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ADAPTED FROM THE NOVEL OF THE SAME NAME BY ZHU YI ON WWW.JJWXC.NET

Eat up.

Dad, you eat too.

Alright, I will.

What kind of new way of eating is this, Dad?

It's good for digestion.

Is your stomach upset? Are you feeling unwell?

I'm fine.

Eating like this will keep me healthy.

Hurry up and eat.

It's getting cold.

- Hello, Dad? - Hello, Jiang.

Why was this business trip so long?

You didn't even come back for my birthday yesterday.

I'm sorry.

I'll be back soon.

Almost home.

Then, hurry up and come back.

Jiang,

did you eat the cake Mom bought for you?

I did.

I even ate your share.

All right.

- All right. - Okay then.

Go ahead with your business.

Come home soon.

Okay. Bye-bye.

My dear Jiang,

you have to grow up well.

Just like before,

be happy every single day.

And take care of Mom.

You're the person closest to her.

Alright.

Yuandong.

Remember this.

You are

Jiang's only support.

4,071 DAYS

NANWU TV STATION

Thank you for the interview.

Miss, it was really nice talking to you.

I don't feel as scared now.

We shouldn't have to please others or stay silent when we're bullied.

We were born

not to be anyone's pleaser.

We should learn to be kind to ourselves.

Once the video is edited, we'll send it to you.

Sounds good.

Make sure to leave them our contact info.

Got it.

Hello?

Are you done?

Almost.

Didn't you have a follow-up checkup today?

I had it earlier.

The doctor even stitched a dragon on my wound.

Doesn't that hurt even more?

Why are you so serious?

Are you off work yet?

I'll come pick you up.

Wait for me like a good girl.

Jiang!

Jiang!

Can you come here for a sec?

I have a few words to say.

Jiang!

Uncle Zheng and I just had a meal nearby.

He went back to the office to work.

Since your workplace is nearby,

I stopped by.

Jiang, it's your birthday today.

Can we talk for a bit?

- I still have things to do later. - I...

I won't take up too much of your time.

Just...

Just give me a chance. Let me wish you a happy birthday,

okay?

Jiang.

Let me order you a cake.

What flavor do you want?

No need.

Hello.

Two strawberry cakes, please.

Alright, just a moment.

- It's rare for us to-- - What do you want to talk about?

I never imagined that Che Xingde would turn out to be this kind of person.

I wrote that news report.

Jiang.

Back then...

did he manage to do anything bad to you?

Regarding that question...

How am I supposed to answer?

But I am really scared.

Mom, please take me home.

Please! I was so scared!

I'm begging you!

Jiang, don't cry. Listen to me.

I'll talk to your Uncle Wen properly.

Don't worry. I'm hanging up now.

Stop crying.

It's been so long.

Jiang.

Are you... Are you misunderstanding the situation?

Your Uncle Che is a good man.

He would never do such a thing.

It's my fault.

I...

I didn't pay enough attention to you back then.

I thought with your Uncle Wen watching over you,

nothing bad would happen.

It's all my fault.

Jiang.

I'm not asking for your forgiveness.

I just want to see you sometimes.

Is that okay?

Honestly, no matter how Uncle Wen's family treated me,

it never really hurt me.

They had no obligation to take care of me.

And they certainly had no reason...

to be kind to me.

Excuse me. Where should I put the cakes?

Uh... Just leave it over there. Thank you.

Alright.

It's you.

You made me miserable.

You made me doubt myself.

Why, in this world, does the mother who should love me most

not love me at all?

No.

That's not true.

It's because...

It's because you had a new family,

and you had to think about yourself more.

When you sent me to Grandma's house, I should have realized it.

When you kept ignoring me for the sake of your new family,

when I begged you for help but you chose not to hear me,

when I had nowhere to go and you didn't even care,

I should have understood everything by then.

IN MEMORY OF MY LATE FATHER, WEN LIANGZHE

It's good.

I just feel like having something sweet.

How's your health been lately?

Pretty good.

You're always so busy with work.

Just focus on your job.

Jiang.

I just made some tremella soup.

- Come have some. - Yeah, try some.

I have homework to do.

Why didn't you greet your uncle?

It's okay.

Yifan is still not used to it.

Don't put her on the spot.

Jiang, I want to discuss something with you.

But first, let's agree not to argue.

Keep our emotions in check.

The main thing is,

I can't get emotional right now.

Why?

I'm pregnant.

Uh...

Work is calling me.

I need to take this.

Have you already forgotten Dad?

I don't expect you to remember him for the rest of your life like I do.

You can remarry,

you can have new children...

but not now.

Your stepfather...

He has been

seeing someone else.

Before,

we argued about it a few times.

He promised me he wouldn't do it again.

Kejia probably...

probably just wanted you to come back to keep me company. That's why...

That's why she called you home.

Is this history repeating itself?

What happened to me back then,

you're experiencing it now.

Neither of us was ever truly chosen.

We were both abandoned,

left behind.

I've been thinking about...

how to handle our relationship.

I never deleted your contact info.

I was afraid that if something happened to you,

I wouldn't know what to do.

But later, I realized I was overthinking.

All these years,

you ignored me completely.

And yet I still managed to live.

I never said these things before.

I kept them buried inside, like a weight on my chest.

After today,

I'm deleting all my ways of contacting you.

I hope...

I hope that in your mind, your daughter

had already been killed by Che Xingde...

that night.

Where are we going?

Home, to celebrate your birthday?

Can I make a birthday wish now?

If...

next summer is still just as long,

you will propose to me,

will you?

I will.

Anything else?

- Can I make another? - Of course.

You can.

Then...

I hope the summer after next

will be just as long.

Isn't that the same wish

as the last one?

You're really saving me the trouble.

Every year, your wishes

are always the things I want to do.

All my wishes from our first year as roommates have come true.

Are you talking about work?

Or... that you wanted me to be your boyfriend?

Any more?

Are you giving me three wishes?

Then...

carry me on your back?

Forget it. Let's go.

Come on.

Hurry up.

Fine, just for a bit.

Anything else?

Give me a smile.

Why?

Why do you always avoid smiling at me?

You look so cute when you smile.

Don't use that word to describe me.

But...

you look so good when you smile.

Could you?

Every time you smile, the little mole near your eye

is like a dancing ant.

Like a dancing ant?

Alright, I'll take that as a compliment.

Either way, you're only allowed to smile for me.

When did you become so controlling?

You told me to make wishes.

Fine.

Anything else?

What's wrong? Still thinking?

No one loves me anymore.

Only you.

I only love you.

From the very beginning,

step by step, we walked here.

We'll keep walking

into the future.

Wen Shuangjiang,

make another wish.

I don't have any more wishes.

You can have mine.

Then I wish...

I wish that besides me,

there will be many people who love you.

Sitting for so long made my back ache.

It's not like you were the one driving.

It's a six-hour journey!

That was exhausting.

Grandma, is this the place?

It looks like there are a lot more trees now.

Haoan, come here.

Look.

This is the spot

where their car crashed all those years ago.

They said it was because the car was going too fast.

It skidded and went off the road.

Back then,

how could we have

let a little kid like you

see all of this firsthand?

Your grandpa and I...

We nearly passed out.

It was unbearable!

It was my idea back then

to keep you at home.

I thought that would be the safest place for you.

But I never imagined not telling you

would affect you for so many years.

At first, I thought it was okay. Maybe everyone just needed time.

But as the years passed, I started wondering.

Was it my fault?

I began blaming myself.

It must've been because I wasn't good enough,

because I didn't meet your expectations.

Everything started with me.

I was the problem. I deserved to be abandoned, didn't I?

Why would you think that?

No one has ever stopped loving you.

All this time,

you and your brother have been

the most precious to your grandpa and me!

Alright.

Let us

just forget all these painful memories

and let them go.

Have you ever wondered

why your name is Haoan?

Your father's name was Su Haoyang.

Your mother's name was Hu Jiaan.

Your father's second character

and your mother's third character...

That's how you got Haoan.

You and your brother

were both the loves of their lives.

They didn't love him more,

and they didn't love you any less.

All these years,

I tried my best to please everyone.

But the hardest person to comfort was myself.

Those who can't forgive themselves suffer most.

We need to be kinder to ourselves.

Dad.

Mom.

Brother.

All these years,

I've grown up.

Can you see me?

The old me

was afraid of loss.

I always relied on others.

But now...

I finally understand what it means to be loved.

I will keep living my life

with confidence.

And I will take care of Grandpa and Grandma for you.

You can rest easy.

Don't worry. Your grandma and I don't need you to take care of us.

Your grandpa agreed to go on a road trip with me.

That's great, Grandma!

Grandpa is finally willing to make your dream come true.

Let's go right away.

Time to hit the road!

Where are we going?

On a road trip!

But first, we need to go home,

get in my car, and then we can leave.

Then, why are you calling Ma?

This is a trip just for the two of us. Why bring him along?

He's the driver.

I don't want that! Just the two of us are enough!

Only us?

Well then, I should call Laughter.

What's wrong with you?

Why are you calling Laughter?

Of course, I have to!

I have to call her. She and I are going on a road trip.

Who's Laughter?

Laughter is you!

I'm just messing with you.

Alright. Let's head out.

Come on. Let's go!

Let's go.

This feels great.

Get in the car!

Where are you now?

Our program starts at seven.

If I don't reply later, that means I'm already on stage.

Ask Fu Zhuang to bring you in.

Alright.

Try it.

Hurry up.

Still not working?

Yan! There's an urgent matter for you.

Here's the deal. A few key projects ran into problems.

We need you to fix them.

You two can't handle it?

Yan,

you can solve it in ten minutes.

If they try, they'll be stuck for three days.

- Get to the conference room! - Move!

- Yeah, work! - Hurry up!

- Yan, quick! - Move!

HELLO NANWU, HAPPY NEW YEAR NANWU TV STATION

Zhen Yu.

Zhen Yu.

- Yang. - Yifan.

Can I ask about my performance? What's my lineup number?

You're third.

That early?

Not ready yet?

No...

I'm worried my boyfriend won't make it.

I never thought you, of all people, would agree to perform.

So, that's why.

Well, if he doesn't make it,

can I trouble you to record a video for me?

No problem. I'll make sure you look amazing!

- Get ready. - Thanks.

Will you make it in time?

I only want to dance for you.

Stunning!

Stunning!

LOOKING AHEAD, BUILDING DREAMS NANWU TV STATION

You're up next.

Nervous?

You got this!

Fu Zhuang! Has it started?

Almost.

Why are you just getting here?

Let me tell you. Yifan has been working so hard.

Every day after work,

she goes to the meeting room alone to practice dancing.

You know how long she's been practicing. Why haven't you gone to keep her company?

By herself?

Wasn't she singing with Su Tian?

Singing?

Where did you hear that? Come on. Let's go!

What an incredible magic performance! Everyone saw that, right?

Now, moving on. I'd like to ask everyone to quiet down.

Up next

is a special performance

from the First News team.

A ballet piece from The Nutcracker,

performed by Wen Yifan.

She has been preparing for this piece for a long time.

I believe you'll all enjoy a stunning performance.

Did you use to love watching me dance?

Yifan!

When did you get here?

Just as your performance started.

You're sweating.

Be careful not to catch a cold.

Why aren't you saying anything about my performance?

Why haven't you danced in so long? You danced beautifully.

Really?

It's been so long since I properly practiced.

Before, I was only demonstrating simple moves for the kids.

Performing a full piece again made me a little nervous.

It didn't look unprofessional, did it?

Don't be so modest. That was anything but unprofessional.

Are you watching the rest of the performances?

I already watched the one I wanted to.

Then wait for me a sec. I'll go change.

You look great in this dress.

I never told you I would dance.

Why didn't you?

Because this was my New Year's gift to you.

I'm glad I got to see it.

When are we moving?

Is the apartment finished?

That depends.

Whenever you have time.

Before March...

After New Year's, then. I'll be freer around that time.

Alright.

Should we buy some boxes first for packing?

Just pack up your own things. I'll handle everything else.

Why is the light off?

I really want to hide you away.

Wen Shuangjiang,

I feel like...

I've changed since being with you.

I've become selfish, possessive.

Back on that stage,

you were shining.

But I couldn't bear to let anyone else see it.

I want you to shine in my world alone.

But I know I can't do that.

You should...

You should let them see you. See how incredible you are.

Wen Shuangjiang...

Time to pay your debt.

Don't pull it.

Why not?

It's all one piece. You'll ruin it.

YIHE DAILY, RESIGINATION LETTER

His wife came to make a scene?

You didn't do anything. Why do you care?

THE STORY IS NOT OVER YET...

Or are you actually afraid of people talking behind your back?

I didn't do anything. I'm not afraid of misunderstandings.

Then why quit?

Because there's nothing here worth staying for.

So, will you take a break? Or find another job?

- There will be other coworkers, other men... - I'll return to Nanwu.

I suddenly really want to go back there.

STRAWBERRY CAKE

Hello.

I'd like the cake in the middle. The one covered in strawberries.

How much?

Eighty-eight yuan. Scan here to pay.

Could you do me a favor?

Could you give this to the girl in blue over there?

Just tell her

it's a store promotion.

If she posts about it, she can have it for free.

- Thank you. - It's nothing.

Hi, miss.

This is our store's new product.

No, thank you.

Actually, if you help us promote it by posting online,

this cake is free!

Just remember to post it!

HUGE THANKS TO EVERYONE INVOLVED AND TO ALL THE FANS OF THE FIRST FROST!

TREAT YOURSELF WELL AND THE WORLD WILL HOLD MORE LOVE FOR YOU!