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Daniel Brennan, he's out of prison.

If he does anything stupid...

GLASS SMASHES

..he goes straight back in.

Daniel Brennan's missing. He's not replying to any of my messages.

All delivered, all read - no reply.

The sooner we track him down, the sooner I'll let you go.

You don't really want to get the police involved, do you?

So he didn't know what he was confessing to?

That's where he is.

What did he say? Did you get the answers you wanted?

It's complicated. I just need to sort it all through in my head.

Do you think Daniel Brennan's innocent?

I don't think anyone's going to care about any of that.

He's done his time in prison, he deserves a chance.

So much for second chances, eh?

Do you have any idea how much I wanted to believe you?

You were always planning on going back to prison, weren't you?

Leaving me on my own. More lies, more broken promises!

I hate you.

GUNSHOT

ECHOING TICKS

WIND HOWLS AND RAIN PATTERS

THUNDER RUMBLES

ECHOING TRAIN RUMBLE BUILDS

LINE RINGS

TRAIN ECHOES

It's Anna, Probation Services.

Er, hi. It's Carly, Daniel Brennan's daughter.

You've been trying to get hold of him.

Look, all right, if you come to the office by 5pm,

we might be able to work out a way through all this, yeah?

It might not be too late for your dad.

But you have to come today, OK?

Or your dad'll be arrested.

They're already looking for him.

OK, we'll be there, Anna.

Thanks, bye.

# Ten years in here

# No-one near

# No-one to sign my name

# No-one to sign my name

# Nowhere to hide my shame. #

Hey, sorry to bother you on your doorstep like this.

I don't know if you remember me?

I was in the office when you came by the other day.

Yeah.

I shouldn't really be here, but you said you wanted answers.

This might help.

It's everything.

It's the whole file on Brennan, on your husband.

But how...?

Look, if anyone asks,

maybe you made a formal subject access request for the file, but...

..don't go shouting it from the rooftops, yeah?

Will you get into trouble for this?

I've seen too many people released from prison

shouldn't have been there in the first place.

I've seen this happen before, too.

You've seen what happen before?

I don't know enough about Brennan's case -

what kind of a person he is and what really happened - but...

..you really need to see this.

Thank you.

Right...

..let's get this done, shall we?

You had a hunting knife.

Were you planning to kill someone?

If you plan to kill someone, that is premeditated.

You murdered him.

So, you accept full responsibility for his death?

DANIEL VOCALISES

It's all my fault.

You do that one more time...

I'm sorry, it's...

Your job is to interpret what is said

between me and the suspect, nothing more.

Have you got that?

He said it's about school.

Something happened to him.

TAPE RECORDER CLICKS OFF

Now, you listen to me. I'm not interested in his life story.

He's murdered someone, and he's going to sign this,

whether you like it or not.

SHE SOBS

- Understood? - Yes, sir.

TAPE RECORDER CLICKS ON

Now...

..it's just like we talked about.

You sign this, and that's the end of it.

We...we don't have to bring in your family...

..and interview them.

We don't have to ask your friends about you.

You sign here...

..and it's all over.

SHE WHIMPERS

It'll all be over?

They'll go easy on you in court, too.

PHONE VIBRATES

Hey.

HE EXHALES HEAVILY

HE SNIFFS AND SIGHS

The Lord is our shepherd...

CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY

This one next?

It's about your wife.

What is it?

Your wife, she's...

HE SIGHS

I'm sorry. She's passed away.

When's the funeral?

This is from your daughter.

She invited you, but this arrived some time ago.

I'm so sorry.

The funeral...

It was last week.

HE GROANS

CELL DOOR SLAMS

MUFFLED SHOUTING

SHE SNIFFS

Hiya, Chris.

Don't call me that.

What's on your mind?

The probation people came through in the end.

One of them gave me Brennan's file.

Oh, I can go through it if there's anything you don't understand.

And I got the video.

It was you.

OK.

OK. I know this looks bad, but...

But what?

Why didn't you tell me?

Because I knew you wouldn't understand.

But I do. I understand everything.

You were lying to me from the start.

No.

Using what you knew about me to worm your way into my life.

No, I didn't know. I didn't.

Oh, stop lying.

I only found out a couple of days ago.

- What?! - Yeah.

The first night you invited me into your house.

I walked into your kitchen, I saw a photo of him on the fridge door,

and I recognised him straight away.

It was an unbelievable fucking coincidence.

Something I did so long ago, in a...in a different lifetime,

and it's connected to the woman I love.

What?!

SHE SCOFFS

The whole world is falling away beneath me,

and you're getting a bottle of wine out of the fridge

as if nothing's happened.

I had a split-second decision to make -

to tell you there and then and risk everything ending,

or be quiet and hope that we carry on.

You have to believe me.

So you're telling me you never made the connection?

It were in all the papers, it was on the news.

You never told me he was murdered.

- So? - I never saw a photo of you and him before.

Were you ever going to tell me,

or just wait and hope that it would all just go away all by itself?

Yeah, but what would you have done? What would you have said

if I had told you there and then?

Well, that doesn't matter,

because you're going to tell me everything now.

What happened?

Well, you...

You know that I wasn't in a great place then.

My marriage was falling apart.

I wasn't getting results at work, my job was on the line.

And then this deaf guy comes in, and he's got blood on his hands,

he's got his prints on the knife,

and I had to get this over the line, or it was over for...

I'm sorry.

Because he was deaf, I was up against the custody clock.

We had to find an interpreter or release him without charge.

We got one in the end, but she...

She was new, she was difficult.

Yeah, I saw the way you spoke to her.

- No... - Shouting her down every time she tried to help Daniel.

No, it wasn't like that.

Well, what was it like, then?

I couldn't understand what she was saying to him,

but it was pretty clear that she was on his side,

that she was stalling for time.

She even wanted me to ask for a mental health assessment.

- So why couldn't you do that? - Because we didn't have the time!

He wanted to get it over and done with, and so did I!

I wasn't going to try and talk him out of signing a confession, was I?

Brennan murdered someone. He admitted it.

He pleaded guilty in court, and then he went to prison,

and that's it.

You understand, don't you?

I did it for Ray.

I did it for Miri...

I did it for you.

You knew what you did was wrong.

You always have.

That's why you couldn't tell me.

But I'm...I'm not that person any more.

So you decided to play God with me too?

With Miri?

Decided to control us, control what we knew.

- Lie after lie after fucking lie! - No, it wasn't like...

And don't you dare try to tell me you did it for us.

You did it for you, back then and now.

I can't be with someone like you.

Someone who tries to hide the truth, so they can live inside a lie!

I'm done with secrets and I'm done with liars!

He needed help.

He needed someone to listen to him,

to ask the right questions and find out what really happened.

But instead he got you -

some sad, pathetic bastard trying to get a quick promotion!

All these wasted years, wondering.

And all because of you. It was all you!

Look, I can make this up to you, OK?

- Don't touch me! - Please, please, I'm sorry.

- Please, I'm sorry. - Get off.

I'm sorry!

DISTANT SIREN WAILS

GLASS SHATTERS AND TINKLES

Yeah, that's right - Winchester Road.

Yeah.

Brilliant. OK, thank you.

DOOR CLICKS OPEN

Mum.

Are you OK?

Hey, darling.

What is it? What's happened?

Stephen...

Stephen won't be coming here again.

Oh.

I'm sorry.

I'm not.

What are you working on there?

Er...

Erm...

I'm writing the speech.

I didn't finish it yesterday.

Do you want to read it?

Will you read it to me?

- Er... - Please?

OK.

Ray was a teacher...

..a leader, and a role model.

To me, he was Dad.

He always celebrated everything I did,

framed every picture, drawing that I did of a flower.

But it wasn't just me.

I saw how other deaf children would light up in his presence...

..like they were one of the flowers

and he was the sunshine.

Since Dad's been gone,

deaf people still come up to me,

and telling me how they know him.

It used to upset me,

because it felt like their memories were overwriting mine,

making my dad fade away.

But that won't happen, because he's my dad

and he always will be.

Every time I do something good,

I think, if I look away quick enough,

I will catch him celebrating me,

telling me how proud he is and how much he loves me.

I sometimes wish I could talk to him one last time,

say everything that I want to say.

But I know what he would say.

That he would want us to be happy.

To live our lives the best way we can, for him.

SHE SOBS

Are you sure about this?

No.

Where you going to go next?

No idea.

Hear anything back from Brennan yet?

Yeah. I heard from the daughter.

Told her that if they both came in now, we can try and help them.

Let's hope she does then, yeah? Before the police find him.

Well, sorry I didn't get you a card.

It came a bit sudden.

That's all right.

- Listen, I... - One last bit of advice before you go, eh?

LAUGHS

Yeah!

Yeah, go on, then. What is it?

Ignore everything I said before.

Eh?

This job's hard. I mean, really hard.

You're made of stronger stuff than me, I reckon.

Keep doing what you're doing - trying to make a difference,

trying to help people, cos that's all you can do.

No-one else is going to, yeah?

Yeah.

HE COUGHS

DROPS KEYS

Are you Monroe?

My dad wants to speak to you.

We've got a letter to give you.

Long way to come to deliver a letter.

Would you like some tea?

In fact, I insist.

RINGING

Emergency. Which service do you require?

Say when.

MUG SHATTERS

That letter's from Sean.

Do you remember him?

He killed himself last night.

"Dear Mr Monroe."

"I remember when I first came to Hawthorne Park.

"I was ten years old."

"I'd never been to a deaf school before.

"Never met deaf people."

"My parents were hearing..."

"..so they didn't want much to do with me

"and so that's why they sent me to a boarding school."

"I loved it. It felt like home.

"I'd finally found my place, my people."

"I could sign."

"I could understand, and be understood."

"Then you found me."

"You told me not to mix with my friends too much.

"That I had to focus on improving myself."

"That you could help me."

"Almost as soon as I found my community,

"you took it away from me.

"You filled my head with lies."

"Told me that I was better than my friends."

"That they would drag me down."

"And then you'd take your payment in your office."

"Every day.

"Every week."

"I couldn't tell anyone, because they wouldn't understand.

"They'd be disgusted..."

"and you could lose your job."

"It had to be our secret."

"I thought you loved me..."

"..which is why I did what I did."

"Now I know there was no love..."

"..in what you did to me."

"Only hate."

"The only person who wanted to drag me down, and make me feel small...

"..was you."

"I wish I understood that.

"I wish I knew."

"Because maybe my life would have been different."

HE BANGS TABLE

"From Sean."

Well...

Sean's dead, you say?

Well, that's...

That's a terrible shame.

I liked him.

He was a sweet boy.

But I don't know anything about any of that, anyway.

Sean had his problems...

like...him.

Can you please just look at him?!

Good grief!

What do you want from me?

I haven't done anything.

This is all quite ridiculous.

You know that Ray tried to stop me from finding you?

That's why he's dead.

I was so angry with Ray,

but now I realise...

..he was a victim.

Like me...

Like Sean.

Yeah, I killed Ray.

But he's dead because of you.

Are you going to say something or what?

You...

were always...

trouble.

You were always naughty.

Always blaming other people.

Never accepting responsibility.

Ray's dead because of him.

Sean's dead because of him.

Not me.

Because of him.

It's all him.

It's all him.

You made me voice all of that?

Why?

Dad!

I think you should both leave now.

No!

I'm sorry.

Don't, don't hurt me.

I'm going to report you to the police.

I'm going to tell everyone, all the papers.

We're going to work together.

Going to bury you so fucking deep

that you never see daylight again.

Whatever happens next, you're going to die

a sad, dirty old man, alone.

I promise you that!

Armed police! Drop your weapon!

# Ten years in here No-one near

# No-one to sign my name

# No-one to sign my name

# Nowhere to hide my shame

# One day soon I'll be forgiven

# Even though I don't know what I've done

# Some say there's no use in trying

# To be free under the sun

# I know there won't be easy living

# You can't lose what's already gone

# Ten years that I've been here in prison

# I choose, I choose

# I choose

# The light of the sun

# Light of the sun

# Light of the sun

# The light of the sun. #