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Previously on Dr. Quinn... Michaela?

Are you? No, not if you ask me.

I think pregnant. Oh, no, and I couldn't
be. I came to say goodbye, but I don't

think I ever can.

You have a son who's been very ill.

What do they tell you? He'll be fine.
And you?

You are gonna be all right.

Suddenly feeling very tired.

I wanted a child.

Dolly's child.

My child.

Finish writing that essay for Parents'
Day yet?

I've been working on it.

What's yours about?

I haven't quite figured it out yet. I
want it to be great.

It will.

You sure?

Yeah.

Oh, you're hurt.

I'm taking you to the boss.

Just another one of your attacks.

Now, you rest a while, and me and your
pa will take you home later.

Be right back.

I'm going to bring Anthony some of that
to me to see if he likes it when you

feed him on it.

Please, Grace, wait a moment.

Anthony's condition.

This latest attack.

The fever.

I believe it may have damaged his
kidneys.

His kidneys?

What's wrong with his kidneys?

They're enlarged.

Painful to the touch.

That's never happened before.

No, it hasn't.

We've learned to deal with Anthony's
sickness as it comes. There's no

it. But I appreciate you telling us, Dr.
Mack.

I'm going to go get him that soup now.

Look out for soldiers.

We've got a few minutes.

How did it go? The goddamn thing.

We have to speak with the Indian elders?

Black Moon got to him first.

He's got them joining up with other
tribes.

Kaya Apache.

He's telling them what the army's
planning on killing every Indian in the

territory.

Don't you worry, Michaela.

It ain't over. We're not giving up.

I received an answer from Sergeant
McKay.

Want me to turn down our appeal?

Like I said, we're not going home.

What is it?

Something else happened?

Set against peace for the army.

But Sully's determined to keep trying to
convince them.

How is Sully?

Oh, he's all right.

No, I mean, how did he take the news
about the miscarriage?

I couldn't tell him.

Couldn't.

I wanted to, but I couldn't answer his
pardon.

Michaela, you've got to tell him.

For both your sakes.

Be all right, I will.

Just let us know when you're feeling
tired.

I'm all right.

Ma, what's your favorite thing about
Colorado Springs?

It's not an easy question.

I know.

Miss Teresa told us to write about our
favorite thing.

And then she's going to pick one to read
our parents today.

Well, just figure it out one step at a
time.

What things make you feel good?

Well, I like the fishing.

Fishing? That's good.

And the library.

They got books all the way from Boston.

Well, you could write about what those
books mean, do you?

And the hot springs. And the newspaper.

Not many other places got those.

Well, you got plenty of things to pick
from.

That's my problem.

What's my favorite thing?

I'll see what you mean.

That's what makes our town special.

Hello there.

Dr. May. Robert E. Grace.

Come to check on my patient.

How are you feeling, Anthony?

He's better.

That attack's passed.

Yeah.

I'm better.

I'm glad to hear that.

Well, come on, Anthony.

Let's get these beans on the stove.

He's trying to hide it.

I can tell he's still in pain.

It's never lasted this long.

No, it hasn't.

Many more Apache and Kyle come from the
east to join Black Moon.

You think he's going to attack?

For now, he waits and gathers strength.

Good, he'll buy us some time.

Maybe we can talk to the Cairo and the
Apache ourselves and convince them to

move up north here where they can live
free.

Yes. But we also have to convince the
army to allow them free passage.

You and me ain't exactly welcome.

It's true.

But we are not the only voice.

Kayla's tried. Daniel's tried.

Army wasn't listening.

Perhaps Dorothy could help.

Dorothy? I believe the Gazette can help
people see the justice in our cause.

Perhaps then they can help convince the
army.

Well, then you should talk to her, my
friend.

I am pleased to see that your essays are
progressing so well.

I will collect them on Friday.

Michael, your handwriting is amazing.

I'm glad you said you couldn't decide
what to write about.

Something my mom and pa say gave me an
idea.

Hi.

I think I'm going to be...

Matrice, Anthony's sick.

You do feel a little wrong.

Perhaps it would be best if you go home.

Brian, would you go with me? Sure.

It is good to see you.

Oh, you look... well.

And you.

McKenna said you were going... Were you
able to reason with Black

Moon?

He sees the white man as his enemy.

As the white man sees him.

But there is something we can do to
help.

Something you can do.

Me?

What can I do? What you do best.

Write about it.

Make your people understand we are not
the enemy.

Why would they listen to me?

Because you thought as they do.

Yes, but that was before I... But now
with the raids and folks losing

their homes... You had a great belief in
your book, and I did.

I believe you can do the same thing with
the Gazette.

Their hearts will hear what your heart
hears.

Thank you for coming, Dr. Mike. We'll
keep him quiet until his stomach's

settled. Grace, nice nap will do him
good.

Maybe I'll make him some pudding. That
always seems to quiet him. Grace, I

believe that Anthony's nausea and
fatigue are symptoms that are related to

kidneys. You still think there's
something wrong with him? With each

pain and swelling seem to last much
longer.

And now his kidneys are showing clear
signs of deterioration.

What does that mean?

One can't survive without one's kidneys.

Are you sure you're reading the symptoms
right, Dr. Mack?

Or perhaps we should get another
opinion.

Well done.

Why don't we step outside and get a
little fish air?

How about a...

Both sick or not.

Well, yes, you know that.

I mean, you've had these attacks for a
very long time.

I mean, really sick.

Why don't we wait here while Dr. Cook
has his thing?

Ain't there something you can do for it?

The cause of his illness is still
unknown.

Michaela has done everything possible to
treat his symptoms, but it would appear

that Anthony has moved into a... hopeful
state.

I am truly sorry.

I wish I could offer you better news.

What did the doctor say, Ma?

Dr. Cook says you're going to be just
fine.

Now, come on.

Let's go home. I've got an order of
apple pie to fill, and you know you are

official date.

How's my sweet girl? How'd you get so
big, huh?

Sully?

Do this, Michaela.

Come on.

She's gonna be running soon.

I know, and we won't be able to keep up
with her.

Sully, something I need to talk to you
about.

While you were away, I... Did you hear
that, Michaela? She said, Pop.

Yes, I heard it.

You said Pa, Katie. Yes, you did.

I'm sorry, Michaela. What were you
saying?

I, um... You said something about while
I was away.

It's about Anthony.

He's become very ill.

How bad is it?

I don't believe he'll recover.

There's nothing worse than losing a
child.

I thought I'd never get over it.

You're going to have to talk to me
sometime.

I've got nothing to say.

Maybe I do.

I'm listening.

Grace, Dr.

Mike and Andrew wouldn't lie to us.

Now,

we've got to face it.

For Anthony's sake. I know what they
said, but they're doctors, Robert E.

I'm his mother.

And if Anthony was not...

I feel it.

Right here.

I want to believe that too.

You'd want to go for a ride.

My legs are still hurting me.

You could ride on the handlebars.

I don't think so.

I might fall.

Hey, Brian?

Yeah?

I think there's something they're not
telling me.

What do you mean?

Well, Mama says I'm fine, but I don't
know.

It's fine.

Something feels different.

Maybe you could ask your mom what's
wrong with me.

Sure. I'll ask her.

Thanks.

Thank you, Brian.

Sure thing.

Ma? Hmm?

What's wrong with Anthony?

Well, you know that Anthony's very sick.

Yeah. And he seemed real worried when I
saw him today.

He said something feels different this
time.

I'm afraid that it is.

Anthony's condition is... It's very
serious.

You mean... He's gonna die?

I'm sorry, Brian.

But there's gotta be something you can
do for him.

I wish that there were.

Ma, he wants to know the truth.

You gotta tell him.

I can't, Brian.

Why can't you?

Grace and Robert, you're his parents.

They're a place to tell Anthony.

They don't want me to do it.

But you're his doctor.

And I'm also their friend.

And I must respect their wishes.

What about Anthony's wishes?

Brian's right.

Anthony should know the truth.

I agree.

Robert, he feels the same way, but Grace
sees things differently.

I can't imagine, Sully, how they must be
feeling.

We'll get through it.

Just like you and I made it through the
tough times.

We'll get through it together.

There's something I need to tell you.

I tried to before, but while you were
gone, I had a miscarriage.

You were pregnant?

I lost our baby, Sully.

Are you all right?

Oh, I feel well enough now.

When did it happen?

A few weeks ago, just before Founders
Day.

I know, I should have told you right
away, but I wanted to protect you.

I should have been there.

I'm almost done.

Well, that's wonderful.

Don't I get to read it?

Not yet.

It's a surprise.

I still gotta look it over, check the
spelling.

Anthony, I've been thinking.

How would you like to go to New Orleans?

New Orleans?

Wouldn't you like to see where your ma
grew up?

When can we go?

Oh, if we save our pennies, I think your
pa and I could save enough money that

we could be able to take the train this
Christmas.

Christmas?

Wait till I tell Brian.

Dr.

Mike, we're going to New Orleans for
Christmas.

Well, that'd be lovely.

Grace, I know Dr. Mike.

He's dying.

So why are you planning a trip to New
Orleans?

Because I want the rest of my boy's days
to be filled with hope, happiness.

I want that for Anthony too, Grace.

But he's getting weaker every day.

He knows that he's sick.

Planning a trip like this can only
confuse him. Didn't you just see him

just smiling like that?

Grace,

you need to hear the truth from his
mother. No.

I'm going to tell him it's whatever it
takes to keep that smile on his face.

Every precious day he's alive.

Sally is gone?

I rode up to the cave last night to
bring up the fruit flies.

I couldn't find them anywhere.

Maybe he's with Carl Danson, trying to
talk to some of the Indians.

Yes, I'm sure that's where he was.

Michaela, what is it?

Did you tell Sally about the baby?

Yes.

How did he take it?

He was saddened by it, concerned for me.

But there was something else.

What? I sensed something in him.

The way he held me, it... It was as if
something had changed between us.

Oh, Michaela.

You've both been through a great loss.

Sally will get through this.

And you will, too.

Together.

Robert E.

Sorry.

How are you holding up?

I've learned that my son's sorry.

I know, Robert E., I know.

It ain't right a child die before his
parents, Robert E. There ain't nothing I

can do about it!

If you can be with him, Robert E., let
him know he ain't alone.

That's just it.

Even with him with him, I still feel
he's alone in this.

I mean... We're there by his side trying
to ease his pain.

Do we tell him we love him, but still?

I don't know.

Listen, it's a good thing that you're
telling those things, Robert.

It's a good thing.

But sometimes, it's things that we don't
tell each other that keep us apart.

I finished the editorial.

Do you want to read it?

Because you have written it. I know it
isn't true.

Thank you.

I keep thinking about when you and I...
When we can...

I too have thought about adopting.

Minds being what they are.

Yes. There are many difficulties.

Many questions.

And no answers.

Not yet.

But there will be.

But Ma said I could.

Did you talk to Dr. Mike for me?

Yeah.

What did she say?

She thinks you should talk to your Ma.

No.

I don't want to make her sad.

Yeah.

Maybe you're right.

This was a most difficult decision.

Each one of your essays was deserving of
a prize.

However, there was one that stood above
the rest.

I am very happy and proud to announce
that the winning essay to be read at

Parents' Day was written by Anthony.

You won!

Take her to the clinic.

Al said he collapsed.

Is he all right?

It appears that Anthony suffered a
slight stroke.

There's a weakness on the right side and
his speech has been affected.

I believe.

We're both here, son.

Hey, sleepyhead.

Hey, Mom.

Anthony.

I know you've been wanting to talk to me
about things.

But I was so afraid that I would say the
wrong thing that I may... the mistake

of not saying anything.

Isn't this all right, Ma? No.

No, it ain't.

But I'm here.

Me.

And your pa.

To tell you that you can talk about
anything you want.

Anything.

What's going to happen to me when I die?

Your soul is going to go straight up to
heaven.

Where God will be waiting for you.

Will it hurt?

There'll be no more pain, Anthony.

Will I ever see you again?

Oh, of course you will.

You'll see us in heaven.

How long will I have to wait?

In heaven, years seem like seconds.

Hardly before you can even turn around,
there will be your mommy.

Do you mean it?

You know I do.

I thought you left to go see Anthony.

Brian.

I don't know what to say to him,
Matthew.

I don't know what to do.

He's the best friend I ever had.

He's going away and he ain't never
coming back.

You don't know that?

Let me tell you something else he knows.

He knows you're hurting for him.

What am I supposed to say?

You don't gotta say nothing.

Just being with him is all he needs
right now.

Hey, Brian.

Did that wake you?

No, I was just thinking.

I remember how you used to read to me
from Robinson Crusoe when I first came

town. Yeah.

You were always wanting to go on an
adventure to fall off places.

You even got me to hop the train with
you.

Remember?

I'll never forget that day.

That was a really stupid idea.

Nah.

It was fine.

I want you to have this.

But you gotta promise to take real good
care of it.

Don't mess up the bill.

Keep it straight.

Smooth it down nice and flat when you
take it off at night.

I will.

And don't go letting some girl wear it.
It ought to smell like perfume.

I won't.

Good.

I feel better then.

Anthony?

Sully? Oh, I'm sorry.

Oh, Sully, I was so worried.

I know.

I'm sorry.

Oh, I'm sorry.

I was so afraid to tell you about the
baby when you first came home.

You told me as soon as you could.

I couldn't find you and I was so afraid.

It's all right.

I just had to get away and think about
it.

I was feeling like I should have been
here, like I could have done something.

You mean everything to me, you and the
children.

If anything ever happens to you, I need
to be there.

We're here.

As soon as you got me.

I'd eat home instead of at the clinic.

When he first came to stay with us, I'd
get up and sneak into his room just to

make sure he was all right.

I know.

I used to follow you.

Remember that first day?

And he stole that apple pie out of a
cool one.

Ended up having apple pie all over his
face.

And all over Dr.

Moxter's.

He was so determined.

He was going to come live with us.

But you were the one smart enough to
insist that we adopt him.

I had to.

He's our son.

That he is.

I would like to welcome all of you to
Parents' Day.

We will begin our program today with a
presentation by one of our brightest

students.

He will read his winning essay, A Place
Called Home.

Anthony?

Miss Teresa asked us to write what our
favorite thing about Colorado Springs

was.

But I don't have one.

I have a hundred.

One of them is sleeping off the porch
for Mr. Bray, who gives me a piece of

candy if I do a good job.

Thanks, Mr. Bray.

Good work.

One of them is going down to her church
and visiting our reverend.

Who can see what you're thinking without
using his eyes.

Everyone's here, Reverend.

One of them is delivering the gazette
for Miss Dorothy.

Gives me newspapers from all over the
country to read.

Thank you. So I can learn what's going
on in other places.

One of them is going to see her very own
lady doctor.

Takes care of you without making it hurt
more.

One of my very favorite things.

Having a best friend makes you feel like
you can do anything if you try.

But my most favorite thing about
Colorado Springs is my mom and pop.

Who took me in when I had no family and
gave me a home.

They love me all the time, no matter
what.

And even went to the judge and asked him
to make me their son.

I lived in a lot of towns in my life.

But Colorado Springs is the best place
I've ever known.

Because that's where I found my mom and
pa.

No matter how far I travel.

Or where I might go.

I can always close my eyes and I'll feel

and know that I am home again.