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Emergency! Wake up!

Get up, get a first aid kit.

Get it. - No, no. No, guys.

No! It's Johnny. He didn't come home last night.

- What?! - Wait, so the boys were okay?

I don't know, probably, but Johnny's missing.

Oh, God. Lily. Okay. You can't. You can't do that.

That was so scary.

You cannot, like, scream at us like that.

Oh, wait. So where's Johnny?

I don't know, that's why I had to yell emergency!

He didn't come home.

Not even for a good night kiss.

Well, maybe he, like, fell asleep on the couch

and then just left for work early.

Or maybe he's had, like, a car accident

and he can't get hold of us, or worse.

Maybe he's, like, seeing another woman.

I'm sure it is not that.

Well, let's just go and have some rescue remedy

and we will figure it out.

- Okay. - Yeah, okay.

Sorry for yelling.

It's okay, it's okay.

Cup of tea, extra sugar and open up.

Same again.

- Have you checked his location? - What?

Like, tracked him?

Well, tracking is a pretty strong word.

It's just a casual, informal update about his specific whereabouts.

- Should we be calling the police? - Uh, no.

No, I think we just give it a bit longer.

- He hasn't been kidnapped. - What?

Have you talked to him?

No, he's at Rosie's.

What is he doing there?

Well, apparently he went there straight after the hospital.

Well, what did he say?

I don't know, she wouldn't let me talk to him.

She said she's acting as his emotional guardian.

- What does that mean? - I don't know.

Sounds like something she picked up from one of her white lady mums

spiritual retreat things.

Right. Well, come on, let's go.

- I feel like we need to respect. - Absolutely not.

Who's coming?

Okay, well, maybe you should go.

And I'll stay here with the boys.

Come on.

I'm sorry, I can't let you in.

- Mum! Come on. - No.

I'm acting as a representative for Johnny.

Who's expressed a need for some personal space.

Oh, this is stupid. I'm just...

Hold the line!

Don't underestimate me, Nat.

I didn't back down in '81 during Springbok,

and I certainly won't stand down now.

Come on, Rosie, I just want to know he's okay.

Look, darling, I get it, but this is not about you, okay?

But, how is it not about me?

He just needs some space.

Don't you worry, he's in good hands.

I've put him on the pottery wheel to help him process.

See, this is the thing, with lesbian relationships,

it's like you guys talk about everything.

When you date a straight man, it's like you have got no idea

what's going on for him.

Unless, of course, he's got a podcast.

Mm. I do wonder.

What?

Oh, just maybe Steph and I said something yesterday

that wasn't, you know, particularly kind, maybe.

What did you say?

Well, you know, like, everyone was stressed because Jay had a rash

and I should have called Steph, but I didn't,

and Johnny was just there.

- What did you say? - Lily.

Johnny does want to talk to you.

You absolutely should have told me about this.

Oh.

Not you.

Hey.

Hey.

Wow.

Is this a vase?

Uh, that's a mug for coffee.

So tall.

You make all of these?

Oh, those are my earlier works.

But I think I've really discovered my style now.

Johnny, if this is a break-up, can you just do it now?

I don't want to break up.

So what? You don't reply to my text.

You haven't called me back.

Yeah. Um.

Yeah, I just can't do it anymore.

You know, with the boys

and having to be okay with not being there...

Hang on. What did they say to you?

Do you want me to talk to them?

No, I don't want anything to do with them anymore.

Johnny.

And, you know, it's just not fair to you.

What? What are you... What do you mean, not fair to me?

I don't understand any of this.

We' re just going on, acting as if I'm okay

with how everything's going to be.

You know, with the boys

and I have my feelings towards the boys,

and they're like, because I never meant to...

But you know Nat and Steph, they just don't...

I'm... I'm just I'm just in the way, you know, I'm in the way

and you and the way that you feel and it's just...

It's just messy, so I just can't go back.

Hang on. Is this about me not wanting kids?

Because you can't just put that on me, Johnny.

That's not fair.

It's like, what? Have kids or break up?

It's not just that.

I just can't come back.

Sorry.

Maybe I should text him and just, like, explain things

from our end.

I just don't think a text or some cute little emojis

are gonna fix anything right now.

It's just such a stressful situation.

You know, I was so, so worried about the boys.

Did he... Did he seem upset to you?

I mean, he left.

Well, did he - did he say anything as he left?

What did he say?

He wants out.

He wants to break up with you?

No, with all of us.

Um.

I think you guys should move out.

What?

Yeah.

Sooner would be better.

What the fuck is Lily going on about moving out?

How can we move out?

What does she expect us to do?

Just stay in an Airbnb.

Raise our kids in some boomer's garage.

It's some Oliver Twist shit.

It's not happening.

What?

How come you're not freaking out?

You're, like, incredibly serene about all this.

I'm not feeling serene.

I'm just trying to figure this out.

Maybe we could get a service department for a while.

They come up online sometimes.

Hang on. Well, that's it.

You just... You're just giving up?

No, I'm not giving up.

But Lily was pretty clear

and I don't know, maybe this is actually, like,

best for everyone.

We let Lily and Johnny be a couple, and we can be a proper family.

Johnny will be okay.

I know this sucks right now, but he will.

And realistically, how long was living all together

really going to work?

See how the slurry smooths it?

Almost like a balm.

Cracks are nothing to be afraid of, Johnny.

I actually like them.

They're like little signs of where we could do a bit more work.

Okay. Yep. No. You can... You can step away from the wheel.

Oh, come on, Johnny. Hear me out.

Rosie, I love your pottery lessons. I do.

But I just don't want to talk about the other stuff.

But I'll let you use all my best glazes.

I know, and I appreciate that.

I do.

What's that?

You stay here. I'll sort this.

- Get out of it! - Mum!

What the hell?

Your father just cleaned all the windows last week.

Look, I just need to talk to Johnny.

Will you stop dumping all your drama onto him?

It's not fair.

If I could just talk to him, then I...

And then what?

Offload all your worries and concerns onto that poor boy

and make him accommodate you.

No, I won't have it.

You're supposed to be on my side.

This is me being on your side.

I'm trying to look after the well-being

of the biological father of your two little boys.

And what about me?

What if I if I want a bloody pottery wheel and a cup of tea

and a bit of a lie down?

No, Natalie. No.

No pottery wheel for you.

You need to work out your role in all of this.

Oh, come here. You're allowed a quick squeeze.

Okay. Okay. Fine.

Mum.

You want a baby smush?

Oh, I have to ask for permission, now, do I?

Oh, what about your silly mummy, hey?

Trying to keep us apart, she is, pudgy.

Hey, Natalie.

You leave that boy alone.

I'm sorry if I'm breaking your flow.

I'm also sorry for talking to you when you explicitly said

you didn't want to talk to me.

But I have to talk to you because you're my friend and I need to know.

So what do you want to say, Nat?

I'm sorry for what we've said or done or not said or not done.

You know, like, I know it's been hard with me and Steph.

Okay? I know, like, it's been hard.

Like, you know, I have found it hard.

She's got all these, like, mum rules and invisible tricks

and I'm just tripping up all the time.

- And I feel scared... - Okay, stop.

Sometimes I feel scared, I feel scared to, like...

Stop. Nat! Okay.

I'm over it, okay?

I'm over it.

It's always about you and Steph and you and Steph.

And it feels like... Like such a battle.

It feels like it takes all of us just to keep you guys together.

And I'm...

I'm done.

You can't be done, Johnny.

We are family.

You never ask about any of us or me. Or me.

It's like that deal that Shelly made me sign.

It's always been about you.

And I feel like, you know, the only reason we put up

with any of this shit is just because we just always have.

And just out of loyalty and habit, it's just not enough anymore.

Wait, Johnny, we can't do this without you.

We're not...

See, this is what I'm talking about, Nat.

This is what I'm talking about.

It's just. You need me. You don't need me.

It's bullshit, Nat. It is.

It's bullshit. You can do it alone.

You can.

But I think that you're just scared.

You're scared that if you do go it alone,

that you have to just face the truth

that actually you might just not want to do it

with each other anymore.

Okay, so I'm done.

I'm out.

I don't want to feel like I'm being used anymore.

Sshhh.

Hi.

Hi.

Oh, wow.

Oh, yeah, your mom texted

and said we could stay for a few nights,

so I packed up some things.

Oh, wow.

Okay.

Thanks for doing that.

So.

That's what's happening.

You know, I actually don't think that this is too bad.

I do kind of feel like the roof is caving in.

Like I'm in one of those hydraulic crushing machines,

but apart from that...

...it's pretty good.

Do you want to tell me what happened with Johnny?

I don't really want to talk about it, Steph.

Well, we'll be okay, Nat.

Like, you just need a bit of time.

This isn't really about Johnny.

It's...

I just don't recognise my life anymore.

Okay.

How did we even get here?

Because it's hard, right?

Because this is a hard thing that we are doing and we...

I just feel like I keep fucking everything up.

Like everything's my fault.

At what point do I just accept that, you know,

I'm the liability? You know?

What are you saying?

What you said at the stadium.

All the things you said.

They were true.

And we need to...

We need to stop pretending this isn't broken.

- Well... - Don't.

Just...

It's okay.

It's just...

It's just sleep.

- There you go. - Thanks.

That might help you sleep.

And thank you for taking us in at such short notice.

I appreciate it.

Wow.

You were always going to outgrow

your little babysitters club playhouse at some stage.

This might be just what your family needs.

Anyway, I can do my meditation in here, for the time being.

Mum, um.

How did you know...

...that it was over with dad?

We both just fell out of ways with each other.

What we had when we were young and stupid, it was...

Well, you barely would have recognised us back then.

But time and having a family changed us.

We got worn down.

I didn't like the type of person I was turning into

when we were together.

Perhaps I was a little tough on him back then,

but I was unhappy.

We both lost that feeling of hope

that we could try and make it work.

And then I just gave up trying to find it.

Um, do you think...

...that Nat and I are right for each other?

Oh, God. Stephanie, don't ask me that.

It's a pointless question.

It's never about finding the right person

and then letting love do all the work.

No, it's up to you to keep working at it.

You've got to be all in all,

or be brave enough to know

when it's the right time to walk away.

- Night. - Night.

I did it for you as much as I did it for me.

You gave it all just to take it back.

Took the risk and it didn't land.

And the breaking point is closer than it's ever been before.

Hi.

Hi.

I'm sorry for running away.

It's okay.

I made you this.

I know they're terrible, by the way.

Can I stay?

So I'll try to feel lighter

Than my chest gets quieter

And I know change will go more easily

Eventually

You have me hope

You gave me answers

You want to stay at mine tonight?

If that's okay?

I don't have a bed anymore, so.

Yeah, I know.

It's tricky, isn't it?

Just got no other option, really.

Apart from this hard floor.

I'd love to stay with you.

I can be here with you first, though.

So I'll try to feel lighter

Then my chest gets quieter

And I know change will come more easily.

Where did you go?

Just needed some fresh air.

I think we should talk.

So I'll try to feel lighter

Then my chest gets quieter

And I know change will go more easily

Eventually.