Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated:
1
00:00:06,172 --> 00:00:08,441
- Dr. Hayes used his hand
to move down my body,
2
00:00:09,075 --> 00:00:10,710
pinning me against the table.
3
00:00:10,810 --> 00:00:14,881
- Because this is the first
accusation against him,
4
00:00:14,981 --> 00:00:17,316
his privileges
won't be revoked.
5
00:00:17,317 --> 00:00:21,554
- I understand how you feel--
exactly how you feel.
6
00:00:21,654 --> 00:00:23,655
- Dr. Archer is aware
of our family history.
7
00:00:23,656 --> 00:00:25,824
- Oh, that we have
a 50/50 chance of inheriting
8
00:00:25,825 --> 00:00:27,894
a cruel and sudden death?
9
00:00:27,994 --> 00:00:29,729
- Can't keep hiding
from the truth.
10
00:00:29,829 --> 00:00:32,297
We'll face it together.
11
00:00:32,298 --> 00:00:34,333
- I'm very sorry to say
we cannot approve you
12
00:00:34,334 --> 00:00:36,235
as a surrogate at this time.
13
00:00:36,236 --> 00:00:39,038
It's something we found
when we ran your labs.
14
00:00:39,039 --> 00:00:40,907
[dramatic music]
15
00:00:41,007 --> 00:00:43,043
- The surgery's been canceled.
16
00:00:43,143 --> 00:00:44,843
- He rigged the system somehow.
17
00:00:44,844 --> 00:00:46,145
He took the lungs
from my patient
18
00:00:46,146 --> 00:00:47,479
and gave them
to his own daughter.
19
00:00:47,480 --> 00:00:51,183
- I did what I had to do
to give my daughter a chance.
20
00:00:51,184 --> 00:00:54,487
Would you rather have me
just sit and watch her die?
21
00:00:56,156 --> 00:00:57,624
- Thank you for coming.
22
00:01:00,393 --> 00:01:03,662
I didn't think you would.
23
00:01:03,663 --> 00:01:05,531
- Neither did I.
24
00:01:05,532 --> 00:01:08,835
So what is it
you want to say to me?
25
00:01:12,372 --> 00:01:15,140
- Um...
26
00:01:15,141 --> 00:01:18,445
I've had a lot of time to think
about what I did to you.
27
00:01:18,545 --> 00:01:22,381
I was obviously not of
right mind after Wendy died.
28
00:01:22,382 --> 00:01:25,484
But I've been put
on an antipsychotic,
29
00:01:25,485 --> 00:01:29,088
and--and I've accepted
Jesus Christ into my heart.
30
00:01:29,089 --> 00:01:31,490
I asked you to come here today
31
00:01:31,491 --> 00:01:35,361
because I wanted to tell you
how deeply sorry I am
32
00:01:35,362 --> 00:01:37,563
for the pain that I caused you.
33
00:01:37,564 --> 00:01:40,632
And I wanted to ask
34
00:01:40,633 --> 00:01:44,571
if you could find it
in your heart to forgive me.
35
00:01:44,671 --> 00:01:46,906
- Stop.
36
00:01:47,040 --> 00:01:49,976
Uh-uh.
37
00:01:50,076 --> 00:01:55,447
You don't get to preach
to me, ever.
38
00:01:55,448 --> 00:01:59,785
And no, I don't forgive you.
39
00:01:59,786 --> 00:02:04,656
Forgiving you won't erase
the scar on my stomach.
40
00:02:04,657 --> 00:02:07,426
It won't erase the fact
that I see your face
41
00:02:07,427 --> 00:02:10,529
when I close my eyes at night.
42
00:02:10,530 --> 00:02:16,202
I have to live with
what happened to me every day.
43
00:02:16,302 --> 00:02:18,203
[soft tense music]
44
00:02:18,204 --> 00:02:20,873
And so should you.
45
00:02:20,874 --> 00:02:22,575
- I'll pray for you.
46
00:02:24,911 --> 00:02:28,047
- Pray for yourself.
47
00:02:28,048 --> 00:02:30,483
I'm good.
48
00:02:30,583 --> 00:02:33,752
♪ ♪
49
00:02:33,753 --> 00:02:35,321
[door buzzing]
50
00:02:50,036 --> 00:02:51,770
- You're pregnant?
51
00:02:51,771 --> 00:02:54,173
- Yeah.
52
00:02:54,174 --> 00:02:56,710
- Um...
53
00:02:56,810 --> 00:02:58,277
does Mitch know?
54
00:02:58,278 --> 00:03:00,913
- You're the first person
that I've told.
55
00:03:00,914 --> 00:03:02,448
{\an8}Look, I am so sorry.
56
00:03:02,449 --> 00:03:05,451
{\an8}This, um--this wasn't planned.
57
00:03:05,452 --> 00:03:07,353
{\an8}Do you--do you not believe me?
58
00:03:07,354 --> 00:03:09,788
{\an8}- Of course I believe you.
59
00:03:09,789 --> 00:03:11,724
{\an8}But it's just typical Hannah.
60
00:03:11,725 --> 00:03:13,692
{\an8}- Okay, look, Lizzy,
I can have this baby,
61
00:03:13,693 --> 00:03:15,427
{\an8}and then I can still
be your surrogate.
62
00:03:15,428 --> 00:03:17,630
{\an8}- Oh, come on.
How is that gonna work?
63
00:03:17,731 --> 00:03:19,164
{\an8}You will have a baby.
64
00:03:19,165 --> 00:03:21,835
{\an8}That will be your focus,
your life.
65
00:03:24,637 --> 00:03:26,806
{\an8}I should have known better
than to trust you again.
66
00:03:26,906 --> 00:03:28,440
{\an8}- Oh, come on.
That's not fair.
67
00:03:28,441 --> 00:03:30,242
{\an8}- Fair? Are you kidding?
68
00:03:30,243 --> 00:03:32,979
{\an8}I've spent years watching out
for you, after Mom died,
69
00:03:33,079 --> 00:03:35,615
{\an8}when you went to med school,
when you got hooked on heroin.
70
00:03:35,715 --> 00:03:36,882
{\an8}- I have done
everything that I can
71
00:03:36,883 --> 00:03:38,584
{\an8}to help you on this journey
to have a baby.
72
00:03:38,585 --> 00:03:41,787
{\an8}- Oh, do you want
some extra credit?
73
00:03:41,788 --> 00:03:43,222
{\an8}- Lizzy!
74
00:03:43,223 --> 00:03:45,290
{\an8}I have been in this
with you from the start,
75
00:03:45,291 --> 00:03:47,626
{\an8}and I have worked my ass off
76
00:03:47,627 --> 00:03:51,063
{\an8}to make up for all of those
horrible things that I did!
77
00:03:51,064 --> 00:03:53,265
{\an8}This baby?
78
00:03:53,266 --> 00:03:55,934
{\an8}This baby isn't that.
79
00:03:55,935 --> 00:04:01,874
{\an8}Isn't there--isn't there some--
some small part of you
80
00:04:01,875 --> 00:04:04,477
{\an8}that's actually happy for me?
81
00:04:06,112 --> 00:04:07,547
{\an8}- Once again, it's my fault.
82
00:04:09,983 --> 00:04:11,850
{\an8}[door opens]
83
00:04:11,851 --> 00:04:12,819
{\an8}[door closes]
84
00:04:15,088 --> 00:04:15,989
{\an8}- Stop.
85
00:04:16,089 --> 00:04:18,958
{\an8}[banging]
86
00:04:19,092 --> 00:04:20,259
{\an8}You're a child.
87
00:04:20,260 --> 00:04:22,628
{\an8}- Yeah, proudly.
88
00:04:22,629 --> 00:04:25,431
{\an8}- Uh, I don't wanna
keep you in suspense.
89
00:04:25,432 --> 00:04:26,800
{\an8}You're negative for GSS.
90
00:04:26,900 --> 00:04:27,934
{\an8}Congratulations.
91
00:04:28,034 --> 00:04:30,169
{\an8}- Oh, my God.
92
00:04:30,170 --> 00:04:31,338
{\an8}Wait, wait, wait.
93
00:04:31,438 --> 00:04:33,572
{\an8}I see the blue envelope
in your pocket.
94
00:04:33,573 --> 00:04:35,975
{\an8}What does it say, Caty?
95
00:04:36,076 --> 00:04:38,010
{\an8}- Also negative.
96
00:04:38,011 --> 00:04:39,712
{\an8}- Thank God.
97
00:04:39,713 --> 00:04:41,046
{\an8}Oh, God!
98
00:04:41,047 --> 00:04:42,414
{\an8}I just assumed that we were--
99
00:04:42,415 --> 00:04:43,949
{\an8}- Me too.
- [sighs]
100
00:04:43,950 --> 00:04:46,485
{\an8}[laughter]
101
00:04:46,486 --> 00:04:49,555
{\an8}- Wait, so what caused
the weakness?
102
00:04:49,556 --> 00:04:51,858
{\an8}- The same thing that
caused your tremor.
103
00:04:51,958 --> 00:04:53,859
{\an8}Your brother has
a severely herniated disk.
104
00:04:53,860 --> 00:04:55,561
{\an8}He's responding to steroids.
105
00:04:55,562 --> 00:04:57,062
{\an8}You should follow up
with Dr. Abrams,
106
00:04:57,063 --> 00:04:59,699
{\an8}but he'll make a full recovery.
107
00:04:59,799 --> 00:05:01,100
{\an8}And I'm--I'm--
108
00:05:01,101 --> 00:05:03,770
{\an8}I'm very happy for you,
Caitlin.
109
00:05:03,903 --> 00:05:05,237
{\an8}- Yeah, but what about me?
110
00:05:05,238 --> 00:05:06,973
{\an8}- Yeah, I'm just less invested.
111
00:05:07,073 --> 00:05:09,676
{\an8}- Oh.
[chuckles]
112
00:05:11,511 --> 00:05:13,880
{\an8}- Violet, you're going
to Trauma 1.
113
00:05:13,980 --> 00:05:16,416
{\an8}- What have we got, Novak?
- Auto versus tree.
114
00:05:16,549 --> 00:05:19,019
{\an8}- 19-year-old female,
the driver and sole occupant.
115
00:05:19,119 --> 00:05:22,154
{\an8}BP 129/60, heart rate 75.
116
00:05:22,155 --> 00:05:23,456
{\an8}- She hit it going 50.
117
00:05:23,556 --> 00:05:24,791
{\an8}Had to use the jaws of life
to pry her out.
118
00:05:24,924 --> 00:05:26,760
{\an8}- Multiple abrasions
to the face and chest.
119
00:05:26,860 --> 00:05:28,428
{\an8}Feels like she could have
a couple of broken ribs.
120
00:05:28,528 --> 00:05:31,464
{\an8}- GCS was 13 to 14
on the ride in.
121
00:05:35,235 --> 00:05:37,470
{\an8}- Call Dr. Charles.
122
00:05:37,604 --> 00:05:39,071
{\an8}- Why?
123
00:05:39,072 --> 00:05:42,241
{\an8}- This is his daughter, Anna.
124
00:05:42,242 --> 00:05:45,211
{\an8}[tense music]
125
00:05:59,659 --> 00:05:59,892
{\an8}...
126
00:05:59,893 --> 00:06:01,127
{\an8}- Has anyone called her
mother to let her know?
127
00:06:01,361 --> 00:06:02,395
{\an8}- I did.
128
00:06:02,495 --> 00:06:03,762
{\an8}Susan's catching
the first flight.
129
00:06:03,763 --> 00:06:05,597
{\an8}- Sharon, how's she doing?
- She's holding her own.
130
00:06:05,598 --> 00:06:09,368
{\an8}CT scan found a nasal bone
fracture, but no brain bleed.
131
00:06:09,369 --> 00:06:10,703
{\an8}- Okay. Is she awake?
132
00:06:10,704 --> 00:06:13,340
{\an8}- Uh, Dr. Ripley
still has her sedated.
133
00:06:13,440 --> 00:06:15,507
{\an8}- Oh, my God, Anna.
- Dr. Charles.
134
00:06:15,508 --> 00:06:17,710
{\an8}- What's the status, buddy?
What--what are we looking at?
135
00:06:17,711 --> 00:06:19,378
{\an8}- I'm watching
her concussion closely.
136
00:06:19,379 --> 00:06:21,614
{\an8}She, uh--she slammed
her head pretty hard.
137
00:06:21,715 --> 00:06:23,616
{\an8}She also sustained
three broken ribs
138
00:06:23,717 --> 00:06:26,752
{\an8}and a left distal radius
fracture I reduced.
139
00:06:26,753 --> 00:06:29,689
{\an8}[somber music]
140
00:06:29,823 --> 00:06:36,629
{\an8}♪ ♪
141
00:06:42,135 --> 00:06:44,370
{\an8}- What's going on?
142
00:06:44,371 --> 00:06:46,506
{\an8}Why was my surgery canceled?
143
00:06:46,606 --> 00:06:50,076
{\an8}- Noah, unfortunately,
the ODA has changed course,
144
00:06:50,176 --> 00:06:53,012
{\an8}and they are giving the lungs
to another recipient.
145
00:06:53,013 --> 00:06:54,646
{\an8}- Wait, what?
146
00:06:54,647 --> 00:06:56,715
{\an8}- But how can they just do that
after they already said
147
00:06:56,716 --> 00:06:58,084
{\an8}they're giving the lungs
to Noah?
148
00:06:58,218 --> 00:06:59,618
{\an8}I mean, how can they
just do that?
149
00:06:59,619 --> 00:07:01,488
{\an8}- No, they can't.
This isn't right.
150
00:07:01,621 --> 00:07:03,355
{\an8}Just--I need you
to explain to us
151
00:07:03,356 --> 00:07:04,823
{\an8}what happened
so I can fix this.
152
00:07:04,824 --> 00:07:07,793
{\an8}- Mr. Macron, I wish there was
something I could do, okay?
153
00:07:07,794 --> 00:07:09,896
{\an8}And I tried my very best
to argue our case
154
00:07:09,996 --> 00:07:10,997
{\an8}as strongly as I could.
155
00:07:11,097 --> 00:07:12,766
{\an8}- Try harder.
156
00:07:12,899 --> 00:07:14,199
{\an8}- I'm sorry.
157
00:07:14,200 --> 00:07:16,870
{\an8}- So what do we do now?
158
00:07:16,970 --> 00:07:20,072
{\an8}- Well, given the circumstances
of Noah's lung function,
159
00:07:20,073 --> 00:07:22,107
{\an8}we need to buy some more time.
160
00:07:22,108 --> 00:07:25,344
{\an8}And the best way to do that
is to put you on ECMO.
161
00:07:25,345 --> 00:07:27,946
{\an8}- A machine that
breathes for me?
162
00:07:27,947 --> 00:07:30,583
{\an8}- Hey, look, I know
that's scary, okay?
163
00:07:30,684 --> 00:07:32,786
{\an8}But you are still at the top
of the transplant list.
164
00:07:32,919 --> 00:07:34,453
{\an8}- Like that actually
means something.
165
00:07:34,454 --> 00:07:36,256
{\an8}- Walter, stop.
166
00:07:38,458 --> 00:07:40,560
{\an8}- Okay, we need to do
what it takes right now
167
00:07:40,694 --> 00:07:42,528
{\an8}to give you the best shot
to be ready
168
00:07:42,529 --> 00:07:44,063
{\an8}when the next set of lungs
come along.
169
00:07:44,064 --> 00:07:46,098
{\an8}- Okay, but you said that ECMO
could carry other risks
170
00:07:46,099 --> 00:07:48,300
{\an8}that might make transplant
more difficult.
171
00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:49,535
{\an8}- I did, yes.
172
00:07:49,536 --> 00:07:51,270
{\an8}- We don't have
any other choice.
173
00:07:51,271 --> 00:07:55,107
{\an8}- And ECMO could give
your lungs more time to heal.
174
00:07:55,108 --> 00:07:59,111
{\an8}- How long can he survive
on ECMO without new lungs?
175
00:07:59,112 --> 00:08:03,382
{\an8}- A few weeks, maybe a month.
176
00:08:03,383 --> 00:08:05,150
{\an8}- How soon does he
have to go on it?
177
00:08:05,151 --> 00:08:06,920
{\an8}- Within the hour.
178
00:08:09,656 --> 00:08:11,123
{\an8}- I'll be okay, Dad.
179
00:08:11,124 --> 00:08:12,458
{\an8}- Yeah.
180
00:08:12,459 --> 00:08:14,093
{\an8}Yeah, you're gonna be good.
181
00:08:14,094 --> 00:08:16,462
{\an8}- You're gonna be okay.
182
00:08:16,463 --> 00:08:19,032
{\an8}Sweetie, you're doing great.
183
00:08:26,906 --> 00:08:28,074
{\an8}- I--
184
00:08:30,710 --> 00:08:32,579
{\an8}I heard Griffin Lancer
removed you
185
00:08:32,679 --> 00:08:34,947
{\an8}as Alea's primary physician.
186
00:08:34,948 --> 00:08:36,483
{\an8}- Uh, yeah.
187
00:08:36,583 --> 00:08:38,151
{\an8}Yeah, he did.
188
00:08:38,251 --> 00:08:40,285
{\an8}The guy's
an entitled egomaniac,
189
00:08:40,286 --> 00:08:42,254
{\an8}but I don't really
blame him one bit.
190
00:08:42,255 --> 00:08:43,656
{\an8}- Why?
191
00:08:43,757 --> 00:08:45,290
{\an8}'Cause you'd do
the same thing for your kids?
192
00:08:45,291 --> 00:08:46,592
{\an8}- Yeah.
193
00:08:46,593 --> 00:08:48,428
{\an8}In a twisted way,
he's just being the best dad
194
00:08:48,528 --> 00:08:50,463
{\an8}he knows how to be.
195
00:08:50,563 --> 00:08:51,698
{\an8}When you love someone
that much,
196
00:08:51,798 --> 00:08:55,601
{\an8}it opens you up
to so much pain.
197
00:08:55,602 --> 00:08:57,337
{\an8}- They say it's like
having your heart
198
00:08:57,470 --> 00:08:59,506
{\an8}run around outside your body.
199
00:08:59,606 --> 00:09:01,975
{\an8}- Yeah, it makes you wonder
if it's really worth it.
200
00:09:04,778 --> 00:09:07,446
{\an8}Anna's oxygen saturation
continues to improve,
201
00:09:07,447 --> 00:09:09,682
{\an8}using her incentive spirometer.
202
00:09:09,683 --> 00:09:12,484
{\an8}- Okay, well, that--that
sounds like really good news.
203
00:09:12,485 --> 00:09:13,787
{\an8}- It's a step
in the right direction.
204
00:09:13,920 --> 00:09:15,554
{\an8}The pulmonary contusion
must not be
205
00:09:15,555 --> 00:09:17,322
{\an8}so bad under her rib fracture.
206
00:09:17,323 --> 00:09:21,193
{\an8}- So the seat belt
broke her ribs?
207
00:09:21,194 --> 00:09:22,761
{\an8}- Uh, no.
208
00:09:22,762 --> 00:09:24,863
{\an8}Anna wasn't wearing
a seat belt.
209
00:09:24,864 --> 00:09:26,232
{\an8}- That doesn't sound like Anna.
210
00:09:26,332 --> 00:09:28,301
{\an8}- She actually broke her ribs
on the steering wheel
211
00:09:28,435 --> 00:09:29,468
{\an8}upon impact.
212
00:09:29,469 --> 00:09:30,904
{\an8}- Okay.
213
00:09:31,037 --> 00:09:32,105
{\an8}Makes sense.
214
00:09:32,205 --> 00:09:34,540
{\an8}- When--when can we see her?
215
00:09:34,541 --> 00:09:37,443
{\an8}- I'll call when she's
ready for visitors.
216
00:09:37,444 --> 00:09:38,811
{\an8}- Thank you.
- Thanks, Mitch.
217
00:09:38,812 --> 00:09:40,946
{\an8}- Yeah.
218
00:09:40,947 --> 00:09:42,114
{\an8}- [sighs]
219
00:09:42,115 --> 00:09:43,449
{\an8}- It's gonna be okay, Dad.
220
00:09:43,450 --> 00:09:46,151
{\an8}- Oh, I know. I know.
221
00:09:46,152 --> 00:09:47,754
{\an8}I'll feel a whole lot better
222
00:09:47,854 --> 00:09:49,289
{\an8}when we can talk to her,
you know?
223
00:09:49,422 --> 00:09:52,058
{\an8}- I know.
224
00:09:52,158 --> 00:09:54,059
{\an8}- You wanted to see me?
225
00:09:54,060 --> 00:09:56,528
{\an8}- The board's been
discussing some cuts
226
00:09:56,529 --> 00:09:58,298
{\an8}for the upcoming
fiscal quarter.
227
00:09:58,431 --> 00:10:00,432
{\an8}- I'm sorry.
Where's this coming from?
228
00:10:00,433 --> 00:10:04,269
{\an8}- The expected future loss of
revenue from losing Dr. Hayes.
229
00:10:04,270 --> 00:10:08,073
{\an8}- Well, your tone suggests
that Dr. Hayes's departure
230
00:10:08,074 --> 00:10:09,709
{\an8}was somehow my fault.
231
00:10:09,843 --> 00:10:12,612
{\an8}- Obviously, it was
Dr. Hayes's fault,
232
00:10:12,712 --> 00:10:15,448
{\an8}though the very public nature
of his departure
233
00:10:15,582 --> 00:10:17,683
did leave Gaffney
a little flat-footed.
234
00:10:17,684 --> 00:10:21,520
- I didn't leak
the Hayes bombshell, Miranda.
235
00:10:21,521 --> 00:10:23,990
- I'm not saying
you did, Sharon.
236
00:10:24,124 --> 00:10:26,625
But it doesn't change
the financial reality.
237
00:10:26,626 --> 00:10:28,427
- It's a list of approved cuts
238
00:10:28,428 --> 00:10:31,064
you're expected
to execute ASAP.
239
00:10:35,301 --> 00:10:38,437
- And I see Dr. Washington's
name is on here too.
240
00:10:38,438 --> 00:10:40,005
- Hard times mean
hard decisions.
241
00:10:40,006 --> 00:10:43,242
- So you're gonna fire
our highly respected
242
00:10:43,243 --> 00:10:47,479
chief of oncology who's
been here nearly two decades?
243
00:10:47,480 --> 00:10:49,081
- I know that your
ongoing relationship
244
00:10:49,082 --> 00:10:52,218
with Dr. Washington might
make this more complicated.
245
00:10:52,318 --> 00:10:54,319
- Complicated?
246
00:10:54,320 --> 00:10:55,789
How?
247
00:10:55,922 --> 00:10:57,390
- If you'd like
someone else to handle this--
248
00:10:57,490 --> 00:10:58,758
- I'll handle it.
249
00:10:58,858 --> 00:11:00,893
- Thank you for your
professionalism, Sharon.
250
00:11:00,894 --> 00:11:02,328
- Uh-huh.
251
00:11:13,373 --> 00:11:15,975
- I just hope this is
a kick in the ass for Kip.
252
00:11:16,476 --> 00:11:17,844
He needs to move forward
253
00:11:17,944 --> 00:11:19,945
and no longer has prion
as an excuse.
254
00:11:19,946 --> 00:11:21,480
- Yeah, well,
he'll figure it out, right?
255
00:11:21,481 --> 00:11:24,283
- Well, Kip generally resists
figuring things out.
256
00:11:24,284 --> 00:11:26,318
He prefers to drift.
257
00:11:26,319 --> 00:11:28,153
- What about you?
258
00:11:28,154 --> 00:11:29,755
- What about me?
259
00:11:29,756 --> 00:11:32,324
- Well, this changes things
for you too.
260
00:11:32,325 --> 00:11:34,927
- This changes nothing.
I simply go back to work.
261
00:11:34,928 --> 00:11:36,729
- Ah, don't underestimate
the significance
262
00:11:36,730 --> 00:11:39,398
of a negative result.
263
00:11:39,399 --> 00:11:41,668
Your future
is more certain now.
264
00:11:41,768 --> 00:11:44,070
- Sure, if I don't
drown in a lake
265
00:11:44,170 --> 00:11:47,172
or have a sudden
fatal heart attack.
266
00:11:47,173 --> 00:11:48,475
- You know what you should do, though?
267
00:11:48,575 --> 00:11:49,608
You should travel.
268
00:11:49,609 --> 00:11:50,909
Yeah, get out of here.
269
00:11:50,910 --> 00:11:54,146
Just take a leave,
one to two months, you know.
270
00:11:54,147 --> 00:11:56,649
Just sit on
the Spanish Steps in Rome
271
00:11:56,750 --> 00:11:59,219
or just look out at Barcelona
272
00:11:59,319 --> 00:12:01,153
from the top
of the Sagrada Familia.
273
00:12:01,154 --> 00:12:04,024
- Are these things
that you've done?
274
00:12:05,859 --> 00:12:08,728
- So the point is that
an emergency department
275
00:12:08,828 --> 00:12:10,362
is like a Vegas casino.
276
00:12:10,363 --> 00:12:14,466
It tricks you into believing
that time isn't passing.
277
00:12:14,467 --> 00:12:15,902
It is.
278
00:12:16,002 --> 00:12:17,903
- Well, vacations
make me anxious.
279
00:12:17,904 --> 00:12:19,938
I'm always too hot or too cold.
280
00:12:19,939 --> 00:12:21,440
I don't speak the language,
281
00:12:21,441 --> 00:12:22,941
and my credit card bill
explodes.
282
00:12:22,942 --> 00:12:25,010
And I always end up just
counting down the days
283
00:12:25,011 --> 00:12:27,680
until I can get back to work.
284
00:12:27,681 --> 00:12:31,016
- That is deeply sad,
but very on brand.
285
00:12:31,017 --> 00:12:32,852
- Cold, dead hearts, remember?
286
00:12:36,589 --> 00:12:38,024
- There you go.
287
00:12:38,124 --> 00:12:40,926
I hear that Dr. Masukawa
and her surgical team
288
00:12:40,927 --> 00:12:42,561
will be by soon
to get you prepped
289
00:12:42,562 --> 00:12:44,730
and transferred to the OR.
290
00:12:44,731 --> 00:12:46,232
- Is it true?
291
00:12:46,332 --> 00:12:47,701
- Is what true?
292
00:12:47,801 --> 00:12:52,071
- Did my dad steal my lungs
from somebody else?
293
00:12:52,072 --> 00:12:54,708
I overheard someone
in the hallway.
294
00:12:54,808 --> 00:12:58,844
- Organ donation is
an imperfect process, Alea.
295
00:12:58,845 --> 00:13:01,413
There's all kinds of
conflicting factors
296
00:13:01,414 --> 00:13:02,781
that can affect who gets them.
297
00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:04,750
But there's never enough
organs to go around,
298
00:13:04,751 --> 00:13:07,119
so what's a miracle for you
299
00:13:07,120 --> 00:13:10,390
will always be a heartbreak
for someone else.
300
00:13:10,490 --> 00:13:12,826
- That sounds like a yes.
301
00:13:13,993 --> 00:13:16,996
- Your father loves you.
302
00:13:17,097 --> 00:13:18,697
- I know.
303
00:13:18,698 --> 00:13:20,966
- Save your strength
and get some rest.
304
00:13:20,967 --> 00:13:22,969
Focus on your surgery.
305
00:13:23,069 --> 00:13:26,171
- That's excellent advice, sweetheart.
306
00:13:26,172 --> 00:13:28,440
I thought you weren't
going to be caring
307
00:13:28,441 --> 00:13:30,076
for my daughter anymore.
308
00:13:30,176 --> 00:13:32,978
- You only asked
for Dr. Ripley to step aside,
309
00:13:32,979 --> 00:13:36,116
and there are just
so many nurses.
310
00:13:36,216 --> 00:13:37,816
- I like Maggie.
311
00:13:37,817 --> 00:13:39,386
I want her to stay.
312
00:13:39,486 --> 00:13:41,887
[soft music]
313
00:13:41,888 --> 00:13:44,590
- Don't worry about anything
314
00:13:44,591 --> 00:13:48,360
except what needs
to be done next.
315
00:13:48,361 --> 00:13:53,199
You just focus on conquering
each obstacle in front of you
316
00:13:53,299 --> 00:13:58,737
until, eventually,
you win the race.
317
00:13:58,738 --> 00:14:01,708
- And what if the race
is unwinnable?
318
00:14:01,808 --> 00:14:08,447
♪ ♪
319
00:14:08,448 --> 00:14:10,150
- No such thing.
320
00:14:17,123 --> 00:14:19,324
- Is it time to sedate me?
321
00:14:19,325 --> 00:14:21,728
- When you're ready.
322
00:14:21,828 --> 00:14:23,595
You doing okay?
323
00:14:23,596 --> 00:14:25,432
- I'm fine.
324
00:14:28,101 --> 00:14:31,870
- You know, you don't
have to be fine, Noah.
325
00:14:31,871 --> 00:14:33,439
It's okay to be scared.
326
00:14:33,440 --> 00:14:35,474
You know that, right?
327
00:14:35,475 --> 00:14:38,211
- That's the thing, Dr. Frost.
328
00:14:38,311 --> 00:14:40,679
I'm not scared.
329
00:14:40,680 --> 00:14:42,315
I'm tired.
330
00:14:42,415 --> 00:14:45,517
So, so tired.
331
00:14:45,518 --> 00:14:49,855
I don't wanna die, but...
332
00:14:49,856 --> 00:14:55,027
the thought of going to sleep
and not waking up
333
00:14:55,028 --> 00:14:58,063
is not--not so bad.
334
00:14:58,064 --> 00:15:00,699
But I can't
tell my parents that.
335
00:15:00,700 --> 00:15:02,935
It would break their heart.
336
00:15:02,936 --> 00:15:05,038
I have to be strong for them.
337
00:15:07,474 --> 00:15:09,142
Especially Dad.
338
00:15:11,111 --> 00:15:16,482
- Hey, I can understand
all of that,
339
00:15:16,483 --> 00:15:18,851
okay, but here's the thing.
340
00:15:18,852 --> 00:15:22,322
I think you still got
some fight left in you.
341
00:15:22,422 --> 00:15:26,658
- I need you to do something
for me, Dr. Frost.
342
00:15:26,659 --> 00:15:28,628
- Anything.
343
00:15:28,728 --> 00:15:31,330
- If I die...
344
00:15:31,331 --> 00:15:34,467
will you tell my parents
it's not their fault?
345
00:15:37,203 --> 00:15:38,837
- Hey.
346
00:15:38,838 --> 00:15:40,306
Hey, how are you, buddy?
347
00:15:40,407 --> 00:15:45,311
- Hey, Grandma and Grandpa
send love and strength.
348
00:15:45,412 --> 00:15:47,079
- Okay, Dr. Frost.
349
00:15:47,080 --> 00:15:49,415
- Oh, please, wait.
350
00:15:49,416 --> 00:15:51,216
Wait.
351
00:15:51,217 --> 00:15:52,786
Noah, the next time we see you,
352
00:15:52,886 --> 00:15:54,186
you're gonna have
a new pair of lungs.
353
00:15:54,187 --> 00:15:56,522
- Yeah.
354
00:15:56,523 --> 00:16:00,626
Hey, the thing I'm proudest of
in all the world
355
00:16:00,627 --> 00:16:02,262
is being your dad.
356
00:16:02,362 --> 00:16:04,964
- [voice breaking]
I'm scared.
357
00:16:05,065 --> 00:16:07,299
- Me, too, buddy.
358
00:16:07,300 --> 00:16:10,035
But you're--hey,
you're gonna be fine.
359
00:16:10,036 --> 00:16:12,739
- I love you both so much.
360
00:16:12,839 --> 00:16:15,741
- We love you,
our precious boy.
361
00:16:15,742 --> 00:16:18,345
- More than you can
possibly imagine.
362
00:16:20,280 --> 00:16:22,681
- Okay.
363
00:16:22,682 --> 00:16:24,250
I'm ready.
364
00:16:26,653 --> 00:16:28,088
- Hey.
365
00:16:28,188 --> 00:16:30,190
I'm gonna see you soon,
okay, Noah?
366
00:16:30,290 --> 00:16:37,163
♪ ♪
367
00:16:48,575 --> 00:16:49,309
- Good timing.
368
00:16:50,043 --> 00:16:52,045
- Dad.
- I'm right here, sweetie.
369
00:16:52,178 --> 00:16:53,946
How you doing?
Are you all right?
370
00:16:53,947 --> 00:16:55,848
How's my girl?
- Much better.
371
00:16:55,849 --> 00:16:59,118
I'm keeping a close eye on her
O2 sats for the rib fractures
372
00:16:59,119 --> 00:17:00,620
and her neuro checks
for the concussion,
373
00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:05,891
but, um, all things considered,
she's very lucky.
374
00:17:05,892 --> 00:17:07,893
- Um, I feel kind of out of it.
375
00:17:07,894 --> 00:17:08,995
- Pain meds, honey.
376
00:17:09,095 --> 00:17:10,629
Just--they're gonna
make you groggy.
377
00:17:10,630 --> 00:17:11,964
That's all it is.
378
00:17:11,965 --> 00:17:13,600
- I'll check back in
a little later.
379
00:17:13,700 --> 00:17:17,169
- [sighs] Do you even
remember what happened?
380
00:17:17,170 --> 00:17:18,270
- Oh, I don't know.
381
00:17:18,271 --> 00:17:20,073
I--I think I hit
a patch of gravel,
382
00:17:20,173 --> 00:17:23,376
and the car just
kind of got away from me.
383
00:17:23,476 --> 00:17:26,278
- I'm just curious why you
didn't have your seat belt on.
384
00:17:26,279 --> 00:17:28,047
That is so unlike you.
385
00:17:28,048 --> 00:17:29,783
When you were a little kid,
you wouldn't--
386
00:17:29,883 --> 00:17:31,317
you wouldn't even
let me start the car
387
00:17:31,418 --> 00:17:33,453
unless everybody
was buckled up.
388
00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:34,687
- I don't remember.
389
00:17:34,688 --> 00:17:36,289
I guess I forgot.
390
00:17:36,389 --> 00:17:38,224
- I'm worried about you. I am.
391
00:17:38,324 --> 00:17:39,926
Ever since you--you came home,
and you told me
392
00:17:40,060 --> 00:17:41,126
you dropped out of school.
393
00:17:41,127 --> 00:17:42,461
I don't even--
- Dad--
394
00:17:42,462 --> 00:17:44,064
- I do not under--
no, no, I just don't understand
395
00:17:44,164 --> 00:17:45,330
why you didn't feel like
you could talk to me.
396
00:17:45,331 --> 00:17:46,199
- Dad, you're the last person
I would want
397
00:17:46,332 --> 00:17:47,666
to talk to about anything.
398
00:17:47,667 --> 00:17:48,901
- What?
399
00:17:48,902 --> 00:17:50,502
[soft tense music]
400
00:17:50,503 --> 00:17:53,305
We--we were always pretty good
at having those conversations.
401
00:17:53,306 --> 00:17:55,407
- That was
a long time ago, Dad.
402
00:17:55,408 --> 00:17:56,642
- It was?
403
00:17:56,643 --> 00:17:58,478
- I don't need you analyzing me
and giving me advice
404
00:17:58,578 --> 00:18:00,279
based on some patient
you just had,
405
00:18:00,280 --> 00:18:02,247
who you've just suddenly
decided to compare me to.
406
00:18:02,248 --> 00:18:04,249
I'm not your puzzle to solve.
407
00:18:04,250 --> 00:18:06,385
I'm your daughter.
408
00:18:06,386 --> 00:18:10,423
- Dad, can I talk to you
for a moment?
409
00:18:10,523 --> 00:18:16,830
♪ ♪
410
00:18:16,930 --> 00:18:18,430
[sighs]
- Oh, my God, honey.
411
00:18:18,431 --> 00:18:20,833
- Dad--
- I think that your--
412
00:18:20,834 --> 00:18:22,568
I think your sister--
- I--I know.
413
00:18:22,569 --> 00:18:25,204
Anna drove into that tree
on purpose.
414
00:18:25,205 --> 00:18:27,973
- She's been home with you
for, what, a month?
415
00:18:27,974 --> 00:18:31,177
I mean, did--did you know
she was depressed?
416
00:18:31,277 --> 00:18:33,679
- I suspected.
417
00:18:33,680 --> 00:18:36,348
- And you didn't think
to clue me in, Robin?
418
00:18:36,349 --> 00:18:38,484
You know all about
our family history.
419
00:18:38,485 --> 00:18:41,453
- I never imagined
that it was this bad.
420
00:18:41,454 --> 00:18:43,522
- Instead, I get
this dog and pony show
421
00:18:43,523 --> 00:18:46,026
with luggage about being
late from the airport
422
00:18:46,126 --> 00:18:48,260
for Granny's funeral
'cause of all the traffic?
423
00:18:48,261 --> 00:18:51,397
- I didn't tell you because
Anna didn't want you to know.
424
00:18:51,398 --> 00:18:53,433
She's my sister.
I was respecting her privacy.
425
00:18:53,533 --> 00:18:55,568
- I'm her father.
- That is the problem.
426
00:18:55,669 --> 00:18:57,437
- Honey, she just tried
to kill herself.
427
00:18:57,537 --> 00:19:00,673
- Dad, I'm sorry,
but it is not as easy to talk
428
00:19:00,674 --> 00:19:02,474
to you about this stuff--
- Oh, Jesus Christ!
429
00:19:02,475 --> 00:19:04,711
You too? You too?
- Yes. Me, too, Dad.
430
00:19:04,811 --> 00:19:07,046
There is a line
between you being our dad
431
00:19:07,047 --> 00:19:08,580
and you being a shrink,
432
00:19:08,581 --> 00:19:12,485
and sometimes you can't stop
yourself from crossing it.
433
00:19:12,585 --> 00:19:16,188
♪ ♪
434
00:19:16,189 --> 00:19:18,857
- Hey, there.
- Hey.
435
00:19:18,858 --> 00:19:20,893
- Mm!
436
00:19:20,894 --> 00:19:23,328
Everything okay?
437
00:19:23,329 --> 00:19:27,032
- Uh, Dennis,
I wanted to let you know
438
00:19:27,033 --> 00:19:29,234
that the board is concerned
about the budget
439
00:19:29,235 --> 00:19:32,404
in the wake
of Dr. Hayes's dismissal.
440
00:19:32,405 --> 00:19:34,540
- And I'm on
the chopping block.
441
00:19:34,541 --> 00:19:36,743
- You are, yes.
442
00:19:42,716 --> 00:19:44,650
- I lose my title
and take a salary cut?
443
00:19:44,651 --> 00:19:47,921
- Well, it's a fairly minor
salary cut
444
00:19:48,021 --> 00:19:51,090
if you factor in
a higher annual bonus.
445
00:19:51,091 --> 00:19:53,125
I know it's not ideal.
446
00:19:53,126 --> 00:19:55,361
- That's an understatement.
447
00:19:55,362 --> 00:19:57,996
- It'll keep you
at the hospital, Dennis.
448
00:19:57,997 --> 00:19:58,998
- [scoffs]
449
00:20:03,436 --> 00:20:05,605
My title is everything, Sharon.
450
00:20:05,705 --> 00:20:07,239
It's what I've worked for
over a long
451
00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:08,841
and distinguished career.
452
00:20:08,842 --> 00:20:10,175
And you know that.
453
00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:12,612
- It's the best deal
I could get, Dennis.
454
00:20:12,712 --> 00:20:14,180
- Oh, really?
455
00:20:14,280 --> 00:20:15,481
Did you threaten to walk?
456
00:20:15,482 --> 00:20:18,217
Offer to take
a pay cut yourself?
457
00:20:18,218 --> 00:20:20,719
A lesser title?
458
00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:23,089
I didn't think so.
459
00:20:23,189 --> 00:20:26,458
The only one out here
on a limb is me.
460
00:20:26,459 --> 00:20:29,161
And I'm caught
between you and the board,
461
00:20:29,162 --> 00:20:31,931
and I'm paying
a pretty steep price.
462
00:20:32,065 --> 00:20:33,667
- You're right.
463
00:20:35,502 --> 00:20:37,136
- You'll have my resignation
on your desk
464
00:20:37,137 --> 00:20:38,805
by the end of the day.
465
00:20:42,175 --> 00:20:45,812
- I'm pretty sure that Anna...
466
00:20:47,480 --> 00:20:50,583
Tried to kill herself
this morning.
467
00:20:50,684 --> 00:20:55,255
She, um, won't talk to me,
for the first time ever.
468
00:20:55,355 --> 00:21:00,360
And, um, I don't
know what to do.
469
00:21:00,460 --> 00:21:02,995
- I'm so sorry, Daniel.
470
00:21:02,996 --> 00:21:04,864
But I'm really glad
you reached out.
471
00:21:04,964 --> 00:21:08,068
♪ ♪
472
00:21:13,440 --> 00:21:18,978
- Both Anna and Robin, earlier
today, in their own way,
473
00:21:19,579 --> 00:21:24,249
told me maybe I'm not so...
474
00:21:24,250 --> 00:21:26,518
easy to talk to,
475
00:21:26,519 --> 00:21:30,055
confide in,
as perhaps I thought I was.
476
00:21:30,056 --> 00:21:33,525
[scoffs] Sound familiar?
477
00:21:33,526 --> 00:21:34,960
- Take it easy on yourself.
478
00:21:34,961 --> 00:21:37,396
- I mean, I always knew
I left a lot to be desired
479
00:21:37,397 --> 00:21:41,200
in the husband department,
but I mean,
480
00:21:41,201 --> 00:21:43,435
I thought I was
a pretty good dad.
481
00:21:43,436 --> 00:21:46,939
Apparently, I've let
the shrink part get in the way,
482
00:21:46,940 --> 00:21:48,274
despite my best efforts.
483
00:21:48,408 --> 00:21:50,410
- Would you consider
the possibility
484
00:21:50,543 --> 00:21:52,511
you're a good dad
because you're a shrink?
485
00:21:52,512 --> 00:21:55,080
- No, I wouldn't,
especially not today.
486
00:21:55,081 --> 00:21:57,283
Sarah, I didn't come here
487
00:21:57,417 --> 00:21:58,784
so you'd let me off the hook, okay?
488
00:21:58,785 --> 00:22:01,053
- Well, it's clear to me
you are not interested
489
00:22:01,054 --> 00:22:03,322
in being let off the hook
by anyone,
490
00:22:03,323 --> 00:22:04,990
least of all yourself.
491
00:22:04,991 --> 00:22:06,959
I'm just wondering why that is.
492
00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:09,962
[pensive music]
493
00:22:09,963 --> 00:22:11,930
- 'Cause it's my fault.
494
00:22:11,931 --> 00:22:13,532
- Why?
495
00:22:13,533 --> 00:22:16,736
- When I was locked in my
30-year cold war with my mom,
496
00:22:16,836 --> 00:22:18,738
I swore to myself
my relationship with my kids
497
00:22:18,872 --> 00:22:21,974
would be different,
that they would always know
498
00:22:21,975 --> 00:22:25,145
that I was there for them,
that--that I was their friend,
499
00:22:25,278 --> 00:22:27,380
and that they would talk to me.
500
00:22:27,480 --> 00:22:31,283
But I think that
the sad truth is,
501
00:22:31,284 --> 00:22:34,386
I just have no tolerance
for their pain,
502
00:22:34,387 --> 00:22:38,825
and it's my desperation
to fix it--
503
00:22:38,925 --> 00:22:40,559
maybe drives them away.
504
00:22:40,560 --> 00:22:42,628
- Daniel, all we can
ever be is our best.
505
00:22:42,629 --> 00:22:46,031
And as far as Anna,
what I'm hearing is that
506
00:22:46,032 --> 00:22:51,637
she needs you to completely
put the shrink away.
507
00:22:51,638 --> 00:22:53,873
What she needs right now
is her dad.
508
00:22:57,911 --> 00:22:59,346
- Hey.
509
00:22:59,479 --> 00:23:01,381
- Uh, any update
on the transplant team?
510
00:23:01,514 --> 00:23:04,450
Dr. Masukawa said they'd be
down here within the hour.
511
00:23:04,451 --> 00:23:07,921
- No, actually, I was told
that Alea wanted to see me.
512
00:23:10,023 --> 00:23:12,392
- I have some questions
about my condition.
513
00:23:12,525 --> 00:23:15,794
- Then you should ask
Dr. Masukawa, not a nurse.
514
00:23:15,795 --> 00:23:18,263
- Dr. Masukawa avoids
my questions
515
00:23:18,264 --> 00:23:20,632
because she's afraid
to piss you off.
516
00:23:20,633 --> 00:23:22,202
- [sighs]
517
00:23:23,403 --> 00:23:25,572
- Maggie, come in.
518
00:23:25,705 --> 00:23:29,676
I wanna know more about the kid
my dad took the new lungs from.
519
00:23:31,177 --> 00:23:34,047
She didn't say a word, Dad.
520
00:23:34,180 --> 00:23:37,449
I have eyes and ears.
521
00:23:37,450 --> 00:23:39,485
- Well, after my doctors
522
00:23:39,486 --> 00:23:41,520
assessed your
current condition,
523
00:23:41,521 --> 00:23:45,057
yes, the ODA determined that
you were a better candidate
524
00:23:45,058 --> 00:23:46,626
for the donated lungs,
525
00:23:46,726 --> 00:23:50,663
and they were
reassigned to you.
526
00:23:50,797 --> 00:23:52,799
- Meaning you bent them
to your will.
527
00:23:52,899 --> 00:23:56,436
- You need those lungs
more than that boy.
528
00:23:56,536 --> 00:23:58,804
- Is that true, Maggie?
529
00:23:58,805 --> 00:24:00,739
[tense music]
530
00:24:00,740 --> 00:24:03,542
- Those lungs could buy him
another 30 years.
531
00:24:03,543 --> 00:24:06,145
- Well, you just threw your
career away, didn't you?
532
00:24:06,146 --> 00:24:10,315
- Stop bullying everyone
for telling me the truth, Dad.
533
00:24:10,316 --> 00:24:12,451
I hate that part of you.
534
00:24:12,452 --> 00:24:15,087
[somber music]
535
00:24:15,088 --> 00:24:20,426
♪ ♪
536
00:24:20,427 --> 00:24:23,930
How much time would
the lungs give me?
537
00:24:24,030 --> 00:24:26,699
- [sighs] Okay.
538
00:24:26,700 --> 00:24:30,970
Alea, I'm not a doctor,
but maybe a few months.
539
00:24:32,839 --> 00:24:35,575
But I'm not trying to stop you
from having the surgery.
540
00:24:37,310 --> 00:24:39,845
The lungs are yours,
and you deserve
541
00:24:39,846 --> 00:24:42,981
a chance to live
as much as that boy does.
542
00:24:42,982 --> 00:24:45,652
But those are the facts.
543
00:24:47,387 --> 00:24:49,121
- Thank you, Maggie.
544
00:24:49,122 --> 00:24:50,757
- Okay.
545
00:24:54,527 --> 00:24:56,061
- It's simple math.
546
00:24:56,062 --> 00:24:57,996
- No, Alea.
547
00:24:57,997 --> 00:25:01,601
People always use statistics
and opinions
548
00:25:01,735 --> 00:25:03,470
to tell you
something's impossible.
549
00:25:03,603 --> 00:25:06,506
The world has no lack
of cold water
550
00:25:06,639 --> 00:25:10,143
to throw on fresh ideas
that have the possibility
551
00:25:10,276 --> 00:25:11,910
of beating the odds.
552
00:25:11,911 --> 00:25:16,215
I got to where I am by only
trusting my own counsel.
553
00:25:16,216 --> 00:25:17,750
I taught you to do the same.
554
00:25:17,751 --> 00:25:20,053
- I do trust my own counsel.
555
00:25:22,355 --> 00:25:24,590
Which is why
I'm not taking the lungs.
556
00:25:24,591 --> 00:25:26,725
- You will.
You will take them.
557
00:25:26,726 --> 00:25:28,962
Yes, you will.
- Look at him.
558
00:25:29,062 --> 00:25:30,629
Look at Noah.
559
00:25:30,630 --> 00:25:33,332
- No, there--there--
there are no other options.
560
00:25:33,333 --> 00:25:35,335
- Look at the life
you're taking.
561
00:25:35,468 --> 00:25:36,870
- I will not allow you to die.
562
00:25:36,970 --> 00:25:41,040
Do you hear me?
You are everything to me.
563
00:25:41,041 --> 00:25:43,509
You're the only good thing
in this world.
564
00:25:43,510 --> 00:25:47,046
You have a life
that you deserve to live,
565
00:25:47,047 --> 00:25:50,316
and I sure as hell
am gonna make sure you have it.
566
00:25:50,450 --> 00:25:53,919
- I know you love me.
567
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:55,020
[groans softly]
568
00:25:55,021 --> 00:25:59,324
You don't say it much,
but I always feel it.
569
00:25:59,325 --> 00:26:02,361
I love you too.
570
00:26:02,362 --> 00:26:07,000
But please, please,
look at him.
571
00:26:07,133 --> 00:26:14,107
♪ ♪
572
00:26:17,644 --> 00:26:20,747
- [breathing shakily]
573
00:26:22,916 --> 00:26:26,418
[voice breaking]
I couldn't--
574
00:26:26,419 --> 00:26:29,888
I couldn't save your mother.
575
00:26:29,889 --> 00:26:33,625
I--Alea, I--
576
00:26:33,626 --> 00:26:35,961
I can't lose you too.
577
00:26:35,962 --> 00:26:37,363
[sobbing]
578
00:26:37,364 --> 00:26:40,033
- We don't have a choice.
579
00:26:40,133 --> 00:26:41,967
- I love you.
580
00:26:41,968 --> 00:26:45,171
[sobbing]
581
00:26:47,474 --> 00:26:49,009
- It's okay.
582
00:26:52,779 --> 00:26:55,648
It's gonna be okay.
583
00:26:58,818 --> 00:27:00,420
- My resignation letter.
584
00:27:02,022 --> 00:27:05,158
- I was hoping
you'd change your mind.
585
00:27:05,291 --> 00:27:07,259
- I gave it a lot of thought.
586
00:27:07,260 --> 00:27:09,928
But in the end,
nothing changed for me.
587
00:27:09,929 --> 00:27:14,099
But I do wanna apologize for
the way I spoke to you earlier.
588
00:27:14,100 --> 00:27:15,768
I got personal.
589
00:27:15,769 --> 00:27:17,736
I wasn't playing fair.
590
00:27:17,737 --> 00:27:21,708
- Well, I understand
your anger, Dennis.
591
00:27:21,808 --> 00:27:26,712
I do.
You are collateral damage.
592
00:27:26,713 --> 00:27:29,948
But, you know, I realized
I've got some anger of my own,
593
00:27:29,949 --> 00:27:32,284
and I need to be honest
about that.
594
00:27:32,285 --> 00:27:33,453
- This is about Alex.
595
00:27:33,586 --> 00:27:35,522
- Well, that's why I moved out.
596
00:27:35,622 --> 00:27:37,623
You know, we had been
together over a year,
597
00:27:37,624 --> 00:27:40,026
and your daughter
didn't know I existed.
598
00:27:40,126 --> 00:27:41,493
- I explained why
I kept it from her.
599
00:27:41,494 --> 00:27:43,729
- You made excuses, Dennis,
600
00:27:43,730 --> 00:27:46,265
that still don't
hold water for me.
601
00:27:46,266 --> 00:27:49,336
- Sharon--
- You know...
602
00:27:49,469 --> 00:27:54,874
you asked me
to let you into my life,
603
00:27:55,008 --> 00:27:59,878
and I did,
because I believed in us.
604
00:27:59,879 --> 00:28:04,416
But you didn't give me
the same respect.
605
00:28:04,417 --> 00:28:07,319
[pensive music]
606
00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:09,723
And that hurt me deeply.
607
00:28:11,925 --> 00:28:15,694
- I made a mistake,
which I apologized for.
608
00:28:15,695 --> 00:28:18,497
You're choosing
to hold onto this.
609
00:28:18,498 --> 00:28:23,837
- Well, what would that say
about me if I did let it stand?
610
00:28:23,937 --> 00:28:28,907
What would that say
about our relationship?
611
00:28:28,908 --> 00:28:31,076
Now...
612
00:28:31,077 --> 00:28:35,048
I think it's time
we went our separate ways.
613
00:28:35,148 --> 00:28:38,484
- Sharon, can I be honest
with you?
614
00:28:38,485 --> 00:28:40,552
- Please.
615
00:28:40,553 --> 00:28:44,556
- You went through a traumatic
experience a few months ago.
616
00:28:44,557 --> 00:28:47,226
We almost lost you.
617
00:28:47,227 --> 00:28:50,997
And I don't think you ever
fully dealt with that.
618
00:28:54,834 --> 00:28:59,906
- Uh--it's not about
emotions, Dennis.
619
00:29:02,008 --> 00:29:04,377
It's about respect.
620
00:29:07,147 --> 00:29:10,450
And I accept your letter
of resignation.
621
00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:17,524
♪ ♪
622
00:29:22,162 --> 00:29:23,263
[door closes]
623
00:29:28,935 --> 00:29:31,938
[machines beeping]
624
00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:42,282
- Hey, when you see my husband,
625
00:29:42,382 --> 00:29:44,084
can you tell him where I am
and what's happening?
626
00:29:44,184 --> 00:29:45,751
'Cause he has no clue
Noah's getting the lungs.
627
00:29:45,752 --> 00:29:46,920
- You still haven't
gotten ahold of him?
628
00:29:47,020 --> 00:29:48,554
- I tried calling him,
but he forgot his phone.
629
00:29:48,555 --> 00:29:50,223
- Yeah, go. I'll let him know.
630
00:29:53,893 --> 00:29:55,195
- How you feeling, honey?
631
00:29:56,930 --> 00:29:58,364
- I mean,
it hurts when I breathe,
632
00:29:58,365 --> 00:30:01,433
but other than that, better.
633
00:30:01,434 --> 00:30:04,636
- Oh, good. Good.
634
00:30:04,637 --> 00:30:07,506
Um...
635
00:30:07,507 --> 00:30:11,978
sweetie, I've been thinking
about what you said, and, um...
636
00:30:13,847 --> 00:30:15,214
I'm a shrink.
637
00:30:15,215 --> 00:30:19,818
You know, and it seems that
as hard as I try
638
00:30:19,819 --> 00:30:24,089
to not let that bleed
into my parenting skills
639
00:30:24,090 --> 00:30:27,493
or lack thereof, I have failed.
640
00:30:27,494 --> 00:30:29,028
- Dad, you don't
have to try to--
641
00:30:29,029 --> 00:30:30,630
- You know, honey,
I actually do.
642
00:30:34,534 --> 00:30:39,639
I overreacted in a really
inappropriate way earlier,
643
00:30:39,739 --> 00:30:42,007
and I'm sorry.
644
00:30:42,008 --> 00:30:43,909
Sincerely, honey, I apologize.
645
00:30:43,910 --> 00:30:46,912
It's just that, you know,
we've got this history
646
00:30:46,913 --> 00:30:48,782
of depression in our family,
647
00:30:48,882 --> 00:30:52,151
and you seem to be
in a dark place, and--
648
00:30:52,152 --> 00:30:53,586
- Dad, I'm not depressed.
649
00:30:53,687 --> 00:30:56,588
- Do you mind--do you mind
just hearing me out for a bit?
650
00:30:56,589 --> 00:30:59,858
So, you know, when I was a kid,
651
00:30:59,859 --> 00:31:04,330
my dad seemed to be
in a dark place a lot, right?
652
00:31:04,431 --> 00:31:07,232
We didn't use the word
"depression" in my family.
653
00:31:07,233 --> 00:31:10,869
It was always like,
oh, Dad's a little blue.
654
00:31:10,870 --> 00:31:13,439
You know, Dad's just
really, really tired.
655
00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:15,008
- I know the story already.
656
00:31:15,108 --> 00:31:16,910
- Yeah, but you don't know
all of it,
657
00:31:17,010 --> 00:31:19,612
and I promised myself
I'd tell you as soon as
658
00:31:19,713 --> 00:31:21,748
you got a little older,
and I just--
659
00:31:21,848 --> 00:31:26,086
well, anyway,
I loved my dad, right?
660
00:31:26,186 --> 00:31:30,522
And I was pretty sure that
he was depressed, right?
661
00:31:30,523 --> 00:31:34,394
So I just read any book
I could get my hands on
662
00:31:34,527 --> 00:31:37,297
that might teach me how to--
I don't know--help him.
663
00:31:37,430 --> 00:31:40,165
- Yeah, and that was your first
step toward becoming a shrink.
664
00:31:40,166 --> 00:31:46,038
- And then, one weekend, um,
I came home from college.
665
00:31:46,039 --> 00:31:50,910
It was a Saturday morning,
and I slept late.
666
00:31:51,011 --> 00:31:54,880
And I guess Mom had
already left the house,
667
00:31:54,881 --> 00:31:57,049
and so I went down, and I--
668
00:31:57,050 --> 00:31:58,951
I made myself some breakfast.
669
00:31:58,952 --> 00:32:02,921
And that's when--
670
00:32:02,922 --> 00:32:05,924
that's when I smelled
the, uh, the fumes.
671
00:32:05,925 --> 00:32:08,160
The, uh, garage was
right off the kitchen,
672
00:32:08,161 --> 00:32:11,930
and I opened up the door,
and then all the--
673
00:32:11,931 --> 00:32:14,767
[somber music]
674
00:32:14,768 --> 00:32:17,736
All the smoke just
started to billow out.
675
00:32:17,737 --> 00:32:20,507
And, um...
676
00:32:20,607 --> 00:32:23,208
you know, Dad had
rolled up all the windows
677
00:32:23,209 --> 00:32:26,078
and used a garden hose
and some duct tape,
678
00:32:26,079 --> 00:32:28,714
piped the exhaust in through
the driver's-side window,
679
00:32:28,715 --> 00:32:32,484
and been dead for hours, honey.
680
00:32:32,485 --> 00:32:37,056
And my entire life,
I just have regretted
681
00:32:37,057 --> 00:32:39,826
not being more proactive
about reaching out,
682
00:32:39,926 --> 00:32:42,696
saying, Dad, you know,
what's going on?
683
00:32:42,796 --> 00:32:44,163
You know?
684
00:32:44,164 --> 00:32:48,267
I regret so much that I
succumbed to this ridiculous,
685
00:32:48,268 --> 00:32:52,839
you know, "we don't talk about
that kind of thing" taboo BS
686
00:32:52,939 --> 00:32:55,040
that was rampant
in my household.
687
00:32:55,041 --> 00:32:58,144
You know,
if only I'd have known
688
00:32:58,244 --> 00:33:02,449
how much pain he was in,
how alone he was,
689
00:33:02,549 --> 00:33:04,951
how much shame he was
made to feel for something
690
00:33:05,051 --> 00:33:08,555
that wasn't his fault.
691
00:33:08,655 --> 00:33:11,557
- [crying] Dad, I'm so sorry.
692
00:33:11,558 --> 00:33:15,094
I didn't know what was
happening to me, and I--
693
00:33:15,095 --> 00:33:18,330
I thought I could just
hold on a little longer
694
00:33:18,331 --> 00:33:20,700
and maybe it would all go away.
695
00:33:22,736 --> 00:33:27,307
And it didn't,
and I felt like such a freak.
696
00:33:28,975 --> 00:33:32,012
And I thought
about calling you.
697
00:33:32,112 --> 00:33:35,981
I did.
But I was so embarrassed.
698
00:33:35,982 --> 00:33:37,717
And I know that
Stanford isn't cheap,
699
00:33:37,817 --> 00:33:39,485
and I didn't wanna
disappoint you,
700
00:33:39,486 --> 00:33:43,256
and at Granny's funeral,
I could see that I had.
701
00:33:43,356 --> 00:33:45,724
- Honey, honey, honey,
look at me.
702
00:33:45,725 --> 00:33:47,359
Look at me.
703
00:33:47,360 --> 00:33:51,798
You are incapable
of disappointing me.
704
00:33:51,898 --> 00:33:55,167
- I didn't know
what else to do, Dad.
705
00:33:55,168 --> 00:33:57,302
When I got in my car
this morning,
706
00:33:57,303 --> 00:34:01,608
it just seemed like
the only option.
707
00:34:01,708 --> 00:34:03,509
It has for a while now.
708
00:34:03,510 --> 00:34:06,178
[sobbing]
709
00:34:06,179 --> 00:34:10,115
- You have any idea
how proud I am of you
710
00:34:10,116 --> 00:34:12,317
for saying that out loud?
- I'm sorry.
711
00:34:12,318 --> 00:34:14,853
- You have nothing
to be sorry about, honey.
712
00:34:14,854 --> 00:34:18,624
Look, we're gonna
figure this out.
713
00:34:18,625 --> 00:34:20,192
- I do need you, Dad.
714
00:34:20,193 --> 00:34:23,128
- And I will always be here
to talk to you
715
00:34:23,129 --> 00:34:25,465
about whatever
you wanna talk about.
716
00:34:25,565 --> 00:34:28,401
But how about this?
717
00:34:28,501 --> 00:34:34,606
Let's say if ever we start
to stray into this area,
718
00:34:34,607 --> 00:34:38,911
I promise you
from the bottom of my heart,
719
00:34:38,912 --> 00:34:40,780
all I'm gonna do is listen.
720
00:34:42,816 --> 00:34:44,416
Okay?
721
00:34:44,417 --> 00:34:45,785
- Okay.
722
00:34:49,556 --> 00:34:51,024
- Oh.
723
00:34:51,124 --> 00:34:52,859
It'll be okay.
724
00:35:00,834 --> 00:35:02,602
- Where is he?
Where's my son?
725
00:35:05,538 --> 00:35:09,942
No. No.
726
00:35:09,943 --> 00:35:13,579
- Thank you.
In six or seven hours.
727
00:35:13,580 --> 00:35:14,913
- Lancer!
728
00:35:14,914 --> 00:35:16,115
You selfish son of a bitch!
729
00:35:16,116 --> 00:35:17,683
- Take a step back.
730
00:35:17,684 --> 00:35:18,817
- Hey!
731
00:35:18,818 --> 00:35:20,119
- I think you need
to walk away.
732
00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:21,754
- Look at me!
Admit what you did!
733
00:35:21,755 --> 00:35:24,156
Admit that you killed my son!
734
00:35:24,157 --> 00:35:25,325
- Gun!
- Got the gun!
735
00:35:25,425 --> 00:35:26,358
[gunshot]
736
00:35:26,359 --> 00:35:27,960
- Get the hell away from me!
737
00:35:27,961 --> 00:35:29,863
- Dad? What's happening?
738
00:35:29,963 --> 00:35:32,164
- Everything's gonna be fine, sweetie.
739
00:35:32,165 --> 00:35:34,633
You need to calm down.
740
00:35:34,634 --> 00:35:37,503
- I--I didn't want this,
any of this.
741
00:35:37,504 --> 00:35:39,405
- You're clearly not
up to speed.
742
00:35:39,406 --> 00:35:41,774
- What--what are you
talking about?
743
00:35:41,775 --> 00:35:45,778
- My daughter gave
those lungs to your son.
744
00:35:45,779 --> 00:35:48,013
He's up in surgery right now.
745
00:35:48,014 --> 00:35:50,749
- No, you're just saying
whatever you need to
746
00:35:50,750 --> 00:35:52,251
to get me to put the gun down.
747
00:35:52,252 --> 00:35:54,153
- He's telling the truth,
Walter.
748
00:35:54,154 --> 00:35:56,423
All right, Noah's alive,
749
00:35:56,523 --> 00:35:59,858
and the surgery is
going really well.
750
00:35:59,859 --> 00:36:02,361
Just put the gun down.
751
00:36:02,362 --> 00:36:04,897
All right, let me take you
upstairs to join your wife.
752
00:36:04,898 --> 00:36:07,166
- Stop lying to me.
753
00:36:07,167 --> 00:36:11,837
My son is gone,
754
00:36:11,838 --> 00:36:13,639
and I don't know how
I'm gonna live without him.
755
00:36:13,640 --> 00:36:16,743
- Walter, I would never
lie to you.
756
00:36:18,912 --> 00:36:20,879
Whoa, whoa. Hey, whoa, whoa.
757
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:22,815
Easy, okay, Walter? Come on.
758
00:36:22,816 --> 00:36:24,583
- You don't understand.
759
00:36:24,584 --> 00:36:26,453
Noah needed lungs, and we were
told to get in line,
760
00:36:26,553 --> 00:36:28,288
so we did,
because that's the system.
761
00:36:28,388 --> 00:36:30,322
And it's supposed
to be fair, right?
762
00:36:30,323 --> 00:36:35,427
So we waited years
while Noah wasted away,
763
00:36:35,428 --> 00:36:38,064
praying for a miracle.
764
00:36:38,164 --> 00:36:41,200
And then one day,
we got the call.
765
00:36:41,201 --> 00:36:44,771
We got the miracle.
766
00:36:44,871 --> 00:36:47,706
Until you cut the line.
767
00:36:47,707 --> 00:36:51,210
- I was protecting my child,
same as you.
768
00:36:51,211 --> 00:36:53,379
- We're not the same.
769
00:36:53,380 --> 00:36:56,683
I tried to protect my son,
but I don't have the money
770
00:36:56,816 --> 00:36:59,084
and the power like you do.
771
00:36:59,085 --> 00:37:03,555
- Walter, listen to me, okay?
772
00:37:03,556 --> 00:37:06,026
Noah is alive.
773
00:37:08,328 --> 00:37:12,865
- That's why he's gone
and my daughter is still here.
774
00:37:12,866 --> 00:37:14,667
- Walter.
775
00:37:14,668 --> 00:37:17,370
Noah still needs you
to fight for him.
776
00:37:17,470 --> 00:37:20,373
And that's what
I admire about you.
777
00:37:20,473 --> 00:37:23,676
Not every parent would fight
for their child
778
00:37:23,677 --> 00:37:24,977
the way that you do.
779
00:37:24,978 --> 00:37:27,013
And this transplant?
780
00:37:27,113 --> 00:37:29,481
All right, it means that Noah
has more years ahead of him
781
00:37:29,482 --> 00:37:32,384
than he's already lived.
782
00:37:32,385 --> 00:37:35,789
I don't want you
to miss any of that.
783
00:37:35,889 --> 00:37:37,523
So come on.
784
00:37:37,524 --> 00:37:41,594
All right?
Please, put the gun down.
785
00:37:41,695 --> 00:37:48,668
♪ ♪
786
00:38:02,449 --> 00:38:05,317
- Hey, Mister?
787
00:38:05,318 --> 00:38:07,920
If I don't get the chance,
788
00:38:07,921 --> 00:38:11,657
tell Noah to use those lungs
as much as he can.
789
00:38:11,658 --> 00:38:15,828
- I'll tell him, sweetie,
I promise.
790
00:38:15,829 --> 00:38:17,629
Thank you.
791
00:38:17,630 --> 00:38:24,337
♪ ♪
792
00:38:40,787 --> 00:38:43,656
- [crying]
793
00:38:43,757 --> 00:38:50,730
♪ ♪
794
00:38:59,406 --> 00:39:01,141
- [sighs]
795
00:39:02,842 --> 00:39:04,377
[knock at door]
796
00:39:13,353 --> 00:39:18,290
- Hi.
You might not remember me,
797
00:39:18,291 --> 00:39:21,260
but we met
when I got stuck in a well,
798
00:39:21,261 --> 00:39:24,497
and you cut off my leg.
799
00:39:25,899 --> 00:39:26,865
- Nope.
800
00:39:26,866 --> 00:39:29,601
Sorry, not, uh,
not ringing any bells.
801
00:39:29,602 --> 00:39:33,773
- Uh, picture me
with more dirt on my face.
802
00:39:36,509 --> 00:39:38,745
- Oh, Sadie.
803
00:39:38,845 --> 00:39:40,879
- [laughs]
804
00:39:40,880 --> 00:39:44,017
- Hi.
- Hi.
805
00:39:47,787 --> 00:39:49,089
- Hey.
806
00:39:52,425 --> 00:39:54,427
We need to talk.
807
00:39:57,831 --> 00:40:01,467
- You know, there's something
Maya Angelou once said
808
00:40:01,468 --> 00:40:04,571
that kept ringing in my ear.
809
00:40:04,671 --> 00:40:07,639
"When someone shows you
who they are,
810
00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:11,276
believe it the first time."
811
00:40:11,277 --> 00:40:14,814
I didn't wanna believe
what I felt, but...
812
00:40:14,914 --> 00:40:20,185
[chuckles]
Who am I to question Maya?
813
00:40:20,186 --> 00:40:23,555
So today,
814
00:40:23,556 --> 00:40:27,927
I chose to believe
what I already knew to be true.
815
00:40:29,963 --> 00:40:36,902
I'm finding forgiveness harder
as I get older.
816
00:40:36,903 --> 00:40:39,638
It's just too easy.
817
00:40:39,639 --> 00:40:43,575
[chuckles] And yet I feel--
818
00:40:43,576 --> 00:40:47,046
I feel hopeful.
819
00:40:47,047 --> 00:40:50,750
Um, I did almost die.
820
00:40:54,187 --> 00:40:58,825
And yet, here I am, alive.
821
00:41:02,228 --> 00:41:05,065
[melancholy music]
822
00:41:05,165 --> 00:41:06,299
♪ ♪
823
00:41:06,399 --> 00:41:09,035
- Mm, don't cry.
824
00:41:12,305 --> 00:41:15,642
You're so pretty.
- [chuckles]
825
00:41:18,378 --> 00:41:20,979
- What's your name?
826
00:41:20,980 --> 00:41:23,049
- Sharon.
827
00:41:26,453 --> 00:41:29,355
You're tired, aren't you?
828
00:41:29,356 --> 00:41:34,160
- I--could--
829
00:41:34,260 --> 00:41:37,529
I don't--yeah.
830
00:41:37,530 --> 00:41:39,098
- It's okay, Bert.
831
00:41:39,099 --> 00:41:40,767
- Yeah.
832
00:41:40,867 --> 00:41:42,202
- It's okay.
833
00:41:44,304 --> 00:41:46,138
We can just sit.
834
00:41:46,139 --> 00:41:53,213
♪ ♪
835
00:41:59,886 --> 00:42:02,555
[dramatic music]
836
00:42:02,822 --> 00:42:09,829
♪ ♪
837
00:42:29,182 --> 00:42:32,118
[wolf howls]
60986
Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.
Afrikaans
Akan
Albanian
Amharic
Arabic
Armenian
Azerbaijani
Basque
Belarusian
Bemba
Bengali
Bihari
Bosnian
Breton
Bulgarian
Cambodian
Catalan
Cebuano
Cherokee
Chichewa
Chinese (Simplified)
Chinese (Traditional)
Corsican
Croatian
Czech
Danish
English
Esperanto
Estonian
Faroese
Finnish
Frisian
Galician
Georgian
German
Greek
Guarani
Haitian Creole
Hausa
Hawaiian
Hebrew
Hmong
Hungarian
Icelandic
Indonesian
Irish
Italian
Japanese
Kazakh
Kinyarwanda
Kirundi
Kongo
Korean
Krio (Sierra Leone)
Kurdish
Kyrgyz
Laothian
Latin
Latvian
Lithuanian
Luganda
Luo
Luxembourgish
Macedonian
Malagasy
Malay
Maltese
Maori
Mauritian Creole
Moldavian
Mongolian
Myanmar (Burmese)
Montenegrin
Nepali
Norwegian
Pashto
Persian
Polish
Portuguese (Brazil)
Portuguese (Portugal)
Quechua
Romanian
Romansh
Russian
Samoan
Scots Gaelic
Serbian
Sesotho
Setswana
Seychellois Creole
Shona
Sindhi
Sinhalese
Slovak
Slovenian
Somali
Spanish
Swedish
Tajik
Thai
Tigrinya
Tonga
Turkish
Turkmen
Ukrainian
Uzbek
Vietnamese
Welsh
Wolof