Original subtitles

[tense music]

♪ ♪

narrator: In "Alone's" most terrifying location yet,

ten participants face the deadliest predator

in North America.

- There he is, right there. - Grizzly bears.

- Hey, bear! - Got a lot of grizzlies here.

I'm going to have to live with them.

- Go on, get!

- Every second we're on the land, we're being hunted.

- Holy *bleep*, a mountain lion.

- He's circling around my shelter.

narrator: Bone-chilling cold...

- Winter is coming.

- When you combine the wind with the rain and the cold,

this place could make the Arctic look easy.

- Ah, *bleep*.

narrator: And complete isolation.

- You cannot hide from yourself,

mentally and emotionally.

- Ah!

- There's no place to go.

- I am suffering from loneliness.

narrator: Who will survive?

- Yes! Yes!

- This could be the end.

- I don't want it to tap, but I don't want to die either.

- You have to suffer before you can succeed.

- [retches]

narrator: The last one standing wins.

- At what point do I push the button?

[bear growls]

[soft dramatic music]

♪ ♪

[wind howling]

♪ ♪

♪

- This land is as wild as any in North America.

Chilko Lake is extremely rugged.

Landslides, rockslides, fires, winds,

cold, hypothermia, snow.

I mean like, there's a reason no one lives out here.

- Bye-bye, people. I am alone.

- The higher elevation is going to be a huge factor.

We're going to have to deal with subzero temperatures,

heavy snowfall, and extreme winds.

♪ ♪

- It has officially begun.

*bleep* crazy.

[laughs]

♪ ♪

- You're not at the top of the food chain here.

Black bears, cougar, wolves, moose,

but then the big one is grizzlies.

I mean, if you come up on a grizzly,

the next thing you know, you're in a world of hurt.

- The Chilko region is a massive,

salmon-spawning ground,

and there is just tons of grizzly bears.

- Bear tracks, definitely within the last 24 hours.

So they're out there.

♪ ♪

- "Alone" is the ultimate benchmark.

With nothing but ten permitted items,

we have to build a life and survive.

- I don't think there's anything more real

than what we're about to do. It's all on me.

It's just me and the wild.

- Everybody is here because they have the physical skills,

but in survival, it's mental.

- There goes my last contact.

Holy *bleep*.

It's on.

My heart is beating.

I am so excited.

Day one, minute one.

And so it begins. [laughs]

Holy crap. I'm on "Alone."

It's hard to believe.

It almost brings tears to my eyes.

I'm so glad to be here.

My girlfriend, Brittany, and my kids

have sacrificed so much

so that I can come here and do this.

I won't waste their sacrifice.

[tense music]

- So I found me some coyote tracks,

wanted to show you what they look like.

I've been doing this kind of stuff since I was born.

When most kids were riding skateboards,

me and my brother were sneaking off

to the neighbor's pond to catch fish.

Wyoming white-tailed jackrabbit.

♪ ♪

My strongest skill set is big game hunting.

I've been hunting bears for quite some time.

I think I can safely say I have more experience

with bears than anybody on this season.

Looking pretty mean.

You need to respect them, but you cannot fear them.

If you fear a grizzly, they're going to know it,

and that never works in your favor.

- Hey. - [giggles]

- The reason I'm doing this is for the money.

I've got an eight-year-old daughter that I adopted.

I have a great girlfriend. She has a son of her own,

and we have identical twin girls together.

That money is going to allow me to spend more time

with my children.

It is going to be a very tough season,

but my number one goal is to win,

and there's nothing out there I can't overcome.

♪ ♪

Shelter, hunting and fishing. Those are my three goals.

♪ ♪

If I can do those three successfully,

then all I have to do is overcome the loneliness,

and I'll succeed.

I'm not going to do too much more exploring.

I've got to start thinking about dinner.

I've seen two grouse.

♪ ♪

I've got to find me a good throwing stick,

in case I come across another one of them.

♪ ♪

I want to do it better than anybody has in the past,

110 days plus.

To win this thing, you need willpower

because the suck is definitely coming,

and the only way you're going to get through it

is with enough willpower.

Look at this.

That's bear.

[breathing deeply]

♪ ♪

This is grizzly central. Every log I look at,

every round log has been torn into.

The bears tear into it looking for food.

♪ ♪

We are in one of the highest grizzly bear populations

in North America. It's not a matter of if.

I know I'm going to encounter grizzlies here.

♪ ♪

Shelter is a big priority.

I don't not want to spend too many nights

with this number of grizzlies

without a shelter that can semi-keep them out.

♪ ♪

That's definitely a grizzly bear.

One.

It's pretty damn fresh.

Not a good sign.

♪ ♪

A grizzly bear is capable of consuming you.

He can just simply end you,

and it can happen in a split second.

♪ ♪

It just hit me how alone I really am.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

[bird cries]

- Got a little game trail coming down this way,

running right down the middle of this little ridge.

I'm not looking for anything in particular.

I'm just looking to see what I have to work with.

You always hope that you get lucky with a site,

but it doesn't do any good to hope for the best.

You have what you have, and that's what you're going

to have for the rest of the time you're here.

Ooh, look at that. Nice.

The first forage.

[gentle music]

Putting food on the table is my primary concern.

My body type is not built to hold weight.

The weight that I've put on is going to fall off quickly,

and once that happens, I'm not going to have those reserves.

So it's going to be very important

that I know the plants,

that I can hunt all the birds, grouse,

and that I'm able to catch enough fish.

Pretty good haul.

I'm under no illusions

that it's going to be easy to be out here alone.

It's going to be the most difficult thing

I've ever attempted in my life.

- Whoa! Dad's got it. - Yes.

- I was a wildlife [indistinct] for ten years.

I've trapped every animal in Idaho.

You can't learn that stuff from a book.

That's experience. That's what I bring.

I'm primarily a video creator with a focus on primitive

and traditional archery.

Bow building is my passion. Deadly.

I want to do this because

it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

I don't feel like I need to provide anything to anyone.

This is for me.

There's things that you can only learn about yourself

when you face challenges like this.

Whoo!

That's what I'm looking forward to.

My family is the biggest thing that I'm going to miss,

but for me, the way to them is through this thing.

The prize money would be great.

We could set up a couple of college funds for the kids,

and it'd pay off our house.

This will be far longer than I've ever been gone before,

and as time goes on, it's just I'm going to want to see them.

But I can't imagine a scenario

that's going to cause me to tap that button.

- Bye, Dad.

- I haven't found anything that...

Looks like a place that I would want to hunt.

This stuff is just thick and uninviting.

Ah, *bleep*. Some grouse.

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

Dinner!

♪ ♪

[exhales]

Beautiful birds.

[thoughtful music]

♪ ♪

The thing that separates the people

that are gonna tap early

from the people that stay out here

is fortitude, mental toughness

because it's going to get hard.

The people that go out thinking that they have

it all figured out,

that have a huge ego about what they can do,

good luck

because you're going to get humbled.

It looks like a fine meal in the making right there.

♪ ♪

Being in grizzly country is definitely going to affect

the way that I do everything.

I have to maintain a separate cook site

because if a bear starts associating

food with the place that you're living,

you're going to have problems,

but I don't live my life

in fear of things that might happen.

When I'm out there and something comes up,

I'll deal with it.

[twigs snap]

The *bleep* was that?

[tense music]

♪ ♪

Got me all jumpy.

♪ ♪

Holy *bleep*.

Mountain lion. [whispering] Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- [whispering] Oh, my God.

That is a *bleep* mountain lion.

♪ ♪

[leaves rustle]

[twigs snap]

[jacket rustling]

*bleep*.

♪ ♪

Damn it.

Ah, I thought I could get him to tree.

[sighs]

That was freaking awesome.

Holy *bleep*.

[desolate music]

That was a mistake.

I tried to slip back to my tent and get my bow,

and when I did that,

he took that as an opportunity to leave.

What I should have done was rushed him right then,

and he'd went up a tree and I could have killed that cat.

Man, that was cool.

I hope I see him again with my bow in my hand.

God dang it.

[soft dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Freaking awesome. I'm ready.

Get out of here!

[boat engine humming]

There they go. There they go.

They're going.

Super crazy.

[sighs]

First impressions: really freaking beautiful.

♪ ♪

My baggage over here.

All right. Let's get started.

♪ ♪

During boot camp, they talk about drop shock,

and I get it. I get it.

Definitely crazy. [chuckles]

Whoa.

♪ ♪

[laughing]

Yeah!

Look at that right there.

It is a little bull moose.

That's freaking cool.

They look like a log, like a branchy log,

and then it turned its head,

and I thought it was like a bird flapping wings.

But it's a freaking moose.

♪ ♪

That is such a sweet greeting.

I'm so pumped. Home.

I am officially home.

I live in St. Croix,

beautiful sunny U.S. Virgin Islands.

There's never a day where I can't go to the beach.

My wife and I teach primitive skills.

When I first started getting into these primitive skills,

it was immediately like,

"Oh, this is the rest of my life,"

and it was something that I put myself in entirely.

I lived in a primitive shelter

for seven years through the winters.

I spent an entire year using nothing but stone tools

as my cutting implement.

I understand how to exchange the modern distractions

for the ability to listen.

When you're successful at a challenge like this,

it's because you're listening. It's because you're open.

You're not trying to force your ideas on things.

I see this in a lot of ways as a vision quest.

I want to reach deep inside myself

and see what else is there and to evolve.

It never gets old.

You ready for daddy to go or no?

- No.

- Mommy, you ready for daddy to leave?

- No. - No?

- Daddy, you ready to leave?

No, not really, but you know what?

Daddy will never feel ready to leave.

I want this experience to change me.

I'm excited to see how I deal with the hardships

because I have the skill set,

and I have the mentality that can do it.

I knew it was taking a huge chance

not bringing a fire striker, like, enormous chance.

Feeling a little defeated because it's not there.

But I've been doing primitive fire-making

for more than 20 years now.

That's something that I feel confident enough in,

and then that's gonna save me the extra item

to bring with me.

[as British narrator] Will he get the fire to start?

Will all of the naysayers be correct?

Stay tuned!

♪ ♪

[normal voice] My expectations are always

higher than my ability.

As my ability gets better,

my expectations soon outstrip them,

and that is what's driven me in life,

So close!

constantly reassessing

and constantly improving on my skills.

Oh, thank goodness.

Fire!

[trills tongue loudly]

[dramatic music]

Not really sure which way to explore first.

This is all about learning the land today.

Before busting out my shelter.

See what around my sch-pot.

♪ ♪

Hmm.

A big old bear poop.

Some hair, some berries.

♪

I've been through bear territory before.

I've camped a few nights, but this is the first time

where I've planned on an extensive stay

in grizzly habitat.

They live here. This is definitely their spot.

Getting needlessly dangerous here,

so I suppose I should go and make my way back to camp.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

[thunder rumbling]

[rain pattering]

[thunder cracks]

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

[wind howling]

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

- My morning drink.

I just drained the grit out through my teeth.

[slow tempo music]

♪ ♪

That's enough for now.

♪ ♪

[burps]

Swallowed some weird little caterpillar looking things.

Extra protein.

♪ ♪

Would you look at that view?

Got this epic mountain in front of me,

a lake that looks like Caribbean freaking blue water.

This is one of the most beautiful places I've been.

This is home, for long as I can stand it.

♪ Glorious mountain, how much you must know ♪

My passions are music and the wilderness.

I'm in a Pagan folk band and a metal band.

[heavy metal music]

[indistinct singing]

So my focus goes to those two things along

with whatever I can do to pay the bills.

I feel like I've been preparing for this experience

for years, just doing the things I enjoy.

I got tons of plant knowledge,

a lot of bushcrafting knowledge

and fisherman knowledge.

Great catch.

My fiancée just came back from her first ultrasound.

My fiancée is pregnant with twins.

The $500,000 prize money would allow me to give my family

and twins that are on the way a good life.

I think the mental game

is one of the most important things of "Alone,"

and I've got the mental game.

I can control those thoughts

that are going to make you want to press the button.

I'm going out there to win it.

Anytime I feel like quitting or I'm cold or I'm starving,

I'm just going to think about

what that money would do for my family.

Bye!

That's all the fire I'll need to keep going.

The main reason I brought these overalls...

Is that you guys wouldn't have to see my ass crack as much.

See? No cracking.

[compelling music]

All right. I'm going to do a little exploring.

♪ ♪

Pretty pleased so far.

I think my spot has got a lot of potential.

Plants everywhere, berries.

I haven't tried fishing yet.

Look, there's a snack right over here.

♪ ♪

Whether my job is losing 100 pounds and starving

or having success fishing and hunting,

this is my job now.

I have twins on the way,

so I don't really have the option of going home.

♪ ♪

Oh, yeah.

Now I have some material to forge a knife.

[tense electronic music]

♪ ♪

All right. Guess we'll pull that iron out.

♪ ♪

If I can't bring a fixed blade with me

'cause I chose the multi-tool, then I just have to forge one.

♪ ♪

Get the fire really hot and get a nice bed of coals,

and then I pull it out when it gets red hot.

And then hammer it with the back of my axe on a rock.

♪ ♪

Maybe when it's done,

I can prison shank a musk ox like Roland.

[laughs]

I got a little backyard forge at home,

and I've made some knives and jewelry and stuff like that.

♪ ♪

It's just a long, slow process without proper tools,

but the fact that I found metal

was just like, oh, it was so perfect.

I couldn't believe it, man.

I don't think anybody has ever forged a knife on "Alone."

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

- [groans]

[groans]

I had a pretty miserable night.

I had to sleep off and on.

I didn't sleep really good.

I'm pretty sure I'm sleeping upside down.

I know I'm sleeping on a lump.

I've seen fresh grizzly tracks just 300 yards from my camp.

This is not the place to be. So today is moving day.

I know where I'm going. I just got to get there.

[stark ambient music]

[wind howling]

As hungry as I may be

and as hungry as I know I'm going to get,

the predators are first and foremost on my mind right now.

I want a shelter.

Once I'm able to move into my shelter,

hunting and fishing then becomes number one on my list.

♪ ♪

I intend to build a log lean-to,

a log cabin that's lean in one way.

The main reason is bears.

I just don't want to sleep underneath a tarp

with grizzly bears around, you know?

It's gonna give me a little bit of comfort

and a little self-assurance that the bear is at least

going to have to work at it before he can get in there.

♪ ♪

I've been doing this kind of stuff all my life.

Definitely blue-collar.

The only job I've ever really held is a roughneck.

A roughneck works on the rigs that drill for oil.

It's a very physical job, a lot of manual labor.

You're working 12 hours day

nonstop moving very heavy iron,

very heavy equipment,

and it can be extremely dangerous.

Then, on top of that, at the very minimum,

you will be away from your family

for half of the year.

♪ ♪

But as I grew older and grew smarter,

I started realizing what was really important in life,

and it wasn't work.

I gave up my career in the oil field

and doing so,

it's been extremely tough financially.

But never one have I ever regretted it.

I love my family with all my heart,

and I've been fortunate enough to have this opportunity.

I have to succeed.

I can move in there,

give you a peek inside.

It's not the prettiest, but I got it done

as efficiently as I possibly could.

The shelter gives me peace of mind.

It's gonna protect me from grizzly bears

or other predators and keep the rain off me.

Home sweet home.

[tense ambient music]

♪ ♪

♪

- I just walked out to the beach,

and the smoke is finally clearing up,

so I'm going to show you these amazing, amazing mountains.

[whispering] Oh, my goodness.

[normal voice] This is so cool.

But the way the wind is coming up off that lake,

I think that I'm going to move the shelter.

Right now, it's too close to the beach.

So I'm going to go see what's here.

[wind howling]

[thoughtful music]

This is pretty steep,

but it's definitely doable.

I can get up there and walk the edge and look down.

There's just so much to do.

I'm from Pennsylvania,

and we get plenty of cold and snow,

so building permanent shelter is of course a priority.

Everything that I do, I've taught myself.

I've taught myself to be a hunter and to fish and trap,

and now I teach it.

I own and operate a retail sporting goods store

and training center where I teach

youth about the outdoors.

Look at you.

I have a strong skill set

in predator hunting.

That's pretty crazy.

I'm chasing a North American Super Slam,

which is the 29 large North American animals,

with my bow, in hopes to be

one of the very few women that have done so.

I am leaving behind my two children,

my daughter, who is 25,

and my son, who is 22.

My end goal for this experience

is to prove that, as a woman, I can do this.

I've always worked in male-dominated industries.

I had to be confident in myself

so that the men that I worked with would respect me.

I can win this. I feel very confident.

Unless I get attacked by a bear,

I don't think I'm tapping out.

There's this big, open spot.

I have trees to block that wind,

but I'm still not too far from the water.

So, yeah, I think it looks like a good spot.

It's going to take me awhile, but...

maybe I'll leave my shelter down there

and get started on one up here.

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

I'm going to build an A-frame to help keep the snow off

because the snow is going to be so wet.

I know it's going to be really heavy.

It's very warm here right now, but the cold nights

just kind of remind you that winter is coming.

I want to build something small to contain heat,

and knowing that there's so many grizzly bears

in the area,

I want to build something sturdy.

Grizzly bears are a serious threat.

That's a very large animal coming at you very fast.

They're 8 to 10 feet tall and 800 to 1,800 pounds,

covering 60 feet a second.

They're going to be on you

before you even know what happened.

So it keeps me on high alert.

♪ ♪

Not going to reach now. Got to move that one closer.

♪ ♪

I've always been the hunter, never the hunted,

but I'm confident in my survival skills.

My ultimate goal is to prove to myself

what I'm made of and what I can do.

♪ ♪

All right, so...

I got the frame up.

I just want to get it up and get moved down here,

so when I'm here I can make additions or change things.

I feel like things are going to start to work out better.

[soft dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- [laughs] Oh, wait, don't time, Chad.

"Where we going?" We're going over there, Chad.

I don't know where we're going, actually, but I'm excited.

Oh, yeah. Old Chaddy, Chad.

Chad is my camera.

He's not just this inanimate object.

We're personal now.

Jorge is the smaller camera, but still good quality.

Gary and Gordo are GoPro.

So today is a shelter day.

I'm going to be hungry as hell, but time expenditure

will be worth it, especially if I can do

the bulk of the material collection today.

Another blow down area. Let's avoid that.

♪ ♪

[bear breathing heavily]

*bleep*.

Whoa, bear. Move off, bear.

[bear grunts softly]

Holy *bleep*.

You keep moving, mama.

Hey, you keep moving, mama. You take those cubs with you.

I'm not your food.

♪ ♪

Don't you stop.

Whoa.

That was close.

♪

That was crazy.

Whoo.

You know, I felt pretty good until she turned.

So she--they were walking down this way,

and then somewhere in here they smelled me.

And she snorted a little bit, like,

she gave a little grunt, like--[grunts]

And then they turned and they started coming up this way

and actually got closer.

They were, like, exactly right in there.

♪ ♪

Right there it looks like. Right in here.

♪ ♪

Looks like a track, yeah. Definitely, right here.

Look, there's the back part of the paw.

Here is the front part of the paw.

Wee. That was close.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

♪ ♪

- *bleep*.

I'll never get him with a rock. I suck.

♪ ♪

I'm pretty damn hungry.

My body is going through a shock right now.

There's no doubt about it, but it's a choice I made.

I put food aside,

and I made a conscious effort to build shelter.

I gotta start going after some fish.

So I need to make some lures.

I'm allowed to bring a toothbrush.

I got smart, and I brought a silver toothbrush

With a hole drilled in the end.

Now I thought is, I could cut this off,

get another hole in it...

And maybe I could use it as a lure.

♪ ♪

I've been torn whether I was making the right decision,

putting all my effort into a shelter

because I am going very hungry,

but you just have to adapt and overcome.

That's all you can do. You adapt or you tap.

I'm going to find out what works.

♪ ♪

And there's my lure.

That wind is really blowing now.

I have to fish on this rocky point.

Anywhere from shore, I'm just going to lose the lure.

The wind is not making it easy.

Ah. It goes around my hand.

*bleep*.

This is a complete failure.

The wind is so strong it actually pulled my line

so hard that the lure never goes into the water.

If I can't get fish,

my odds of succeeding out here are very slim.

I need to start eating.

[soft dramatic music]

I didn't understand how hard it is to be hungry

and how much it slows me down and how much it hurts me

and how much it takes an emotional toll on me.

[stammers] It's wearing down on me.

I know it is.

♪ ♪

Six years ago, I had a heart attack,

and my heart is not as strong as it used to be.

[tarp rustling in the wind]

♪ ♪

And that's a concern for me.

♪ ♪

At night it beats really hard.

♪ ♪

I don't know why.

I'm sure it's got something to do with going hungry.

♪ ♪

Something to think about. I'm going to get some sleep.

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

- It's just breaking day.

This thing is so open right now.

It looks like the weather is turning better.

But it's so open right now

that if we did get another storm with wind

and rain come through while it's like this,

it would blow rain all under here and I'd get soaked.

So I've got to get that--

I've got to get this thing walled in

and a little bit more secure before the next storm comes in.

But I might try to do some fishing

before I start working on the shelter.

I built a fishing rod and reel.

♪ ♪

There's no deep water off of my beach that I can see.

I mean, it's a good 30 yards

to where it even starts to drop off.

And so the reel should be much more efficient

and much more effective to cast to that deeper water.

I like it.

[soft dramatic music]

When I was working for Fish and Game,

I was gone for 150 days a year sometimes.

I know there's fish here, somewhere.

So leaving the family wasn't difficult

because it's not an uncommon thing.

I might move down to a the deeper spot.

♪ ♪

But this is different.

♪ ♪

Solitude is not something that I'm accustomed to.

♪ ♪

I miss my family.

♪ ♪

This will be the longest I've ever been gone,

but I know that they can handle everything,

and I'll be back when it's time.

♪ ♪

Holy *bleep*. I got one.

Come on, come on, come on. Come on.

Come on, come on.

Oh, yes.

Whoo! Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. I can't believe that.

♪ ♪

Oh, my God. That feels freaking amazing.

Holy *bleep*.

♪ ♪

So there's my little lure that I made the other day

out of a rusty bottle top and some paracord.

♪ ♪

And there's the very first fish that it caught,

and my first fish of the trip.

I am so...

unbelievably happy.

That is--man, that's awesome.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I think I'll have some breakfast.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- Sitting in the middle of the berry patch.

They're just a little

kinnikinnick berry.

So I'm going to start picking these a little at a time.

Just kind of munching on them right now.

I'm not going to eat too many.

But I have so much to do.

I'm going to pick at these a little bit.

I don't really love the little seeds.

Anyway, I just want to show you.

I'm not going to sit here and eat on camera.

So anyways, kinnikinnick berries.

Okay. Packing up to move.

♪ ♪

It is so windy today. This is going to be crazy.

Here we go.

Okay. Tarp, stay there.

With the rest of my stuff before you stress me out.

♪ ♪

The walk I am not looking forward to,

but once I get there, it's going to be so worth it.

♪ ♪

I'm up.

♪ ♪

This is going to be such a hard walk.

It's just crazy.

♪ ♪

If I can express how grateful I am to be here.

[grunts]

Oh, my goodness.

Ooh!

♪ ♪

My strongest skill, I think, is adaptability.

I've had to adapt to different homes

in different settings and scenarios my entire life.

So I feel very confident

that I can maintain the mindset

that I need and hang in there until the end.

So this is actually going to be the back

of the shelter.

The fireplace is going to go here with a chimney,

and I chose that because the wind

comes from that direction

and it's going to blow right through.

It's really, really small,

but I can stand up and I'm not in a wind tunnel.

It's time to settle in.

Yeah, wintertime, I definitely need to get this buttoned up

because I plan on being here.

This is just the beginning.

♪ ♪

I'm just kind of

trying to not think about it,

rolling around a lot, but

I'm starting to feel nauseous.

♪ ♪

[groans]

♪ ♪

I'm not sure what it is,

maybe the berries.

♪ ♪

Oh, my God. I feel so yucky.

[retches, coughs]

- [retches, coughs]

[spits, coughs]

Okay.

[sighs] Man.

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

[sighs]

♪ ♪

All right.

[coughs]

I'm going to roll around here a little bit more

and see how I feel.

♪ ♪

[retches]

[coughs]

[coughs, retches]

[coughs, spits]

♪ ♪

[groans softly]

It's just frustrating at this point.

To be positive is difficult.

You only have a limited amount of time to get your shelter up

and get your snares set and fish.

♪ ♪

[grunts]

♪ ♪

Don't dare lay down.

When I used to think about the possibility

of coming on this show, I thought, you know,

I've survived my whole life basically on my own,

and I thrived.

But when you're in the wilderness

and you're feeling unwell, it's just not that simple.

[groans]

I feel terrible.

♪ ♪

I don't know what to do.

I'm starting to think, "Can I do this?"

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

- Boy, am I starting to stink.

Holy cow.

Yeah. That's no good.

This is the progress I made on my knife last night.

I think I'm about done with the shaping of it.

At some point, you just got to accept it's as good

as it's going to get with a rock, pliers and an ax.

Mountain fix blade is almost done

Or should I call it the troll shiv?

I think I'll call it the troll shiv.

So the other thing I was working on last night,

my bone nose ring.

♪ ♪

It's starting to get to the point

where I can get it to fit.

♪ ♪

It needs a little spit lube.

I have a pierced nose,

but you're not allowed to take jewelry out here.

So I figured I would whittle down a bone

and keep the nose ring hole open.

Hold on, I know this is gross.

I found it under an eagle's nest.

It was a bigger bone,

and I carved a chunk off of it and whittled it down,

filed it until it was nice and smooth.

Oh.

There it is, folks.

Bone nose ring.

♪ I stay busy with lots of lots of projects ♪

♪ Forging knives and making nose rings ♪

♪ Waa ♪

[suspenseful music]

♪ ♪

- Wind blowing like crazy all night long.

Yup. Maybe the wind will die

and I'll go fishing, but it doesn't sound like it.

But if I can't fish, I still can work on my fireplace.

I can work on building a cook shack.

I can build a door,

carve a spoon.

I got lots of stuff to do. No shortage of stuff to do.

It just the things I really need to do

are the hardest, and that's get food.

I'm going to get up this morning

and take my bow down, walk the beach,

see if I can't find one of them grouse.

[compelling music]

♪ ♪

The hunger is getting to me,

and I know the only way to get through it

is to stay busy and keep after it.

♪ ♪

There's grouse everywhere.

All it's going to take is a little ingenuity

to get these grouses in my pot.

Holy *bleep*. Dinner just flew over there.

♪ ♪

Here, Mr. Grouse.

♪ ♪

Where are you?

♪ ♪

My heart is pounding so hard.

[clears throat]

I don't feel right.

Oh, *bleep*.

Something's wrong.

Oh, *bleep*.

♪ ♪

Ow.

[breathing heavily]

♪ ♪

Oh. Hang in there.

Oh, *bleep*.

♪ ♪

[crying] I'm having chest pains.

It hurts.

♪ ♪

[groans]

I feel a heart attack. I don't know what's wrong.

♪ ♪

[groans]

[heart pounding]

♪ ♪

Oh, I don't want to tap,

but I don't want to die, either.

[sobbing]

Get--ow. *bleep*.

[sniffles]

Go away. Go away. Go away. Go away. Go away. Go away.

Go away.

♪ ♪

[groaning softly]

I promised I would tap if I got chest pains.

I promised.

Oh, I don't want to tap. I just--*bleep*.

I don't want to die either. I've got to go.

I need help.

I'm so sorry, Brittney. [sniffles]

I'm so sorry.

[crying, groaning]

No, please, please, please don't die.

Please don't die. [sniffles]

I hurt. I hurt. I hurt.

I don't know how to work this phone.

[groans]

Please don't have a heart attack, please.

Please don't have a heart attack, please.

Please. Please.

[groaning] Please. I swear.

I swear.

[groans] [phone beeping]

[sniffles, groaning]

This is Tim. I need help.

I'm having severe chest pains.

My heart is beating real hard.

I think I might be having a heart attack.

I'm scared.

♪

I'm going to live through this. I'm going to live through this.

I don't give a *bleep* what the *bleep* happens.

I'm going to live through this.

I'm going to make it home to my family.

♪ ♪

Please don't die. Don't die.

Don't die. Don't die. Don't die.

♪ ♪

[groans softly]

Oh.

♪ ♪

[crying]

I have severe chest pains

and my heart has been beating really hard.

- I'm going to get you to put one of these under tongue.

It's just regular aspirin.

[soft ambient music]

♪ ♪

- I made the right choice. I know I did.

I know what this pain is.

It was identical to my heart attack,

and this pain will end my life if I don't get help.

♪ ♪

My main purpose in life is happiness.

The only thing that matters is family.

So when you experience something

that makes you think you might never see them again,

it's your family you think about the most.

[soft dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- Tim, thanks for talking to me about your time on "Alone."

I know you just got out of the hospital.

Your experience is really fresh.

So let's talk about what happened on day six.

First, can you give me some background

on your health condition?

- Six years ago, I suffered a very massive heart attack

that nearly killed me, and in the end,

it resulted in only having 35% heart function left.

- Wow. - I knew coming in here

that it might be a factor.

I can literally feel

my heart beating in my head and my neck.

- And the doctors cleared you?

- You talk to your doctor about it, and I did,

and you ask him, you know, all the, "Can I do this?

"Should I do this? You know, I'm going

to go out there and starve. Should I do that?"

And every doctor is like, "No.

No, you shouldn't do that." - Any person says no too.

- You know, but he's, "Well, look, I understand.

If you're going to do it, you know, here's the risk.

Here's the things you need to watch out for.

You know, here's what could happen."

- So tell me about your strategy

of building your shelter rather than finding food first.

- Well, I knew that doing both at the same time

would be pretty lengthy. I had seen bear sign.

I was worried about bears. I had no protection.

I've seen a lot of people come on,

and they don't wind up having a really good shelter for 14,

sometimes even 20 days, and I didn't want that.

You know, the hunger is going to come no matter what,

so I figure, "Let's face it head-on.

Let's get it on, get it over with."

By day three, I was really hungry.

I had gone, like, 72 hours with absolutely no food at all,

but it was a risk that I took and maybe in hindsight,

you know, maybe the wrong one.

- How did that play on your emotions and your mind?

- [sighs]

A lot harder than I thought it would.

Oh, God, please be an onion.

I wasn't prepared for the mental effects

of going hungry.

For lack of better term, it just caused a depression.

Shelter is my nemesis.

- There's a lot of people on the show, they go hungry,

and I don't think people at home

they understand what that actually does to you.

- And I didn't understand until I went through it.

Going hungry for even three or four days

really messes with your head.

Keep thinking about my family.

Keep imagining that they're sad and terribly missing me.

You know, those people that just sit on the couch,

watch this show and mock all those people

that tap out prior to day 30, I was one of them.

- Mm. - I have been humbled,

and it was a struggle for me to push through,

and that morning when the chest pain came,

that's when I got really scared

because it's the exact same pain

I had when I had my heart attack.

Oh, *bleep*.

There ain't a doctor around the corner.

I'm not going to get help right away.

I was afraid I was going to die.

Oh, I don't want to tap, and I don't want to die either!

- I was the first out there to respond to you, and, wow,

I can't imagine what you were going through, Tim.

I mean, one, it's hard to tap out of this show.

I know you didn't want to do that.

None of us do, and so tell me

how you were feeling when we first arrived.

- By the time you guys had gotten there,

I still didn't know.

I just didn't know what to do. It hurt.

- It's a good call, Tim. - Yeah, I--

[crying]

I wanted to bring home the money for my family so bad

that I could not help but think,

"What if you're wrong, and it's not the heart attack?

It's not even a risk of a heart attack."

I made a mistake.

Even though I know all logic was telling me,

"Get out of here. Get help," but in the back of my head,

I'm tapping out on day six for nothing,

but I knew...

♪ ♪

I made a promise, if I had heart pain,

I would tap out, no questions asked.

You know, it ended my dreams of winning this thing,

but I get to go home.

♪ ♪

- Tim, thank you so much for sharing your story with me.

I know it didn't end the way that you wanted, but, you know,

you reminded us all about what it is to keep your word,

and I thank you for that.

- I am bummed that it ended so extremely early,

but I know I did the right thing,

and in the end,

I am extremely grateful to have had this opportunity.

♪ ♪

- Holy *bleep*. Those are bears.

- Get out of here! [air horn blares]

- Grizzly bear can kill a human with one paw swipe.

- Hey, bear! - They're everywhere.

- It doesn't get any more real.

It's just you and nature.

- That just stepped it up a notch.

- One in ten chance for half a million dollars.

What's your breaking point?

- Something horrible is happening.

- One simple slip-up could send me out of here.

- Doh!

- There's a point this is not worth it.

- It's bloody cold.

- I'm struggling.

- This is a cold like I've never experienced before.

- That was most dangerous thing I've done yet.

- I feel like I'm gonna to pass out.

[groans]

♪ ♪