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Would you have it any other way?

I'm going in. All this palaver to make plum pudding for one person!

It's not just any person, it's your brother. Pass me the wine.

Uh-uh.

Oh, Mum! Mmm, mmm... Mum! Mmm. Mmm. Ha-ha!

Thanks. OK, what do you think? OK.

Oh...

Eurgh! THEY LAUGH

Oh, well, Rob'll love it. He'd better. Mmm.

And I don't want any fighting over Christmas.

Do you hear? Same goes for you and Dad.

DOORBELL RINGS

DOG BARKS I'm not going like this.

Right, I'll go.

The British Embassy were contacted by officials in Thailand

earlier today.

As your local police station,

we've been informed that a body's been identified,

believed to be your son, Rob.

No, no!

A group of young people swimming late at night.

He must have got into difficulty.

He drowned.

No!

No! He was identified earlier today

by a travelling companion, Ayesha Farewell.

Oh, well, she's, she's wrong.

She's... She's wrong.

I'm afraid I have to ask you to come to the station.

We'll need you to confirm the evidence sent through

by the Embassy. No!

It won't be him, it won't be him. LUKE SOBS

Please, Luke, make it not him!

Make it not Rob...

Make it not Rob!

Make it not Rob! I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry, Mum!

I'm so sorry!

THEY SOB

LUKE CHINKS GLASS Erm...

Thank you all for coming to celebrate Rob's birthday with us.

It's been two months...

..and while I can't say it gets any easier,

I can say how very grateful we are

for all the support and help that you've shown us.

Rosalie.

Er, yes, erm, thank you.

Our son...

..would have been 20 today.

To Rob.

ALL: To Rob.

Ayesha, can I talk to you in private for a minute? Yeah, sure.

Rob had his place at Physical Education College.

He had to be the strongest swimmer on that beach.

We were pretty wasted.

Oh.

Why didn't anyone notice he was gone,

call for help?

So, there were different groups all along the beach.

He could've been with any one of them.

And not one person noticed?

It wasn't like I was looking for him.

I'm sorry.

The Thai police asked me to identify him, so...

LUKE: Rosalie?

You know, I thought maybe you could help me

go through Rob's things.

You know, we could talk about him.

We weren't, you know, like that,

a couple. They didn't find his phone.

Did he leave it on the beach? I mean,

did someone pick it up? I don't know.

I... I have to catch my train.

It was a terrible, tragic accident, Rosie.

Well, I'll never accept that.

Never! I mean, how can you say that? He was your son!

Please, can you just calm down, Rosie? Don't tell me to calm down!

We've talked this through, Rosalie.

Have we? What, just like we talked about

your affair with Wendy?! Oh, come on!

We really sorted that out, didn't we? Please,

let's not go there again! Erm...

It's been a long day.

I think we should give the family some privacy, don't you?

He hit his head, he was knocked unconscious.

SHE SIGHS Rosie, love, please!

You know that he wouldn't dive around

the rocks in the middle of the night.

If you want to help each other,

you have to work together. I can't. I...

I can't move on the way that you want us to. I...

She wants me out. Oh...

Please, if you want to help me, just...

just give me some space.

PHONE RINGS

RECORDED MESSAGE: Hi, you've reached Maddie, sorry I can't get to

the phone right now. Please leave a message after the tone...

Answer your bloody phone, Maddie!

DOOR OPENS

DOG BARKS Maddie?

Oh... Oh, Maddie.

SHE SIGHS

MADDIE RETCHES

That's it.

PHONE RINGS

OK, yep. Thank you.

The school realises this is a hugely difficult time for you.

But no problem booting her out!

We have every sympathy,

but constant truancy, disruption?

She was drunk in class the other day.

How are things at home? Could that be affecting her?

We, erm...

We're not together at the moment.

Well, I suggest you pull together, with regard to your daughter.

I'll consider one last suspension,

if you can find a way to help her deal with her grief.

You can't explain the pain to someone who hasn't gone through it.

Sometimes, it's almost physical.

It comes in waves.

It's like, erm...

No...

Thank you for listening.

We have some new members in the group this evening.

Perhaps they'd like to share?

Only when you're ready.

My name's Jed.

Jed Cousins. I don't

remember a lot about my parents, to tell the truth.

I was only four when they...

they had the crash.

Me nan brought us up.

A right old...battleaxe.

She always wore a scarf round her head.

I swear she went to sleep with that scarf!

I didn't give it to her easy.

I was... I was a difficult kid.

Everyone cut me some slack because the...

poor lad had lost his mum and dad.

At 16, I left home and went to London.

At first, I'd call her once a week...

..pretending I was doing

all these brilliant jobs when, really, I was...

..scraping by.

It was always next month...

I was coming home.

A neighbour called to say she'd passed.

I never thought much about my nan before.

Now she's gone, she's all I think about.

It's doing me head in.

I really liked your talk. I mean,

if liked is the right word to use.

Thanks. I can just picture your nan,

with that scarf. THEY LAUGH

I'm pretty sure she was bald under that!

I'm Rosalie.

This is my daughter, Maddie.

Hiya. Hi.

Was that your...

your husband?

Er, no. My son.

I'm sorry. It's fine. Er, thank you very much for speaking.

Very brave of you.

Thanks. Pleasure. Well done.

Thank you, Tom.

Er, Jed? Erm, we haven't had dinner yet

and we live round the corner.

You're more than welcome.

I wouldn't want to... It's no trouble. It's just lasagne,

garlic bread. It's not even dinner, more supper.

What would you call dinner, if lasagne's supper?!

Ha-ha! Well, I'll take that as a yes! Yeah.

Perfect.

MADDIE GIGGLES

DOOR OPENS It's only me!

SHE WHISPERS: I know.

It's a young guy who we met at counselling. Jed.

So, it went OK?

We'll get there.

All of us together again.

In time. I hope so. Hi, Dad!

I didn't hear you come in. Hi! Mwah!

Mmm! Just dropping by. Erm... Oh, er,

Luke, Jed. Jed, Luke.

Hello. Nice to meet you. You too.

Right, well, thank you for dinner, or supper, whatever you call it.

You're welcome.

I'll, er... I'll see yous, see yous again?

Er, next week?

Sure. I'll show him out.

It was really nice to have you over...

And get this, he doesn't drink,

he doesn't smoke, feels guilty about his dead nan.

He's really lovely.

I know. You don't have to say it.

Ooh!

There we go.

There you go.

Ha-ha! Strong hands.

Holding that. Ha-ha-ha!

That's a good shout. Here?

You'd make a good gardener.

Why would you do that?! Why would I do what?!

No! No, don't do that!

Ha! All right, all right...

Go on, give it me. Give it me. Go on.

There you go. Go on. Perfect, perfect, perfect...

Agh!

No! Ha!

I'm not saving you!

Ha-ha-ha!

I'm going to have to go home and get a change of clothes.

Oh, erm...

You can take jeans and a T-shirt from Rob's room, if you want.

Er, that might be difficult for you.

Yeah, it will be difficult, but...

Er, you're kind of in my space, Jed.

And you're getting my kitchen floor all wet.

SHE GIGGLES

Ha!

Go on.

How long have you been here now, Jed? A couple of months or so.

Do you see a future for yourself in the gardening business?

Yeah.

Maybe. Well, you must have a vision of

where you're going to be in the future? It won't be as a priest,

that's for sure! THEY LAUGH

Right, bon appetit, everyone. Mmm!

Only work would keep my son away from

your hotpot, Rosie. SHE LAUGHS

Looks like you're going to be

man of the house for a while, Jed. Ha!

Hardly. Stop it now, Fay. Stop what?

I'm as grateful to this young man

as the next person.

Look what he's done. He's turned Maddie around.

I'm actually in the room, Gran!

My point exactly.

Shall we change the subject now?

Did your nan have

any man friends, Jed? THEY LAUGH

Er, not that I know of.

She was into her books. Oh.

What sort of books?

Catherine Cookson?

Danielle Steel? Am I right?

More of a Trollope fan. Dickens.

I can't really remember, to be honest. Outed for

the middle-class snob that you are, Gran. Guilty as charged.

THEY CHUCKLE I've had it easier than some.

Rosalie started out as a care worker.

That's how we met.

Owner of three of the best residential homes in the county.

Only because you believed in me. Oh...

Not bad, eh,

for a girl from the roughest council estate?

You know, I kind of thought you'd be from...

all this. No.

No, my mum was left with two young kids when my father bailed.

What's that silly saying - "poor, but happy"? Ha!

But we were.

Poor is shite, whatever way you look at it.

You know what it's like to want things, though.

We've got a lot in common.

Yeah, of course we do.

Maddie.

Losing someone.

If that's what you mean. No, it's, like, more than that.

I don't know, it's me being stupid, I just...

I feel like I've known you a lot longer,

that's all.

It's weird.

You lost your mother, I lost my son.

Maybe that's the connection you feel.

I think that we both have to be careful not to...

..not to get everything mixed up.

Yeah. Maybe you're right.

Oh, thanks for this. You're welcome.

Night. Night, Jed.

HEAVY BREATHING

KNOCK ON DOOR

DOOR OPENS

I've given Mrs Flynn last rites.

Her family's with her now.

Everything OK?

Yeah, I just...

I just haven't been sleeping very well.

Worried about Jed?

What do you mean? Has he told you his real name yet?

His real name?

Jethro.

I Googled his parents' accident.

Why would you do that? And looked up his nan's obituary.

Rita Cousins.

She did have a partner, for many years.

He's mentioned in her obituary.

Jed said she was alone.

What have you got against him?

Nothing!

Seems perfect.

Maybe that's the problem.

PHONE BEEPS

Oh, shit!

DOOR OPENS

DOOR SHUTS

The alarm's gone off in the cottage again. Oh!

What cottage? Oh, it's this old shack in the middle of nowhere

that everyone loves except me. It'll be the wind, or a fox, or something.

The police never check. I'll go up there tomorrow to make sure. Well,

not on your own, Mum. I'm coming with you.

You're not missing another day of school, missy! Mum!

Maddie, I'm not listening to this! Please, it's really important,

It's just, I don't want you to go up on your own...

Thanks, Mum. I'll feel better. There's really no need.

I know. I just want you to come home safe.

Thank you.

See you later. Bye.

Argh!

It's a power cut.

Happens here a lot.

Oh, it's been forced. Wait there,

I'll check upstairs.

No, nothing.

Must have been hikers, taking a chance. They taken anything?

They didn't find them.

My mum couldn't afford much, but she never missed our books.

There's some first editions in there.

I bought them, over the years.

Valeria.

My heroine.

God, how I wanted a crystal pendant, with magic powers, like hers!

Ha! Huh!

My mum bought me a glass one, so I couldn't...

I couldn't get a crystal one after that.

Why not?

It would be like saying her present wasn't good enough.

You're a...kind person, aren't ya?

Sorry, am I allowed to say that?

Ha! It's a nice thing to say, why wouldn't you say it?

It's getting dark. We should, er, we should go.

Maddie will be getting worried.

There we go.

Maddie?

I won't hurt you, or your mum, again.

It was a mistake.

It was a shit mistake, Dad.

I really am sorry.

It's OK.

Since Rob,

well, everything else feels like small stuff.

I'm sure I left them in the car.

I'm just going to check inside.

This is hopeless, Jed.

They must've come out of your hand when that bird flew out.

It's too dark.

We'll have to look again in the morning.

Right, OK.

Mum? Nah, it's me.

But she managed to get through.

She can't find her car keys, is all.

I'm going to stay the night.

OK.

CUTLERY SCRAPES I'm not very hungry.

Did Rob enjoy coming here?

We used to have to bribe Maddie to come up here,

but Rob was in his element.

We'd hike for miles in the woods.

He was an outdoors lad.

Knew how to take care of himself.

That's why it'll never sit with me.

My boy, drowning.

Not Rob.

I wanted to go back to Thailand and ask questions,

see where it happened, but...

..Maddie was out of control. We couldn't leave her. And...

..Luke and I couldn't stay together.

All that toxic anger between us.

And all we wanted was our son back.

I want him back!

I'm sorry. No, don't apologise.

I can't pretend to understand what that...

pain must feel like...

..but I do know that...

..losing someone and not getting the chance to say goodbye...

..it feels unfair.

Yeah.

CUTLERY SCRAPES

If you're cold, there are more blankets in the cupboard.

Goodnight.

DOOR OPENS

Jed, what the...?!

You were calling me. Just...

get out!

Just get out of my room!

Found 'em.

Like I thought, they were in the grass, by the car.

Great.

Thanks. You're welcome.

You were calling me.

What?

I didn't know you were asleep.

Well, you misheard.

I think about you too.

Where's your flat? I can drop you off. I need to

get some stuff I left at your house,

before you say you don't want me coming round so much. Jed...

It's OK, I get it.

I'm used to being brushed off.

I'm just rubbish to the likes of you, now you're up in the world.

Don't think that! It's all right, I get it!

I heard my name being called...

..loud and clear.

RAISED VOICES Oh, my God!

Yaz! No! No!

Maddie! Oi, oi! Maddie! Back off!

Mum! Stay where you are! Mum!

What do you want? Do you want money? I can get you money! Shut up!

Oof!

Agh! Agh!

Hey... Agh!

Oof!

Think you're a big girl, do you?

They're not going to be around to save you next time, Maddie!

There's not going to be a next time! Fuck off!

If I catch you around here again,

you better start running,

because if the police don't catch ya, I fucking will!

Get the fuck out of here!

They came out of nowhere. Are you OK? Are you all right?

They won't be coming back.

SHE SOBS

They're not from round here.

One day, Yaz and a gang started...

I don't know, talking to me outside school.

Talking about what?

Stuff.

I dunno, we had a laugh.

Never got her surname?

Never asked any questions?

Just had a laugh?

They'd take things from me.

Money, jewellery. We know how these gangs operate,

Maddie. Did they ask you to sell drugs at school?

Answer them, Maddie.

Nothing heavy, just benzos.

All the girls are on them. Oh, Jesus Christ! Sorry, Dad, Mum!

It just took my mind off things here. I did stop.

First, it was like they were OK with it, and then today,

it was give them more money instead.

Am I in trouble?

Will I have to go to court?

If we find them.

Thanks.

Thanks for what you did, Jed.

DOOR CLOSES Maddie's out with her dad. Erm,

you can wait in here, if you want.

Ah...

I, erm...

I brought you something.

Open it.

Open it.

Er, I can't... I can't accept that.

Jed...

Jesus!

Stop, I don't want this. You want me.

I wasn't sure. It's not true.

Yes, it is. You have to leave now!

I think about you all the time.

Stop it. All...the time.

DOOR OPENS

Hiya!

Jed's helping me out with the new security. You are a star.

And it'll be a relief to know you're around this evening, because...

I'm taking my lovely wife out to dinner.

You understand it was never Wendy that split us up.

It was losing Rob.

We can never be whole again, I think we both know that, but...

..maybe we could be the bits that are left over,

put back together somehow... HIS VOICE FADES

DOOR OPENS

Hi.

What's wrong?

Where's Jed?

He's talking about leaving.

Did he say why?

His job's shaky,

his flat...

I don't want to talk about it, Mum!

SHE SIGHS

I didn't know where else to go. Rosie,

no mother loses a child

without major consequences.

You need to deal with your grief.

Is that what's wrong with me?

I don't trust myself, Tom.

What I'm thinking, I...

I've been having these...

..these weird dreams, and just crazy stuff.

Mixing everything up, but I... After a death,

the family has to re-group.

Spend some time together.

Just the three of you.

Heal yourself through the memory of Rob. OK, that sounds

a bit priest-y, but...

I've lost myself, Tom.

You're the strongest woman I know, Rosie.

Go find yourself again.

Our Father,

who art in heaven.

Hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come.

Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses.

As we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

If Jed was to move in, could I trust you

to be sensible? Ha-ha!

FATHER TOM: Get that boy out of your house now,

before something terrible happens.

Don't worry, I know what I'm doing.

I want you out of my house!

I've lost my son, I won't lose

my daughter as well!

All I want...

is you. Ah!