All language subtitles for Being Erica (2009) - S01E09 - All She Ever Wanted (1080p AMZN WEB-DL x265 MONOLITH)_track3_[eng]

[electronic jingle]

[playful music]

[phones ringing]

Whoa, hey, Brent, what are you
doing?

Today of all days, you
forget to bold title?

Always bold the title.

Brent, no, they're fine.

No, they are so not fine.

You see that, dark sunglasses?

Not good.

Word around the office is
that Jackson dumped her.

Quelle surprise.

[Erica Voiceover] Remember that
song,

"Lovers in a Dangerous Time?"

Whenever I listen to it,

I think being in love is always
dangerous.

As you all know, Frank Galvin's

golden anniversary is this
Friday.

Why isn't the title bolded?

Oh, sorry, Julianne.

Well, don't apologize to
me, apologize to Frank.

Because when you don't bold the
title,

you're just saying that
this event doesn't matter.

Sorry.

As I was saying, we will be
celebrating

50 years of our glorious
leader right here,

in this office, where it all
began.

You can bring a guest.

Dress code is formal.

Hey, I have a delivery.

Oh.

-Oh, that's-- [laughs]
-Yeah?

Well, someone's feeling guilty.

Oh...

[Erica] Beautiful.

It's from Ryan.

Ryan?

Just sign right here, Miss
Strange.

Oh, um...

That's um...

That's here, here.

Here you go, sign that.

[romantic music]

What if I told you that kiss
was dessert?

Um, I'd say I'd probably have to

find a new, less cheesy,
boyfriend.

Okay.

What if I told you that dessert

was actually homemade creme
brulee?

Creme brulee?

With the sugary coating
on the top, creme brulee?

All it takes is a torch, which
I brought.

I'm always prepared.

Ooh-la-la!

[banging]

Mmm.

Oh, that's just Ethan.

It's this thing we used
to do in university.

Knock once means 'I'm
indisposed'.

Knock twice [banging] 'come on
over'.

You knocked twice.

Hey, tonight's horror movie
night.

Hey, Ryan.

Ethan.

Sorry about that, I just, I
knocked one too many times.

Sorry to interrupt.

You can borrow this another
time.

Thank you.

All right, yeah.

'Night.

Uh, we usually, you know, we
do DVD nights on Thursdays.

DVD night, huh, like a date?

No, I pick one week and he
picks the next.

So, tell me, why are, why are
you

pulling out all the stops
tonight?

Why do you think?

Uh, let's see, maybe you're
feeling guilty

because you're flying away
tomorrow

and leaving me dateless for my
boss's

very big, important anniversary
party?

Okay, yeah, now I feel guilty.

But, no, it's more than that.

Yeah?

Yeah, tonight is three months

to the day that we first met.

We're celebrating three months?

You think I'd make creme
brulee for just any old night?

No, I just thought--

You thought I was in it for the
hot sex.

No, Erica, I don't make creme
brulee

just for anyone, only the ones
that I--

[stammering] The ones that you
what?

Nothing.

Only the ones that you want to
impress

with your superb culinary
skills, hm?

Only the ones that I love.

Wow.

That's, um, I just mean that
love is,

uh, I mean, it's a very serious
emotion.

Sorry, I didn't mean
to put you on the spot.

No, it's, no, it's fine, Ryan.

You're not there yet.

That's, that's cool, right?

Yeah, of course.

Of course it is, yeah.

Love.

It's the biggest risk we take
and the most enduring mystery.

Why we feel so powerfully for
one person, and not another.

So, how's that for
tasty-crunchy?

It's perfect.

[light upbeat theme music]

♪ It's clearer inside of me

♪ Who I will always be

♪ Open me up to my heart

♪ Feels like I'm sitting in the
dark ♪

♪ Do it all over again and
again ♪

♪ Back to the end

♪ Some of my dreams

♪ And everything I ever wanted
to be ♪

[knocking]

Hey, Jenny, come on in, it's
open.

-Hi.
-Hi.

So your dress is here, even if,

technically, it's my dress.

Thank you, you are a lifesaver.

So, nice, nice robe.

Thank you.

It's Barbara Strange,
Rosh Hashanah collection.

So, where is Ryan off to this
time?

Timbuktu, Borneo, maybe Prague?

Chicago and then Vancouver.

But before he left, he uh...

He what?

He said the 'L' word.

I mean, he said that he loved
me.

Who falls in love after three
months?

Ryan, the romantic.

Okay, what did you say, when he
said?

Mm, something terrible
like, uh, uh, uh, love,

well, that's a, that's
a very serious emotion.

Oh, sweetie, you said that?

I know, don't make me feel
worse than I already do.

Ryan, I mean, he is so
great in so many ways,

but then, I just...

How do you know?

You're asking the wrong girl.

[knocking]

[Erica] Hey, Ethan, come on in,
it's open.

Oh, Ethan, very nice.

Hey, I gotta run to yoga,
it started five minutes ago.

Thanks, Jenny.

Bye.

[Erica] Ethan, thank you so much

for coming on such short notice.

I should, uh, should probably
warn you

that this event is gonna
be quite high-brow.

[laughs] I was married to Claire

for eight years, I'm used to
high-brow.

Now, if I could just stuff
myself into this dress.

Can you, um?

[Ethan] Yeah, let me help.

Thanks.

So, how are things going with
Claire?

Oh, um, it's, it's okay.

It's challenging.

Um...

What?

Sorry, I...

Is the dress too much?

'Cause you're looking at me
like--

No, no, no, it's good.

It's a great dress, actually.

We should probably get going.

Sure, yes.

Lipstick.

Well, thank you.

You look great.

Yeah. [laughs]

[jazz dinner music]

Okay, first the roses and
now this fierce dress.

What's the dealio?

And who are you?

Mr. Perfect?

Oh, no, Julianne, this
is my friend, Ethan.

My boyfriend Ryan is in
Vancouver, so.

Julianne, nice to finally meet
you.

You, too.

Not that Erica's ever mentioned
you.

Can I get anyone a drink?

Please.

Oh, I'd love a martini, make it
dirty.

G and T, thanks.

You got it.

Okay, so cute, well-dressed,
and now,

for the deal breaker: is he
single?

Single?

Uh, no, not exactly.

He's separated from his wife.

Oh, tragic.

[Erica] Twenty-four.

No, that was touch number
25, in five minutes.

So, what is it about him, do
you think?

I mean, he's got great eyes.

I can't compete with what God
gave him.

Is it his hair?

Because that's something
I can do something about.

Maybe get a mullet.

Oh my God, Ryan!

What're you doing here?

You're supposed to be in
Vancouver.

I am, I know.

But then I'm sitting there in
O'Hare,

after a crazy day of
meetings, and it hits me.

I have more pressing matters
waiting for me at home.

Oh.

I freaked you out.

No.

A little bit, yes, but not in a
bad way.

And, really, you didn't have
to fly back just for that.

Is that Ethan?

Yeah, I just, I couldn't handle

all the small talk on my own.

That's okay, right?

Yeah, yeah, that's cool.

More the merrier.

Good, good.

Well, let me show you around

and introduce you to some
people.

Explain why I have two dates.

[laughs]

Oh my God, she is unstoppable.

Who?

Julianne, everywhere I
turn, she's right there.

I haven't been this groped
since Pam Simon locked me

in the back seat of her
dad's Grand Marquis.

Aw, poor you.

Julianne's a babe.

Don't you ever tell Erica I
said that.

Hey, don't worry, Ryan, I
wouldn't rat you out to Erica.

Well, you are best friends.

You know, I'm just curious,

what is it you think we
do when we get together?

Watch reruns of "Sex and the
City",

drink tea, and share feelings?

I'm joking, buddy, lighten up.

Well, Erica's always been
a thorny issue with Claire.

'Cause Erica's 3 main topics

of conversation are:
books, books, and you?

No, you're just friends, I get
it.

Good.

I hope so.

But you two have never, you
know?

No, never.

All this time, 15 years or
whatever,

you're just friends,
nothing ever happened?

You know, honestly, Ryan,
I've always dated Claire

or I've been married to Claire.

But if Claire had been out of
the picture,

something would've happened.

Call me paranoid, but
are you hiding from me?

No, just washing, washing my
hands.

Look, all clean.

Come.

When I published my
first book 50 years ago

I had no idea that a half
century later

I'd be standing here
in front of all of you.

But my love of writing remains
constant.

Friends, friends, I wouldn't be
standing

here tonight if weren't for the
real--

This is insane.

I know, what a life, huh?

No, I mean, Julianne,
look at her with Ethan.

It's like she's in heat.

So?

So?

He's married.

Ethan is separated.

Look, I want Ethan to move on

more than anyone, but Julianne?

I mean, she's got all of
Claire's

worst qualities, minus the cute
accent.

It's none of your business,
Erica.

Oh, come on--

I'm serious.

Yeah, so am I.

Let go of me.

What the hell was that?

We're not doing this here.

[Frank] But not when your pages
are late.

Thank you.

[audience clapping]

[elevator bell ringing]

I need to know, Erica, are you
concerned

about Ethan or are you jealous?

What?

He's walking into your
apartment,
knocking on your walls.

You two have date night.

You talk about him non-stop:
Ethan this, Ethan that.

And, you know, I get it.

You two have known each other a
lot longer

than you've known me, but,
Erica,

there comes a point when I
go from understanding to--

To crazy jealousy, hm?

Yes, to jealousy.

I'm jealous.

What am I supposed to say to
that?

Well, look at it from my point
of view.

I tell you that I love you and

you can't say it back, and
that's okay.

But then I come back here to
surprise you,

and you're all dressed up
looking gorgeous for another
guy.

Okay, Ethan is here as my
friend.

And you couldn't tell me that
before?

No, I didn't feel the
need to vet my social life

by you when you're on the
opposite side of the country!

Erica you are here
tonight with another guy.

A guy who I sometimes feel
that I can't compete with.

At least not in any way
that matters to you.

Ryan, I don't, I mean, I
don't have feelings for Ethan.

You're sure?

You're just friends?

Yes, of course I'm sure.

You must think I'm a freak.

No, oh my God, not at all.

I should've told you that
I was coming with him.

I'm sorry.

We're okay?

You're not gonna go out
there and punch him?

No, I'm not gonna go punch him.

We're good.

Okay, good, sorry.

Let's go.

Oh, thank God.

I'm not sure if I should
be flattered or perturbed?

I just need a little time out.

You lied to Ryan.

I know.

But what good would it be to
tell him that I kissed Ethan?

A kiss, I'll remind you,
which led absolutely nowhere.

Well, if it led absolutely
nowhere,

then what harm could it do to
tell him?

It just would.

You sound surprisingly sure of
that.

Okay, well, imagine if you were
Ryan.

Okay.

You tell me that you love me,

I say nothing back and then the
very

next day I tell you that I
kissed Ethan.

Okay, well, I can understand
that

there could be some jealousy
that arises,

but in the end, don't you think

it's just better to tell the
truth?

I do.

But I'm in a really tricky
situation.

I mean, we're just at the
start of our relationship.

And yet Ryan was able to
bare his heart and soul,

profess his love to you.

Tell me about Cassidy Holland.

Cassidy?

What does Cassidy have
to do with any of this?

I mean, our relationship,
it was totally different.

Enlighten me.

Cassidy Holland was probably

the most amazing woman I've
ever met.

Back in 1999, she lived in
the apartment next to me

and she was finishing her
PhD in Urban Planning.

I was in the middle of my
Masters.

And our friendship, it
started off like any other.

The initial, 'hey, hello',
and then a conversation or two

and before I knew it,
we became best friends.

I mean, we were we were
inseparable.

And I think, in some ways,
I had a crush on her.

Not in all ways though,
'cause Cassidy was gay.

She never hid the fact
that, that she liked girls.

And I soon figured out that she
liked me.

I mean, the chemistry, it was
there.

I won't, I wont deny it.

Chemistry which, through
no fault of her own,

at all, Cassidy misread.

Because, I mean, no matter
how much I liked her,

I just, I couldn't go there

the way that she had wanted me
to.

That night was the last
night we ever spoke.

Because you didn't share her
feelings?

No, because I crushed them.

I mean, what I should've done
is,

I should've gone to her the
next day and talked it through.

But instead, I had this, this
big

New Year's Eve party for Y2K,

and I pushed Cassidy right out
of my mind

and a few months later, she
went overseas

to finish her PhD and
I never saw her again.

Okay.

And if you could go back?

I would be totally honest with
Cassidy.

I would tell her that I'm
straight

and deal with her
expectations head on before

anything were to happen and,
and save our friendship.

You know, some friendships do

just come and go, though, right?

What we had was, it's one
step short of a love affair,

and when Cassidy walked out of
my life,

I felt like I lost a little
bit of my heart and soul.

Well, I say, go back and find
them both.

[whooshing]

[glass shattering]

[screaming]

Oh, shit!

I am so sorry I swear
that, it was a mistake.

I'm just...

Here you go.

Denied.

We take debit.

I don't think that's gonna
happen.

Don't worry, I got it.

Cassidy.

No way, it's almost 500 dollars.

Don't thank me, thank student
loans.

Ring it through.

But the last time I spent
this much on Crystal,

she threw in a lap dance first.

[laughs]

-Hi.
-Hi.

I am gonna pay you back, every
last cent,

with interest, if I have to.

Calm down, it's not a big deal.

Here, help you relax.

Thank you.

Okay, so, how do you wanna do
this?

I was thinking, Y2K in deep red,

with maybe the signs of
the apocalypse all around.

Throw in some circles of
hell for a little drama.

Ooh, that's very Dante.

You are such a lit nerd.

Sorry, sorry, sorry.

What is with you?

How come you're so stressed
out today, Strange?

I'm not stressed out.

I'm fine, I am fine.

You are such a liar.

I know you.

I can tell, you're doing that
deer in headlights thing.

What deer in the headlights
thing?

The whole, I'm trying to make
it look like

I'm thinking about what I'm
doing

when actually thinking
about something else.

Huh, what's going on in there?

Nothing. [laughs]

Okay, come here.

Come here!

Close your eyes.

Why?

Just do it.

[sighing]

♪ Of the love you saved

♪ And it's time to settle down

[upbeat music]

[gasping]

Keep your eyes closed.

When I was little, my best
friend

and I would paint on each other.

My mom would get so mad.

But we loved it.

Sitting there while someone
else draws all over you.

Cassidy, um...

I'm straight.

Yeah, I know.

Sorry, I just, I don't want
to send any mixed signals.

No, it's, it's cool.

It keeps everything just--

-Clear.
-Yeah.

Okay.

But I have something to tell
you, as well.

I think you are beautiful.

I'm really attracted to you.

And I know you just wanna
be friends and that's cool,

but in the spirit of being
frank?

I have wanted you since the
moment we met.

♪ And it's time to settle down

Hope you're not a vegetarian,
Cassidy.

Oh, vegetarian-shmegetarian.

I know it's trendy right now,

but if you ask me I think
people spend too much

time thinking, and not enough
time eating.

So much trouble, just
for us, Mrs. Strange?

I feel very important.

Well, it's Barbara, and
it was no trouble at all.

Enjoy.

New haircut, Mom?

Thank you for noticing.

Yes.

Karl, my hairdresser, thinks
I look like Jennifer Aniston.

And I figure, if I can't have
her body,

at least I can have her hair.

Do you find her attractive,
Cassidy?

Sexy?

Rachel's the hottest friend,
everybody knows that.

I tell you, if I was a lesbian,

she would be the woman I
would most wanna be with.

Mom!

What?

Your Uncle Ruby, my
brother, is a homosexual,

and I'm open-minded about it.

I like to talk about these
things.

You have a gay uncle?

Yes, and he owns a wedding
dress empire.

It sort of makes you wonder
if it runs in the family?

Clearly, it makes you wonder.

Well, sweetheart, you won't
bring home

a nice boy, so what am
I supposed to think?

All I want is for you to be
happy.

Who says that I'm not, hmm?

You know, my mom used to say
exactly the same think, Barb,

but what she really meant
was happily married to a man.

You'd either live on hell on
earth or,

according to her, spend eternity
in hell with a capital H.

She actually said you were
damned?

Yeah.

Said it, meant it, still means
it.

I haven't spoken to her in ten
years.

I wish that I had half the
relationship

that you have with Erica.

Your, your daughter's pretty
amazing.

She's smart and talented.

She really helped me when
I first moved out here.

Helped me feel less alone in
the big city.

And she's 100% straight.

Straight, lesbian, I don't care.

I really don't, Erica.

How could any parent care?

Oh, Mom.

Seriously, Mom, you're choking
me a bit.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Now, the look on my mom's face.

Your daughter's 100 percent
straight.

I thought she was gonna cry
from relief.

[laughs]

And I'm really glad that we had

that talk this afternoon, you
know?

It just makes everything easier.

You know how I feel.

You know how I feel.

And everybody respects
each others feelings.

And I sound like such a dork,
wow.

You really do.

Okay, okay.

Hot outfit, killer shoes.

Aren't you glad we went home to
change?

Yes, I am.

ID, please.

All right.

My friend just went in, do you
want my ID?

[Dr. Tom] No, I don't need to
see it.

Oh, am I not dressed up enough
for your big fancy club?

No, on the contrary, you
look fabulous, for 32.

And you look like a reject
from The Village People.

Aren't you full of
confidence and sass tonight?

I forgot how much fun Cassidy
was.

I mean, you should've seen
how she took on Barb-zilla.

She did this thing where she
just killed her with kindness.

It was awesome.

Look at you, all giddy.

Are those butterflies in your
stomach?

Are those stars in your eyes?

I'm straight.

That's what you keep saying,
yeah.

No, I am.

I'm not interested in girls.

I have never been interested in
girls,

but I, I am bonkers about
Cassidy.

I mean, the way that I feel
when I'm

with her and the things
that we do together.

Well, that sounds wonderful.

It is.

And yet, you're straight.

Yeah.

Yeah, so, those are friendly
butterflies?

Friendly stars?

I can't be into Cassidy.

I'm not a lesbian.

Labels are for cans, not
people, Anthony Rapp.

[dance music]

[Bartender] Compliments of the
gentlemen.

From Russia with love.

Wow.

Cheers!

Cheers!

[glasses clinking]

Oh shit, they're coming over
here!

[Cassidy] Come on.

Nice one!

[laughs]

Woo!

I think that you just made
a bad situation worse.

Don't take this the wrong way,
okay?

It's official, we're going to
hell.

Actually, I think we're
avoiding it.

[groaning]

Where did you buy those?

Chinatown.

Where, at a foot-binding shop?

Look, real Manolo's are
like a gazillion dollars.

These are ten.

Think they would've let me into

that nightclub rocking this
look, huh?

I think you look great.

And I think they would've
swarmed you at dike bar.

Don't be embarrassed.

I'm not.

Yes, you are.

I know you, Erica.

Your face tells me everything.

Oh, yeah?

[Cassidy] Yeah.

Okay, all right, okay, fine.

What is my face telling you
right now?

Mmm.

Nervousness around the
mouth, trying to be tough,

but the eyes, the eyes betray a

bit of doubt, a bit of
insecurity.

Like you wanna say something,

but you're afraid you'll lose
your nerve.

What do you wanna say?

Tell me.

Wow, you know, it's,
it's getting a little bit

late right now so maybe
I should, I should go.

Yeah.

Last day of the millennium and--

Yeah, yeah.

Erica...

[Erica] Thank you for the wine.

[Cassidy] You're welcome.

Goodnight.

[sighing]

[knocking]

It's open!

Hey.

Hey!

So Claire's not coming to
celebrate the end of the world.

[Erica] Why not?

We got into a fight.

So I got you all the
junk food you asked for.

That water?

Not for your guests.

When everything stops working
at 12:01

it's the only drinking water
we'll have.

Okay, I promise you that
the nuclear power plants

aren't gonna melt down
and all the computers

will work just fine tomorrow,
trust me.

Hi.

Hi.

I heard you up and about,

but I can come back another
time.

No, no, no, no, it's cool.

You, you remember Ethan, right?

Ethan, Cassidy.

Yeah, of course, nice to see
you.

You, too.

Right, so, I'll come by in a
couple hours to help set up.

Sound good?

Yeah, perfect.

Thank you.

[Ethan] Sure.

How're you doing?

I'm good, I'm fine.

I'm really good.

I hope that your still
coming to the party tonight,

because I wouldn't want
what happened between us

to make you feel weird and not
come,

'cause I really don't want what
did to get

in the way of our relationship,
of our friendship.

Erica, Erica.

Okay?

Okay.

Cassidy.

We're not gonna do anything
you don't wanna do.

Cassidy, Cassidy, just wait.

It's just, it's happening too
fast, okay?

I know that we kissed once, but
I can't.

I, I thought that this was--

I got halfway down the street

and I realized I forgot my cell
phone.

And if Claire calls and I don't
answer,

she'll totally freak out and oh
my--

[Erica] Ethan!

I'm so sorry.

Sorry.

[dance music]

Erica, what the hell?

Oh my God, did Ethan tell you?

Of course he did, but why
didn't you?

Were you worried we wouldn't
accept your lifestyle?

No, no, what, what lifestyle?

And to be perfectly honest,
this isn't a big surprise.

No, your unholy love of camping!

Oh, that Ani DiFranco box set.

That Melissa Etheridge
collection and

the women's softball league
you joined back in grade 9.

Oh my God, I'm not gay!

It's okay.

[Judith] It's fine, sweetie.

Excuse me!

Um, so, you just had to tell
the girls?

Like you'd keep it to
yourself if you came home

and found me macking with some
dude?

Here, throw this back.

Cheers.

[both groaning]

So is this where you tell me
you're gay?

No.

Oh, okay, well, I'm confused
then.

Yeah, okay, well, that makes
two of us.

Okay, let me get this straight.

No pun intended.

When you were with
Cassidy, did it feel right?

No.

But it didn't feel right the
first time I was with a guy.

My problem is, is that you
hooked up with a friend.

Why is that a problem?

Erica, there are certain
lines you just don't cross.

I mean, sure, things could turn
out great,

but they could also blow up in
your face.

So you're, you're telling me
that,

you know, you'd never kiss a
friend?

No, never.

Really?

Not unless I really meant it.

Not unless I wanted to take the

relationship to the next level.

So, either commit to
Cassidy 100%, or withdraw.

Hey.

Your friends, Jenny and Judith,

they're so proud of you for
taking

this big important step in your
life.

Cassidy--

So, what is it, Erica?

Because you keep telling me that

we're moving too fast and your
friends

are throwing a pride parade in
your honor.

I know, and believe me, this
has become

so much more complicated
than I ever intended.

You know, there's a reason I
don't go

for straight girls, and this is
it.

So you walk away with broadened
horizons

and a sexy little story
to get your boyfriend off.

And I, I walk away with nothing.

Just a lot of pain, and a lot
of kicking myself in the ass.

Cassidy, I do, I feel something
for you.

Yeah, you keep saying that.

So what, what are we, Erica?

Because feeling something
for me, it's not enough.

I just, Cassidy, wait.

Cassidy.

Cassidy!

Erica, hey, it's almost time!

First the power will go out,

then the water gets shut off,
and--

Oh, Ethan, enough, okay?

Come on, everyone stand,
raise your glasses.

Ready?

[All] Ten, nine, eight, seven,

six, five, four, three, two,
one!

Happy New Year!

Oh, my God!

The lights, they're still on!

Erica, you were right.

Why was I getting so freaked
out?

Because you're a big freak.

We're still alive.

Woo-hoo!

Now we can party like it's not
1999!

Cassidy, I'm sorry.

It's okay.

No, it's not okay, believe me.

I mean, the last thing that I

ever wanted to do was hurt you.

Well, the verdict is in.

This could never work.

Which is crazy, because there

is so much that's great between
us.

Yeah, there is, but for
a relationship to work,

in the long run--

It's gotta be all or nothing.

We do not have it all.

It's not the end of the world,
Erica.

We're okay?

I'm okay, but you're freezing.

Get your ass inside.

I'm gonna stay out here and
take in the new millennium.

Happy New Year.

Happy New Year.

It's okay.

[soft music]

♪ You were giving me all

♪ Of the love you saved

♪ And it's time to settle down

♪ And it's time to settle down

Oh!

Everything okay?

Yeah, fine.

You're sure?

Yeah.

So, should we talk?

I mean, that's why you came
back.

I came back for you.

Ryan, please.

[Ryan] What?

I just, I think that we should
talk.

Okay?

Okay, let's talk.

You and I, we have a great
time when you're in town.

We do.

And, actually, there's
something I wanna float by you.

For you and me to work, it's
gonna require some sacrifices.

And so far, you're the only
one doing any sacrificing.

You know, you're waiting
for me to come home.

You're asking Ethan to be your
date

at events where I should be
your date.

Ryan--

No, please, just hear me out
here.

So I've been thinking, I'm
gonna start

spending a lot more time in
Toronto.

You know, I can't stop
traveling altogether,

but I can do a lot less of it.

And of course, that means I'm
gonna be

spending more time in the main
office,

but I'll also be spending
a lot more time with you.

What do you think?

I think that you're sacrificing
too much.

I mean, you're happy with your
life now.

I'm happy with you.

I'm not ready for you to
change your life, for me.

Well, what are you ready for,
Erica?

I just, oh my God, you're an
amazing guy.

Okay.

You are, and we have fun
together.

And I like you, I really do.

I just, I have to be
totally honest with you.

I can't give you 100%.

I know.

And I don't think that
I ever will be able to.

It's Ethan, isn't it?

Right.

Ethan, wow.

You know, I should've
seen it coming, and I did.

Joke's on me.

[whistling]

Ryan.

I'm really sorry.

Yup, so am I.

Love.

It's a strange mixture
of alchemy and destiny.

And despite all our grand ideas
about who we should be with,

love ultimately chooses for us
every time.

Hi.

Hi.

So, any e-mails there from your
friend?

From Ryan?

No, not one.

Who's Ryan?

He's my boyfr, he's my ex.

Your ex?

Why would I care if
you've heard from your ex?

I'm talking about Ethan.

I called him, I haven't heard
back yet.

Oh, uh, sorry.

Well, I guess he's not the one.

The None!

Pardon me?

'The None', that's what we need!

A guide to finding 'The None',

for the modern, practical woman
who's

sick of looking for 'The One',
'The None'!

Ooh, I have that feeling!

So, you're okay then about
Ethan?

Um, hello, he's a teacher.

Well, you're back in one piece.

I am.

I'm not sure Ryan is.

Well, like you said to
Cassidy, it's all or nothing.

There is no prize for second
place.

And generally, when you try
to force things it doesn't--

It just doesn't work.

No.

But still, the look on Ryan's
face.

Well, imagine the look on his
face if all

this would've happened
three years from now?

I mean, three months is nothing.

He'll live.

And so what about you, Erica?

Will I live?

No, what will you do?

I mean, you couldn't give
your body to Cassidy,

and you couldn't give your
heart to Ryan.

So, who can you give those
all-important things to?

[Erica Voiceover] They say
love is friendship set on fire.

And if you're lucky enough to
find someone

you can give yourself
to, mind, body and soul?

You should hold on and hope
like hell you don't get burned.

[knocking]

Come on in, door's open.

I'm about to score a goal.

Yes, and England wins the world
cup!

You wanna play?

England's got a major
bone to pick with Germany.

No, thanks.

Hey, what's wrong?

Oh God, please don't do that,

you're gonna make me lose my
nerve.

Erica, you're freaking me out.

What happened?

Is it Ryan?

No, uh, no, we broke up.

What?

Oh my God, I'm so sorry.

Don't be, it's a good thing.

I mean, it's for the best.

Look, this is a really loaded
statement

and I'm gonna apologize in
advance

for complicating your life,
because I know

that you're trying to work
things out with Claire.

I know that, I just, um,
I, I have to tell you.

What?

I love you.

And not just as a friend, in
both ways.

In all ways.

When we kissed, that really,
it changed things for me.

Or maybe it just showed
me what was always there.

Oh, please say something.

Erica,

I'm married to Claire.

[cell phone ringing]

Yeah, I know that.

You should, you should get that.

Ethan, just please get that.

Hello?

Claire, yeah, you know,

this isn't really a good time.

Can I call you back?

[light upbeat music]