Original subtitles

(gentle guitar music)

- [Shawn] Every once in a while life hits a crossroads.

You feel it coming,

that slow spiral of addiction that you choose to ignore,

or finally landing that dream job

that you're sure will turn your life around.

The thing about taking that turn though

is that you don't know what's on the other side.

What may start off as a clear path

may turn into a dead end.

But as long as you're willing to leave your past behind,

you create a future for yourself.

The thing is, not everything in my past

is something I want to leave behind.

(upbeat music)

- He's gonna expect you in here by nine o'clock every night.

You're not gonna roll out 'til four,

so, that's the way it goes.

- Is the money good at least?

- That depends on who comes in,

and what you do with them.

(Shawn deeply inhales)

Yo Ricky, you're late.

Big Daddy's looking for you, and you,

you better go with him. - Okay.

Shawn.

- Ricky.

Listen, I'm already late, come on.

(crowd chattering) (upbeat music)

(door knocking)

- [Bid Daddy] God damnit, what?

This better be important.

- Oh shit!

(Ricky laughs) - Oh shit, god damn pop ups.

Ricky, late again.

- (laughs) Sorry Daddy, class let us out late.

- I see you met Shawn.

He's new, I want you to show him around the place.

Well, go!

- Sorry.

(door clicks)

Okay, so you're new.

- Ah, not really new.

I mean, here yeah, but not really new.

- Okay, well I don't have time to go through everything.

It's almost busy time.

If you need anything just find me.

- Ah, where can I get changed?

- Right, we really don't have a dressing room,

we just kinda find a place anywhere

and just sorta ham it.

Put our bad faces on, get ready, take...

- Oh, so sorry, I thought this was okay.

- Oh, no, no, no, yeah it is.

I was just gonna say if you need a little bit more privacy

you could use the bathroom

or one of the empty private rooms.

- Changing in front of men doesn't really bother me.

Prison will do that to you.

- Oh okay.

- Aren't you gonna get changed?

- Ah, yeah, I just need to go do something first.

I'll see you later.

(upbeat music) (people chattering)

- Here you are.

When did you start changing in the bathroom?

- I was... - Nevermind.

Look, stop playin' with yourself and get the fuck out there.

The new kid's already started.

(upbeat electronic music)

(crowd chattering)

(upbeat electronic music)

- Ow!

- What did I just Fuckin' say?

Get to work, Jesus!

(upbeat electronic music)

- Thanks man.

- Hey, Shawn right?

- Yeah.

- You were great.

You've done this before.

- Like I said, not really new.

- Dance for your prison daddy?

- No.

Whenever I'm strapped for cash this is what I do.

I'm straight actually.

That's my daughter, Emma.

- She's beautiful.

- Yeah.

- So, what?

You entertain gay men for a little pocket money?

- Now I'm, I'm just tryna' get my life together, you know?

Her mother wants nothing to do with me,

and I'm just tryna' save up some money

and change her mind.

This is the only job I could find.

- That's very sweet.

Can I get the father of the year a shot?

- Sure.

(train rumbling)

(upbeat electronic music)

(Shawn laughs)

- Could you wear anything gayer?

(elastic snaps) - Ow!

Hey, honey I know what men like.

And this is it.

- Well it's definitely a somethin'.

Time to fluff, right?

- Yeah.

(phone vibrates)

- Becca hey.

No Becca,

no, Becca come on!

Becca you promised me.

I don't care what your mother thinks.

(upbeat electronic music)

- That's not like you.

- Beer keeps me sober.

- What's the matter?

- Becca, she doesn't want Emma growing up

around that criminal environment.

- But you're not a criminal.

- The law says differently.

- She can't do that.

I mean unless she has a court order saying so.

She can't stop you.

- It's not that easy.

You know, it's...

- Well, she's a bitch.

(Shawn laughs)

- Yes.

(Ricky laughs)

- Look, you just keep doing good, you hear?

- You're right, you're right.

(upbeat electronic music)

(crowd chattering)

(upbeat electronic music)

Hey, everything okay?

- Apparently we were a hit with the audience so,

- Yeah? - One patron in particular.

- Who?

- Ah, Mr. Ruxton.

I think you know who he is.

- Heh, I'm familiar with him.

- Well he has a proposition

and he's gonna pay big for it.

- Well good for you.

- No, it's gonna be big for us both.

Wants us to do it with each other.

- Really?

- Yeah.

- I mean, I'm okay with it,

but I mean, are you okay with that?

- I don't know.

I mean, Becca's finally letting me be a part of Emma's life.

I need to the money, but are you cool with it?

- I am okay with it, I just wanted, as long as you're okay...

- Great, hang on a sec.

I knew I could count on you man, thanks.

(upbeat electronic music)

♪ What you're saying ♪

♪ Or just lookin' baby ♪

♪ Swaying ♪

♪ You should do that ♪

♪ Beg for me ♪

♪ I've been watching ♪

♪ You and me all night ♪

♪ Won't you stand there ♪

♪ Say what's on your ♪

♪ Mind if I break the first play of the game ♪

♪ Kick us around but you're eyeing for flav ♪

♪ If I'm here to fear outcome this you will lose ♪

♪ Impatiently waiting here just for you ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

♪ No need to fear the outcome ♪

- [Shawn] Do you trust me?

- Yes.

(moaning)

You're a good fit.

(moaning)

♪ You say I lost it, you say I lost it all ♪

♪ You say I lost it ♪

- Special occasion?

- You could say that.

(glasses clink)

Listen, about last night.

I don't... - You don't need to say it.

- No, no, it's just,

I have a daughter, I'm a mess.

It isn't fair to you.

- I don't care.

- Come home with me.

♪ A place for me to hide ♪

♪ Thoughts up in my head ♪

♪ And these thoughts all in my mind ♪

♪ I'm losing track of time ♪

♪ Will I see you tonight ♪

♪ I know we crossed the line ♪

- I'm sorry.

It will never happen again.

Yeah, yeah, I'll talk to you soon, yeah.

I love you too, bye.

- Morning.

- Hey.

- Who, who was that?

- That was Rebecca.

She says that I get to see Emma next weekend.

Hey I haven't seen her since she was a baby.

God I'm getting kinda nervous.

What if she doesn't like me?

- Don't be stupid.

She'll love you.

- Would you come with me?

I really want you to meet her.

- I, I, I shouldn't, I would just get in the way...

- No, no you won't, I promise.

I really want you to meet her.

- Next time I'll go, I promise.

But you need to spend time together.

You and her.

- I love you.

You are important to me.

I hope that you know that.

(lips smacking)

(gentle music)

- I love you too.

(lips smacking) (heavy breathing)

(bright upbeat music)

- Rar!

- What the fuck?

- You should have been there Ricky.

Oh she was beautiful.

She was just more beautiful than I actually remember.

- You saw Emma today, how'd it go?

- She's so smart, and she's quick, and she's loud.

(laughing) She gets that from her mother.

She has this mean streak that she kinda gets from me but.

(Ricky laughs)

(lips smacking)

- Mmm, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop.

- It's just been great, this whole week.

You've been great.

(lips smacking)

- Don't get sappy with me.

We gotta get to work.

- Yes sir!

(laughing)

(upbeat electronic music)

- Ma'am?

Are you lost?

- No, I'm looking for Shawn.

His roommate says he works here.

- Yeah, you should find him downstairs.

(upbeat electronic music)

(lips smacking)

- Shawn?

What the fuck?

- Becca!

Becca!

Stop. - Fuck you Shawn!

- It's not what you think.

- What am I thinking Shawn?

What the fuck is going through my head?

(heavy breathing)

You know, when I came here tonight

I was gonna give you a second chance.

A chance for you and me and Emma to be a family.

And then I see you with him.

- We can still have that.

I want that.

He doesn't mean anything... - I don't fucking care!

I don't know you anymore Shawn

and I don't want Emma to be around that.

It's better that she doesn't have a dad

than has one who's a, who's a fucking faggot!

Ugh! - No, Becca, Becca...

- Don't touch me!

- You can't take away my daughter.

- Don't fucking call me,

and don't come around or I'll call your fucking PO.

- Becca, Becca!

Fuck!

Ricky.

- It's okay, (sobbing) I don't mean anything remember?

(slow tense music)

- Fuck!

(slow tense music)

(crowd chattering)

(slow tense music)

- Your friend Shawn, he hasn't shown up for a week,

where the hell is he?

- If I knew I'd tell you, Daddy.

- Well if he misses one more day he's outta' here.

Fuckin' kids.

(upbeat electronic music)

(Shawn retching)

- [Ricky] Are you sure about this?

- You said it yourself,

Daddy said if I miss another shift then I'm done.

- You're piss drunk and you can't even walk a straight line.

- Well it's a good thing that all I have to do is dance.

(Shawn sniffs)

(Shawn coughs)

(upbeat electronic music) (crowd chattering)

- Shawn you're looking really good all right.

- Yeah I know, you're looking Fuckin' good too.

- [Mr. Ruxton] My little bitch.

- What, what did you say?

- I said you're my little bitch.

- What did you call me?

- My little bitch.

- What did you call me?

- Get the fuck off of me! - Stop, Shawn, Shawn come here

Shawn stop it!

- What the hell is goin' on here?

- This little faggot went nuts on me.

What kind of place are you running here?

- Call me a faggot one more time!

- Look you!

Get the fuck outta' here!

I do not wanna see you around here again!

- Fucked if I care!

- I want him arrested.

- Oh suck it up, he didn't even lay a scratch on you.

- Look I've had it Ricky, your friend's outta' here.

- Oh yeah?

Well so am I.

- Ah.

Fine!

I'm tired of both your asses!

Get the fuck outta' my bar!

- I'm leavin'. - No, no.

They're gone, they're gone.

(heavy breathing) (sobbing)

- Hon.

Let's get our clothes on and let's go.

(Shawn sobbing)

(upbeat electronic music)

You need to eat, you'll feel better.

Now tell me what happened.

- Emma's gone.

Becca took her and she's gone.

I don't know where she is.

She won't answer my phone call...

- We'll find her.

You and I will find her, I promise.

- It's too late.

She said she's never gonna let me see Emma again.

- I'm here.

Look we'll figure something out.

I'm not gonna let you give up on this.

- I'm just too, I'm just trouble to have around.

- I need you here with me...

- I'm too much of a hassle Ricky!

I'm so exhausted Ricky.

- Well let's get you home.

(patrons chattering)

(gentle guitar music)

♪ Write me a letter to persuade me to care ♪

- You know, I really thought I could do it.

You know, turn my life around.

All I wanted to do was be a good dad for Emma.

Fuckin' stupid.

- It's not stupid.

You can't keep blaming yourself, it's not your fault.

- Yes it is!

This is my life.

I'm always messing everything up.

- You're not a mess.

We can fix this.

We can do this.

(gentle music)

- You don't deserve this.

Hey.

Go and get your job back, okay?

(Ricky sighs)

I'll be fine.

It'll be okay.

- I'm gonna go and get our jobs back.

Everything will be fine.

It's gonna be great!

You'll see.

(lips smack)

- Go.

Hey.

I love you.

- I love you too.

(gentle music)

(train rumbling)

- [Shawn] Prison will do that to you.

Beer keeps me sober.

Do you trust me?

I love you.

He doesn't mean anything.

- [Ricky] I don't mean anything remember?

- [Shawn] I'm too much of a hassle for you.

I'm always messing everything up.

You don't deserve this.

It'll be okay.

(gentle music)

- [Ricky] I love you.

(gentle music)

(gentle piano music)