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Another mosquito.

You know, I thought that camping was supposed to be fun.

It is. Take it over New York right now.

Yeah.

Are you headed to New York, then?

Yeah, tough case.

Got a depressed securities executive. He wants to quit his job and run a little

coffee wagon in Central Park.

Coffee?

Primo Colombian.

I love New York.

Energy, the excitement.

I've had some fascinating assignments there. It's okay.

Personally, I'm kind of tired of the city life for a while.

Wouldn't it be lovely if we could... Switch assignments?

That would kill us.

Hey, an angel's an angel.

What's the difference?

You know, that's true. And she was saying to me just the other day that I

show more initiative in certain situations.

Her name's Max.

Made a bundle in the stock market, didn't make him happy.

I get it. Full bank account, empty soul.

You know, maybe I could... Come on, angel boy!

Come on!

Right up your alley.

Go on.

I'll take care of Tess.

Come on, angel boy. We don't want to miss the bus. I'm coming.

Tess, can an angel get a hernia? Oh, come on. Here they come now.

Where's Monica?

Raphael, what are you doing here?

Hold it, hold it.

Hey, baby.

Hey, baby!

What do you boys' buses get here? Boys' buses?

What in the world is Monica?

You know something you're not telling me.

Uh, well, it's like this.

I've kind of been the inner city angel recently, right? And Monica missed New

York? No. The coffee guy in Central Park, right?

Didn't think it mattered.

Does it?

Oh, no.

It doesn't matter.

It's just that the almighty God of the universe, he had a plan.

A little life or death situation in order to alter the course of human

And he expected it to be carried out, that's all.

Where did you get this?

When you walk down the road, heavy

burden, heavy load, I will rise

and I will walk with you.

I'll walk with you till the sun don't even shine.

Walk with you every time.

I tell you, I'll walk with you.

Walk with you.

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

Well, this just beats all.

Well, when I heard camp, I thought it was girls and boys camp.

No, you're typical, you know, camp.

There's nothing typical about this place, Raphael. Can we do this without

Monica? No, I'm going to get her sent back down here. And I go to New York.

you stay right here. I got plans for you.

Nikki, bring over the newbies.

Newbies carry our bags.

I said newbies carry our bags.

Carry your own bag.

Well, when you've been coming here for five years, then you can call the shots.

You should carry the stupid bag.

It might start trouble.

I'm a freaky -haired person.

Watch your sense of weather.

Oh, baby, like, two o 'clock.

I think better.

Yeah, right.

Seth, when are we going to tell Raphael?

When the right time comes.

Come on, ladies, no dawdling now. Come on.

All right, listen up.

See the towels on your bunk?

Fork them over. Newbies drip dry.

And you guys make our beds every morning and clean the bathroom.

Those are stupid rules.

Are you going to be a problem?

Because problems have a way of solving themselves in really ugly ways.

You know what? Who cares? Let them hog the room.

Just remember, this half is a newbie -free zone. And if we catch any of you

here, you'll pay. Oh, like I'm afraid of you?

Do I hear backtalk?

Nikki, tell us what happens to newbies who backtalk.

Now here's your clipboard and your schedule.

You got swimming at noon, archery at two, and at four o 'clock there's a camp

meeting. And remember, this case is all about being positive.

Lord knows I'm doing my best.

I just want to say I'm really sorry about this.

Raphael, God can make anything work.

And I have a feeling that he is going to take your terribly stupid...

idiotic, irresponsible error in judgment and turn it into something beautiful.

Have I made myself clear?

Yes, ma 'am. There's something else you need to know.

Those losers have a serious problem.

Use this often.

You totally destroyed this. Oh, my gosh. I'm so sorry.

I thought the deluxe thrift shop model came in the pre -trash look.

I have an idea.

Let's see how well the Italian leather flies. You better not!

Give it to me!

Hi.

Please, please tell me that you are our camp counselor.

Your counselor's on her way. Her name is Monica.

But for now, you got me.

We can live with that.

What's your name?

Um, Melanie.

Hi, Melanie. I'm Rafael.

Uh... Okay, so which one of you is Nikki?

Nikki is in the house.

Okay, you must be Erin, huh? In her dreams.

I'm Kim.

Hi, I'm... I'm Abby Fontaine.

Is there any chance of changing rooms?

No, nobody's going to be changing rooms.

We want to make this a summer that you will remember for the rest of your

You worry about the summer part.

We'll worry about the rest of our lives.

Uh, you must be Aaron.

All right, Nikki, good job.

How was I? Other than great? Oh, other than great. You were, uh, excellent.

Yeah. You're welcome.

I bet Andrew can save my life any day.

It's true, huh?

I didn't notice.

Yeah, right.

Hi.

Who are you and where's your suit?

I'm Erin and I don't swim.

You don't or you can't?

Look, I'm really going to get in there with all those people and splash around

like a loser.

Oh, okay.

So what if I could arrange a private lesson?

Would you try it?

Maybe.

Maybe is better than no.

Hey, I'm going to need a volunteer.

Bernie, how about you?

Me?

I never volunteer either. Come on up here. Those non -volunteers can hang

Now, CPR is a very valuable skill.

What could be more important than the ability to save somebody's life?

That's a beautiful bracelet.

My grandfather made it for me.

In Mexico?

In Mexico, yes.

Habla espanol?

I don't speak Spanish.

Well, that's too bad.

Such a beautiful language.

I wouldn't know.

Well, maybe I can help you find out.

Hi, my name is Tess. For those of you who I haven't met, I am the activities

director here at the camp.

We've got a talent show lined up, and we're going to sing, and we're going to

dance, and we're going to have plenty of fun.

I want to see how much spirit we have in the camp this year.

So when I say, have you got the spirit, I want to hear from you, okay?

Have you got the spirit?

What are you looking for?

Nobody.

Nobody. I thought his name was Andrew.

Shut up.

Now, I want to see how you use that spirit.

to sing the camp song.

If you don't know it, don't worry about it. It's very simple. Just listen.

You'll get it.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, clap your hands.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, clap your hands.

If you're happy and you know it and you're not afraid to show it, if you're

happy at Camp Sunlight, clap your hands.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, stomp your feet.

If you're happy at Camp Sunlight, stomp your feet.

Hey, you made it.

Look, I'm really sorry about all this.

How am I to tell?

Well, I wouldn't be asking for vacation time.

There's your group.

Thank you.

Another year of that stupid song.

Yeah, I leave now or I fall asleep.

Let's go.

Hi there, I'm Monica. I'm your new counselor.

Yeah, well, thanks for dropping in, Monica, but we're going to the face.

The face?

Whose face?

It's not a face.

It's a rock shaped like a face.

Yeah, we go there to hang out and paint names on it.

Names of the girls who were here last summer but didn't make it back this

summer. That sounds nice.

Yeah, real nice.

Girls, wait. If something is bothering you, you know, we could talk about it.

Listen, Monica, we've had bleeding heart counselors like you before.

You all think you know what's bothering us, but you don't.

See what I mean?

Tough crowd.

Hostile. Negative, too. I thought that being at camp was supposed to be a

positive experience.

Well, that's exactly right, baby.

That's the name of the game around here, positive.

Just like all these girls are positive.

They're HIV positive.

I thought they were just ordinary kids.

They are ordinary kids.

They have AIDS.

Well, not all of them.

Some of them just have the virus.

And then some of them, a few of them, have been showing symptoms of AIDS.

And then some of them, well, the friends they had last year didn't make it back.

It's no wonder Aaron is so angry.

Well, they're all angry and frightened.

And confused.

It's hard enough to be a teenager without all this.

I had no idea about any of this.

I'm sorry. You should be.

And here's the thing that you need to know most.

It doesn't matter that they're HIV positive up here.

I should think that it matters very much?

No, no, no.

No, no, I get it.

This is the one place where they can be just like everybody else.

Nobody stares at them.

Nobody's afraid of them. Why aren't there more angels at this camp? I mean,

shouldn't there be one in every room? There will be an angel in and out of the

lives of every girl in this camp.

But the girls in the Aspen room need angels now.

Because hope is dying in there.

And when you're hopeless, you're capable of doing anything.

Come on, Raphael, I got work for you.

Okay, so some of you will be taking medication twice a day and some three

but I guess you already knew that, huh?

Rafael is working down at the infirmary now and he wanted you to know that he'll

still be available to you for anything at all, even, you know, if it's just a

cut or a bruise.

Monica, have you ever been a camp counselor before?

No, but I have worked with a lot of young people.

Yeah, but did they ever die?

Yes. Some dead.

Last but not least.

There we go.

I'm going to return these to the infirmary, and when I get back, it's

lights out.

Okay?

Hey. Hi.

I missed you at the pool.

Well, I wasn't in the mood to drown today.

I'm not going to let anything happen to you.

You're too late. I'm already dying, and there's nothing anybody can do about it.

Tell me something, Aaron.

What do you think about dying?

What?

Well... No one's really come right out and asked me that before.

People like to pretend it's not really going to happen.

I'm not like most people.

I've been watching you.

Do I know you from somewhere?

Um...

Well, I do a lot of work at St. Sebastian's Hospital.

I've been in St.

Sebastian's. I knew I knew you.

And now we're here together at camp.

Wouldn't that be cool if it's like God's way of telling you something?

You know, Erin, I don't know what God's plan is.

But I do know this.

I know that you are a very beautiful young woman with a lot of life to live.

And I don't think you should spend so much time worrying about death.

There is so much research now. There's so much hope.

And look how long you've lived already.

Yeah, but even that's really scary now.

Why? I knew this one girl.

And one day, She was painting some dead girl's name on the face.

And then two weeks later, her own name was up there.

Well, it usually doesn't happen that quickly.

But it can.

And I'm so afraid that... I've never really told anyone

before that.

So tell me.

I'm afraid that... One night...

I'll be lying all alone in some hospital somewhere.

And my mom will have gone home.

And the nurses will be down the hall drinking their coffee or whatever.

And just like that, I'll die.

All alone.

You will not be alone.

Okay, roll call.

Amy Fields, Tracy Burke, Lisa Wittenauer, Susie Miller.

Why don't you put your name on the face now?

Everyone on there is dead, Aaron.

It just totally creeps me out to see your name on it.

But I'm not afraid of dying anymore.

What are you talking about?

You'll find out.

Melanie!

Hey.

Where are you going in such a hurry?

Um, I'm meeting Abby at the bar.

Okay.

Right after I put some ointment on that. Alright?

I bet you can.

I wish someone would touch me without those stupid gloves on.

I know.

Everybody's worried about your health.

And not about your heart.

It's hard to think like that.

That hurts.

I thought you didn't speak Spanish.

I guess I remember a little.

It's been a long time.

My mama, she spoke Spanish.

Not anymore?

She didn't know she was infected, and we were both infected.

She died when I was five, and after that, there was no more Spanish.

You must miss her very much.

She succinct me.

It was a Spanish lullaby.

There were words in it like, uh, niña linda.

Pretty baby.

I can't remember the song.

I can't remember her.

I just remember feeling safe.

I know some Spanish songs.

How about this? Was it a C?

How about a D?

I don't know.

It's hard.

Sounds nice, but it's not the song.

Just soak up the living, huh?

I can't do this. That's because you just did it. Keep that up.

Come on, Melanie.

Come on, Melanie.

Take it easy. Keep your eye on the ball.

Come on.

Yeah, I'm going to make it out fast so we can get out of here.

Erin, this game isn't over until it's over.

Monica, we're down 12 to nothing in the last inning. This game is over.

Oh, that's okay, Melanie. Don't worry about it. Come on, Melanie. It only

one to hit it.

Whatever.

You know, whether you win or lose, this game is not important.

But you learn to work together and support each other through difficult

That's what matters.

Ah,

that's okay.

All right, good try, Melanie.

Sorry. Don't worry about it.

Good try.

Come on, Kim, you can do it. Come on.

Let's just lie here so insane.

Like a nap would have really saved Kim's life.

Nobody said she was dead.

Make a mental note.

If you're coming back, they don't strip the bed.

Hey, great news.

The hospital telephoned and Kim seems to be holding her own.

I, um, I thought maybe we could start planning the talent show.

You know, there's a strong possibility Kim could be back in time to see it.

Yeah, and if we clap really hard, maybe Tinkerbell will come back to life.

I used to sing.

Maybe we could do a song for the show.

That's great.

You know, perhaps we could put new words to an old tune.

Do you all know she'll be coming round the mountain? It's a really rousing

melody. Oh, I could make costumes.

I don't do blimp wear.

But I do sing a little.

Hey, now you're talking.

She'll be singing stupid camp songs when she dies. Erin, please.

Everyone in this room is going to die at some time or other.

I don't know when, I don't know how, but I know that you owe it to yourself to

at least enjoy the time you've been given.

I want to help you, but it's up to you whether you let me do that.

If you need more feathers or beads, just holler out.

And if you need a swift kick in the behind, I can supply that also.

Abby, you got a phone call.

Okay.

I know, but just because Kim got sick doesn't mean I have to come home.

I'm fine here.

God, Mom!

You can't just lock me in my room until the day I die.

But I'm not dead yet.

And I'm not taking chances. I'm having fun.

Mom.

Do you know what that means?

Do you know what that means?

That means that we've got a whole day and a half to have fun.

Come on, we're going to make us fun. Don't cry, my darling. We're going to

us something pretty.

Some of these songs have me and Yolanda in it, but the other words aren't

familiar.

It's pointless.

My song died with my mom.

Melon. The words will come when you need them most.

Everybody says stuff like that.

Things will work out, Melanie. Things will be okay, Melanie.

I thought you were different.

I am.

People say things will be okay, but I know that they will.

See, Melanie, if you can find something as impossible to find as this forgotten

song, maybe you can find all the other things in your life that you thought

missing, too.

Once you've seen one miracle, you would be amazed at all of the others that you

start seeing.

Stupid song. It doesn't matter, just like everything else.

I give up.

Oh.

So, uh, this is what you wanted to show me?

Well, it wasn't easy, but you are always saying close your eyes and jump in.

I don't know what to say. I'm, um, I'm...

I'm very flattered.

But... But what?

You don't like me?

Aaron, I do like you. You know I like you, but you know you... You don't,

You don't understand.

Oh, I understand.

No one wants to love someone who's just gonna die.

That is not true.

You are a very, very special girl with a lot of love to give to somebody.

But not you, right?

There is someone out there for you.

And you'll meet him one day.

I don't have a lot of days left.

Please wait.

He's history.

Well, you needed a haircut anyway.

Do you want some help?

I guess we should paint Kim's name on there.

I bet Kim never thought that this summer would be our last.

I hate not knowing.

Yeah, me too.

We could know.

What are you talking about?

When we're gonna die.

We could know.

We could not.

We could too.

We could pick the time.

Pick the day.

No surprises.

Go out on our own terms.

You mean kill ourselves?

I mean we make a pact.

Take charge of our lives.

When?

Here at camp.

What are we waiting for?

We're just going to go home tomorrow and watch everyone watch you waiting to get

sick.

Are you crazy?

Think about it, Nick.

The only time we're ever really alive anymore is here at camp.

There's going to be a cure soon.

That's what they told Lisa Whitman.

And Tracy.

And Amy.

And Devin. And all the rest.

What if they do figure out a way to keep us alive a little longer?

What are we staying alive a little longer for?

I am so sick of all the looks and stares and the people that can't breathe

around me or shake my hand, let alone hug me or kiss me.

And the only people that really want to hug me are usually crying when they do.

I can't even dream of having a boyfriend.

I don't know about you, but... It kills me.

It kills me.

At least this way, I go my way.

Looking pretty good.

Feeling pretty good.

Where I want to be.

And I don't have to go alone.

And neither do any of you.

So who's with me?

You know, we'll talk about irony. We could actually kill ourselves with the

stupid pills that are supposed to keep us alive.

Sort of.

How?

We can do it. We just combine the right medications and we make a killer

cocktail.

I mean, I've already downloaded the recipe into my journal.

You've been holding out on us. No.

I've tried to do it a thousand times, but I just kind of chickened out, you

know?

Yeah, well, who wants to die alone?

None of us.

That's the whole point.

No, I think now, with you guys, I might actually be able to do it.

Melanie, have you decided yet?

I'm still thinking.

It's not an easy decision.

Yeah, well, what's easier, living like this?

It's not about easy or hard. It's about what's right.

I want to do the right thing.

What you want is a miracle, and they don't happen anymore.

Go ahead and wait for one if you want. Just don't rat us out.

You know, if I'm going to do this, I have stuff I've got to do first.

Oh, I'm going to wear my white linen dress and my white platform sandals.

You know, we can leave a note or a letter, something totally memorable.

Okay, now, we have access to all the pills for the cocktail, but first we've

to get by Raphael.

That won't be a problem.

Melanie, isn't your rash bothering you again?

Not really.

Oh, I think it is.

Hey. Um, I think my rash is coming back.

All right, let's try some more ointment.

Come on into the examining room, and we'll take a look.

It'll take about two weeks to clear it up, all right?

All right, so I'll see you

in the morning.

I'm sorry about what I said to you about the song.

I was wondering, did you happen to find it?

Not yet.

Still looking.

Someday.

Sure.

What? You look good.

You always said I was a...

Freaky -haired geek with no style.

Yeah, well, I'm sorry I said all that stuff.

You look beautiful.

We all look beautiful.

Okay, okay.

Oh, God.

I really don't want to do this.

Don't lose hope, my friend.

We brought a miracle.

It's a little one, but it might be enough.

Don't you hear it?

What are you doing?

Baby will always be taken care of by its mom.

I never thought I'd hear it again.

It's a miracle.

I can't do this.

Fine.

She's out. Any other chickens here?

Now we have to hurry before she rats on us all.

Where's that light coming from?

It's from heaven.

I'm an angel.

Sent by God to be with you at this moment.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

So God really is up there?

God is here, and he loves you, and he wants you to live.

But only you have the power to make that choice.

Your life is a gift from God, but he can't live it for you.

But you don't know what it's like, Monica.

No one lets us have a life.

All we are is a disease.

And we're tired of it. But you made a pact to be together, and God wants you

keep it.

Our pact was to die.

God has a plan for your life.

There is a reason for you to be living.

And if you take your own life too soon, then you'll never know. You'll never

find out what that reason is.

Each one of you has a reason to be living.

Living with, not dying from, AIDS.

But what if I'm more scared of living than I am of dying?

No, Erin.

Every single human being wakes up every single morning not knowing whether

they're going to live or die that day.

But I do.

And today is not your day.

Why doesn't he just make us better?

Yeah, why can't that be the plan? I know this is hard for you to understand.

Many people don't like to hear it, and most people can't accept it, but I want

you to try, just for a moment, please.

God is able to heal everything and everyone.

He made your bodies, and he can heal your bodies from disease.

But your bodies were created to be the temples of something much more precious

than physical life.

Your spirit.

The true you, the souls of Nicky and Abby and Aaron. That's where the real

is to be found, and that's what God wants to heal today.

He's so sorry and so sad that this terrible disease may take you from the

one day.

But nothing, nothing will ever take you from God.

On this side you have death.

And on this side you have life.

And God wants you to choose life, Aaron.

Nikki, that's okay. Not just die alone.

No.

It doesn't matter for me, Aaron.

I already have lymphoma.

I'm not going to be here next summer.

Nikki, why didn't you tell me?

Because you need another sad goodbye.

Aaron, you've been a leader in death.

Now be a leader in life.

Nikki, you can't die now.

None of us can.

Because someday there's going to be a cure.

And we'll all be here when they do find one.

You can fight lymphoma.

It'll be rough, but I'll help you.

But you've got to try.

Because you're my best friend.

I don't know if we'll ever see another angel here on Earth.

But at least we know that they'll be there.

When God says it's time to go.

An

angel?

Yep.

So... Has God mad at me?

No.

God loves you.

I almost did it.

Then I heard the word.

Why did I remember the word?

Your mother wanted you to hear them again.

She did?

Your mother's love is always with you.

You just have to let yourself feel it. It hurts.

Too much.

It hurts more to forget.

Yeah, and I heard there was a pretty big one out there on the face tonight, too.

Oh, yeah, I mean the big light show, special effects.

Well, tonight's been full of surprises, and I've got one of my own.

Look at this.

If nobody says anything, I'm going to start to cry.

Come here.

What if Kim came back?

And we were gone.

Then I guess we made the right choice.

I guess we did.

She lives!

It's totally me!

Why did Melanie want to do this outside?

So God could have the best seat in the house.

And that he has, baby.

song that my mother used to sing to me when I was scared.

It was her song of hope.