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[ominous music]

- Holy crap.
Bear track.

Shack.

This bear
is poking around camp.

[bear groans]
Holy *bleep*.

[bear spray hisses]

- Fish trap's stuck.

[groans] Damn it.

All right. I'm cutting it.

There she goes.
Just piss-poor performance.

- Well. I'll take beach fish.

This represents multiple days'
worth of calories.

Thank you, lake, for the fish.

I really didn't want
to leave this early.

- Let's carry her.

- Feel like 37 days
is no time at all.

I had so much more
I wanted to build.

I had so many more animals
that I wanted to hunt.

narrator: In "Alone's"
most terrifying location yet,

ten participants

face the deadliest predator
in North America...

- There he is, right there.

- Grizzly bears.
- Hey, bear!

- We got a lot
of grizzly here.

I'm gonna have
to live with them.

- Go on! Get!

- Every second we're on
the land, we're being hunted.

- Holy *bleep*. Mountain lion.

- He's circling
around my shelter.

narrator:
Bone-chilling cold...

- Winter's coming.

- You combine the wind
with the rain and the cold,

this place could make
the Arctic look easy.

- Oh, *bleep*.

narrator:
And complete isolation.

- You cannot hide
from yourself,

mentally and emotionally.

- [shouts]

- There's no place to go.

- I am suffering
from loneliness.

narrator: Who will survive?

- Yes! Yes!

- This could be the end.

- I don't want to tap,
but I don't want to die either.

- You have to suffer
before you can succeed.

- [wretches]

narrator:
The last one standing wins.

- At what point do
I push the button?

[wind whistling]

- It's stinking cold, man.

Not fun.

No fun at all.

The winds are heavy,

so it's just blowing
in every gap, everywhere.

Holy cow.

Never experienced
anything this cold.

It's really hard
to fall asleep.

Really hard to get warm.

I gotta spend the day
chinking all the cracks

from the inside with moss,

just to
make it extra wind-proof.

This place is
hypothermia's paradise.

We're gonna get our chink on.
Start at the bottom.

I can't even imagine
how it gets

in, like, December or January.

Anyone else
tapping out right now?

I hope so.

Take that, windy wall.

Control of your mind
is a big deal out here.

I got to give thanks
to my brother

for helping me train my mind

and control the negative
thoughts when they come.

I wish you were mushrooms
I could eat.

My brother wants me to do
these visualization things.

Say it, believe it, do it.

[grunts]

It's cold.
It's hard out here.

But that's no reason
for me to give up.

Gotta visualize
the win, Biko.

It's the only outcome you see.

It's time to get a fire
going.

Pretty excited about
my freshly-chinked cabin.

- Today is my oldest brother,
Shane's, birthday.

Happy birthday, Shane.

He always been
a huge supporter of mine.

And he would love to be
out here hunting.

I don't know how he'd do
with the starving part.

Bet he's eating
some good meals today.

It's a beautiful, gorgeous,
sunny, cold day.

But I'm hungry.

I've had three
or four snows now

and I keep saying

the snow's gonna bring
the animals down to me.

But I'm not seeing
animal signs.

And so right now
I'm gonna go fishing.

What is that?

What the hell?

I have not eaten red meat
this entire time.

This is an absolute
freaking blessing.

Typically,
I would not eat an animal

with not knowing how it died.

But, like,
this thing's hardly rigid.

It has not been dead long.

That's not good.

There is dinner, folks.

Breasts, legs are in there,
neck, heart, liver.

Everything looked good.

I don't see any worms
in the meat, just in the guts.

But I'm gonna boil
the hell out of it.

Hopefully, it's not a disease.

I'm not doing well.

I need protein,

and I'm just trying to get to
when we can use gill nets.

And that's
my next big move.

I think it's fairly safe.

I don't think it was diseased.
I think it was wormy.

Fish have worms.
Mushrooms have worms.

This might be the only reason
I get to day 45.

Willing to risk it.

Mmm.

It is...

delicious.
Oh, my God.

Your flesh will now
become my flesh.

- Hoo-wee.

Holy cow, it's cold.

Ugh.

That's a lot of fur
for a zipper.

I never meant for this
to have a zipper on the inside,

but that was what I had

when I had to finish
this fairly quickly.

That's all right.
We get there.

That is potentially
the warmest thing

I have ever put on in my life.

All right.
Let's go pick some rosehips.

[lively music]

Finally wearing my parka.
Whoo!

I've always wanted
to make a parka.

And being on this show
gave me the reason to do it.

[laughs]

I haven't actually
seen this on myself yet.

Okay, so this is kind of

where a lot of the rosehips
sort of start.

Oh.

My intake has been

a half a pound
of roots and berries per day.

We got to move
to the next patch.

That's 1,500 calories.

But that is not enough.

My body is running
out of reserves.

I have had two fish
that I found on the beach.

That is the extent

of my animal
protein intake out here.

Gonna head back to camp.

Without those
high-calorie items

like fish, game,

this is just a slow
descent into starvation.

And the wind is dying down.

I think it has
a lot of potential.

When I was gutting
the big fish

that I found on the beach,
a whole bunch of small fish

came up and were eating
the bits.

Little whitefish
and stuff in there.

So I thought, you know what,
I'm gonna make a fish basket

for very small fish.

If I could get
a few of those in a trap,

that will be pretty exciting.

A bunch of small fish
equals a big fish.

Cool.
That's something accomplished.

It's warmed up,
and the wind seems to be calm.

All right, here we go.

I have to get it
out far enough

to be able to catch fish.

So I'm gonna put it
on a line system.

Basically have
a clothesline system.

I have two anchors.

One is on the beach,

which is attached to
the other anchor in the water,

out by the rocks,
near Cook Camp.

This should be a system
where you just pull it in,

check the trap,
and put it back out.

Great. Lovely.
I'm ready to rock and roll.

It's ready to go out.

I'm running out of days

where I'm gonna have
the energy to do projects

unless I can get some
more calories coming in.

Out she goes.

Why don't you work?

Come on.

Bloody basket's
snagged on something.

What in the world?

*bleep*.

That shouldn't happen.

Slow down, Theresa.
You're all right.

Just gotta get out
to that rock.

You can do this.

I gotta get some clothes off
and go for a little wade.

Go figure it out.

Wading in the lake
with snow on the ground.

Brr.

Oh. If it can tangle,
it bloody will.

We're gonna fix
that little problem.

There we go.
All right.

Now I need to tie
the line back together.

I love it here,
but in the last few days,

have started
missing my parents.

You know, life is rolling on
without me there,

and it's an odd thought.

I think this is the one
that pulls the basket in.

Awesome.
And that totally works.

I know for a fact
they are sat in Wyoming

worrying
about me every day.

All right, here we go again.

You know, your daughter's out
in the wilderness,

all by herself,
survival living.

Setting the fish trap,
take two.

[chuckles]

Ah.

I want them to know I'm okay.

And I hope my parents
are proud of me.

All right. Works.

It's a fish trap in the water.

Yay.

Let's just hope it attracts

a whole bunch
of little, yummy fish.

Whoo.

- Well, that's looking about
like a gill net to me.

I'm gonna tie
some of these off.

But that's awesome.

Let's just take it down.

Pretty stoked, guys.

Finished the gill net

well before we're allowed
to use them.

There it is.

Ready for the netting
of gills at some point.

Not really sure
what else to do.

I'm gonna have to think
of some more projects

to stay busy out here.

Just trying to take it easy
till I can put a gill net in.

That's gonna be my best option

for getting fish
out of that lake.

Feels like time's going slower
and slower out here.

Felt like it went by
pretty fast in the beginning,

but that might have been

'cause I was so busy
doing stuff.

Pretty cool spoon there, Biko.

Final product.

The best spoon
I've ever made.

Projects help you stay busy.
Help keep your mind off home.

Might make a halfway
decent shelter spear.

As the weather gets colder,
as the food gets scarcer,

it's getting harder
to pass the days by.

My ankle is hurting.

Definitely can't start
going on hunting missions,

which really sucks.

I think that would
work pretty good.

I just feel like
just one misstep, man,

could send me out of here.

Just gotta try to figure out
getting food from the water.

No one to talk to
but a camera lens.

It can be kind of tough, man.

I decided to cut up my belt

and go ahead and make
a sheath for my knife.

Well, how about that, then huh?

Fancy new sheath with
a proper belt loop.

Boom.

Anyways.

Each day I'm here is
one day closer to my goal.

I am becoming the troll,
for sure, out here.

Can you see the claws?

[dramatically]
I am becoming the troll.

Just gotta conquer my mind.

It's crazy that I'm not
going crazy

from being alone this long.

[laughs]

Maybe just a little crazy.

There it is.
"Troll Cave."

It does feel like
I've moved here now.

Important business
to attend to.

Definitely not
gonna give up easy.

I'm willing to deal with a lot
of discomfort, starvation.

This is my one chance
to provide

like I never have before.

Now all who come around

will know that
this is the Troll Cave.

- Gill net break time.

Back, arm, shoulder...
[groans]

Gonna raise
the net up a little

so my head's not
looking down.

I'm an old man.

Time to do
the next row of mesh.

I'd like to finish
my net today.

Gonna be tying all day, guys.

Found that bird.

That was a nice morale boost.

Get some meat.
Didn't have any stomachaches.

Didn't have anything.
Feel fine.

Good.

Oh, yeah.

I'm doing
a five-inch gill net.

See if I can get
some big fish,

'cause big fish
pay off big time.

Okay.

First float is on.

I like it.

The boat and the gill net
are the combo, man.

That's my winning team,
I hope.

I can set my gill net
all over the cove.

I can set it deep.
I can set it shallow.

In the wintertime, those fish
move into deep water,

I can get to them.

God, if that could give me
a steady food source,

I'm gonna go the distance.

Yes.

That is ready
to put in the water.

One happy dude.

Now that...

Is done, finally.

Took me forever.

Too slow, but I like
the end product.

Happy with it.

I'm more optimistic.

Between the gill net
and the boat, as a team,

feel like that is
my road to victory.

Without either of those,
doesn't look good.

All right, you guys,
it's 2:30 a.m.

Gill netting day.

It's a windy one.

It's been blowing hard
as hell all night,

and I just have
this bad gut feeling

that the boat
needs attention,

so I'm walking down the hill,
and I'll take you with me.

I'm afraid
the boat's smashed up.

I need to know it's okay.

Do I want to be doing this?

Hell no.
There might be bears around.

Hey, bear!

*bleep*.

This was a dumb idea.

Hey, bear!

- Hey, bear!

Hey, bear!

Coming through!

Hey, bear! Gonna be quick!

Ooh.

*bleep*.

We're gonna call
that good for now.

That feels so much better.

I am so glad
I came down.

Windy.

Geez.

Windy night.
Not what I wanted to do.

But...

So gonna head back up.

- Good morrow to you.

Fine morn, it is,
as it is gill net day,

the day I get to put in maybe
the biggest game changer

for me out here,

as far as food goes.

I'm gonna go get
my gill net tree down.

That's our specimen
right there.

Long, narrow.

Should get my gill net
out to a good distance.

It's getting tough
out here, folks.

The lack of calories
catches up with you, man.

It's been weeks since
I consumed any protein.

I'm definitely
getting beat up.

Gotta go real careful.
This is a bouncy log.

Slow and careful, leg.
Slow and careful.

I don't know how
much weight I've lost,

but I know
it's considerable.

Just gonna keep on
doing the best

I can, despite being cold,

despite missing home,
despite missing eating.

I really hope the gill
net changes things for me.

That's my last hope.

Wish my pops was here.

My dad sure would
appreciate this place.

He would say it's healing.

My dad was a marine.

He was always wanting
to teach us skills.

And now for you.

He was really brave
his whole career.

Did some scary stuff.
Had some scary close calls.

Okay.

Looks like a pretty decent
gill net, if you ask me.

Let's get it out there.

I hope that when
he watches this,

he can see that this was
my chance to be brave...

And to put one foot
in front of the other,

and to deal with
the mental demons

of being alone
in the wilderness,

not having much to eat.

All right.
Gill net is deployed.

I hope I make him
proud by my sheer will

and determination,
despite starvation.

Just praying the gill
net works for me, man.

I'm counting on that, man.

Are you kidding me?

Look at that.

Those are bears...

Swimming towards my camp.

*bleep*.

That's concerning.

There's bears, like, 30
feet away from me right now.

Hey, get out of here!
Get out of here!

They're leaving.

Thank goodness.

I don't like having
bear encounters.

It's stressful

to have to watch out for them
all the time.

It's a constant worry
that Mr. Grizzle Bear

is gonna come around
the corner.

I'm looking forward
to later in the season,

when they're hibernating.

I'm kind of doing it
the grizzly bear way right now.

I just packed on a bunch
of freaking

meat--

packed on a bunch
of extra meat on my body,

and now I'm gonna just wait
it out until it's all gone.

I've never starved
for this long

or been on such a low-calorie
diet for this long.

I'm feeling it now.

The hunger is starting
to get to me.

- Oh, I am dark and filthy.

Wow, that is so crazy,

when you don't look at yourself
every day, or even every week.

Geez.

Eyes.

Wow.

No one out here to tell you,

"Man, you got some dirt
on your face."

Opening day, gill net season.

Really glad
I came down last night.

I realized I need
to get the boat fixed.

It's not quite as stable
as I'd like.

So I want to be
as safe as possible.

That boat is not going back
in the water

until it has new ribs
and the outriggers are solid.

I put a lot of time and energy
and thought into this boat,

and man, I'm hoping
it starts paying off.

I love living in Alaska

in the middle of
the wilderness.

But being so remote, you miss
out on the services society

and the service industry.

Like, you can go down
and buy bread.

You can go buy gasoline.
I can't do any of that stuff.

Good to go.
Let's do the other one.

And then ribs.

You need something,
you don't have a store.

You get unhealthy and sick
and whatever,

you don't have a doctor.

So you have to deal with
a lot of things on your own.

Okay. This ought to be
a little firmer.

Who knows what
the future holds?

But the way I see it now it's,
the gill net works well,

I can stay, and if it doesn't,
I might not be able to.

Feels solid now.

Now let's get
this net going, huh?

Let's get out there
and go set it.

We're gonna fish five feet
off the bottom.

Is that too aggressive?

Trees, stumps, logs,
floating stuff,

I just feel like
that's where the fish are.

I need some wins.
I need some successes.

I need some celebrations.

I'll do the best I can.

I'm not going anywhere.

I will adapt and overcome.

Woo-hoo.

Now we're going fishing.

- Nice big ball of moss.

I gotta a few cracks
in the shelter

I need to patch up.

But thinking 'bout making
an archery target,

and I think this would
make a good arrow stop.

Look at that. Poi-fect.

Use my landing net
for something.

Can't catch any damn fish
to go in it.

Before we get the gill net
all squared away,

time for archery practice.

Yeah, I think
that's gonna work good.

I have a target range
at the house

that me and the boys shoot.

I shoot it almost every day,

but they'll shoot
a couple times a week,

usually.

Clear some of that underbrush
out of the way.

Very nice.

That was fun.

Now we'll had back out
to the beach.

Gonna set up my rig
for setting out the gill net.

I'm not seeing
the fish anymore.

But I know they're out there.

I don't have any experience
with gill nets.

But this could be
a game-changer.

Gonna make a tripod-type
thing here.

The gill net pulley system,

it needs to be stout enough
to withstand those winds.

I like being
a wildlife biologist.

I mean, I did it
for over ten years.

But I always had the thought
I just needed to be

working for myself.

I was an entrepreneur
at heart.

And eventually found
a way to do that,

doing something I love,
which is absolutely amazing.

I've got a buddy that
was just musically--

I mean, he was gifted.

And I said,
"Man, this is your calling.

You gotta make this your life."

And he's, "Ah, nah."

You know, maybe only
one percent of the people

that have a talent like that
that actually make it.

That ought to work.
Wire that up.

But that's the one percent
that tries.

If you stick with it and do it
because you love it,

you will be that one percent.

'Cause everyone else
will give up.

So I'll put a ring up here.

Run that cord through the ring.

And then I can pull it up.

Oh, *bleep*.

So there's a merganser
foraging right here

along the beach.

He's coming this way.

I'll be really surprised if he
gets close enough for a shot.

But he might.
He's getting close.

Come on.

I'd love some duck.

You *bleep*.

Ah.

Damn it!

Son of a B, son of a B.

I hit just--ah!--

just underneath him.

Man, I can't believe
he got that close.

That's ridiculous.
He was ten yards.

Just hit right underneath him.
Damn it.

I should have killed
that bird.

That deer is not going
to last forever.

I got to get some food
stockpiled up

to be able to stay here.

At least the gill net
looks nice.

Maybe the fish will like it.

So the way that
this gill net system works

is I have this ring.

All right, I don't even know
where to begin.

I have an anchor rock.

I have a line
coming up to a float.

And just under the float,
I have a ring attached.

The ring is going to act
as a pulley.

So I have a tripod
on the beach,

and I have a paracord
that runs in a continuous loop

through the ring
back to the tripod.

I don't know how
this is gonna work

with those rocks down there.

So now all I have to do
is attach my gill net to this,

and I can laundry line it out
and laundry line it back.

It is deployed.

Fingers crossed.

Actually went out smoother than
I thought it was gonna go into.

Hopefully, this will carry me
through the end.

- Not the worst day ever,
but not the nicest.

So I'm walking over
to Cook Camp,

because my fish trap
is still in the water,

and we've got a crazy
north wind today,

really high waves,
and I'm just gonna go over

and see if there's any chance
of me being able

to get it out of the water.

However, the fish trap
isn't producing.

Maybe today
it's gonna be different.

What the hell?

My fish basket is on the beach.

What the *bleep*?

Holy cow.

The waves tore the wire
off the anchor rock.

*bleep*.

And also smashed
one of the hoops.

So, so, so annoying.

Let's take the fish trap
home.

It's done.

I've expended all the energy

I'm going to
on fishing this lake.

I know my time here
is getting slim.

However,

$500,000 is actually
a pretty big factor for me.

I have no plan whatsoever
for that point in my life

where I can't work anymore.

Oh.

You haven't
noticed here,

but I don't like
being beaten by things.

So it's looking like
I will last here on plant food

as long as I last.

All adventures
have a beginning,

a middle, and an end, right?

Be nice if mine ended
with $500,000.

- The loud winds woke me up...

about an hour--hour,
hour and a half ago.

I haven't been able
to go back to sleep.

Not making me happy.

Hope my gill net isn't
being destroyed down there.

I'm praying for a fish
to be in there.

So here we go.

I'm gonna check out the
gill net, first things first.

Gotta get something to eat.

No fish.

Oh, man.

I was really hoping there was
at least a small fish in there.

It's really disappointing, man,

and it just takes away
a little bit more of my hope.

The lack of food, the failures
after failures after failures

is starting to add up.

I can't take a whole lot more
of this, mentally.

Wish I could have a pep talk
from my dad.

But there's no one out here
to pat you on the back,

say it'll be all right.

Had so many good times
with him growing up.

Can't imagine I'd be the
same person

if he
wasn't there.

Appreciate everything.

Never told you, but I do.

And thanks for accepting...

The weird, metalhead,

heathen nerd that I turned out.

Always meant a lot.

And I hope to show you
what a good father I can be.

I don't know why
I'm so emotional right now.

But I'm ready for it to stop.

Love you, Dad.

Be safe. Be well.
Stay warm.

See you when I'm out of here.

Goodnight.

- This is Clay Hayes,

reporting to you
from Pine Grove.

There are very few
beachgoers today,

and for good reason.

Hurricane Chilko is about
to make landfall.

They eye of the storm
is still a few miles off,

but as you can see,
it is pushing massive surf,

and the winds
are extremely strong.

We'll keep you posted
as this storm progresses.

Back to you, Kai.

I need a kitesurfing kit.

My net's probably in Alaska
somewhere.

This weather sucks.

Go down here
and just look at the gill net.

If it's even still there.

It's really tough
to survive out here.

But one of the reasons
that I say is

I want to set a good example
for both my sons,

but Koi in particular,
the oldest one.

Oh, this thing is all
kind of tangled up.

He gets discouraged easily.

When something
doesn't come easy,

when he has a setback,
you know,

he lets that stop him.

No fish.
I didn't expect there to be,

especially with all
this crappy weather.

I want to be able
to show him that, you know,

if you just keeping
chipping away,

little bit by little bit,
those little bits add up.

But he gets overwhelmed,
I think, by the big picture.

And you just gotta realize
the big picture

is made of
little bitty pixels.

You just gotta
chip away at them.

This gill net is just--
I don't know about it.

I don't know.

Not a whole lot of
faith there.

[ominous music]

- But I slept pretty
dang good again.

I don't know what's changed.

I think
my sleep's just--my exhaustion

just caught up with me,
or...

I'm gonna get dressed
and go lightning fast.

Go down and check the net.

I hope that gill net
caught a fish.

I need it.

I'm gonna keep trying.
Ain't gonna give up.

But man,
I can't seem to connect.

This will just
a huge event for them.

Huge event for me.
Once in a lifetime.

I did not plan on visiting
my family this holiday season.

I was just gonna go back
to the hobbit hole

and living alone
on the island for the winter.

But now no matter what,

I want to go see them, man.

I want to go, like,
just be with them.

My mom and dad are probably
more excited

about this opportunity than
anyone on the planet,

like, literally.

They are so supportive
of me,

and they think
I'm gonna do incredible.

I wish one of you
could come out

and see this place, man.

Check out my camp.
Check out my boat.

I'd cook you a meal, but...

Holy *bleep*.

Oh, yes.

Oh, my God, yes.

Yes!

Yes! Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Oh, my God.

Looks so good.

Key word tonight: savor.

I invested in that boat.
I invested in that gill net.

And today, it paid off.

Ah! Yes!

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

Two.

Filled that pot with one.

My body needs those fish.

My soul needs those fish.
My...morale.

My body's depleted.

Tired. Exhausted.

I've lost so much weight.

You know, I get dizzy spells.

So these fish
aren't gonna get me--you know,

they're not gonna take me
to the end,

but God, what a start.

I'm gonna get to cooking

and just getting warm,

and... [sighs]

Celebrate!

[tense music]

- [in British accent]
On the hunt

for the illusive matsutake.

Must be ever-aware,

because they can spring
from nowhere

and everywhere
at the same time.

Oh, yes!

Nice.

Perfect.

I'll gather these up and head
back towards the shack.

No worms.

There's quite a few of them
on this ridge.

You can see them poking up
every now and then,

underneath the pine.

See a little patch
of white sticking out.

Shall henceforth be dubbed
Matsutake Ridge.

That was a pretty good haul.

Now I guess I'll walk down
and check the gill net.

Even though I know
what's in there.

The waves here
are just insane.

And I don't think
it's gonna let up anytime soon.

But there's always a chance.

Oh, look. No fish.

I need a stick
to hold this net up.

I don't know about this net.

Well, you son of a bitch.
*bleep*.

Not what I wanted you to do.

Even if it caught
a fish or two, still,

I don't even know if
it'd be worth the hassle.

Just gonna redo this pulley
system a little bit.

*bleep*.

Oh, *bleep*.

The gill net retrieval system

is a complete
and total failure.

[ambient music]

*bleep*.

[tense music]

- Oh, God no. *bleep*.

So yeah. I...

I spilled
the mushroom soup.

I had to pick every piece
of mushroom

out of the sand
and the ash in the fireplace,

rinse it all off,
get new water,

start the boil again,
get the mushrooms back in.

Ugh.

Can't believe that happened.

It's all right.

Some mushroom soup is better
than no mushroom soup.

But, you know,
that is what it is.

After this, it's just roots
and Kinnikinnick.

So many highs and lows.

I have to be able
to find little ways

to just keep my spirits up.

You know, at home,
a lot of that kind of thing

is food-related.

Like,
"Oh, gosh, I'm gonna go out

"and I'm gonna have,
I don't know, Chinese,

as a treat for working
really hard today."

Out here,
you don't really have food,

so it's interesting to
find ways to reward yourself

that don't revolve
around food.

Well, in the UK,
today is Guy Fawkes Day,

5th of November.

So what I think
we should do now

is go celebrate Guy Fawkes Day.

In a world away, in a little
place called Ottery St. Mary,

right now there are people
running through the streets,

carrying barrels

that are coated
on the inside in tar,

and they're running through
the streets with them

in flames.

And normally, that is where
I would be right now.

So this is my tar barrel.

It's actually
a big old piece of fur

that's just got a whole bunch
of pine pitch all over it.

All right, Ottery,

this is a shout out to you
and your tar barrels.

[laughing]

[cheering]

So even though

I'm not at the running
of the tar barrels,

even though I'm hungry
all the time,

and I am weak as a kitten,

I still wouldn't trade this
for anything.

It's a gorgeous,
clear night here.

You can see the stars so,
so brightly.

Where I am right now
at this moment, is magic.

Makes me feel almost normal
for a minute.

It's given me
what I need

to make it all the way
through.

This is amazing.

You could reach out
and touch the stars.

[exhales]

My heart will hurt
to leave this place.

[dramatic music]

- Wow.

That's definitely skinnier.

Much skinner.

Brutal.

Well, there you have it, folks.

I'm *bleep* losing weight.

Lots of it.

But I've got more.

As you can see,
I can still grab some meat,

so got more to lose.

As long as I can grab
some meat,

I got more to lose.

I don't want to give up.

This is a once-in-a-lifetime
opportunity.

Gonna get on that onion
foraging mission.

I can't quit now.

It would feel like me
giving up

on my family's future.

Here we are at last,
in the onion patch.

The gill net
is not working for me.

My only fallback is foraging.

I'm living off plants.
I'm on the vegetarian diet.

Shall we get to digging
or what?

I did not expect to be doing
a vegetarian diet,

that is for sure.

I was raised vegan until six
or seven years old, I think.

The fact that my dad
was a vegan

that hunted blew
people's minds, man.

All it takes for me to stay
is all I've got.

So I'm gonna give it
all I've got.

No part of this is easy.

It's really hard
to choose to starve.

But I'm not gonna let my
mind defeat me out here.

And I keep keeping on,
as long as I can.

All right.

What do you say
we go plant my garden now?

You are gonna witness
the first ever "Alone" garden.

Plant my onions.

Hoping that this way,
instead of them

drying out in my shelter,

like has been happening,

they'll stay nice and fresh

for when I'm ready for them,
for the next meal.

My dad, he kept getting up
every day, risking his life,

so that he could provide
for his family.

And I hope that, like him,

I can keep putting one foot
in front of the other

all the way to the end,
for my family,

my growing family.

There you have it.

I know it doesn't look
like much, but it is my garden.

Well, Dad, here I am.

Might be a little lighter
than when you last saw me.

Haven't been eating
a whole lot.

But I've been eating enough
to get by.

I built my cabin.

I've eaten a lot of plants.

I've run into grizzly bears.

And I'm still here.

Love you, Pops.

Thanks for supporting me,

helping me get to this point.

When I get out of here, I hope
we can meet up for a beer.

And I'll tell you
all about it.

- What the hell? Boat sunk.

Oh, I gotta be careful.
*bleep*.

- Gill net is frozen solid.
*bleep* tired, man.

Tired of failing.
Tired of being here.

- That right there
is lion poop.

I'll bet that's that same cat

I saw when I first got here.

[call device makes
kazoo-like sound]

That ought to call a cat.

- Then we saw this off. Ow.

Bloody *bleep*.