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[♪ "Shakedown Street" playing]

I played this song
in the car this morning.

- [Nikki laughs]
- [Sonya scatting]

[all cheer]

- Surprise!
- Hi. What...

What is this?
What... What's happening? What--

My metastatic cancer
is one year old today!

- Oh.
- [Sonya laughs]

[Nikki cheers]

Dr. P, do you want some cake?

No, thank you. Oh, Funfetti.

- But no. I... You...
Actually, I will...
- Hmm?

I will take one of
those party hats.

Nothing would make me happier.

Aw. The thing is, I actually...
I actually have a one year old.

You know, she quacks at ducks.

[Molly] Cute.

So, anyway, I wanted to, um...

I just wanted to check in
and, uh, tell you that the scan
showed no new spreads. So...

- [cheering]
- Holding... Holding steady.

No, but I wanna keep an eye
on the nausea,

- right?
- Okay.

Cannabis therapy
seems to be working.

And Sonya tells me that

you are the most popular
member of the stage four,
uh, support group.

- So... Yes, so...
- Stage four. Stage four.

- Yep. Stage four.
- Well, good. No, good. Good.

And so, what's everyone doing
for Thanksgiving?

- My partners are cooking.
- Par...

I didn't know you had a company.

No, no, partners.
I'm in a polycule.

I'm in a relationship
with two other people.

Well, that's fantastic. Good.

Yeah. More... More hands
to stuff the turkey.

[laughs]

- Or...
- Naughty. That's nasty.

Yeah, okay.

Well, this has been a...
Just the most wonderful party
for your--

Love you, Dr. P.

- Thank you.
- Oh, well, that's very sweet.

- Well, here.
I'm gonna give you this back.
- No, no.

Keep it. Keep it, please.

Thank you. Thank you.

[Sonya] Right?

[all laughing]

♪ Nothin' shakin'
On Shakedown Street ♪

♪ Used to be
The heart of town ♪

[song ends]

[♪ soft pop playing]

Oh, my God.

Is that what I think it...
Is that a butt plug?

[gasps]

And its little friend.

Hold on--

- Ta-da.
- Aw.

It's a whole butt plug family.

- Yeah.
- Baby, mama, papa.

I did not know that you guys
were into butt plug stuff.

Yeah, he said
he wanted to give it a try.

Special Thanksgiving treat.

Oh, my gosh.

Before the meal, I hope.

[chuckling] If you know
what I mean.

Hey, if you guys are gonna
do stuff with your butts
and butt plugs,

can you just not do it
on the couch?

Because that's my home now.

I go where his butt leads. So...

[chuckles]

- Hey, man...
- No guarantees.

Happy cancer birthday, baby.

Thanks.
You're the greatest woman alive.

I'm sorry I can't eat
this beautiful cake.

I can't eat anything good.

[knocks on door]

All righty. Okay,
I'm outta here. That's him.

Okay. You okay?

[Nikki] Yeah, I'm good.
I love the hallway.

I love the buzz
of the fluorescent lights.
It really chills me out. [sighs]

Thank you.
You have everything you need?

Oh, yeah.

Hey.

She's... Oh. She's in there.

Okay. Uh, what...
what are you up to?

What am I up to?

Yeah. I mean, you know,
we never get the chance to talk.

So I just thought maybe...

We could talk
about what I'm up to.

[chuckles]

Okay, I'm gonna call
hospital billing

and yell at them for sending
bills that are not real bills

when they actually just want
her insurance company to pay.

And then I think that I will
try to look for an apartment.

Um, but one that would
let me sign a lease
without income or money.

And then if my system
can take it,

I will get more stoned so that
I can forget my broken heart.

Oh, so, you got
a pretty full night.

[scoffs] Yeah. Totally.

Okay.

- [door opens]
- You make her happy.

Okay, ticktock. She's only got
energy for, like, one more hour.
So... You go.

[groans]

Tell me about this plant you
got me for my cancer birthday,
ya piece of shit.

I just panicked
and I got you a plant.

Do you like it?

I hate it.

I'm gonna put it
in a pot with no drainage.

It's a monstera deliciosa.

Unique foliage,
easy to care for.

You know what happens
if you keep talking
about the plant?

You're gonna need to
let it dry out a little bit
between watering.

[grunts]

[whimpering]

Did that hurt?

[whimpering] Yeah. Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Do you want some cake?

Yes, please.

[panting]

Eat it off my finger.

[Neighbor Guy moaning]

[sighs]

[moaning continues]

- Is that Funfetti?
- [Molly] Shut the fuck up.

I'm gonna untie you.

Keep licking.

[high pitched sound begins]

[Molly]
Oh, of course you're here.
Of course you show up.

No. Not now.

Not now.

Get out.

Get out.

Are you okay?

[high pitched sound ends]

I'm sorry.

I got messed with
when I was a little kid,

and I...

I've never had an orgasm
with another person.

I'd like to try
to come with you.

I'd really like to try that,

if that's something
that you would like to try.

Yeah.

Yes.

I'm... I don't know
how many times I can say yes
without sounding like a creep.

Now go stand against the wall
and show me
that little pink butt.

In the corner!

I have some good news.

[Nikki] Mm-hmm.

I told him I wanna
come with him.

[support group cheers]

Thank you, thank you.
So we're gonna try that.

And Sonya's helping me
with deep breathing techniques.

So I'm feeling really good.

And I think I'm gonna try
and come by Christmas.

- [cheers]
- Like a Hallmark movie.

- [Nikki cheers]
- [Molly] Molly Comes
for Christmas.

♪ She'll be coming
'Round the mountain
When she comes ♪

Yeehaw!

- She'll be what?
- ♪ ...coming 'round
The mountain ♪

- She'll be what? Come on.
- ♪ ...coming 'round
The mountain ♪

♪ She'll be coming
'Round the mountain
When she comes ♪

[moans, chuckles]

Thank you for letting me
join this group.

[all chuckle]

[Frenchie] You know
what I want for Christmas?

A new fucking wig that doesn't
make me look like Bea Arthur.

I know. How about insurance
start covering wigs
with Black hair texture?

That would make me come.

- [gasps]
- [support group laughs]

I think we all need
a deep breath in for that one.
Come on now.

[all breathe deeply]

- [Sonya] And chill.
- [support group sighs]

Listen, you seem pretty cool,
but what are you doing here?

Don't you have anything better
to do than hang around
with a bunch of dying bitches?

- Uh... [chuckles]
- Uh...

- Slight burn, but...
No, I don't.
- Yeah.

I actually don't.

And I think I'm good
for the group
because I'm generally very sad.

Very, very sad.

Um, because my boyfriend and I
broke up. And also--

Fuck him.

Uh, Nikki is an amazing actor.

Not anymore, but...
Yeah. I don't know.

At least I don't have cancer,
'cause that seems like it sucks.

[Sonya] All right. We're gonna
try something new today.

I want you to get out
your notebooks.

We're gonna write something
that scares us.

- [Nikki] Yes.
- Or draw it.

[Sonya] And I'd like you to
keep working on these at home
this week, okay?

Let's go.

[♪ somber music playing]

[girl] What are you writing?

[door opens]

What are you doing?

You're being weird. You need me.

[sighs]

[music ends]

Steve took us to this therapist

who said that if I told
the story of what happened to me
again and again,

then I would get over it.

But I never really wanna
talk about it in front of Steve.

So tell me the story.

But you already know it.

Yeah, but I've never
really heard it all together.

- I wrote it down.
- Mm-hmm.

I can read it to you.

"The summer I turned seven,

I was molested by
my mom's new boyfriend.

He was rich.

He had a fancy watch
that my mom loved.

He was taking us to Florida.

So the night before the trip,
we stayed at his apartment.

We took our suitcases
over in the rain.

My mom asked for orange juice.

I was standing in the doorframe
between the living room
where my mom was,

and the bedroom,
where he was stirring powder
into her juice with his finger.

I didn't tell her.

A few minutes later,
she passed out cold.

Then her boyfriend had me
play oral sex games,
telling me he loved me. And...

All I wanted to do was leave.

But he'd hid my clothes.

So I threw a brush at him
and stormed out of his bedroom.

I wanted to go home.

I went to find my mom.
I shook her as hard as I could.

'We have to go,' I said.

She woke up for three seconds
and said, 'Go on, I'm sleeping.'

Then I went back to
the boyfriend and apologized
for hitting him with a brush."

Are you sleeping?
Was that so boring?

[sniffling] What?
No. I'm crying.

Oh.

Obviously I'm crying.

Yeah, that makes more sense.

[whispering] It's okay.

[sniffs]

[chuckles]

- Did you fart?
- Yeah. [laughs]

[Nikki] You farted. [chuckles]

I'm sorry.

It was a stress fart.

[stammers]

I figured
you couldn't get mad at me
'cause of what I just told you.

No, obviously I'm just gonna
have to deal with it. Yeah.

It's just...
I'm just really right here.

[both chuckle]

Do you think I'm cured?

Do you think 'cause I said it
out loud that I'm cured?

[♪ somber music continues]

I think that
we should call Sonya

and find a therapist.

No, I can do it.

I have you.

Tell me where.

On your leg.

Just with one finger.

On the inside of your thigh.

Say please.

[Neighbor Guy] Please.

Yes.

You can touch my thigh
with one finger.

[breathing heavily]

Knee.

[Molly moans]

My leg.

Foot.

Toes.

Palm.

Fingertips.

Chest.

Scar.

[Molly] "I'm afraid the people
I love want me to die.

Because it's hard
for my family to know..."

I feel so stupid.

I mean, she's reading
what I wrote, but I'm dancing?

She's gonna read
what you wrote out loud,

and you're just gonna
move along with it.

Try to find where the fear
lives in your body.

You got this. Okay.

"It's hard for my family
to know I'm dying,

but not right away.

Sometimes I feel them
pulling away.

I don't blame them.

Fine, I blame them.

[Sonya chuckles]

[Molly] But my wife
isn't pulling away.

And I feel guilty.

Like I should start
letting her go.

Speaking of letting go,

I just shit my pants. Bye."

[Sonya laughs]

[Nikki] Yes.

Okay, who's next?

Are you pregnant again
or is this the same baby?

- Is... No,
I know that sounds wrong.
- What?

Of course it's not
the same baby.

- You've met my daughter.
No. This is...
- I... Yeah, I know.

This is... I'm pregnant again.

If you're gonna keep
having so many babies,

I feel like
you should at least change
your fuckin' maternity wear,

because it does
all look the same.

[laughs]

It seems like a prank.

Okay. You are a mess.

You don't even have a bed.
Look at us, please.

We... Look at us right now.

We're right next to
the elevator, and we're having
Hanukkah in a hallway.

All right. Okay. Seriously.

- You need... I have...
- No, get serious.

- Honestly, this is
the setting for it.
- I have to get serious with you.

Right? I'm in
my business attire.

- Let's fuckin' talk.
- You need boundaries with her.

Okay? You... I'm serious.

Thanks. I will.
I will try to do that.
I'll... I'll work in...

I'll work on boundaries
with my... my dying best friend.

- Look, I know you love her.
I know that.
- Look, I got it.

But it...

I just thought
you were gonna take her
to some doctor's appointments.

- I had no idea
you were gonna give up...
- What?

...everything else in your life.

Like, you loved Noah.

Yeah, it was never about
taking her to fucking
doctor's appointments.

- Well...
- It was... I was always, like...

How do I explain this to you?
Like, this.

This is some of her blood
on my shirt. I don't even know
when it's from.

I have her blood on, like,
half of my shirts at this point.

It's, like, how I look, okay?

And... And when I see this,

what I think is, I'm gonna
be happy that it's here.

I'm gonna be happy
that this stain is here
when I don't have her anymore.

Does she know
what you're doing for her?

Hey, you know what? We forgot
the most important part.

[clears throat]

Oh, yeah, we did.

[both chuckle]

- Okay.
- You ready?

♪ Oh Hanukkah, Oh Hanukkah
Come light the menorah! ♪

♪ Let's have a party
We'll all dance the hora ♪

Can I touch you again?

Here.

[moans]

[sighs] Okay.

[Molly moans]

I love you.

[high pitched sound begins]

Is... Is that weird timing?

[Molly whispering] No.

[grunts]

[muffled] Molly?

- [molly whimpers]
- [Neighbor guy, muffled] Molly?

[girl] Go. Go.

[Molly breathing shakily]

[girl] Go.

- [door closes]
- [high pitched sound ends]

[Molly panting]

"The first man
who told me he loved me
was my mother's boyfriend.

He made me say it back to him.

He wanted me to say the words.

I think he knew
he was taking away love for me.

He is there every time
love is there."

I'm sorry. This isn't
gonna work for me.

- I...
- It's okay. It's okay.

Just return to the breath.

No. No, I-I don't need to dance
about something

that happened 30 years ago.
It's not gonna change anything.

Molly. Uh, your leg.

No. I'm not gonna breathe into
my leg and send it kind energy.

No. Your leg is... Your...
Your leg's all puffed up.

Oh, great. Fucking great.

[Dr. Pankowitz] You have deep
vein thrombosis in your leg,

and we don't want
those blood clots to move
to your lungs, huh?

So you're gonna have
to go on some pretty
heavy-duty blood thinners

and, um, I'm afraid
you're gonna have to spend, uh,

at least a few weeks here
so we can, uh, monitor you.

Um...

Do you...

Do you want me to
breathe with you?

She hasn't spoken
in a couple hours.

- [Dr. Pankowitz] Right.
- I think she just
needs some time.

Of course, of course.

No, nobody wants
to spend Christmas
in the hospital, right?

I'm sorry. So...

[door opens]

Hey. Hey.

[door closes]

You'll come by
Martin Luther King Day.

Presidents' Day.

It's what Lincoln
would have wanted.

Definitely JFK.

[phone buzzing]

It's him.

Are you sure that
you don't want to take that?

[buzzing fades]

[electrical humming]

[♪ festive music fades in]

[♪ festive music
playing over radio]

[nurse] Here you go.

One for you.

Enjoy.

Merry Christmas.

After tonight,
you're gonna be like,

"Why have I never spent
New Year's Eve at the hospital?

What have I been doing
my whole life?"

[♪ "My Kink Is Karma" playing]

- We're ready.
- [Molly] Babe? Babe?

Yeah?

I'm leaving.

What?

I'm checking myself
out of the hospital.
I just made a date.

You just can't, like...
With who?

You remember that guy
I canceled on three times?

Dante. He has the karate dojo
in Queens.

Well... uh, are you
gonna wear that?

Yeah. Why?

It's kind of a bummer.
Like, I just...

I got these dresses
because they're for us to wear
on New Year's together.

- Okay.
- That's what this is.

How much were they?
I'll pay you back.

Obviously, it's not about that.

They were five dollars
at a thrift store.
It's more just, like...

What is this?
Like, who is this guy?

- Is he even kinky?
Do you like him?
- I don't know.

- Like...
- I don't know. I don't care.

He said he likes hand jobs.
And, lucky for him, so do I.

- Cool.
- [Molly] Come here, gorge.

Okay. Cool. So you're gonna
check out of this hospital,

awesome idea,
and leave to go give
a stranger a hand job?

Yeah.

[Nikki scoffs]

Rather than, let's say,
trying to be with someone
that you're in love with?

Stop it.

I'm sorry, but it's just like,
what are you doing?

You were really, really close.
You were so close.

I was never close.
It wasn't serious, okay?

[Molly]
I'm gonna be late. Jesus.

What do you want me to do here?
You just want me to sit here

and watch you try
to hurt yourself now?

That... This, right here,

this whole fucking move
is why I gave up my whole life?
For this?

I told you not to
give up your life.

That's what I told you
not to do.

[Nikki] You told me
you wanted to die with me.

So I am dying with you.
We're dying here together.

- No, it's not happening to you.
- That's what we're doing.

You're not dying.

I'm...

♪ It's hot
When you have a meltdown ♪

♪ In the front of your house
And you're getting kicked out ♪

I didn't ask for any of this.

♪ And you're getting called out
'Cause you're running
Your mouth ♪

♪ Oh, god
And it's coming around ♪

I don't want to be happy.

♪ It's coming around ♪

♪ Oh, god
Oh, god ♪

♪ People say I'm jealous
But my kink is watching ♪

♪ You ruin your life ♪

It's just a balloon wall.

♪ You dyeing your hair ♪

♪ People say I'm jealous
But my kink is watching ♪

♪ You crashing your car ♪

♪ You breaking your heart ♪

♪ You thinking I care ♪

♪ People say I'm jealous
But my kink is karma ♪

[song ends]

Hey.

Happy New Year.

Oh, thanks.

Why'd you stop?

Sorry, I can't feel my hand.

Just keep going. Come on.

What are you doing?

Breathing exercises.

I thought we were hooking up.

Did you hear me?
I said I can't feel my hand.

Why would I give you a hand job
if I can't feel my hand?

Like, how much longer
are you gonna breathe for?

I'm still hard.

I don't want to do this anymore.

This feels bad.

Are you fucking serious?

Yeah. So fucking serious.

Good luck with your dojo.

[door opens, closes]

You were right. It sucked.

[scoffs]

I'm sorry.

No, I am sorry.

You do not have to be happy,

and you don't have
to be happy for me.

It's just been so hard.

I keep thinking
about everything.

I can't get any of it
out of my head.

Yeah. Then I think
maybe just let it be there.

[breathing shakily]

I'm so sad.

Yeah, I think you're grieving.

I think you're finally...
you're really grieving
what he did to you.

No. I wasn't.

[shakily] I tried to hold
his hand, and he told me
to stop being a child.

[scoffs]

[sniffles] And you did.

- You did.
You did stop being a child.
- [groans]

[♪ somber music fades in]

Oh, yes.

Yes.

[chuckles] Oh, my God.
Why am I laughing?

[Nikki] Sonya said,
you know, you just go for it.

You can laugh. You can burp.

You can fart. You can yawn.

Whatever you need to feel,
you just do that.

[sighs]

[laughs]

[footsteps approaching]

[birds chirping]

Hey.

- Hi. Just wanna say hi.
- Hi.

Didn't wanna interrupt
your walk.

It's a beautiful day.

[Neighbor Guy] Yeah. Yeah.

- Um...
- [Neighbor Guy] Where's Nikki?

Oh, she's with her sister.

All right.
Well, I'll-I'll see you.

I've never seen you
outside in the day before.

Is it disappointing?

[sighs]

Well, I'll see you.

[sighs]

[gasps]

Molly?

Hey, Molly.

I think I fell.

Yeah, I'm gonna
call an ambulance.

[breathlessly] Wait.

- No, I don't think
I should wait.
- Shut up for a second.

I want you to know I love you.

And I think we should
just love each other.

I love you.
Of course I love you.

I think we have
a real future together.

[laughs]

[♪ "Tears Stupid Tears"
fades in]

I love you.

- I love you. I love you.
- [Neighbor Guy] Hello?
Hi. Hello.

Hello. I've got an emergency
and need an ambulance.

[Molly] I love you.

[Neighbor Guy, fading]
She's struggling to breathe.

We are at the corner
of St. James and, uh...

♪ Time is a matter of fact ♪

♪ And it's gone
And it'll never come back ♪

♪ And mine
It's wasted all the time ♪

♪ Tears, stupid tears
Bring me down ♪

♪ I got lucky by coincidence ♪

♪ But I got my feelings bent ♪

♪ And my head
Looking at the ground ♪

♪ Tears, stupid tears
Bring me down ♪

[song fades]

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