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Time passes by so fast.

I want a family with you, Kelly.

Is adoption something that you would consider?

I think that sounds just right.

I invited Carver to join.

He said he had plans.

I don't know.

- Are you here for the meeting? - Mm-hmm.

Straight back and up those stairs.

I'm Sam, and...

- I'm an alcoholic. - Hi, Sam.

That's the first time I've said that out loud.

I've got 22 days today.

Most I've gone since I was about 14.

And I wish...

I wish I could say it feels great.

I don't know.

Maybe part of me isn't convinced I need to be here.

But I don't feel too comfortable

in my regular life either.

But I see all you smiling at me and being nice to me.

And, uh, yeah, it's a little weird.

But it also makes me feel like you guys get it.

And that makes me feel like maybe I am in the right place.

Well, when I woke up to an empty bed,

I figured for sure you were making coffee.

I thought about it.

Then I got in my head how it would look

if you found me rummaging through your kitchen.

Whenever you're here, make yourself at home.

Or, hey, at least make coffee

so I can have some when I wake up.

Understood.

What's all this?

A new case. It's kind of kicking my ass.

Well, I'm here if you want help.

You know, I haven't brought it up yet because

crossing work and personal worlds can get kind of weird.

But my client's actually a medic.

Oh. Well, go on.

The state charged him with criminally negligent homicide

for a patient that died in his care.

Ooh, that's rough.

The prosecution's breathing down my neck.

They got him to take a plea deal.

But you think he acted properly?

That's what this early morning cram session's for.

I need to determine if he followed procedure.

If he did, find proof and take it to the prosecution.

Well, I would love to help,

and this is my area of expertise.

Well, that and baking artisanal bread

and organic chemistry.

And actually, maybe it would be faster to name the things

that I'm not good at.

Coffee and expertise...

find one guy in Chicago luckier than me.

Hey, man.

I'm Lee.

Uh, Sam.

Great share, dude.

Seriously, listening to you,

that was the first time that I felt connected

in a meeting in a while.

Thank you.

Sometimes I just wanna know that there are people here

who are struggling as much as I am.

Uh, how long do you have?

Today is day three.

But I've been in and out for about five years.

I've gotten a year before, twice.

This last go around though, uh, it's been harder.

Oh, yeah?

I know what you mean.

Hey, you should... you should take my number

in case you're ever, you know, in it.

You wanna talk or vent or just whatever.

Call me.

Yeah, you should take mine too.

Wait, what?

Hey, let's keep it a little quiet, all right?

Kelly and I just started talking about it.

I'm not ready for the news to go wide.

Mm-hmm. All right. I won't tell anyone.

But this is so exciting.

I thought you didn't even like kids.

Oh, God, I don't.

But I'm not having one, you are.

Wow, a Stellaride baby.

Stellaride?

Yeah. Oh, come on.

You know that's what we all call you two.

No, I did not.

Did you guys hear about Sherman?

Retiring to Florida to raise sugar gliders,

whatever those are.

People think they're rodents,

but they're actually marsupials.

Hmm, okay.

Well, when I retire, I'm taking another shot

at expanding Molly's into a chain.

You know, make it the Ditka's of Chicago pubs.

I'm gonna focus on my drumming,

maybe get the old band back together.

What about you, Mouch?

What are your retirement plans?

I'm not thinking that far ahead.

Right now, my plans are all about the CFD.

Man, I wish I had that kind of gumption.

Squad 3, Ambulance 61.

Person trapped, 2987 West End.

What the hell is this place?

What's going on?

I don't know what happened. She's stuck up there.

Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com

We're gonna have to rig up a slide rescue.

Yeah, I got the rope and harness.

Tony, grab a second rope bag.

Capp, find a low anchor point.

Copy that.

Hang on! I'm coming to get you!

- Feel that? - Yep.

Got it.

Capp, heads up!

- Okay! - Set.

On you go.

Drop it in!

Keep holding on. We're almost there.

Coming for you.

All right, Cruz, about 10 more feet.

Hurry! Faster!

- Pull! - Yeah!

All right, Cruz, bring us down.

Okay, steady.

Easy.

There we go. Perfect.

C-collar. Let's get her on oxygen.

Pulse is fast and weak.

Saturation's 80%.

Ma'am, can you hear me?

Ma'am?

Saturation is going up.

Okay, let's get her to Med.

Stay calm. We got you, okay?

Hey.

Just wanna let you know that I told Violet

about the adoption idea.

Yeah?

But I... I told her not to spread it around,

that we're just starting to discuss it, so...

Sure, yeah, that makes sense.

Did... did you know that they call us Stellaride?

Who's they?

I don't know actually.

But anyways, I heard you pulled quite the move

with the zip line earlier.

Yeah, I mean, climbing the tower,

rigging your own zip line.

It's... it's pretty impressive.

Why do I feel like you're about to ask for a favor?

I need new Girls on Fire drills.

I want something badass,

something like what you did today.

You want me to teach a Girls on Fire course, Lieutenant?

I know that they would love learning under Squad,

especially something technical and fun with the ropes.

I mean, they have never done anything like that before.

I'll start thinking on it now.

You are the best.

Thank you.

Hey, everybody, I got an announcement.

You know, all that retirement talk,

you know, it got me thinking.

You know, if I really want to expand Molly's,

then I gotta start building it now, you know?

And just get it, you know, more of a brand-name status.

How are we gonna do that?

Well, we're gonna create a signature cocktail.

That'll help, you know, Molly's stand out.

What's the cocktail gonna be?

All right, well, this is where you guys all come in.

Okay?

Tomorrow night at Molly's,

I want everybody there for taste testing.

I'm in.

Yeah, me too.

Sorry, gonna have to miss it.

Next time.

Well, actually, this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity,

but suit yourself.

Hey, I haven't seen you around at Molly's

in a while, Carver.

I kind of miss seeing you there.

I'm sure I'll get there soon.

You know EMS protocols are available online, right?

Well, Flynn and his clan are coming by later

to talk through the case.

I just... I wanna make sure I'm brushed up on protocols.

Well, fill me in.

Maybe I can help.

Okay.

Victim was epileptic.

Family called 911 after a really bad seizure.

By the time the medics got there, he had stopped seizing

but was barely conscious.

He came to in the ambulance and became very aggressive,

so the medic administered Versed to help calm him down.

A short time later, the patient went into cardiac arrest

and died.

That's sad.

Yeah, I know.

And the protocols on the administration of Versed

are pretty cut and dry.

And it seems like he followed them,

so why are they going after him?

The family is putting a lot of pressure

on the state's attorneys.

They're saying the victim should have never

been given the drug at all.

Well, that's a tough position for the medic.

I think that's why I wanna help.

I would hope someone would step in if it were me.

Me too.

Hey, it's, uh, it's Sam from the meeting.

Hope it's not weird, me calling.

But I'm having one of those days where I...

I don't know.

Everyone at work goes...

We all hang at this bar, Molly's.

And I know it's not a great idea to go.

But I don't know what's worse, sitting there nursing a soda

and pretending like I'm not crawling out of my skin

or staying away and...

feeling totally disconnected from everyone.

Oh.

Uh, I'm sorry to unload that.

I just... whatever.

I'll figure it out.

See you around.

Hi, I was coming out to meet you.

I just got your text.

My client just stopped to talk to one of your engine guys.

I guess he used to work here.

Really?

Yeah, he didn't mention it, but maybe you know him.

Oh.

Yep.

We definitely know each other.

Hey, Violet.

Lennox.

Why didn't you tell me you knew each other?

Because he knows I would have told you not to come.

Two minutes, that's all I'm asking for.

The way that your CFD career ended,

Lennox, I am not getting involved.

So you're not gonna even hear me out?

Jared, if Violet's not comfortable, she's not doing it.

Let's go.

I am so sorry.

I knew he was CFD, but he didn't mention 51.

He was just a floater.

He was only here for a few shifts.

I will explain everything later.

But you do not have to apologize.

That was a very Lennox thing to do.

Was that who I think it was?

The guy who almost got us fired last year.

Yeah, it was.

Apparently, he's working for a private ambulance company

since Chief Robinson sent him packing.

What did he want?

My help, which is insane given that he was just charged

with criminally negligent homicide

for doing exactly what we saw him do last year.

Damn.

Dude.

Thanks for coming all the way down here.

You really didn't have to.

Oh, to be honest, I was just sitting around

watching Netflix, feeling sorry for myself.

I was gonna hit a meeting,

but talking one-on-one, face-to-face,

that's the best way to get out of my head.

- Mm-hmm. - So you're a firefighter?

That's pretty badass.

Uh...

Yeah.

Who's that?

Violet?

She's just a coworker.

Just a coworker?

Uh, we dated for a while.

But she's just a friend now.

Yeah, sounds messy, working with your ex.

I guess. But...

the friendship part is what's hard right now.

It's the thing I've been missing the most

since I stopped going to Molly's.

You won't have to stay away forever.

At some point, I bet you'll be able to go back

and just hang out there, you know?

But right now, dude,

take it from a chronic relapser.

Putting yourself in that situation with that person

before you've built a solid foundation in recovery,

you're playing with fire.

Come on. Come on.

Snake eyes!

Automatic loser.

I am aware.

Thank God. I hate cleaning the compartments.

You know, it would go a lot faster if we clean them all together.

Yeah, it probably would.

Have fun.

Hey, Cruz, are you busy?

He's about to get elbow deep in some compartment cleaning.

Not anymore. I need him.

You two take over.

What's up?

I need you to put together a ropes course for Girls on Fire.

I was gonna do it, but Pascal just dumped

a whole bunch of performance reviews on me.

Performance reviews?

Should I be worried?

Depends how you do on this.

Any kind of direction here?

Kidd said something technical and fun.

Start there.

Think Squad-worthy.

What are you doing back here?

I just need to talk to Violet.

It'll only take a minute.

And then I'll be gone.

I know I screwed up when I was here at 51 in so many ways.

I was arrogant and disrespectful.

Oh, Lennox, I am not turning you down

because I felt disrespected.

I saw you do the exact same thing,

shoot someone up with Versed who did not need it

and without checking their oxygen.

No, this guy, he really was agitated.

You almost killed your patient last year.

Why would I believe you now?

You're right.

I got lucky last year, and the patient survived.

And if he hadn't, that was on me.

But this time, I swear I did it by the book.

And believe it or not, I learned a lot

from you when I was riding 61.

I would never do that again.

He would have hurt himself if I hadn't administered that dose.

I'm sure of it.

And you are sure you checked his oxygen first?

Yes, and I was monitoring his levels

because of what you drilled into me.

I didn't wanna make that same mistake again.

I was pretty gutted when he died.

At his house...

The way the family seemed, you could...

you could just tell how much they loved him, you know?

There's gotta be someone else you can go to,

another medic that you've worked with.

Sure.

But none of them are a PIC with firsthand knowledge

of me or my case.

Flynn could be the best lawyer in Cook County,

but I need you to back me up.

I need you.

This isn't just my career we're talking about.

It's my entire life on the line.

And you can save me.

This guy, Lennox, he's like a cautionary tale

to all CFD floaters.

Honestly, I am surprised that you didn't wail on him

the way you do with a heavy bag or that Kelly didn't kill him.

Huh, yeah.

I actually think that I'm gonna help him.

The way he was talking, I believed him.

It sounded like he followed protocol

but something went horribly wrong.

Well, so what does he expect you to do?

Basically, vouch for him at the state attorney's

and give my expert opinion as a PIC.

Well, I mean, look, either way,

he is lucky as hell to have you on his team.

We'll see.

I call it the ladder hang.

Girls run up to the hanging lines,

use a specialty knot to tie off their harnesses to it,

and let go.

Then what?

Then what what?

What do they do next?

They sit down and see if the knot can handle their weight.

So Severide asked for a Squad-worthy drill,

and you're having them sit.

Tying the knot, technical.

Hanging from the rope, fun.

Those were the instructions.

These are kids.

What do you want them to do, rappel through a ring of fire?

No, but we could as a demonstration.

We're not gonna do that.

What's all this?

Severide asked us to put together

a Squad drill for Girls on Fire.

It's called the ladder hang.

Ladder hang, huh?

I want all this cleaned up before the end of shift.

He hates it.

We're going with the ladder hang.

End of discussion.

That dose of Versed was not only medically indicated,

it was absolutely necessary to prevent

Mr. Vicente from harming himself.

The victim had no history of aggressive

or irrational behavior, no mental illness.

He was a pillar of his community.

His family's adamant about all this.

And they're more than eager to testify to it under oath.

I don't doubt any of that.

But seizure victims can sometimes have

what's called postictal events,

or where when they regain awareness,

they can become agitated and confused.

And as I'm sure you're already aware, the victim tried to...

I know what Mr. Lennox claims the victim tried to do.

The victim tried to jump

from a moving ambulance, Mr. Strauss.

He tried to rip the IV from out of his arm.

Mr. Lennox was obviously concerned

about this man's safety.

What's at issue in this case is

not whether or not the Versed was medically indicated.

Even if we grant that the victim's behavior

warranted the dose,

it was Mr. Lennox's criminally negligent failure

to monitor his patient's vitals that led directly

to Mr. Vicente's death.

My client will testify under oath

that he monitored his patient at all times

and that the cardiac event came on suddenly

without any warning.

Your client has zero credibility here, Mr. Calhoun.

He was fired from the CFD

for a nearly identical act of negligence

less than a year ago.

The family was shocked and appalled

when they heard that, in fact.

So considering what they're pushing for,

I think the offer on the table is more than generous.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have another meeting.

_

All right, people!

Signature cocktail, all right?

Option number one, the Camel.

I wanna know about the name,

but I'm afraid to know the answer.

All right, no, it's Engine's mascot.

No, I figured we'd just lean into all the firefighter thing.

Yes, he has one for every rig at 51,

so brace yourself.

- Bottoms up, everybody. - Whoo!

- Cheers. - Go to it.

- Pace yourself. - All right.

Fire in the hole.

It's really, really sweet.

It's marzipan forward.

Mm-mm.

- Big no. - All right.

There's good feedback. All right.

We'll just put this in the, you know, "maybe" column.

Hey, guys.

So where are we at with the Girls on Fire drill?

Oh, I came up with the ladder hang.

So the girls, they tie their harnesses off to the rope,

sit back, and see if their knot can handle the weight.

Is that it?

That's exactly what we said.

Cruz, what do you think Stella is gonna say

when she sees this?

Good job?

This is a great drill for somebody

who has no Squad training.

It's gonna look like we're going easy on them because they're girls.

No, that's not what I was trying to do.

Maybe not consciously.

Could be internalized misogyny.

Could be we take this outside.

Hey, just... don't worry about it.

- Forget it. - No, I can step it up a notch.

No, really. It's fine.

I'm thinking on some ideas anyway.

Hello?

Yes, this is she.

Yeah.

Thank you, Officer.

I, uh, I'll be right there.

Officer?

Yeah, Carver's in the drunk tank.

Flashback to two years ago.

Um, I gotta go.

We're not gonna charge him.

I figured hauling his lieutenant down here

was a tougher pill than a misdemeanor D&D anyway.

Yeah, we'll see about that.

Hey, Manetti,

go get Sam Carver out of holding, will you?

Hey, what did he do anyway?

Picked a fight with a bartender.

Your boy was hammered, stumbling around,

snagging shots off the bar and tossing them back

without paying for them.

He was just being a drunken idiot.

But if he had hurt somebody or tried to get behind the wheel,

that's where the professional courtesy ends.

I totally get it.

And yeah, you can bet your ass he's

not getting off easy with me.

I'm so sorry, Lieutenant.

I... I don't even know what to say about this.

You actually know this guy?

Yeah, he's kind of a...

uh, a friend.

Your friend just tried to get out of trouble by impersonating you.

I'm sorry you got dragged into this.

I am just really glad it wasn't you this time.

- I'll see you tomorrow. - Mm-hmm.

Dude.

What the hell were you thinking,

dropping my name like that?

I'm sorry.

It was so stupid.

I lost my wallet.

I figured the cops would just let me bounce

if I told them that I was a firefighter.

What happened?

It was like this story in the big book

with the guy who puts the whiskey in his milk, you know?

Just sort of came out of nowhere, but...

I almost had a drink tonight too.

Yeah?

I was sitting around bored, and I don't know.

I was alone.

And started thinking about how everyone was at Molly's.

And what's the big deal if I just popped by there?

- And... - Everyone?

You mean Violet?

Oh, damn, dude.

That girl... that girl is, like,

seriously toxic to your sobriety.

You... you don't know anything about her, Lee.

Yeah, no, totally.

Totally. I don't know what the hell I'm talking about.

I'm still pretty wasted.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. No.

I should have been there for you.

And I will be from now on.

I swear to God.

Huh?

I probably would have gone to Molly's

if this hadn't happened.

So you helped me without even realizing it.

Come on.

I'll give you a lift home.

Come on.

Let's go.

So you're saying I should take the plea deal?

All I'm saying is that the state's attorney isn't backing down.

I think it would be wise to weigh every option.

That's what I've been doing.

Whether I take a plea deal or go to trial,

it's starting to feel like I'm gonna end up

in jail no matter what.

If we do end up at trial,

would the state be able to prove

the Versed caused the victim's death?

Versed can't cause death in and of itself.

It can lead to respiratory depression,

and that can cause cardiac arrest if it's not treated.

Lennox, just walk me through everything

that happened after the oxygen alarm went off.

It didn't.

What?

The oxygen alarm didn't go off.

The cardiac alarm did.

You sure?

100%.

Is this a good thing or a bad thing?

If there wasn't an oxygen event

before the patient went into cardiac arrest...

Oh, my God.

Then something other than the Versed must have killed him.

Can... can we prove it?

The cardiac monitors on the ambulances

keep a code summary of every call.

It documents the patient's heart rate,

oxygen levels, all of it.

It even logs when and if the oxygen alarm was even triggered.

So the O2 alarms are saved on the code summary?

On most of the ambulances out there, yeah.

So if we can get our hands on the monitors from Lennox's ambulance,

it might give us the information we need to fight this?

We just have to hope that the monitor

hasn't been used too many times or the old data

will have been deleted.

Hey, you're here early.

Trudy's at PT.

Figured I'd help open up.

I guess there's a first time for everything.

So what ended up being the winning cocktail?

Oh, Born of Fire.

It's basically a smoky martini.

I know it's a Squad slogan, and that's annoying,

but it does say firefighter bar.

And that's what makes Molly's, you know,

stand out from all the rest, right?

- Yeah. - See, I would offer you one,

but you're already drinking.

You seem really excited about this whole expansion idea.

Yeah, I am.

Molly's North was a hit.

You know?

And it would have still been up and running,

you know, if Otis hadn't...

Yeah, you know, if he were still around.

Yeah.

And if you could really franchise,

that'd make a pretty penny.

Okay, so you're not here to help me open up

or have yet another free beer.

What's on your mind?

If you're ready to focus on Molly's

and step away from the CFD,

I don't want you to grind toward that chief exam

just for me, man.

No way!

No, we're in this together. We made our plan.

I'm not gonna screw it up.

It's what you want, too, though, right?

Absolutely.

Stop staring at me like that.

You're freaking me out.

All right. Fine, fine.

I'll have a Born of Fire.

Don't do me any favors.

I'm not. It sounds like the perfect signature drink.

One Born of Fire coming up.

Sam, right?

Good memory.

How's it going?

Uh, you know, up and down.

Yeah, I get that feeling.

Things do even out eventually.

I'm just glad that Lee guy didn't scare you off.

What do you mean?

Yeah, I met him a few months ago at another meeting.

And at first, he seemed super nice and supportive.

You know, two newcomers helping each other.

- But... - What happened?

He just... from one day to the next,

he just got, like, fixated, you know?

Suddenly, he was all over my social media

and posting some really weird comments to my friends

in the middle of the night.

And then he showed up at my job

and threatened one of my coworkers.

What?

I had talked to Lee about her.

And she was kind of a drinking buddy.

And he was all, "That girl is bad for your sobriety."

And he literally accosted her in the parking garage.

What the hell are you doing?

Sir, you need to get the hell out of my home right now.

What I want is for you to leave him alone.

Stop talking to him.

Stop tempting him.

He is clean now.

He doesn't need you goading him.

Who doesn't?

Sam.

He has a disease.

And you're making it worse.

You're killing him, and I am not gonna let that happen.

Whoa, whoa. Okay, okay.

Okay.

Sam and I are friends, okay?

No, you're not. You're toxic.

You are pushing him over the edge

so that you can see him suffer.

And I...

No! No! No!

What the hell is wrong with you?

Huh?

I'm just trying to help you, man.

I told you I'd always have your back.

Chicago PD!

Over here.

- This guy broke in. - I didn't do anything.

Wait.

Wait, stop.

Hey, Sam. Hey, Sam.

- Tell them who I am, man. - Let's go.

Hey, tell them who I am.

We'll be back to take a statement.

Why are you letting them do this?

We're supposed to help each other, Sam!

We're supposed to help each other!

Sam!

Are you okay?

Yeah.

I'm so sorry that happened.

I am really sorry.

Sam, what the hell was that?

Uh...

Chief says she didn't have to come in today.

Still, I can see why she'd want to, though.

Yeah, she's a toughie.

Hey, kid, how you doing?

- Hey. - Oh.

I am so glad to see you.

I'm okay, really.

I am.

Still, it was a pretty scary situation.

No, yeah, it definitely was.

But Carver saved the day.

And Flynn came over as soon as I called

to make sure I felt safe for the night.

Wow, those are two really great guys.

Yeah. Yeah, they are.

And I heard Ritter called, like,

a hundred times from his little mountain getaway.

Yes, he did.

Okay, it's... it's very sweet for you all to worry.

But really, I'm fine.

But are you fine enough for Capp's kasha breakfast?

Oh, God. I hope you're making that up.

Oh, he is not.

That's so true.

Yeah, put a bunch of sugar on it.

All right.

You wanted fun, technical?

That's what you asked for.

Yes.

Well, I'd say we delivered.

The girls can climb the aerial, harness in the rope,

zipline on down.

Wow.

I mean... well, first of all, thank you.

Second of all,

I think you may have lost your mind.

Kelly, you know, some of these girls are 14, right?

They cannot be doing something like this

without any prior training.

It's dangerous.

I'm not sure what you were thinking.

What I was thinking was they might appreciate the challenge.

Your chief came up with the idea

after reading my report.

I see.

You are right.

Chief, the girls would absolutely appreciate

a challenge like this.

The thing is that they all sign these liability waivers.

And they are pretty strict.

So it limits what we can do.

Other than that, it is great.

I'm never gonna live that down.

I doubt it.

We'll change the drill.

Thank you.

- Thank you, guys. - Mm-hmm.

Cruz, we'll go ahead with the ladder thing.

Mm-hmm.

You heard him, boys. Chop-chop.

You know, there is not a lot of Born of Fire orders so far.

We need this to get traction.

I'm gonna say something controversial here.

Maybe 10 bucks is too much for a local pub cocktail.

You might be right.

You're smarter than you look.

You know that, right?

About a lot of things.

Are you sure you're okay with being here?

Yeah. No, I'm good.

Okay.

I wanted to be here with you

and... and everyone.

I just keep thinking, I hate

that I didn't suss that guy out sooner.

No, it is not your fault, Sam.

No, you're supposed to be able to trust people in those rooms

and be vulnerable.

And it's why it works, right?

And it is so, so messed up

that some sick guy took advantage of that.

You know, Sam, I just...

I hope, you know, it doesn't push you away

from all the good people that are there.

That is an agency that Brett recommended.

So the adoption lawyer that she used with Julia

uses this place.

And Brett says they're great.

An adoption agency. Wow.

For whenever we're ready.

So...

we'll call them tomorrow?

Yeah, it's a date.

Hi.

Did you get access to the ambulance?

The rig I was writing was taken out of service

for the criminal case, which means

that data was still there.

We were able to get the reports off the monitor,

which clearly showed the oxygen dropped

after the cardiac arrest.

Which means there was an underlying condition,

probably set up from the epilepsy.

Okay. So that's what caused the cardiac arrest, not the Versed.

The state's dropping the charges.

I meant what I said about learning from you.

I have no idea how to thank you, either of you.

Well, I do.

It involves a cocktail called Born of Fire.

It's a new signature drink around here.

Oh, I like this plan.

Yeah?

Line 'em up.

All right, Herrmann, three Born of Fire.

Maybe four.

Three signature Born of Fire cocktails coming up!