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What do you suppose God had in mind when he created cars, Seth?

Well, I want to say hamburgers, but I don't think that's the right answer.

Hey, God. Jimmy.

Yes? I'm going into town.

Mom gave me this major list of things to do.

Want to come along and help me out?

I'd better stay with Gladys.

Gladys isn't going to drop that calf for a few hours yet. She'll be fine.

Well, can we stop at the arcade?

Uh -uh.

I need you here, remember?

Yeah. Oh, well.

Hey, mister, how about fried chicken tonight?

Is it Saturday already?

Ouch, I'm not that predictable.

Want to bet?

Sorry, pal.

See you later.

Bye. See you, Dad.

Okay. Your dad ought to be gone a couple hours, but we got a lot to do, or his

surprise party isn't going to be much of a surprise. Start blowing.

Okay.

Don't run off.

Okay.

Hey, Gladys.

Dad says it's going to be a few more hours.

I got to go blow up some balloons.

See ya.

Yeah. She's right here.

The doctor's office.

Oh.

Thanks. Okay.

Hi, Molly Avery.

The doctor wants Molly to come in for a biopsy.

Oh, dear.

Cancer, huh?

You just can never tell what the day will bring.

with you.

I'll walk with you till the sun don't even shine.

Walk with you every time I tell you I'll walk

with you.

Believe me, I'll walk with you.

Well, I guess I know what I'm doing here now. Oh, you do, huh?

I've been down this road before, Ted.

Cancer.

It's a hard way to go home.

Well, there are a lot of ways to go home, baby.

And this party may not be the only surprise that's happening here today.

Is that why you're here?

Yes.

Look, I know it's not in your job description.

Wrangler, fence mender, party planner. I'm your guy.

Well, if we want to make this thing a surprise, we better get a move on. I

Jordan enough to keep him busy for a couple hours, but that's not much time.

John and Tom are bringing the cake. I'm going to fry chicken.

Hey, Molly. Mm -hmm?

How about that phone call if you want to talk about it?

Poor Jordan. He thinks that turning 40 is a tragedy.

Hey, listen to me.

Women survive breast cancer all the time.

Not in my family.

When I was Jimmy's age, I lost my grandma.

The year before I married Jordan, I watched my mama go.

Oh, God, it's happening to me.

Shh.

You just got some scary news.

That's all.

This doesn't mean anything until you go into that biopsy.

I've been waiting for that phone call my whole life.

You're back so soon.

Are you kidding?

Took me three hours to track down all that stuff.

What's wrong with regular vinegar? All of a sudden you gotta have balsamic?

Leave it in the truck and come here and give me a hand, will ya?

You okay?

Look at all these sheets.

You've washed them a thousand times. They just get dirty again.

What's the point?

Well, they do come in handy sometimes.

I thought you promised you wouldn't make a big deal out of it. I did.

But I just couldn't resist.

Happy birthday, cowboy.

I'll be taking requests all night.

What about the funeral march?

Oh, the big four -oh. It's all over now.

Happy birthday.

Glad you were born.

Well, that makes one of us.

Oh.

All right.

Come on.

Happy birthday, Jordan.

Give me a break, Tom.

No more songs with the words old in them.

You know what? Just between me and you, I didn't come here for your party. I

came for Molly's chicken.

Where is Molly?

Has she told him yet?

No. I wish she would. It might make all the difference.

Come on.

Come on. Come on.

Go show them how it's done.

Donna looks happy.

You know, for a second there, I was having a high school prom flashback.

Yeah, you wish.

She's mine now. I'm hanging on the best I can.

We're going to give it another try.

Good for you.

I still can't dance.

You look good.

Glad you could make it.

How could I miss this?

Didn't I promise to be around for your 40th a long time ago?

And a galaxy far, far away.

Yeah, Ford Galaxy 500 that's still in thunderblocks behind your daddy's barn.

I'm glad you're still around.

Even though things didn't work out the way we thought they would.

A lot of water under the bridge.

Am I allowed to give the birthday boy a hug?

Hey, you two, break it up.

Got ice cream coming through here.

It's a great party, Molly.

Yeah. Yeah?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Dad, Mom, it's happening.

Let's go, hurry up. All right. It's happening, Dad. Okay, hold your

Come on.

Got a breach here.

All right. Let's try it again on three, all right? Okay.

Ready? One, two, three.

We did it.

We really did it.

Yes. You're beautiful.

I'm going to name him Hannibal, Dad.

Now, don't get ahead of yourself, son, all right?

This calf's pretty weak.

He might not live long enough to need a name. But he's got to live.

I'll make sure he does.

You don't know what it takes.

Jordan, I'll do whatever I can.

No. I want my son to learn to face the fact.

Some things are meant to live, and some things are meant to die.

I'm sorry, Jordan. I just knew that your 40th was a real milestone for you, and

I wanted to do something that you'd always remember.

Mm -hmm.

Hey.

Nothing will overtop it.

Happy birthday.

He gave it a good shot, but he conked out about ten minutes ago.

Upstairs. Yeah, but wait a minute.

I'm going out to the bar and check on Jeff.

All right. I'm just going to put this load in the washing machine.

Okay.

Jordan, I love... You.

Hmm.

No. No.

lost him a thousand times.

He'll just get dirty again.

What's the point?

We're on our way. We'll be there in a few minutes, honey.

Happy birthday, Jordan.

Glad you were born.

Well, that makes one of us.

Andrew.

You did the best you could do.

Yeah.

And I guess that wasn't good enough.

I thought it was going to be Molly.

All you've known for the past three months is that death was a possibility

this family.

But the truth is, death is always a possibility.

And you never know what choice a human being is going to make that's going to

take them one step closer to it.

And Jordan decided to take that step. Ted, he must have been thinking about

a long time before it happened, and I didn't see it.

Andrew, no one can look into someone's heart except the Father.

And God did that.

And that night, when it was time to talk to Jordan's heart, the Father sent you.

Yeah.

I'm afraid he did.

Andrew.

Take care of Molly.

I'd like to stay for the memorial service before I have to go.

Of course, baby.

Must have taken it out during the party.

You know, I thought about doing it myself the other day.

After the doctor called?

Yeah.

For one brief moment, I just saw down the road this horrible future

where I was going to die.

I just wanted it all to be over.

You thought about it. You didn't do it.

You stopped.

So why didn't he?

What did Jordan see down his own road that were so terrible?

I mean, my husband comes home, he eats his birthday cake, dances with his wife,

washes the dishes, and then goes out to the barn and shoots himself.

People don't just do that for no reason, do they, Andrew? I mean...

Do you have any idea why he did this?

They're here.

Jimmy?

It's almost time for the memorial service.

You got a new tie here.

Want me to help you with it?

How's Hannibal doing?

He's hanging in there.

Is he going to die?

I want my son to learn to face the fact.

Some things are meant to live and some things are meant to die.

All right.

Let's see.

You know, my dad said that some things are meant to live and some things are

meant to die.

That's right.

He wanted me to know that.

Everything lives and everything dies, just a matter of when.

Well, I'm not going to let Hannibal die.

We're going to do everything we can to make sure that doesn't happen.

In the meantime, I asked a vet to come in to keep an eye on him.

Hello, Jimmy.

My name is Monica.

Hi.

We'll call us any time, honey.

And when you're ready, when you come down to the bank, we'll look over the

accounts and things, okay?

Yeah, okay.

Well, I... I'm really sorry.

Tom, you spent a lot of time with him at the party.

What did you talk about? I mean, did he say anything?

We just talked about stuff.

The farm, me and Donna getting back together.

Last year's grain prices.

But not next year's.

No.

I'm so sorry.

Excuse me. I can't stand

out here anymore, Andrew.

I'll be in the house.

It'll be hard to say goodbye, Tess.

The father doesn't want you to say goodbye yet.

What good could I possibly do here now? Well, let's just see what good he can

do.

Hey.

How you doing?

I have turned his desk upside down.

I can't find a note. Shouldn't there be a note?

Don't think about why.

Just think about how to live and schedule that biopsy.

No, I can't. Not now.

Don't you get it, Andrew? For some reason, somehow, my husband just lost

will to live. And if I can't figure out why, then how am I going to find my own?

Who is that?

It's a friend of mine. Her name is Monica.

She's a vet.

You know, the calf's pretty important to Jimmy now, so I thought maybe she could

give us some help.

It's a good idea.

Thanks.

You have to eat, Hannibal.

Don't you want to grow up?

You know, you've had a very difficult few days.

Don't you want to go outside and play or take a walk?

Maybe change your clothes.

No. This is my job.

Hannibal's in good hands.

Do you mind if I stay for a while, too?

Come on, Hannibal. You have to eat.

Molly?

Andrew's not here. He went into town.

Yes, I know. Actually, it was you that I wanted to talk to.

Talk away.

You know, Hannibal's not doing very well.

Well, Hannibal's a cow.

Yes, and for me, there's a little boy that just lost his father.

He doesn't seem to be processing that. Instead, he's focusing all his energy on

Hannibal.

Look, Monica, I understand what you're trying to say, but right now, focusing

something else, well, I don't think that's such a bad thing.

Monica and I are going to put some dinner together.

Hey.

You okay?

At least this is okay.

Yeah.

What is that I guess it's one of your earrings no, it's not mine

Donna This

is Donna's earring in our

bedroom

We just talked about stuff.

And Donna didn't back together.

That's right.

Donna and Tom just got back together.

Well, I guess we know now who broke them up in the first place.

Molly, that's a really big leap.

No. He loved her back in high school. I always wondered if it was ever really

over. Well, I guess it wasn't.

Until Jordan decided to end it.

Hey, Molly.

It's just an earring.

Oh, no. It's not just an earring. It's an answer.

Molly, even if that is Donna's earring, it's a secret. I should have known. She

was his prom date.

First love.

Bank manager's office.

Yes, I'll hold.

Andrew, you should talk to her.

You're the one who was there.

How else would she know what happened in the barn that night?

How is that going to help her now?

Her husband is dead, she may have cancer, and an angel of God comes and

I'm sorry, I blew it.

I don't believe that. I do.

Can you give her a message?

Tell her Molly called, and I want her over here right now.

I mean now.

Come on, Hannibal.

Sunshine's supposed to be good for you.

Excuse me.

What'd you do that for? I thought you might like to have a picture of you and

Hannibal.

To me.

Andrew!

I need your help!

Upstairs!

You were with him when I wasn't around. You must have seen him together.

No. Not the way you mean.

Men, you always stick together.

Molly, I know that you're looking for answers here, but what you need to be

doing is going in for that biopsy.

I want you to take all of this stuff to the Salvation Army.

I want it all gone.

Hi.

I got your message.

No. No.

Don't think about putting one foot in this house.

What are you doing? Does this look familiar to you?

Is that my earring? Don't play that game. I found this right where you left

in my bedroom.

How could you do this? How could you have an affair with my husband?

Jordan and me? Are you crazy? No, I'm just stupid.

Molly! Andrew!

You stay out of this.

I should have seen this years ago.

Jordan always loved you, but he was too much of a coward to leave me and Jimmy.

He found out that you and Tom were getting back together, and he couldn't

living without you.

Oh, my God.

You think this is why Jordan killed himself.

No, Molly, you're wrong. That did not happen.

Yeah, the evidence tells a different story. The evidence doesn't tell any

at all.

But believe me, Molly, I have tried to find a reason to.

That's why I brought you copies of everything I have at the bank.

Do you know what? There are no answers here.

There weren't any financial problems, no unpaid bills, no secret accounts. The

fact is, Jordan even paid the mortgage a few months in advance.

Look, he obviously thought this out.

He knew exactly what he was doing.

Why should I believe a word that you say?

I have been in your bedroom a million times.

With you, for goodness sake. I lost that earring months ago.

Look, I am sorry that Jordan did this. And I am sorry that you are in pain. And

I am sorry that you don't have an answer. But you are not going to do this

just so you can have one.

You be careful, honey.

You're losing it.

Jimmy, if you're not hungry, you can go upstairs and get ready for bed.

No, I'm not going to go to bed.

I'm going to stay out in the barn with Hannibal.

When they lose the boss.

Well, I'm very sorry, but I still want you to stay in the house.

You don't even care.

You never come out to the barn to visit him.

Well, I'm not going to leave him alone in there when he needs me. Maybe if Dad

wasn't alone out there, he wouldn't have died.

You're running out of time, Andra.

Hey.

Hey.

You know, I think it would mean a lot to Jimmy if you went in and said

goodnight.

I...

I haven't actually been in there.

But you know, your son's in there.

And he's alone.

I'm going out to the barn.

What

is

it? You were there, weren't you?

You were in the barn before he... You talked to him and then you came back,

didn't you?

Didn't you?

Why didn't you tell me that you were with Jordan in the barn before he shot

himself? Because it's not going to change anything. It's not going to take

your pain. I want to know what he said.

No, you don't.

Believe me, you don't.

my house and don't come back until you're ready to tell me the truth.

Andra?

Monica, don't.

I can't bear it. So you're worrying about how you're going to feel?

Molly needs to hear the truth.

And yes, it's going to be hard.

Angels have free will too. You don't have to do this.

But I know that you will.

Because you're a servant of God before you're a servant of your own heart.

That's how you were made.

And that's the difference between humans and angels.

Maybe Donna's right.

Maybe I'm losing it.

No.

You're not losing it.

I saw you out there.

I know.

I don't understand any of this.

There's a lot about this I don't understand either.

And I'm sorry that it's taken me so long to come to you with the truth.

Sometimes, though, even an angel can lose his way for a while.

An angel?

Yes.

Oh, my God. And you were there?

Yes.

I'm going to tell you what happened that night. Everything that I know.

After I put Jimmy to bed, I was told that I needed to go out to the barn, and

I didn't know what I would find when I got there.

Jordan?

Is everything all right?

Look at that calf.

Struggling to survive.

Trying to beat the odds.

Why?

What's the point?

Everyone struggles to survive at one point or another.

And most do.

As long as they don't give up hope.

I assume that you didn't bring that gun out here to put Hannibal down.

Don't assume you know anything about me, Andrew.

You haven't been around here long enough to judge me.

It's not my place.

Or my job to judge you.

What is this?

I'm an angel.

What do you suppose to appear after I pull the trigger?

God sends angels whenever they're needed.

And he sent me here now because he doesn't want you to pull the trigger.

Yeah, well, if only it were that simple.

It is that simple, Jordan.

God loves you, and he wants you to live.

I don't know what you're going through right now, Jordan.

And I don't know why you think killing yourself is the answer.

But I do know this.

God is extending his hand to you to help you find the courage and the strength

to carry on, to survive this moment, and then you move on to the next one.

Why?

What's so great about the next moment?

Or the next one?

Or the next 40 years of moments?

I celebrated my 40th birthday today, Andrew.

What do I have to show for it?

Truth is, if I never existed, it wouldn't make the slightest bit of

You were born for a reason.

Now that reason may not be very clear to you today. It may not be very clear to

you tomorrow.

But your creator,

The God who put you here, he knows why.

You're a farmer, Jordan.

You know how long it takes sometimes to harvest the seeds you plant in this

life.

And look at what you've grown so far.

You have a wonderful son.

You have this successful ranch.

You've got lifelong friends who really care about you.

And you have a truly...

loving wife who needs you right now.

What are you talking about?

She didn't want to worry you.

Her doctor wants her to go in for a biopsy.

Why didn't she tell me?

She just found out today.

And she didn't want to ruin your birthday.

Yes.

You give me a lot to think about.

Don't thank me.

Thank the one who sent me.

Hey.

Is there a heaven?

Yes.

There is.

I thought I got through to him.

And I was wrong.

Molly, I understand your need.

For answers, because I've been trying to find them myself. What else could I

have done? What could I have said differently?

No, you're lying.

Everything you say is a lie.

Jordan knew I was in trouble. He never would have done this. He loved me. Yes,

he did. And he loved his son and he killed himself.

And I don't know why. And that has been torturing me until I remembered

something today.

God knows.

why Jordan made the choice that he made.

In the moments between the time that I left Jordan and he died,

God was there.

And whatever they shared during that time, that's between the two of them

And I'm just supposed to go on, hmm?

You know something, Molly? I've been an angel for a long, long time.

And you know what amazes me about people? It's not that a few of you can't

on. It's that almost every one of you does.

Despite this tough business of living, you get up every

morning and you start over again because there's this little voice inside of you

that says, hope.

And most of you still listen to it.

And the ones who don't, we have to release and return

to the hands of the Father.

For hope lives forever.

Is something going with Hannibal? No, Hannibal's okay.

I want to talk to you about your daddy.

No, listen to me.

Your daddy was a wonderful man.

But something happened to him that we may never

understand. Is it because of me?

No, absolutely not. Absolutely not. It had nothing to do with you.

You know, the truth is, everybody loses hope

sometimes.

But most of the time, we just lose it for a moment.

But for some reason, your daddy lost it.

For two moments.

And then three and four.

And pretty soon he was just so lost in the dark that he couldn't find

his way back to us.

Do you understand what I'm saying?

We've been through some hard times.

We may have some hard times coming.

Let me tell you something.

We are not going to lose hope.

We are going to hold on.

And we are going to ask God to give us the strength to get through whatever

comes, okay?

Okay.

Sure you have to go, Monica?

Yes, but you and Hannibal are going to be fine now.

Hey, Jimmy!

Hurry up!

Yeah. But you'll come visit, right?

Right.

Okay. See you.

Bye.

Bye, Andrew.

Bye -bye.

Take care of yourself.

Biopsy's pretty simple, they said.

And... We'll do whatever it takes after that.

See you, Andrew. See you, buddy.

Do angels ever, um... I mean, will I ever see you again?

I don't know.

What if I fry you up some chicken?

Well, then, you know, I might just have to come by some Saturday.

I have nothing for you. Nothing. Nothing.

They're just friendly creatures, Tess. Well, the flies certainly like them. Oh,

come on, Tess. Go make yourself a new friend. I don't need a new friend, but I

might need some new shoes after this.