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Why did you want a relationship if you were going to cheat?

-I love you. I swear! -I never want to see you again.

[Bia's mother] And how's work, honey?

-Is it enough to make ends meet? -Yeah.

[Bia] I'm going on lots of auditions.

They say I'm a perfect fit.

Don't you believe I can make it as an actress?

I think it's nice, Fausto, that you're happy with so little.

I'm much more into cuddling and reality shows.

[Bia] But other people sometimes need more.

Didn't you say something about a boyfriend?

the first of many months

What happened there?

[Bia] I don't know what happened to you, but I wanted to tell you that

I've never seen anyone wear animal print as well as you.

-Can I meet you at the park exit? -Fifteen minutes?

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Why are you cheating on me?

I'm so unhappy.

So you're the chef here?

Do you want to be the Detective?

[door unlocks]

Very minimalist style.

Yeah, I broke up with my ex.

-She took almost everything-- -I just broke up with someone too.

-Really? -Uh-huh.

When was that?

Forty minutes ago. [chuckles]

Like three minutes before I sat down at that party.

And are you okay?

I've had worse breakups.

[sighs] Worse how?

Wait. Wait, wait.

I thought we could get to know each other better first.

-[sighs] -Are you hungry?

Do you eat meat? I make a great burger.

Hold on. Have a seat. Just a second.

I'll make it real quick.

Hold on.

I know that guys who usually cook to impress others

usually make something fancier, but my burgers are super impressive.

When I was a kid, I loved fast food.

But my mom said it was bad for you.

And she would promise to make me a much better version at home.

She owned a diner before getting married.

And so, ever since, whenever I have to unwind, I try a new recipe.

The one I'm making you today is called Wisconsin.

Wisconsin.

So tell me.

-Are you in college? -I'm in high school.

Come on, dude. Don't joke about that.

I finished my first semester of psychology

but had to take a break because I couldn't afford it.

But I'm already working and saving up to go back.

-Working with what? -Thanks.

I'm a camgirl.

And I also sell some adult content on a few platforms.

Wow, that's so sexy.

And you?

I have a lamp store.

Wow, that's so sexy.

[chuckles]

Mmm.

So good!

-Do you like it? -I like it.

Nice job.

Mmm.

Do you mind if I smoke over there?

Only because you'll die early and we'll have less time together.

No worries.

All the best parts of life are fleeting, right?

Yeah.

You should smoke.

Everyone should smoke, to be honest.

Everyone is unhappy, everyone is lost.

Everyone is alone.

Smoking makes me feel less alone.

Because I curl up in my corner. I light up, I take a drag.

I think when someone has a cigarette,

they're holding up a sign that says, "Alone on purpose.

Please do not disturb."

My dad died of lung cancer.

Wow, I'm sorry. I should have thought before speaking,

-No, I'm joking, I'm joking! -I was callous, what an asshole…

I just said that to get under your skin.

I'm sorry, I was joking. [laughs]

Let's go to your room?

Look, I-I have to be honest with you.

-Huh? -I'm kind of…

my head's all messed up because of my ex.

Can I fuck your head up for good, then?

I'm in rio. I need to talk to you.

♪ I like you so much ♪

♪ I'd actually rather hide it ♪

♪ I just leave it Between the lines ♪

♪ Like an idea that exists in our minds ♪

♪ And is not at all required To come true ♪

Benefits With Friends

episode 4 nothing

[moaning, panting]

You can sleep here if you want.

I don't sleep over at anyone's house.

[Victor] This is me now.

And this was only the first lighter Paula forgot at my house.

[doorbell rings]

Today's burger is called Vancouver.

[pants]

[doorbell rings]

This one is called Missouri.

[door bell rings]

This one is called Tennessee.

Hi, Tennessee.

[Bia] This is me now.

Just one more person lined up to audition for a soap opera based on the Bible.

When suddenly, a miracle happens.

@alice_martinsss accepted your friend request

This is me now.

Stalking someone you're interested in is an art form.

And it's one of the great pleasures of modern life.

honey bear

But the bad thing about being a stalker

is learning things you wish you didn't know.

so grateful for my family

Any tips on what you're into so we can try to make things better?

You are way too nice.

Got it.

I'll watch some videos to try to be better prepared for next time.

Who said there's going to be a next time?

You always come back for the free food.

I know it. It's hard to surprise me, Victor.

Are there lots of really weird things on that site?

I'd like to see it someday.

Want to see it now?

-Here? -Yeah.

Here.

Come here.

Are you going to, like, have cybersex with them here in front of me?

Cybersex?

How old are you?

I just mean that I should know when I'm seeing someone who was born in Pangea.

Some guys just like to talk.

Just talk.

And some others ask for more.

But I also only do what I want, love.

In my chat room, my wishes are all that matters.

There.

And today I want you to perform with me.

Me?

[chuckles] Are you nuts?

Way too nice, aren't you, Victor?

[clicks tongue]

Shh!

Be quiet.

Hi.

[person 1] Hmm, I miss seeing you online.

I changed my schedule, baby.

But I miss you too.

[viewer] How do you want to play today?

However you want.

I'm yours.

[viewer] Then take it all off for me.

No.

That's way too fast. I don't like that.

Only if you send me a little gift.

[viewer] Do you have any toys there that you can use?

I'm at a boy's house today.

I don't have anything with me, but…

we can get creative.

Actually, he can join us.

Just send us another little gift and you can choose what he'll do to me.

So this is what you like, then?

[sighs]

[panting]

[moaning]

Hi.

Want to try a cream puff from that new bakery?

I'm feeling kind of sad. I was rejected at another audition.

I'm kind of busy!

can we go next week?

can you talk?

BOB BALLOON HEAD

[phone buzzing]

Hi.

No way! Did you put makeup on for a video call?

No, no. I was at an audition

and they did my makeup there.

What did you want to talk about?

I was having a bad day again.

I had two options: Find a chick to flirt with or call up the old chick.

The old chick is happy you called her.

-Want to tell me about your shitty day? -I can tell you

all about me.

But let's not do that, okay?

And I don't want to know anything about you or about your real life.

I liked pretending I was someone else with you.

Glamorizing you.

And how you saved me from my awful, boring life.

I'm never going to give it all up.

But I want to fantasize about that with you every now and then.

Does that make sense?

Look, I've deluded myself with men so often,

it's nice to delude myself with a woman too, just to shake things up a bit.

We deserved at least a goodbye.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

[laughs]

Could you write some sad stuff to cheer me up every now and then?

I like what you write in your posts, you know?

I read it and thought, "Now this one is messed up in the head.

She'll understand me."

And that's it.

I've got to get back to work.

I'm sorry for hurting you.

You also made me feel like my life was less boring.

I felt alive.

Cheers to the ones who make us feel alive despite the pain.

[chuckles]

Cheers to the ones

who make us feel alive despite the pain

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wow, bia, you should be a writer.

I would spend all day reading what you write.

@rafaban read this.

write more, bia, love your posts.

I love this so much! you are so good

"It began to bloom within me…

-[Victor] This is me now. -[Paula reading aloud]

Paula likes to read her favorite texts out loud for me.

When we talk, it's always about books, movies.

I wish she knew that no character from a book

could ever interest me as much as she does.

But she never opens up.

-At least not to me. -[laughs] …Balsa-- Balsaminaceae…"

Wow.

This much LED lighting is personally offensive.

What's your issue with LED lights?

LEDs almost made my dad go bankrupt.

Oh…

This aesthetic aberration invaded people's homes

and they started thinking it looks better than the lamps we sell.

Of course. They're cheap.

[sighs]

What's the matter?

We've been together two months and I don't know anything about you.

Open up to me.

I didn't mean "open up" in that sense.

In what sense do you mean it, then?

You know.

Hi.

Tell me you love me?

I love you.

Tell me I'm the love of your life.

You're the love of my life.

Tell me a safe word, in case I go over your limit.

No need.

Do whatever you want to me.

You won't hit my limit.

But-- Say the first thing that comes to mind.

[sighs]

Rug.

"Mom, you didn't get what I said, Mom.

I think we need to take this chance to--"

Sorry.

Uh, did you see a phone I left charging here. I think it was here?

-Uh-huh. Here it is. -Whew! I was worried.

I was worried someone might sit on top of it.

Thanks. No, it's okay.

Although I don't think it could get any worse.

I tossed this phone from the top of a Ferris wheel.

-That's fucking crazy. -[both chuckle]

No, but I get you.

My phone won't record audio messages anymore, or even make calls.

I've been auditioning for six months, man. I can't get a single part.

Welcome to life as an actress.

Are you in much of a hurry?

Because I'm so anxious and I need to go over these lines.

If you could…

I can help you, but

I don't know how much help I'll be, because I'm awful.

Any help you can give me. Thanks.

That smile is great.

That one you just gave me. For-For that line about the mom.

-Really? Okay. -Yeah.

I'll even write it down here.

I'm very detail-oriented.

I'm very, very insistent.

I rehearse in front of the mirror. I get-- Can I be that way with you too?

Please. If they cast me, I'll buy you a beer.

-Okay? -Yeah.

Let's start.

I got the part!

You are the best director!

Messages CONVERSATIONS

sorry if I did anything

where are you?

[Victor] This is me now, with no answer.

want to do anything today?

[sighs] I hate it when she disappears.

is everything okay?

[viewer, distorted] Have you ever truly liked anyone?

Have you ever been in love?

The last time I was in love, I was 17.

And he was 30.

He destroyed me.

When we met, he kept saying I was cute.

That I was too nice.

I didn't want to be cute or nice.

I felt like he was calling me small.

Saying I wasn't enough for him.

[viewer, distorted] Are you dating anyone now?

[Paula] Absolutely not.

I don't want to get involved with anyone.

One day you fall in love with someone who screws you over

and fucks you up in a way you can never ever recover from.

And then in every other relationship you ever have,

you'll spread this damn thing you've caught, because it's a virus.

And then you fuck up this other person's mind,

who will fuck up someone else's mind, who will fuck up someone else's mind.

It's an endless contagion.

And that's what we become.

A bunch of zombies devouring everything we see before us,

without thinking or feeling anything.

Thanks.

Hey there, all good?

Can I get a beer?

Are you following me?

You're the one in my neighborhood.

-Here you go. -Thanks.

Then enjoy your neighborhood.

Maybe we'll run into each other later.

-Wait, wait, wait. -Mmm.

I saw in your stories that you were here.

[scoffs]

If I didn't reply to your messages, it's because I didn't want to see you.

We are not a thing.

Paula, we've been seeing each other for a year.

Maybe we're not committed, but we're not nothing either.

We just have sex.

We're two people who meet up to have sex every now and then,

and who just happen to have been doing it for a year.

One year.

We could stop.

Want to stop?

It's not normal to glamorize you… You made me feel so much pain,

it's smart of me to remember you as amazing (so that it was worth it).

[doorbell rings]

Fifty-seven.

Fifty-seven what?

Fifty-seven unread messages.

[laughs]

Why now?

A year later?

If you want, we can keep ignoring each other's existence.

Or we can find a-a better time for you--

Bia, for God's sake, I could never pretend you don't exist.

In fact, there hasn't been a single day

since we met that I haven't thought about you.

Oh, that is so cheesy.

I doubt it.

-Really. -When do you think about me?

Whenever I see someone with sauce on their mouth, for example,

-I think of you. -Huh.

Yeah. And it just comes flooding in. During the day. At night.

Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night thinking of you.

[chuckles] Bia, you don't know how often I argued with my

shampoo bottle in the shower, reliving our last conversation.

You know what I'm saying?

Well, I hope you and your shampoo bottle had a happier ending than we did.

Excuse me, Marcelo.

Why now?

Because I

decided to write a play.

Loosely based on us.

And I'm the villain? [chuckles]

No, because I don't believe in that villain stuff.

I think that we're human.

-We make mistakes. -Listen, Bia, one of your friends told me

you nicknamed me the Mussolini of love and commitment.

So, now that's not a villain?

I wanted-- I kind of wanted to interview you.

To hear your side.

So that I wouldn't write a clichéd version of you.

Of us.

Victor, could you stop being such a child and answer me,

please, because I need your help?

It's urgent.

[chattering]

-What? -[sigh]

I'm going to the bathroom. I'll be right back.

I did you a favor, Victor.

She's a bad kisser and she ate something that tasted like shrimp.

Her mouth was so nasty.

Thanks.

I desperately need help from a responsible adult.

And you're the only one I know.

I thought we were just sex.

We can have sex while you help me.

What do you need help with?

My tax returns. [sighs]

You want to have sex while I fill out your tax returns?

Didn't you want to surprise me?

Huh?

That's a way of having sex I've never tried in my life.

What's wrong with your tax returns?

I've never filed my tax returns.

I never reported anything I got from the site, from any site, ever--

I-I didn't know I had to do that shit.

What's going to happen to me? Am I going to be arrested?

Victor?

No.

No, you won't be arrested.

One of my best friends is an accountant.

I can call her but on one condition.

-Hmm, showing your true colors. -Yeah.

-[laughing] -Only if you sleep here with me tonight.

Sleep with you tonight?

Mm-hmm.

-Okay. But no cuddling. -No.

We will cuddle, and we'll watch reality shows until we fall asleep.

I cannot believe you're making me do this.

-Yeah. That's the offer. -Mmm.

Take it or leave it. Or else you're getting audited.

[reality show contestant] Your tongue is my favorite tongue.

I-I don't care if I lose the game, as long as I kiss you.

[Paula] My God in heaven.

-Really? -[Victor laughs]

-Really. -[laughs] This is so embarrassing.

[contestant 2] I'm sorry. I can't.

-[Victor] Popcorn? -[Helena] Thanks.

Holy cow, you make that much taking naked pictures?

And video calls.

Cool.

Honey, what do you think?

Should we try it too?

We might even be able to afford that honeymoon we never went on.

Do you think the Internet would be interested in a couple of lesbos like us?

Very much. Very, very much.

-Let me see your foot. -My foot?

Your foot is gorgeous. Man, they would pay a fortune for this second toe here

-that's bigger than your big toe. -Really?

A fortune. Armpit.

Do you like your armpit?

Let me see.

-Do you like it? -Photos of armpits

are totally booming right now. It's the hottest thing.

-Honestly, people are hooked. -Just-- Really? Just your armpit?

-[Paula] Just armpits, or hands, or feet. -My armpit is kind of cool.

-[Paula] Kind of cool, is it? -It's awesome.

Two bucks.

-[Paula] You could make some money. -I like mine.

[Bia] Uh…

I'm free today for another interview for your play.

meet me in 30min

-[Bia] I have to go. -Where?

It's a-- I forgot.

I had a-- an audition.

-But I-- We'll talk later. -Okay, girl.

-Love ya. Good luck. -Love ya, love ya.

-Good luck. -Break a leg.

That's what you say, right?

-Is that what you say? -I think so.

I don't know if I reached out to you because of the play

or if I only started writing the play to have a reason to reach out to you.

I don't know if I was toxic, heartless

cruel with other people who loved me

because when you did that to me, you turned me into that type of person.

Or if I turned into that type of person so that, if we ever got together again,

things would be less unequal.

Do you know any good movies about a healthy couple?

[laughs] So…

So.

Your friends saved me, Victor.

Thanks.

Really.

Don't you want to spend the night?

I thought our deal only applied to yesterday.

Yeah, but, I don't know, I thought--

Didn't we have a great day today?

I loved our day.

[Paula sighs]

Over a year now, and you still don't feel anything for me?

I do.

I love you.

You mean that?

Of course I mean it.

Then date me.

No.

I love you, but I love my freedom more.

And who I am today.

Why haven't you ever mentioned me?

What do you mean? To whom?

MagicSex89.

SadBoyInLove.

Lazy Jack.

CuddleBone03.

LonelyAndHorny.

MonPetitLoup2023.

Over the course of this year, I created eight fake profiles

to talk to you when you disappeared and I missed you.

I changed the username, but they were all me.

I never asked you to do anything sexual, or even take off your clothes.

I-I just wanted to talk.

Just to hear your voice.

Just to hear from you.

You opened up to all of them.

You talked all about your ex who traumatized you to CuddleBone03.

You talked about the adventures you were having

with everyone you hooked up with over the course of the year,

but you never said one word about me.

It's as if I had never existed for you.

Why did you never talk about me?

Say something, Paula.

Rug.

-Come here-- -Rug.

I didn't mean to invade your privacy,

I just wanted to hear you talk about me, to know you cared about me.

-I'm sorry. -No.

I was always honest with you.

And you weren't.

I want you to unbutton your pants and take them off.

I want you to unbutton your pants

and take them off.

Don't touch me.

That's the last time in your life you will ever come inside me.

[footsteps departing]

[door opens, shuts]

[Victor] This is me now.

And this is the last lighter she ever forgot at my house.

Thanks.

[Bia] This is me now, after yet another audition

for yet another soap opera based on the Bible.

But this time the miracle is that I'm not suffering.

what about when the person in your audition panel is badly dressed?

On the contrary. I'm writing about what's happening so I can turn

all this suffering into an entertaining story I can tell.

my ex posted a story saying how he only falls in love with weirdos

Now I'm writing about everything that happens to me.

This is me now,

trying not to think about the people who will criticize everything I write.

Trying not to think that they'll call me ridiculous, call me a phony,

call me-- call me boring,

call me cheesy, spoiled, vapid, stupid, irrelevant, arrogant.

Trying to hate myself a little less.

Trying to finish it.

And not stop midway through because I think it's all shit.

This is me now.

Trying to think that I'm not terrible.

Trying to think that my ideas are good.

Trying to think that I can do this.

Trying to think of what story I can tell.

Translated by Daniel Erlich

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