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- Previously,
on "The Village"...

- Who's Rashad,
and what happened to him?

- I don't know.
- Gwendolina Ferrari,

I'd like to ask
for your company

and a night
you'll never forget.

- Dana's my first wife.

We never technically
got divorced.

- Are you still attached?
- Ava, I love you.

I've moved on.

- I just want people to
leave me alone to fight this.

- Does that include me too?

- He didn't just
find out about us.

He's known for years.

- Katie, please.
- Let me go,

or I will never speak
to you again!

- Hey, Nicky...

I think you should leave.

- Hello?
- You dressed?

I got a box of your decorations
out of storage.

We are going to
cheer this joint up.

- I appreciate the effort,
Patricia,

but I don't feel
like decorating.

- Okay, so how can I say this?

Your sadness is
dripping through my ceiling.

So you are going to
deck your halls,

and then, you're going to make
your gingerbread cookies

for my party, which you
will attend with bells on.

- I lost my
gingerbread-making partner.

- She's not lost.

She's just exploring
her independence.

- At 26 weeks pregnant
with some random street kid.

- Who is really cute and talks

like a character from
"My Fair Lady."

Speaking of charming gentleman
who I think mean well...

- Don't say it.

- How do you expect your
daughter to ever forgive you

if you're not willing
to do the same for Nick?

- Why are you doing this?

- Because somebody's got to
Jacob Marley your ass,

and I'm not waiting
until I'm actually a ghost.

Come here.

I miss you too.

- Good morning, you.

Your phone's been blowing up.

- My mother reminding me

I have an ultrasound today.

- Which means you'll
have to talk to her?

- Hard to be
a moving target in stirrups.

- It's been a few weeks.
Maybe it's time.

- Are you trying
to get rid of me?

- Of course not, but you're
about to get rid of me.

I have been invited
to show my work

in Berlin over the holiday.

- Liam, that's amazing!
Yay!

- Well, a humble cook
makes good.

But in the meantime,
may I present

the hungry woman's breakfast.

- I'm eating for two.
- Oh, completely.

I mean, of course,

one of you has a stomach
the size of a thimble,

but the other
is very, very hungry.

- I will stab you
with this fork.

- Can you imagine the headline?

- "Mediocre Burner of Other's
Art Justifiably Murdered."

- Ooh, I mean, it's almost
worth it, isn't it?

- How many times
do I have to tell you?

Take it away.
- It's tiny.

- Pops, you and I
are very lucky.

We like a lot
of the same things.

Christmas isn't one of them.

- I bet that pretty lawyer
in an elf costume

would change your mind.

- I can pretty much guarantee
we won't find out.

- Who doesn't like Christmas?
- Me.

- That was rhetorical.
- I--I have to study.

This is all a distraction.
Come on, vamoose.

- You're a Scrooge.

- Bah, humbug.

- Um, do you
want to explain this?

I mean, I've heard of men
hiding magazines,

but a record?

- It was going to be
a gift for you.

That's Wendy Parker,

Olivia's friend
from gospel brunch.

- I'm aware.
I just didn't know

that she was lurking
under my bed.

Patricia Davis,
are you jealous?

- No, I'm leaving.
I'm late for work.

Sorry to leave the rest of
this party prep for you.

- I can't believe
they called you in.

It's tree-trimming day.
- The food is all made.

It's in the fridge.

And I'll be back
in time for the party.

Pick a good one.
- Mm-hmm.

- A small good one.

- Patricia.

I love you.

- I love you too.

Look, thanks for coming with.
Patricia had a conflict.

- I love to pick a tree
as much as the next guy,

but 15 blocks?
- No, it's worth the walk.

I'm telling you, I got a guy.

I mean, he hooks me up
every year.

- Oh, look at this one.
It's like a picture book.

It's like a picture book.
- No, no.

I'm not into the Douglas Fir.

- This is the Cadillac
of Christmas trees.

- Well, why drive a Cadillac
when you can own a Rolls?

- The soft needles,
the full body...that scent.

- And everybody's got one.

You know,
I'm a Blue Spruce guy.

Elegant, rare.

- And like shoving your hand
in a box of needles.

- No, no, no, no, but it's--
I like a little bite.

Oh, attitude.

Look at you, my bubba!
This is my girl.

- Your girl's an Amazon.
She's going to cost a fortune.

- You can have that for
a buck 40, old times' sake.

Like I said, I got a guy.
Merry Christmas.

- Delivery's $200.

- Delivery is free.

- Not this year.
This year, $200.

- Your guy's a thief.
- You got another option?

- Yeah, I do.

- Oh, boy.

- Look at that.
- Oh!

- I was hoping
my 15 minutes of fame

might be more illustrious.

- Oh, come on, man.
This is great.

You know, this reminds me
of when men were men.

- I was alive then.
We paid for delivery.

Come on.
- Are you pulling?

- I'm pulling. You pulling?
- Yeah, I'm trying.

- I got most of the weight
on this side.

- Yeah?

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- A lot harder
to leave you alone

when you show up
during my shift.

- I was looking for you.

- Does Ron know you've gone
rogue with his playlist?

- You want to know a secret?
- You might think twice.

I didn't react
so well to the last one.

- I hate jazz.
- This is a jazz bar.

- Yeah, that's what Ron
keeps saying.

The funny thing is...

I change the music,
and suddenly, it's not.

- If only life were that easy.

Nick--
- Uh, what's in the box?

- Christmas decorations.

I thought maybe
you'd want to decorate.

- At the veteran's housing?
- Why not?

Also, it gave me a reason
to come down here.

- I was angry, and I was drunk.

I had no right
to ask you to leave.

- Sarah--
- But if you come back,

I'm afraid she won't.

So...

I don't really know
what else to offer.

- I'm fine where I am, really.

- That's a lie.

You have the same lie face.

- I think maybe
a little distance is good.

And I'd say we both put a lot
of work into staying apart.

Maybe there's a reason.

- I should go.

- I would like to talk to her
at some point, if that's okay.

- You're her father.

- Hey, you remember
Christmas, 2000?

Yeah.

I got a snow globe.

- Come on, yeah.
- Oh, boy.

- Let's rest up here
at this corner, okay?

- Why not?
- Let's take a rest.

- Oh, the bells are ringing.
Are we dead?

- We're good.

- Ooh, something just popped.
- I have rope burns.

- Worth it, though, huh?
- I felt like a kid again.

- Only 12 blocks to go.

Thank you.

Uh, two hot chocolates.
- All right, sir.

- When Rosemary and I
used to go skating,

we'd always stop for cocoa.

- Must be hard--
holidays without her.

- She made me promise
to make the best of things.

- I don't know what I'd do
without Patricia.

- You'd find a friend and
lug a tree around Brooklyn.

Heard you found a new friend.

- Gwendolina.
- Gwendolina.

You invite her to our party?

- I thought about it.
I don't know.

It feels like Rosemary's turf.
- Well, you ask me,

this falls under
"making the best of things."

To the journey.

- Come in.
- I have to head out.

Did someone buzz?
- Yes.

- Hey.

- You let him in?

- He is a trained killer.

- Retired.

- I'll be in the other room.

- Stay?

- I'll leave if you want.

- You've got one minute.

- Right.

Well, first, these are
Christmas decorations.

Your mom thought that--

- Can you just
give me your excuse?

- I don't have one.

- What?

- I wish I did.

No, I've--I've been
racking my brain,

trying to remember one moment,
one reason.

The truth is,

sometimes the biggest
of decisions

get made by degrees.

- It was one decision.

You saw a picture of me,
and you didn't come home.

I have to go.
- Do you remember

deciding to keep the baby?

Or did you not decide,

night after night,
until somehow,

it was decided for you?

- Would you be here
if you hadn't been blown up?

The truth is,
you didn't want to be my dad

until you couldn't
be a soldier anymore.

I'm sorry if I don't feel like
being your consolation prize.

- I'm not asking
for forgiveness.

- Then why'd you come?

- To admit that I failed you.

- Duly noted.

- I sleep here on the couch.

- And what do you do
before the test?

- Write down all the reasons
why I'm nervous,

rip it up, and throw it away.
- And breathe.

You'll do great.
- Late again.

I'm so sorry.

- I love my extra time
with her.

You let me know
how the test goes.

- Okay.

- You have a second?
I want to talk about Sami.

Your trial's in two weeks.

- I haven't decided
what I'll do if I'm deported.

- There is a good school
near my parents.

- I don't know
if I can leave him.

- If you take him,
then when will I see him again?

- If I leave him, when will I?

There is no good answer.

- I love Sami.

And I would do anything
to stay in his life...

Just as I did everything
to keep you in mine.

- Katie.
I've been looking for you.

- I've been on the third floor.

- You got my text?
- I got all of them.

I'm compiling them
into a very repetitive novel.

- You didn't respond.

Katie, I know that--
- Hey, you two.

- Hi! I'll grab my coat.

- I'm so sorry I'm late.
They told me the third floor.

You didn't know I was coming.

- Uh, we're still trying
to find some common ground.

- And I just stepped
in the middle of it.

Sarah, I'm so sorry.

- No, it's fine.

This could be your baby.

- Ultrasound, anyone?

.

- This is a before and after
of your tumor.

- I was kind of hoping
it had flown the coop.

- It did shrink,
but only marginally.

You said you had more pain?

I'll be advising
we forego further chemo

and move forward
with a full hysterectomy.

It's causing a blockage that's
potentially very dangerous.

- How soon?

- Before the holiday,
I'm afraid.

Patricia, we want you
to have more of them.

- I'm looking for Ben Jones.
A neighbor said he's down here.

- I'm sorry,
he's out with my son.

Can I help you?

- I'm sort of his--

His wife.

You?

- His girlfriend.

- Oh, um...

this--this is awkward.

Uh, I'm sorry.
I'm--I'm going to go.

- Can I offer you some tea?

- I'm looking for Chief Reisch.
He still around?

- Retired years ago.
Can I help you?

- Yeah, this used to be
my house, for a minute.

I was hoping he could help
to jog my memory.

- Okay, when were you here?
- Uh, 2001.

- Yeah, um, let me see if
someone's got his number.

- Thank you.

- Hey, so if you want
to leave your info, we can--

Get right back to you.

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- Hi. Where did
Katie Campbell go?

- I think she went back
with her mom.

- We are up and running.

- Katie?

- Thank you...

for including me today.

It--it means a lot
not to miss these moments

if we move forward,

and I am sorry
we started without you.

She kind of insisted.
- She's 17.

Crazy hormones and angry.
It's not your fault.

- Did she tell you Liam's
going to Berlin?

Over the holiday.

- She's going to be alone?

In that neighborhood?
- I don't love it either,

so I told her she would be
welcome to stay with us.

- Katie has a home.

If she wants one,
she knows where it is.

- Understood.

- Did they tell you the sex?
The baby?

- Yeah. Do you want to know?

- It's a boy.

She's having a boy.

Don't tell Katie.
She asked not to know.

I'll buy you a second.
Hi.

- That smells great.
- Ranginak.

It's a Persian desert
made with dates.

- Mine are lumps of coal.
- I'm sorry?

- Chocolate-dipped
Rice Krispie treats.

They're supposed
to look like coal,

like Santa leaves
when you're bad.

There's a sweet old lady
at our church,

asked me to bring them to Ben.

I didn't have the heart
to say no.

- I didn't know Ben
belonged to a church.

- He used to.

Losing our son made that hard.

- You still go?

- The alternative
seemed harder.

- My mother used to say...

It means

"The wound is the place
where the light enters you."

- Well, in that case,
I am full of light.

- Ho, ho, ho, my lady.

Your men have return...

Dana, uh...

what are you doing here?

- Having tea, but I should go.

Thank you.

- Dana, wait.
Dana.

Dana, wait.
- I shouldn't have come.

- Please, will you
just talk to me?

- You drove by because
you wanted a divorce.

You should have been honest.

- I didn't want to hurt you.

- I lost a son.

What's a little more?

Here.

I won't even make you ask.

- Dana.

- It's fine.

I'm just glad
you're happy now, Ben.

I'll see you around.

- Paris or the Caribbean?

- Excuse me?

- The vacation
you're fantasizing about.

Clearly, your mind
is elsewhere.

- Is this how men
say hello these days?

- I was going to ask
if I could buy you a drink.

- And what stopped you?

- It felt like
it might be cliché.

- I see.

- So can I buy you a drink?

- Cabernet.

- Excuse me, bartender.

Can the lady
have a Cab, please?

- You have a kind smile.
- Thank you.

Andre.

- Madeleine.

- You can't do this
to me, Katie.

It hurts too much.

- I thought it was
your day off.

- It's the only place
you can't walk away.

- Watch me.

You're going to lock me in?
Mom, open the door.

- Or what?
You'll leave?

Never speak to me again?

You have nothing left
to threaten me with,

and I have nothing left
if you're gone.

- You hurt me.

I need space,
and you're suffocating me.

- I can't get close enough
to suffocate you.

- Then stop trying!

It's like you can't believe
that I'm okay on my own.

- You're not on your own.

You just have somebody new
taking care of you.

Some guy you barely know.

I mean, what are
you two? Dating?

- What I am
is stronger than you think.

- You're as strong
as I made you.

I gave you everything I had.

When I was broke,
when I was sick,

when I was scared,
when I was lonely.

- You lied to me
for my entire life.

- I made a mistake!

I am a good mother.

But if all you want
is to cut me out...

I'll give you that too.

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- Pops.
- Davey, you're just in time.

- Your text said you fell.
- Did I say "fell"?

I meant felled a tree.

We need help dragging it.

- That's not an emergency.

- Wait till you see
how big it is.

Merry Christmas!

- Happy Hanukkah!

- Yeah, now don't you
feel better?

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- Merry Christmas!

- It wasn't always easy,

but it was always an adventure.

What about you?

- 30 years on Wall Street.

I liquidated and
moved to the country.

- To do what?

- To, uh, pretend I like sheep

and plot my next trip
back into the city.

Well, there's also
piles of leaves

and there's fireplaces
that burn real wood.

- Are you trying
to sell me a timeshare?

- I'm asking you
to come with me.

Spend a few days.

See what happens.

- That is a very
tempting offer.

- It's your call.

My room.

- Excuse me.

I'd like to order
a bottle of champagne.

- Will you be
taking it up yourself?

- No.

Send it up, please.

I'm going home to my party.

- I went by
her place the other day

intending on asking
for the divorce.

- What stopped you?

- I saw she was still wearing
her wedding ring.

I couldn't take
something else away from her.

- Isn't leaving her
with false hope just as bad?

Or maybe it's not false hope.
- She gave the ring back.

It's over.
I'll file the paperwork.

I understand you're upset.
I get it--

- I'm just trying
to figure out where I stand.

But two weeks from now,
where I stand

might be 6,000 miles away,

so maybe there is
no point in asking.

But I think
you should ask yourself

if you're really
in love with us,

or if it just feels good
to have a family again.

- I told you it was too big.
- No, I--I ballparked.

- A ballpark is about
the only place it would fit.

- Hey, take it easy, son.
Be gentle.

- Tell the tree.

It's like sawing
through razor wire.

The good news is all of my cuts
have been sealed up with sap.

- That's why
you go Douglas Fir.

Downy soft limbs.

- No, no,
like kissing your sister.

A Blue Spruce
will make you earn it,

but it's worth the chase.
Ah, there.

- What the hell
are you two talking about?

- This piece
is for you, Gabriel.

Thank you for your trouble.

- It's no use.
He's a lost cause.

- Well, lost causes
are the reason for the season.

- I'm going to go
blowtorch my hands.

- That tree is going
to be beautiful, man.

Thank you for your help.
- Of course.

- Not a Christmas fan, huh?

- My parents split up
on Christmas.

Mom walked out,
Dad went to the office.

- Yeah, Enzo and Rosemary had
to go pick you up. I remember.

I'm happy
everyone else is happy.

Enjoy your party.
- You know what else

I remember from that Christmas?

Enzo and Rosemary had given
their 30-days' notice.

They had a little place
rented in Boca.

- In Florida?
- Mm-hmm, that's right.

They talked about it for years.

They gave up on it when they
realized that you needed them.

It turns out the worst
Christmas you ever had,

you got the best gift
anyone could ask for.

- Nick.
- He's not a soldier.

- Who?

- The guy who I keep seeing

in these PTSD episodes.

He's not a soldier.

He's a fireman.

- That's him. Rashad.

The guy I keep watching die.

- So what does this mean?

- I thought leaving Afghanistan
was causing my PTSD.

But maybe it's coming back
to New York.

- 9/11?

But you still
can't remember what happened?

- Did I say anything?

Back then,
when you saw me again?

- I didn't see you
for days, Nick.

And you didn't talk
for even longer.

Even when you did, it wasn't
about what you'd seen.

- It's like, it's right there
in front of me,

and I just--I can't...

I can't break through.

- Maybe you need
to process this piece

before you can get to the next.

- And how am I supposed
to walk around with this?

What am I supposed to do
in the meantime?

- I'm short
a gingerbread-making partner.

- I'm not much of a baker.

It's good that you've
been trained to take orders.

Go on.
Wash your hands.

- Thank you for this.

- Might try to keep it away
from open flame.

I added a little something.
- Oh.

- You added a lot of something.

- Patricia?

- Well, well, well.

It's nice to see you two.

- No, I'm just passing through.

- I'll take that.

- You okay?

- I'm just taking a moment.
I'll be fine.

- Cookie?

- Your gingerbread cookies.

I feel better already.

Go on, revel.

I'll be in.

- Patricia.

How long have
you been out here?

- A few minutes.

- Your last text
was two hours ago.

- I'm sorry.

What did the doctor say?

- You knew?

- I'm trying to give you
the space you asked me for.

For what it's worth,
it ain't easy.

- There are some complications
with my tumor.

- You want to go
someplace quiet we can talk?

- I want to go to my party.

- Baby, you sure?

- There's nowhere else
that I would rather be.

- Do you know how hard it is to
find a phone book these days?

- Nick.

The infamous Gwendolina.

- Call me Dolly.
- Such a pleasure.

You know, I interrogated a
librarian trying to find you.

- What'd I tell you?
- Hi, I'm Sarah.

- Oh, I've definitely
heard that name.

Mostly after
the word "beautiful."

You snagged one of
the last great romantics.

- Nice sweater.

- I think I saw Dolly in there.
She's a knockout, pops.

- Don't get any ideas.

- Like sweeping
her off to Boca?

- Ron told you?

Boca was your nonna's idea.
I could take it or leave it.

- You stayed for me.

- And you kept us young.

It was a pretty good deal.

- I wish I would have known
to thank her

while she was still alive.

- I wouldn't let that stop you.

She's a good listener,
your nonna.

You know what our favorite
part of Christmas was?

Mistletoe.

You're a good boy.

- I don't think
she's coming home.

- Tonight, we're going to
choose to hope, you hear me?

- Ava?
- Can I come in?