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He'd pull the chair over close to my
bed.

I could smell the alcohol on his breath.

He'd begin to read to me from the books
on my shelf, and I was frozen under the

covers.

Sometimes he would read to me for so
long, I would think, not tonight.

Then he'd set the book aside and turn
out the lights.

And then it was happening again.

I'd hold my breath as long as I could,
trying to die.

When he was done, he'd set the book
aside and leave.

And then I would hear the sound of my
dad's shower coming on.

It was always the same.

I was five years old the first time it
happened.

And it didn't end until my mother and
brother and I moved away.

I was six.

And if you asked me what my father read
to me those nights before he raped me...

I couldn't say.

I never heard a word.

Well, the last time I was abused, I was
eight.

And I confronted him when I was 28, so
20 years.

And it's been the hardest thing I've
ever done in my life by far.

He just sat there and denied the whole
thing.

I kept it to myself for 12 years.

I'm 25 now. I was 12 then.

I didn't tell a soul about it.

As a matter of fact, this will be the
first time I'm telling anybody right

Did you see the faces of the jury?

He's going to jail. Yeah, but it's not
over.

We'll go after her.

She's only going to make them madder
than they already are.

My mom.

Just a little shaky. Your stepdad took
her home.

You were fantastic.

It hadn't been for you and Jenny.

Hey, no.

You did this all on your own.

I don't think so.

When I came into your station a year
ago, I was convinced that no one would

care. Thank God I was wrong.

Ty, you all right?

You're a little late for brotherly
concern, isn't it, Ron?

Look, can we talk?

Alone? I'm sure you'll have plenty to
say when they call you to testify for

defense. What, you want me to lie?

Huh? They saw something I never did? No,
I expected you to believe me.

And now I just want you to go away.

I don't even know him anymore.

Counsel.

Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, it
seems we have a situation.

The case before us was filed in
accordance with the California law

1993 that extended the statute of
limitations for the prosecution

of charges of sexual abuse against
children.

It also made these charges retroactive
for the crimes committed before the law

was enacted.

as in this case.

That section of the statute has just now
been struck down by the United States

Supreme Court in Stogner v.

California.

Under the circumstances, I have no
recourse but to dismiss the charges

Cale Gilman.

Mr. Gilman, you're free to go.

The jury is released.

Thank you.

You can't!

I'll kill you!

I swear I'll kill you!

In my family, there was domestic
violence going on for 26 years,

and I was witness to that abuse. It was
family secret, so you

weren't really allowed to...

talk about it it didn't go outside the
household there's somebody that we can

call to keep you company tonight just
want to go to sleep i just want to wake

tomorrow and have it be a new day dan we
could take you home it's really no

trouble i'm fine well you don't seem
fine one day in prison

it's all i wanted for him to have to
walk in there that first day and realize

was totally helpless

and totally alone, and there was no
escape.

I want him to feel how I feel.

Diane, please don't lose sight of what
you did.

You faced him in court, and you brought
out the truth. That's right. You've

exposed him for what he is, and he'll
have to live with that.

My father, the only thing he'll have to
live with is knowing that he won.

Unbelievable.

Why don't they just open up all the damn
prisons and let all the perverts out?

We just did.

The brain caught my ass.

How the brain is this nonsense?

I can't believe that they actually
expected a five -year -old abused child

walk into a police station and file a
complaint.

They don't live in the real world.

They live in D .C. All right, we're
angry. But there's not a damn thing we

do about it. It's the way the system
works.

It took Diane Evans 20 years to work up
the courage to walk in here and ask us

to help her fight back, and now we're
supposed to tell her that's the way the

system works?

Yeah.

And that goes for everyone else with
cases pending and every felon convicted

under the old California law.

Get over it.

Get used to the fact they're not felons
anymore.

How many get -out -of -jail -free cars,
Captain?

500 -plus by the time the dust clears.

May they all burn in hell.

So, how did... I got a phone call from a
probation officer who

wanted to know if Ralph Baker was the
subject of an investigation.

I told him no, and he said that your
name was on file for having requested a

copy of Baker's rap sheet.

Oh.

There was no next of kin listed, so...

I had them send over his personal
effects.

This is it?

Well, his clothing and household items
had already been given to charity.

He said heart attack.

Death was instantaneous.

He wasn't that old, just in his late
50s.

Hard years.

Yeah, well, brought that on himself
after he raped my mother.

What am I supposed to do with this
stuff?

Keep it?

Burn it? It's up to you.

Okay. Burn it.

You're a capperty.

When?

Okay.

We're on it.

Homicide.

You want me to need to take it? She
didn't have your primaries, but I'd get

over there.

The victim is Diane Evans' father, Cale
Gilman.

So we think the window was broken
sometime after the murder.

Popular guy.

Dear Mr. Fifi, stick your head in the
toilet and drown.

Everlasting torment shall rain down upon
you, and your flesh shall be turned to

ash, and your blood turned to rust.

Those were two of the nicer ones.

Where is he?

He's in the master bedroom down this
hallway. Oh, first row on the right.

Have you guys been here before?

I ain't described this place so many
times, it burns into our brains.

You're telling me that this is the same
house where the rapes happened 20 -some

-odd years ago?

Even after his wife took the kids and
left, Gilman never moved.

Shot with his own gun.

It looked like one round at close range
to the face.

What face?

Any prints on the gun?

Nope, wiped clean.

Crime scenes processed in the rest of
the house. And he said he's been dead

approximately eight hours.

How'd they get in?

Pried open the screens of his window
over here, but from the inside.

Ah, faked.

So no forced entry. Yeah, no signs of
struggle, nothing obvious stolen.

Gilman was probably asleep.

So whoever it was knew the house.

They had access and knew where the gun
was. Have you contacted the daughter

We tried. We can't find her yet.

The guy starts out his day looking at a
slam -dunk child rape conviction.

Then he catches the break of the
century.

Then suddenly he's dead.

What's your point?

To the outside world, we look like a
happy family.

But there was so much abuse going on
that it was very

hard to keep up appearances.

And I think that when you have to live a
lie, I think that it does something to

your soul.

There you are.

What's that?

Oh, this is just my book of memory.

My grandma helped me make it when I was
11.

She died last spring, my grandma.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Thanks. Oh, I haven't looked at this in
so long.

Who's that?

That is Eleanor, my oldest sister, and
that is Sissy.

Sissy? Are you serious? Yes, I'm
serious. It's short for Clarissa.

She's older than I.

And this is Major Ruth.

That's my little Major Rue.

Speaking of Major Rue, I'm going to go
to the ditches.

Are you making fun of me? No.

We just led different lives, that's all.

I know.

I think that's what makes it so
interesting.

The car is gone.

No one has seen or heard from her since
she left the courthouse two nights ago,

including her mother and stepfather.

So she leaves the courthouse, ends up in
her old neighborhood, waits around a

little while for the old man to show up,
waits even more for the lights to go

out, sneaks into the house, finds a
shotgun.

Bang. Justice is served.

We don't know for sure that it was
Diane.

There's a lot of people who would love
to blow this guy away. Yeah, but until

learn otherwise, she's our best bet. I'm
releasing her picture to the media.

I'm wondering if you're questioning.
What else?

Diane's brother is coming in today to ID
the body.

Apparently, he drove Gilman home after
the trial. Maybe the last person to see

his father alive.

Except the killer. Is there a chance Ron
would know where Diane is? They weren't

exactly on the best of terms.

We're heading over to the parents'
house.

Good. I want to expand the perimeter of
the neighborhood canvas two blocks in

all directions from the Gilman home.

Did anyone hear the shot?

See someone near the house?

Strange car, though.

You know, hit all the bases.

Yeah, that's my father.

But you already knew that, didn't you?

Um, and it makes a change. You have to
take what you've done.

We also need you to answer some
questions, Mr. Evans.

What?

What do you want?

For starters, Diane.

She didn't do this.

And you're crazy if you think she'll
tell me where she went.

Because I'm the traitor.

I'm an enemy, right?

You thought of that.

You pulled the strings and made this
happen.

Do you actually think we influenced
Diane's story?

Well, somebody did.

You even made her believe it.

You know what? Wake up, Ron.

Your sister was raped exactly the way
she said she was, and everyone in that

courtroom believed her, except obviously
you.

Why is that?

Loyalty to dear old dad?

You think I give a damn about that S .O
.B.? I remember, too.

I remember him slapping my mother down
the stairs.

and then beating me with a belt when I
tried to help her.

And that was just one time.

I remember the day we left that house
was the best day of our lives.

But you sat on his side, and you drove
him home from the trial. There was

else.

When I left his house last night, I
figured, over and done with, you know?

Bye, Dad, I'll see you later.

Hopefully never.

Did you know that your father had a
shotgun in the house? Yeah, of course.

He loved that gun.

If he ever loved anything.

Where were you between midnight and 6 a
.m., Ron?

I was getting drunk.

In my apartment, by myself.

I did not kill him.

But I'm not going to pretend I'm broken
up about it.

You know, I really can't help you.
You're way off base here.

Mr. Evans, all we want to do is talk to
your stepdaughter.

Daughter?

I adopted Diane and Ron when I married
their mother.

Is Mrs.

Evans available?

She is in bed under doctor's orders. She
has a heart problem.

And she hasn't spoken to Diane since
that travesty in court. Now, you'll just

have to trust me on this, all right? How
well did you know Cale Gilman?

I never met the man.

And I never wanted to.

I met Ann and the kid two years after
she and Gilman had broken up, I think.

knew about the sexual abuse?

No, and neither did Ann.

I knew what a cruel bastard he was, but
when Ann first walked

into my office to apply for a job, I saw
a beautiful, intelligent,

completely traumatized young woman.

Earning her trust in Ronna and Diane's
was the hardest, most important thing I

have ever done in my life.

Mr. Evans, we're here to help, honestly.

Well, if Diane contacts me, I'll urge
her to call you.

Thanks.

Appreciate your time.

Police Services Aid, SFPD.

Sorry to bother you. We're just in the
area talking to people who are... Is

about Cale Gilman?

Yes, ma 'am.

If it was that poor girl that shot him,
Cale deserved what he got.

And if it was someone else, Cale
probably deserved that, too.

Sounds like you knew Mr. Gilman.

We've been next -door neighbors for as
long as he's lived here.

Neighbors.

Not neighborly.

Do you have a problem with him?

Who didn't?

You know how on Halloween there's always
one house in the neighborhood the kids

avoid?

That was Cale Gilman.

Ma 'am, did you see anyone or hear any
unusual sound coming from the Gilman's

property two nights ago?

Ma 'am, we'll find out anyway.

I heard a noise I hadn't heard in a very
long time.

Someone made me happy.

Cale Gilman's still dead.

Other than that?

Well, we've had a few Diane sightings
from the tip line, but nothing's panned

out. She hasn't used her credit cards,
hasn't written a check, hasn't made a

cell phone call.

We searched her apartment, but nothing's
found.

Friends, boyfriends, co -workers?

She had an on -off relationship that she
ended when she decided to pursue the

rape charges against her father.

You know, she really put her life on
hold for this.

Your turn.

We got about a month's worth of work
going through all this hate mail, and I

think it's a wasted effort. There's no
specific death threats in there. It's

mainly just insults from...

people who probably only watch the
coverage of the trial on the news.

Gilman was seen coming home from court
with Ron at around 8 .15 p .m. Ron was

seen leaving at 9 p .m., at which point
Gilman was still alive.

So what we have is someone pretty much
everybody hated, but no real suspects

other than Diane, who could be halfway
to the border by now. What we can't

afford is the impression that the police
department is soft -peddling this

investigation because of our antipathy
for Cal Gilman.

Not straight from the chief.

Captain. Ah, Ray of Hope.

There's this woman named Pauline
Carmichael, and her house was right next

to the Gilmans.

And she lived there when Diane and her
brother were growing up.

One night, they heard this noise coming
from a tool shed that was on the

Gilmans' property out back near the
fence.

So Pauline and her husband went out
there, and it was Ron, and he was about

years old at the time, sobbing his eyes
out.

The thing that was so strange about this
is that it's 2 in the morning.

What did they do?

Nothing, because the thought of knocking
on Kale Gilman's door, besides the fact

they thought Gilman would just punish
the kid.

Probably right.

But this happened again and again and
again for close to a year.

And then it stopped, and it didn't
happen again until last night.

Mrs. Carmichael heard crying coming from
the tool shed, and it was Ron.

Well, Gilman sexually abused one kid.

Why not the other?

By the time a person gets to being an
adult, sometimes they become jaded, and

their hearts close down, and they just
don't think that they'll ever be able to

get over it. But you can.

Specifically, doctor, assuming that Ron
Evans was sexually abused as a kid, do

you think that he really doesn't
remember?

Or is he covering up?

It's not an either -or situation.

Picture a child Ron's age then, someone
who believes in Santa Claus, the monster

in the closet, and the tooth fairy.

I mean, if a child can believe the
unbelievable, why not unbelieve the

intolerable? But his sister remembers
everything.

In detail.

And assuming it happened, so does Ron.

Beneath the surface.

An anorexic looks in the mirror and sees
fat. The rest of the world sees skin

and bones. Human beings have an enormous
capacity for self -deception.

So if Ron were to remember all this
abuse while he was actually with his

father... Potentially a violent
reaction.

At the very least, shame and anger.

The man rapes his son, and the son feels
the guilt.

If you search Cale Gilman's background,
you might find that he too is a victim.

The cycle never ends.

Yeah, it does.

It ends here.

But if Ron killed their father, why
would Diane run away?

God, I'm going to go away.

So what, you think Diane did it too?

No, I don't want Diane to have done it
any more than you do.

It's 9 .23.

Thank you. I know the company. It's my
locker.

Then what?

I'm thinking, what if Diane is not
running away from a murder, but staying

after what happened at trial?

Somewhere she knows.

Somewhere she feels safe.

Diane?

How'd you find me?

We knew you used to volunteer your time
here at the women's shelter.

One thing about this place, they don't
ask a lot of questions.

I couldn't stay home alone.

Not after... Diane, you had to know that
we were looking for you.

I wasn't ready to go back.

I'm sorry.

Sorry for what?

For not trusting you.

I suppose I'm a suspect.

I mean, I should be. I shot him. Diane,
wait. I stabbed him. I pushed him off a

building.

I ran him over in the street with my
car.

I killed my own father a thousand times
in a thousand ways.

In my head.

Been here the whole time, Magda.

Well, if that's true, Diane, then you
have nothing to worry about.

I didn't do it.

As much as I wanted to.

If I had, it would have made my life
about him again.

You lose your mind to an extent where
you don't even want to live anymore.

The incidents, you know, the assailant
takes control of you. You can take it

back.

Because you've still got a future, Will.
There's always hope.

So you admit your father was physically
abusive.

But you can see how we would assume the
other.

You people are unbelievable.

I realize these are personal matters,
okay? Very uncomfortable to discuss, but

this is a murder investigation.

No, this is harassment.

If you like, you can file a complaint. I
have the forms in my desk that you can

fill out after we're done here.

You're damn right I will file a
complaint.

So, Ron, are you denying that your
father sexually molested you? That's

deny it.

Look, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but
my father never did that to me or anyone

else. Let's be very clear here, okay?

What we're talking about is a possible
motive for murder.

Go to hell!

Please pick that up, Mr. Evans.

Diane, she's making her statement.

Let's give her a chance to finish before
you go in there with the note.

Are we done here?

I'm sorry.

No.

Now, you say you left your father's
house at 9 and didn't return.

But you were seen at 11 p .m. that same
night in a backyard utility

shed on his property.

And according to our witness, you seemed
upset.

She's lying.

The beast is lying.

She?

Look, you scammed my little sister into
believing she was molested by my father,

but it will not work with me!

I have no motive, Inspector, for
anything.

Note.

Ron, where are you?

Back at your father's house later that
evening.

Thanks. I'm sorry, we're going to have
to cut this short.

Thank you for coming in.

What about that complaint form?

Follow me.

Ron.

I told these idiots you didn't kill
anybody.

Ron, I know.

you know what don't you see it's time to
let go let me help

you it's not your fault it's

nobody's fault but his

Feel the emotion, feel the anger, and
release the rage, release the anger. Sit

there and cry for two days straight.
It's important. You might think you're

crazy, but it's important to release
that anger. I'm the medical director of

emergency services at California
Hospital.

I think it's important for men to talk
about sexual assault, and

men have to set examples for others.

And to say that this is not acceptable
behavior.

We'd just gotten back from court.

And my father offers me a beer.

That was the first... First time I'd
ever seen him in a good mood.

What happened?

He comes back with a beer and... And a
shotgun.

And he cleaned and loaded it right in
front of me, telling me about

how many death threats that he's had.

Did he threaten you with a gun, Ron?

I've been in my father's house, seen his
gun over 20 years.

But it all came back to me.

What did?

Wasn't like Diane.

Not for me.

There weren't any bedtime stories.

When he came into my room, he'd bring
his shotgun and

he'd set it up against the door.

And then he'd tell me that if I ever...
If I ever made any noise or...

If I ever... If I ever told anyone about
it, that he'd use it to kill

my entire family.

What time did you leave the house, Ron?

Well, it was about nine.

I bought a bottle of vodka and...

drank it for courage, and then I headed
back to his house to kill him.

And?

And I couldn't do it.

I made it as far as the shed, and I just
lost it.

I ended up going back to my apartment
and passing out.

I woke up the next morning and I heard
about the murder on the news.

Diane's alibi is ironclad?

She was at the shelter an hour and a
half after we said goodbye to her. She

didn't leave there until Maggie and I
found her and brought her here.

And Ron?

Alibi?

None. Ron and the father, this never
occurred to Diane?

She swears no.

I caught up in her own nightmare.

Well, I mean, as soon as we mentioned
it, Diane just knew.

She said all the pieces fell into place.

How does a mother fit into this?

During the time the kids were being
molested, Gail Gilman was out of work,

Anne, the mother, had to work two jobs.
She was in office time during the day

and waitressing at night, leaving Gail
Gilman home with Diane and Ron.

What she says now is that she suspected
her husband of abuse, just not sexual

abuse. So, Ron.

We don't have enough to charge him.

Yet.

Is this trash?

Uh, absolutely.

Who are these people?

It's from an old cave. Just, um, forget
about it.

Is it evidence? No.

Personal. Got it?

Sorry.

No, no, I shouldn't have cried.

Honey or sugar?

Honey.

The man, or one of the men in the

photos, is my biological father.

I never knew him, and he recently passed
away.

Look, Stacy, everybody doesn't have a
past that they want to be reminded of,

okay? You got your memory book? I got
that.

This is where it belongs.

When my grandma died, it was sudden.

And I had all those years to ask her
whatever I wanted.

And I realized...

You know, after she had gone, that I
hadn't asked her nearly enough.

She knew things about me and my family
and her own life that she took to the

grave.

Like I said before, different lives.

Yeah, yeah, sure.

I guess I'm just saying that, you know,
you never know when your last chance is

up until it is.

This is Evan.

We're sorry to get you out of bed.

My children are not here.

Well, we actually would like to speak
with you and your husband.

Gus isn't here either.

He's at the office.

May we come in?

I know you hear about Ron.

I spoke to Diane.

Why are you doing this?

I thought you were on our side.

We are.

We also have a job to do, ma 'am.

It works both ways. If Ron has proven
innocent like your daughter, then...

You better come, Chad.

I should have known about Ron and Diane.

I'm the one to blame.

It's the sins of omission. Because of
me, my children are suffering still.

It's not your fault.

You did do something. You took your
children to safety.

I'm too late.

If I'd had the courage to deal with Cale
myself years ago, none of this would

have happened.

Deal with?

The night we left, I came home from my
waitress job at 3 in the morning.

Cale was passed out drunk on the couch.

Ron and Diane, they weren't in their
bed.

I found them hiding in the basement.

clutching onto one another.

I could have done it right then.

Instead, I kept a key to that house on a
chain around my neck

for years after that.

I swore to myself that if Kale ever came
into our lives again, tried to

hurt my kids again, I would go back to
that house and kill him.

Devin, are you saying that you are
responsible for your ex -husband's

No.

I think... I think you should go now.

Sometimes the medicine that I take makes
me fuzzy in it.

Please don't... don't pay me any mind.

Mrs. Evans, do you still have that key?

What now?

Your wife's key to Cale Gilman's house.

I guess, uh... I guess I should have
thrown it away.

But Annie, uh... I wish I had kept it so
long.

Well, what you should have done, at
least, was wipe it down like you did the

shotgun. Because now we have your
fingerprints and gunshot residue.

Mr. Evans, we're now placing you under
arrest for the murder of Cale Gilman.

Got seven...

You have the right to remain silent.

Anything you say can and will be held
against you in the court of law.

You have the right to an attorney. You
cannot afford an attorney.

Your attorney will be made available to
you.

All right, say it.

What?

So what you're thinking, that I was
stupid, that I made a bad situation

Well, you did make a bad situation
worse, and you were stupid, sir.

I mean, in or out of jail, kill Gilman
was out of your life.

Now what's that going to cost you?

I didn't go there to kill him.

Why didn't you go?

My son called me from that old shed
behind Gilman's house.

He's crying.

He used to have terrible nightmares when
he was a kid, both he and Diane.

It was just like that.

It was hysterical.

I begged him to leave.

Then he broke off the call.

I just, I went over there.

And Ron had already left.

All you had to do was go.

Go?

That man was right there in the house.

I had the key.

It was a fleek.

Not a care in the world.

A gun beside his bed.

All those years, no matter how hard I
tried, I couldn't make it right for my

family.

My lives are supposed to be perfect.

Perfect.

Kale Gilman stole that from us.

From me.

And now?

Now.

Wish I could take it back.

Is that you, Ralph Baker?

Before you became what you became?

I have a friend who is a rape and incest
survivor.

I feel very strongly that men should
speak up and speak out about...

violence against women. The males are
the perpetrators of this violence. So

unless it's stopped at that point or men
begin to speak up and speak

out about it, it will be allowed to
continue.

The biggest mistake I've ever made in my
life was keep my mouth shut.

And if you are a survivor,

don't be afraid to say so.

You'll never smile honestly in your life
until the moment

you do.

Gus expected the sexual abuse?

Yeah, for years.

Even before Diane came forward with it.
He said it was only a matter of time

before someone in the family decided to
do something about it.

Are you saying that Gus killed Billman
to stop his wife and one of his other

kids from doing it first?

I'm just saying the man didn't see any
choice.

And no excuse for murder.

Pretty damn close.

Family's behind Gus 100%. Yeah, Diane's
on a mission to keep her stepfather out

of jail. I wouldn't put it faster.

Well, I don't think even the Supreme
Court can save old Gus.

The jury might.

But what about justice?

What does it say about us when we can't
even give a man like Cal Gilman the

punishment that he deserves?

That we're human.

We make mistakes.

That's why we have laws and courts in
the first place. And cops.

That's right. We're all in it together.

Good job guys.

See you tomorrow.