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This programme contains some strong language

My husband, he was murdered.

The man who killed him is free.

You don't know why he did it?

I wrote to him in prison.

No reply.

What are you doing here?

I wanted to see you - then I'm off. That's it.

Go where?

Daniel Brennan is deaf.

I didn't book an interpreter for our initial interview.

- And? - I missed it, and now he's missing.

How's the speech going for the reunion?

He's out of prison.

Brennan?

If he does anything stupid, he goes straight back in.

Where are we going?

Looking for an old friend.

Calling about one of your guys.

Daniel Brennan. He's running around

attacking people at parties.

BOTTLE SHATTERS

He hit a woman in the face, and that's an arrestable offence.

You'd better recall him first thing in the morning,

and let the police do their job.

CAR APPROACHES AT SPEED

Get in!

Go!

What actually happened?

I've done my time in prison.

I'm out.

Brennan attacked you!

No, Mum, OK? He wasn't looking for me.

Whatever it is, it has nothing to do with us.

Hello. I'm Michael.

This is David.

I've just joined the Offender Management Team here,

still getting up to speed.

You understand us OK?

It's been ages.

What has?

Signing.

How long?

HE EXHALES

Don't know.

Six years?

That's a long time without communication.

Used to it.

So, how is it?

Prison?

- Quiet. - Are you following the rules?

You understand them?

- I'm not in any trouble, right? - No.

Where do you work?

Work?

You can work here - canteen, workshop.

Earn privileges, earn money.

TV in your room.

How long left on your sentence?

Don't know.

What do you mean?

You don't know how long you're in here for?

HE INHALES SHARPLY

HE SIGHS

Can't read the paperwork.

Don't know what it says.

Doesn't matter, I'm doing my time. It's fine.

What happened at school?

Wasn't there long enough. Got kicked out.

How come?

It was like this, like prison.

OK, we're going to sort all this for you.

PEN SCRATCHES

This one next?

It's about your wife.

What is it?

Your wife, she's...

HE SIGHS

I'm sorry, sh... She's passed away.

HE INHALES SHARLY

HANDLE RATTLES

FLAMES ROAR

Wait, wait!

Wait!

Dad, stop! Dad!

BIRDS CAW

HE PANTS

# Ten years in here, no-one near

# No-one to sign my name

# No-one to sign my name

# Nowhere to hide my shame. #

Bad dream?

No. Me? No.

Looked like a nightmare.

Dunno what you're talking about.

Are you going to be like this about everything?

Like what?

Shutting me out.

I slept fine.

Where are we going now?

Can you tell me that?

Or is everything a big secret?

Hawthorne Park.

There's a school reunion today.

A school reunion?

Your school?

I don't want to go.

Why are we going then?

I have to.

Calling about one of your guys. Daniel Brennan.

He's running around attacking people at parties.

He hit a woman in the face, and that's an arrestable offence.

You'd better recall him first thing in the morning,

and let the police do their job.

Who's that?

No name, withheld number.

You've already started on Brennan's recall, haven't you?

I told you, I made a mistake.

Anna, we talked about this. He killed someone.

- Who knows what he's capable of? - OK!

I'm, I'm going to keep calling him today,

and if I don't hear back by the end of the day,

then I'll put him on the list for recall.

No, there's not much information here.

Only Brennan really knows what happened between him and your...

And your husband.

Right.

I don't know if you can make peace with that, but you might have to.

- No. - What? - No, I have to keep trying.

If I could just get to him somehow,

talk to him, then he'll have to tell me.

What about that probation officer who called yesterday?

- Maybe we could set up a meeting? - Christine, darling,

you might have to let this go.

No, I have to try, otherwise I'll always be wondering.

Surely you get that?

I just don't want to see you get hurt, that's all.

Hiya. All right?

Um, I don't know if you caught my name last night, but I'm...

Sorry, I'm... I'm Ste-phen.

He's trying to help us.

To find Brennan, get us some answers.

- Can I give you my number? - What for?

He used to be in the police.

He's doing this as a favour to me, OK?

Fine.

So, if...

If anyone spots Brennan,

or if you hear anything about his whereabouts, you can just call me.

Ah.

I'm sorry, you can te...

Just text me. Text is fine.

Thank you. I'll give you a call when I hear something.

SHE SIGHS

Make sure you're ready for the reunion, OK? I'll be back.

- I'm sorry about that. - No, I should be apologising.

- I messed that up. - Don't worry about it.

I'm going to try this probation officer.

I'll give you a lift.

You want that?

It's working.

You're welcome.

There's nothing on here?

Yeah, still on the old phone.

Photos of you growing up, gone.

Your mum's texts, gone.

HE SIGHS

Your wife, she's ...

I'm sorry, sh...

She's passed away.

LOUD CLATTER

NO AUDIO

CELL DOOR CLOSES

HE PANTS

MUFFLED VOICES OUTSIDE

They've added 42 days to your sentence.

I'm sorry for what happened to your wife,

but you can't carry on like this.

I want to register for English lessons.

They teach it here, right?

OK, I can arrange that for you.

Who are you looking for?

At the reunion?

Someone important?

They're all dickheads.

Was Ray a dickhead?

No.

So we're going to a reunion

full of dickheads...

..who hate you.

Stop signing dickhead.

What, this?

Stop.

You gotta admit,

that's a shit idea, right?

"Shit", "dickhead", stop swearing.

You started it!

You said dickhead, not me.

We can't be late. Come on, let's go now.

Hi.

I'll wait here for you.

OK. OK.

Here we are.

SHE EXHALES

So, how can I help?

I was wondering if you could arrange for me

to meet with Daniel Brennan, to talk.

You do things like that, I think?

Supervised contact between offenders and victims?

Um, yeah.

I, I can see what I can do.

OK, that's great. That's good.

What did you want to talk to him about?

SHE CHUCKLES SOFTLY

My husband was a good person.

Well, of course I'm going to say that, but he really was.

He'd go out of his way to help everyone that he could.

We always used to joke that

there was three of us in our relationship -

it was me, him and the deaf community.

I lost track of the number of times he'd come home late because he was

trying to stop a deaf kid from falling behind,

or listening to someone's problems,

helping them to fix whatever it was that was going wrong.

And that's what he was doing with Brennan, too.

Another late night, listening to someone's problems.

Except this time...

..he ended up dead.

And I don't know why.

I know he confessed, but they were friends.

What changed?

It doesn't make sense.

So if you could find a way to talk to him, next time you see him,

and tell him that I need to know.

To ease my mind.

CHRISTINE SNIFFS

Right, so, it must have been really hard for you?

I mean, I knew he was coming out -

God, I've had months to prepare for it, but...

..now he actually is out, it's all coming back,

like it happened yesterday.

We can't force him to meet with you.

He's under no legal obligation to do so, I'm afraid.

But we can put in a request, see what happens.

Yeah, but don't get your hopes up.

You'll have to excuse my colleague, she's...

She's still new, still optimistic.

OK, look, well, I'd better go.

SHE SNIFFS

- But you will call me, and tell me what he says? - Yeah, absolutely.

- What was that all about?! - What do you mean?

You can't just go round telling people what they want to hear.

We're probation, not counselling.

- I know you think I'm stupid for caring. - No, I don't.

But don't worry. Couple more years, I'll be just like you.

HE SCOFFS

ROCK MUSIC PLAYING

PHONE RINGS

TINNY ROCK SONG PLAYING OVER EARPHONES

What is it?

PHONE ALERT

A text from Anna?

She's asking for you to meet up with her now.

Do you want me to reply?

Nah, it's fine.

She says if you don't meet, you go back to prison.

NO AUDIO

You better reply.

I will, I will.

Promise?

I promise.

ROCK SONG PLAYS

DOOR CLOSES

Sorry, bloody traffic.

SHE GASPS

Wow!

It's not too much, is it?

No, you look beautiful.

OK, three.

- Three what? - Three months.

You asked me how long Stephen and I have been...

Wait, three months? Does that mean...?

Yeah. While you've been at university.

But why you couldn't tell me?

I wanted to wait until I was sure.

I don't know.

He's the first one in a long time that I...

I thought I might be able to introduce to you.

I'm sorry that we didn't have time to look at your speech properly.

I still don't know what to say.

Course you do. He's your dad!

Not any more.

No, it's not like I've forgotten him.

But he was just my dad, when he was alive.

And ever since he left, he's just become bigger and bigger,

like - I don't know - a saint, or a god or something.

And even now, people come up to me and tell me

what an amazing man he was, but I never knew that side of him.

And I never know what to say back, but say thank you.

But...

But I'm too frightened of saying the wrong thing about him.

He's too big, and he's too important.

I get it.

The longer I go without him,

the further away he feels.

The more I forget the small things.

The way he used to brush your hair.

The way he used to make breakfast for us both every morning.

The way he used to fart when he thought no-one could hear.

- Mum! - Don't go putting that in your speech.

SHE LAUGHS

No, I won't, I won't.

The point is, he was normal.

He had his own weird stuff going on, like me, like you.

So don't overthink it, OK?

OK.

OK, Mum.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Stephen.

But I think...

I think enough time has passed

that your dad would want me to move on.

To try...

SHAKY LAUGH

To try and be happy

with someone else.

What do you think?

Can you give me more time on that one?

OK, darling.

TINNY MUSIC PLAYING OVER EARPHONES

What you listening to?

Music.

I know music, WHAT music?

You've never been interested...?

Look.

Anything with lots of bass.

I'll turn it up until I feel it through me, like a second heartbeat.

How come I never heard this?

In all the time I was with you.

Your mum said no.

Scared you'd become deaf like me.

It couldn't have been that loud?

HE SCOFFS

There.

ENGINE HISSES AND RATTLES

The engine sounds wrong.

Nah, it's fine.

It's going to go boom! You should pull over.

No.

It's fine, I know my car, it's fine.

ENGINE HISSES AND RATTLES

STEAM HISSES

I can't fix that!

Hold on.

RATTLING

Wait.

I can't miss the reunion!

BOOT CLOSES

What you doing?

I'm gonna try something.

With that?

You got any better ideas?

Hey, what is it?

Last night, Carly was there.

- With Brennan? - Yeah.

I can't stop thinking about her, what it must have been like for her.

I mean, she wasn't happy to see me, and I don't blame her.

You told me not to contact them, after...

After what happened.

I understand why...

..but she must have felt so alone.

SHE SCOFFS

Well, she's still got her dad.

Yeah, but she lost her mum.

We all have our share of the pain.

Yeah, I'm sorry. You're right.

It's been a lot, seeing them again.

All these feelings -

I don't know what to do with them, or where to put them.

- If you'd rather stay home and give this reunion a miss... - No.

- No, no. - I'm sure they'd understand.

No, I want to do it.

You sure?

I have to do the speech.

Try it.

ENGINE STARTS

Sounds good.

CAR BONNET CLOSES

Thank you for helping with the car.

Sit here.

You'll get good money for the car.

Go.

Are you serious?

Yes.

You want me to go?

Where will we meet after?

I'll text you.

Go now!

ENGINE STARTS

HE SIGHS

FLAMES ROAR

Thank you.

Er, welcome. Er, please, this way.

HE SIGHS

Welcome back to our old school.

HE SIGHS

I know you all have many happy memories of this place.

Today we celebrate the life of one of our most well-known boys, Ray.

NO AUDIO

Right, we have special guests -

Take a look at the photographs, look around the building, catch up.

Enjoy yourselves, yeah? OK?

ENGINE SHUTS OFF

Sean.

It's been a long time.

You do know...

..we're here for Ray's memorial?

What are you here for? They'll be pissed off.

I know. I'm not here to...

Then what?

I'm waiting for someone, then I'll go.

Well, who are you waiting for?

- I'm waiting to talk... - But talk to who?

With Monroe.

Him?

What do you want with him?

Well, his name's there. That means he's coming, right?

Why?

Why do you wanna talk to him?

Are you in charge around here?

Yeah.

You're ex-police, aren't ya?

Who'd you say you were?

Yeah, I thought I recognised you. You quit the force a while back.

I'm going to give you a bit of friendly advice, OK?

People who've done time, they can do all the right things,

they can say all the right things.

But once they're out,

there comes a point sooner or later where they snap.

And people get hurt.

And it doesn't matter where they're from,

if they're rich or poor, educated or ignorant.

It's prison that makes them like that.

You can forget about finding answers,

cos we ain't going to get 'em,

but you need to get Daniel Brennan back in prison.

Who said I'm looking for answers?

What's Brennan got to do with you, anyway?

He's nothing to me. It's Christine that I care about.

She thinks you'll get the truth from Brennan, but we both know

it'll just be more lies.

And I don't want to see her hurt again.

But I'll tell you this. If she is -

if anyone is...

..it's down to you.

NO AUDIO

What are you doing here?

Had a feeling you were gonna do something stupid.

Not here.

I told you to get out of here.

What are you really doing here?

It's nothing to do with you.

Why are you acting so weird?

You have no idea what's going on.

No, because you're not telling me.

You don't understand.

You think you're an adult but you're still a child.

You're in debt!

You're homeless!

Oh, yeah?

Because of you!

You can't blame everything on me.

It's not all on me.

Forget it. I tried.

Gardner, you look well.

This is a private celebration. People have paid to be here.

What have you come to ruin it for?

Ruin it?

This place is a shithole.

You remind me of Ray.

The different is we liked him, not like you.

Is that why you killed him?

They don't want you here. So go.

Go.

- What you, like, drink? - Just give me a beer.

Are we OK for time?

No, I'm on in five minutes, Mum.

Oh, you'll be great.

Is everything OK?

Bit stressed.

Organising everything.

Hey. What are the centrepieces there for?

We can't see each other sign.

You're right, yeah. I have told them.

Why don't you put it on the floor

and we'll get someone to take it away.

Your dad was a brilliant man.

We all miss him.

I'll be right there.

Ignore everyone else.

If you wait there, I'll introduce you soon. OK?

Do you have an interpreter?

Yep, there.

Look at me -

If you need me.

I love you.

BIRDS CAW

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

You OK?

No, I'm fucking not OK!

- Get the fuck off me! - Where you going?

Anywhere but with you.

I'm not staying around for any more of your shit!

Calm down.

I can't believe you did that.

Did what?

Tried to get rid of me.

- No. - Leaving me on my own, again.

I should be used to it by now.

Being alone.

I'm tired.

I'm so tired of pretending that I'm tough like you.

That nothing can hurt me.

I miss my mum.

I miss her too.

I miss her every day.

KEYS CLATTER

Your shit car is worth fuck all, anyway!

Hello. Hello, everyone.

Take your seats, please.

Have a seat, thank you.

Thank you all for coming.

It's my pleasure to introduce Ray's daughter, Miri.

She's here to share her memories of her father today,

and to make a special announcement.

Please give her a warm welcome.

Thank you.

Thank you all for being here today to celebrate the special bursary

in my dad's name.

He was a great man.

He wasn't just my dad.

He was a teacher -

a teacher of the deaf,

a leader and a role model.

Why are you so scared?!

Use your head, think.

You want me to go with you?

Drop everything I've worked towards and set fire to it all?

What the fuck?

It's all in the past.

I'm over it.

I'm not.

Got this all wrong, didn't I?

What's going on in your head?

I don't understand you.

I don't understand you.

No more pretending, putting it behind us. This ends now.

Take a breath.

I told you to go.

Couldn't tear myself away.

What do you want?

I'm waiting for Monroe's speech.

He's not coming.

You told him I was here?

No - Sean told me he was ill.

Sean?

Oh, piss off!

My dad always believed that every deaf child

had a right to an education.

That no deaf child should be left behind.

Tell me where Monroe is.

I don't know! I really don't know!

CRASH

..will give hearing parents the chance to learn sign.

Where is he?

What are you doing here?

Are you following us?

What?! No!

I'm not here for you!

Was that him?

I'm sorry.

I need to talk to him.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

First last night, now here.

- How could you? - You know last night was an accident.

- Fuck off "it was an accident". - I'm off.

Stay where I can see you.

All the letters I wrote to you...

All the times I asked you to meet with me...

I need you to tell me.

Tell you what?

Tell me why you killed my husband.

Do you understand why we have to keep this between us.

Please.

Promise me.

It's too late.

For what?

Look, I'm finished.

Look how they're looking at me, they know I'm finished.

No, let me...

Let me go! Get off!

Christine, Miri...

I won't tell them.

I won't tell anyone.

ENGINE STARTS

Get out!

You can't leave me wondering...

I've told you, I can't...

I promised Ray.

SHE SHRIEKS TYRES SCREECH

Hey, how's it going?

You were right.

About what?

Everything.

- Look, I'm not trying to... - Daniel Brennan's missing.

Not replying to any of my messages.

All delivered, all read - no reply.

Sorry.

It's fine. I will start the recall paperwork today.

Listen, as your senior manager,

I'm formally requesting that you share your caseload with me.

What?

Yeah. Take some of your high-risk ones, if you like?

Are you sure?

Quick, before I change my mind.

Thank you.

Um, take your pick.

- I'm just going to go and check out a couple of addresses. - OK.

Calling about one of your guys. Daniel Brennan.

He's running around attacking people at parties.

He hit a woman in the face, and that's an arrestable offence.

You'd better recall him, first thing in the morning,

and let the police do their job.

Hi, hello? Um, I'm calling about a taxi.

Er, I'm at Hawthorne Park.

Hello?

Hello?

Hey!

Your dad just drove off with my mum.

Where they going?

I don't know.

What are you doing here, anyway?

I'm just trying to get out of this dump,

find somewhere I can charge my phone and get a taxi.

Are you OK?

No, not really.

Do you want me to give you a lift? Drop you somewhere?

Oh, piss off, Miri!

- What? - Where were you when I needed help?

SHE SNIFFS

When my mum was dying?

My mum said...

Your mum said what?

She said what?

Mum said not to.

Your mum...

..is a bitch, then.

What?

So it's our fault that your dad killed my dad?!

Just because Mum asked me to,

didn't mean I want to.

There wasn't a day went by when I didn't think about texting you.

Or coming round to see how you were...

Forget it, Miri.

When I saw you last night, it all came back.

Look, Miri, stop, stop.

I miss you.

Miri, Miri, Miri... Stop it, stop it.

- What? - Look at us, right?

We aren't ten-year-old girls any more, are we?

Where's Christine?

Where's...? Where is your mum?

Ask her.

- Her dad Brennan has taken her somewhere. - Who's he?

Mum's boyfriend.

This is nothing to do with me.

My mum is not a bitch.

Have you got your mum's car?

- It's there. - Right, you go back to your mum's place,

and you keep an eye out for her there, and I'll call the police.

I'll let you know if I find anything out,

but you text me if your mum gets in touch. Text me.

Hey, do you need a lift anywhere?

No, you're all right.

Listen, listen. You can help me.

You know your dad better than me - can you tell me anything?

Just, just something about him?

I ain't got any idea where he's gone. My phone's flat.

You can charge that in my car. We can get a coffee on the way.

As soon as I find out that Christine's OK,

I'll drop you off in town. So come on.

CAR DOOR SHUTS

# Ten years in here, no-one near

# No-one to sign my name

# No-one to sign my name

# Nowhere to hide my shame... #

Stop, so we can talk.

No. This is my car. You got into it.

I'm not going anywhere

until you tell me everything.

TYRES SCREECH

Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!

I have to find him.

# One day soon, I'll be forgiven

# Even though I don't know what I've done

# Some say there's no use in tryin'

# To be free under the sun

# Ten years in here, no-one near

# No-one to sign my name

# No-one to sign my name

# Nowhere to hide my shame

# One day soon, I'll be forgiven

# Even though I don't know what I've done

# Some say there's no use in tryin'

# To be free under the sun. #