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i can't believe i'm doing this again

how many times am i gonna have to do this?

am i just...

make me do it forever?

maybe i should...

i don't know, maybe i should just move him out to a different school i...

just...

what...

i can't just keep going out every week

just to make sure he doesn't get bullied

i can't...

give my body over to him

every week

he needs me

he needs me

and i'm his mother

and i will do everything i can to protect him

my little boy

however how- however long it takes i...

just...

i've gotta watch out for him

he's such a sweet boy

i don't think he can...

if only his father were here

to teach him how to defend himself to...

to stand up for himself

if you don't know anything about that...

i wouldn't even know where to start

so this is the least i can do

i-i'll

i'll just do this for however long he needs me

just... never needs to know

never needs to know

never need to know what his mother does for him

ever

where are my shoes?

i think they're down here

maybe

it's right there

this box...

hi honey

hi

i was just looking for some shoes

you know your mother and all of her shoes i...

i was just trying to find something that would, you know, uh

uhm

match this uh...

this skirt

wha-

oh i- well i don't know

i thought uhm...

i thought tonight i could get a little...

uhm...

alone time

and you could get some along time too right?

y'know, well i was thinking

i could order you in some...

uh...

some pizza

or uhm...

indian or...

chinese or whatever you wanted

uhm...

y'know...

pick whatever one you want

really

yeah

and i'm just...

going to go out

what?

what do you mean?

you heard that?

honey...

well you weren't-

you weren't supposed to hear that

i-

i...

it's not like...

honey...

honey

i didn't want you to hear that

i- th- i- j- sh-

i shouldn't have said anything

okay

i know i know

you deserve the full explanation

i understand that

with your mom disappearing every week

the same day every...

i- i kn- i knew you would get suspicious

i just didn't think you would ever f-

find out

i had hoped you would never find out

just...

honey it was all for you

i- i only went to his house because i...

i love you

and i care about you and i would do...

absolutely anything for you

i know it's hard to accept this

oh honey

please

come-

just please sit down with me

it's so hard to say honey

i don't- i don't want to tell you

i'm sure-

i'm sure any mother would do what i did

any mother who loved her son like i-

like i love you

i mean it

i would do absolutely...

anything for you

so...

when you came home that one day and you were...

i could tell you were trying to hide it

but that...

that boy

was

very mean to you

i couldn't just stand by and watch you...

i had to protect you honey

i had too

so one day after you went to uhm...

to soccer practice i just uhm

i confronted that boy

the boy who was...

who was bullying you

and i told him

you better stop what you're doing right now

and uh

well he did

with uhm

with some...

convincing

you really don't need to know that honey

well you know boys your age...

he knew what he wanted

and uhm

you know

i only had-

one thing that i wanted to accomplish i wanted him to s-

to stop

picking on you

so...

well i...

i told him that he could do...

i told him he could do anything he...

wanted

to me

and uh...

well honey

uh

that's what- that's what he's been doing

to me

anything he's-

wanted

i'd let him

but honey it's- it's been for you

absolutely all for you

i couldn't-

i couldn't repeat the things that he's...

i mean well...

he just

has me arrive when his parents are gone and uh

well i just uh...

i just do as he says

nothing more

oh honey i could not

i would never ever tell you the details of what happens

with him

you don't want to imagine your mother doing those

vile things those...

sexual things

it's not like i...

you know it's not like i enjoy them or anything

no

well

since i don't enjoy them

some of the things that he's...

asked me to do

well it's so hard to say

what all of them were

he's had me do so many things

you know what, the first time i showed up at his house, he uhm...

i could hardly believe he was a virgin

even given his age

he uh...

he approached me with such confidence and i...

you know all i wanted to do was just...

all i wanted to do was give him exactly what he wanted, because

well

i was kind of in your position honey i mean...

i was...

i just...

i wanted

to give him what he wanted

so that

you wouldn't...

you wouldnt' be...

victimized anymore

so...

well i...

i was dressed in a tight...

mini skirt

stockings and...

he walked up to me as soon as i closed the door and

he...

he started touching me

and i let him

i...

i shouldn't have let him but i did

he started touching

my breasts and he...

he...

he...

he put his hand down my shirt

and he cupped my bare breast under my bra

and he felt my nipple get hard and..

i didn't want him to feel those things honey

i- i really didn't

but i let him

i let him do it

for as long...

for as long as he wanted to do it

oh no i didn't like it

no i didn't

no i didn't like it

honey

no don't let your imagination run away with you

i did not

like it

i was looking out for you

i wasn't interested in

a younger...

man touching me that way

i- i know your father hasn't...

well he's gone

and

feeling his hands on me like that...

i didn't like it

honey no

i did not like it

i do it-

i do it only to protect you

i just wanna watch out for you

no!

why-

why would i ever enjoy something like...

that

no i-

well he...

he

well he...

he asked me to take my shirt off

and uh...

well he uh...

had me take my bra off too

of course

'cause i mean every-

every boy's gonna wanna see...

a naked pair of breasts

it's only natural right?

and i thought it was so...

uh...

it was so...

innocent

really i thought...

if

if this was all it took

to uhm...

stop my

poor son from being...

bullied

then of course i would show this boy my bare breasts

and so i did

then i-

and then i saw his erection

i-

i didn't- i didn't want to acknowledge it but

then he started-

he started rubbing it through his pants

i couldn't s-

there's nothing i could do

i was just standing there with my breasts and my- my-

my nipples were getting harder

as i watched this...

young man

touching his

penis through his pants and...

he was getting himself harder and harder

couldn't-

well i wanted him to stop

i- i wanted him...

to say that that was...

all he wanted t-

from me

wasn't

wasn't

all he wanted from me

he wanted so much more

'cause y'know...

i can- i-

gave him

i gave him more

oh honey you can't expect me to tell you

what i did with this boy

i was...

that's...

it's not right

you shouldn't ever hear...

your mother doing those things

especially with a boy same age as you i mean...

it's almost as if i were...

doing it with-

honey no

no

i- i couldn't

it's not- it's not that i...

like that boy more

are you kidding me?

you're my son

i would do anything for you i have

i have done everything for you

i have

i can't

i don't want you to feel like i...

i like that boy more than you

i love you

i did everything i-

i did for you

don't feel like that

alright alright

it's only fair

that you see exactly what he saw

here

i don't know

i mean i am your mother

he wanted me to wear...

just this shirt tonight

i think he likes me without a bra

not that i like to oblige him but i just wanted to...

make sure that...

he was happy so that you wouldn't...

you wouldn't be bullied

i don't know

i don't-

oh honey

it would seem so wrong

if i let him look at me like this and...

not you

and that's the only reason

i don't know why thought i'm so...

i-

so i liked it to let my son look at them

to look at me

you like them?

oh no honey i couldn't

i couldn't tell you all the things he did to me

all the things he made me do

for you

i coul- i couldn't tell you, i couldn't-

i couldn't burden you with that

such a-

a heavy burden

i couldn't possibly tell you

i know you- i know...

i know i owe you that

i know i do

you deserve me more than any other...

man

you have no idea

okay

go ahead

oh honey

okay

i might've liked it a little bit

but don't ev- don't ever tell him that

that

i like it more when you do it to me

pinch my nipples honey

no honey

i can't keep talking like this

i can't keep telling you all the things he did to me

he'd- he'd pull my skirt up

and run his hands up and down my thighs

and on the inside

i let him

honey

i can- i can't

i won't

i don't want you to see me like this

he touched me

and-

i couldn't help but moan

i c-

i'd lied earlier

when he touched me there honey

when he touched me there i couldn't help but like it

i didn't want to

i really didn't

but...

i couldn't help it

when his hands touched my...

right between my legs i couldn't...

i cou-

well i couldn't stop myself and i was about-

well you know i was gonna let him do anything he wanted to me

oh i couldn't help-

but like what he was gonna do to me

honey

yes

yes it was just like that

but please

please take your hands out of your mother's pantyhose

i do like it

i do

i do

oh honey

yeah

i never wanted you...

to know

i didn't

oh honey

but now that you know

you- you deserve....

everything

god honey

honey

yeah

i'd hate it, but...

then he'd

see how wet i was

so he could know when...

when to...

when to put it in

he'd put his fingers inside of me

and i would just let him

i would let him honey

i would let him do anything he wanted to me

do it baby

do it

i want you to have...

everything he's had and more

do it honey

you feel how wet i am baby?

it's all for you honey

it's all for you

look at me honey

oh i know this is...

so confusing

you have to understand i-i did everything i did for you

i really did

i don't know

i want you to do it to me

honey

i want you to do what he did to me

because i love you more

honey

i want you to fuck your mother

i want you to fill me with your cum

before i go to see him

fill me up baby

i want you inside of me

'cause i love you more

shh

i do

i love you so so much more

i want you to feel it

i want you to feel your mother's love

all around your cock

honey

yes honey yes

yes

i want you to know how much i love you baby

and all the things i would do for you

i would do-

anything

and everything for you baby

it's just to show you how much i love you

i know honey

i know

do you have any idea...

you don't do you?

how much i love you

i love you s-

so

so much

honey

you have to let me do this

i know you...

i know you're protective of me too

you have to let me protect you baby

it's a mother's-

right

to protect her baby boy

and do anything it takes

even if-

if it means-

to be fucked by another...

man

oh honey

i want you to

yes

because i love you

and i want you-

i want you inside of me

oh yes honey

no-

honey

put it in your mother

i don't want his cum inside of me

i want your cum inside of me

come on honey

oh no keep it in there

keep it inside of me

do you see how much i love you now?

do you see the lengths i would go?

the things i would do?

for you

just want you to be happy

i wanna stay baby i do

i wanna stay here with you i wanna stay...

i wanna stay with you inside of me

but i can't

i can't

i have to go

i have to go for you baby

it's for you

but i won't-

i won't clean myself up i-

i want you inside of me

when i go to his house

i want you to know how much i love you

you'll always be with me

every day

baby

will you do that for me

every...

day

just wait here for me

i'll be back in no time at all

i love you baby

i love you