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- In this age of modern medicine,

you can accumulate quite a repair shop

in your medicine cabinet,

all kinds of marvelous prescriptions

to make you feel better.

- If you drink enough,

alcohol will give you hangovers,

and what's more, it can even kill you.

- Hey, Jerry. - Jerry!

- Scram!

- Some adults are not mature or strong enough

to stand the pressures of their daily lives.

He always goes back to it

until he learns how to handle his problems.

If you are a certain emotional and psychological type,

you may become dependent both physically and emotionally.

- Addiction to drugs may take control of a life.

The cause of this living death is a white powder,

innocent looking, but deadly.

- Some of the group therapy sessions,

where we will learn what former drug addicts have to say

about marijuana turning them on to hard drugs.

- I got a better idea.

Let's take a Winston break.

- That's it!

- All kinds of marvelous prescriptions

to make you feel better.

If your nerves are uneasy,

you can take something for them.

- A group of drugs called opiates

are classed as depressants.

An overdose causes unconsciousness, then death.

- Heather forgot she was driving a car

as she tripped out on the beauty of a back road nature trip.

So it is with a pothead.

The more he needs the escape from reality,

the more he is becoming emotionally dependent.

- How does it feel?

- Great.

That's why I do it.

- People have already decided for themselves,

and you, whether grass is good or bad.

What's most important is what you think.

- Marijuana and cocaine

cause profound differences.

Like to smoke marijuana or take a shot of heroin

can lead to a lifetime of pain and torment.

- More and more and more teenagers

commit crimes while up on grass.

- Cigarettes are much worse than pot!

- And more will wind up

in trouble with the law

because of something done while they are high

on acid,

amphetamines,

barbiturates,

and end up on heroin.

- If you keep taking such good care of yourself,

who knows?

You may even kill yourself.

- Yoga is a dance controlled between surrender and emotions.

So, okay.

There are several ways you can control your emotions, right?

But exercise is but one of them.

So first, we're gonna get, ah, okay.

Deep breath in,

and out.

It's just you and your mind.

- Good book?

- It is, actually.

- Why do you do that?

- Do what?

- Pretend like you're reading that ridiculous book.

- I am reading it.

Look, you don't have to take your anger out on me, Miley.

- I'm sorry.

You never change, do you?

It's like a habit with you.

- Well, it's like what Epictetus said,

"Whenever you're angry, it's not only the presence of evil,

but you've also increased the habit,"

so we all have our habits.

- So did I tell you all the story

about my coworker at the office?

- Hm?

- The murder?

- The murder.

- He was a really cool guy, at first.

You know, he was a chill person, right.

But then,

I don't know,

he, he wasn't like anyone else.

Okay, anyways, let me, let me start.

Okay, so I mean, okay.

He had two kids that I know of.

I mean, I never saw them,

but he had pictures of them in his wallet, right?

Typical guy next door, right?

So anyways, okay, so yesterday, he was late to work,

which is unusual because he's usually early

and so I noticed that, and my manager, he called him,

but then he didn't answer, he left a voicemail,

but whatever, okay, not my business, anyways, okay.

So hours go by and he shows up, eventually, he shows up,

and then he, he was like, strange.

He gave off a weird vibe, you know, like not a good vibe.

Okay, so we go about our business.

He has a word with my manager, and then he comes up to me

and he says "They are dead, all of them."

So I'm like, "What the hell? Who's they?

Who's dead? What happened?"

I didn't say anything, I mean.

30 minutes later, the cops show up and he was arrested

and he...

He killed his wife and he killed his kids.

I don't know, like, like he was cool, he was chill,

but then he went crazy psychotic.

I don't know if he had a mental breakdown

or he was just going through something,

like problems at home, but it was like a switch.

Something switched.

It was like, um, like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, you know?

Okay, whatever.

So they did, I found out that they did a wellness check.

So the sheriffs went to their house,

because their kids missed an entire week of school,

so they show up and they bust in, not bust in,

but they bust in and they go in the house,

and there was a smell, it was a putrid,

like it was an aroma that can't be explained, right?

But they go in and...

The kids' bodies were propped up by the TV,

like propped up, right?

Their limbs, gone,

they were scattered throughout the kitchen.

They were in pots, they were in pans, they were everywhere.

Some were half-eaten!

And then, and then they go upstairs, and their wife,

his wife, his wife,

his wife was found

with her eyeballs and her boobs eaten off her.

It was, it was, I don't know, I, I didn't...

It was cr...

There was blood on the walls.

There was some writing on the walls with their blood,

and it was a gruesome

sight, yeah, it was terrible.

- Yeah. I lost my appetite.

- Really? I think that made me hungry, actually,

- You're sick.

- But we're gonna have to do it,

if we want to meet up tonight.

- Oh, I gotta finish my workout.

- So lunch?

- Yeah.

- Hey guys, I'm back.

I'm just gonna show y'all another pose, okay?

- So tell us more about that coworker, were you dating him?

- God, no! Didn't I tell you he was a murderer?

- Who are we murdering?

- I vote my family.

- No, I was just telling Miley about my coworker,

the murderer.

- Oh, careful what you're saying,

'cause people are listening

- Here, I got this.

- So what about this guy?

- I told you the story, remember?

It's just crazy how we worked an entire week,

before he was arrested.

- That maniac went to work all week?

- Was he late the last day or something?

- Well, rumor has it that when the cops showed up,

he was eating them.

I don't know, I guess he snuck out the window

and the only place he could go to was work.

- See, corporate conditioning at its finest.

- That's fucked up.

- Excuse me, I just don't have a connection.

I mean, I read this book about the shamans and the healers,

and they took this drug to transcendence together.

They just, they became synced, like as one.

- I thought that's what we were doing?

- I'm serious.

We should have our own adventure,

you know, tighten our bond.

- What are you talking about?

We've known each other since fifth grade.

- Yeah, but we really haven't had like the bond,

since we drank the Boone's Farm in eighth grade.

That was a fun time, that's how we all got together,

just soapsy.

- Yeah, you know, I'm, I'm with Carter actually.

In fact, I know this guy at work

and he can get us something from the local tribe.

- We all know what you're in.

- Anyway, um, yeah, I'll hit him up

and see if he can get us something that'll take us places.

- Yay!

- Is this room big enough for her?

- Er, yeah, I think so, I mean, it was her room once.

- Yes, true.

- Yeah, she should feel safe, comfortable here.

- I don't know.

Uh!

- Hey.

Hey, you know I support you in everything, right?

I'm just not sure about this thing.

- You know what?

Th-th-this won't do.

She should be in our room.

I mean, it's bigger,

and when she was little, she would,

she would sneak into our bed when we weren't around.

- She what?

- Wait, you didn't know?

- No.

- Oh God.

- Well,

okay, well then, let's go get our room ready.

- Okay, yeah, yeah.

- I'm on my way.

In a car.

No, I'm not driving,

I can barely stay awake for more than 30 minutes.

A few days, I don't wanna burden them any more than this.

I know.

I know.

I love you too.

I'll see you in a few days.

- Here.

- Thank you, honey,

but I have to finish getting ready.

She'll be here in a moment.

- Would you relax?

The room looks fine, you did a great job.

- It's all, it's just, I-I want her to feel comfortable

with the last amount of time she has left.

- Of course, and, and we're gonna do everything we can

to make sure she does.

- Hm.

- Why her?

Why not me?

My baby, it's going to take my baby.

Eddie.

I love you, you know that,

but I can't live without her.

I-I will not.

I will not.

- I know, honey, I know.

- You must understand,

I want to die with her.

I cannot see her die

and me live on.

- I know, honey, it's just all so fresh.

She's gonna need us even more now.

- I know, and I'll-I'll be there.

But I cannot and I will not live on past her.

I mean, she's my baby.

I, this, this is my baby.

I, I can't.

I mean, she's my baby.

Watch my baby, a mother can't watch her baby die.

- You can't be serious, honey, no.

No, we have to keep living.

- You,

you can live on.

I cannot.

You do what you want.

- Honey.

- Should we have been more supportive of her?

- Madge, please, you can't keep bringing this up, I can't.

- Well, I do, I'm sorry, but I do.

I-I can't help but think, were we truly there for her?

And why don't you ask that question?

- Because I can accept the fact

that there are some things in life we can't control.

Like, I didn't ask to be taken away

from my family for two years.

The government made that choice for me.

- Exactly, you have always shrugged this off.

From the day she was born, we had one job.

- Stop, just stop it.

Don't you dare indict me over this again.

I will meet my maker one day and he will judge me,

but you don't have the right.

- Fine.

But I can feel however I wanna feel,

and I can ask the questions,

whatever questions I wanna ask.

- Yes, of course you can, but don't blame me

just because you think we fell short in some areas.

I don't agree.

Hey, we loved her and that's all,

always and without exception.

And enough of this, she'll be here any minute.

Let's just get ready for her, okay?

Hey, I love you,

and we'll get through this together.

- Are we together? Because I know you have your doubts.

- Doubts? Well, yes, yes, I do have my doubts.

- Well, you know where I stand.

- Yes, I do and I, I understand completely.

- Hi, there she is!

- Hi.

- Come on in here out of the cold.

Hi.

- Hi. Oh.

- How was your trip?

- It was long.

I'm gonna take a nap, I'm feeling really beat.

- Okay.

Oh, honey, um, we, we set you up in our room.

- Oh, I prefer my old room, it just, yeah.

- Okay.

- You been followed?

I ain't messing with anybody that's been followed.

Bats follow me around all the time.

This is bat country, you know.

You know why they call me the Snake?

I snatch up on the bat.

You been followed?

- It's all good.

How's it going, man?

- We good.

Government's been really fucking with my business

with the tax and bullshit,

so not dealing with payment sites anymore.

Strictly cash from now on.

- Yeah, I've heard about you. Fuck the system.

- What system?

The CIA?

You know, they use bats to spy on us.

Birds bats, they say.

- We're good.

So what, how about the stuff?

- Hell, cash.

I only work with cash.

Well, motherfucker, I got shit to do.

- Oh, sorry. - Hold up.

Where's the stuff?

- Chill, baby,

mi puta has it.

Mi puta,

it's what I call my whip.

I always ride her,

but only I can ride her.

Be careful with that shit, ain't nothing to fuck with.

- So I don't know why y'all are in the back.

But anyways, guys, come on, this is gonna be an experience.

That shit was weird as hell, but let's get fired up.

Like we've been, we've been talking about this for a while

and it's just, shit, I'm ready

to just get into another universe.

I mean, we're gonna be on this trip together.

How dope is that?

- Yeah.

- Listen, we need this.

Our lives have been so stagnant

with the same old bullshit every day, day in, day out.

This will kickstart our lives.

This book I've been reading, it's, it, it talks about how

you exercise your bodies and your minds,

but you don't exercise your spiritual being,

like your inner being.

And I think this will elevate us, right?

Like, right, Miley?

- Fuck, yeah

I'm gonna meet God today.

I'm gonna give him a big hug of love.

- Sure, you should slap him, the life you've had.

- You ever heard of sarcasm?

- Ah, who's being a dick now?

- Seriously, guys, this is gonna be epic.

I got my place already decked out.

It's gonna be transcendent.

- This is gonna be a core memory.

- Everything tastes okay?

- Yeah, I guess I'm just not hungry.

- Happy to be home?

- Yeah, I, I just don't know what to say.

- Nothing, you don't have to say anything.

This is not your fault.

- I wasn't blaming anyone.

- Well, I'm just, I'm just glad

that we're all here together.

It's great to have you home, sweetie.

- Thanks, Dad.

- I made your favorite dessert.

- Thanks, Mama.

- Of course, honey.

Let's just have a good day.

Love you.

- Love you.

- Oh, my gosh.

Do you still have that?

- Yeah.

- Oh, that mask.

- Damn, Car, are we doing a seance or what?

- Yeah. What?

- It's actually kind of dope.

- Let's put spells on my ex-boyfriend.

- So what do y'all think?

I took it to the next level, huh?

- Yeah, you did. Isn't that right, Miley?

- Yeah, yeah, I see what you did there.

Okay, so I just wanna say,

I have known you forever.

We're all embarking on things that'll impact us

for the rest of our lives,

and I love you both with all my heart.

- Damn, Car, we're not dying.

- I know, I know, but I just, I get sentimental.

Just let me finish.

Today, we start our new lives

and I think the three of us experiencing this together

will bring us closer.

It's also important as I read this

to support each other on this trip.

So let's get fucked up.

- Amen to that! Let's raise the dead.

Yay!

- I have to pee real quick.

- TMI.

It's pretty nice.

- Yeah, it smells good.

- The, the speech.

- Oh, ah, it was okay.

- We can do this.

Hey,

we can do it.

Stop being a fucking pussy, come on.

All right.

Quench this amorous heart of yours.

Okay.

You got it.

All right.

- You know, Car,

I don't even know what to do about my dad anymore.

He's seriously struggling.

- Have you talked to him?

- A few texts.

After I was forced to move in, I barely see him.

- Listen, I know he's not your favorite person,

but maybe you should just, just talk to him.

- I don't even know what I would say to him.

You should see the horrible things he says to me.

- Okay, forget that shit, dude, like, at least for tonight,

tonight's supposed to be fun, you know, we only-

- Whoo!

Let's get this party started.

- What are you, like 40?

- That shit's a classic.

- Bad classic.

- Hey, you guys fight?

What, what happened?

- Dad stuff.

- It's just texts. You saw them.

- Miley, fuck that.

Look, tonight's gonna be a life-altering occasion.

And look around, this is your family right here, right?

- Come here.

- Let's get fucked up, please.

- I'm sure you never had thoughts about this,

fixing your imperfections,

but this,

this is a very, very important tool.

This is, it's castle upset.

- Y'all want some more popcorn?

- Sure. - Hm, hm.

- I will go get some.

- Hm.

- It bothers me that she doesn't know.

- It's better this way.

The doctor said from here on out, it's only gonna get worse.

- They don't know that for sure, they're just guessing.

- I just don't wanna see her suffer.

She has suffered enough so much.

But our mistakes

are a curse.

- I know.

I know.

I mean, it has been a really nice day.

I guess it's best to go out on a high note.

- So I have it all ready.

We'll just, we'll stay up late

and then we'll take it before she goes to bed.

- So now that we're all relaxed, let's get started.

This one's for you.

This one's yours.

Okay. Ready?

Cheers.

- Hm.

- Hm.

- That does not taste good.

- It's like.

- So how long is this supposed to take?

- Google said like 30 to an hour maybe.

- Hm, Google's always right.

- Hm.

- You looked this up on Google?

- Hm.

Seriously, now?

- I'm sorry.

I have to go.

- But you don't have to.

- You just took a very illegal substance.

- You guys chill, I-I'm gonna be right back.

I just need to go home quick.

- Is she serious?

- I mean, I, I kind of wanna go.

- Shut up. No, don't go, stay!

- Thank you.

- What's up?

- What's up?

- How you doing?

- Doing pretty good.

- Work, doing okay?

- Yeah, it's good.

- Oh, so I made some, you want a sandwich?

- No, I'm good.

- You sure?

- I gotta run, Dad, what do you want?

- Um...

- I'm gonna use the bathroom.

- I know you haven't eaten.

- Thanks.

So what is it, Dad?

Why'd you scare me on the phone,

and now you're being all nice to me?

- Look, it's, just that, um.

I know you just moved in,

but I've met someone.

I, I met someone at AA.

- At AA?

You're not even following the program,

I can smell the whiskey on your breath.

And what is she moving in have to do with me?

Isn't she staying in your room?

- She doesn't like children.

- For fuck's sake, Dad, I'm an adult!

- Yeah, you are an adult, so act like one.

Find yourself somewhere to live, okay.

- Where do you expect me to go?

I just got fired

because my boss said I can't be coming in

with bruises that you give me!

- Yes.

- You had to take it?

We were having a conversation.

That's why my phone is on the table, untouched.

- Look, I just need you to get your stuff and just get out.

Just find somewhere to stay, okay?

- Okay?

As if that makes any of what you're saying any better.

- I don't know what you want me to tell you, okay.

I, I, I can't figure out your life for you.

Just get your stuff and go.

- All of our family left,

because you drowned yourself in that bottle!

- I don't know, you have to figure it out.

You are an adult, like you said, figure it out.

- Mom wouldn't have wanted this.

- Well, Mom's not here, okay,

and I'm the one that makes the decisions in this house!

Now like I said, get your shit out.

I don't wanna see your slutty ass in my house anymore.

Got it?

- I wish it was you that would've died that night.

Why can't you just overdose or something?

Just overdose, you fucking garbage, sperm donor!

- Disrespectful bitch!

Get your shit and get out!

Or it's gonna be thrown on the front lawn!

Right there with your mom's shit.

Miley.

Miley!

Miley!

Open the door, Miley.

Open the fucking door!

Fucking shit, Miley.

Why do you try to hide?

You know I'm gonna find you.

I always find you! Why are you playing this stupid game?

Come out now.

Out now!

Supposed to talk to you.

I just wanna talk.

Get out here!

- I'm calling her in fucking 15 minutes.

What's your deal?

- Nothing.

- Well, nothing is not gonna fuck up my mood today.

So let's play some music, get us in the mood.

- Hey, come sit down real quick.

- But Sai, I'm in the mood!

Come on, let's dance!

- Can you just give me a couple minutes,

before I lose my nerve?

- What is it?

- There's something I've been wanting to tell you

and I've been turning it around in my head

for a long time now.

And it's I've been super lonely lately.

- Hm.

- No, like,

like painfully lonely.

- Why didn't you say something?

- I am right now.

- Okay, true, but...

- Listen...

I think I need you more than I thought I did,

you know?

Like a lot more.

I, I don't know, I suck at this.

- It's okay, it's okay, I get it.

- You don't, you don't.

It's crazy.

I love you, Carter.

- Shit, I love you.

- No, I'm, I'm not making sense, it's...

It's...

I fucking

love you,

Carter.

Like a love song love,

like a fucking sonnet love.

And I, I, and I-I can't stop thinking about you.

It's not a friendship type of thing.

It's a love type of thing, okay.

Carter, I'm in love with you.

- No, no, Isaiah,

you don't, you don't mean that.

I, we, we made a mistake a few years ago,

but it was bound to happen.

No, Isaiah, no.

Isaiah, I can't.

I just can't

in so many ways.

I-I am...

You're, you're like my brother.

You're family.

Isaiah, Isaiah, I'm sorry.

You're like my brother, you're like my brother.

You're family, you're family, you're family.

- No, no, it's-it's not...

- I'm calling the police.

- What the fuck?

What are you doing here?

- I...

- What are you doing in my tent?

- Listen, I'm not gonna hurt you, okay.

- Get the fuck out!

Don't you come back!

- No.

Not that.

No, no, no.

Not like that.

No, no, no.

It's awesome, it's all good.

- No, no, no.

- Mommy, Mommy!

Mom!

- Stop, can't you see I'm busy?

- But Mom, this man is sick.

- That's nice.

Go play, Mom's in a chat fight.

- But Mom, this man is sick!

- Go! - Please, please.

- Get outta here!

Get the hell outta here!

I'm gonna call the cops.

I got you on video!

- Please, please.

- Go!

- Oh, my God.

Oh.

I'm out of it.

Fuck.

- Hm.

I am fucked up!

What the fuck?

- Lose your head, did you?

It helps to read the self-help books

and not just have them for decoration.

You dumb bitch, it isn't the alcohol.

How stupid do you have to be

to know that the liquor doesn't cause this?

- Who are you?

- For fuck's sake, for fuck's sake, you are dense.

No wonder, no wonder everyone just thinks of you as a whore.

- No, they don't.

- For one, you are arguing with a puppet.

And secondly, remember how much Uncle Drew

loved to bounce you on his lap, bounce you on his lap naked!

- No, shut up!

- No matter what you do,

you will always be his.

Why do you bother?

No matter how much stuff you put on your face,

it won't change how you look on the inside.

- I am, I am good!

I...

I-I med, I meditate every day,

and I'm constantly fixing, I'm fixing myself.

- How are the self-help books

ever willing to fix you?

It's coming out of your pores.

It's coming out of you.

It infects you.

You are his.

- I can, I can fix it.

I can, I'll fix myself.

- But there is so much ugly in you.

You can see it, right?

You see it, don't you?

Yeah, you do.

- I'm not ugly!

- You know what you have to do.

Just look at your stringy dead hair.

- I can fix it.

I can fix it.

- That greasy, disgusting,

penny ass look needs to go.

It hurts, doesn't it?

That's what I was going for.

- Carter.

Carter.

Carter, Carter, Carter.

Carter, Carter!

Hello, 911, Carter.

Hello, 911, I need, I need a, hey, hey Carter.

Now I need a-a, oh!

I need an ambulance here in um, um...

Um, Hill-Hillwood Apartments, Apartment 12.

Yeah, I have an emergency.

She's bleeding, she's bleeding a lot, okay.

- Hi.

- Is she in bed?

- Yeah, long day,

and I told her to wait up, um,

we'd have milk and cookies

like we used to when she was younger.

She seemed excited about it.

- You're absolutely, you're absolutely sure about this?

- Yes, I am.

We, we've talked about this,

since the last time she was in the hospital.

This is best for everyone.

- Okay.

I get it.

I, I can't watch her suffer anymore, it's killing me.

- I know, I can't either, that's why this is best.

This family has suffered enough.

- I'm all in.

Hey.

I'm all in.

Not just for the family, but for you.

- I love you.

- I love you too.

Let's go sit in the front on our favorite spot

like we used to when we first bought the house.

What do you say, just one last time?

- Okay, honey.

But just for a little bit, you know, she's, she's waiting.

- Uh!

- Stop, stop, stop!

Stop, stop!

Stop!

Uh!

- How's it going?

- Okay.

I'm good.

Where's Carter?

- Oh, she's in the car.

She's still having a hard time with all this.

- Their daughter,

I've been writing her letters.

I ruined her life.

The letters...

- "Life is to be lived, not controlled."

- Confucius.

- Ralph Ellison.

- Who's the dick now?

- I guess I am.