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I'm due at Fort Dix
in two days.

I have to go.
I have to get over you.

Yeah. You do.

My father's
a brilliant pianist.

Now he's stuck behind
a counter selling shoes.

When he sees something
of mine in the paper,

I know I'm going
to get a call from him

telling me how proud he is.

So you're not gonna go out?
Not gonna fall in love?

I just want
to be honest with you.

The photograph,
Roy did something to it.

I'm one of the
most powerful senators

in the history of our nation.

So, Tim, what exactly
did you want to tell me

about some
fucking photograph?

Quit my job.

Everything's gone, Hawk.

I don't know what to believe.

I'm going to ask Lucy Smith
to marry me.

I guess I don't lie
as easily as you do.

Then you won't survive.

Is that all right?

Yeah. Thanks.

There you go.

How you feeling?

I'm surprised.

How so?

I mean, to be alive?

And you're still here.
That surprises me.

Well...

Well, that makes two of us.

I've never
gotten used to this.

My prison tattoo.

Did you forget
that I'm a convicted felon?

♪ upbeat music ♪

Don't worry, we're just here
for the draft cards.

Ma'am, we need you
to stand over here.

Let's go. Quickly.

I'm sorry,
but you can't leave.

Stay there. Thank you.

Get as many as you can.

Fill up the bags.

- Hey, give me a bag!
- There's one here.

Is it okay?

We should go.

Yeah. Got it.

Let's go.

- Sorry.
- Come on.

And thank you.

We do this
in the name of life.

We do this so that men
will not be made to kill.

We offer this prayer

in the name of peace,
God and decency.

- Amen.
- Amen.

Our Father,

Who art in heaven,
hallowed be Thy name.

Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done

on earth as it is in heaven.

Forgive us our trespasses

as we forgive those
who trespass against us,

and lead us
not into temptation,

but deliver us from evil.

For Thine is the kingdom,
the power and the glory.

Forever and ever. Amen.

- Come here.
- Okay, let's go.

- Let's go.
- Come on.

Party's over, folks. Come on.

- Get down!
- Come here!

- I got one of them.
- Hey. Hey.

Let's go.
No, we gotta go.

No!

Kimberly! Kimberly!

Kimberly, give it back.

- I found it.
- Hey, hey, hey.

- Finders keeper!
- I'm on the phone.

- Give it back.
- I'm on the phone.

- Give it back!
- Jackson.

- Jackson, let her go.
- No!

She took my guitar pick.

So? You have
a hundred guitar picks.

Let her go. Jackson.

But, Dad...

Forget it.

Fine,
you want it so bad? Take it.

- Shut up!
- Sorry about that.

What did he say?

He's grateful for your offer,

but reluctant to accept
for... obvious reasons.

The FBI is involved now.

He needs
to get out of Baltimore.

That's what I said.

And your place
isn't an option.

Do you need something?

May I have
a crossword puzzle?

Oh, here it is.

Definitely not.

Right.
I'll wire you the cash.

You make sure he gets
on that bus tomorrow.

Will do.

Hawk, Tim was curious

how you knew
he was in trouble.

Had you been keeping tabs
on him all these years?

Hawk.

Oh. Thanks for
letting me know.

Uh, I'll come right up.

I was thinking
of lamb for dinner.

How does that sound?

Great, great.
But I won't be here.

I just spoke
with the caretaker.

There's no water
at the country house.

The pump's broken.

We're supposed
to go up this weekend.

Well, we'll go up
another time.

It's the Stovers' anniversary.

We're throwing them a party.

Did you forget?

We can't throw a party
if we don't have water.

We've invited
a dozen people.

I'll try to get a plumber

working on it
as soon as I can.

I'll call you
from the house.

Let you know if it's safe
to come up.

♪ rock music playing ♪

♪ Give me a ticket
for an airplane ♪

♪ Ain't got time
to take a fast train ♪

♪ Lonely days are gone
I'm a-goin' home ♪

♪ My baby
just-a wrote me a letter ♪

♪ I don't care
how much money I gotta spend ♪

♪ Got to get back
to my baby again ♪

♪ Lonely days are gone
I'm a-goin' home ♪

♪ My baby
just-a wrote me a letter ♪

♪ Well, she wrote me
a letter ♪

♪ Said she... ♪

Nice to see you, Skippy.

Or is it
Father Skippy now?

I'm not a priest,
I'm in seminary.

And I wouldn't be here
if I had a choice.

But you don't.

It's best if you lie down
in the back.

You worried about the FBI?

Worse.

Neighbors.

♪ Well, she wrote me
a letter ♪

♪ Said she couldn't live
without me no more ♪

♪ Listen, mister, can't you
see I got to get back ♪

♪ To my baby once-a more ♪

♪ Anyway, yeah ♪

Your father's napping.

I'll be on my way.

Cynthia.

I really appreciate you
being here.

If it wasn't for you,
I wouldn't get any work done.

Your father
is so proud of you.

He says you're writing
a new book.

On the Fair Housing Act.

I was supposed to be out there
in the heat of it all.

But you know what they say
about making plans.

- God laughs.
- He can be so cruel.

I don't mind
helping out.

Your folks were
always good to me.

And it's been nice
seeing you, too.

Like old times.

Maybe you'll let me
take you to dinner sometime.

To thank you.

That would be nice.

Where am I, exactly?

It's our country property.

The, uh, main house

is a quarter mile
through the woods.

This is
Daddy's hunting cabin.

Where you do your hunting.

I manage to bag a buck
every now and then.

So you're in seminary.

Looking to become a priest?

More like a place
where you figure out

if you're meant to be one.

So no vow of celibacy then?

Not yet, but I practice it.

Or try to.

I slip now and then.

Not with somebody.

Man's second-best friend.

Hawk, I'm grateful.

But I'm only staying
until I get instructions

from Father Lawrence.

Some of us will be
turning ourselves in

to call attention
to the cause.

Lawrence?

That the radical priest
who got you into this?

He's my mentor.

When I was in the Army,

I lost faith
in almost everything.

He helped me find it again.

What about the vow you took?

I honor it.

By lowering my zipper
only occasionally

and only with strangers.

That sounds so empty.

I found you a lawyer.

He's top notch.

You can't go to jail
for something like this.

I don't regret
what we've done.

It's an evil war.

I'll check in on you later.

Make yourself
at home, Father.

- Daddy, we're here.
- Hey.

What a nice surprise.

Oh!

Mommy said
you needed some company.

She did, huh?

I wondered where you were.

I had to check the plumbing
at the cabin.

Just got the main line
turned back on this morning.

Mmm. Good timing
on our part then.

Perfect.

- Where's Jackson?
- Upstairs, moping.

- Would you check on him?
- Yeah, sure.

Dinner in about an hour.

Hey, Jax.

Glad you're here, buddy.

Make sure you get
cleaned up for dinner.

♪ pensive music ♪

Well, Hawk, what you've
done with the renovation

is nothing short
of a miracle.

Well, thank you.

But I had plenty
of design help

from this young lady.

- Didn't I?
- Oh, you did.

Think it's a hidden
talent you have.

Thank you.

Oh.

Sounds like
you've got company.

Andrew's here.

Oh, yeah,
that's our contractor.

He's renovating the cabin.

Since he's giving up
his apartment,

Hawk insists on having
a lair in the woods.

What husband wouldn't?

I won't be long. Excuse me.

I'm surprised
that he finally agreed

to give up his apartment.

He seemed
quite attached to it.

It was handy,
working in town like he does.

And so late sometimes.

But he agreed.

We don't need
the extra expense.

Hey.

Your father was the same.
Away from home all hours.

Lucy.

Take comfort in the fact
that you're the one he loves

and comes home to.

And the rest is all just about
the meeting of needs.

I have no idea what you mean.

♪ pensive music ♪

So what
are we looking at?

A felony.

The destruction
of federal property.

And the government's
also pressing charges

for interference with
the Selective Service Act.

- And for kidnapping.
- What?

We didn't kidnap anyone.

You forced a clerk
to stay inside the building.

We asked her politely.

Government doesn't care
what really happened.

What they want
is to make an example

of you, Lawrence,
and the rest.

On inflated charges.

You know what they'd do
to someone like him in prison?

I do.

And it might be
for as long as 12 years.

Jesus.

Now, I could try
and negotiate a deal

for no jail time,

but you'd have
to provide the names

of all the other protesters.

What, rat out my friends?

Twelve years is a long time.

We'll circle back, Jerry.

Okay. Let me know.

We're all willing to go
to prison for our beliefs.

But I thought
a few months, a year.

You have a way out.

Jerry can arrange it.

What he can arrange
is not a way out for me.

- I'm scared.
- Hey.

Hey.

Come here.

Come here,
come here, come here.

Anyone would be scared.

You don't understand.

I'm scared
I don't have the courage

to do the right thing.

Hawk.

I missed you, Skippy.

Hawk, stop.

I keep going
back to something

Father Lawrence says
all the time.

There is no God
higher than truth.

Are you cheating
on the Bible with Gandhi?

In the past,
I held two truths.

My love for you
and my love for God.

One was real

and one was a fantasy.

♪ somber music ♪

I feel the same way
about my family.

They're my truth now.

And they're here.

Lucy brought
Kimberly and Jackson up

for the weekend.

You should go
and be with them.

Yeah.

Father,
why do I always fail?

Why do I always give in?

Why is my love for You
never enough?

Father,
why is it never enough?

It's never enough.

Forgive me, Father,
for I have sinned.

I have indulged
in impure thoughts.

I can't stop them.

Of a sexual nature?

Yes.

I'm in love with someone
I can't have.

I can't stop
thinking about him.

Am I to understand

that you have feelings
for another man?

Yes.

Are you aware that the Church
views this as a mortal sin?

I am.

But I don't know
how love can be a sin.

Bless us, O Lord,
and these Thy gifts,

which we are about to receive
from Thy bounty.

Amen.

All right.
Let's eat.

Napkins
in your lap, kids.

And no skimping
on the green beans.

They're good for you.

Can I go to the Snyders'
tomorrow night?

No, we're having a party
tomorrow night.

But it doesn't matter
if I'm here.

- Can we have fireworks?
- Of course it matters.

Susan said the oldest
Snyder boy sells drugs.

- He does not.
- We're not having fireworks.

Why do I have to be here?

It's only ever a bunch
of your snobby friends

and their stupid kids.

Don't talk
to your mother that way.

I'll check the garage.

I think I saved some
from the Fourth.

Yes.

I'm not hungry.
Can I be excused?

Not until
you finish your dinner.

And I mean all of it.

Listen to your father.
You barely ate any lunch.

Can I have
some more gravy, please?

Yes, of course.

Don't encourage him.

- Thank you.
- Jackson.

Enough!

Leave the table.

Go to your room.

Fine!

No, I said upstairs!

- This is bullshit!
- Hawk.

Let him blow off steam.

♪ somber music ♪

- Daddy!
- Okay, you gotta teach me.

- You gotta teach me.
- That's a great dance.

Look at her, Luce!

Have some patience
with your old man here.

Here we go! Yeah!

Evening, Officer.

Evening, Mr. Fuller.

Is there something
I can help you with?

Yes, we've had
some break-ins lately.

Cash and jewelry
were stolen.

Any idea who's responsible?

Probably just some kids
getting into things.

They come up from the city
looking for trouble.

Just letting you know.

- You have a good night.
- You, too, sir.

- What was all that about?
- Ah, it's nothing.

Hey, did Jackson come back?

I think so.

Hey, Jax.

Jax.

What are you doing
in our cabin?

I'm a friend
of your father's.

You must be Jackson.

Your father told me
about you and your sister.

It's Kimberly, right?

Can you please
put the gun down?

It's not loaded.

Do you want a soda?

Is this your hideout, too?

No, I only come when I know
my father's not here.

How do you know him?

I used to work
for the government.

I found myself
in a rough spot recently.

I needed a place to stay.

He didn't tell Mom about it.

My old boss treated
your grandfather badly.

Your dad didn't want
to upset her.

Do you want to put the gun
back to where it belongs?

You a writer?

And a smoker.

Are you gonna tell
my dad about that?

No.

I enjoy a smoke myself
now and then.

♪ pensive music ♪

"He takes a step
on the frozen snow,

without a trace
of the winter's glow.

The lesser of two,
with nowhere to go."

That's pretty good.

Where would you go?

Anywhere.

Like the hobos
who ride the trains.

I just want
to get away from here.

Sounds stupid, but...

No, no, it doesn't.

Sometimes it's hard
to know where we belong.

Do you write
about your family?

Can I have it back?

This yours?

Someone gave it to me.

I'm asking you
if it belongs to you.

I told you
someone gave it to me.

- I don't like being lied to.
- That's funny.

What's that supposed to mean?

You're not
to leave this house.

Do you understand?
Look at me.

And you're giving this
and whatever else you took

- to whoever it belongs to.
- I didn't--

And you're going
to apologize to them.

You've really
disappointed me, Jackson.

What else is new?

You're just getting in
at this hour?

Jackson, what is
going on with you?

Dad's got someone
staying at his cabin.

Did you know that?

Or do you not care?

It's late.
You better go to bed.

Foreign policy objective
of our next administration

will be to bring
an honorable end

to the war in Vietnam.

This time,

vote like your whole world
depended on it.

Here's our host.

Answer the door.

- What?
- Door.

Hello.

I asked you to call me.

Did you get my note?

I've been busy.

Well, I have
something for you.

This was
a birthday present, remember?

It's been hanging
in the apartment forever,

and I won't be taking it
with me to San Francisco.

San Francisco?

- What about Les Girls?
- I'm done performing.

I'm going back to school.

Music?

Social work.

Those girls
go through a lot of pain.

And where do they get help?

The gay liberation groups
laugh at them,

doctors think
they're disturbed

and want them committed.

They need someone
who understands them.

You'll be good at that.

You're tougher than most.

About some things.

Marcus.

I guess you're not
gonna invite me in.

Take care of yourself.

Marcus, I'm hungry.

Here you go, Pops.
Made it myself.

Settle down with that Cynthia,
you wouldn't have to cook.

- I don't mind.
- But I do.

You can't cook
for shit, son.

I really like that girl.

She seems to like you, too.

Eat before it gets cold.

I'm no spring chicken, Marcus.

By the time you have kids--

I won't, Pop.

I won't be having kids.

No wife, either.

I like being free.

You ever love somebody, son?

Yes.

She have a name?

Frankie.

That's a funny name
for a girl.

Yeah, it is.

- Skippy.
- I'm getting dressed.

I have good news.

Sickler got in touch
with the lawyer

for Father Lawrence.

He wants to turn himself in.

And he's willing
to let you give the FBI

his name and location
to get you your deal.

I'm not gonna do that.

Tim...

He'll have a much easier time
than you in prison.

You know what happens
to men like you in there.

You mean men like us.

For God's sake,
he's giving you an out.

Take it.

Why do you care?

About any of this.

Look, the season's ending.

We don't use
this place much in the winter.

You can stay here

while Sickler navigates
your case through the courts.

You'll have time to think.

Do whatever it is
you need to do.

Where would you be?

Here.

When I can.

If you want me to be.

You know I can't.

We don't have to do
what we used to do.

Okay.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah.

Just get away from me.

Skippy.

Hey.

There is no sin
in what you and I just did.

- It's natural.
- Just go away. Please.

Go away. Just go away.

♪ melancholy music ♪

Hey.

Could've used
your help earlier.

- Sorry. I'm here now.
- Chairs.

In all these years, I've never
intruded on you at the cabin.

I've never needed to.

As long as I knew
that family comes first.

Does it?

Always.

That's them.

I'll get that, hon.

We're here!

- Hey, there they are!
- Hey, this is great.

- Hi.
- Wow.

♪ pensive music ♪

Andrew says you let him go.

I did.

His work
has been sloppy lately,

and he's never on time.

Well, you might've
asked me first.

But that's fine.

I mean,
we'll find someone else.

- Hawk.
- Mmm.

When I was in Europe,
I had an affair.

Surely you knew
when we married

that I was not a virgin.

I hadn't
given it much thought.

Hmm.

Hmm?

All this time, I thought

that was why
our married life was...

Hey, Lucy.

I think you're the most
beautiful woman in the world.

I want a family.

Well, so do I.

Then give me a baby.

Everybody raise a glass
to the Stovers.

To Susan,
for always being the anchor

of an inspiring
and beautiful union, truly.

And to Chet,

for always knowing when to say
those three magic words.

"You're right, dear."

You've discovered the secret
to our happiness.

Aw.

- Fifteen more years.
- Hear, hear.

Jackson?

My parents
are having a party,

and I... I dropped acid.

How much did you take?

Half a tab.

And when did you take it?

A couple of hours ago.

There's so much light
around you.

Is it nice light?

Yeah.

It has a lot of colors.

Wha...

I think
we're gonna be okay.

We, uh...

We just have to wait it out.

All right.

Here we go.
Come on.

How can you not
move to that?

Judy, come on, get up.

- Okay.
- Here we go.

Come on, everybody.

Let's add some life
to this party.

♪ I wouldn't know
what it meant ♪

♪ To be loved to death ♪

♪ You made me feel
like I've never felt... ♪

There she is.

♪ You didn't have to
squeeze me but you did ♪

♪ But you did, but you did ♪

♪ And I thank you ♪

♪ You didn't have to hold me
but you did ♪

♪ But you did, but you did ♪

♪ And I thank you ♪

♪ Every day
was something new ♪

♪ You pull out your bag
and your fine to-do ♪

♪ You got me trying... ♪

- Everybody ready?
- Yes, Daddy.

Wow!

We haven't even
gotten to the good ones yet.

♪ Without your love, baby
it's a crying shame ♪

♪ And now I know what the
fellas are talking about ♪

♪ When they say that
they been turned out ♪

- ♪ I want to thank you ♪
- ♪ Thank you ♪

- ♪ Thank you ♪
- ♪ Oh, baby ♪

- ♪ Thank you, baby ♪
- ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

- ♪ Oh, baby ♪
- ♪ I gotta be thanking ♪

♪ You didn't have to
love me like you did ♪

♪ But you did, but you did ♪

♪ And I thank you ♪

♪ You didn't have to
hold me like you did ♪

♪ But you did, but you did ♪

♪ And I thank you ♪

Jackson, I'm right here.

You're safe.

I wish my dad
could be as cool as you.

Maybe your dad isn't
as bad as you think he is.

I hate him.

♪ somber music playing ♪

Jackson, sometimes we feel
like we hate someone

because we think they don't
love us when we want them to.

But maybe
your father loves you

the best way he knows how.

He lies.

And so does Mom.

We all lie sometimes.

Mostly to ourselves.

There you go.

Do you not like that?

Honey, you're drunk.

What I'd like is
for you to get some sleep.

Am I that unattractive
to you?

Don't be ridiculous.

You're a beautiful woman.

Mmm.

That's the problem,
isn't it?

- I'm sorry--
- He's here. He's asleep.

Oh, thank God.

I thought he was in his room.
I went to check and he...

He comes here
a lot, apparently.

And he came back tonight
after taking LSD.

Where the hell
would he get that?

I don't know.

Is that really
what's important?

I don't know why he does
the things he does.

Did you know he was a poet?

He's good.
He's very sensitive.

He never
talks about it.

He'll be fine by morning.

And you know this how?

I've experimented.

I seem to be always
searching for something

to lose
myself in completely.

It's like
we say in seminary,

beyond measure.

Hawk, I can't stay here.
It's not good for me.

And it's not good
for your family.

You cannot go to prison.
I won't allow it.

- Hawk--
- Do you hear me?

I won't let you be a martyr
to some cause.

You'll stay here.
We'll work this out.

I think you should
take your son home.

Hey, get up.

Hey.

Daddy's gonna
take care of you, okay?

I got you.

♪ pensive music ♪

Are you
aware the Church views this

as a mortal sin?

I am.

But I don't know
how love can be a sin.

Are you willing to give
this love to God as a gift?

I can try.

Uh, hi.

My car broke down
up the roadway.

- I was wondering if I could--
- I know who you are.

Hawk isn't here.

He drove our daughter
to her riding lesson.

May I use your phone?

It's important.

Mr. Sickler,
it's Tim Laughlin.

I don't know
what Hawk has told you,

but I want
to turn myself in.

Yes. I know what it means.

I'm prepared for that. Yes.

♪ suspenseful music ♪

The bus stop.

I'll be there.

Thank you.

You've been staying
at Hawk's cabin?

Yes.

It was wrong. I'm sorry.

You have a beautiful family.

Years ago, you wrote
my husband a letter.

You slipped it under the door
of his apartment.

Do you remember?

Yes.

I burned it.

He never saw it.

"Dear Hawk,

I went into the Army
to get away from you.

I thought time
and distance would help.

But it hasn't.

Hawk, I still love you.

But I'm hoping
to find something else.

Maybe a deeper faith someday.

Tim."

Are you the only one
who matters?

What?

Your children are here,

I'm here.

How dare you bring that man
into our lives?

Look, it doesn't
mean anything.

Don't insult my intelligence.

He's on the run
from the law.

He's not a criminal,
he's an activist.

He's wanted by the police,
and you helped him hide, Hawk!

Do you know
what you've risked?

All we've built together,
your career, my life,

our children's lives.

You married me.

If you can't give me
all your love,

give me enough respect

to keep whatever this is
out of our home.

♪ somber music ♪

Watch your head.
Let's go.

Hi.

I don't have a lot of time.
Come in.

- How's your father?
- He's hanging on.

I'll be there
as long as he needs me.

- And then?
- Go back on the road.

Chicago, Detroit,
then down South.

I wanna see if anything's
changed in this country

since Dr. King's murder.

If anything's
ever gonna change.

When do you leave
for San Francisco?

Day after tomorrow.

♪ Be sure to wear ♪

A flower in my hair.

Baby, I'm gonna be wearing
nothing but flowers.

How about a kiss goodbye?

I don't like goodbyes.

And you said goodbye
a long time ago.

How about a kiss, then?

Marcus.

Marcus, Marcus.

♪ heartfelt music playing ♪

Guess we're both growing up.

I feel like
I'm 100 years old.

Nice toss, bud.

How you feeling?

Did your friend tell you?

Yeah.

Don't do that again.

I hear you're a poet.

- He tell you that, too?
- He did.

Question is why you didn't.

You'd think it's stupid,
and it probably is.

It isn't.

I'd like to read
some of your writing.

If you'd let me.

Jackson.

Do you know
that I love you?

I do.

I love you beyond measure.

I'm not gonna tell your mom
about the acid

or the other stuff. Just...

Do better, okay?

Okay?

- Dad?
- Yeah.

I think there's
something wrong with me.

Hey.

Come here, buddy. No.

No.

There's nothing
wrong with you.

You're gonna be fine, son.

We're all gonna be fine.

♪ soul music playing ♪

♪ Take your time ♪

♪ I don't mind ♪

♪ Because I know ♪

♪ I know, I know ♪

♪ Loving grows up slow ♪

♪ Mm-hm ♪

♪ Love me easy
Love me good ♪

♪ Ah, love me ♪

♪ Love me
like I know you could ♪