All language subtitles for touched_by_an_angel_s09e16_song_for_my_father

Sometimes I have dreams and I picture
myself

flying above

Sarah has a powerful voice.

It's a gift from God.

I like her music.

A little different, but I like it.

There may be only so many notes in the
scale, but they can be expressed more

ways than there are stars.

Well, apparently not everybody
appreciates the way they're being

now.

Hey, Bob, how's it going?

Not too bad for Saturday.

Sounds like a new song, huh?

Yeah, I guess so.

Well, we've had some complaints about
the noise again, Richard. I'm sorry

that.

You want to do something about it, or do
you want me to play bad guys? No, no,

I'll take care of it.

Thank you.

Hey, Dad.

Concert's over.

But we're rehearsing here.

Not anymore.

The neighbors have had enough.

And so have I. I can't believe that
you're doing this. I can't believe I

do it the first five times you were
warned.

And find someplace else for all this
equipment.

I want my garage back.

What do you want to do, Sarah?

Just break it down.

It's hard to say which of them is wrong.

They're both wrong.

And they're both right.

That's part of what's going to make this
assignment so hard.

Hard?

The other part's going to be a lot
harder.

When you

walk down

Heavy burden, heavy load I

will rise and I will walk with you I'll

walk with you Till the dawn don't even
shine Walk with

you Every time I tell you I'll walk with
you

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

It's an audition in the cafeteria.

It's a shot at playing at the Winter
Formal. You think they're letting just

anybody audition?

Pretty much.

You got a problem, Molly?

Yeah, I think Ty ought to start acting
like a manager instead of a boyfriend.

Get us a real place to rehearse. Yeah,
get us some real gigs.

Hi. Hi, can I help you?

Yeah, yeah. I'm looking for Paula
Dardenne.

Mom!

What's up?

Hi. Paula, my name is Andrew, and I just
joined your office.

Oh, well, nice to meet you. Thank you.
Also, I have a client who's interested

a house you just listed across the
street.

How could you have a client already? I
just put up that sign an hour ago.

I guess I was in the right place at the
right time.

That's great.

Well, you can tell your client that
it'll be a nice, quiet neighborhood from

on.

And bad enough I got to go to the school
where he teaches, but he thinks he can

run my life. I don't want to go to
college.

I want to do my music.

How many counselors do I have to
convince?

I'm convinced.

You are?

Yes.

The ability to touch someone's life with
music is a wonderful gift.

It's as if there's a golden thread
between you and the audience, and you

their emotion, and you give back your
own.

Yeah. No one wants to discourage your
dream, Sarah.

We want to help you expand them.

Do you know how many famous musicians
have gone to college and still made

Dexter Holland from The Offspring, he
has a doctorate.

And Rivers Cuomo from Weezer, he's going
to Harvard.

I can't believe you know about The
Offspring and Weezer.

I know a lot of things that might
surprise you.

I know that you could focus all of your
energy on your band, and it's possible

that you might achieve some degree of
fame.

But the people who combine their gifts
with education, they can have influence,

not just fame.

And that's real power.

Whatever you said to her, it must have
worked. I haven't seen her smile like

that in a long time.

No, I just encouraged her to follow her
dream.

Monica, you were supposed to encourage
her to go to college.

It is my job to help your daughter
discover what is best for her.

And what that is might just surprise the
both of you.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have another
student waiting.

I rented that house across the street.

I thought you were quitting.

I'm working on it.

I see.

So, in the meantime, I get to be the bad
guy.

I'm the one who gets to say to our
daughter, you shouldn't smoke, you

play your music so loud.

Especially when you don't like it.

You're right, I don't like it.

I think she's much too smart, too
talented, too terrific to be wasting her

on a lot of...

Where is she anyway? Upstairs studying?

No.

Rehearsing. Rehearsing? Where?

Across the street.

Hello, baby. My name is Tess.

Hey, Dad.

Check out our new studio.

Yeah. It's, um... It's quiet.

Soundproofing.

Hmm. Because I like somebody's music
doesn't mean everybody does.

You mean you actually like this?

Oh, I like all music. It's the language
of the angels.

Shakespeare? Buddy Holly.

Hmm.

Can I do something for you?

I guess not.

Just wanted to make sure that sir wasn't
giving you any problems.

No problem at all.

You have a good night, man.

Thanks.

You too.

Let's run it again.

The support, the cool rehearsal space.

This is really great of you, Pat.

Well, I have my moments.

I know, but you didn't even flinch when
my dad came in here.

I mean, that's really cool.

You have a problem with your father?

It's just the usual dad stuff.

We have nothing in common, and he
basically hates everything that I do.

You have nothing in common at all?

Well, we both love music.

different kind.

When I was a kid, he used to call me to
come sit on his lap.

Right before I go to bed, he would sing
to me.

But I'm just not daddy's little girl
anymore.

Don't be so anxious to grow up.

The day will come when you'll be very
happy to be daddy's little girl.

Okay, not bad.

Not bad at all.

Why don't we try one more?

Oh, hi.

Hi. I just came to hear the choir.

Great. Welcome.

All right, gang, we have an audience, so
let's do it again.

Let's take it from the solo.

And...

This day I shall no more.

Do you see what you're doing to
yourself?

What are you talking about?

You smoke too much. You have got to
stop.

Dad, don't do this.

I'm not here.

All right, fine.

Go see the nurse.

What's she going to tell me, Dad? Switch
to menthol?

Well, you're no good to me here if you
can't sing.

Gee, thanks.

Molly, why don't you take this solo?

Sarah?

Would you like to talk?

Sarah, the nurse's station is this way.

The choir sounds wonderful.

Oh, thank you.

They're good kids. I'm really proud of
them.

I was in a choir once.

Only once?

I was asked to leave.

Really? Why is that?

I wasn't any good.

I've been told that I have two left
vocal cords.

But Sarah has a beautiful voice.

Yeah.

She's not just a singer, you know.

She's a gifted pianist.

She composes music.

She's a natural.

But she's wasting it all on a rock band.

She's doing what she loves to do.

I guess so.

Who taught her how to sing and play the
piano?

I did.

When you give someone a gift, is it fair
for you to tell them how they should

use it?

Excuse me.

The school nurse called today.

She's concerned about you.

She's worried you might have bronchitis.

Well, I set up a doctor's appointment
for you tomorrow.

I don't need to go to the doctor.

Dammit, Sarah, you're still my child.
You still live under this roof.

And you're going to the doctors if I say
you're going to the doctors. End of

story.

You shouldn't do that.

Terrible habit.

Hello?

I would give anything to be able to go
back and never start smoking.

But I can't.

Life doesn't work that way.

Now, I have two choices. I can either
keep going like I've been going,

or I can try to make a change.

I think it's time for a change.

Yeah.

How are we going to change dad?

Oh, he loves us so much.

It can't be easy.

Is this really necessary?

When did your throat start hurting you?

I don't know.

Off and on, but it felt okay today.

There's a lot of irritation down there.

I'm going to do a throat culture and a
few other tests, okay?

It's probably bronchitis again, right?

Well, I don't know. It's hard to say
right now.

Hey, maybe it's mono.

Well, that would be the end of the
boyfriend thing.

You a smoker?

Not really.

Kind of.

I'm going to quit.

Oh, nice.

Wow, thanks.

There's more where this came from if you
run out, okay?

Hey. Hey.

We were waiting for you.

Sarah, you've been to see a doctor?

It's no big deal, Tess.

Just a little leprosy.

So, what's up with this emergency
meeting?

Yeah, what's up?

Okay, um, you know Bumper Dorman, that
DJ in WIXB?

Yeah, what about him?

I made MP3s of our songs and emailed
them to him. And what'd he say?

He loves them.

And he hooked us up with a spot on the
bill at the Retro Club this Friday.

Are you serious?

Yeah. You got a real club date?

Yeah. And if he likes our set, he's
going to give us some airtime, some

label hears us. I mean, we're on our
way.

Awesome. Fine.

I can't believe this is actually
happening.

Well, the new drywall manufacturing
plant has brought a lot of people into

community. Of course, guys who...

Make drywall, don't buy a mansion.

Yeah, but sales are up.

Yeah.

Real estate is really the only thing you
can count on nowadays.

Hey. Hey, Mom.

Hi, Andrew. Hi.

So we booked a gig at the Retro Club
tonight.

The Retro Club.

So, you need to come.

Thanks. Thanks. I'd love to. They say
that if we pack the whole place out,

they're going to pay us a hundred bucks.

Wow.

I got it.

Don't let her force you into going to
this thing if you don't want to.

No, I'd like to go.

Hello. Well, a doctor who makes house
calls. That's rather unusual.

Yes, I know. I just really wanted to
speak with you right away.

You have the results of the test?

And there are a few things that concern
us.

What? Well, on one of the tests, we
found some unusual cells,

and there were some spots on her vocal
cords.

You mean like really bad strep or
something?

No, actually, it strongly indicates
throat cancer.

Richard, this is Gloria. She is a new
specialist at the clinic.

We have a problem.

Okay.

Sarah may have throat cancer.

Oh, my God.

What?

Sarah? She's only 17.

It happens.

It's more likely to occur when a smoker
is older, but it's not unheard of in

teenage smokers.

Throat cancer.

What do we do now?

Well, first of all, you need to know
that throat cancer is treatable.

And if it's caught early enough, the
prognosis for beating it is very good.

But right now, there's a lot about your
case that we don't know, Sarah.

I'd like to admit you into the hospital
tomorrow.

They'll send a scope down for a closer
look, find the cancer, where it's

and biopsy whatever looks questionable.

The spots on my vocal cords.

Does that mean... If the cancer is
there, your vocal cords

may have to be removed.

But that's not for sure yet.

Mom. Oh, honey.

Sarah, we'll do whatever it takes.

We'll beat this, I promise.

For now, the best thing you can do is
not strain your voice.

If there is a tumor on your vocal cords,
we don't want it to rupture. That could

be very dangerous.

So, I'll see you tomorrow morning at
seven.

I'll meet you in admitting.

And then they'll take you upstairs.

I'll see myself out.

We're going to get through this.

Sweetheart, I'll help you pack for the
hospital.

And why don't we rent a movie?

No.

The concert's tonight.

Obviously, you can't go now.

I have to go.

It's important.

I don't care how important you think it
is.

Big surprise.

Honey.

Gloria said it would be very dangerous
to strain your voice like that.

Mom, if they remove my vocal cords, I
won't have a voice. You do understand

that, don't you?

I can't sing without vocal cords.

Oh, honey.

What if this is my last chance? It won't
be.

You don't know that.

If you don't let me go, I'll never know.
I'll never know if I was good enough.

The band's been waiting, and Ty worked
so hard.

Sarah, if Ty really cares about you,
he'll understand.

There are more important things right
now.

Fine.

I'll call.

I'll be up in a minute, sweetheart, to
help you pay.

I can do it myself.

We have to leave at 6 .30 to get there
on time.

There shouldn't be much traffic.

I'll call Andrew and ask him to cover my
closing tomorrow.

It wasn't so long ago that she was
sitting here on my lap and I was singing

to her.

And she was so little.

And so...

Happy.

How did this happen?

Hi. Hello, I'm Monica. I'm from Sarah's
school.

Oh. Come in, please. Thank you.

Hello. Hello.

Sarah stopped by my office yesterday.
She wanted some scholarship

She said that she'd given it some
thought.

Wants to keep her options open.

Really?

Well, she's a smart girl.

That was nice of you to bring them by.

There's one in particular I thought
would be very good for her.

It's from the Indiana Arts Council.

But it needs to be there by Monday
morning, so I was... Hoping that she

sign it tonight.

Uh, sure.

Sure, she's right upstairs.

I'll get her.

The timing couldn't be better, Monica.

Sarah?

Monica's here, honey.

What do you

think,

Mr. Dorman?

Good!

Looks like she's hurting.

we wouldn't be here if it weren't for
those damn things.

I know.

I've been telling you for years.

Look, if you're trying to blame me for
this, believe me, I am way ahead of you.

But I don't think right now is the time
to talk about it. No, I want to talk

about it right now.

Sarah started smoking because of you.
You made it okay.

Now she has cancer.

Stop it, Richard.

I've been trying to stop it for years,
but you wouldn't listen. You wouldn't do

anything. You just made excuses.

What's your excuse now, Paula?

Oh, God.

Oh, my God. Please help me.

Paula?

How long have you been standing there?

Long enough.

It's true.

It is my fault.

Because you smoke?

It's a hell of an example to set for
your kid, isn't it?

Paula, Sarah doesn't need your guilt
right now. She needs your strength.

What strength?

Look at me.

I am the weakest person I know.

You don't have to be.

What does that mean?

I heard you cry out to God for help.

And you have to decide if you really
meant it.

Because he's ready to give it to you if
you're ready to receive it.

Why is it taking so long?

I'm sure that they're being very
thorough.

I just can't stand this waiting.

Excuse me for saying it so, Richard, but
there seems to be a lot of things that

you can't stand.

I don't know what you're talking about.

Well, you have a problem with the way
that Paula behaves?

I have a problem with her smoking, yes.

And you don't like the music that your
daughter plays?

It's not music. It's bouncy noise.

It's joyful noise.

And it pleases God very much.

God.

Give me a break.

I'll give you more than that.

I'll give you a message from God.

I'm an angel.

What?

I'm an angel. God sent me here to help
you.

Please don't take her.

Excuse me?

Please don't take my little girl.

I didn't come here for your child.

She's not going to die.

No, she's going to live.

But she's never going to sing again, at
least not with her voice.

But she can with her spirit if you help
her find a way.

Help her to find a new voice, Richard.

She needs your hope, your prayers.

She needs to know that no matter what
happens, she'll always be your little

girl.

She will always be my little girl.

Then let her know.

And forgive her for her weaknesses as
God forgives you for yours.

God loves you so much, Richard. He's
blessed you with a wonderful family.

Please, don't push them away.

Maria, how bad is it?

They need to get her into surgery
immediately.

Can we see her?

Not quite yet. She's still being
prepped.

Hello, baby.

Tess?

What are you doing here?

What if I said I was an angel?

Yeah, right.

What if I told you I know the joy of
raising your voice in song?

That's all over for me now.

You can still make a joyful noise unto
the Lord.

You can still make music with whatever
instrument you have.

Praising God who turns those little
notes into the most beautiful sounds and

joyful noises you can ever think of.

I know this is going to be hard for you,
Sarah.

But God who gave you music,

God who made music, God who is music,

has a brand new song for you, baby.

Really?

And it's more beautiful than you can
even imagine.

I'm sorry, I didn't know. I never would
have let her sing.

I know, son.

Is she going to be okay?

I don't know.

They're prepping her for surgery.

Would you tell her that Bumper Dorman,
that DJ,

thought she was great?

Yeah. Yeah, sure, I'll tell her.

Hey, do you mind if I wait around?

No, why don't you, sweetheart? I'm sure
she'd love that.

You've been out there all this time?

I was finishing my cigarette.

My last one.

Well, that's great.

Paula?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, too.

No.

I shouldn't have said what I said.

What you said was true.

It was just hard to hear it, that's all.

I guess the truth of it is... Well, you
shouldn't have heard it that way from

me.

Let's go see our little girl.

Hi.

I need a few more papers signed.

I'll do it.

You go ahead.

I'll just... I'll be there in a minute.

I heard you sing tonight.

You sounded great.

Ty wanted me to tell you that Bumper
Dorman thought so, too.

Well, at least now I know.

It's not over, Sarah.

Gloria said I'll not lose my voice.

Well, we'll just have to find you a
different kind of voice.

There are a lot of ways to make music.

Yeah, that's what I hear.

We're going to get through this.

By the grace of God.

They're ready for you, honey.

Daddy, I'm scared.

Hush, little baby, don't say a word.

Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird.

And if that mockingbird don't sing...

You're going to buy me a diamond ring.

Daddy's going to buy you a diamond ring.

If that diamond ring turns red, daddy's
going to buy you a sucking glass.