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i thought you could probably do getting

i thought you could probably do getting

i thought you could probably do getting out the house

out the house

out the house we've both been so worried i'm all right

we've both been so worried i'm all right

we've both been so worried i'm all right you're not all right at all

you're not all right at all

you're not all right at all look at the state of you

i've just had a lot to deal with

i've just had a lot to deal with

i've just had a lot to deal with finding ben you know is um

finding ben you know is um

finding ben you know is um just really messed me up

just really messed me up

just really messed me up i'm not surprised that we'd have to talk

i'm not surprised that we'd have to talk

i'm not surprised that we'd have to talk about it

about it

about it there are those moments in life

there are those moments in life

there are those moments in life that stick with you

that stick with you

that stick with you the painful stuff

the painful stuff

the painful stuff it's always there under the surface

i found a body once

my best friend nadine

my best friend nadine

my best friend nadine i know that

i know that

i know that why would

why would

why would you it's taken a long time to be able to

you it's taken a long time to be able to

you it's taken a long time to be able to talk about it without

talk about it without

talk about it without falling to bits

she took her own life

she took her own life

she took her own life oh god i'm so sorry

oh god i'm so sorry

oh god i'm so sorry i tried to help her but

i tried to help her but

i tried to help her but it was way too late

i never forget how

i never forget how

i never forget how cold she felt

how'd you cope with it

how'd you cope with it

how'd you cope with it um

um

um i tried to bury it

i tried to bury it

i tried to bury it kept busy

kept busy

kept busy but it only made it worse

but it only made it worse

but it only made it worse believe me talking helps

maybe

maybe

maybe you should try and describe what you saw

you should try and describe what you saw

you should try and describe what you saw um i'm not ready for that

um i'm not ready for that

um i'm not ready for that just saying things

just saying things

just saying things releasing it

releasing it

releasing it is a really powerful step in healing

what was it like

horrible

describe it

just seeing him there with

just seeing him there with

just seeing him there with all that

all that

all that blood is just brought up a lot of stuff

blood is just brought up a lot of stuff

blood is just brought up a lot of stuff like what

like what

like what ben's

ben's

ben's not the first dead body that i've seen

it's like death follows me everywhere i

it's like death follows me everywhere i

it's like death follows me everywhere i go

who else did you see

come on you're with friends you can tell

come on you're with friends you can tell

come on you're with friends you can tell us anything

us anything

us anything but you'd have to put yourself through

but you'd have to put yourself through

but you'd have to put yourself through this

this

this billy she was about to open up

billy she was about to open up

billy she was about to open up you obviously didn't want me to hear

you obviously didn't want me to hear

you obviously didn't want me to hear something it's not like that okay

something it's not like that okay

something it's not like that okay so tell me what it is hmm what's the big

so tell me what it is hmm what's the big

so tell me what it is hmm what's the big secret

secret

secret there is no big secret um

there is no big secret um

there is no big secret um it's my uncle max

it's my uncle max

it's my uncle max he died when i was six and they put his

he died when i was six and they put his

he died when i was six and they put his open casket in the living room

open casket in the living room

open casket in the living room and seeing him there just

and seeing him there just

and seeing him there just gave me nightmares for years

you're obviously a very sensitive soul

you're obviously a very sensitive soul

you're obviously a very sensitive soul yeah

yeah

yeah and it is way too early for me to be

and it is way too early for me to be

and it is way too early for me to be speaking about ben so i think i better

speaking about ben so i think i better

speaking about ben so i think i better go