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Not a single flower

blooms

Not a single flower

blooms

Hey.

You're okay.

I feel sick.

You're gonna be okay.

I forgot to bring something black.

It doesn't matter.

Not to you.

Keep moving.

You see the peach trees?

She never mentioned peaches growing up.

She didn't grow up here. She just came here in the summers.

Yeah, I know, but she never mentioned peaches.

So fucking what?

Why aren't you in Benny's room?

You know how Esty's parents are.

I'm gonna taste one.

I don't even want to say anything first.

I think they'll probably speak for themselves.

Anyone need a refill or anything? Just get this over with.

I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I want to say something.

I just want to say it's really nice to see you guys.

Even if we're here for something like this.

You all look good.

I really feel like I'm going to throw up.

Should we play some music or something?

Probably just memorial instructions.

Let's just do this.

On a three count?

Sure.

Fine. One, two, three.

What is this?

The to -do list?

The bucket list.

Number one, become fluent in Spanish.

She circled out of mind. She didn't circle out of anyone's.

Does someone have number two?

I do.

Two, learn how to cook.

Three, travel into space.

Four.

Have a family.

Number five, learn to build something for real.

Number six, be the northern light.

Number eight,

make me fireworks.

I want to try a peach.

John, where are you going?

What was she thinking?

If she always thought she was so funny.

Yeah.

This is hilarious.

I thought it was an invitation to your wedding.

No.

How are things with you? Anyone special?

You robbed the bank with that one. Yeah, not recently.

What do you mean you guys aren't together anymore?

Uh, we're working it out.

I'm gonna get everyone back.

You look good.

Yeah, I'm getting through it.

I was worried about you.

You do that?

I need you inside.

Peachy? I think we should all go back in there and hatch a plant.

I don't know what to do with that yet.

None of us do.

Don't spoil your appetite.

We should eat together like we used to.

I say we do them.

Do them?

Yeah, you can cook.

I can watch for the lights until I see them.

This is ridiculous.

Impossible, maybe, but not ridiculous.

You gonna learn Spanish this weekend?

I think we should try what she wants.

Wanted. Beck, can't wait to see you pop out that family.

John. No, he's right.

This is a bad idea. He always wanted things to mean something, so most things

don't mean anything.

That's... Not true.

She thought they did.

Let's agree with her.

That these things mean something because she meant something. Says the Joker to

the seat.

Because she means something.

Could be fun.

I'm in.

Enchilada.

I'm in, too.

I'm weighing.

I'm in.

If everyone is.

For us, T.

Morning, Betty.

Morning.

You're up early.

I couldn't sleep.

Me neither.

I was worried about her.

I hadn't heard from her.

Her parents left the keys of the note.

They're having her cremated and bringing her back here in three days.

And they want us to wait here and take care of Esther's cat.

I'll tell everyone.

I don't know what to say, no.

Yeah, that's okay.

Morning.

Hi.

Where are the boys?

Don't know.

She couldn't just have a funeral like everybody else?

Good, everyone's up. Anyone sleep?

Great. Like the old days.

Driving.

Thank you.

Did you find any cookbook?

Uh, yeah, there are tons of them.

I don't find, uh, Espanol.

De nada.

How have you been?

Makes everything else kind of feel so dumb, doesn't it?

I mean, she gave me her temp job.

I didn't even ask her why. I just sat at my desk for seven months.

I didn't return her message.

Find anything good?

To find good.

Esther used to talk about this place.

She used to bring things back for Gibby and I.

Little butterfly pins and stuff.

I got sand.

Do you think we're going towards something, or do you think it's coming

Do you think I should buy this pig?

Oh, no, I want it.

No, gross, drop it. Put it down, you're freaking me out.

Hold this for me.

This old man.

Swapping, I don't care.

Dudes,

you guys got to come see this.

Did you see the butterfly lady?

Yeah.

Did you find anything?

I'm not going to buy a cookbook if that's what you were getting at.

I wasn't.

Why do you think she brought us here?

She felt guilty.

Did you see that picture she posted seven months ago?

She looked sick.

So what do you think?

About what?

About why she did this.

I don't know.

Maybe she's here with us.

You are actually the way you look, aren't you?

What? How do I look?

Someone would actually believe that.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I just... I'm... I'm just sad and confused and... Sad

and confused and... Well, I'm just trying to make this a little less awful.

I know.

I know.

How do you say that in Spanish?

You're still a dick?

Jar still a dick.

Jar still a dick.

Jar still a dick. Jar still a dick. Jar still a dick. Jar still a dick.

I think I got it. I think it's good.

How are you?

I'm great.

Good to see you.

No idea, S is such a practical joker.

Seriously, what? Nothing.

I'm just waiting.

For?

You.

I like this word game.

I'm just waiting for you to ask me for help.

I thought you were already going to help, Mr. Zakarian.

Yeah, I am, but I also thought it would be really nice of you if you asked for

me.

Wow, so far this has been super fun.

I can't.

Oh my God, Esther, why are you doing this to me?

Help.

I would love to.

First thing is, you open up the carton.

with you two.

We who?

Your sister has a tendency to follow me.

It's like you're twins or something.

I wasn't following you.

You were in my way.

She didn't know what was about to happen.

Just Posted a picture and seven months later, she's gone.

She didn't know that that would be the picture everyone saw in the newspaper or

would be how I remember her.

I see that picture in the ambulance.

In her body somewhere now.

Tiny pieces, millions of tiny specks.

Piled into a box of that picture.

What did it look like?

Oh, it's that... Look, that... I wish you weren't taking my

picture. Look.

It's that half, like... I wish I were a prettier smile.

That one.

No, I didn't know.

We think this is...

A ridiculous, absurd waste of time, but we don't know that. It is a ridiculous

waste of time.

I'm not staying.

We don't know.

Just like she didn't know that would be the last picture of her.

We're not going to do any of the things on that list. You know that. We don't

know anything.

Who knows?

Maybe you'll go to space.

Hey.

I'll wait up with you tonight if you wanna look for those lights.

What's she doing?

Uh, basic mechanics.

It's broken.

Oh, you can't get it to work, so you think it's broken.

Copy that.

What, are you an expert?

Lay off, Lennon.

Maybe you should let me at it.

Could be the lug widget.

There's no such thing as a lug widget, unless you're one.

You have no idea how this thing works.

Oh, sure I do.

I built one with my dad when I was a kid.

Bluff.

Didn't you?

Building things is boring.

Brunch is served!

God help us.

I... don't think this is what Esty meant.

There's a beach.

Uh, I see us to talk about a cove.

Who then?

I'll look it up.

That was spectacularly bad.

Drive, spaceman.

All right, I'm pumped. We have officially country music on the radio.

There's country other places on the South, Chris.

Yeah, I think Calgary is like the Texas of the North.

I think they still have a rodeo, actually.

No shit.

Shit. What?

Oh, you said no shit?

Oh, I said shit. You know, like, no way, way.

Pretty obvious.

Just up here, it turns on your left.

What have you been doing?

What do you mean?

For a job?

Seven months ago, you were living off of me.

As I walked out one...

Yeah.

walking.

Why are you walking so fast?

Anyone in particular you're hoping to catch up to? Yeah, that snail.

Everything's such a massive joke to you. Yeah, this isn't a riot.

After you.

I watch my back.

bacteria in this prehistoric cesspool hasn't even been discovered yet.

Perhaps not the time to introduce your finger. Look at all those snails.

Gross.

They'll all die here, won't they?

Maybe not.

Depends on the type.

Save one kiddo.

I can't save them all, can I?

Don't do it.

Do what?

Jump.

Who'd miss me?

You'll be unmercifully eaten by seals.

Seals are peaceful.

What was that song she sang?

The drinking song?

Was it?

The seal was a friend of mine.

The seal is a friend of mine. He swims all day.

to tell

Dinner was great.

Shut up. It was not.

How are you going to learn Spanish in two days?

Si. Yo, fucko, Ed.

One -way ticket to Spain will do it.

I mean, how am I going to space?

She used to talk about some amusement park.

Maybe there's a space mountain.

Maybe it's a metaphor for space and you are somewhere.

Huge in their space all around you.

What about cooking?

Yeah, you're screwed there.

I don't even know if you can see the lights from here.

You can see them.

We'll find them.

Who knows?

But at least we'll all feel better about ourselves.

What do you mean?

I hadn't seen her since that bad night, had you?

I mean, I feel like shit.

Of course we'd seen her.

We were her friends.

Becca. Becca.

Come on.

To Esther.

Anything?

Hey. You okay?

Yeah.

I'm trying not to get sad.

I know you are.

And not to fight with you in front of everyone.

You want my sweater?

No, Chris. I don't want your sweater right now.

I'm going to clean up.

We think we have so much time.

We don't have any time and you wasted it.

Hi.

I'm fine.

I stormed out of the room one time and suddenly I'm suicidal.

I'm sorry.

I'm not used to not being able to joke about that.

I'm jealous of her.

Why would you say something like that?

Not because she's dead, but because she... What she did was so extreme.

You know, I can't ever do anything for real. Yeah, well, I don't know if that's

such a bad thing. Yeah, of course it is.

You know, sometimes I just want to stop eating and get super skinny and show

everybody how fucked up everything is.

What a change.

No, but I can't.

I go three days and I eat a whole chicken.

Just one time, I want to do something, you know, and just do it all the way.

We do nothing.

We do nothing. nothing we do nothing we do nothing and then it's over that's a

really bum way to look at it well that's the truth you know you and me we're not

dead yeah but we're not alive we're just right in the middle and we're safe and

we're comfortable and we're responsible and we're normal and then what you're

trying to make falls apart

I don't have another one. I stole it out of her dad's desk.

I'm bored.

What have you been up to?

Where?

All over.

When did Benny and Chris break up?

I don't really know. I haven't talked to her.

You? I've been around.

Wait, you haven't talked to your sister?

How'd things turn out with John?

I'm sorry if I was giving John a try.

Immediately after we stopped living together.

He was a consenting adult.

It doesn't matter now.

Yeah, it does matter because you don't let me forget about it. No, it doesn't.

None of this matters. Esther killed herself.

Yeah, and we were in the middle of something.

I didn't want it back I miss you I want you back

They call these hands, right?

Uh, I don't know.

This is the face.

Sure.

It's just time.

It doesn't have anything to do with us. It's the clock.

Maybe we want to say anything.

We want.

How are we telling it?

I'm going to turn it.

Here, switch.

Something's burnt.

Have you seen your sister?

I love the Burwells.

Hey.

What are you doing down here?

You want to go to the beach?

Sure.

Your turn.

What is this?

Uh, it's a game of skill and strategy.

So you'll be half good at it.

And you'll lose double.

Can I put some pants on first?

Um... Not required.

I think I might have the wrong number.

I think I see something else for me.

Like what?

The feeling.

What happened with you and Chris?

Oh, uh... It was just after that party that didn't happen.

We've decided to take a break.

We had a scare.

Like, a scare -scare?

Or like, a let's -buy -a -test -it's -nothing scare.

Scare -scare.

I told Esty.

Whoa. Tell Esty's scary.

I had to talk to someone.

He didn't want it.

He said he didn't have the structures in place.

Which is so stupid. I mean, you don't need a house to have a kid.

Chris wanted a house?

That's impressively not like him.

He wanted to play provider, but he didn't know how.

What did you want?

You should learn how to cook. Looks like Javi wants to teach you.

I'm not going to learn anything other than how to say goodbye to people.

There is something between you and me that isn't here anymore.

Oh, come on. We were just busy.

And we let it die without paying any attention.

You are so slow.

You can't rush brilliance.

I think the key to this game is not to care.

You're interrupting me. Now I have to start over.

What if I asked you a favor?

I wouldn't do it.

If I do ask these lists, you'll be proud of me.

You're going to have a family in two days?

Doesn't take that long.

Whoa. This is what Esther wanted.

I won't tell anyone.

What have you been doing these last few months?

Lots of things.

How about you?

Woke up and went to sleep.

Repeat.

S would say she would someday be a house and her life was building the walls.

And when I'd ask her what she'd been doing, she'd say building the eastern

or the storm windows or something.

Someday she would have been an awesome house.

Yeah.

That's very us.

What about all these things she never got to do?

You mean like the list?

Yeah.

Well, they're just things she wanted to do, I guess.

No, it's all just nothing.

What is?

I don't know. Forget it. No, I don't want to. No, forget it.

Who's ready to go?

What do you think happens to your voice when you die?

Never thought about it.

You can't delete it.

It's like it's actually her.

You mean a message?

I have some, too.

It's not her. It's just a message.

I should have answered.

You didn't know.

How much time do you think you have until you're ready?

Ready? For what?

It runs out.

Yeah, the whole beach was rocks.

If you stood really still, you could feel them moving under your feet.

Sounds boring.

What did you do today?

Does it matter?

Tomorrow's our last day.

Maybe we should try the amusement park.

Really? There's a national park not that far away. Two or three.

One? Either.

Chris, you would?

Yeah. I totally would.

Guys, tomorrow's the last day. Can we just be nice to each other? I don't see

why we should lie.

What are we lying about?

I don't see why we should all pretend that we wanted to be here.

This is what Esty wants.

Instead, we're stuck with her.

Seven months ago, making the same mistakes.

Thanks, I have a way of multiplying.

And now we can't get over them? No, no, now we keep making them.

You have no patience for anything.

No, not for giving up. She wasn't giving up.

If you and John hadn't been too busy to show up that night, then... I'm an

adult.

I was liking another adult. I didn't know she was dying, did you? She loved

her entire life.

And now you can't keep your hands off of him? Where were you that night?

I was with Javier.

So I guess you weren't in any rush to get there.

I'm her friend.

What, so now you and John are having a storybook romance then? No, I... It's

different. I want something real.

Then what about last night?

What about last night?

I hear it doesn't concern you anymore.

You kissed me.

You kissed him?

Why can't you keep your mouth to yourself? Oh, come on!

You don't even know what being alone is. It's just trading desperation for

boredom. Don't talk to her like that.

You've never been alone, so... That's not true.

No, everyone's alone.

We all love Deathby. Not like I did.

I didn't realize it was a contest.

I loved her for real.

I'll never stop.

So what was that all about the other night?

I just want her back.

I'm sorry.

I just miss her.

And did you ever tell her that?

Why did she bring us here?

She all wanted us at that stupid party.

How come none of us showed?

And who's seen her?

Does anyone even know that she was sick?

Wait, no one knew she was sick?

And no one saw her?

In seven months, nobody saw her?

Oh, wait, I saw her that night.

No, you didn't.

I left before the party started.

I was going to break up with Chris.

And Etch told me to sleep on it, that it would be better when it wasn't dark in

the morning.

And I was with Javi because I

couldn't be with John, so I never came.

And I called and canceled.

I never told her why.

She was so naive.

To think that we could ever love each other as much as we loved her.

I wondered why no one else showed up to her party now. I guess I know why.

But it was never really a party. It was just some night.

Maybe she didn't want to tell everyone she was dying over a beer, so she sent

invitations.

We waited for an hour or something and she...

told me to go, she kept asking, what was all this about?

That's what this is.

Chris, can you take me to the airport? I'm going home.

Who's going to do your number?

Have a family? I'm no good at it.

I took the picture.

The one she posted?

I went over the next day to apologize for not being there, and she asked me to

take a picture of her.

I was surprised.

She hated having her picture taken.

I wanted to kiss her more than anything.

I said I needed space.

I left her alone.

I went to her house that day, and I asked her to be my family.

But I think I need to do something all the way, and I'm pretty sure that's

leaving, so...

Can we just go? And she left me a message that night and asked me to teach

something. Teach her what?

How to build a house.

I don't think we should leave her alone this time.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but you gotta stay.

Yeah.

Your family.

Freud.

I'm sorry.

I loved her, too.

I know.

I could tell.

I was...

in a...

If you watch this for me, I gotta go do something.

Still want a break?

Just because I wasn't ready yet doesn't mean I won't be.

Is there anything else you told F that I should know about?

It, um, already feels like forever since I heard your voice.

I have like a thousand messages from you on my phone, and I don't understand

where your voice will go.

So if, you know, could you, uh, you know, give me a call?

And one more thing.

I think you're somewhere in your house watching us like brick and mortar

everything you ever wanted around you.

And you're actually finally in your home and so now we

are too.

to see her again.

You know.

What about me?

Do you ever want to see me again?

Follow me.

Oh, God. I don't think that's a really good idea. Come on.

On the count of three.

Okay?

One, two, three.

Nice.

This is the recipe.

What?

And we're using it to learn how to cook.

Okay. But really, it's just helping us make something good. It's not the thing

that's good that gets made.

Okay. The thing that's good that gets made is us.

On this rock.

And this rock. And the day we're on this rock. And Esther. And me not calling

her back. And not calling you back. And me making something that requires

patience. And sticking around and eating in.

And all of that, okay?

Okay.

Will you give me a try?

I don't know if we're going to taste good, but I want to try.

I brought her takeout.

What?

And she threw it up.

It was the day after. Said she had the flu or something. She told me she could

eat if I made her something.

But I don't make anything.

And then she called me.

God, she was...

She was falling asleep, and she said that she wanted to go on a trip.

And she asked me where I thought she should go, and I couldn't think of

anything. So I just said the first thing that popped into my brain.

Spain.

I'm trying to learn how to say what I want.

It's okay.

I want to give it a try.

I think we'd be delicious.

What is it?

Make me firework.

Her dad gave me this this morning with a note that said, number seven, have dad

give me away.

I'll take her.

No, no, let me do it.

I will find him.

You want me to tell you what things look like now?

I'll try at the best of -