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Tessa, I think I'm changing my mind about winter.

It's so cold and everything around here looks barren, like that dead tree. That

tree's not dead, baby.

It's still got plenty of life in it, just like that pile of trash you just

stepped over.

Go back.

Take a closer look.

It's a human being.

Lydia's a name, poor soul.

Bare trees, bare souls, they need nurturing and love.

Their souls are bare.

They're like trees without leaves.

They don't know if they're willow trees to give shade or if they're fruit trees

to bear fruit in the fall.

They don't know what kind of trees they are anymore.

Hey, lady, you want to buy a blanket?

No. Nine bucks.

She doesn't look as though she'll make it through spring.

That's why you're here, baby.

Now, I know you don't like the cold, but that nice little thing is going to go

through a hard winter before she can flower again.

And I'm going to go through it with her, right?

And now the window.

Lydia!

When you walk down the road,

heavy burden, heavy load,

I will rise and I will walk with you.

Till the sun don't even shine.

Walk with you.

Every time I tell you I'll walk with you.

Walk with you. Believe me, I'll walk with you.

And I'll go in the house.

Okay. There now.

You know, you're sick. You should see a doctor.

Get away.

I feel okay.

That's it. No more warnings. You are evicted.

Look, just a couple more days. I got a friend wiring me money from Cleveland.

Yeah, just like you had a friend wiring you money from Philadelphia.

This might be a flop house, but girl, you are floppier than most. Look what

you've done to my wall.

Both of you, out of here now.

Not absolutely necessary.

I'm her new roommate.

Would this cover it?

It'll do.

For now, but the first of the month's only a week away.

No problem. I got a new job.

Yeah, right.

We'll take care of it.

Did you paint this?

Yeah. It's marvelous.

You know, there are parts of heaven that look just like this.

What happened over here?

Who in the hell are you?

I'm sorry. I'm Monica.

I'm you around here.

And I was looking for a roommate.

Great timing, huh?

But you know...

If you and I are going to love together, we're going to have to spritz this

place up a bit.

What?

You know, fix it up.

Spritz it.

Because this place could do with a good spritzing.

That's sprucing up.

And don't touch anything.

What's this?

Food stamps.

If you're hungry, you can have them. Why don't you use them yourself?

I'm not into eating.

You're not into picking things up either.

This place could do with some elbow grease.

I don't know who you are or where you came from, but I don't need your

Don't worry about it. See this wee rug?

You know, it could be very pretty if it was cleaned up a bit.

I mean, all it needs is some fresh air, a good shaking out.

Relocate the wee bugs.

That should be as good as new.

Lydia?

Lydia?

Anybody in your family need a coat?

I got a coat here.

It's brand new. It's never been worn before.

Lydia, I know we're new friends, but I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't sell me a

coat.

You want to live with me here? You got to learn what it's like to make a

We can make a lot of money off of this coat.

You all right?

Yeah, I'm feeling a little queasy.

It'll pass. It always does.

How long has this been going on?

I don't know. I don't think about it.

You want to go inside and have a nice warm cup of tea?

No, no.

They don't want me in there again.

Do you know them?

Not anymore.

I know what I need.

Come on.

I'm going to get something.

What are you looking for? The key.

It's got to be around here somewhere.

Lydia, I don't think... Just shut up and wait.

Lydia?

Lydia?

You get in here.

Get that radio in the kitchen.

Lydia, let's go.

Please.

We forgot to get the gas.

It's going to need oil.

Yeah, I know.

Lydia.

Honey.

Honey?

We were so worried about you.

Yeah, where you been? Can't you at least call, tell us you're alive?

I've been busy working. I got a job at the cleaners.

I got a new job.

This is Monica.

She works with me.

Don't you?

Well, actually, we just came by to pick up some stuff, but we'll be back.

I thought you said you had a job.

Hi, Jim.

Is there a problem, officer? I'm sorry to bother you, sir.

Yeah, Mr. Coulter here reported seeing a young woman breaking into your

residence. That's her.

Lydia. Lydia?

And that you?

She wasn't breaking in. She's our daughter.

She forgot her cane, that's all.

I'm sorry about that.

You can send me the bill.

I gotta get back to work.

Bye. Thank you.

Good day, ma 'am.

Will, you stop making such a big deal about it. I was just going to borrow

money. You stole from your parents.

Get off my back. You don't know what it was like growing up with them. They

seemed like very nice people.

And everyone's nice until you need them.

Who's your friend?

My roommate. She's cool.

I'm going to go talk to Carl inside. You wait here.

It's a wee bit cool today, isn't it?

You want to watch TV with us?

I'd love to.

Do you know where Lydia is?

In the back room with my mommy. They're busy cooking.

Andrew.

Hi. Hi.

What are you doing here?

Well, I spend a lot of time in this house.

More time than I'd like to.

What do you mean?

You'll see.

You know, Lydia, she's a slippery character.

She tells me something and then it turns out not to be true.

Well, the truth is actually just right down that hall.

Maybe, maybe you better go back and take a look.

What about the wee ones?

They've all got angels.

And right now, you're Lydia's.

Lydia?

Monica, what the hell are you doing here?

Lydia, please don't do this.

Let me take you home.

You need this to cool you out.

Oh, you like the rock.

Come on.

Let's get out of here. I don't want to. Can't you hear? She doesn't want to go.

The TV's broken.

Get out of here!

You're making me crazy. You and your crazy friends. Get out of here.

Lydia, wait.

You're my hide.

Get away from me.

Heart rate?

110. Blood pressure?

96 over 67.

Visual signs of trauma with physical extremities.

I want a CBC chemistry panel, a deck stick, and a CT scan.

Doctor, I'm feeling tightening in the abdominal wall.

Oh, man.

Excuse me, I'm Bill Evans. This is my wife, Margaret. We got a call from a

named Tess.

That's me.

Oh, aren't you Lydia's friend?

Yes, and this is Tess.

She's the counselor from the drug treatment center.

She's here to help Lydia.

What happened?

She was hit by a car.

Oh, my God.

All right, all right. Is she okay?

They're working on her now.

May I have a word with you alone, please?

Well, you might as well say it to them. They're the parents.

How is she?

Well, it's a miracle.

She has a few scrapes. Nothing's broken.

But the trauma from the accident has caused her to go into labor.

That he is pregnant.

Almost full term.

We just saw her. She didn't look pregnant.

Your daughter's severely underweight.

I don't even think she knew she was expecting.

That's impossible.

Every woman knows if she's pregnant.

Well, in cases like this... May I speak frankly? I think you should.

Your daughter's addicted to cocaine.

We also found traces of methamphetamine in her system.

Look, she had a little bit of a problem in the past, but she has it under

control. Mr. Evans, if you'll forgive me, I don't think she has anything under

control. Can we see her?

This way.

In, two, three, out, two, three.

You're doing good. Breathe through it. Mom.

Mom. My God.

Lydia, why did you hide this from us?

You're going to have a baby. Can you believe that? How could you not know?

I did. I was just hoping you would go away.

In, two, three, out, two, three.

She's dilating. Get an OB card in here.

You're becoming fast.

She's not stable enough to make it to delivery. There's not enough time.

I can't handle this.

She's, uh, having a baby.

Okay, we'll be almost there.

Yeah.

You did it.

She's cyanotic.

Why isn't she crying? She's not breathing.

We need to intubate.

I want a CBC with a diff, blood x -ray, chest x -ray, stat.

Transport her to NICU.

Let's get a suture kit.

The baby didn't cry at all.

How are they doing?

We're admitting Lydia. She should be up in her room pretty soon. You can go up

and see her.

What about the baby?

Pretty much as we suspected. We found cocaine in the baby's blood.

Is she going to be all right?

Well, right now we're treating the baby with Narcan to reverse the effects of

the narcotic in her system.

Without this medication, the baby would go into withdrawal.

Beyond that, I really don't know.

You don't know? What does that mean?

It means that when this baby starts crying, she won't be crying for milk.

be crying for crack.

We'll be moving you up to your room right away.

I just need your paperwork.

Social service is on the way.

As soon as the baby's well enough and can be released from the hospital,

arrange for foster care.

Foster care? We'll take care of the baby. She's the baby's mother. The baby

belongs with her. Mr. and Mrs. Evans, Lydia's blood shows traces of cocaine,

so does her baby's.

By law, I'm required to report the mother to the authorities.

This is incredible.

I'm sorry. I don't have any choice.

Please excuse me.

Nobody is arresting my daughter, and nobody's taking that baby away.

I don't want my grandchild in foster care.

What's going to happen to Lydia?

Well, Lydia is all right in the hospital now, but we have to find a rehab clinic

as soon as possible because they're not prepared to handle drug addicts and

withdrawals. Will you please stop calling my daughter a drug addict?

In a few hours, your daughter's body is going to crave cocaine so badly that she

would do anything.

And I mean... Anything to get it.

She would sell her soul.

Or your soul.

Just for one more hit on that crack pipe.

When you see this happen to your little girl, Mr. Evans, there will be no doubt

in your mind.

She is an addict.

Why can't we just stay here and help her through it?

There's nothing you can really do. She has got it right.

I want you both to know that even though I'm a fairly new friend to Lydia, I

want to be a good one.

And I'm hoping that I can encourage her to check herself into the treatment

center. She has to check herself in?

Yes.

That's a decision that she has to make for herself.

Here we go. Looks like we're going up to the third.

How did she manage to get by a doctor, three nurses, and two angels?

Drug addicts are very clever, baby.

They lie, they cheat, they steal.

What are you looking at?

She's an artist, Tess.

She looks at mountains and she paints more than trees and rocks and snow.

She paints with her heart.

And I was thinking, praying, actually.

I was asking God to forgive me.

For what, baby?

Sometimes I forget that even though I may have the spirit of an angel, I still

have the eyes of a human.

And I was beginning to see Lydia the way the world does.

A holy, unredeemable creature.

Well, that's just the kind of creature God loves to save.

What's the matter with you people? You threatened my daughter. No wonder she

away. You better get on her trail, baby. I'll handle this.

If we'd let us handle our own problems, she'd still be here.

Blaming somebody else will not get your daughter back.

It's not our fault she's so vulnerable right now.

Just how long have you been making excuses for your daughter?

I don't have to stand here and listen to some holier -than -thou stranger tell

me how to raise my daughter.

Your daughter is already raised, sir.

And yet, at this time, she's lower than she's ever been.

And I believe that a good hard look at what brought her to this point is the

only way that anyone can help lift her up.

Now, when was the last time you said no to your little girl?

What? I don't understand.

No.

No, you cannot have that toy.

No, you cannot watch television as long as you want to.

No, you cannot stay out as late as you want to.

No, I will not tolerate your drug habit. No, no.

She had a happy childhood.

I planned it that way. I wanted her to have everything I didn't. Did you ever

have a cocaine habit?

No. Well, it worked then, didn't it?

A child who never hears no never learned to say no.

And that's a part of Lydia's problem.

She knows you'll always be there for her.

Are you asking us to turn our backs on our own daughter?

I'm asking you to turn her over to herself and to God.

Because as long as she knows that you're her safety net, she's never going to

hit the bottom.

That's the point.

I don't think I could bear to see her hit bottom.

I know, Mr. Evans.

But right now, the bottom is the best place for her.

That's... I swear an attic has no place to look but up.

I don't know.

Well, let me put it this way.

If you keep justifying everything your daughter does, one day you're going

to have to justify why she's dead.

And if that happens, you're going to have to do a lot of explaining to your

grandchild.

If she lives, too.

Now, do you want me to help you or not?

Hey, Liv.

Aren't you on the wrong side of the street, girl?

Come on home.

You take food stamps?

You crazy girl.

Come back with the flash and we'll have some fun.

Lydia.

Jackson, I need a place to stay.

I told you not to come around here unless you were clean.

But I am clean. I'm different.

Different? Yeah, right. I heard that before.

How can I trust you, strung out as you are?

Hey, Lydia!

Good to see you. Where you been hiding?

Come in here, girl.

We missed you.

Thanks.

You too.

Come on. I just had a baby.

I want to get it some stuff so I can take my baby home.

That's the worst one yet, girl.

I saw you, what, yesterday?

You didn't have no baby.

Come on, man. I did.

I don't care what you think. Just give me a little work, then.

Can I have my old job back? I'll do whatever I have to. I'll wash those

over there, then.

Give her a break, man.

Okay.

I'll give you one more chance.

Don't take anything.

I never stole anything from you.

Yeah.

And what

was

it?

What was what?

My baby, what was it?

A little girl.

He had a little girl, Lydia.

Lydia!

I'll take care of this. You go tell him it's okay.

What's going on in there?

Just a little accident, no big deal.

You already owe me enough. Now I've got to put broken glasses on your list.

Come on, Jackson, I'll pay you back.

Yeah, that's what you always say, but you never do. You're a junkie.

You know, you used to really be worth something.

Look at that.

Who could believe that you painted it?

You can't even hold a glass in your hand, let alone a paintbrush.

You told me you were clean. You're never going to be clean, Lydia.

You need a fix so bad to be tasted.

Lydia.

Lydia! Get in here!

Lydia!

Who are you?

It's her.

Take a deep breath.

Lydia.

Hello, Lydia.

Who's this?

My name is Ted. I'm a counselor from the hospital drug rehab clinic.

I'm here to help you decide on treatment.

What?

We want you to go into a drug treatment program.

For the sake of you and your baby.

That's right.

She's my baby, and I can take care of her.

I'm working at the Waha again, and I could... I could use just a little

It's not for me. It's for my baby.

We know you're lying, Lydia. You just want to buy drugs.

Mom, I'm trying.

here. I'm changing.

And just help me out.

No. No. Until you go for treatment, there isn't anything more we can do for

It's not for me. It's for my baby.

Your baby is being taken care of.

And when it's time for her to leave the hospital, your parents are going to file

with the court to become her legal guardians.

You leave my baby alone!

Lydia! Lydia!

We love you very much.

And we want you to get out.

Get out and don't come back until you can admit you have a problem.

Don't worry!

I'll never be back!

Never!

Never coming back!

Oh, my God.

What did we just do? You just did the right thing. You just did the right

Good enough.

You know, you really didn't have to do this.

Lydia started the job.

She's my friend.

I couldn't leave until it's finished.

Well, thanks for the help.

She told me she had a baby.

She did have a baby.

You better hurry.

Why? What's happened?

The baby's missing from the hospital.

Oh, no.

Lydia. Now, if the baby doesn't get her medication soon, she could go into

seizure.

Or worse, she could die from lack of oxygen, nutrition.

Well, we better find the baby.

Where could Lydia be?

I don't know now, but I'll know soon.

My baby.

Shh.

You're going to wake the baby.

Where is the baby?

She's right here. Can't you see?

She's right here.

There is no baby, Lydia.

Yes, she is. She's here. Yes, she is.

She's here.

Lydia, what did you do with the baby?

She's right here.

Isn't she beautiful?

No, no, she's not here. Where did you put her?

Oh, God.

I put... I put... Where?

Where?

I...

I can't... I can't remember.

and Lydia is so high, she doesn't know where the baby is.

I'll find Lydia's child. You've got another child to take care of. I want

but I don't know how. She seems so lost.

She is lost.

She's lost her hope.

But this is the moment that God made angels for, baby.

Now I want you to go back in that apartment and take that child in your

rock her and feed her hope like it was mother's milk.

Tess, I want to, but she can't hear me.

Listen to me.

Her body wants crack.

Her mind wants crack. I think even her soul wants crack. Because she sold her

soul to it already.

But there's one thing she hasn't lost because it doesn't belong to her. It

belongs to God.

Her spirit.

Speak to that.

You lost your baby, but God has not lost her or forgotten her.

And he has not forgotten you.

Who are you?

I am an angel.

And I've been sent here to help you heal.

Am I hallucinating?

No.

God is not a hallucination.

He's very real.

He wants to help you.

Oh, God, I need a hit.

No, Lydia, you don't.

God wants you to clean your body and to clean your soul.

And he'll help you go through that cleansing if only you'll ask him.

I can't do it. I have to have it. It makes me feel good. It's the best thing

about my life. No, your life is the best thing about your life. It is God's gift

to you. It is your gift to your baby. But this is the moment, Lydia, right now

when you could lose it all or get it all back.

If you can just get through these next few days without drugs, then you'll be

free. I've tried it. It's too hard.

God will be with you this time.

And so will I.

They don't trust you.

Will you trust him?

I'm afraid I'll die.

Sometimes you have to lose your life before you can find it.

It's like food stamps.

This coupon is redeemable for five dollars worth.

Don't you see?

This is just a useless piece of paper, Lydia, unless you redeem it from the

promise on the back.

It's like your life. You can't find its full value.

Until you hand it over to God and ask him to redeem it.

Trade it in for a new Lydia.

The Lydia you were always meant to be.

Redeem it, Lydia.

Ask him for it back.

And more. He wants to give it to you so much.

It will be a long night.

But the morning will come.

I promise you.

Just keep your eye on the mountaintop.

He's there waiting for you.

I am speaking to Lydia's spirit.

Can you hear me?

Yes.

Help me.

I'm ready.

It hurts.

God!

Save me!

Hold on, Lydia. Hold on.

What's that song?

Don't know.

Never heard it. It happens to angels sometimes, though.

It sounds like something I used to sing in

Sunday school.

Then I think I know what to do.

God is my...

Redeemer. And he heals me with

reassuring love.

That sounds pretty.

I'm one of the few angels that can't sing.

If there's anyone in the choir listening, I really could use some help.

You should hear how it sounds to me.

I'm looking for you.

Excuse me. I'm looking for a lady with a little baby. Did she happen to...

Sweetest baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, don't worry. Death is here. Death is here.

Death is here. Don't worry.

Death God.

I will lift mine eyes unto the hills from whence cometh my help.

My heart soars like an eagle in the presence of the...

I love a day where I don't have to work.

Hey, baby.

Look at you.

You should see your child.

Seven days old and a rope.

Seven days.

Yes. I told you it would be a long night.

We're on our way there now.

And then we're going to go next door to the rehab clinic.

Lydia is going to check herself in.

Well, hop in. I'll give you a lift.

No, thanks.

Now walk.

It's such a beautiful day.