakedness.

And she never knew I was watching.

There's something about that combination of things that I'm associating that

with the pleasure of my own.

Orgasm.

That's all she wrote.

And you masturbated when you saw that?

Yeah.

And later, too.

It lasted me for months.

You know, I really appreciate how articulate you're being about this.

It's really helpful.

Well, it's a major deal for me.

You know, giving us a lot of thought.

I mean, there's so much time spent searching for voyeuristic opportunities.

If I cannot be as obsessed as I am, I don't want to go through my whole life

doing this.

Sometimes it just gets to be too much.

So tell me about the second time.

Second time?

We had to move because of my father's job.

It started two days after we got there.

It was August, and it was hot. I mean, sweltering hot.

There's no accident here. I mean, I believe she came out to fuck that guy,

she did.

And after a couple minutes, they were going at it hot and heavy.

She was going nuts.

She kept rubbing up on him and... He

had this giant heart on him.

It was an amazing event for me.

I was watching people have sex and do the thing

that I had never done.

Even though I'd never seen it, you know what I mean?

But there it was.

It was so primitive.

Prime on.

Dirty and sexy.

But it was right in front of my eyes.

For me, I was alone.

It was amazing. They didn't stop.

And he went down on her.

She went nuts.

I always thought that that was the first time that it ever happened to her.

Because she went crazy.

She came.

Okay, let's do it. Okay.

All right, so just tell me who you are.

And you're going to get that. I'm pulling on it.

Tell me who you are and why you're here.

Okay.

I'm Christopher. I'm 30.

I'm a website designer.

What else?

And why you're here.

Well, you have to be somewhere, right?

Look, I figured maybe I could learn something.

You know?

You never know.

So tell me about your family, about your relationships. Are you single?

Yeah, I'm single.

I grew up in a middle -class family.

My mother was a social worker.

My parents split up when I was young, sixth grade.

I don't know, I answered your ad because I guess I'm what you might call a

voyeur.

Look, it's not an urban myth. I was the kid with the mirrors on my shoes looking

up girls' dresses, okay?

I don't know, the things that I remember from my life are the things that I saw.

What most people might call dirty things I call beautiful things.

Those are the images that shape me.

Listen, it's the moments in life with truth.

Those are the images that turn me on.

Stealing images from life is my life.

You see?

Look,

I don't...

I don't have what you would call normal relationships with women, okay? But I do

have relationships with them.

There was this woman once who used to, she used to live close to where I used

work.

And she knew everything about me. She knew when I got off and everything.

And she would put on these shows for me.

In front of her window, she would take off her clothes and she would play with

herself.

I don't know, we must have done it maybe a dozen times over a three -month

period.

But in that whole time, she never once acknowledged that I was even there.

I would just sit in my car and... Wow.

I don't know, I used to wonder if she would do that for anyone else.

I kind of like to think that she didn't.

I'm so happy that you're back.

Good to be here.

I'm so glad.

Tell me about the voyeurism business.

Well, it's going good.

Yeah? Yeah.

Are you, uh...

Becoming a voyeur?

Well, actually, yes.

Yeah. Yeah, I am.

Really?

Yeah, really.

And?

And... It's wild.

It's really wild.

Really?

Yeah, really. What is really?

Well, has it really affected you?

I mean, sexually?

You want to find out?

I guess.

You guess?

Yes. I really missed you. I really missed you.

And there's someone else who hasn't seen it.

I really have.

Really?

I like your video.

Did you like that? Yeah, you should have been making it.

Everybody was making fun of me.

I miss you.

Oh, yes.

They think in very specific images of sex.

Very visual.

Yeah, I'm treating a woman, Stephanie.

26, an exhibitionist. We should get your two guys and her together.

Yeah, joint research.

Yeah, exactly.

I'll tell you what, you pitch it to Ken.

Well, actually, he's got a lot riding on your project.

And how it's apparently... the board and really slammed him for okaying your

study.

I know.

How's it going?

Good.

I'm beginning to think that voyeurism is just an extension of what gets you off.

Okay, I have this sometimes boyfriend that I see occasionally.

Okay, we'll get back to that.

And when we make love, he likes me to wear like a tank top or a t -shirt so

So that when we're making love, my breasts are hidden and then eventually

they're just revealed slowly, right?

And that sort of thing turns them on. Or I had this boyfriend in high school who

just had this thing for my butt, you know? And so I'm thinking that voyeurism

just these guys' preference of how they like to experience sex.

Nothing more and nothing less.

So, thank you for coming.

Tell me a little bit about yourself.

My name's Steven.

I'm a psychotherapist.

I have a very successful family practice.

I'm married.

My wife Judy is a patent attorney.

I went to Golden State University in Whittendale for my grad studies.

I run, work out.

I collect fine art.

I enjoy antique pottery.

And I do work with the Special Olympics.

Why are you here?

I'm here because I want to have a better understanding of

this whole behavior I seem to be swept up in.

I think...

My life can be a good deal more relaxed if I can...

I don't know. Control is the wrong word, but I

guess just have a better understanding of why I'm doing what I'm doing.

It seems to be coming between

Judy and I.

It's a real problem for us.

Tell me about your first experience.

It all started on a Friday night.

My parents were out at the movie.

My brother Mark was downstairs with his girlfriend.

I've never seen that before.

I knew I shouldn't be looking, but I couldn't help it. I couldn't take my

eyes off of them.

I became very excited.

It was a very strange feeling.

They started having intercourse.

I could see everything.

And then, the most amazing thing happened.

She saw me.

And she smiled.

It was like she was making love to me at the same time Mark was making love to

her.

My brother dated her for about another year.

Were there no other incidents?

Just one.

It was one night.

My brother and Kay were sitting at the dining room table.

I was in the living room.

Mark left.

I'd seen that smile before.

I became very excited.

Very excited.

She spread her legs so I could see her panties.

And then she smiled again.

And she reached out and pulled her panties to the side so I could see her

vagina.

That was the most amazing thing.

To this day, I can picture it exactly as it happened.

I don't know.

Whether it was the fact that it was a taboo because it was my brother's

girlfriend, but it still gets me so excited.

It's interesting how Stephen K., even though he's a psychotherapist, seems to

blind when it comes to his own behavior.

I was particularly impressed by the strength of his memories. He gets lost

them.

Voyeurism is this strictly visual, therefore probably strictly male

It's a, quote, safe, unquote, behavior because they don't have to commit to

another person on any meaningful level.

I had the dream set up in college.

Everyone there was pretty cool, so I'd set up some bathroom cams, and I had

three of them, and I put them in strategic locations.

I think that was one of the first ones ever done, actually.

I saw some incredible stuff. I saw this girl playing with herself.

And it was beautiful.

Why was that exciting to you?

Oh, I guess that's why I'm here, right?

And what other incidents stand out for you?

I was at this party once, and I showed this girl some

tape that I had shot of her playing with herself.

She was kind of a freak because she liked it.

So I shot some of her sucking me off.

And what was it like looking at yourself on tape?

I don't know. I mean, I didn't really think of it that way. It wasn't, you

it actually wasn't, it didn't quite work for me. She knew she was being taped

and it fucked up the whole thing.

I told her the cameras were butted, and I ended up getting the all -time best

tape anyhow.

It was incredible.

Yeah, it was so good.

Yeah,

it was so good.

They've done it like ten different ways.

They refer to that tape as the decathlon tape.

My last girlfriend, Della, and I tried to incorporate my voyeurism into the

relationship, but it was less than satisfactory.

Meaning?

Got out of hand.

I lost control.

Not that I was ever in control.

What happened, Stephen?

I became obsessed.

With the idea of watching Della show herself off in

public.

I took her to this nudie bar, you know, the kind with amateur nights.

And at my urging, she entered the wet t -shirt contest.

It's extremely exciting for me seeing other men watching her.

She kept looking at me.

It was crazy. I gave her the thumbs up and she went nuts.

She took off her t -shirt and exposed her breasts for all the guys.

I became terribly excited.

I began touching myself.

Della saw that and she started touching her tits and her breasts.

I thought they were going to pull her off the stage.

They were yelling, take it off, take it off.

So she removed her pants and her panties.

Telling you about it, it makes me a little uncomfortable, but being there,

seeing it, doing it, taking part of it, the high, the adrenaline rush, it was

the best.

The best.

How did that incident end?

She masturbated herself on stage and we had simultaneous orgasms.

Everything was fine for a while.

Then... I really don't know how to describe it, but... It sort of builds up

inside of me to have to do something. Something with an edge.

It's like taking a drug.

In any event, I... I asked Della...

To have sex with another man while I watched.

And Della did this willingly?

Totally.

And how did it work?

I got two motel rooms right next to each other and I set up a tiny video rig

between the two rooms.

Look, we talked about this. Everything's going to be fine.

This is for me, baby.

Okay, I got the camera right here. He's not going to see anything.

You just act normal, okay?

Bella got dressed up very provocatively and went down to the bar in the hotel

room. Thank you, baby.

Okay, you ready?

Yeah. All right, let's do it.

A half an hour later, she came back with this guy.

I'm just here overnight on business.

Damn, you're some fine -looking woman. You know that, don't you?

And you are one hunk of a man.

That's why I invited you up here.

Because you look like the type of guy who could fuck my legs out.

Oh, shit.

I want you to take my dress off.

No problem.

I can't believe this is happening.

You know what? I want you to put this on.

Oh, man, I hate those things.

Here, lay back down.

I want to suck you off.

Come on, I want you to go down on me.

Yeah. Take your brass off.

Afterwards, after the guy left, I went into the room.

Babe, that was incredible.

I came so hard.

What's wrong?

We never...

Truly ever recovered from that.

I thought it was going to be okay, but it wasn't.

I've come to think about my behavior as being addictive.

Because I say I'm going to do one thing and then I end up doing another.

I just feel like I've lost control.

I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the opportunity to come down

and talk about this part of my life.

When the researcher called me, at first I said no.

But then looking back on all that, I just thought if I came

down here and talked about it that I might be able to let it go.

I think looking back on it now, which is a hell of a lot easier than trying to

gain perspective in the middle of it,

I lost my self -respect.

I did things that I didn't think were right for me.

Desperate things to keep me and Steven together.

Then you didn't enjoy it.

I wouldn't say that.

It almost gave me permission to do things that I wouldn't have normally

I think about those days.

Is this going to work?

Yeah. You know, what's interesting is I found that two out of the three men felt

that no matter how much sexual gratification they got from their

experiences, that voyeurism still had this oppressive hold on their lives.

They felt in the grips of it. You know, they felt victims of it.

And so did the people in their relationships.

Well, maybe it's just those two guys.

Well, that's my universe.

My working theory is that the sexual visual procreation genes were necessary

man's survival and not so much for women's. And that's why voyeurism didn't

develop so much in women.

It's a little far -reaching for a clinical observation, isn't it?

Of course, but, you know, I can't help but go there.

I'm open to anything.

You never seem to set anything in stone.

I like that.

I like your process.

Thanks.

You know, I'm pretty much not into talking about the voyeurism thing all

Okay, Michael, so we can talk about whatever rock star all night long, but I

talk about my work and you freak out.

You want to know if I'm a voyeur?

I'm not.

Okay? I mean, I look at girls, okay? Guys look at girls. That's the deal.

I just want a normal date, you know?

A nice dinner, some casual sex on occasion.

You know?

But until you're done with this project, I think I'm shit out of luck.

You know what? I am starting a new project at a new job.

You think I'm under a little bit of pressure, maybe?

I'm sorry.

Can you just give me some time, Michael?

Please.

Yeah.

I think I'm just getting a little sketched about you

dealing with guy sex problems all day.

It's part of my job.

I know. And I know that you're totally cool about it.

But still, what would you like me to do?

It's not you.

It's me.

I just think that the best thing for the both of us is to just give each other a

little space.

What you need to do right now is this study without me being all over you. You

know what? This is just, we're just going through something.

I love

you.

I love you.

I'll call you.

I just feel so unprofessional.

There's no reason to be so hard on yourself.

No, it's just, it's affecting my everything.

It's affecting everything.

I think about sex.

I've driven Michael completely away. I just, I feel obsessed. Why are you being

so tough on yourself?

I'm changing.

You know, I'm learning about myself. I'm discovering new parts of myself and

experiencing new things. And Michael's treading water.

And you don't want him bringing down where you can't breathe. Right.

Right. Does this work affect you?

Yeah, how can it not? I mean, God.

It's a matter of finding a balance, like having an outlet or other interests.

And we should continue talking for the movies.

And we should make a point of it, huh? Okay.

Thank you.

Next time I get this way, just hose me off and send me on my way, okay?

You're doing all right, kid. You're doing great.

Last time we talked, I asked you to try to bring some intimacy into your

voyeurism, some humanity. What did you come up with?

I hired an escort.

Call girl.

Whatever you want to call him.

Go on.

I took a hotel room.

Come on.

I'd like to see the money.

Oh, sure.

Sure.

No, no, um, I just want you to stand here.

Right here.

And I want you to take your clothes off slowly.

I have a camera over here.

Oh, well, you didn't pay me enough money to take my shoes off. No, no, no, no,

I, um, I don't have any film in it.

You just want me to stand here?

Take off your clothes.

Slowly.

Slowly, slowly.

Nice and slow.

So you like tits?

Yep.

Do you want to suck on them?

No.

Do you like asses?

Why don't you come over here?

I don't think you should worry about me.

Do you want me to keep taking my

clothes off? No, don't touch me. No.

Get back here.

So you just like to watch?

Do you like to watch me play with toys?

Sure.

Take your top off.

All the way? Yes.

Is this turning you on?

Just take your panties off.

That's it.

Nice and slow.

Do you just want to see my pussy?

Want to see Epic?

Why don't you play with yourself?

I'm okay.

You're making me really hot.

Oh yeah.

Do you want me to come for you?

Mm -hmm.

You sure you don't want me to suck you off?

Don't worry about me.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Where are you going?

Well, isn't that what you wanted? To take pictures of me?

Paid for 45 minutes.

Yeah, but you said you just wanted to take pictures, right?

Yeah.

That's right.

Aren't you happy?

Yeah.

No, no, no, don't touch her.

Thank you, that was great.

Thanks, baby.

Thank you.

So what was it like when she touched you?

I didn't see her because I was looking through the camera.

So when she touched me, I was completely surprised. Because it's not about that.

Watching and getting off afterwards.

Remembering what it looked like and bringing up all the little details.

So her touching me made it something else.

And so did the reality of your experience,

did it live up to your expectations?

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, it was.

It was expensive, but hey, we're here for a short trip, you know what I'm

saying?

So did it not matter to you that what you were looking at was set up, that

were bought images, that it wasn't real?

Real?

Well, that they were staged, that they weren't reality.

It was real enough.

Hopefully you can use their voyeur skills and apply them to their therapy.

Skills?

Skills, patterns, behaviors, call them what you want, but use them as a tool to

bridge the emotional blocks they're having with trying to have a quote

normal sex life with their partners.

Lisa?

Hi!

How's it going?

It's going so good. This is so fascinating, you know?

Good. Well, if you need anything, anything I can do to help you, let me

Okay. Okay, thank you.

I'm a little nervous being here.

I know that. This is going to be good for us.

What we're hoping to do is re -divert Stephen's sexual energy into his

relationship with you.

Sounds right.

So what I'm going to want the two of you to do is I'm going to want you to use

some strategies that will enable this process. I'm sorry.

The part I'm not sure I'm comfortable with is doing with the cameras.

Right, I understand. Well, we do that purely for clinical purposes.

There will be no way anyone can identify you.

And no one will be watching. We simply turn on the camera and leave, okay?

In addition, we use video fuzz blocks so that all identities will be kept

hidden. And we do that right here in -house so you can be assured there will

no gap in security.

Okay? Thank you.

You're welcome. It makes me feel a little better.

Lisa and I have also spoken with Stephen about some techniques that might be

helpful. And I thought that maybe it would be best if you just be

Okay?

Okay.

All right.

So...

Why don't you stand by the bed?

This is exciting.

You're so beautiful.

I'd love it if you'd take your clothes off.

Okay.

I love watching you.

Baby, you got a beautiful ass.

I want you to take your panties off for me now.

Real slow.

Here I come, baby.

Hello?

Okay.

I'm gonna look in the mirror, Angel.

Okay.

Oh, you're so beautiful.

Oh, yeah.

Ooh.

Are you doing okay?

You're doing great.

I think it's good. I think everything's going to work out really... Hold on,

Smet.

I'll call you back in about 15... In about an hour. Let me call you.

I'm going to fuck you.

Take your pants off.

I want you inside.

It was fantastic.

It sure was.

Let's pretend it never happened.

You know, that's a very good idea.

How are you going to look back on all this experience?

Well, look, I lived my life as a voyeur, okay? I always have.

I've always just done it.

But I don't often get a chance to speak with someone intelligent like yourself

about it.

And I'm very grateful to you for that. It's been very helpful.

Thank you.

And your future?

My future? Well, I'm going for it.

You know?

I'm an escrow on this small apartment building. It's got 15 units.

I'm going to completely outfit it with optical fibers, surveillance cameras.

Look, nobody's getting hurt, okay? It's for my benefit alone.

There's no harm. There's no foul.

Well, besides the fact that it's illegal, I'll have to ask you why.

Because I've come to realize that my life as a voyeur makes me happy.

So you're just going to manage these apartments for your life and the rest of

your life?

Look, I'm going to be the guy who decides who stays and who goes, okay?

I mean, I could have college girls in one apartment building. I could have

lesbians in another.

You know, I'm going to have some real variety here.

I mean, come on. I mean, I'm set for life.

Set for life?

Yeah.

Uh -huh.

Who's getting hurt?

Who's getting hurt?

Nobody.

I'm not hurting anybody. I'm, you know, I'm just, uh... I'm just having a little

bit of, uh... You know what I'm doing?

I'm giving blood to my fantasies.

There's nothing wrong with that, right?

It was great.

The use of those visual techniques, the distance between us,

framing the image as much as the reality, the mirrors,

playing to the image.

They worked really great.

But three months from now, when Judy and I are both very busy, will it be

enough?

I don't know.

You know, with voyeurism, it's enough.

It's only me.

And each time, I'm satisfied.

Am I willing to put the energy into Judy that I put into being a voyeur?

It's your choice.

Spells it out, doesn't it?

It sure does.

So I'm going to quit.

Totally.

Totally.

That's very brave of you.

I don't think I have a choice.

You know, if I want to have a lasting relationship with a woman.

Well, I wish you the best of luck.

Thanks. Thanks. It's been interesting.

Yeah, thank you.

Yeah.

That night when I saw that menage a trois, it

was a watershed event in my life.

From that moment, I

became a voyeur, an

obsessed voyeur.

Suddenly in my life, I just focused on finding situations

where I could spy on people and

masturbate.

I would find hotel rooms that had

apartments across the street.

so that I could set up my telescope.

And then, one day, I was cruising in Beverly Hills

adjacent. I had a lot of luck there.

I came up with my own system.

I'd shoot with a digital camera, and then I'd put them up on my computer.

It delayed the sexual satisfaction.

It extended the exquisite tension.

I could see into a bedroom.

A man was handcuffing a naked woman's wrist to a bedpost.

And he was putting a blindfold on her.

This was the most exciting thing that I had ever seen.

I could barely shoot. I was so excited.

He was putting himself in her mouth.

If you'd like to see the description, please.

Almost getting caught scared me.

It scared me a lot.

So I went into therapy and stopped being a voyeur.

Totally.

I figured I was happy before the whole thing, so why couldn't I be happy again?

I knew what Stephen K. meant when he said addiction.

There's nothing inherently wrong with being a voyeur, as long as there are no

victims, as long as your life is in proper balance.

But I went a little overboard, to say the least.

I've been dating.

He's a terrific guy. It's been going really well.

I'm not going to say that I don't miss the rush, but it's an even better rush

being in a loving relationship.