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Can I help you?

Susan?

Uh, yeah, can I help you?

Uh, yeah, do you have a chance to talk to her right now?

Hi, how can I help you?

Susan? Uh, yeah?

Uh, I can't believe it's you.

Um, do I know you?

It's me.

It's John.

Uh, John.

Um, I only know one John, and, uh, well, I knew.

He was my husband, but he passed away several years ago.

Yeah, it's me. It's John, your husband.

It's your husband, John.

I... I... It's crazy, but... I got reincarnated into this body.

Reincarnated?

Look, I... Yeah.

That's what I said.

Look, I mean...

Who put you up to this? I mean, this is a really thick prank.

This is just, go away.

Look, it's me, it's your husband, John.

I know I've been dead or gone for 20 years, but remember

after our wedding, when we went back up to the hotel, you fell down and you hit

your ankle?

All our friends would know that information.

Remember our first date?

We went to the movies.

And we've seen Love of the Isle.

And remember after that?

We went to your favorite pizza spot for dinner.

And then... We even... We even got married where...

your parents got married at.

And then afterwards, you wore that purple nightgown because it's my

color.

And you have that birthmark on your leg that only I would know about.

This can't be happening.

This isn't real.

Look, Susan, I...

I know this is crazy. Believe me.

But it's really me. It's your husband.

Look, ever since I was young, I had these vivid dreams

and thoughts about me and you that I don't know

where they would have came from. All these memories that...

I never seem to make sense of.

And I wanted to tell my family so bad, but I couldn't because I didn't want to

sound crazy.

But I've waited 18 years just so I could come here and see you, Susan.

So we could have everything that we didn't have.

No.

John's gone.

Nothing we can do can bring that back.

Nothing can take away what he did.

Gone.

Look, Susan, I know it's crazy, and I know the

way I left, how I left things.

I never wanted to do that to you.

I had PTSD when I got back from the military.

And I'm sorry.

You see, John would have told me if he had PTSD.

He would have said something to me.

You just, you sorted that out.

Look, when I went back that third time...

It fucked me up so bad from the things that I'd seen, the things that I had to

hear, and the things

that I had to do.

It ruined me, and I was embarrassed, and I couldn't deal with it,

and my head was in such a dark spot, and I didn't want to put that on you.

Remember when I said I was going bowling?

I was seeing a therapist.

I couldn't put that on you.

And I never wanted to do that to you.

I just always thought that you left the way you did because I did something.

No, Susan.

You never did anything.

You were great.

You were amazing. You were the light in my life.

Nothing you ever did made me want to leave.

It was my fault.

And it was what the military did to me.

But I'm here now.

And I want to make things better.

I want me and you.

We can get married.

We can have the life that we wanted.

We can have the kids that we wanted. We can get that big house we've seen on

Walnut Street.

This is a lot.

I don't know what to say.

It's okay.

I get it.

I've put a lot on you.

I feel the same way.

Here's my number.

You can call me when you feel like you're ready.

Evelyn, I understand all that, and I appreciate it.

Yes, but just listen to me.

I'll be... I know I keep talking about him, but you have to understand, I

thought he was abroad as well.

But he knows things. You should hear the things that he knows. Private things

that no stranger would ever know.

Okay. Thank you for calling me level -headed.

And I still feel that way, so...

I understand that you and the family are worried about me, but I can take care

of myself.

I understand that, too. And, yes, he probably doesn't even know that I'm

wealthy.

I understand that.

But, okay, I got it. You think he's a... You think he's a gold digger. I got it.

All right. You know what?

You don't understand because you've never lost the love of your life

You know, I'm really glad you decided to have me over.

I... Look.

This is all so overwhelming.

I... I... I don't even know what I'm doing. Ever since you came, my life

has been upside down.

My family doesn't believe anything.

That you say.

So basically, I'm all on my own trying to figure this out. Trying to figure out

who you are.

I'm confused. It makes no sense.

Can you, I mean, really? You're...

Just know that the last week, I can't stop thinking about you, and I can't...

I'm just confused. I'm all by myself.

This kind of thing doesn't happen.

I don't know.

Look.

I totally understand where you're coming from.

And I can only imagine how crazy

things are right now.

Yeah. I mean, this was... out of nowhere and I kind of just dropped this on you.

Yeah.

I just wanted to come back and live the life that we

wanted.

And I figured we could be happy that way.

But I feel like I'm just causing more trouble than good.

And I'm so sorry. And, you know, it would

probably... Just be better if I left.

John.

It's just that... I love my husband and I can't...

I can't lose my family.

And I know that my family wants the best for me.

John is the best for me.

And maybe you can be too.

I miss out a lot of things that I used to do with John.

I miss dancing.

It almost feels like I've been given another chance.

And I don't want to mess it up.

So, I think in order for me to know that without a doubt

that you're John, we need to be intimate together.

I just, I want you to be with me and I want you to, I

know it's weird and confusing, but I need that.

I think we need this.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Never been more sure.

Amen.

Thank you.

You have to wait 18 years for me.

Thank you.

That's right there.

What's he saying?

give me that give me that

It's good.

It's good.

It's amazing.

It's

good.

right there.

We're out the room here.

No.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm not through with you.

Oh, you're getting back on top again? I am.

Put that right there.

Right there.

That's good.

Oh, wow.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm going to get you all the way in. There you go.

Are you trying to play with me?

There you go.

Yeah, let me see your fingers.

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

Let me hear it.

Right there.

Right there.

There you go.

It's so big.

It's so big right there.

That's it.

That's it. That's it. So

good.

You're amazing. I can't believe you're back.

I can't believe this.

I'm back.

Um...

Right there.

I really missed you.

I missed everything about you.

I missed how you feel.

I missed how you talk.

Come on.

Are you going to come?

You want me to come?

Yeah. Yeah.

Oh,

you're going to come. Oh.

That's exciting.

Are you going to sleep on it? Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

This is amazing.

That was great.

Alright.

I'm gonna go run us a bath.

Sounds good.

I'll be in there soon.

I'm having trouble with my wife, Susan.

I try to do everything that she likes, like nibbling her ears or inner thighs,

but I just can't stay in the moment, you know? And it just ends up getting,

like, really awkward between us.

Low sex drive is just one of the many PTSD symptoms, John. Dealing with PTSD

not easy, but with time and care, we can work through it.

Jesus, Doc, I just sometimes wish I could find my way out of it.

And I could just write a check, and boom, I'd feel okay again. Money's got

object to choose in. But I guess it just goes to show you that money doesn't

solve everything.

Yes, unfortunately there are no quick fixes, and that can be very frustrating.

All we can do is one day at a time.

Now, why don't we go back to last week's session, where we were discussing about

having trouble sleeping.

Okay, but I just want this to get over with. I don't know how much more I can

say.