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Dear Emily, it's four o'clock in the afternoon, and you're sleeping.

I've been thinking of myself as a little girl, remembering my mother.

How much I loved her.

How much I needed her.

I want to be in your life, Emily.

I want to hold your hand on your first day of school, like my mommy held mine, and cry

at your wedding as daddy walks you down the aisle.

I want to be your mother, Angel.

More than anything, I want it to be me.

But I won't be there, Emily.

Who will be your mother when I'm gone?

Hi.

Hi.

Nice party.

It is.

Listen, I'm usually not the kind of guy that comes on to women I don't know.

You're not?

No.

I'm watching you.

And I think we would be great together.

And why do you think that?

It's hard to explain.

Watching you walk across the room.

It was like I could see our future.

Okay, I'll bite.

What do you see?

We made it a party.

I like parties.

Something clicks between us.

We both feel it.

A physical attraction?

Almost definitely.

We can't fight it.

But then it turns into something serious very fast.

How serious?

But before either of us knows what's happening, we fly off to Key West for a romantic weekend.

That has possibilities.

We go deep sea fishing.

Mm-mm.

Now you'll never get me out there.

Oh no, it's not easy, but I talk you into it.

You catch a marlin.

500 pounds.

You see a 500 pound marlin in my future?

That night we make love, and I propose.

And what do I say?

Yes.

Well, I've always dreamt of a traditional wedding.

You married on the beach.

The band plays Jimmy Buffett all night long.

Oh no.

A parrot head?

I'm always out of deal breaker.

I don't know.

Do we live happily ever after?

We have our hard times.

But I think we're always there for each other.

And one day, it happens.

What?

We have a little baby, and we become the happiest parents in the world.

I have to think it over.

No problem.

We got five minutes.

Honey?

Honey?

What about your Christmas party?

Oh.

After the wedding, my mom was so happy.

I found her sitting on the beach by herself.

I said, Mom, what are you doing?

I said, waiting.

I said, waiting for what?

She said to be a grandma.

No, she would have been a terrific grandma.

Oh no.

I really miss her.

You OK?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I just want everything to be perfect.

And I don't usually allow myself to get too philosophical.

But I'm going to make an exception in your case.

Don't worry.

Be happy.

It's very profound, Brian.

Oh, you want profound, OK?

Well, in five months, we're going to have a beautiful little baby.

I still can't believe it.

I don't know if everything's going to be perfect.

You don't?

No, perfect.

Maybe shooting a bit high.

It is?

A little.

But I do know this.

As long as we have each other, we will be OK.

Fine?

So repeat after me.

We're going to be OK.

Ah.

We will be OK.

OK.

Hmm.

Oh, God.

Oh, no.

Oh, no.

Brian, Brian, wake up.

Wake up.

I'm bleeding.

I'm bleeding.

There's blood.

We should go to the hospital.

Yeah.

How far longer are you?

Twenty-two weeks.

Let's burn my feet, please.

There you are.

Look.

Oh, yeah.

The membrane around the fetus is ruptured.

There's a lot of blood.

Oh, yeah.

The cervix.

Is my baby going to be all right?

I'm sorry, you might lose the baby.

We've got to get it out right now.

We're going to do an emergency C-section.

Call EOR, tell them we're all the way.

Right.

We should be suctioned.

We'll start there.

Good.

Where's the NICU?

There you are.

Good track.

All right, go.

Hey, clap.

Clap.

Clap.

Doctor.

Doctor Allen.

Allen?

She's hemorrhaging.

Allen?

Allen?

Allen?

Suckin.

Hi, all.

Stop.

Mrs. Bunge.

Allen?

It's good.

More suction?

Doctor.

Let's raise this dummy.

Damn!

Mr. Young, you have to leave now.

What's happening?

Allen?

Allen?

Mr. Young, please.

What's my name?

Allen?

Mr. Young.

Please.

What's my name?

Mr. Young.

What's happening?

I put in blood down here.

Mr. Young.

Allen?

Where's my just more?

Suckin.

The police are here.

Go.

Go.

Go.

Go.

Don't worry.

Go.

I'm going to go.

I got you.

I'm going to go.

I got you.

I got you.

I got you.

Go.

I got you.

Go!

Go.

Go!

Go.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

What's my question?

Search.

Search.

Search.

Search.

There's Gilbert to the lab.

And there's Gilbert to place reports in the lab.

Don.

She's all right.

Uh, can I see her?

She's still coming out of the anesthesia.

Why don't you go see your daughter first?

She's in the neonatal intensive care unit at the end of the hall.

They're waiting for you there.

By the time you met her and, uh, I said hello.

Helen should be more alert.

My daughter.

Yeah.

Dr. Grinchy, the creditologist.

Mr. Young.

I'm Claire Hutton.

I assisted in your daughter's delivery.

We're ready for you.

Is she okay?

She's in serious condition, but she's stable.

Mrs. Rice, I'm not over here.

She's so small.

She's in the grille.

She is small.

She's only 23 weeks gestation.

We'll be with her 24 hours a day until she's out of danger.

We'll monitor her meds, manage her oxygen, make sure she knows we're here for her.

Well, we may need a nurse, too.

That's okay.

We also take care of parents.

How you doing?

I'm really sore.

My back hurts.

What's all the doctor?

What's he gonna say?

Your back hurts because you had major surgery and almost died.

But you didn't.

I know.

I know.

I'm very much alive.

And so is your daughter.

Come on, Brian.

I just don't feel well.

Maybe tomorrow would be better.

Nope.

Today is the day, Mrs. Young.

It's time for you to meet Miss Emily Rose.

Let's go.

Okay.

Hi.

Thank you.

Oh, okay.

I know, Emily.

You're being such a big girl today.

Claire?

Hi.

Honey, I'm gonna go screw up.

I'll be right back, okay.

I'm Claire Hutton, Emily's primary nurse.

Ellen.

You have a beautiful little girl, Ellen.

Are you ready to meet her?

Okay.

She's 12 inches long.

She weighs one pound, two ounces.

Okay, I've seen her.

Wait.

You're like, I can't do this.

I understand.

I'm afraid.

It's normal to be afraid.

I can't be there.

Keep asking myself, what do I want to see my baby?

I can't.

I can't.

I can't.

I can't.

I can't.

I can't see my baby.

Emily is so small, it's hard to believe she's alive.

You're afraid to see her because you're afraid she won't survive.

No.

More than anything,

love makes babies grow.

Makes them eat without intervenes tubes,

makes them breathe without respirators,

love makes them live.

Daddy in, Daddy's here.

Everything's going to be okay.

Daddy loves you, Emily Rose.

Daddy loves you so much.

It's called patterning.

Finding something you do that connects you to the baby.

Ryan strokes Emily's cheek with his thumb.

I just didn't think it would be like this.

She's still a fetus.

She's still a fetus.

Extensibly premature.

Her lungs don't work.

She's too young to eat.

She's struggling to live.

She needs her mother.

You need her too.

What do I do?

She knows your voice.

She heard it all the time she was in school.

She was in school.

She was in school.

She knows your voice.

She heard it all the time she was inside you.

I don't know that you're still here for her.

I don't want to hurt her.

You won't.

Oh.

Emily.

Emily.

Your mom is here.

Yeah.

It's okay baby.

Mom is here.

Where?

Excuse me.

Will you be back?

Yes, I promise.

Honey, is it your bed?

I'm fine.

Yeah?

It's Denise, line one.

Thank you.

Hey Denise.

No, no, no, no.

375 is too low.

Yeah.

Because you want to get 360.

Well, you're going to get 360.

Yeah, you know that corner house on Montclair?

Just sold for 360 to five.

It just happened.

Because I sold it.

Thank you.

All right.

Well, just call me after you talk to them.

Okay.

Well, it's a little too soon to tell.

Yeah, we just don't know yet.

Lungs sacs are similar to rubber balloons.

With each breath, Emily needs to blow the balloon up.

It's exhausting, and she can't do it.

And later, helps keep her lungs open

and delivers oxygen with each breath.

As Emily grows, her lungs develop their own surface tension to stay open.

Then all she has to do is take in the oxygen, use it, and exchange it.

Are you sure she's ready?

The longer Emily depends on the machine,

the greater risk of damage there is to her lungs.

She already has some scarring.

Eventually, new lung tissue will overcompensate for the damaged tissue,

but we do need to try to get her out the ventilator.

Hey!

Don't be so stubborn, Emily.

She's breathing on her own.

You sure it is.

Make sure she's at above 95.

Dr. Chansa, ask for you.

It's time to feed her.

How's she doing?

I could just sit and stare at her all day.

She's really breathing.

I knew she would. She's a fighter.

Yeah. Just like her mom.

I had cancer when I was 17.

Hotchkins disease.

When I beat that, and then when I was 23, I got cancer again.

This time in my neck.

It was hard.

But I beat that, too.

God, that's awful. I'm so sorry.

No, don't be.

You know, we all have our times, Claire.

That's life.

So, what about you?

What's your story?

Oh, come on.

We see each other for almost 12 hours every day.

I'm going to be here for months.

You can tell me.

Oh, I can.

Of course.

Married?

Divorced. Two years.

Mmm.

Divorced two years.

And, uh, and it was a bad marriage.

Mmm.

Look, my parents have been married for 38 years.

They still live in the house in Ohio where I was born.

They still hold hands.

I wanted to be married to the same man forever.

I wanted him to believe in the same things I did.

Love, marriage.

Mmm.

Yeah, I know that, man.

I married him.

You're lucky.

I know.

So, are you dating?

No.

What are you waiting for?

It's been two years.

Well, I don't have any time right now.

I love being with my girls.

I'm very happy with the way things are.

I'm very happy with the way things are.

I'm very happy with the way things are.

I'm very happy with the way things are.

I'm very happy with the way things are.

Okay, I'll work on that.

Is that what you're warning to the hospital?

Mom, do you really think Emi's going to notice?

No, but Ellen will and so am I.

I heard the phone ringing when I was in the shower.

Who answered it?

We really like Emi, don't you?

She's got a lot of energy.

You'll see.

Who called?

Pete.

His name's not Pete's.

She just really stay, right?

Manage is her office, does her own deals,

comes with a hospital to be with Emi.

She's got a million things going on at the same time,

and she doesn't all great.

You know, I'm lucky to get dinner on the table.

Tell me about it.

What did you say, Sam?

Just said he'd call back.

It's about it.

Did he say when he'd call back?

It was Pete, Mom.

He didn't say anything.

His name's not Pete, it's Dad.

Maybe he's in town, maybe he wants to see us.

What's the point, Lindsay?

The point is he's our father.

He's not my father.

Yes, he is.

No, he isn't.

No, he isn't.

Mom!

That's enough, both of you, please.

You never did this before,

bringing home pictures, bringing us to the hospital?

This one smiles at me.

Mom, smiling's a learned behavior.

You should know that.

What I mean is that she wants to live so badly,

she tells me that all day long.

She's got a lot of heart for such a tiny person.

There's something special about her.

That's why I want you to meet her.

Come on, I told Ellen we'd be there at night.

I don't want to be late.

I'm not going to be there.

I'm not going to be there.

I'm not going to be there.

She's going to be okay, right?

I'll feel better when she's going to get her own.

These are my daughters, Emi.

This is Lindsay and Samantha.

Hi, Emi.

Hi, Emi.

I wanted them to meet you now that you've gotten so big.

I want them to meet your mommy too.

I want them to meet you now.

I want them to meet you now that you've gotten so big.

I want them to meet your mommy too.

I told them how special you both were.

Come on, Emi.

You have to learn how to eat on your own.

Come on.

She's 34 weeks, Ellen.

She'll learn.

Here.

Try this.

Relax.

Come on.

I'm glad I got to meet your girls.

They were glad to meet you too.

And Emi.

I can't believe I've grown up.

They are.

It happened so fast.

I remember when they were babies.

Now they can go down to the cafeteria alone for lunch.

Mm-hmm.

Boy friends just around the corner.

Don't remind me.

They're good girls, Claire.

They're doing a great job.

Thanks.

Come on, Emi.

You really have to do this, honey.

Come on.

What do we do if she doesn't get it?

Well, we'll continue with the two feedings.

There could be some complications, but I'm sure that we'll find a way.

Hey, look.

Oh, I think she's doing it.

She's eating.

Oh, she's doing it.

She's got it.

Oh!

Emi!

That was so good.

That was so good.

Yes!

She's doing it.

She's doing it.

She's doing it.

She's doing it right now.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Its okay.

I'll have that lined up, 1600 seconds.

honking.

Solthank you.

I couldn't have done this without you, Claire.

I'm gonna miss you, Emily.

I'm gonna miss all of you.

This is really hard for me.

What are you talking about?

You see us?

Yeah.

Yeah!

Yeah!

Yeah.

Your day offs Tuesday, right?

Right.

All right, then.

We'll see you Tuesday.

Good.

Oh, thanks, sweetie.

Okay.

Right.

This is a fine-looking sandwich.

We have enough mustard, don't you?

Oh, oh.

We're not the sandwich, sweetie.

You don't get the mustard on us.

Hi.

Hi.

Oh, she thought we were the sandwich.

I see.

Come here.

Okay.

Here, can you...

Oh, yep, sure.

Hey, sweetie.

Hi.

Baby, sit her cold and sick.

Now, in his, uh, in a meeting,

she can't get out of.

She should be home any minute.

Oh, well, that's a nice surprise.

I haven't seen you for a while.

Did you eat lunch?

No, I came straight from the gym.

I didn't have time.

Ah, the gym.

Yes, I remember working out.

It's very hazy.

It feels good, right?

Okay.

I'm gonna make you a sandwich.

Oh, Brian, you don't have to.

No, I want to.

All right, we got the bread, the cheese, the ham,

the mustard, of course.

So I won't take no for an answer.

You guys have got this Tuesday thing down.

It was Ellen's idea.

What was Ellen's idea?

It made the same day every week.

Uh, well, you know, that way everything is organized and finalized.

Yeah, she is pretty well organized and finalized my entire life.

Yeah, I'm glad of it.

If she would ever leave me, I would be sitting on the beach drinking margaritas

and listening to Jimmy Buffett.

Jimmy Buffett.

What's wrong with Jimmy Buffett?

There is nothing wrong with Jimmy Buffett.

Yeah, right.

Fins to the left.

Fins to the right.

Okay, hi, sweetheart.

Oh, I think we better get you a new shirt.

I thought you were a sandwich, didn't we?

Oh, oh, oh, oh.

Wait, I got her.

I got her.

Oh, I got her.

Okay.

Look, I don't want to hear it.

Yeah, I know you don't want to hear it.

I'm okay.

This is not what I would call okay.

Now, somebody has got to look at your back.

Brian, I'm not going to get you.

I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I would call okay.

Now, somebody has got to look at your back.

Brian, I just had a C-section and then I was in bed for four weeks.

You know, then I go to pick up the baby but I can't hold her right because I'm overcompensating.

It is normal to have back pain.

Ask Claire.

She's a nurse.

I think you should go see a doctor.

She's an NIC-U nurse.

What does she know about back pain?

It's not funny anymore, Ellen.

Come on, it could be a slip disc, a pension nerve.

Oh, okay, okay, okay.

Okay, I'll go to the doctor.

I promise.

Where?

I don't know.

I gotta chip my schedule.

Come on, baby girl.

Don't worry, Brian.

That's a good girl.

Yes, that's it.

That's it.

It's it.

Here.

Ah, so he was a bartender in Miami.

Pretty much living on the beach.

I was down there on vacation.

I'd run this trip through my office.

There we go, angel.

Oh.

Sat down to the bar.

He made me a drink.

Then he followed me all the way back to Minneapolis.

So it was love at first sight.

Well, Popis it's a tract.

He's from Florida and from Minnesota.

He's a parrot head.

I love jazz.

Actually, the only thing we had in common

was that we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together.

How old were you?

I was 32 when we got married.

Kitchen is the most important work of the house.

If the wife can't see herself making Thanksgiving dinner,

they haven't got a chance.

How old were you when you got married?

18.

Pete was 19.

I got married right out of high school.

Had Samantha a year later.

Pete was driving a truck hanging out with his friends

while I was in nursing school, waiting tables,

and taking care of Sam.

So I have the laundry room for last.

No matter how nice it is, nobody likes to see themselves

washing clothes.

You guys are young.

Too young.

We never even knew each other.

Oh.

Christmas Eve.

All the relatives are visiting, fire burning in the fireplace,

presents under the tree in the corner,

and an upright piano where grandma is sitting,

bombed out of her mind on eggnog,

singing Santa Claus is coming to town over and over again

until her face would just pass out on the keyboard.

This is a true story.

Then you would go over, touch her arm.

She would pop up and start singing right where she left off.

I swear to God.

And then my dad and I would get her upstairs,

we'd put her to bed, and he'd say to me, look,

we love her anyway.

She's family.

That's all that matters.

My dad taught me the same thing.

I think that's why I held on my marriage for so long.

We should get our dads together someday.

I bet they'd be friends.

My dad died when I was 21.

My mom died four years ago.

She was the smartest, most beautiful woman I'd ever met.

OK?

So if I can be for Emmy, which she was for me, you will be.

Come on.

Do you remember turning it wrong or wrenching it somehow?

I twisted it funny lifting a file box at the office

when I was pregnant.

And then you know, I had surgery when I gave birth to my daughter.

I'll hide percentage of the population experiences back pain.

Most of them feel it what you do, the lumbar area.

That's a lower back.

Typically it's a result of some kind of muscular trauma.

Like lifting a file box and wrenching it?

Yes.

Or like major surgery?

Certainly possible.

Yeah, so just a bad back.

I can't feel anything unusual, but we'll take some x-rays

and that'll give us a more detailed picture.

OK, if you can put your neck up here for me, all right?

Push it forward.

There you go.

OK, take a nice deep breath and hold it.

Hold it.

I hope worst case, I just have to get off my feet

for a couple of weeks.

I've done that before.

I can work, even if I'm on my back.

You've got to slow down.

Ellen, come on.

Honey, you wouldn't even recognize me if I slowed down.

You'd say, where's that Ellen I fell in love with?

Where's the Ellen who swept me off my feet?

I'm sorry I took so long.

I wanted Dr. Alexander to look at the film with me.

There's a mass on the left lung and on the room

that's right beneath it.

It's cancer, Ellen.

It's comeback.

Hi.

Oh, hi.

Hello, Angel.

Hi.

How you doing?

OK, I think.

She's being a good girl.

Oh, she's great.

She's looking at me now like, hey, I know you.

I love that.

Hi.

Hi.

Hi.

What are you doing here?

Tuesday?

I talked to Dr. Gordon.

He told me your needle biopsy was malignant.

You had surgery?

Yeah, they removed parts of two of my ribs

and lower section of my lungs.

Dr. Gordon said that the tumor looked very angry.

Wait and see.

Yeah.

Just waiting on the pathology report.

Hi, the girls.

I want to talk about the girls.

I want to talk about you.

I'm sick of talking about me.

Oh, come in.

I'll come back.

Clara, please.

Stay.

Ellen, the tumor that started in your lung

has metastasized to the bone to the ninth and tenth ribs.

You took it out, right?

As much as I could.

But when it moves to the bone like that,

it means that the cancer is in its end stage.

Ellen, there's nothing we can do.

I don't know.

What's this supposed to mean?

What about chemotherapy?

It's too late.

What about radiation?

It won't help.

It won't help.

Not this advanced stage.

There's less than a 1% chance of survival.

You have six months, maybe less.

I'm very sorry, Ellen.

MUSIC

The doctor said it was very unusual to have

three separate cancers in one lifetime.

I said, well, I'm a very unusual person.

Actually, the reason they think I got this cancer

is the same reason I got the cancer in my neck,

and a high dose of radiation from when I had hotbed

against the 17th.

Yeah, so I got this.

Now it's a level considered unnecessary.

Can you believe that?

I wouldn't believe any of it.

Mom, it's just not a challenge.

Now we're going to deal with it.

That's right.

Some people with this kind of cancer,

at this stage of development, survive.

Now, why can't that be Ellen?

She did it before, and she will do it again.

You're going to beat this.

And marry this great guy and have this incredible baby,

just to check out.

We found another doctor, a lung cancer specialist.

He's going to do the radiation for us.

Now, there's special diets, alternative medicines,

a healthy, positive mind secures the body for a long life.

Right?

There's something like that.

I'm not an expert in Eastern mind body theory, but.

Not yet.

OK.

We're going to fight this.

OK.

Here we go, angel.

Here we go.

Smile.

Uh.

Oh boy, Emmy.

I was just getting thirsty, too.

All right, carrots, beets, celery, apples, vitamins.

Selenium enzymes, sea cucumbers,

barley grass, wheat, kelp, and cooked brown rice.

I ordered a pizza and a beer.

Drink.

That's disgusting.

Antioxidants and natural foods build the immune system.

Yeah, if they don't kill you first.

Why can't I put some Bosco in there?

Oh.

Can I just have the Bosco straight up?

How you doing?

OK.

Really?

Yeah.

Now can I have a beer?

She's the most adorable baby, isn't she?

Sometimes I look at her and I just

don't know who she looks like.

What do you think?

Well, I'd have to say that she looks like you.

A little like your mom.

You know, when I was little, my mom

used to take me to this park right next to our house.

We'd have a picnic lunch, and she'd tell me jokes and stories.

Just me and my mom.

And then there was this swing right in the middle of a field.

And after lunch, I'd go and I'd get on the swing.

And she'd push me.

And I'd try to get my feet to touch the clouds.

She really laughed hard.

Whew, I tell you, I just can't remember a time when I felt so

happy, just so loved.

Plenty of picnics.

Oh, I know that.

I know I just, um, you know, my mom was always there for me.

Hey, you are always going to be there for me.

Come on.

Here.

Oh, I should make you drink this.

Mm, she likes when we do that.

So do I.

Um, you know, Claire gave me the name of this therapist.

Her name is Sandy Russo.

And, um, I want to go talk to her.

All right.

I think you have to.

So, uh, do you think there's an afterlife?

I like to believe that whatever makes us alive continues to

exist when we leave this life.

My parents believed in heaven.

I guess I do too.

Do you think I'm going to die?

Do you?

I think I might.

What if I do?

Who's going to take care of Emi?

What's going to happen to Brian?

Leaving them alone.

It's very hard to accept that thought, I know.

No, I can't even think of them without me.

Can you picture Brian marrying again?

Or Emi with the mother?

Sometimes if you're able to imagine this thought,

you can see them as being alright if you die.

I can't do that.

I-I can't do that.

Well, wouldn't you want Brian to think that you and Emi would be alright

if the situation were reversed?

I'd rather lock myself in a closet and never come out.

Oh, Sandy, I-I just can't believe this is my life.

Just not very good at facing the truth.

Not many people are.

I have this friend, Claire.

She's the, uh, NICU nurse I told you about.

The one that took care of Emi.

She's unbelievable.

Every day she faces those babies and their parents.

She's totally there for them.

Most babies could die at any time.

She faces that truth every day.

It was me.

Maybe it isn't the truth you have trouble facing.

Maybe it's the emotion beneath the truth.

You know, Brian says, I keep myself busy so I don't have to do the things.

That I don't want to do.

But maybe the truth is, so I don't have to feel the things that I'm afraid to feel.

Okay.

It's a good thing you're a nurse.

What if you sell a chews?

You have a note to do on Tuesday.

Okay.

It's a good thing you're a nurse.

What if you sell a chews?

You have a note to do on Tuesday.

I don't know what to do.

I don't know what to do on Tuesday.

Oh.

Okay, relax.

Just put it here.

Put this back.

Okay.

I can deal with it.

I can deal with the tumors that are here.

I just don't know what to do with the tumors that are coming.

Oh.

I just don't know what to do with the tumors that are coming.

I feel so cheated.

It's just not fair.

I'm going to know my daughter.

She's never going to know me.

Just so angry.

I can't believe I'm going to let her down.

I don't want her to think I just walked out on her.

She won't.

I read this article.

It's a children that lose their mothers at an early age.

Never really get over this as adults.

And they never get their mother's love and encouragement.

She needs my advice.

She needs to hear my stories.

To know how I felt.

On her first day of school.

Her first date.

Graduation.

And she'll have a wedding.

And I won't be there.

Claire.

I won't be there.

You can be there.

You can write to her.

Tell her your story. Put it into words.

Tell her who you are and how you've lived in this world.

You can give her what she needs to go on without you.

I don't know what to say.

Ellen, you always know what to say.

I don't really do.

I'll get her.

Let's go see mommy.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Hello.

I'm going to write you letters, Auntie.

I'm going to tell you everything.

I hope Be as good as being there.

But it's the best I can do to take care of you now.

Hello?

Hey, what's going on?

I could just figure out how to take care of your dad too.

Here.

Here.

Of course he got it.

Daddy's home.

Daddy's home.

Hey baby.

Hey.

Hey baby.

Hi honey.

Oh, I've been thinking about you all day.

Yeah, I couldn't wait to take care of you and see you and mom.

Hey.

Hey.

You'd be clear that, huh?

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

Oh, baby.

You'd be clear that, huh?

Yeah, I missed him.

I'll sleep around three.

You said dad moved along.

Look at you car a little bit.

Mom cooked enough to last this whole week.

Pearl also said that you had a pretty bad day.

Yeah.

Had better.

I'm sorry.

Honey, when are you ready?

Oh, I let her to Emily.

Can I hear it?

Sure.

Dear Emily, it's four o'clock in the afternoon and you're sleeping.

I've been thinking of myself as a little girl, remembering my mother.

How much I loved her.

How much I needed her.

I want to be in your life, Emily.

I want to hold your hand on your first day of school.

Like my mom held mine.

And cry at your wedding as Daddy walks you down the aisle.

I want to be your mother, Angel.

More than anything I want it to be me.

But I won't be there, Emily.

You will be.

No.

Ellen.

I'm dying, Brian.

You're giving up.

I'm not.

You have a responsibility to Emmy and to me and to yourself.

I have a responsibility to face the truth and to do what's right for my family.

Your family needs you, but you have to keep trying?

I am.

I'm just fighting a different battle.

You want me to fight to live.

I just want to get as much as I can out of the time I have left.

Yeah, well, I thought we were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together.

So did I. I love you.

I know you do.

At first, I didn't want you to love anyone else ever again.

Didn't want Emmy to know another mother.

She won't.

No. That's wrong.

It's selfish.

It is not what I really want for you or for her.

I want you to get married again.

I want you to have a family.

I want Emmy to have a family.

There isn't anyone else.

Claire loves Emmy.

Emmy loves Claire.

And I've seen the two of you together.

There's something there.

I know there is.

What are you talking about?

I love you. I'll always love you.

I'm gone.

Call Claire.

You'll see.

No. No. I won't, honey. I can't.

No.

Is it helping?

It's not the cancer that hurts.

So I'm too sick to play with my baby.

Let me pay in medicine for that.

It's hot.

No spring this year straight to summer.

Hi, Mommy.

Thank you, girl.

Hi, Claire.

Hi, Emmy.

Hi.

Hi.

Hi.

Hey.

Your mother and uncle are while you sleep in.

She wants you to know if you eat your soup for lunch.

She says you have to eat so you can get strong again.

She's in denial.

My whole family's in denial.

Oh, they love you very much, Ellen.

I think I'm going to die for all.

I think so.

If it were you, what would you do?

If it were me, Ellen, I think I'd already be dead.

Uh-huh.

Thank you.

Okay.

God, Ellen, I wish I could help you.

I'm so sorry.

You can help me.

Promise me that you'll be there for Emi and Brian.

They're gonna need your glare.

So you promise me that you'll be there for them?

I will.

I will.

I have the letters for Emi.

And one day she's gonna read them.

But she's gonna need somebody to talk to.

You'll be there.

You talk to her.

I want you to be there.

I want you to live.

I wish I could give you a piece of myself and make you well.

Oh, is there for everyone else?

But I was there for you.

I know you, Claire.

You wanna love someone again.

And you want someone to love you.

Don't give up.

Just because you're afraid to take a chance.

Don't give up.

I'm just gonna...

I'm gonna just close my eyes.

Just for a while.

Close my eyes.

Just for a while.

Close my eyes.

I'm just gonna go back and talk to you.

I'm just gonna stay over there.

I need three albums for Emi.

My life.

For Eigen's life.

Her life.

I want her to be able to sing a chance too.

You shoulda made a lot to her one day.

Okay.

Okay.

Does death hurt?

I think it's dying that hurts.

Oh.

You know, I...

I really miss my parents.

I'm gonna tell all about Emi.

I know they'll be happy to see you.

Yeah, but you know...

I don't know when you and my age who's died.

We'll be my friends and you have them.

Oh, my cousin Gary died in a car accident, at least 35.

You love to have a good time.

Look him up. He'll be your friend.

Her willpower is incredible.

Hi, how was she?

Just totally.

How are you?

I was just thinking about the day that Emi was born.

Ellen bleeding to death on one table.

And Emi fighting for her life on another.

My mind racing so fast.

I thought I'd fall over.

Exactly how I feel right now.

Hmm.

Hi, Ellen.

How are you doing?

I wanna see Emi.

Okay.

Can you turn off the drugs?

I wanna be here for this.

Oh, again.

Can I borrow your lipstick?

Oh, I'm here.

Hello, Enel.

Hello, sweetheart.

I'm gonna come for you.

Enel.

Are you having fun?

Just grab a grab.

Did I tell you?

How beautiful you are.

Did I tell you?

Yeah.

It's gonna be okay Emi.

He's gonna be okay.

I'm gonna lose you.

You say goodbye, isn't she?

I'm gonna die.

Did I tell you about my childhood?

Yeah.

The spirit is stronger than the cancer.

I don't remember.

Let me see.

She needed to find the strength to do this and she did.

You're not as strong as she is, eh?

You are.

I know you have so many good things in your life, right?

Emi,

a family that loves you, friends.

Your responsibility to yourself and to them, to them, to them.

To be strong.

It's inside you.

To find it, you go back to where I'm at.

You go back to me.

I'm gonna die.

Ryan, I think you better come now.

I'm gonna die.

I love you.

I love you.

I don't know what I'm gonna do without you.

Go on, Claire.

I think you'll be okay.

Go on, Claire.

Oh, hi.

I'm so tired, right?

I have to go.

You go now.

We prepared for this moment, Ellen.

Do you remember?

Yeah.

Good.

We're going to try it together.

Are you ready?

You're the little girl, Ellen.

The little girl in a park.

You had a swing, your mother's pushing you.

You're laughing and swinging.

I'm tired.

I'm tired.

You're at the sky, Ellen.

Oh, it's so peaceful.

So beautiful.

You're reaching for the clouds, touching them.

Drifting in the clouds.

Flying.

You're free, Ellen.

Fly away.

You're free.

I'd love you.

I'm

Please help me too.

I'm going to sleep.

I'm going to sleep.

I'm going to sleep.

Sleep my baby bird.

Tweet tweet.

I want to spread my wings and fly.

Oh, look at this one, see?

He's flapping his wings.

Your wings need the rest.

Not him, he.

Mm-hmm.

Hi.

Hi.

Uh, I can't get it, she's almost ready.

So, where are you guys going?

I think I'll take her to the park, she likes that.

Yeah?

Well, okay, she's ready for you.

I'm ready for her.

I'm ready for her.

I'm ready for her.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

You're a good girl for Claire.

She always is.

Yeah, that's a good song.

Bye, I mean.

You say bye-bye, Daddy.

Bye-bye.

Have fun.

We will.

I remember when we bought this car for Ellen.

It feels really weird, so...

She's been gone six months, son.

You don't need two cars.

Selling and letting her go.

A little bit by little, I'm afraid I'll lose her.

You'll never lose her.

She'll be part of your friend.

You'll never lose her.

She'll be part of your forever.

How long are you supposed to be unhappy, Brian?

I mean, what's the time when...

Ten months?

A year?

Year and a half?

You've been grieving a long time.

Since the day they said that Ellen was going to die.

You have to start your life again, son.

We'll see you in a minute or later.

Hey, Clara.

Hi, it's, uh, it's Brian.

Ellen managed to handle so much more than I even knew.

I mean, we're doing okay.

I think it's a little hectic, but...

I was sitter during the week, but we're pretty much on our own on the weekends.

My parents helped out a lot, though.

They moved up here when Ellen was pregnant.

She was sort of the daughter they never had.

How are they doing?

Better.

Okay.

What about you?

Aw, I miss her.

So do I.

This was one of her favorite places.

I know, she used to take me here for lunch.

The first time we came here was right after we got married.

It was this band she really wanted to see.

We got here, the place was packed.

So I tried to get us in, but it was no good.

It was book-sauling.

So I go outside and I say, now there's no way.

She said she wanted to try.

Did she get you in?

We sat at that front table right there.

I can't tell you how many times she did stuff like that.

She wanted me to call you.

I mean, not just because of Emi.

I mean...

Yeah, she wanted me to call you, too.

I guess she thought that maybe...

You know.

Look, we don't have to do this just because she wanted us to.

No.

No, we don't.

I mean, you were more her friend than even though I...

You know what I'm saying?

Yes.

But Tuesdays are still good.

Yes.

Maybe you could come with us sometime.

I'm sure Emi would love that.

Yeah. Maybe I can.

Do they have animal farms like this in Key West?

Alligator farms.

Not as good.

No petting.

Do you ever miss Florida?

Sure.

But I like Minneapolis.

I moved my life here.

This is where Ellen grew up.

I'd like Emi to grow up here, too.

It's nice.

So did you bring your daughters here when they were little?

I loved it here.

Samantha and...

And Lindsay.

Yeah, Ellen used to tell me about them once in a while.

They were both very mad at me today.

They wanted to come see Emi.

Well, we should get them all together sometime.

Yeah.

Only if it's on a Tuesday.

I'm just kidding.

See the horsey?

Come on.

Look at that.

Yeah.

Hey.

Yeah, kisses.

Here they are.

Hi!

Hi, come on in.

Hi Emi.

Hi Emi.

Hi Emi.

Hi Emi.

Hi.

This is Lindsay and Samantha.

This is Brian.

Hi.

Hi.

Hi.

A lot about you.

I've heard a lot about you, too.

Yeah.

Well, hope you heard a few good things.

A few.

Good.

Can I take your coach?

Oh, yeah.

Yeah.

Emi.

This is Lindsay and Samantha.

You met them once when you were a little girl.

Thank you.

Hi.

We met you once in your little baby.

We came to the hospital to see you.

Is it your birthday today?

Want to go see where the party is?

Come on, let's go, let's go.

Let's go.

Let's go.

Here it is.

Let's go.

That was so bad.

They were nervous.

That was nervous as me.

Okay.

Please.

Okay.

Oh Emi, you know what I'm talking about?

What?

We've got hand-rock.

We've got food.

I think this is going to be too good today.

Emi.

Smile.

Smile.

Hey.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Let's go, let's go.

You want to make some cookies?

Yeah.

Take your coach.

I'm going to put it on the table.

Oh.

Here, let's go.

Thank you.

Here, try some of the living room.

Is this for me?

Let me know.

Let me know.

Let me know.

Oh.

We've got the hall over.

Honey.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Keep all of that one.

You can have that one.

You can have that one.

Oh.

No, you eat this one.

That one.

Oh.

Oh.

Come on.

It's freezing.

Come inside.

Uh, spring is coming.

I can feel it.

Look at that.

You're crazy.

Hey.

Hey.

Hey.

Delphino.

Thanks.

Wow.

We're not dating.

Pretty much every Tuesday's and three years.

I call that dating.

We're friends, that's all.

I've seen it together, Mom.

We're way past friends.

No, we're not.

You finish each other's sentences, you laugh at the same jokes.

You care about the same things.

Don't you do that with all your close friends?

Okay, so if you're such close friends,

and you already see each other every week,

why don't you just start dating?

Because I don't want to turn it into more than it is.

Why not?

Because he's Ellen's husband.

Not anymore.

Look, one day he's going to figure out that I'm not Ellen.

I'm just the nurse who was there for him and Emi when they were down,

and in the end, I'll be the one who gets hurt.

Again, I'm not going to let myself fall in love with him, Sam.

I'm not.

He've already fallen in love with him.

He's still in love with Ellen.

It's not going to happen, Sam.

It's not.

Do you have any treats?

Hi.

How about this one?

To chop this old man down, drag him home, order a pizza.

I don't know, I think it's too thin.

It's not tall enough.

It has to be perfect.

Oh, man. Tough.

Crowd, Emi.

Tough. Crowd.

I can't eat pizza after this anyway, Brian.

I'm going over to a friend's house.

Hey, how are you going to do it?

Hang out.

Listen to music.

Jimmy Bluffett?

Not exactly.

He's so old.

He is not old.

Definitely not old.

Don't you like any of his songs?

No.

None zero?

One particular harbor?

Last mango in Paris.

It's a song, last mango.

In Paris.

Jollimon.

Cheeseburger and paradise.

Margaritaville.

Tell me you've heard of Margaritaville.

Even if you haven't, tell me you've heard of Margaritaville.

Give me some faith in your generation.

Margaritaville?

That's Jimmy Bluffett.

Let's see.

I guess so.

I can't go on.

We have time.

We can teach them.

There's a good one.

Oh, where?

What was that?

I think it was a kiss.

You know what I mean.

I want to be more than just friends.

I have too much bag as Brian.

I don't even think so.

We can't do it.

We can try.

Well, what if it doesn't work?

I don't want the girls to get hurt and I don't want to jeopardize my relationship with Emmy.

Claire, I would never do anything to her and your girls.

And I would never do anything to stand between you and Emmy.

Never.

I promise.

I want to be with you.

I want us to be together.

Did you ever come here for New Year's with Ellen?

No.

She wasn't a big fan of New Year's Eve.

She didn't like the whole idea of time marching on.

She wanted to freeze her life, keep everything just the way it was.

Brian, I can't be her.

I can't be Ellen.

Hey, ladies and gentlemen.

We all know what time it is so we raise.

Here we go.

Eight, ten.

Nine.

I love her, Claire.

Seven, six, five, four.

I don't need another one.

I need you.

I need you.

I need you.

I need you.

Here we go.

Thanks again, Brian.

Well, you're welcome again.

Good night.

Good night.

Do you want to come in?

No, I don't have to.

I want you to.

I don't want you to.

We can wait.

I don't want to wait.

I want you to be happy.

I am happy.

Where are the girls?

They're sleeping over at friends houses.

You plan with sting.

They did.

We had a time to go sit with her.

I've been locked for five hours.

One more time.

You've been taken care of it.

You've been locked in something so far.

You haven't got can of this long-term life.

If you're her, a trend.

I don't know how long I've gone for it.

But now you've lost me.

I want you to walk position.

Show me what you made me because I'm in need of this job.

Be here.

And,FX, do you know, how many boys?

All right.

Please don't do this.

We don't let me tell.

You have to come and come in for a week.

Let me go back to the floor.

I'll come to the floor.

I'll come to the floor.

I'll take it down.

Um, do you like what you see?

What do you mean?

I mean, you know, all of us together like this.

You know I do.

I'm sorry.

Forever?

I love you, Claire.

Will you marry me?

Yes, I will.

Cut me too.

Oh!

I got to get out of here.

Oh, you're so cute.

Yes, I will.

Cut me too.

Hey!

Oh!

Oh!

Oh!

Oh, you're so cute.

Oh!

Hello!

Hi!

Right now in this room.

Rachel, she sees how beautiful you look today.

Hi, Mommy.

Hi, Mommy.

Hi, Mommy.

Hi, Miss Sick.

I'll be right back.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

I'll be right back.

Oh, sorry.

No.

Oh!

Oh, my God.

Hey!

Hey!

Oh, my God.

Look!

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God.

I'm not going to be a good one.

You okay?

Before I loved you.

I know. You loved Emmy.

No, I loved Ellen.

She wanted us to be together.

You, me, the kids, all of us.

She made something wonderful out of her death.

She left something beautiful behind.

She was so brave.

Brian, I can't replace Ellen, but I promise I will love Emmy.

And I will always be there to tell her about her mother.

I will always be there to say all that look.

You look just like her.

Hey!

I've been here for 45 minutes.

I've been dressed for two hours.

Hi, Daddy.

Hi, Daddy.

Hi, Emmy.

Is this what I have to look forward to?

I have four women and me waiting.

Hi, Daddy.

Hi, Emmy.

Come on, I think we are locked.

Hello? Anyone there?

Daddy.

Hi, Emmy.

Come on in.

How do we look, Daddy?

Beautiful.

All right! Let's go get married.

I'm going to be here.

Dear Emily, I know that someone wonderful will be your mother.

Someone who will take care of you and Daddy.

Someone who will hold you and love you.

And in her eyes, you'll see my love.

You're going to have a beautiful life filled with laughter and love.

You're going to be happy, Emmy.

And that makes me happy.

I know all of this is true, Angel.

Because in my heart, I have faith in God's new plan.

All my love.

Mommy.

You're going to be happy.

You're going to be happy.