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Part of the paternity test
is to identify the fetal DNA.

And there was none. I'm not pregnant.

How about you, Captain? You doing okay?

I'm about to become a dad again...

at an age when most men
are becoming grandpas.

We are undoubtedly a complicated trio.

My feelings for you are very real,

and they're very serious.

I spent a lot of my life
sailing away at sea,

and I never really found
the one true thing.

You are that one true thing, Avery.

So that's why I came back.

Last week, you both came to me

and declared you wanted
a relationship with me.

After serious thought,
I have made a decision.

I'm leaving for med school in a month,

and starting a potentially long-term
relationship makes no sense.

Better to leave here
single and unencumbered.

So...

the answer is "no"... to both of you.

Let's go meet the Trad Wives.

Sorry. Can we just talk about...

I'm sorry.
Did you just say "Trad Wives"?

No. Yes.

Trad, a.k.a. Traditional Wife,

a woman who prioritizes
family, motherhood,

homemaking, homeschooling, homesteading,

and, above all, her husband's needs.

How unmodern.

And yet, Penny Hollister
is a social-media sensation

with over 2 million followers.

She's coming on the ship
with her new book, "And Obey,"

- "And Obey"?
- As in love, honor, and...

Oh, my God.

So they have to have permission
to come aboard,

presumably from their husbands.

Oh, the husbands come with,
and they all get to enjoy

their cruise like any other guest.

This has been fascinating.
But can we go back to the...

I've made a decision.
And that was it. Okay?

Okay. Consider yourself unencumbered.

Let's go meet the guests!

There she is!

I've tried all of your recipes.

That kitchen of yours?

Your regenerative farm
is an inspiration.

- My kids love the crafts!
- I don't know how you do it!

Well, I can't wait to share all my tips

and hear all of yours in return.

We'll have plenty of time
at the demos, readings,

and sewing circles.

Could you sign this?

I'm a little surprised
that you're into all this.

I'm into any woman
getting to choose her own path.

I think some of our guests
may be taking a different path.

Can you show me where I can
set up to demo my vibrators?

I'm gonna need a big table.

Do the words "and obey" mean something

other than what we think they mean?

No way.

It's Mona Yeager! She's a legend!

She's a sex-positive expert who
has legions of fans, including myself.

I've read all of her books
and I've seen all of her videos.

I bet she's not tethered to a man

who's telling her what to do.

Unless he asks very, very nicely.

Does anyone know how these two groups

wound up on the same cruise?

Me. I do.

We had one book tour reserved
and open space.

So some bozo in corporate decided,

"Hey, we'll just add another book tour."

I mean, they're both about women.

The only problem was, is that...

no one bothered to read the books.

Or the summaries.

Fasten your seat belts, folks.

We're in for a bumpy ride.

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Captain, our agenda
has the Great Room booked

- for Penny's first event.
- And this has me

in the Great Room at the same time.

Which is unfortunate
because, as you can see,

we only have one Great Room.

Is sharing a possibility?

Not unless we want an STD.

We've had this tour
booked for months now.

Does the wife speak or is she
just the dummy in the act?

- Sst!
- Okay. Apologies.

My sincere apologies
for the double booking.

And my staff is currently working

on the rest of the schedule.

In the meantime...

would ya settle for a good
old-fashioned coin toss?

Call it.

Talk to me about satisfaction.

When is the last time
you had really great sex?

Do you remember where you were?

Do you remember the feel of the sheets,

the grass, the Ferris wheel seat?

I want you to have that again.
And again.

That freedom. That intensity. That joy.

Don't you miss that?

- Think back...
- Think back.

Think back to a time
when life was... simpler,

when our souls felt nourished...

when those around you
felt nurtured and cared for...

and you knew

what your purpose was.

Hm!

- Don't you miss that?
- Don't you miss that?

Don't you miss hot sex?

Being completely connected?

- To your family.
- Your body.

- Your duty.
- And can you make it

a priority to rediscover...

The pleasure of service and...

Submission to that desire.

Sex lowers blood pressure.

It ramps up the immune system.

It has no carbs. It feels amazing.

Why do we complicate it so much?

Now, think back

to the greatest sex you've ever had.

Now ask yourself... how long has it been

since you gave yourself over...

To the pleasure

of a committed and devoted partnership?

Isn't that what we all want?

True bonds that supersede all.

What if we prioritized...

- Our sex life...
- ...our home life,

regarding it as a privilege?

And not a chore to be checked off.

And what if we believed
that we were born

to be spoiled and indulged...

satisfied and gratified
without guilt or shame?

And what if I challenged
each and every one of you

to have a blazing orgasm

by the end of the day?

I'll be on the leisure deck
all afternoon for questions.

And our workshops.

I hope to see you all there.

It's very nice.

Looking for a... helping hand
for your helping hand?

Oh. Uh, thanks.

But I need to get back to work.

Hey, can you count out
the condoms and dental dams

for our new guests?

Also, do you mind counting
out all the lube for me?

You okay? Do you want a hand with that?

No. I... Uh, I'm an idiot.

I-I left something at the leisure deck.

I-I'll be right back.

That one!

Excellent choice.

A stomach ache? For how long?

It's nothing.
Gabe insisted I come see you.

It's been bothering her for a while.

It's just stress...
between this book launch

and the trip and everything
that will be waiting for me

on the ranch when I get home.

Any chance it's a sign she's pregnant?

We've been trying for our third
for a while.

Oh, I'm... I'm not pregnant.

I know my body. I remember how I felt.

Why don't I take a look?
We'll see what's going on.

Okay if I examine you?

Hmm. Any nausea?

No?

There's no rigidity.
No rebound tenderness.

That's good news.

Have you had anything
to eat or drink today?

We had the ship's buffet,
which was amazing.

And you did do the, uh,
raw-milk demonstration.

- Hm.
- You had raw milk?

Have you had that before?

Penny?

Every day.

- Any issues before this?
- No.

We feed it to our kids every day, too.

It's rich in beneficial bacteria

and reduces the risk
of asthma, allergies.

Maybe, but the FDA
has labeled it as dangerous.

And you are far more likely to
be hospitalized with listeria,

E. coli, salmonella,

a whole list of things,
if you ingest it.

Well, we're not here to have a debate

over what I feed my family.

Is there something wrong
with my wife's stomach?

Why don't I run some tests?

We can rule out any foodborne illnesses

and see if maybe you're pregnant.

When you are finished recording,

you may hang up
or press 1 for more options.

Hi. Hi. It's me again.

I was thinking of ya.

God. I wish you'd pick up
so we could talk.

Call me back, please.

Max. What's up?

Hey, Cap.
I'm... I'm sorry to bother you.

Munroe told me
I could find you down here.

Penny Hollister
came down to the infirmary

complaining of abdominal pain.

Could be listeria, possibly E. coli...

very likely because of the
raw-milk tasting she did earlier.

But if it's not the raw milk,
then we have to consider

that the infection
came from the ship's food

and that we're looking
at a major outbreak.

Some days, the hits just keep on comin'.

Rough day, Cap?

Uh, I better get ahold
of the head of culinary.

Max, thank you.

Hey! Hi.

I'm Avery, the nurse practitioner.

Can I help you?

This is my first time on a ship,

and, honestly,
I just like a little green.

Oh. I have just the thing
for seasickness.

- Come on in.
- Okay. Thank you.

This just goes behind your ear.

Thank you.

I don't want to be weird...

but I'm a huge fan.

It's not weird at all.

I saw you at my talk earlier.

Ah. It was very inspiring.

Hm? The question is,
have you done your homework?

I did.

Blazed my own trail, as it were.

- Good for you!
- Mm-hmm.

Or not so good for you.

It... It was.

Just not quite as satisfying
as I had hoped.

I'm all for self-care,
but sometimes you need a...

extra set of hands, shall we say?

Is that a problem for you?

Yes and no.

There are two men on the ship
who are interested in me.

But you're not attracted to them.

It's just wrong timing.

I'm leaving for med school in a month,

and it's not a good time
to start a relationship, so...

Who said anything about a relationship?

Just talking about sex.

Pick one of those guys
and have sex with him.

And then have sex with the other one.

What's stopping you?

You said you didn't want a relationship.

- I don't.
- So you just want to have...

Sex. One on one.

- With no commitments.
- Exactly.

- Yes.
- No.

Wait. You didn't hear the whole thing.

I heard what I needed. I'm in.

- I heard enough. I'm out.
- Let me explain.

Explain what? You, me, sex. Say no more.

This is how we can avoid
the deep feelings

and any relationship
we need to break up.

It's not for me, Avery. I'm sorry.

So how soon can we start?
Now? I'm free now.

Penny's back in the infirmary
with a fever. We got to go.

Thank you for... the offer.

We were relaxing on the deck
when her pain was getting worse.

I'm going to be fine.

Well, your blood work
did come back negative

for foodborne illness and for pregnancy.

- Ah.
- But you are a little anemic

and your white blood count is high,

so we're just gonna take a look around

and see what else we can find.

This will be a little cold
when I put it on. Okay?

- Mm-hmm.
- I knew it wasn't the milk.

We were just doing our due diligence

based on medical science
and established research.

We prefer to do our own research.

- "We" or "he"?
- I don't appreciate you

- speaking to my wife that way.
- Gabe.

May I?

To answer your question,

my husband and I agree
both on this topic and...

not caring if you approve our lifestyle.

That's fair.

And I truly believe every woman

should have the right
to choose her own life.

Oh, you support my right

even as you judge me
for the actual choice.

All you see is what I've given up.

But...

Look at everything that I've got...

a peaceful home with the time and space

to devote to the people I love
so that they can thrive.

That is my work.

And my husband's support
allows me to do that.

We have a true partnership.

Isn't that what everybody wants?

Penny, you have a mass
resting up against your bladder.

A mass? What... What does that mean?

Means we're gonna have to run a CT scan.

Penny had a lot to say.
Once she opened up.

Change your mind about anything?

I'm fine with all of it, in theory.

A peaceful home. The love of a good man.

Awesome-smelling candles.

I just don't like the surrendering

of my opinions or bank-account parts.

Plus, you believe in sex
without attachment, so...

Whoa. Wait, wait, wait.
Are you judging me?

Mr. Joy At All Costs...

who kissed me at the first party.

No, I'm just saying...

having clear roles in
a relationship can be helpful.

Oh, what, so you're a trad now,
or is this just code

for you don't want me
sleeping with Tristan?

Abdomen is clear.

No signs of any additional lesions.

- Let's move on to the pelvis.
- Max.

You made the same offer to Tristan.

Of course, you did.

And he said yes. Of course, he did.

You said no. You can't
be upset with me if...

I'm not. Really. I'm not.

I-I want you to have
everything that you want.

Is this really all it is?
Just pleasure and that's it?

Do you have a problem with that?

No. I hope you do have fun.

Really. I mean that.

Max. There, at her bladder.

Looks like Penny's partnership
isn't as true as she says it is.

Actually, I'd prefer to wait here

until Dr. Bankman can talk to me.

He asked to speak with your wife alone.

Well, we make all decisions together.

It's a feminine issue, and she might be

a little embarrassed
to discuss it in front of you.

At least the first time.

Alright. I will check back later.

Can you make your own way
to the leisure deck?

I just remembered
that I have another appointment.

Aah!

That was...

Amazing!

Utterly.

Did I live up to the fantasy?

- Unh-unh.
- Oh, come on.

Don't pretend that you
haven't thought about it.

I am very pleased to report
that having sex with you alone

is even better than imagining.

Well...

are there...

any other fantasies
that you want to act out?

Allow me to demonstrate.

Hey.

Where's Gabe?

He's upstairs on the leisure deck

with the rest of your group.

So, earlier, you knew
that you weren't pregnant.

Because of your IUD.

Unfortunately,
it's perforated your uterus,

moved into your bladder, lodged
itself up against the wall,

and is now causing an infection.

I had no idea that could happen.

It's rare, but it is a risk.

Does Gabe know? About the IUD?

You know, he'll never forgive me.

No, and I can't tell him,
or anybody else,

any of your private medical information

without your permission.

In the beginning, I wanted
a whole football team of kids.

But managing the two that we have now...

and the house and the land
and all of our animals...

You got a lot on your plate.

I... I love it so much.

I love being in service to Gabe,

raising the kids
and sharing it with others,

showing the joy that can come
from a life of bounty.

Is it bounty if it's overwhelming you?

I want what I have, Dr. Bankman.

I just don't want any more.

You're gonna have to get the damage

to your uterus and bladder fixed

and have the IUD and the infection

surgically removed at our next port.

No. I... I-I can't.

How will I explain that to Gabe?

And all of the fans here?

If they find out...

...I could lose everything.

Excuse me. Dr. Bankman? How's Penny?

What did the imaging show?

Unfortunately, the lesion that we found

is causing her an infection.

It has to be removed right away.

Wait. S-She needs surgery.

Y-You think it's cancer?

No, no. It's not cancer.
But it is a serious infection.

It's causing her abdominal pain, fever,

increased white blood cell count.

I'm just on my way
to talk to the captain right now

to arrange transport to a hospital
when we get to the next port.

You're sure she needs surgery
in a foreign country?

Couldn't you just give her
some antibiotics

and buy us some time to get back home?

I already put her on I.V. antibiotics,

but the procedure can't wait.

Okay. I trust you, Doc.

Can I go see her now?

Eh, she's resting right now.

She'll want to see me.

Stop being so gorgeous, please.

Thank you. You're embarrassing me.

You said you were a fan!

And if I wasn't one before...

I, um...

I took your advice.

And I had a great afternoon.

I'm so glad.

"To Avery. Keep having amazing sex."

I had forgotten
how much fun sex could be.

The joy of getting out

of your head and just letting your body

take control and surrendering to the...

Mm-hmm.

Mona, is something... wrong?

Are you o-okay?

I can't have sex.

Come...

Okay. Um...

Uh, it...

My vagina is closed for business.

Vaginismus. Nothing can go in.
It's too painful to even try.

And, um, I have libido.

I can have orgasms.

But penetrative sex is like...

And, um, it's been almost,
I don't know, two years.

I know. I'm a fraud.
Some sexpert. I know.

Oh, Mona.

Come to the infirmary.
Let me examine you.

Honey, I've been to everyone

on God's green earth about this.

Even your gynecologist?

No. Becau... The exam would be agony.

This whole thing is so embarrassing.

I would love to help.

And I promise you, I will
take such good care of you.

I should have come to you.
I just... I didn't know how.

Know what? To tell me the truth?

How many times have we
talked about having...

That... That was the dream.

Yes, but dreams change, Gabe!

Mine don't. Mine don't.

And now this thing
that you've had implanted

is what's making you sick.

Just please let me explain.

No.

I'll just be on the outside.

Sorry if this is a bit cold.

You know, I've... I've tried therapy.

Acupuncture. Dilators. Kegels.

I even went to the shaman,
who did a fertility dance

and cleansed my aura

by waving owl feathers
and burning incense.

I'm shocked that didn't work.

Yeah, my sister, my therapist,
my last couple partners.

They all... They think
it's anxiety, you know?

Essentially, I'm crazy.

You are not crazy.

Three out of four women experience pain

during intercourse in their lifetimes.

And you certainly
don't strike me as someone

who's anxious about having sex.

No. No. I love sex. I always have.

You know, right up until the
"Do Not Disturb" sign went up.

Did something happen?

A trauma of any sort?

Nothing. No. I mean...

Just all of a sudden,
my relationships started

having a maximum shelf life of a month.

Well, you do say on your podcast

that variety is the spice
of a good sex life.

That's better than admitting
that a month

is the longest most men,
even the good ones,

will put up with not having "real sex."

Their words.

I'm so sorry.

Well, your ultrasound is clean.

There's no cysts, fibroids,
or lesions, and, um...

That's good news.

Sounds like no answer, no hope.

I still have hope,
but I'd like to take some blood

to screen for other possible causes.

- Abdominal surgery.
- Yep.

This is supposed to be paradise.

Captain, what's going on?

W-We've been through the
literal eye of a storm together,

and I've never seen a chink
in the armor, but this week...

Max.

Mind your own business.

Prepare your patient for transport.

Dismissed.

Aye, Captain.

Excuse me.

Could you please move your... massagers

to a more discreet area of the deck?

Some of our group are complaining.

Well, the technical term is "vibrators."

And I didn't realize you all hated sex.

We like sex just fine.

We just don't feel the need to broadcast

our pleasure to the world.

Too busy setting back feminism
two centuries

to get your groove on?

Excuse me. I've had plenty... groove.

I just choose to have it with
one man instead of all of them.

Did she just call me a slut
as an insult?

Listen... Little House on the Prairie.

Just because you've been
brainwashed by the patriarchy...

I am not!

Keep your listeria-tainted
fingers away from my lunch!

My fingers have been in a
shea-butter and green-tea soap.

God knows where yours have been!

I'll show you
where they're going.

You know what goes with pasta?

- Shrimp!
- Aah!

You need some dessert, too, Jezebel?!

Mnh!

Eat me, you Stepford Wives.

Tramp!

- Aah!
- Die alone, you nympho!

Cease fire.

Cease fire!

What is wrong with you people?

Don't you see that none of this matters?

Time is fleeting.

You're just wasting it.

Arguing about what?!

Different points of view about life?

Cut it out!

Find common ground!

And clean this mess up.

When I took your blood,
I also did a hormone panel.

And your estradiol levels
were very low. Only 23.

There's supposed to be at least 30.

Mona, you are in premature menopause.

Menopause? I'm 38 years old.

Premature menopause is rare.

It occurs in only 5% of women under 40.

Oftentimes for no discernible reason.

I need to do a pelvic exam to confirm.

And I promise that I will be gentle.

Okay.

So I'm gonna have to ask you to...

Just lie down?

I'll start by examining your pubic area.

Don't worry. My hands are warm.

I promise I will go very slow.

You just let me know if it's too much.

Okay.

Ready?

I'm noticing some thinning
of the vaginal walls...

and some decreased
elasticity and dryness.

That, coupled with
the vaginismus equals...

menopause...

which is fully treatable.

How?

Estrogen tabs.

You insert them,

and the added estrogen

helps create more lubrication
and moisture.

You should see the effects
fairly quickly.

I can insert one if you'd like.

I should do it.

I feel like if I can get this in there,

that means...
something else can get in, too.

Oh! Um, sorry.

I have to attend to another patient.

You can go ahead and get dressed.

Is it Penny? Is she okay?

Uh, I can't say.

Oh.

Is there anything I can do to help?

Maybe send up a prayer.

- Avery.
- Yeah.

Thank you.

What's happening?

We were talking, and she passed out.

BP's 60 over 41. Temp is 101.8.

Pulse is thready. Breathing is labored.

Penny? Can you hear me?

This can't wait. We got to
get her intubated right now.

Get her prepped and draped
and ready for the procedure.

You lied to me?

I'm obligated to protect
your wife's privacy.

You're a doctor. I thought
you were an honest man.

Take a big step back, Gabe.

You expect me to trust you
with Penny's life

after you looked me in the eyes
and lied?

Your wife ordered me
not to tell you about her IUD,

which, based upon your reaction,
I can understand why.

Now, Penny is unconscious.

I need your consent to help her.

Tell me exactly
what you're gonna do to her.

I'm gonna go in laparoscopically.

I'm gonna remove the IUD
and the surrounding infection.

Hopefully,
the smaller incisions will allow

for a quicker recovery time
and less complications.

What kind of complications?

Out with it, Doctor.

The possible complications
depend on what I find

when I get in there.

The perforation
may have created an opening

between her uterus and her bladder.

Best case scenario, I can repair
the damage to both of the organs.

Worst case scenario,
I have to remove the uterus

so I can clear out
the surrounding infection.

So no more kids. Pe...

Penny, she could change her mind.

Right now I think that your
focus should be on making sure

that the kids that you do have
don't lose their mom.

Whatever you need to do to...

to save her, go ahead.

When Penny told me about the IUD, I...

We fought. And...

If this is the last time
I talk to her...

She's in good hands.

Pervasive adhesions
between the posterior

abdominal wall and the uterus.

Must be where the IUD
broke through the uterine wall.

That's an awful lot
of adherent tissue and phlegmon.

You think she needs a hysterectomy?

Won't know for sure until we do
a thorough lysis of the adhesions

and check the damage to both the organs.

Take that.

I need a harmonic scalpel
on the bleeder.

Go.

She's lost a fair amount of blood.

Check her hematocrit.

Get two units of PRBC's on a cooler.

On it.

Uh, how's Penny doing?

- Uh, so far, so good.
- That's great news.

What are you even doing here?

Avery suggested I send up a prayer.

Figured a few extras couldn't hurt.

The workshop seemed pretty pointless

after we heard Penny was sick.

We can donate blood, if that helps.

We're fine for now.
That's very kind, though.

You can thank the Captain.

He reminded us we're not that different.

Amen to that.

Okay. Shove over.

Why don't you tell me about
this shea-butter hand soak.

- Yeah? Is that what it's called?
- Really?

- Yeah.
- Okay. Feel it.

- It's so soft, right?
- Okay. That's nice.

Gabe.

Everything's good.

I was able to remove the IUD
and the infected tissue.

The bladder and the uterus look fine.

She's gonna be fine.

I think you and Penny
have a lot to talk about.

Thank you.

Thank you.

She's gonna be okay.

Thank God!

Hey. Nice work in there.

Thank you. You too.

Do you still need me?

Because if not, we were gonna head out.

"We"?

As in you and Tristan?

I can stay.

If that's what you want.

No. I'm good. Thank you.

Okay.

Guess I'll... see you later?

So, how is it going with your two men?

Well, just one man, actually.

Is the other one not interested
or just insane?

With Tristan, it's...

light and... and happy and fun.

- Mm-hmm.
- And with Max...

it is so... challenging.

Which is exactly the kind
of thing I vowed to avoid

one month leading up
to going to medical school.

Then avoid it
and keep enjoying the unabashed,

unadulterated, unencumbered sex
you deserve.

- Please.
- Hear, hear.

- Oh. Don't look now.
- Hm?

But there's a guy over there,

and he is totally
checking you out.

- Hm.
- Mnh-mnh. Yeah. Mnh-mnh.

Yeah. He's hot.
You should go talk to him.

I'm not... I'm not ready.

You are so ready.
You look beautiful.

Your hair is stunning.
That skirt is killing it.

I just got it on sale.
Okay? It's got a...

Okay. Don't deflect! Don't deflect.

You deserve to have

uncomplicated, unabashed
pleasure of your own.

Okay. What the hell? Okay.

- Wish me luck.
- Ohh.

Hi.

Hey, Max. Thanks for coming.

Uh, I kind of feel like
I owe you an explanation

for all the extreme grouchiness earlier.

What's going on, Captain?

Well, right before we embarked,

I got a call from Heather,

and she told me that...

she lost the baby.

Oh, my God.

I... Yeah. I told her I wanted
to come and be with her.

And... she doesn't want that.

I'm so sorry, Cap.

I mean, I have called her

I don't know how many times
over the last few days,

and it just goes straight to voicemail.

God. Heather and this
whole thing, it just kind of...

It got me thinking
about the future and...

life after the Odyssey.

Family. Love.

But you just can't make someone else

want the things that you want.

Hm...

So I've taken the next-best course...

accept and surrender.

You know what?
We'll meet up there. Okay.

Avery, now I have to thank you.

I just had my first

blazing vaginal orgasm in two years!

On the Odyssey, we aim to please.

Thank you so much.

I mean, usually I'm the one

that's being thanked
for rescuing someone's sex life.

This whole experience
has given me, like,

a new perspective on my work.

There is life, there is sex
after menopause? What?

Sounds like your next book.

You're a genius. And I love you.

- Give me a minute.
- Okay.

Just want to say thank you
again for everything.

You're most welcome.

And, as requested...

Ah. That's another thing
I need to thank you for.

Penny and I had a long talk last night,

and I told her I don't want her
to feel the need

to hide anything from me ever again.

I appreciate how you stood up to me.

That's great.

How are you feeling
about the new family plan?

We agreed to revisit
the topic of kids once a year

on the anniversary of this cruise.

Probably try to change her mind,

but I will take no for an answer.

I love our life right now. I'm happy.

She should be happy, too.

Congratulations.

And I don't want to
freak you out, but...

That sounds a little feminist.

How you holding up?

Still sore. But grateful.

Strangely,
I can completely relate.

Bye.

Looks like you got a lot on your mind.

Yeah. Been a crazy week.

Hm.

I honestly thought

that this arrangement
would be fun for all of us.

I guess I'm a little more trad
than I care to admit.

I'm literally offering you my body,

and you are pushing me away.
What's wrong?

- Are you not attracted to me anymore or...
- Avery.

Why can't we just enjoy ourselves

for the
little time that we have left together?

You mean, why can't I be
more like Tristan?

That is not what I'm saying.

Do you have any idea
how hard this has been for me?

How much I would like nothing
more than to jump into bed with you,

hole up in your cabin,

order room service
for the next four weeks.

But if I did that and then
I had to say goodbye to you,

it would break my heart.

Max.

Avery.

I love you.

I love you.