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TH E FIRST DAY OP MY LIPE

I thoug ht I was thc or Iy onc.

Thcrc a rc th Fcc m il l ion pcoplc in th is city.

Not casy to bc thc or Iy onc.

Why do you i nsist on on ly doing thc nig ht sh ift?

Swap with somcorc, no? Ask for day sh ift.

Nor no, I'm fi nc with thc nig ht sh ift.

-I Just want to u ndcFsta nd why. -Wc'II ta l k a bout it tomorrow .

Lct mc gct you a coffcc, ard ma kc tomorrow i nto today.

Okay?

Two coffccsr plcasc .

Won't bc long .

You said that Iast timc.

No sig n of it stoppirg .

Lct's put that awayr Aria r ra .

Aryway, I'm Em il ia .

- Na polconc. -Scriously?

Sorry.

You th in k hc's a cop?

I don't know .

You hcFc for thc sa mc Fcason as mc?

I hopc not.

I mca rr I hopc not for you .

You F coffccs.

Thank you .

Dor't Iook back.

How a bout somc m usic?

I Iovc Jazz whcr it ra ins.

You Iikc jazz?

I Iovc Jazz.

Civc hcF a ha rd .

I ca n ma nagc.

Comc.

Thc rooms arc on thc sccond floor.

You'II fi nd cvcrything you nccd .

Scc you tomorrow morni ng at ni nc in thc brcakfast Foom .

Cood r ig ht.

DAY ON E

-I dor 't havc a ry watcr i n my room . - Ncithcr do I .

Docs a ryonc know what's goirg or?

Did hc do a nything wci Fd with you?

Hc pu l lcd mc out of thc ca r whcn I was a bout to shoot mysclfr

but no, rothi ng wcird .

Cood morr irg .

-Is th is thc bFca kfast Foom ? -Ycs.

I don't scc a ny food .

You can't cat or d Fin k. Nonc of you can .

It's not down to mc, it's a fact. Sorry.

-ThcFc's ro watcF i n thc bathrooms? - Rig ht.

-So wc ca n't wash? -You dor 't rccd to .

- Pcc? - Nopc .

Arc wc dcad?

- Ncithcr dcad , nor alivc. - Mca n ing ?

-You wcrcn't so cu rious Iast n ig ht. - Last r ig ht I was ir shock.

Today I wart a nswcFs.

Da niclc !

Imag inc you 'rc suspcndcd in ti mc.

What do you mca n "suspcrdcd "?

You'vc g ivcr mc a wcck. It's or Iy bccn a fcw hou Fs.

Bc paticrt. Da niclc !

It's Iatc !

I'm h u rg Fy.

Wcl l? You not going to say hcl lo?

H i .

Lct's go, it's latc .

Evcrybody out. First stop .

Is that you ?

Ycs.

Sorry.

Why? It's cxactly what I wa ntcd .

You can gct closcF if you want.

Thcy ca r 't scc you .

Nor wc ca n go .

Whcn you 'vc fi nishcdr I'II bc i n thc ca r.

Sor thcy ca n't scc us?

Nor no onc ca r scc you .

Ard you?

Can thcy scc you?

Whcn it's rcccssa ry.

Whcn it's rcccssa ry, thcy ca r scc mc.

Can you imag inc a station wagon d rivi ng with no onc at thc whccl?

Thc body fou nd this moFn ing in frort of thc C Fand Hotcl

is that of Em i lia Fiorc, thc cx gym nastics cha m pior .

Appa Fcrtlyr shc Ju m pcd from thc hotcl tcrracc.

FioFc won thc silvcF mcda l at thc woFld Cha m pionshi ps 201 5r

silvcF mcda l at thc OIym pics i n Rio 201 5 ...

I don't wa nt to go ir .

-Thcy ca n't scc you . -I dor 't want to scc thcm .

Thc fi Fst day's thc most difficu lt, thcn it gcts bcttcF.

Trust mc.

You know thcsc g uys?

Yca h .

Th is is...

this was ou r hangout.

Wc a lways comc hcrc for a d rink.

Thc atmosphcrc's usua l ly morc chccFfu l .

That's Liviar Luciano .

Ard that's Max.

Max and I a lways pa rtrcrcd u p .

Poor g uy.

Hc was with mc last nig ht.

I wa ntcd to say somcth ing .

Aria n na was thc bcst pcFsor I'vc cvcr mct.

Shc uscd to call mc Bravchca rt.

But I'm not bFavc. I'm rccklcssr if a nything .

Shc was thc bFavc orc .

Shc rcvcF backcd down, but shc rcvcF fuckcd u p.

Shc sa id, "Thcy pay us to Fisk our Iivcs, rot to th row thcm away. "

If I'm stil l hcFcr it's a lso tha r ks to hcr.

FoF this Fcasonr

shc'II a lways bc bcsidc mc.

To dcfcrd mc from my rccklcssrcss.

Yca h, Aria n nar you can a lways bc thc orc to tu Fn on thc sircn,

ard ca l l HQ in that ti ny voicc nobody cou Id cvcr hca F.

"You rccd to shoutr" I said to hcF.

No way.

Shc was cvcr politc whcn ca l li ng for back-u p .

I a lways wa ntcd to ask hcr outr

but ncvcr ma nagcd to .

Evcry n ig ht at thc cnd of ou r sh iftr I'd bc about to, but thcr ...

Just too shy.

Maybc if I had ...

maybc if wc'd spokcrr

if I'd convinccd hcF to opcn u p a Iittlc...

Nor it wou ld r 't havc madc ary d iffcrcncc .

Maxr don't blamc you rsclf.

Who krows?

To Arianna .

Wcird day.

Arc thcrc that mary of us?

Not that many.

Fou F i n orc n ig htr in thc sa mc r ig ht...

That's ma ny.

You th in k hc tu rns u p if you'Fc a bout to do it

oF is it cnoug h to th in k a bout it?

-If you 'rc a bout to do it. -You think?

-Othcrwisc it'd bc a hcll of a Job. -It tu rncd out worst for you .

At Icast, my body was or icc in a morg uc somcplacc.

You Fs was in thc rivcr in broad daylig ht.

You d rcw a m uch biggcr cFowd .

It was a nicc tu rr-out.

TV, rcportcrs.

Likc thc good old days.

Not fu n ny.

Can I bu m onc?

Ar ath lctc who smokcs?

I'm dcad a rd pa ra lyzcd , rcmcm bcr?

Or pa ra lyzcd and dcadr you choosc.

Who do you th ir k hc is?

Somconc who wants us to cha ngc ou r pcFspcctivc.

I'vc a l rcady cha rgcd my pcFspcctivc.

It's 50 ccntimctcrs lowcr nowr ard it sucks.

You'rc rig ht. It's not that g rcat.

But it's thc on ly orc you got.

Bcsidcs th is.

Stop ! What arc you doing?

You th in k wc can dic twicc?

Evcn morc tha n twicc.

- H i . -AFc thcy aslccp?

-I su Fc hopc so . - How did it go ycstcrday?

- Pou r. - Dam n !

I havcr 't had fou r in orc r ig ht in agcs.

-Onc's a boy. -Yca h .

What d id you do?

Wc wcnt to thc rivcr first.

Thc body of orc of thcm was bcing fishcd out.

With thc boy?

I'd havc avoidcd that.

I had to do it.

I got a vcry skcptica l guy. I wa ntcd to g ivc h im a shock.

-A fu ncra l m ig ht havc bccn bcttcr. - Maybc Iatcr.

- How did you gct or? -Cot th rcc .

TomoFrow's thc Iast day.

I'm rca IIy tircd . Today I tricd to d ig i nto thcir wishcs but...

I d id thcm moFc ha rm tha r good .

You know what I do with thc wishcs? I sta rt Fig ht away.

Thc last day ca r bc vcry dangcrous.

I'm optim istic. I th ir k a II thrcc wi l l ma kc it.

Can I borrow thc ca r? M i nc is maki ng a wcird roisc.

Obviously! It's clockcd ovcr a m il l ion kilomctcrs.

-I havc to Icavc . It'd bc risky. -Thc kcys arc on thc dcsk.

-I'l l lcavc it i n thc ga ragc . - Put somc gas in it.

Obviously!

DAY TwO

You'rc d rir kirg coffcc?

I'm imag ir irg I'm d ri n ki ng it.

It's what I m iss most.

Mc too.

Maybc that's what wi l l savc ou r l ivcs.

Drinki ng good coffcc aga ir .

Cood morr irg .

That's rot Just cha ncc.

You know I had a da ug htcr?

It was a baskctball cou rt vcry m uch Iikc th is orc .

I oftcn wcnt to scc hcr play.

I was a fa r .

Thcy wcrc win ni ng .

Shc stoppcd ccntcr...

cou rtr shc passcd thc ba l lr hcr tcam movcd foF thc hoop .

But Ol ivia Just stood thcrc.

Shc had a stu r rcd Iook i n hcF cycs. Shc Iookcd at mcr

ard thcn d roppcd ...

to thc g rou nd .

Brugada synd romc.

What's that?

HcF hca rt had a n cxpiration datcr l ikc m il k.

Asym ptomatic d iscascs don't wa rn you .

It ca r happcn a nywhcFc . In bcdr

at school,

oF or a baskctball cou Ft l ikc this onc.

How old was OIivia?

Sixtccn .

That's rot fair.

You'rc rig ht. It's not.

I don't li kc fccli ng sorry foF mysclf.

I'vc a lways bccn a g Iass half-fu II pcFson .

That is u rti l Cod dccidcd to piss in thc g Iass.

I'm rot dcad?

FoF thc momcntr no .

I ca n't cvcr d ic . I'm a Ioscr to thc vcFy cnd .

FoFty donuts wcFcr't cnoug h .

You tricd to ki l l you rsclf with 40 dor uts?

I'm dia bctic. I thoug ht it wou Id work.

Mom .

Ary ncws?

Nor noth irg sig nificant.

Thc situatior 's critica lr but stablc .

Sorry, how cou ld you havc lct him bingc on a l l thosc donuts?

Hc's a YouTu bcF. Hc's fa mous for cating hugc p ua ntitics of food .

- Hc has a m il l ion fol lowcrs. - N i nc hu nd rcd thousard .

It's norma l for h im to cat that m uch .

Ycsr but not for a dia bctic.

Hc can't consu mc a l l that g lucosc.

- Hc ta kcs i nsu Iir . -I ski ppcd it.

Hc d id n't th is timc .

Arc you su rc?

Of cou rsc.

-That's vcry stra ngc. - Hc cou Id havc d icd .

Da niclc is a lways so ca Fcfu l . Hc ncvcF skips a shot.

Havcr 't you u ndcrstood?

FoFg ivc mc, this is a rathcr dclicatc p ucstion ...

Comc on, say it.

Cou ld hc havc ski ppcd it on pu rposc?

Not possiblc.

Ycsr it's possiblc.

- Dar iclc was a ha ppy ch ild . -That's not truc.

Show thc doctor onc of Da n iclc's vidcos.

Why don't my parcnts gct it?

-Thcy ca n't i magi nc it. - But thc doctor d id .

Who warts to g ivc mc a cha rcc?

Dor't woFryr I wor 't tcl l you that cvcFythi ng wi l l bc finc.

Or thc contra ry,

I'II tcl l you it's a d isastcr out thcFcr

ard wc'rc going to havc to put somc thi ngs back togcthcr.

Ard I'l l tcl l you that wc ca n do itr

ard wc ca r do it if wc sta rt nowr all of us togcthcr.

Wcl l?

Who's goi ng to g ivc mc that cha ncc?

Thcrc a rcr 't ma ny of us.

Comc on, I trust you . Who trusts mc?

-What's you r namc? - N icolas.

N icolas...

Stand u p.

If n icolas is hcrc it's bccausc hc's ir pa in .

But maybc hc's also Iooking for somcthing .

Lct's ma kc a dca lr N icolas.

You tcll mc what you 'rc Iooki ng for...

ard I'II hcl p you cha ngc you r pcFspcctivc.

-Okay. - Krow why?

Do a ry of you know why?

Bccausc I won't a l low any of you to bc lostr not onc.

-What do you Iovc, n icolas? -Si ng irg .

You wa nt to si ng hcrc foF cvcryonc?

-I ca r 't. -Ycsr you ca n .

Try. Onc vcFsc, just onc.

-Of what? -You choosc.

Dor't stop .

LoudcF. Lct cvcryorc hca F it.

Thank you .

Thank you .

Wc'Fc starting ovcF as wcll today with this cxpFcssior ...

Thank your na polconc .

Tragcdy has ta kcn him from us.

But his idcasr his woFdsr

his cncFgy, a Fc all still hcrc a mong us.

You wcrc orc of thosc " Livc you r l ifc to thc fu IIcst" bu l lsh it g u rus?

Ycs. A bu IIsh it g u ru .

H is work wil l g u idc us .

Ard nowr just Iikc hc uscd to do, I wa nt to show you how wc hold ...

ha ppircss in ou r ha rds.

You just havc to cha ngc you r pcrspcctivc .

Who warts to g ivc mc a cha rcc?

Comc on, who trusts mc?

What a crock of shit!

It's a l l uttcr bul lsh it!

Why not tcll thcm what rcally happcncd ?

Why don't you tcl l thcm Na polconc kil lcd himsclf?

I u ndcrsta rd you 'rc u psct. wc a l l a rc.

Na polconc told us all a Ioad of bu l lshit.

I was naivc to bclicvc him , Just Iikc you a l l wcFc .

Id iots !

How m uch d id you pay to bc hcrc?

Fivc h u nd rcd ? A thousand cu Fos? How m uch?

Not so m uch for somc ta kc-away happi ncssr

but it's far too m uch for a con .

You wa nt to bc ha ppy?

Cct u p a nd lcavc.

Maybc out thcFcr you'II actua IIy fi nd ha ppircss.

Lcavc !

You can't kccp bcl icvirg him . Hc ju m pcd off a fucking bridgc !

Was that pa rt of thc show?

No.

-It m ust havc bccn stagcd . - No, it's rot stagcd .

- How do you know? -Shc's my wifc .

Orc, two, th rcc,

fou r, sta rt aga ir .

Orc, two, th rcc, fou rr fivc, six, scvcn, cig ht,

-ninc, tcn . . . -What arc you doirg?

-J u m ping . -I wa rt to losc wcig ht.

- But it's so hard . -It ta kcs timc .

You can't cxpcct to gct thi n ir an hou F.

I uscd to spcnd cntirc days in thc gym .

Enoug h .

Sorry, can you not hcar that noisc?

It's truc, you know?

Shc uscd to trai n for 1 2 hou Fs a day cvcn .

Look how good shc was hcrc.

-Is that you? -Ycs. I was 16 .

Thc fi na ls in Stuttgart.

Whcrc d id you gct th is vidco?

Thc bca m !

I'm stFongcst on thc bcam .

-Whcrc wcrc you hcrc? -World Cha m piorsh ip, Pottcrda m 201 0 .

Thc Eu ropca n Cha m pionsh ip !

Da m nr look at thosc bu rs of stccl !

Did you wi n?

Camc in sccond .

Arothcr mcda l !

Londor . Sccord agai n .

I was six hcFc .

Such a pai n ir thc ncck. I cou ld n't kccp still .

How d id you gct thcsc vidcos?

No. That's rot mc.

Not mc cithcr.

It's fu r ry.

So?

What wcrc you tFying to pFovc?

Wc a l l fa l l? It's noFmal to fall?

AII thc othcrs got back u p on thcir fcct.

I cndcd u p in th is fucking whcclchair.

Thc problcm isn't you r Icgs.

Who thc fuck a rc you?

What do you wa nt?

How do you know what thc pFoblcm is?

Dor't tcl l mc now that cvcFythi ng 's ir my hcadr

ard timc wil l hca I all wou nds.

That's rot how it is.

Bccausc wc dor 't rccd timcr got it?

Ma r-who-Hasn't- Fvcn-Got-A-na mcr wc don't nccd timc !

But wc do .

Timc ta kcs away thc pai n ...

u nfortu ratcly.

Orc day I'II tcach you how to do it.

How long havc you ard Crcta bccn ma Fricd?

It h u rt to scc hcFr if that's what you wa rt to know .

A lot.

But it docsr 't chargc things.

I knowr it's pai nfu I to watch Iifc go on without us .

Not bcca usc lifc is wordcrfu l oF tcrFi blc,

but bccausc Iifc gocs or anyway.

Oftcn in thc most su rpFisi ng ways.

No su rpriscr ir my casc.

No?

That g uy on stagc was Zcno .

My partrcr. Hc's a Iways bccn in Iovc with hcr.

Hc's movi ng to M i la r . Hc'l l ask hcr to Join hi m , a nd shc will .

A ncw city will hclp Crcta forgct.

No su rpriscs.

What if you'rc wrorg?

Cood r ig ht.

I'm soFry.

I'm soFry I Ia ug hcd .

Nor you cou ld r 't havc knowr .

Aryway, falls arc a lways fu r ry.

Exccpt whcn you'Fc thc orc fa IIirg with m il l ions of pcoplc watchi ng .

I was Just a bout to wir .

-What arc you doirg awa kc? -Wc'rc watch ing TV.

Listcn .

That YouTu bc th ing , was it you r idca?

Nor Dad 's.

- Havc you a Iways catcn so m uch? -Yca h .

Thcr onc day Dad saidr "why don't wc ma kc a vidco?"

Hc fil mcd mc wh ilc I atc fou r chickcns ir six m ir utcs.

-I saw that vidco . - FvcFyonc saw it.

In a mattcF of sccondsr thcrc was only a pilc of borcs on you r platc.

It wcrt vira I i m mcdiatcly.

H u nd rcds of thousa nds of vicws.

That's how it startcd .

Dad chosc my na mc . Hc said it was a n Amcrica n th ing ,

so 'Joh n ny Big Boy' wou Id work.

What d id you r fricnds say?

I d id n't havc any fFicrds.

But that was okay.

No onc noticcd mc i n school .

I was...

invisiblcr Iikc row .

But thcn that stu pid vidco took my i nvisibil ity from mcr

ard cvcryonc sta Ftcd making fu r of mc .

Pcoplc onlinc cvcn told mc to kil l mysclf.

That's why I Iikc it hcFc .

I fccl pFotcctcd .

I don't think staying hcrc's a n option .

Dor't you m iss you r parcnts?

Thcy'l l bc m issing you , foF su rc.

DAY TH REE

Today I won't tcll you that cvcFythi ng is fincr

I'II tcl l you it's a d isastcr out thcFc !

Vcry fu n ny.

You a nd I do a l most thc samc job .

Ycsr but you still rccd to fi nc-tu nc you F mcthod .

-Coffcc. - Donuts.

-Wa Fm croissa rts. - Ham bu rgcrsr frics...

wou Id you bc kind cnoug h to kccp d riving?

-Whcrc a rc wc going ? -To visit somconc.

-Who? -Somconc.

Sha l l wc play a ga mc?

'Who Am I?' wc'd always play it on trips whcn I was littlc .

Okay.

-I'l l start. Ma lc or fcma lc? - Ma lc.

-Is hc fa mous? - No .

-Ovcr or u ndcr 50? -U ndcF.

-Italia n or foFcig n? -Italia n .

- Do a ny of us know h im? - No .

Dcad or alivc?

Wc had to comc hcrc?

It's a bit Iikc housc hu nting for us.

Excusc mc, who's this?

Simonc .

How ca n a nyonc rcfusc ar offcr Iikc m irc? How?

Instcad of bci ng stuck thcFcr you cou ld havc bccr hcrc .

Hc was su pposcd to bc onc of us?

How comc you cou ld n't convincc him ?

It happcns somcti mcs.

Too bad . Hc Iooks n icc.

Hc's m isscd out on a Iot of th ings .

Thc fou r of you .

Hc m isscd out on thc fou F of you .

-Whcrc a rc you off to? -Thc movic thcatcr.

You g uys go ir .

I'II bc Fig ht back.

Whcrc's hc going?

To takc a piss?

Th is placc makcs mc anxious.

Ard thc othcr placcs d id n't?

HcFc I a m .

Just madc.

HcFc .

-It's hot. -Smcl ls Iikc buttcr.

-Ca n wc cat it? -Thc popcoFn?

-Ycs. - No .

Thcr why d id you g ivc it to us?

Can wc watch a movic without thc smcl l of frcsh popcorn?

Sit down .

-What arc wc watchi ng? -Pcoplc.

Pcoplcr what?

Thcrc a rc many pcoplc waiting for you in you r futu rc.

You don't know thcm yct, but thcy'rc thcrc,

somc closcF in ti mcr somc farthcr, but thcrc.

Do you want to mcct somc of thcm?

Ycs or ro?

-Okay. -Cood .

Focus !

Easy!

-7fll fake thcm. - Wafchr ít's hot.

Can you pass mc a platc?

-Thank you. -you frc wclcome.

-You dídn ff caf them all? -No, nonc so far.

-You comíng hack? -ycs!

My God...

-That's it? -That's it.

-What docs it mca n? -I dor 't krow .

Just a fcw of thc pcoplc who wi l l bc pa rt of you r Iifcr if...

Now it's Em ilia's tu rn .

Dolly?

Dollyr comc hcre.

Emílía ?

Emílía ?

Dolly!

Comer comc.

Good girlr comc hcre.

Wcl l?

Ncxt u p, Da r iclc.

Thcy'rc all waitirg foF mc?

Can I scc it aga ir?

Qu ict! ThcFc's a nothcr onc .

Lct's scc thc Iast onc.

Arc thcsc thc pcoplc who wi l l ma kc us ha ppy?

Thcy'rc thc most im porta rt.

-So thc oncs who'II makc us ha ppy. -Thc im poFta rt orcs a rc im poFta nt.

Thcy dor 't rcccssa rily ma kc us happy.

Who was that boy in thc vidco?

I don't know .

Comc on, you ca n a nswcF that at lcast.

-I dor 't krow . I don't ma kc thcm . - No? So who ma kcs thcm?

How ca n thc most i m portant thing in my futu Fc bc a dog?

-ThcFc was a ma r too. -Out of focus.

But hc was thcrc .

But thc Oscar foF Bcst Film gocs to Da niclc .

I wa nt to scc it agai n . It was too fast.

Dor't com plai n ! I took you i nto thc futu Fc .

Wcl lr I Iikcd it.

- Fspccia l ly thc donuts part. -What a wondcrfu I way to crd it a II .

Dor uts arc what I lovc most in thc world .

Nobody rcalizcd .

AII I had to do is not ta kc any irsu li n .

-Was thc bridgc you r first choicc? -It's a classic.

-I wasn't as orig ira l as you . -It was ha Fd to choosc .

Car cxha ust fu mcs givc you too m uch ti mc to Fcconsidcr.

You can't ta kc you r Iifc with shopping bags.

Thcy'rc too l ig htr too flimsy.

I'd havc l ikcd thc bridgc as wcll .

But it's com plicatcd with a whcclchair.

Lack of acccssibility.

Today you 'rc almost Iika blc.

It won't last.

Aryway, I'd Iikc to rcm i nd you a l l that th is boy,

aftcr attcm pting su icidc with 40 dor uts,

thc first th ing hc sa id thc ncxt moFn ing wasr "I'm h u rg Fy ! "

DAY POU P

Attcnfíonr plcasc. Traín arrívíng.

Stand hack from the yellow línc.

Attcnfíonr plcasc. Traín arrívíng.

Stand hack from the yellow línc.

YcstcFdayr cvcrythirg sccmcd so norma I .

Su rc, fou r wa l kirg dcad

ta l king a bout thc bcst way to com m it su icidc?

What do you mca n " u nfortu ratcly"?

You said timc takcs thc pai n awayr

but why u rfortu natcly?

Bccausc I'm scarcd of thc pain going away.

It kcpt mc com pa ny foF so long .

It kcpt mc u p a l l nig ht.

Ard thcr ...

onc nig ht I slcpt.

Whcn I wokc u pr I thoug ht thc pain wou Id cvcrtually go .

I Iost my da ug htcr.

I don't wa nt to Iosc aryth ing clsc of hcr.

-Whcrc is hc? -What's wrorg?

Whcrc is hc?

Whcrc is hc?

HcFc I a m .

I wa nt out, row !

Wc said onc wcck.

Wcl lr I changcd my m ind .

I'm soFry. You ca n't.

You know why I gavc in to th is? You know what thc trick is.

-ThcFc arc no tricks ! -Oh, ycs, thcrc a Fc !

How ma ry pcoplc say no aftcr sccing you flying a Fou nd li kc a pigcon?

How ma ry?

Who thc g ivcs you thc Fig ht to butt into somconc's lifc rig ht thcr?

Do you krow what it ta kcs to gct thcrc?

Do you ?

Ycsr I do .

No...

you don't know .

Maybc somc pcoplc dor 't want to bc savcd .

PcFhaps somconc nccdcd to bc Icft a lonc.

What thc fuck's goi ng on?

-You tricd agai n? -It's ncvcr ha ppcrcd to you ?

What? You tricd agai n?

Ycs. I tricd aga irr butr as you ca r sccr I'm sti l l hcFc .

Why? Did r 't you think of us?

Us?

Us who, us what? what?

You th in k you 'rc at an AA mccting ?

"I'm Em il ia, it's bccr thrcc days sincc I tricd to kill mysclf. "

I'm rothi ng li kc you .

I'm rothi ng li kc a ry of you, okay?

- FvcFyonc got it? - No !

-Wc'rc h u rtirg Just li kc you . - How do you know how I'm h u rtirg?

How do a ny of you krow?

I wa kc u p i n thc moFn ing fccl ing Iikc my child d icd .

Likc I'm stuck ir a whcclchair, oF my pa rcnts don't ca rc a bout mc.

Evcry moFn ing .

But noth ing 's Fcally ha ppcncd to mc.

I hu rt and I don't know why.

I don't know thc rcason .

Lucky you .

You'rc Icttirg h im go?

Hcy, what's-you r-namc, a nswcF mc !

Day off today.

Na polconc !

Na polconcr stop !

Wi l l you stop?

Who thc fuck do you thi n k you a rc?

You'rc goi ng to makc us a II losc hopc.

I don't ca rc .

You F wifc was rig ht.

You'rc a fucking fraud !

Stop !

Stop !

Stop !

Stop !

Stop !

I'm a fraud? Ard you?

Arc you nuts? You a l most killcd mc .

Did n't you hca r? wc ca n't cvcr d ic whcr wc wa nt.

-Why? -I'vc had cnoug h .

- Froug h of what? - FvcFything .

Evcryth ing , what?

Fig htirg .

-Why? - Bcca usc I don't know how to win .

-You wcrc about to . - But thcn I fcll .

-And . . . ? -And that fucki ng whcclcha ir...

is thc only placc I fccl at pcacc.

Docsn't look Iikc it.

You wa ntcd to ki l l you rsclf.

-What clsc was thcrc to do? - Kccp goirg .

But why?

Bccausc maybc it's worth it.

If you stil l nccd itr it's hcFc .

Fucki ng l ifc coach .

Ycs.

I'm a fucki ng l ifc coach .

-You ca n scc mc? -Ycs.

-You ca n hcar mc? -Ycs.

You'rc th ir kirg I'm crazy?

No.

Wcl l . . . maybc a Iittlc bit.

Whcn I fccl as bad as thisr

thcFc's a gamc I always play.

I Iook a rou nd , at pcoplc .

I th ir k that ir 80r 1 00 yca Fs topsr thcy won't bc hcFc a rymorc .

That cop thcrc.

Or that Iittlc boy with thc d ragon-shapcd balloon .

Nonc of us will bc hcrc a nymorc .

Othcr pcoplc with thc sa mc strugg Icsr

worrics a nd fcars wi l l havc su bstitutcd us.

Thcr othcr pcoplc wi l l su bstitutc thcm .

So on this vcry bcnch arothcr d istFaug ht you ng woma r

wi l l bc sitti ng with a g uy bu m bling cra p .

That's Just how Fcplaccablc wc a rc .

But at thc sa mc ti mc wc'rc a Iso u r iguc.

No onc's lifc wil I cvcr bc l ikc ou r own .

-You 'rc an a ngcl ! - No .

You'rc a n a rgcl .

- Hc sa id " l ikc a pigcon . " -What?

Na polconc sa id "flyi ng a rou rd l ikc a pigcon" .

So hc ca n fly.

What? I dor 't u rdcrsta nd .

Did you always u ndcFsta nd you F daug htcr?

Wcl lr somctimcs I d id , somctimcs I d id n't.

Why d id n't my pa rcnts noticc?

Thcy sa id I was ha ppy. How's that possiblc?

Wcl lr somctimcs you'vc got to hclp parcnts to u ndcrstand you .

I cvcn wrotc thcm a lcttcr.

If thcy had fou nd it, thcy'd havc u ndcFstood .

-You think? -Su Fc . Of cou rsc .

Co .

CLEAPANCF SALE

So what's so spccia I about this g uy?

Hc puts mc in a toug h spot.

You'vc got to acccpt that cvcn you m ig ht losc somconc orc day.

I know. It's ha ppcrcd to cvcryorc . It'II ha ppcn to mc.

- But it ca n't bc h im . -Why not?

Thcrc's somcth irg of mc in h im .

Thcrc's a Iways somcth irg of us in thcm . OF wc wou ld r 't bc hcrc .

- Hcrc you go. -It's for you .

Thank you .

Hc got mc p ucstioni ng things today.

Lct hi m do it.

Lct hi m do it.

-Ca n't do that. -You cou Idr if you wa ntcd to .

But I don't wa nt to .

Aryway, it's a moot point. Hc's lcft.

- Hc'l l bc back. -I dor 't th in k so.

Thcrc a rc my g uys.

It's thcir first day.

Thcy'rc so frag ilc in thc bcg inning .

-What arc you sta Fti ng with today? -Thc ca F wash .

A classic!

Dor't cat too m uch . It's bad for you .

I rcally hatcd what I was doi ng .

I'd gct u p fFcakcd out about goirg to thc officc, samc timc a nd things.

Thcr onc morni ngr I ca mc out of thc su bway

at my usual stop, ard or thc sidcwa l kr by thc wa l lr

I saw this homclcss g uy worki ng on h is a bs .

Worki ng on h is a bs !

Why wou ld a homclcss g uy bc woFking on his abs?

I got to thc officc with that imagc in my hcad .

AImost without rcalizing itr

I wa l kcd irto my boss's officc ard p u it.

-Why? - Du n no .

I don't know .

I rcmcm bcr all I thoug ht was...

that I wa rtcd a r icc l u nch at homc.

I had n't had l u nch at homc in tcn yca rs .

Ard thcr a n icc na p .

My favoritc woFd sincc thcn is rclativism .

Pclativism .

Sou nds good . I l ikc it.

Aryway,

-I'm Tom maso . - Fm ilia .

Th is Thu rsday's my bi Fthday.

- Happy bi Fthday. -Tha n k you .

I'vc invitcd fricnds for d rinks at La Piccola Vincria .

If you'd li kc to comc, fccl frcc.

I gct it. You'l l th in k a bout it.

Ycs.

- Byc . - Byc .

Da niclc?

Da niclc?

Whcrc's Olivia 's dad?

Hc Icft whcn shc was two .

You know who that ma n was in you r vidco?

Hc wasr 't a ma nr hc was you ng .

EithcF way, hc's mc .

Undcrsta rd? Thc g uy ir you r vidco is mc .

How do you know?

Wc wcFc i n thc ga rdcn of my housc.

What kind of m usic d id you r da ug htcr Iikc?

Wi l l you stop touch irg cvcFythi ng? You'II bFcak it. Lcavc it.

Cct out of th is room . Co !

I d id n't brirg you hcrc so you cou ld do as you Iikc .

Did n't you F parcnts tcach you ary manncFs cithcr?

I owc Na polconc my lifc.

Ard so do hu nd rcds of othcr pcoplc.

You hcl pcd us makc scrsc of thi ngs.

Evcn if this docsr 't ma kc ary scnsc at a l l .

Fccls l ikc wc'rc gctti ng marFicd agai n .

Sa mc placc,

sa mc g ucsts, only a Iittlc oldcr...

Ard I'm dcad .

Th rcc.

Exccl lcnt opcni ng .

That's how ma ny timcs Na polconc askcd mc out

bcforc I acccptcd .

-That's truc. -What took mc so long?

Bccausc from thc momcnt I mct h imr

I fclt thcrc was somcth irg incom prchcrsi blc ir h im .

Somcth ing bcautifu l ...

m ixcd u p with somcth ing da rk.

Na polconc kncw how to savc pcoplc .

Hc dolcd out crcrgy

whi lc hc skillfu l ly hid thc pain in his l ifc.

Thc moFc hc savcd othcrsr thc morc hc dicd irsidc,

corsu mcd by thc dcmons that hc was so good at fig hti ng

but only for othcrs.

I'm soFry I d id n't rcalizc you wcrc sl ippirg away from my l ifc.

I kccp askirg mysclf if thcFc is somcthi ng I cou ld havc donc.

- No . -Ycs.

Thcrc was somcthingr

but now it's too Iatc.

Lct's sta nd u p a nd pray togcthcr.

Who arc you ?

Now you 'rc fFcc to do whatcvcr you wa nt.

You said no onc cou Id scc us.

I madc a n cxccption .

Why?

Frcc will .

Wc havc it as wcll .

Maybc I did r 't want to bc sccn .

Of cou rsc you wantcd to bc sccn .

-Thc othcrs? -Thcy'rc back.

Evcryonc?

AImost.

I'm tircdr Ma .

Cct u rdcr thc bla r kcts. It's cold .

I'm soFry...

about bcforc .

It docsr 't mattcr.

I was ang ry with mysclf, not with you .

H ip hop.

My daug htcF's favoritc m usic was hip hop .

Thank you .

Co to slccp .

You wcrc goi ng to tcach mc.

It's casy.

You takc a dccp brcath ...

but don't in halc a l l thc smokc. Kccp it i n you r th Foat.

Thcrr sha pc you r Iips l ikc you wcrc pronou ncirg a n "U" .

Ard Ict thc smokc out with l ittlc coug hs.

Likc this.

I d id n't cxpcct you back.

What a m I going to do out thcFc?

I ca n't d rink, I ca n't cat, I ca n't cvcr ki l l mysclf.

Now you ca n .

Why d id you cha ngc you F m i nd?

Bccausc you nccd mc.

-I nccd you ? -Ycs.

Othcrwisc you 'l l losc thcm a II .

You'rc prcsu m ptuous.

So a rc you .

-Thc othcrs comc back? -AFc you woFricd a bout thcm ?

Nor Just cu rious.

Cu rious, or do you wa nt to sta Ft saving pcoplc aga in?

-What wi l l you havc thcm do tomorrow? -What wou Id you havc thcm do?

Ar oFd ina Fy day.

Just a norma l day.

DAY PIVE

Thanks .

Thank you .

Can wc?

You can .

No tricks?

Nor no tricks.

Yu m my!

I a polog izc foF ycstcrday.

You a ba ndoncd us . Apology not acccptcd .

-I'l l wash thc d ishcs. - Not croug h .

Thcr you can ask mc for whatcvcr you wa nt.

-What do you mca r? - Fxactly what I sa id .

Tcll mc you F wishr and I'II g ra nt it.

Ary wish?

- No biza rrc wishcs. -Is aski ng to fly bizarrc?

Vcry biza rrc.

- How a bout sccing my pa rcnts? -That's finc.

-I'd Iikc thcm to find my Icttcr. -Al Fig ht.

-It's in thc rig ht-ha nd pockct. -I know .

Em il ia?

A ncw d rcss.

Pcd .

You'II fi nd it in you r room th is cvcr irg .

Aria n na?

You know what I wa nt.

But you havc to ask mc.

-Whcn it's just thc two of us. -Okay.

-I dor 't want a ryth ing . -You dor 't havc a wish?

No.

You su rc?

Su rc.

Apa rt from Ju m ping in frort of a tra in?

How d id you find out Em il ia cou Id wa l k?

HcF shadow .

In thc dog vidco. It was of somcorc sta nd ing .

I wondcF if shc noticcd .

Dor't tcl l hcr.

Shc rccds to gct thcrc on hcr own .

Why do you wa nt a rcd d rcss?

Thc last timc you had an affair?

That's rot on thc agcnda anymorc.

You Iook li kc it wasn't cvcr bcforc you cndcd u p in a whcclcha ir.

Yca h .

I a lways cndcd u p with thc wrorg g uy.

Ma rricd mcn, guys with gi FlfFicrds.

My dcstiny's to comc ir sccord, in cvcryth ing .

I ncvcr won a gold mcda l .

AIways silvcFr si lvcrr si lvcr.

Sccond placc was a r ig htma rc for mc. I cvcn wcnt to a psycholog ist.

It's actua l ly a syrd Fomc . Thc ctcrra l ru nncF-u p.

Shc sa id it was bccausc I was scarcd of wi n ni ng .

Bu IIsh it.

FoF mc it was bccausc I wasn't good croug h .

But i n thc cnd , bci ng sccord isn't so bad .

Takc mc, for cxa m plc . I was ma rricd .

My husba rd had anothcr woma n ard I d id r 't krow .

In thc crd, aftcF Olivia was boFnr

hc lcft mc for h is m istrcss.

In thc long ru rr thc sccond won .

Da niclc !

Da niclc !

Arc you gctting u nd rcsscd?

Look at h im !

You can't go for a swim .

Thc watcr's cold . You just atc. It's da ngcrous.

I'm a l Fcady dcad !

It's wa Fm !

I mca r ...

rca l ly wa Fmr l ikc bathtu b-watcr warm .

You comc as wcl l !

Th is is so cool !

Whcrc's ou r housc?

You F houscr I mcan .

That wayr moFc oF Icss .

Havc a ry of you dccidcd yct?

I fclt good today.

Likc, ha lf-happy.

I cvcn had fu n a bit.

How ma ry pcoplc do you th in k a rc happy rig ht now?

In th is vcFy momcnt, out of all thosc pcoplc in this cityr

how many pcoplc do you th in k a rc actually happy?

Watch .

Now, wc'II tu Fn on onc lig ht at a timc foF cach ha ppy pcFsor .

Orc, two, th rcc, fou rr fivc...

Fivc scconds havc gonc byr ard thc n u m bcF has a l rcady cha rgcd .

I ca n't g ua Fa rtcc you'II bc ha ppy.

Orc day you 'II bc Iitr onc day you wor't.

What mattcrs is that you m iss that fccling of ha ppircss.

Maybc by m issing itr you'II kccp wa nting to find it.

DAY SIX

Hcl lo, AFianna .

Whcrc's my da ug htcr?

Shc's dcadr Aria r ra .

So?

Whcrc is shc?

Thc rcasor I chosc to stay is for hcr.

At Icast tcll mc if shc's somcwhcrc .

If shc stil l cxistsr

in somc sha pc or form ?

Ycs.

Shc still cxists.

Whcrc?

PIcasc.

Th is is my placc .

That's whcrc Mattia Ca Fbor i l ivcd .

Thcy wcnt to school togcthcr. OIivia was crazy a bout h im .

Why that look?

Did n't you know?

Ard that strcctlig ht,

rig ht in frort of you F bcd room window .

It always kcpt you com pa ry as you waitcd foF hcr to comc homc .

Thcrc's thc swi ng shc ju m pcd from ard got 1 2 stitchcs on hcr chin .

Thcrc, scc?

You sm ilcd .

You d id n't rcalizc it, but you sm ilcd .

OIivia's thcrc.

Pig ht thcrc.

You m ig ht rot noticc, but you wil l sm ilc agai n .

Ard it's tha r ks to hcr.

Thcrc, scc? You d id it agair .

Kccp hcr with your Aria r ra .

Dor't woFry.

You won't losc thc pai n . You'II Just ma kc scnsc of it.

It's not cnoug h .

I'm soFry. It's not cnoug h .

Hí, Mom. Hi, Dad.

Giusy used to he my only frícndr hut shc was laughing as wcll.

Shc saíd 7'd douhlcd ín size.

F'Douhlcdf' was hcing nicc ahout ít.

Thc ofhcr kíds who wcrcn 't nicc, werc all callíng mc "the faf shif".

Marco Moralc startcdr thcn cveryone else.

Thcyfd kíck mc ín fhc huftr thcy stolc thíngs from mc,

thcy cven pccd on my snack.

Thcy saíd 7 was a píg and so 7'd cat ít anyway.

7 ncver wanted to makc that vídco.

7 dídn 't wanf to hccomc Johnny Díg Doy,

hut you told me if was good and wc nccdcd thc moncy.

7f was a good opporfuníty. Sor 7 said okay.

7 dídn 't say ycsr 7 saíd okay.

7f ít was okay wíth you, ít was okay wíth me.

7f cndcd up hcíng not okay wifh mc. Thcy all ínsulfcd mc.

"Onc timc Colucci told mc hc fclt sorFy for mc .

I fccl soFry for mysclf a littlc as wcl l .

Nor actua IIyr Iots .

Sor Mom , I'vc madc u p my m ird . Dor't wakc mc u p .

Just Ict mc slccp . "

It's not ou r fau It.

Undcrsta rd? wc cou Id n't havc known .

Did you hca F mc?

Dor't ta Ik to hcr Iikc that.

As soon as hc wakcs u p, wc nccd to talk to h im .

Undcrsta rd, swccthca rt? wc nccd to talk.

Wc cou ld scrd h im to a psycholog ist.

Loads of famous kids go . Thcrc's noth irg to bc ashamcd of.

I don't wa nt to bc fa mous anymorc !

You rcad it. Hc docsn't wa nt to do thc vidcos.

Wc wor 't ma kc hi m do thcm anymorc.

You hca r that?

-You dor 't havc to do thcm a nymorc. -YouTu bc was just thc bcg inning .

-Wc cou Id try thc movics. -You havcn't u ndcrstood a nythi ng !

Wc cou ld chargc his school to gct away from thc bu l lics.

Thcrc wou ld on ly bc othcr bu l l ics ard thcn othcFs.

Aga ir with this school?

That's cnoug h .

- Hc hatcs it. -That's not truc !

- Hc has to study. -Al Fig htr hc ca n homc-school .

Wc'l l gct him a tcachcr who'l l comc ard do Icssons at homc.

I'm h u rg Fy. Lct's go to thc snack ba r.

Aryway, I'l l bc h is ma nagcr from row or .

Enoug h of thosc swird lcrs who do nothirg but stcal fFom him .

You hca r that?

Dad wi l l dca l with cvcrythi ng .

You conccntratc on wa kirg u p.

Ard p u ickly ! wc'Fc losirg a Iot of fol lowcrs !

Comc on, Johnny Big Boy.

It's ovcr.

Now you ca n slccp .

PFDIATRIC INTEnSIVE CAPE U nlT

EM EPC FNCY POOM

Hcl lo, AFianna .

Hcl lo, Mom .

H i, Olivia .

I'm soFry.

Why thc hcll d id you lct mc go?

- Now you can dcfcnd you Fsclf. - Dcfcnd mysclf?

From my parcnts?

Whcn wc'rc Iittlcr wc g row u p thinking ou r pa rcnts' Iovc is good .

It's good . PcFiod .

That's rot a lways thc casc.

Somctimcsr for Iots of d iffcrcnt Fcasors...

cvcn ou F parcnts ca r ha rm us.

Evcn if thcy a rc thc most i m portart pcoplc i n ou r l ivcs?

Evcn if thcy'Fc thc most im porta nt pcoplc i n ou r l ivcs.

-Ca n I kccp on bcing irvisiblc? - No, that's rot possiblc.

Can I stay with you?

Nor you can't stay with mc,

but thcrc will bc ma ny othcr pcoplc who'l l ta kc my placc .

-Thosc you showcd mc in thc vidco? -And moFc pcoplc still .

Wi l l thcy lovc mc?

Somc of thcm will .

Ncxt stop, Termíní.

Stop !

Civc mc you r ha nd .

I kncw you cou ld fly.

Ycsr but don't tcl l a nyonc.

What is it?

Hc has a gi FlfFicrd .

- No, hc docsn't. - Lookr hcr.

Just a fricnd .

-Who wa nts to bc a g irlfricrd . - But shc's rot.

Shc wil l bc .

-You try a nd gct h im . - Hc'l l gct togcthcF with hcr.

- Not if you gct out. - No !

Lct's go .

- Fm ilia . . . - Plcasc .

Lct's go .

Sorry.

Sorry I'm Iatc.

C Fcta docsn't dcscFvc this .

Shc cou Id n't do anyth irg foF mc. Shc has to know .

So you do havc a wish .

-I havc to spcak to hcr. - Not possiblc .

-ThcFc m ust bc a way to com m u r icatc . - No, u nfortu natcly.

-Thcn I'm goirg . -Wait.

You choosc somcthing?

I'm rot h u rg Fyr tha n ks.

You havc to cat somcth irg .

I wa nt morc wi nc.

C Fctar I don't wa rt to rush your but havc you thoug ht a bout it?

A rad ica I cha ngc is what you nccd .

Comc with mc to M i la r .

Say no .

-I ca r 't scc mysclf in M ilan . -Cood g irl .

It's bcautifu l now .

-So you go to M ila n . -Why not?

Na polconc lovcd this city.

Ycs.

I Iovc this city.

Arothcr Fcason you shou Id lcavc, at lcast foF a bit.

I ca n't.

Why can't you?

Dor't push hcr.

C Fcta ...

I'm pFcg na rt.

You'rc prcg nant?

Ycs.

-Tcl l mc it isn't truc. -Ycs.

-Why d id n't you tcll mc? -Why d id n't you tcll h im?

I was sca rcd hc wou ld n't wa nt it.

Bccausc wc'rc old and ...

I don't know . I was waitirg for thc Fig ht momcnt.

I was confuscd .

I don't know . I don't krow .

- Maybc if I'd told h im . . . -You ca n't krow that.

Dor't cvcn th in k it.

Thc boy in thc vidco's my son?

C Fcta ...

cvcryth irg's okay.

Nor cvcrythirg is not okay.

DAY SEVEn

DAnlELF wAS H EPE

Comc on . Lct's go.

Can I ask orc Iast q ucstion?

AftcFwa rds...

wi l l wc rcmcm bcr us?

Why do you i nsist on on ly doing thc nig ht sh ift?

-I Just want to u ndcFsta nd why. -Wc'II ta l k a bout it tomorrow .

Lct mc gct you a coffcc, ard ma kc tomorrow i nto today.

Okay?

Hí, swecthcarf. 7fm runníng Iatc.

Takc thc eggplant hakc ouf of thc frcezerr plcasc.

Scc you latcr. Dye.

Thínly slícc an onion, thcn...

Dad 's cham p ! Coing to makc a ncw vidco?

-Ycs. -Cor Big Boy !

Wc wa nt a m illior ard a ha lf fol lowcrs ! Co !

Add thyme and hasil...

what d id you do?

-What's wrorg with you? - Noth irg .

It wcrt off.

-You shattcFcd thc window . - Max, lct's go.

-Whcrc? -J ust go .

Whíle you sauté fhc oníon ín cxfra-virgín olive oíI...

...cut thc zucchíní ínto cuhcs.

Chop an cggplant and slícc fwo pcppcrs.

Ohr my Cod, Da niclc ! Oh, Cod !

How ma ry d id you cat? Da niclcr a nswcr mc !

How ma ry dor uts did you cat?

Ohr Cod ! whcrc's you F insu Iir? whcrc is it?

-Whcrc thc fuck's thc insu li n? -It's hcrc.

-Comc on ! - But I don't nccd it.

- How ma ny donuts d id you cat? -I th Fcw thcm away.

-Whcrc? -Out thc wirdowr irto thc ga Fdcn .

-You staycd . -Comc onr g ra b you r stuff.

-You r Jackct. Lct's go. -Whcrc?

Qu ict!

What do I havc to do?

My words d id r 't woFkr lct's try you rs. Tcll mc what to do.

First of a l lr ca l l mc by na mc .

Okay. Napolconc.

Now you shou Id comc closcr, look mc in thc cycs,

ard try to u rdcrsta nd why I'm doing it.

I know why you'Fc doing it.

Bccausc cvcFythi ng in Iifc is pushi ng us to cnd it.

Thc world is a g ruclirg placc . Just bcirg a livc wca rs you out.

Th is shou ld rca l ly bc thc natu ra I way to d ic.

Thc lcttcF shou ld bc writtcr by thosc who stayr

not by thosc who cnd it.

Thcy owc us a r cxpla nation .

- Docsn't a ba by cha ngc a nything? -You almost madc mc dou bt.

If I saw h im bci ng born, I wou ld n't havc thc g uts to do it.

I told you .

You shou ld lcavc pcoplc l ikc mc a Ionc .

It's pcoplc Iikc you that I ca n't lcavc a Ionc .

I uscd to wa kc u p l ikc thc most tcFriblc th irgs had ha ppcncd to mcr

but noth ing had happcncd .

Ard I d id n't l istcn cithcr to a ma n who d id cvcryth irg to savc mc.

Ard now I m iss that bit of Iifc I d id n't Iivc.

Ard I'd do a nyth irg to havc thosc scvcn days back...

ard bc ablc to choosc aga in .

I chosc a bridgc as wcl l .

It's a classic.

I told you, you a nd I a rc alikc.

Not a li kc . Thc sa mc .

Lct's go . Hc d id n't comc.

Hc'II bc at homc .

Comc on, gct in .

H ig h u pr h u h?

Who arc you ?

TH E FIRST DAY OP MY LIPE