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Did you eat it?

Your skirt? Possibly.

Well, then I guess I'll just have to wear these.

Stay another night.

Another week.

- Forever. - I can't.

Don't go.

To my own wedding?

I don't think you can go.

You're wearing my trousers.

Well, then I'll just take them off.

Is this dignified?

Is it elegant?

I think I'm falling in love with you.

Sorry.

Don't marry him.

Hello?

Hello?

Nan.

Hello?

Theo?

Get my shoes... Where do I go?

Lizzy, hide.

Theo?

Nan, what are you doing here?

I'm sorry. No one was home.

Where is your mother and all the servants?

I gave them a few days off.

I've been camping out.

I just wanted to say I'm sorry and I'm hoping--

If we're having this conversation, I'd prefer to be dressed for it. Please.

I'm going to ask you to wait for me at the castle.

You didn't send word. I'd prefer the dignity of at least buttoning my shirt.

Of course.

Lizzy.

Lizzy?

It's okay.

Lizzy.

Lizzy, wait.

Do they not have sea in Italy?

I never should have married you.

We can agree on that.

And I am so sorry about everything.

About Guy.

I should never have come to that church. You shouldn't have had to pay the price.

Also my mother gave you no choice.

She told you.

And now she's gone.

I have a proposal.

You and I can never get divorced,

but Hector thinks the bill will be passed this fall.

And so, until then I'd like to stay here.

For us to publicly be a united front so nothing can jeopardize Jinny's return.

And then when Jinny comes home, legitimately,

I'll leave the castle for good.

I'll always be the duchess for appearances,

but you and I can live our own lives. I owe you that.

I never feel better than I do in this dress.

My husband bought it for me on our honeymoon.

I always feel beautiful and important when I wear it.

Listen, the other day I saw Guy. And then...

I hadn't always felt like it fit me, the dress, but I'm trying harder.

And I'm starting to feel more myself.

Well, yourself, it suits you.

Mabel, I'm so sorry.

I should have told you about your mother and the money--

The desperate scheme to stop me being a shameful spinster?

If I wanted to marry a lord of any kind, I'd come straight to you.

But not to my mother,

whose only aim since I was this high has been to fix me.

I just don't want what other girls do. I'm not even sure if I want marriage.

That's fine. That's completely fine.

Conchita...

thank you, for understanding.

Of course.

Who knows? Maybe you'll meet a man who can change your mind.

You know, I used to think that Honoria would never want to meet anyone,

but have you seen how different she is now?

Her eyes used to never leave the ground

and now she's practically screaming to spread her wings.

What can I do to win back your trust?

I'm not sure. I...

I couldn't come back. I can't.

You're right. Of course. Small steps.

I just want you and Freddie to live somewhere more worthy of you both.

This isn't home.

It's close.

Home is wherever Freddie is. And Nan.

This has been so hard on you, Jinny.

And I'm forever grateful to Guy giving up his life for you.

Though I can't imagine how you feel about that.

It isn't in your nature to be selfish.

But I am glad you're learning to put your own happiness first.

Baba.

Lizzy, it's been days. Are you finally beautified?

Lizzy, what is it?

Is it Theo?

What?

I've known your flirting face since you were 12.

And your guilty face a lot longer.

Was it once?

It's like a sickness.

It's just like this beautiful sickness and I just... I can't stop.

Like a fever?

Yes.

And after Seadown, I thought I would never feel alive.

That alive was somehow this bad thing.

But Theo makes me feel free.

I'm not even ashamed, actually. I feel wretched now.

Hector's everything you've wanted--

When we're together, it's inevitable.

But it's like sleepwalking. I'm just... I'm numb.

Mabel, what if I wake up in 20 years with an aching chest

because the wrong man is next to me?

Listen, I've had my share of creeping around and it's thrilling,

but it's make-believe. And fevers pass.

Yeah. And anyway, Theo's married...

to Nan.

She'd never forgive me. Why should she? I can't even forgive myself.

Nan's in Italy.

And Lizzy, she chose to go so you mustn't feel--

She's back. Nan's back.

And yes, she told me that she didn't love him anymore.

That she was gone for good or, of course, I would have never gone there.

Oh, Lizzy.

Theo, I'll be leaving early tomorrow, then I'll be heading to London.

Conchita's hosting a party for the eve of Lizzy's wedding,

- so we're all gonna gather and-- - Well, I should come.

Good for us to appear united.

I'll see you there.

I'm sure the girls will be glad to hear your news.

Hello, thank you for coming.

Thank you for coming.

Don't do it.

Sorry, what?

Don't take this heavenly man off the market.

How is it fair on the rest of us if you get this face?

If this is the face you get to see morning till night your whole life.

Hello. Welcome. Welcome.

Welcome.

- Heavenly. - It's official.

It's official.

You know tomorrow's just a day.

The wedding is for everyone else.

It's the marriage that's for us.

There is a member of the Cabinet there that I'm keen to put myself in front of.

- Sure. - Yes? Okay.

Hello.

You look beautiful.

There, there.

Please.

I've thought about what you said...

and I'm willing to do it.

You coming back to England to stay with Nan.

The boat leaves on Thursday.

I'm not sure that I said--

I think Freddie should get to know his family.

Do you feel a tightness in your chest, my love?

I do, yes.

So do I. I've had it since you left.

It's worry. Fear.

We both feel it, but we can make it go away.

The boat won't wait for us.

But what will people say?

They'll say that we haven't failed.

I chose you, Virginia. Remember?

I could have chosen other girls.

Like Lizzy?

It was always you.

Thank you for not giving up on me.

- Freddie hasn't slept. - Jinny...

- I should, you know... - But...

Let's get you home.

Wow, what a party.

I'm in the middle of something.

Yes, you look very busy.

Listen, I brought these for Jinny. Is she in her room?

I thought she was with you.

I thought she was with you.

Jinny!

Guy, it's fine. I'll just leave them here.

- Jinny! - Guy! Guy.

Well, didn't she say where she'd be?

Jinny!

Why are you so interested in where she is all the time?

- What? - You do what you want.

What are you talking about?

I saw you with the girl with the big eyes. You were holding hands.

And I was going to tell Jinny, but I did not want to break her heart.

Right, it is none of your business, but since you're so interested,

Paloma, Jinny is not my wife.

We're not together. We never have been, okay?

Her husband is the reason we're here.

We left England,

we left our entire lives behind because of him.

That's why we have to be careful.

That's why I'm so interested in where she is.

He is a dangerous brute of a man and now I don't know where she is.

So thank you for your observation,

- but you-- - Hello?

I'm back.

I was worried about where you were.

I went for a walk. Is that allowed?

Of course.

I should have said.

I'm not feeling so well. I'm gonna go lay down for a while.

There's a stream. A château. The sun shines.

The school there is always looking for English teachers.

They tend to take notice of old academics so if you would like me to recommend you--

Hector's about to speak.

What are you recommending her for?

It's all arranged. Lady Honoria is off to Provence to teach,

drink black coffee and dance the cancan in the village square.

Well, I can't imagine what black coffee does

to a person's digestion.

Ladies and gentlemen, thank you all for coming today.

Esteemed guests, unesteemed guests.

And also,

I'd like to toast a woman about to become desperately important in my life.

Mrs. Elmsworth.

And finally, to Lizzy.

I am the luckiest man in the world.

Hear! Hear!

- Nan! Oh, my goodness. - Hi!

Your Grace.

Excuse me. Sorry.

Lizzy!

I'm so sorry to make a fuss.

No, not at all. I couldn't be happier you're here.

Your Grace, well, lots to tell you.

I'll be right back.

We have the Home Secretary tentatively on side...

I have news.

Meet me in the park at 4:00.

I can't. I mustn't.

Conchita's letting us know when.

This is not the kind of thing you'd have said yes to in the past.

You saying I've changed?

Yes. And I'm happy for you.

It's not that I used to resist fun, I just don't think that I understood it.

When I got engaged to Miles, you were horrified.

But now Conchita dangles lords in front of me,

and you just laugh.

The conversation with Hector's father--

That was a silly pipe dream.

I was rude.

Just because I'm not interested in villages,

and I can't speak French and I don't like pâté--

I don't even know if I like pâté.

But that's the point.

I have had adventures. I've seen places.

And I've met people. And I've kissed girls.

- And you-- - I've met you.

But I'm one person. I'm one girl.

And you're working out who you are.

So maybe you do want to go to France and dance the cancan.

Ready?

Is that what you want? Do you think?

The bride's sister would like to say a few words.

Ma...

Mabel.

I have never bothered to compete with Lizzy because,

well, who could?

Though, Hector, it's worth saying, first thing in the morning, she is perky.

She's been known to sing. It's awful.

On Lizzy's sixth birthday she had three wishes.

Number one, to have ten children

- to run races with her. - Ten?

Number two, to have a husband to bring her sweets every day.

Sweets? Noted.

And number three, to have a sky blue kitten that can juggle.

Now, Hector, on the eve of Lizzy finally growing up,

the ten children and the sweets I'm going to leave to you.

But I'm sure we all agree,

my infuriatingly lovely big sister deserves everything she ever wanted.

Lizzy, you deserve it all.

Choose what's right for you.

Now, hardly anyone can say

they've had a sky blue kitten that can juggle in their life.

So I guess it's like having an older sister.

The trick is to try not to be sad they're moving on,

but to be so glad you had them.

Even briefly.

To my sister. May she have everything she wants.

- Hear! Hear! - Hear! Hear!

I'm very sorry.

I don't know what I thought.

It's just I saw you with that girl and saw the way you looked at her.

And I've met a lot of men,

and they pretend to care but really only want a woman in their life

in the way you would want a... furniture or a painting--

Is this meant to be an apology?

So, now I need to know.

Who's the girl? Is she yours?

No. Not mine.

It's complicated.

She's a duchess.

Duchess, huh?

I didn't show her my curtsy.

- What happened? - Paloma, do you mind?

All right? It's over. She's gone.

And it is the last thing in the world I wanna think about.

We'll do something else then.

It's not fair of you to come.

Now that Nan's back you have to go be with her.

But she's not back.

Only for appearances till she can bring Jinny home.

Then she's leaving the castle. We can be together. Everything's changed.

Don't marry him.

You know, I spent forever believing

I needed a woman who didn't know who I was,

when what I really needed was a woman who knows exactly who I am.

I can't hear this. I'm sorry.

I think it's the only real thing I've felt my entire life.

Lizzy, everything until now, until you, has been pretending.

I feel released.

I love you.

You will always be married. What will I be?

Your mistress, forever hiding?

But with Hector you'll be hiding the fact that you feel nothing.

Hector's offering me a life that will be open and easy and safe.

I have had my fill of shameful secrets.

We would go out sailing with my father's boat

and every time, I would fall in the water.

But on purpose because I wanted to see the boat from a distance.

"Paloma!"

I would say, "Papa, don't worry.

I will swim around the world, and I will meet you here."

No!

That's not me. No.

Okay. You're up.

No. Paloma.

You're going to fight.

- Do it. Just once. Just once. - No, Guy,

- I will hurt you because I'm strong. - Just here. You won't.

All right. Put that down. Put that down.

- Are you sure? - Yes. Yes.

- Guy. No, I really will. - Come on.

Prove it!

- I think you broke my nose. - Don't be a baby.

Why haven't we done this before?

Boxing?

So, tell us, how is Jinny? Where is she living?

In a perfect house on a path that goes directly to the water.

Are you serious?

And she has learned how to cook.

- Really? - Yep.

Are they living on toast?

- Did you tell her how much we miss her? - Endlessly.

And she misses you all so much, desperately.

But I will bring her back home.

And should we not ask about...

I'll ask. What happened with Guy?

Did you just change your mind?

No, some of the moments with Guy were perfect.

But it wasn't real.

It was just... It just felt like I was living somebody else's life.

Just blissful foolishness.

And I think he hates me now.

But he and Jinny are doing their part and I'm doing my part here.

And I'm just trying not to make a mess out of every decision I make.

Hey. Aren't we allowed a few wrong turns?

I think I lost the map.

Gosh.

Are you excited?

Yes.

Scared.

Marriage is enormous. But Hector is so wonderful.

I'm sorry.

For the letter and letting you go to Italy.

For all of it.

No, no, no. You have nothing to apologize for.

I'm so happy you're here.

Me too.

- Sweet dreams, little one. - Good night.

Is it late?

I think it's tomorrow.

Did we get in the town square fountain last night?

- Oh, gosh. - You said you wanted fun.

The whole night felt like being young.

I'm glad.

I'm also glad it wasn't you.

Who Jinny said was disappointing under the sheets.

Thought it made no sense.

I will go. Thank you.

What are you doing?

We're adults. No regrets. No guilt.

Wait. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.

Wait. Wait.

Paloma, what's happening here?

I really did have a good time. And I would like to see you again.

Well, maybe we do it again.

Lizzy. Wake up. Today's the day.

Come on, girls.

Today's the day.

Ha. I tell you,

he has shot himself in the foot with this new budget speech.

Can you not at least allow me

a proud father of the groom moment?

She's a remarkable woman.

And lucky.

I'm very proud.

And we'll be sure to look out for one another.

That's what it's all about, isn't it?

It's some of what it's all about, yes.

Visitor.

You'll be in the midst of things.

I've had an entire carriage ride to come up with an excuse

for disturbing you, and drawn a blank.

Well, might you have come to see me?

That's the only thing I'm certain of.

Nan's back. She's back.

And she'll take care of things. I'm sure of it.

So does this mean...

it can be your time?

I think, perhaps, it could be ours.

If you can look beyond my youthful foolishness.

I was rather hoping for some elderly foolishness.

With your knees?

Lizzy will not decide about her hair.

Mabel?

Lizzy's the last one. Isn't she?

Only me left unmarried. So...

I think I might come home to New York.

And just give up?

I think it might be easier.

Montreal.

What?

I went to Montreal when I was small.

And I thought, "Well, it doesn't get better than this."

I mean, the buildings, the people.

I thought, "I could stay here till I die. Until I'm old and can't speak."

Because that's what you do when you're young.

You find a home in these places like Montreal.

And it feels like you won't fit in anywhere else.

Then someone says,

"You there with the plain brown hair and the thick ankles,

you wanna come to New York with me?"

"Or Coney Island? Or London?"

And you think,

"No. I only want to go back to Montreal."

Until you discover that the world is beautiful,

wild and gloriously huge.

And Montreal's not the only place in it.

It's just the first one you fell in love with.

Disappointment mustn't stop you living, Mabel.

Don't give up.

Life is tough. And wonderful.

Like you.

Also I have a lot of plans for July so...

I can't be running around after you.

Bringing you food and having you moping around the house.

- Lizzy! - You look beautiful.

Lizzy, you look amazing.

You look so beautiful.

Lizzy?

I just need a moment.

Theo, what is going on?

- I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know. - The wedding is right now.

It's happening now.

Don't get married.

- This isn't fair. - I know and I'm so sorry. I just...

You look extraordinary by the way.

I just had to say don't get married unless you're certain

Hector gives you the kind of love you and I have.

If he does, go in there and marry him.

And I will stand in that church with sweaty hair, and I will cheer.

But if you decide he doesn't give you that fever...

You should absolutely not be with me.

What?

Because you're right. We can only ever exist in secret.

And you deserve someone who can make you feel,

but who can also make you feel safe.

A whole love.

With all the passion and laughter,

but also legitimacy and standing side-by-side.

So hold out for that, Lizzy.

Because you deserve both.

A great love. It's out there. It exists.

You deserve your own love story.

So don't choose me.

But also don't just choose the first nice man who comes along

and offers you half of it. You should have it all.

So choose you.

I mean, who wouldn't?

Is everything all right?

- There she is. - Lizzy, what's wrong?

Lizzy?