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When there's nowhere else to run, is there room for one more

sun?

One more sun.

If you can't hold on.

If you can't hold on.

Hold on.

asking you to give me the lease for free. I'm telling you to overcharge me

the rest of the building and then look the other way for the rent on that

Oh, you can't or you won't.

Ashley, I got this. Why don't you take a long lunch?

Okay. Because if you can't, Alan, I got to talk to the person who can.

And if you won't, well, let's talk about why you won't. I always say that

everything happens for a reason.

Now, I have something I have to get to, so I have exactly five more minutes to

spend on this.

But just so we're clear, at the end of this call, we will either have a deal or

we will never have a deal.

No, no, no, no. Today is the day. I can't be in this marriage anymore. I

be with you.

Now, in exactly five hours and 12 minutes, Catherine's going to come home.

going to want to get takeout Indian food again.

My people are from Milwaukee. We weren't bred to eat that much vindaloo.

I don't know what I'm going to tell Theo.

Maybe the daddy needs to be happy.

Eddie! Damn it.

I forgot my briefcase.

Didn't you notice I left it?

Hey, you!

Great.

Now I lost an hour out of my day.

Now I don't have time to think of Theo.

You got him, right? Oh, actually I was going to teach a guitar lesson at noon.

Unbelievable. She didn't find the motion like I told her to. Why is everyone an

idiot?

Okay, so you got Theo?

Yeah.

See you tonight.

You know you gotta help me out.

Yeah, yeah.

Don't you put me on the back burner.

You know you gotta help me out.

Yeah, yeah. You know you gotta help me out.

Yeah, yeah.

You're gonna bring yourself down.

Yeah, yeah.

You're gonna bring yourself down. Sorry to keep you waiting, Gary. Just wanted

to review your x -ray.

It's in line with what I was expecting.

Wow, Doc.

The dispenser's killing me.

Is anything else killing me?

The fact is... Dr. Martin?

No. I was very clear.

Balsamic vinaigrette.

Yes, they do. I get that three days a week. It's right next to the edamame.

Are you looking at the edamame? That brownish liquid next to the edamame is

called... I don't mean to interrupt what sounds like a super important salad

conversation. I just have one quick question.

Is my cancer back?

I got so, but I'm not a soldier. I

got

so, but I'm not a soldier.

I got so, but I'm not a soldier.

What?

You're not going to believe this.

John killed himself.

30 seconds ago, you said they suck. 30 seconds ago, they did suck. Hey, guys, I

want to get a photo really quick.

Do yourself a favor and tuck that hideous necklace, please.

This good luck charm just got the Bruins their last goal.

Oh, really? I thought it was past tonight.

Damn it, I can't believe John is missing this.

I saw it. Why don't you party, Mom, up there? Sunshine, you're a lady. I love

the necklace, by the way. Hey, gentlemen, I just want to get one party

four of us on opening night. Can we do that? A thirst -quenching, ice -cold

for the commercial director.

Got one for Nunes McGee. Hey, I had breast cancer.

I know.

No nips.

Oh, my.

A flat ginger ale for the stay -at -home mom. Yeah, that's right.

Well, at least I have nips. Cancer in my body, people. What is this?

Is this another charm to the necklace?

I promised Theo I'd bring him something home from the game. And now you're going

to be up for stay -at -home dad of the year.

You think they do that ceremony at home?

You guys forget that this stay -at -home dad was once the lead singer in a band

who opened up for Kings of Leon.

That was a decade ago, and you were so wasted that you forgot it. And the

to the only decent song you guys have.

Do they have a decent song? You know, since then I've been working on my crap.

What's this?

Teaching guitar lessons. Hey, you guys suck.

And you still owe me for the guitar lesson this week to your daughter.

Oh, what's that? Is that Catherine calling to check on your balls? Wouldn't

need those back?

Guys, lives are off limits.

One photo. Four of us. Ed, seriously.

If money's the reason we're still together, I'll write you a check

Yeah?

Life's too short. Just be happy.

That was just last week.

How does this happen? Why did he do this? It makes no sense.

Look, I haven't been to church since I left for college, but I think I'm going

to swing by on Sunday because someone needs to explain this to me.

Life's too short. Just be happy. How are we supposed to do that, John, without

our best friend?

He should be here. I don't know when some guy he could call to fix all this.

I just, I can't accept this.

Regina, these are amazing.

What is this, pork?

Bill. Hey, Garrett.

Pork. Hey, Garrett, stop.

Those are for after the funeral. Yeah, for the guest. It's actually capable

of... Expressing human emotion. After what Gary had to do, he can have as many

as he wants.

I can't imagine having to tell Delilah.

By the way, if any of you have delivering horrific news on your bucket

take it off. It's not as fun as you think.

I went to see her and I just... I don't know what to say.

I mean, what do you say to the woman who just lost the love of her life?

Guys, this doesn't make any sense.

This is John.

Perfect John.

How do we know he didn't just fall?

Because he's not four.

When I spoke to Ashley, she said that up until then, it was a normal day at the

office. He wasn't upset.

She said he was making jokes.

How could he not leave a note?

But then again, what could a person possibly write that could explain any of

this?

He could have said something. Because right now, this doesn't add up.

I want to pick what Dad would pick.

Stripes. No question.

What am I... Why are we riding in a limo?

Sophie, sweetie, I just need to know that you know what you're wearing

Because, honey, I want the three of us to be together.

Okay, so should I just make something for you?

I want to play a song for him at the service.

I mean, if that's okay.

Yeah.

He would love that.

Um, Mom?

I love you guys.

And so I always find a reason for Randall and I to have the lights off.

I'm just not ready for him to see me like this.

He thinks I'm really into candles.

I like candles.

I like pillows.

Sue me. Thanks, Peggy.

What we all here share in common is the incredible relief to be in remission.

That said, we all take life after breast cancer in a different way, and you have

to find the way that works for you.

Maggie, did you maybe want to introduce yourself?

Sure. Okay.

My name is Maggie.

Hi, Maggie.

Hi, everyone.

Honestly?

Old me never would have come to a group like this, but I just feel like I'm

in a place where I feel like I...

I am so sorry. What is he doing here?

Men get breast cancer, too. It is a real thing. It only affects 1 % of us, but

it got all of me. Believe me, I would have preferred ball cancer.

Sorry, Joan.

The boys are doing just fine.

By the way, in case you were wondering.

Good to know. Thank you. Also, I only ate one donut, Gail.

I'm Gary.

To friendship.

To friendship.

Wait, no, I'm not done.

I'm not done.

Come on, chuckleheads.

Friendship is when you don't care when your buddy throws up in your car when

you're taking him back from chemo.

And yet, he keeps mentioning it.

Friendship is believing that your friend will one day make his movie.

What do you think I'm doing?

It's holding a friend's hand when she loses her restaurant.

You know she's going to open up a better one. It's a person that you trust with

your wallet and your keys and your wife and your kids.

And it's being able to have the hard conversations and being willing to

It's a million little things.

A million little things.

A million little things.

Hey, babe.

I know we talked about postponing our vacation to Kona because of John, but I

think John might be the reason we should go.

Obviously, my boots are fake.

Really beautiful.

Why didn't he just tell Delilah he was hurting?

You know?

Gina, thank you.

What is it?

What?

I think we should go to Kono.

Okay.

I

keep

waiting because it feels weird starting without John here.

A part of me keeps thinking that at any moment John is going to hang up that god

-awful blackberry he refused to get rid of and come barreling through those

doors right there.

Wow.

Sorry. Sorry.

I'm just nudging you guys.

Thanks.

All right.

That was perfect.

You see,

John always said, everything happens for a reason.

He refused to believe in coincidence, even how we all met. People always

John, Gary, Rome, and I went to college together.

John was always quick to say, you think these douchebags could get into Harvard?

Now, the real way we met was so random.

We were all on an elevator.

It got stuck.

Now, there are two kinds of people on elevators. People who don't talk to

strangers. And John.

John started talking and talking.

And he got really deep at some point.

And then he found out we were all Bruins fans.

Even Rome.

Go Bees.

By the time the Boston Fire Department tried to open those doors, John had

convinced us to go in on season tickets.

We never took our money. It's 41 home games a year.

In that decade, our friendship has moved outside the garden.

A couple of us got married. A couple of us had kids. One of us beat cancer, and

one of us got sober.

John was the one who pulled me aside right after Theo was born and told me

I needed to stop drinking.

I haven't had a drink in almost seven years because that random guy who I

two and a half hours in an elevator with was there for me.

And it absolutely kills me that I wasn't there for you, buddy.

John, you say everything happens for a reason.

I can't find a reason for this.

Now, John's daughter Sophie would like to play a song for her father.

If she plays something by Bruno Mars, I will burn this place down.

That was beautiful.

Thank you.

Love you, Daddy.

of angel hair ice cream castles in the air

feathered canyons everywhere I've looked

at clouds that way

Wow, you're just doing that.

Well, you're not talking, so I'm trying to figure out who you really are because

the guy with breast cancer seems to be the least surprising thing about you.

You're running low on this. I wasn't sure if you knew that. Oh, bullseye.

Charleston shoes.

These are my favorite.

No, no, no, no. Don't eat that. I have no idea where that even came from.

Any idea where this came from?

Probably. Whoever owns that candy bar.

I'm so sorry.

Thanks.

You're amazing through all of this.

You're so important to John.

I was only so happy it worked. I didn't... I know.

It's okay.

Just to be clear, I don't want to be here.

Yeah. Makes two of us.

You are stronger than all of us combined.

Hey, bro.

You coming? Yeah, I just forgot these, man.

That's smart.

Their living room gets very sunny.

I heard about the Shasta campaign.

Congrats. It's amazing.

Yeah, well, it's not making my movie, but if I can get one person, just one

person to buy a soda.

How's work with you?

Oh, crazy, as usual.

Just rushing in to give Delilah a quick hug.

I didn't realize this would be an all -day thing.

Welcome to my world.

Just confirming you bought a date to our friend's funeral.

It was morning.

Okay, I wanted to buy her breakfast, and we ran out of time.

So I made her breakfast.

And where'd you meet this one?

Ten bucks says there's breast cancer support group, and if I'm right, you're

gross. And you're ten bucks richer.

So what, you're just working your way around the circle?

I gotta be honest, it doesn't feel like work to me.

That's just... What? Not okay.

Nothing's okay about that. Very okay.

No, it's not.

That night that my water broke?

Yeah, the car five days.

I don't know how he got them to take it back.

He had a way with people.

Yeah.

He always made me feel like I was part of the group.

All right, everybody, listen up. This is Maggie, right? Okay, this is Rome,

Regina, and Ed.

Eddie, that was a beautiful eulogy. Yeah, you made this one cry.

Are we sure that's why she's crying?

Okay, just so you're not left out, a long time ago, these two went on a date.

One horrendous date. What is this? Why are we doing this?

Man up.

Well, you say it was bad, but did it end with him taking you to a funeral?

I love her so much.

Who is this woman?

I mean, why didn't he get help?

Yeah, to a lot of people, still taboo.

On my dad's side, they'd be like, we black, we don't talk about that, we got

Jesus.

Maybe he just fell outside of the horizon.

I was watching this documentary on JFK Jr.

You remember when his plane went down? July 16th, 1999.

It's my birthday. No, your birthday is the 12th. This is the only grown man

in existence to celebrate his birthday for a whole week.

Happy birth week is not a thing, Ed.

Anyway... Kennedy was a novice pilot, and he was flying at night, and the

came in.

His instruments were telling him which way was up, but he didn't trust them.

The truth was right in front of him, and he couldn't see it.

And he lost sight of the horizon and nosedived.

And by the time he realized what was happening, it was too late.

He couldn't pull up.

And what does this have to do with it?

Depression.

Now, maybe he wasn't depressed.

I mean, maybe something else was going on. People keep secrets from their close

friends and loved ones.

Sometimes you don't even know they have these secrets until an event like this

happens.

Okie doke.

Apparently...

Maggie moonlights as an armchair psychologist.

That's true. But during the day, I'm a clinical psychologist at Boston General,

specializing in depression.

Tell me you knew the occupation of your funeral plus one. No, he did not.

No, I did not.

Hey, Maggie.

Would you mind if I got your business card?

Oh, yeah, sure. The whole thing we were saying about losing sight of the

horizon. Yeah.

Hey, hey, hey, whoa.

Really? Because I went on one date a million years ago with your wife?

No, you know what? I want this for you. The movie I'm trying to make has a

therapist in it.

Okay? Oh.

Just want to ask Maggie a few questions.

Okay.

There's a brewing scheme tonight, isn't there?

John hated waiting for us. Made a fitting alarm on our damn phone.

You guys should go.

Seriously, you should go. You know you wouldn't want the tickets going to

And I can use some time alone.

My best friend.

My new friend.

Maggie, please stay.

Yeah? Yeah, sure.

Yeah, all right. Well, we fully support this plan. There's only one problem. The

tickets.

Are in John's outfit.

Correct.

So anyway, we just, we wanted to be in his space for a little while, get some

closure, let the reality of what happened sink in. You need the tickets.

Yep. Yeah.

Ash, what are you doing here? Tell me you're not working.

Just tying up odds and ends.

You gotta love odds and ends.

Shut it down.

What? John specifically said do not have sex with her.

And we're sure he was talking to me?

I feel like I just threw a party for John. He's not even here.

He would have loved it.

He would have been so mad that I let people in the house, but you know.

I just felt like I had to make it easy for everybody today.

How could I not know?

How could I not?

We're here for you.

I'm here for you.

Whatever you need.

I need a time machine.

Do you have any idea why he did this?

Why does everyone keep asking me that?

Sorry, I just, uh...

You know you were with them all day.

No, like you guys did.

It's a code.

See?

There are things you know that we don't.

He was on that business call for a really long time. It's not the last call

made. No, yeah, it was.

When I came in to give him the mail, he was standing on the balcony just...

Finishing up the call.

He made a call right after that.

To you.

Yeah, John called you at 12 .27.

Yeah, Monday. It's noon. I teach this kid Talbot guitar during his lunch

I turned my phone off and rang once during a recital.

Yelled at the parents, which was brilliant, because it turned out to be

phone.

He tried to call me.

I can't tell what you're doing right now. Well, maybe I could have. No, stop

Ashley. Look at it.

No,

I just like to give Gary crap.

Seriously, Gary's an amazing friend.

Underneath that hot mess is... Lukewarm mess.

I just... Never thought that a guy like Gary would be the first man to truly

understand what I'm going through.

Were you scared?

Yeah. I see that in Gary. He tries to hide it, but even though he's in

remission, it's like he's afraid he's going to come back.

Is it the same for you?

As much as I can be similar to Gary.

To John.

And to that tradition he started on the elevator all those years ago.

I'm not drinking to that. I spend 40 hours a week valuing people's lives for

insurance companies. The time...

That we've been together isn't worth a damn thing.

Dude, really.

Do the math. Average length of a hockey game is 2 hours 19 minutes times 41 home

games for 10 years.

That means I spent almost 950 hours sitting next to John and I had no

idea that he was depressed.

Did you?

Did you? No. You want to know why?

Because we don't talk.

Yes, we do. No, Ed.

We don't. The last time we said anything deep was when we were in that elevator.

We were more honest with each other before we were friends. Now we do this.

sit shoulder to shoulder like guys, like we're doing right now.

And the truth, the very sad truth, is that we don't really know each other.

I bet you two don't even know what color my eyes are.

Yeah.

I'll drink. I'll drink to whatever we thought this was.

Think I liked you better with cancer. Me too.

You have your own place?

I did.

I opened a restaurant with an investor.

It was years ago now.

But she rented way too big a space.

We just couldn't make the rent.

The first time I ever met John, he helped me get out of that lease.

I didn't even know him.

I mean, he was doing it more as a favor to Rome, but still.

And because of John, I'm not giving up.

I'm going to open up my own place again someday.

And this time, I'm going to do it right.

Grab your coat.

I feel glad you said that. It's freezing out here. No, we're going to go on a

road trip. I need to show you something.

What is it?

It's the last thing John did before he died.

Look. Gary, I know you like to go dark, but I need this to not be as horrible as

it is because I keep thinking that maybe I could have done something. Like what,

Ed? Like maybe if you hugged him one more time, you'd still be alive? You

magic hugs? Who the hell are you?

Well, apparently someone who's a little more in touch with his emotions than you

are.

Enjoy the game, bro.

Should be a good one.

Maybe John's death is like a wake -up call.

You know, it's like he always said.

Everything happens for a reason. Are you kidding?

Our friend offed himself.

What are you saying? If we lived better lives, he wouldn't have died in vain?

Maybe. Yeah. Okay, well, I got news for you. That's not going to happen.

Because we're not going to live any differently.

You hate your stupid job, your words. But you won't quit because directing

athenine pizza commercials pays way too much money.

You and your wife can't stand each other. But you will never leave her. Not

ever. Because you're too afraid to take a chance.

On yourself. People always say they're going to live differently.

And you know what? We will for exactly two weeks.

And then we'll go right back to doing the same crap that we've always done.

I'm in love with someone.

What? She's a mom who won my student.

We did not mean for it to happen.

But I love her. And she believes in me.

And I...

I need to leave Catherine, but I just have to make sure everything's okay with

Theo first.

And I'm in love with beer.

Mind if I go ahead of you guys?

Sorry about that. Sorry about that.

I'm thrilled that you're getting out of marriage.

It's more toxic than anything that's ever been in my body, but it's your need

credit ending something that should have ended two years ago to our friend

jumping off a concrete diving board. It's not just that. It's the fact. I

haven't had a drink.

In seven years.

Because that same friend stepped onto an elevator.

Knock it off. Knock it off with the elevator crap, man. What do you think I

would have done if I hadn't met you guys? Seriously.

I would have become friends with three other schmucks. I mean, look around.

There are Bruins fans all over the place.

Gary.

How does a man who beat cancer not see that maybe there is a reason that things

happen? Let me be very clear.

First of all, God didn't cure my cancer.

Science did.

Secondly. It's not that I don't have cancer, Ed. It's that I don't have

right now.

The all -clear screening I got this week just gives me permission to hold my

breath for another three months.

Right for me.

Damn it, John. You had everything.

Everything happens for a reason?

Really? Tell me one good thing that's happened because of this.

One.

If you hadn't called to tell me about John, I would be dead right now.

I had a mouth full of pills when I answered that phone.

And I know, I know, I know, that sounds crazy.

Because I have an incredible life.

And I am married to the most amazing woman, but sometimes I feel so hopeless.

Like I can't believe.

Only I'm believing.

And I just, I think, you know, maybe if I just stopped, it wouldn't hurt so

much.

And for the record, Gary, your eyes are hazel.

And they're magnificent.

We got you, man.

Come on, we got you. Come on.

So Ashley told me at the house today that, uh...

The last thing John did was close this huge real estate deal. Of course we did.

I wanted you to see it. Wait, this is it?

John's last deal was for the old Griffin Street Bakery building.

This place is incredible.

On the bottom floor, there is this great restaurant space.

That's why John fought so hard to get it.

Your new restaurant is opening spring of 2019.

Wait, what?

John's last deal was for me.

Why?

Why? Yeah.

Because he believed in you. He was working on it for months and he didn't

mention it to Ro. He wanted to surprise you.

No.

How are we able to do this?

I thought you had a music lesson to teach today.

Oh, I did.

But Talbot, you got pink eye.

No. Did I love that pink eye? I'm sorry. Are you rubbing your eye right now?

I am. Can I have it checked, please?

Calendly, you are beautiful.

Even with the pink eye.

Shall we toast?

Yes. Where did you get the wine?

Oh, I brought the wine.

And the glasses.

from your house. I really love this woman.

To John.

To John.

We can't do this.

Not now.

What if he knew about us?

What if that's why he did it?

He didn't know.

Maybe that's why he tried to call you.

You should answer it.

Now I'll call him in ten minutes from the car.

We need to tell you.

I know.

I know.

Tell me you don't love me.

And I will leave here right now.

If you love me, kill me right now.

And sometimes you even try to change it.

Oh, hey, bud.

I just wanted to get my hockey stick.

What are you doing?

But as bad as this seems, there is good.

And you will find it.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now, from up and down, and still

somehow it's clouds illusions I recall.

I really don't know clouds at

all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud.

Say I love you right out loud.

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds.

I've looked at life that way.

But now old friends are acting strange.

They shake their heads and say I've changed.

Well something's lost but something's gained.

In living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose, and still somehow

it's life's illusions I recall.

I really don't know life.