1 00:00:12,680 --> 00:00:15,120 It was a good tree. 2 00:00:16,160 --> 00:00:17,920 It flows well here. 3 00:00:20,760 --> 00:00:24,720 Oh, that was good! This is a good tree! 4 00:00:30,520 --> 00:00:32,680 OK, I'm ready now. 5 00:00:37,440 --> 00:00:41,760 - Mom, I found a little poo! -Oh? 6 00:00:41,880 --> 00:00:47,320 This is my place! Here there are lots of big... 7 00:00:47,440 --> 00:00:51,800 Give the tree a treat, then, Falk! Should the tree get a treat? 8 00:00:51,920 --> 00:00:55,320 -Okay, then. -Oh... 9 00:01:03,080 --> 00:01:06,840 Stop there, stop. Don't go. Just have to film him a bit. 10 00:01:09,560 --> 00:01:11,480 It's so nice. 11 00:01:25,920 --> 00:01:28,880 Mother of four. 12 00:01:29,000 --> 00:01:31,120 Photographer. 13 00:01:31,240 --> 00:01:34,280 And very fond of nature. 14 00:01:36,680 --> 00:01:40,520 I am someone who tries to understand how everything is connected. 15 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:44,320 Through words and images. 16 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:04,400 I live on a farm outside Kongsberg with my husband Nik and my children. 17 00:02:04,520 --> 00:02:08,320 One that is mine from before, and three that are ours. 18 00:02:09,120 --> 00:02:10,760 Ronja. 19 00:02:12,120 --> 00:02:14,160 Freya. 20 00:02:15,800 --> 00:02:19,360 Falcon and Wolf. 21 00:02:19,480 --> 00:02:22,200 Plus a bunch of animals. 22 00:02:24,480 --> 00:02:27,080 As long as the seasons permit, we grow our own food. 23 00:02:27,200 --> 00:02:30,920 We spend as much time as we can in nature. 24 00:02:32,960 --> 00:02:37,120 And our three youngest children will be homeschooled. 25 00:02:39,720 --> 00:02:43,880 The decision not to take part in the rat race means less luxury, - 26 00:02:44,000 --> 00:02:47,920 - but it's so liberating. 27 00:02:51,880 --> 00:02:54,040 We control our own lives. 28 00:02:57,320 --> 00:03:05,240 We want to be independent. Free and filled with love. 29 00:04:36,280 --> 00:04:39,760 Do you think we damage them when we pick them? 30 00:04:42,120 --> 00:04:44,240 I don't know. 31 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:47,600 -How many do you have there? -86, I think. 32 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:51,080 86? Then you beat me, I'm only 72. 33 00:05:01,880 --> 00:05:06,680 I will give half to my mother and put half on the table. 34 00:05:22,320 --> 00:05:25,040 I miss the smell. 35 00:05:25,160 --> 00:05:29,680 I have a sweater to smell, but it's not that fresh. 36 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:35,280 She smells good. And nice and safe. 37 00:06:14,480 --> 00:06:20,800 What I was most afraid of was that dad would never be happy again. 38 00:06:23,600 --> 00:06:27,400 I understand that it is very hard for him. 39 00:06:27,520 --> 00:06:30,960 So that's why I have to take care of him. 40 00:06:34,200 --> 00:06:38,280 Shall we collect pine cones and make a cone heart? 41 00:06:40,280 --> 00:06:42,800 I'll add a couple more here. 42 00:06:58,120 --> 00:07:04,640 I will try my best, because I know Maria would have wanted that. 43 00:07:06,880 --> 00:07:14,200 Trying to combine homeschooling with growing our own food - 44 00:07:14,320 --> 00:07:17,800 - and harm the planet as little as possible. 45 00:07:21,960 --> 00:07:30,000 Teaching children to respect the planet, love it and love nature. 46 00:07:36,200 --> 00:07:41,440 - I want to lift up that bark. - No, Falk, it's the home of the insects. 47 00:07:42,280 --> 00:07:45,640 And they are food for woodpeckers. 48 00:07:53,160 --> 00:07:56,520 But it is much more difficult alone. 49 00:08:05,440 --> 00:08:10,600 Happy birthday, mom. Love you with all my heart. 50 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:12,960 You are the best mom in the world. 51 00:08:13,080 --> 00:08:18,400 Love you from the moon down a hundred thousand, times a thousand times more. 52 00:08:18,520 --> 00:08:22,800 Kisses from Freya. Love you. 53 00:08:25,720 --> 00:08:28,960 Love you, mom. 54 00:08:30,040 --> 00:08:37,440 Congratulations on the day. From Falk. 55 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:45,640 - I'm so happy for you, dad. - I'm happy for you too. 56 00:08:54,560 --> 00:08:56,640 Now the sun disappears. 57 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:00,680 - The sun is going down, Falk! -Hurry up! 58 00:09:00,800 --> 00:09:04,200 -Do you want to see the sun go down? -Yes! 59 00:09:06,960 --> 00:09:09,520 -Mom, look! -Yes! 60 00:09:17,200 --> 00:09:23,640 It was bedtime and we were lying in the dark, curled up next to each other. 61 00:09:23,760 --> 00:09:28,400 Then I sang her a little song and she closed her eyes. 62 00:09:28,520 --> 00:09:35,080 And just when I thought she was asleep, she said, "Does the octopus have a tail?" 63 00:09:35,200 --> 00:09:37,520 "What is the sun?" 64 00:09:37,640 --> 00:09:40,040 "Where do the clouds go?" 65 00:09:40,160 --> 00:09:42,280 "What do frogs eat?" 66 00:09:43,920 --> 00:09:47,880 I answered as best I could, and then she fell asleep. 67 00:09:51,320 --> 00:09:54,160 Beautiful, my little girl. 68 00:09:54,280 --> 00:09:57,200 I wish I could join you in dreamland. 69 00:10:00,160 --> 00:10:02,280 - Happy for you. - Happy for you too. 70 00:10:02,400 --> 00:10:04,600 What I'm wondering is... 71 00:10:05,800 --> 00:10:09,960 Maybe there is another me who says the same thing at the same time? 72 00:10:10,080 --> 00:10:12,680 There are good chances of that. 73 00:10:12,800 --> 00:10:16,120 If the universe is infinite, then… 74 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:20,920 What planet could we have lived on, if we could not live on earth anymore? 75 00:10:21,040 --> 00:10:25,760 I don't know, they haven't found any. But it is still early. 76 00:10:25,880 --> 00:10:28,800 We have billions of years to find a new planet, - 77 00:10:28,920 --> 00:10:31,600 - if we don't destroy this one before then. 78 00:10:32,960 --> 00:10:36,400 - I'm scared, dad. -Don't be afraid. 79 00:10:39,280 --> 00:10:43,280 -Daddy, I love you so much. - I'm happy for you too. 80 00:10:43,400 --> 00:10:45,640 Night! 81 00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:20,480 -Prison. -Prison? 82 00:11:21,240 --> 00:11:24,280 Yes, you are guilty of being a child, Freja. 83 00:11:26,280 --> 00:11:33,560 -But haven't you been a child? - I was in "prison" for twelve years. 84 00:11:33,680 --> 00:11:35,360 - There's the water! -Listen here! 85 00:11:35,480 --> 00:11:38,000 Don't fall into the water this time. 86 00:11:38,120 --> 00:11:41,880 - It will be a good adventure then. -Do you hear me, Wolf? 87 00:11:58,120 --> 00:12:01,440 - Watch out! - Watch out! 88 00:12:06,200 --> 00:12:08,960 The other hand. 89 00:12:12,320 --> 00:12:14,480 - The job is done, Wolf. - My turn! 90 00:12:18,040 --> 00:12:20,480 -Who's ready for food? - I'm ready! 91 00:12:24,520 --> 00:12:28,760 - This is life. - That's it, buddy. 92 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:36,520 Why do we live differently and not go to school like other children? 93 00:12:39,440 --> 00:12:41,560 Well... 94 00:12:41,680 --> 00:12:48,880 Mom and I made a choice many years ago when you were little. 95 00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:52,600 - Shall I put some wood on the fire? - Of course. 96 00:12:54,200 --> 00:12:58,440 Before Falk was born, we decided that we wanted more time with you, - 97 00:12:58,560 --> 00:13:03,960 - not just mornings, evenings and weekends. 98 00:13:04,080 --> 00:13:07,280 Do not send yourselves to kindergarten or school. 99 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:11,720 So we made that choice and adapted our lives to it. 100 00:13:11,840 --> 00:13:18,440 So we can have days like this, where we work together out in nature. 101 00:13:19,800 --> 00:13:22,640 Don't you think mom would have loved this? 102 00:13:22,760 --> 00:13:25,680 - Yeah. -A day like this. 103 00:13:42,520 --> 00:13:45,320 This is a very blunt axe, Wolf. 104 00:14:07,720 --> 00:14:13,280 Let's read the last thing you wrote. Read from here. 105 00:14:15,200 --> 00:14:21,000 -At first they just ate...? - Algae. 106 00:14:25,440 --> 00:14:31,240 Of course I'm unsure. Am I driving and ruining the children's lives here? 107 00:14:31,360 --> 00:14:37,200 Am I doing something horrible, something that both I and they will blame me for? 108 00:14:37,320 --> 00:14:39,440 The panic is there from time to time. 109 00:14:44,560 --> 00:14:51,320 Maria and I always talked about it when we were in doubt. Is this correct? 110 00:14:51,440 --> 00:14:57,560 We were alone in this, it was just Maria and me. 111 00:14:59,160 --> 00:15:01,040 - Nick. -What? 112 00:15:01,160 --> 00:15:06,200 Where are we now? Where are we going and what have we done? 113 00:15:06,320 --> 00:15:09,680 I don't know where we are, we're sitting in line. 114 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:12,400 -But where...? - Lofoten. 115 00:15:12,520 --> 00:15:16,120 Yes, and what happened in Lofoten? 116 00:15:18,440 --> 00:15:23,000 We got engaged. 117 00:15:27,560 --> 00:15:32,080 When I met my husband, I knew right away that I had met - 118 00:15:32,200 --> 00:15:38,440 - someone who was free and confident enough in himself to join me on a different path. 119 00:15:38,560 --> 00:15:43,680 Independent and strong enough to stand for his choices. 120 00:15:45,400 --> 00:15:48,600 Strong enough not to care what others think. 121 00:15:51,840 --> 00:15:57,480 So we bought the farm, which required an enormous amount of work. 122 00:15:59,520 --> 00:16:03,080 We restored the house, cleared the forest, bought animals. 123 00:16:03,200 --> 00:16:08,080 And soon after, the farm was filled with life again. 124 00:16:10,600 --> 00:16:12,800 There comes the poo. 125 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:19,640 But when you choose a life that is so dependent on yourself,- 126 00:16:19,760 --> 00:16:22,240 - is quite vulnerable. 127 00:16:30,240 --> 00:16:37,040 Before, we survived mainly on what Maria earned as a photographer. 128 00:16:39,360 --> 00:16:41,280 Men ... 129 00:16:43,160 --> 00:16:45,520 I have to sell the farm. 130 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:51,760 I don't earn enough to pay off the loan alone. 131 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:58,880 It will be strange to travel from all the memories here. 132 00:17:37,560 --> 00:17:42,000 Congratulations on the day! 133 00:17:42,120 --> 00:17:46,120 Congratulations on the day! 134 00:17:46,240 --> 00:17:50,720 Congratulations, dear Freja! 135 00:17:50,840 --> 00:17:55,520 Congratulations on the day! 136 00:17:56,720 --> 00:17:58,560 Good job, Wolf. 137 00:17:59,640 --> 00:18:01,280 Ten years old. 138 00:18:08,600 --> 00:18:11,480 Who is this from? 139 00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:13,760 From me. 140 00:18:24,880 --> 00:18:27,080 Daddy, I love you. 141 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:30,200 - Do you know what it says? - Freya. 142 00:18:30,320 --> 00:18:33,680 -"Freja" in Norse runic script. - Freya Payne. 143 00:18:33,800 --> 00:18:36,840 - It means joy? - That's right. 144 00:18:36,960 --> 00:18:42,040 -Dad, thank you very much. - Be nice, glad you liked it. 145 00:18:43,080 --> 00:18:45,520 The best birthday in the world. 146 00:19:04,240 --> 00:19:07,760 Dad looks very… 147 00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:11,760 -Looking happy? - You too. 148 00:19:15,040 --> 00:19:20,120 The only people missing now are Ronja and mum. 149 00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:24,320 I miss Ronja. 150 00:19:27,920 --> 00:19:32,600 I think we should see each other a little more often. 151 00:19:44,600 --> 00:19:49,760 "Dear Ronja. Congratulations a hundred million times over. Now you are twelve years old." 152 00:19:49,880 --> 00:19:52,920 "You're cool and smart and funny and we love you." 153 00:19:53,040 --> 00:19:56,800 "Whispers and hugs from mom, Freja, Falk and Wolf." 154 00:20:01,760 --> 00:20:04,400 I miss my siblings. 155 00:20:04,520 --> 00:20:09,400 It was my mother who held us together. 156 00:20:11,520 --> 00:20:16,240 She was sort of the center point. 157 00:20:16,360 --> 00:20:20,480 Then we were all around and clinging to her. 158 00:20:25,720 --> 00:20:30,600 After my mother died, I moved in with my father. 159 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:35,200 It didn't feel natural to me to live on the farm without her. 160 00:20:38,960 --> 00:20:45,080 And ... I felt very alone. 161 00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:47,360 Even though I had a dad. 162 00:20:52,480 --> 00:20:57,120 I haven't talked to my siblings about my mom since she died. 163 00:20:57,240 --> 00:21:02,120 It hurt so bad I couldn't process it at all. 164 00:21:03,720 --> 00:21:05,800 I really want to talk to them. 165 00:21:05,920 --> 00:21:09,840 They are the only ones who actually understand how I feel. 166 00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:13,240 But... I don't know what to say. 167 00:21:23,120 --> 00:21:24,760 Hey. 168 00:21:27,520 --> 00:21:30,200 - The feet! -"Goodbye, feet"! 169 00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:35,200 It's you in the stomach. And it's mommy's feet. 170 00:21:35,320 --> 00:21:40,760 As you get bigger, she can't see her feet. 171 00:21:40,880 --> 00:21:44,240 It will be sad to leave all these nice places. 172 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:51,680 - What will be the worst for you, Falk? - I've lived here all my life, dad. 173 00:21:53,120 --> 00:21:55,280 What's gonna happen, dad? 174 00:21:55,400 --> 00:22:01,320 I'm going to go cut onions. 175 00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:07,320 - But what will happen? Do we have to move? - Yes, we have to move. 176 00:22:07,440 --> 00:22:09,640 How? 177 00:22:09,760 --> 00:22:13,200 We are going to sell the farm, Freja. 178 00:22:29,080 --> 00:22:32,040 It is very sad that we will not be staying here anymore. 179 00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:36,960 And then we have lived here with my mother almost my whole life. 180 00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:42,200 But she just stays with us, she. 181 00:22:45,600 --> 00:22:49,560 -Are you doing well? -Yes. 182 00:23:17,200 --> 00:23:19,160 Are you doing well? 183 00:23:20,480 --> 00:23:22,200 Mhm. 184 00:23:36,240 --> 00:23:39,480 I love this place. 185 00:24:01,640 --> 00:24:04,440 -Can we keep it if it's dead? - It isn't. 186 00:24:04,560 --> 00:24:06,720 -Yes, if it's not a dead beetle... -Look... 187 00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:12,840 -"Ew! I don't like coffee breath!" - Tick it. 188 00:24:12,960 --> 00:24:15,960 You are right, it is alive! 189 00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:19,680 It sure tickled! "Tick me!" 190 00:24:27,640 --> 00:24:30,040 Hello, hello. My name is Nik. 191 00:24:30,160 --> 00:24:33,480 - Eivind. Are you the one who lives here? -Yes. 192 00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:37,560 - Here it was quiet, peaceful and nice. -Yes. 193 00:24:37,680 --> 00:24:42,360 It was time to move out of town, we realized. 194 00:24:42,480 --> 00:24:45,680 -Too many people. -Yes, right? 195 00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:51,880 Hello. My name is Nik. I'm the one who has to sell. 196 00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:55,400 The neighbor said you lost your wife. 197 00:24:55,520 --> 00:25:01,200 It was sad to hear that it was a bad situation. 198 00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:09,720 This farm has it all. 199 00:25:12,160 --> 00:25:14,320 Yes, it has. 200 00:25:15,720 --> 00:25:18,280 But no cuddly whales. 201 00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:23,760 I can't wait until the screening is over. 202 00:25:32,920 --> 00:25:35,400 I don't want to move. 203 00:25:37,640 --> 00:25:43,080 I just hope whoever buys the place really loves it. And... 204 00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:45,160 Feel at home and... 205 00:25:45,280 --> 00:25:48,280 -Using the vegetable gardens. -And pays well. 206 00:25:49,240 --> 00:25:52,800 Well, that's important too, Freja. 207 00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:56,760 Seriously, Falk. End. 208 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:08,520 Oh, Freya! I got broken glass! 209 00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:10,560 You can't. 210 00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:17,160 - No, no! -Dad? 211 00:26:17,280 --> 00:26:21,680 The boys jump on my bed while I try to sort my clothes. 212 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:23,560 They are so damn annoying. 213 00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:26,680 -Guys, stop it. -What is it? 214 00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:30,680 -Freja tries to pack her clothes. -And it's not their bed. 215 00:26:38,320 --> 00:26:42,560 - Do you think we'll have room for this, dad? -Yes. 216 00:26:42,680 --> 00:26:44,840 A picture of your chair. 217 00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:51,840 Ronja wore this to mum and dad's wedding. 218 00:26:56,320 --> 00:27:00,200 How do you usually pack such a ...? 219 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:04,960 Along with the other things? 220 00:27:06,520 --> 00:27:10,480 I miss having other girls around me. 221 00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:16,080 I hope that Ronja will come and visit us. 222 00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:25,960 You have missed your siblings very much. 223 00:27:26,080 --> 00:27:28,720 And. 224 00:27:28,840 --> 00:27:35,280 We have already talked about whether you and Freja could have talked more about mum. 225 00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:37,480 Because it is very difficult? 226 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:43,520 Yes, but it's like... I'm the one who has to take the initiative. 227 00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:47,040 - And I can't bear that. -No. 228 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:51,480 I'm so afraid of saying the wrong thing. 229 00:27:51,600 --> 00:27:56,160 Because I can't be the adult person in that situation. 230 00:27:56,280 --> 00:28:00,280 Because I... It's way too much for me. 231 00:28:00,400 --> 00:28:02,720 Yes, I understand. 232 00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:10,320 But I think that you are not the adult in that particular situation. 233 00:28:10,440 --> 00:28:13,720 You are a mother's daughter, just like Freja. 234 00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:15,640 And. 235 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:26,200 OCTOBER 22: UNKNOWN LANDSCAPE. 236 00:28:59,000 --> 00:29:00,880 JULY 10: MY GIRLS. 237 00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:05,400 When Freja was born, I was of course happy to have a little sister. 238 00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:09,400 The first thing I did when she got home was hide under the barn. 239 00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:12,640 Because now no one wanted me. 240 00:29:16,320 --> 00:29:19,760 I found it very difficult to share my mother. 241 00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:24,840 - What has happened lately? - Don't know. 242 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:28,920 Has something special happened in your family? 243 00:29:29,040 --> 00:29:32,320 -I don't know... Yes? - What then? 244 00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:36,600 - A baby has arrived. -Has a baby just arrived? 245 00:29:38,800 --> 00:29:41,200 I became very jealous. 246 00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:48,240 I wasn't Nik's daughter, I was his mother. 247 00:29:49,360 --> 00:29:52,400 I was just there and took up space. 248 00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:57,680 Maybe I wasn't as good at those things as Freja was. 249 00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:02,800 She was just naturally the perfect child for them. 250 00:30:03,960 --> 00:30:07,400 It must have been difficult for Freja, she has been so fond of me. 251 00:30:07,520 --> 00:30:09,520 And then I pushed her away. 252 00:30:16,040 --> 00:30:17,640 Hey! 253 00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:21,400 Do you climb the tree? 254 00:30:21,520 --> 00:30:23,600 - Hello, Ronja! -Hello! 255 00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:29,400 -Hey, Freya! -Hello! 256 00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:35,080 - Do you pick currants? -Yes. 257 00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:37,200 So cozy! 258 00:30:37,320 --> 00:30:41,160 - You can help if you want. -Yes. 259 00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:56,680 - Have you thought anything more about school, then? -No. 260 00:30:56,800 --> 00:30:59,880 -You don't want to start school? - No, absolutely not. 261 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,280 Homeschooling is much better. 262 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,040 And ... 263 00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:14,240 It will probably be very nice to live at Bø, then. 264 00:31:14,360 --> 00:31:17,920 It was the stupid bank's fault that we had to leave. 265 00:31:18,040 --> 00:31:19,840 And. 266 00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:23,440 They said we couldn't be here anymore, because they thought - 267 00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:26,400 - that dad couldn't pay for it alone. 268 00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:29,400 And he can't do that. 269 00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:33,280 It only costs 600,000 on Bø. 270 00:31:34,240 --> 00:31:37,120 -600,000? -Yes. 271 00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:39,280 Only 6000. 272 00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:42,680 - Is it only 6000? -In the month, yes. 273 00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:45,160 -Oh, OK. - Not 600,000. 274 00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:50,200 Yes, that would have been a bit much. 275 00:31:59,240 --> 00:32:02,760 Shall we start at the top and work our way down? 276 00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:45,040 Ronja, can you stand something like... 277 00:32:45,160 --> 00:32:48,880 -Are you gluten intolerant? -Yes. 278 00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:51,160 -Milk? -No. 279 00:32:52,400 --> 00:32:58,440 You can come and eat pizza with us, if you want? 280 00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:03,360 Maybe it? We'll see what happens. 281 00:33:05,520 --> 00:33:10,120 -You haven't forgotten the taste of "Daddyosa"? -No. 282 00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:14,880 Wolf! We're leaving now, mate. 283 00:33:38,080 --> 00:33:41,160 We'll be back for vegetables and stuff, - 284 00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:46,320 - but this is goodbye, folks. 285 00:34:14,160 --> 00:34:18,240 - Is that the little house? - Yes, the small one on the right. 286 00:34:18,360 --> 00:34:22,160 - Our house. - I can see it. 287 00:34:50,480 --> 00:34:55,240 - We are grateful for the food. -And for the visit. 288 00:34:55,360 --> 00:35:00,280 We are happy to have Ronja visiting. And that we have each other. 289 00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:05,920 And we send love, out through each other, to the entire universe. 290 00:35:06,040 --> 00:35:08,560 And to mom. Hey, concentrate. 291 00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:12,560 -Yes. Amen. -Amen. 292 00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:53,640 Am I allowed to watch? 293 00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:58,160 From a distance. From here. 294 00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:06,200 Now it's happening! 295 00:36:28,720 --> 00:36:30,760 OK, that was really scary. 296 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:37,720 Poor thing, now he's bleeding to death. 297 00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:42,520 -Oh, it kicks! - Yes, it's the nerves. He is dead. 298 00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:46,160 -He's kicking! -He was dead as soon as it narrowed. 299 00:37:00,280 --> 00:37:06,440 Slightly thicker skin than on the small lambs. 300 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:11,000 This is food for a year! 301 00:37:11,120 --> 00:37:14,480 It is food for a long time for many. 302 00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:19,240 We kill a lot of animals, don't we? We will kill many bulls. 303 00:37:19,360 --> 00:37:23,960 Next year, yes. But we don't kill more than we have to. 304 00:37:24,840 --> 00:37:31,920 But when we've eaten the bull, it's not alive, is it? 305 00:37:32,720 --> 00:37:36,760 No, it hasn't been alive for a while now. 306 00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:39,480 Shall we get a wheelbarrow? 307 00:37:39,600 --> 00:37:44,160 Wolf, I think we need the big one. Can you pull away? 308 00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:48,640 -Wolf! - Shall we take the big one? It's a big bull. 309 00:37:49,600 --> 00:37:52,800 - Now it's coming! -Oi! Look there! 310 00:37:52,920 --> 00:37:56,720 It explodes! Come on, back! 311 00:37:56,840 --> 00:37:59,120 Then I don't want to watch. 312 00:37:59,240 --> 00:38:03,200 It stinks. I'm leaving now, before I get sick. 313 00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:07,720 We thank you for this bull. 314 00:38:07,840 --> 00:38:13,080 His name was Ferdinand and he was good. 315 00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:15,480 We give thanks for his meat. 316 00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:20,080 -What is it? -His tail. 317 00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:33,400 Don't do it! 318 00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:41,000 The first thing we have to do is clear away the drain boxes. 319 00:38:41,640 --> 00:38:44,680 Pushing them across the table is not cleaning, Wolf. 320 00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:46,640 - Yes, it is. -No. 321 00:38:47,600 --> 00:38:50,920 Can you read what you wrote yesterday? 322 00:38:54,320 --> 00:38:58,560 -Kom igjen. -"Ku-rev" ... 323 00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:01,520 -"Kurv". -"Kurv". 324 00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:05,880 I am worried about some things. 325 00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:10,320 For example, whether I can teach them Norwegian. 326 00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:15,280 So we can have capital "A". 327 00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:21,600 And we can have a small "a". 328 00:39:21,720 --> 00:39:24,800 But we have to have an income, so I have to work. 329 00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:32,000 And there is no one to look after the children while I work. 330 00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:38,200 It would be easier in England. My brother has a farm and a company. 331 00:39:38,320 --> 00:39:41,480 I could have worked there and homeschooled the children. 332 00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:46,040 But I made a promise to Maria that I would try to stay. 333 00:39:46,160 --> 00:39:50,080 It's family here, it's Ronja. 334 00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:57,520 Hello, this is Nik Payne calling. 335 00:39:58,560 --> 00:40:04,760 I am calling because I need a nursery place. 336 00:40:04,880 --> 00:40:10,080 I was wondering if there are any vacancies at your place? 337 00:40:22,400 --> 00:40:26,000 Hello? Hello, Marit. 338 00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:29,360 After all, we want to have the children at school. 339 00:40:29,480 --> 00:40:35,680 We hope that we could get an offer where the children go to school for three days - 340 00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:38,000 - and two days at home. 341 00:40:38,120 --> 00:40:41,680 We would like to have the children at school as much as possible. 342 00:40:41,800 --> 00:40:47,160 So I think we should get a three-day offer. 343 00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:53,280 Can't you think about it, Nik? As I said, we would like to have the children with us. 344 00:40:53,400 --> 00:40:55,080 And. 345 00:40:59,360 --> 00:41:04,400 The headmaster says that we can only come if we want to. 346 00:41:04,520 --> 00:41:09,600 All the time. "We are completely open to you." But I don't want to go to school. 347 00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:18,080 It would have been nice to make new friends, but it's no fun being new. 348 00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:25,600 And then you have to raise your hand, which I'm not used to doing. 349 00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:38,000 I feel like a failure when I can't do everything for them. 350 00:41:40,480 --> 00:41:44,920 But... It's just not possible. 351 00:41:51,200 --> 00:41:55,680 Once upon a time there was a mother and a father. 352 00:41:58,320 --> 00:42:02,720 Falcon! Falcon? Can you... 353 00:42:04,400 --> 00:42:07,040 She should actually have started school two weeks ago. 354 00:42:07,160 --> 00:42:12,080 But instead she is with us and learning at her own pace. 355 00:42:12,200 --> 00:42:16,760 And guided by his own curiosity. 356 00:42:16,880 --> 00:42:20,200 It is expected today that in childhood we will become - 357 00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:22,680 - cultured and civilized and - 358 00:42:22,800 --> 00:42:25,840 - and socialized people, which is of course great. 359 00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:32,600 But it comes at the expense of the spontaneous and playful in us. 360 00:42:32,720 --> 00:42:39,080 That is one of the reasons why I do not want my children to be brought up in institutions. 361 00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:46,400 You can be yourself, but only if you adapt and follow the rules. 362 00:42:49,600 --> 00:42:52,360 -Do you feel ready for tomorrow, Freja? -No. 363 00:42:52,480 --> 00:42:54,720 -Why not? - I don't want to. 364 00:42:57,160 --> 00:42:58,960 No, well. Why not? 365 00:42:59,080 --> 00:43:03,920 I just don't want to. I'm just going to walk around the school yard. 366 00:43:04,040 --> 00:43:06,440 That's the only thing I'm going to do. 367 00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:38,560 Dad, what do you want most? Take me to school and leave me, - 368 00:43:38,680 --> 00:43:41,280 - or have me here? - I would have you here, Falk. 369 00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:45,040 If you didn't have to work, I wouldn't have to go, right? 370 00:43:45,160 --> 00:43:48,240 -No. - So stop working, dad. 371 00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:52,760 Then we had to live in England. And that would have been fine by me. 372 00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:55,240 Come on, buddy! 373 00:43:56,440 --> 00:43:59,640 Keep going, Falk. Forward. 374 00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:02,800 - All the way into the living room. - Look at Wolf's hair, Falk! 375 00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:11,760 We have to ask if you are allowed to carry a knife. 376 00:44:11,880 --> 00:44:13,480 I have my doubts. 377 00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:17,680 My experience is that the kindergarten does not like the children to have knives. 378 00:44:17,800 --> 00:44:19,800 I can keep it in my bag. 379 00:44:19,920 --> 00:44:22,480 Then it becomes a hidden weapon, Wolf. 380 00:44:23,920 --> 00:44:28,360 I have to comb your hair again, Wolf. Where is the hairbrush? 381 00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:36,560 Grit your teeth together. Would you like something to nibble on? Bit on this one. 382 00:44:39,800 --> 00:44:46,320 -What are you laughing at? What? - That I haven't thought of this before. 383 00:44:46,440 --> 00:44:50,560 OK, it's getting tame. 384 00:45:04,640 --> 00:45:06,520 If mom was here, I would have asked - 385 00:45:06,640 --> 00:45:11,120 - how she fit in on the first day of school. 386 00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:33,080 - It's so foggy. - Yes, maybe we should just get lost. 387 00:45:34,720 --> 00:45:38,800 -Let's do it, Dad! -"Sorry, we couldn't find the school this morning." 388 00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:41,720 Yes, do it, Dad! 389 00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:46,760 I can call and say, "We tried our best, but..." 390 00:45:46,880 --> 00:45:52,240 "We got lost and ended up in the forest. Luckily we had a packed lunch with us." 391 00:45:55,880 --> 00:45:59,240 -Daddy, can I join? -Yes. 392 00:46:02,400 --> 00:46:06,160 Yes, they are waiting for us. 393 00:46:07,520 --> 00:46:10,600 Good morning! Good morning. 394 00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:34,480 -Hey, you guys! -Hey, are you Wolf? 395 00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:36,200 So nice to see you! 396 00:46:36,320 --> 00:46:39,720 Shall we go in? There are many other children there too. 397 00:47:14,480 --> 00:47:17,520 How is it going? How are you? 398 00:47:17,640 --> 00:47:21,840 We are doing well. I think the children are doing very well. 399 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:27,880 -And with me. - Yes, it must be going well with dad too. 400 00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:29,920 So good! 401 00:47:30,040 --> 00:47:36,320 We are a small school, so these will be the supervising teachers. 402 00:47:39,160 --> 00:47:42,600 -Are you satisfied? - Yes, yes. 403 00:47:46,080 --> 00:47:50,640 At least it seems that Freja thought it was okay to come today. 404 00:47:50,760 --> 00:47:55,960 Then she got maths books. And she got the iPad home. 405 00:47:56,080 --> 00:47:58,440 - Has she got it? -Yes. 406 00:47:58,560 --> 00:48:01,320 We have downloaded the NRK Super app. 407 00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:05,280 We have shown her some series that are for girls. 408 00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:10,160 Some social stuff that we looked at today. 409 00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:12,800 I think she thought it was fine. 410 00:48:12,920 --> 00:48:16,880 I don't know if you have seen much of NRK Super before? 411 00:48:17,000 --> 00:48:20,360 No, we don't watch a lot of TV. 412 00:48:20,480 --> 00:48:24,040 Well, I said she should be allowed to. 413 00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:27,240 It's her homework so she has to? 414 00:48:27,360 --> 00:48:30,320 The one series called "The Class",- 415 00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:35,080 - addresses a great many social dilemmas. 416 00:48:35,200 --> 00:48:39,600 -To help solve them? -Yes. So it's so nice. 417 00:48:39,720 --> 00:48:42,560 So I think it was good to show her it, - 418 00:48:42,680 --> 00:48:45,880 - and Showbie, which we use as a platform. 419 00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:49,240 She has all the subjects there. 420 00:48:55,520 --> 00:48:59,960 I made new friends, I made new friends! 421 00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:02,000 -How did it go? - It went well. 422 00:49:02,120 --> 00:49:04,360 - Did you get things? -Yes! 423 00:49:04,480 --> 00:49:06,080 -Grandpa? -And? 424 00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:09,920 - It was fun. -Abrupt. There you see. 425 00:49:10,040 --> 00:49:13,640 How was it on a scale of 1 to 10? 426 00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:17,800 This morning you said you thought it would be a 3. 427 00:49:17,920 --> 00:49:19,600 Hm ... 428 00:49:22,160 --> 00:49:23,880 - Mine was 14! -9. 429 00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:26,120 9? That's pretty good. 430 00:49:26,720 --> 00:49:30,400 - Mine was 14! - It's better than 7, which I was hoping for. 431 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:36,360 All the apps were there when I got it, except for one. 432 00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:41,600 I had to download NRK Super. 433 00:49:41,720 --> 00:49:44,760 Anne Gina wanted me to do it. 434 00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:51,000 Yes, she mentioned that she is trying to get you to watch TV. 435 00:49:52,920 --> 00:49:58,800 There are all these here, and then there is NRK Super. And then these. 436 00:50:05,480 --> 00:50:07,160 You can choose... 437 00:50:07,280 --> 00:50:12,520 -Put that thing away! - She's just going to show us! Show some of... 438 00:50:12,640 --> 00:50:16,600 Just a little, show how you do it. 439 00:50:27,080 --> 00:50:31,400 -Turn it off. -Dad, look. It's a fun game. 440 00:50:41,800 --> 00:50:47,720 We are grateful for the food and for the day we have had. 441 00:50:47,840 --> 00:50:49,760 -Amen. -Amen! Me first! 442 00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:06,440 I have been very absent. 443 00:51:07,920 --> 00:51:11,440 -Gone away? - Yes, I've been away for a while. 444 00:51:14,080 --> 00:51:16,600 There aren't that many people you've talked to, have you? 445 00:51:16,720 --> 00:51:19,800 I'm really just talking to you about things like that. 446 00:51:24,000 --> 00:51:28,400 There aren't that many people in my life that I feel I can talk to about it. 447 00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:34,240 What I think would have hurt me the most is the close contact. 448 00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:39,360 Never being able to give a hug again to someone you love so much. 449 00:51:40,440 --> 00:51:43,920 -Yes. - It must be incredibly painful. 450 00:51:44,040 --> 00:51:49,440 It's actually one of the worst. It's like... Yeah. 451 00:52:02,360 --> 00:52:07,000 One second you have that person. The only one you've known all your life. 452 00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:10,200 And in the next second it's just nothing. 453 00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:17,280 I want to show her the person I am now. 454 00:52:18,920 --> 00:52:21,880 I want her to see everything. 455 00:52:24,520 --> 00:52:26,880 She is not actually coming back again. 456 00:52:28,520 --> 00:52:30,680 Really like that. 457 00:52:53,600 --> 00:52:57,840 Is there anything in particular you want to talk about? 458 00:52:57,960 --> 00:53:02,320 Maybe it's a little difficult to make friends at school. 459 00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:09,840 -At least to go and play with someone. -Why is it difficult? 460 00:53:10,600 --> 00:53:13,320 I don't know. I am shy. 461 00:53:13,440 --> 00:53:17,960 The first step is always the hardest. 462 00:53:18,080 --> 00:53:22,800 Once you've taken the first step, you're good to go. 463 00:53:22,920 --> 00:53:25,000 -And ... -Hey! 464 00:53:25,920 --> 00:53:27,600 Take off your shoes, dad. 465 00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:31,480 Well... 466 00:53:31,600 --> 00:53:35,840 "Are you doing well at school, out at recess?" I answered "A little". 467 00:53:35,960 --> 00:53:40,840 Is there anything that makes it not "Yes"? 468 00:53:40,960 --> 00:53:44,760 Maybe it's because it's a little hard to make friends. 469 00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:47,040 Yes, I get it. 470 00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:52,840 I have seen that sometimes it is difficult and sometimes it is easier. 471 00:53:52,960 --> 00:53:56,720 We actually talked about it now instead. 472 00:53:56,840 --> 00:54:02,040 That you have to take the first step, you have to start. 473 00:54:02,160 --> 00:54:06,040 Then it will go well. 474 00:54:06,160 --> 00:54:10,520 And eventually it's easier when you sit together. 475 00:54:10,640 --> 00:54:12,280 And. 476 00:54:12,400 --> 00:54:15,120 Then you can work in pairs in the classroom, 477 00:54:15,240 --> 00:54:18,160 - and maybe be two and two out too. 478 00:54:36,240 --> 00:54:38,040 It's a bit boring. 479 00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:43,240 There is no one who understands me completely. 480 00:55:05,880 --> 00:55:11,480 It goes up and down. Some good periods and some bad. 481 00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:20,920 I can't help feeling that it would have been easier for me in England. 482 00:55:21,040 --> 00:55:25,880 I so want to meet my family, not be alone. 483 00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:43,520 -What do we say? -Team Payne! 484 00:55:57,920 --> 00:56:05,000 I grew up in this bedroom, overlooking those fields there. 485 00:56:11,120 --> 00:56:18,240 -Do you like the idea of ​​buying some land? -Both and, I think. 486 00:56:20,160 --> 00:56:25,560 But it would have been a dream to have our own little farm. 487 00:56:27,480 --> 00:56:29,160 And ... 488 00:56:33,680 --> 00:56:37,640 - I want to go home, dad. - I know that. 489 00:56:37,760 --> 00:56:42,680 I've said it before, but I'll say it again: I grew up in Norway. 490 00:56:42,800 --> 00:56:46,960 I grew up here, so for me this is home. 491 00:56:47,080 --> 00:56:52,360 There is nothing left for me in Norway now. 492 00:56:52,480 --> 00:56:57,560 I feel like a stranger there, I can't be myself. Do you see it? 493 00:56:57,680 --> 00:57:02,720 And then it's boring that here in England we can't camp, fish or hunt. 494 00:57:02,840 --> 00:57:06,080 Well... No, not so much. 495 00:57:17,840 --> 00:57:20,160 Freja will probably be happy to come home. 496 00:57:20,280 --> 00:57:25,000 Yes, she misses the cats and all that. 497 00:57:27,120 --> 00:57:31,600 I am considering coming back here for good. 498 00:57:31,720 --> 00:57:37,880 But everything is a bit... There is a lot to think about. 499 00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:44,040 I know it's still early days, but is anything happening on the ladies front over there? 500 00:57:49,160 --> 00:57:50,920 In the. 501 00:57:53,720 --> 00:57:56,720 -No, I can't imagine... -What? 502 00:57:56,840 --> 00:58:01,360 I can't imagine that happening. 503 00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:04,240 Well, you wouldn't have been hurt by it. 504 00:58:04,360 --> 00:58:06,960 I just can't imagine it. 505 00:58:08,120 --> 00:58:13,080 You have the right to time for yourself. 506 00:58:13,200 --> 00:58:16,200 I mean... Life goes on. 507 00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:26,720 - Oh, hey! -Hey! 508 00:58:26,840 --> 00:58:31,320 -Oi, your hair has grown so long. - Yes, it's a long way. 509 00:58:31,440 --> 00:58:34,800 -As it was before, really. - Falk has actually had a haircut. 510 00:58:34,920 --> 00:58:37,960 Oh, it's been a long time since Falk has had short hair! 511 00:58:38,080 --> 00:58:41,280 I am really looking forward to coming back to Norway. 512 00:58:41,400 --> 00:58:44,760 Oh, I can't wait for you to come home too. 513 00:58:45,800 --> 00:58:48,800 How long have you been gone now? 514 00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:51,800 Maybe four months? 515 00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:55,480 Do you know when you are coming home? 516 00:58:55,600 --> 00:58:57,480 No, we don't know quite yet. 517 00:59:03,520 --> 00:59:07,280 - Have at it, Ronja! - Have at it, Freya. Love you a lot. 518 00:59:07,400 --> 00:59:11,200 - Love you a lot, a lot, a lot! - We talk. Have it! 519 00:59:11,320 --> 00:59:13,080 Have it! 520 00:59:30,840 --> 00:59:34,960 I have always been afraid of them moving to England. 521 00:59:35,080 --> 00:59:39,840 Actually, I think it has been a thought in everyone's mind that they will move. 522 00:59:43,440 --> 00:59:47,160 I think if I tell them I want them to stay, - 523 00:59:47,280 --> 00:59:53,000 - it becomes very difficult for them to know what to think. 524 00:59:53,120 --> 00:59:58,120 So I think it's much easier to just leave them alone. 525 01:00:31,560 --> 01:00:35,800 No one says it, but I feel it very much. 526 01:00:35,920 --> 01:00:41,000 That people are like: "Now it's been a long time, now you have to manage." 527 01:00:41,120 --> 01:00:43,040 "Get over yourself." 528 01:00:44,160 --> 01:00:47,040 I feel very stuck here. 529 01:00:53,760 --> 01:00:56,000 - Are you filming now? - Yes, just say it. 530 01:00:56,120 --> 01:00:57,760 Should I say it now? 531 01:00:57,880 --> 01:01:03,400 Now my mother and grandmother and I have landed in Alta, on our way to Kautokeino. 532 01:01:03,520 --> 01:01:05,400 And! 533 01:01:08,680 --> 01:01:13,160 It hit me like a bolt of lightning: I have to go there. 534 01:01:13,280 --> 01:01:17,800 I have to be in the place where I was born. 535 01:01:20,960 --> 01:01:25,600 I have felt drawn towards Northern Norway and Sami culture all my life. 536 01:01:25,720 --> 01:01:31,360 Being there gave me some answers as to why I have felt this way. 537 01:01:33,640 --> 01:01:40,240 It felt like the beginning of a relationship with an incredibly powerful area. 538 01:01:40,360 --> 01:01:45,920 A bit like I'm closing a ring deep inside myself. 539 01:02:17,120 --> 01:02:21,600 It gives me more freedom and room to be myself. 540 01:02:21,720 --> 01:02:24,920 Get away from this town here. 541 01:02:25,040 --> 01:02:29,360 I have no room ... At least I feel that I have no room to grieve. 542 01:02:29,480 --> 01:02:33,760 Here there is only a hole. 543 01:02:36,160 --> 01:02:42,560 I have to do my own thing. Other surroundings, new things, other people. 544 01:02:53,160 --> 01:02:56,680 Look there, dad! Simba! Simba! 545 01:02:56,800 --> 01:02:59,880 Look at him! He is so big now! 546 01:03:05,920 --> 01:03:08,360 -Was this in the mailbox? -Yes. 547 01:03:08,480 --> 01:03:11,000 Put it here with the rest. 548 01:03:11,120 --> 01:03:16,280 I water dried plants. At the last minute. 549 01:03:16,400 --> 01:03:22,640 - It's nice to be home again. - I don't remember this one being so big. 550 01:03:22,760 --> 01:03:25,080 It has probably grown a bit. 551 01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:29,600 - I am so happy that I am almost sad. -How is it going? 552 01:03:29,720 --> 01:03:32,520 I cry tears of joy. 553 01:03:40,520 --> 01:03:44,440 - This was a carrot, wasn't it? -Never mind. 554 01:03:44,560 --> 01:03:48,720 - All these grow here, right? -Yes. But sometimes they get cut off. 555 01:03:48,840 --> 01:03:52,680 - We have to drag these out. -You can leave them if you want. 556 01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:54,720 It doesn't matter. 557 01:03:59,440 --> 01:04:03,120 It's nice to come back here and back to this. 558 01:04:03,240 --> 01:04:06,080 Gardening, working with the animals... 559 01:04:08,000 --> 01:04:13,600 I like myself here, but where will I build a future? 560 01:04:13,720 --> 01:04:18,720 I have to find out now, before it's too late. 561 01:04:18,840 --> 01:04:24,400 It actually makes the decision even more difficult. 562 01:04:37,160 --> 01:04:40,280 It's good to be home again. 563 01:04:40,400 --> 01:04:42,360 And. 564 01:04:58,000 --> 01:05:03,000 I feel that Freja thinks it is her fault that I have not been so present. 565 01:05:03,120 --> 01:05:08,160 So I'm trying to say it's not her, it's me. 566 01:05:16,680 --> 01:05:20,960 Right now it's a bit difficult, I feel like I'm pulling away from everyone. 567 01:05:21,080 --> 01:05:24,760 But at the same time, I know it's good for me. 568 01:05:26,480 --> 01:05:28,800 And ... I'm looking forward to it. 569 01:05:31,040 --> 01:05:34,200 Hello! Hello! 570 01:05:35,680 --> 01:05:39,560 Happy birthday, Wolf! 571 01:05:39,680 --> 01:05:45,640 Congratulations on the day! Congratulations on the day! 572 01:05:45,760 --> 01:05:49,440 Congratulations, dear Wolf! 573 01:05:49,560 --> 01:05:52,680 Hooray! 574 01:06:04,560 --> 01:06:07,600 - That's good. - It was quite good, actually. 575 01:06:07,720 --> 01:06:11,360 I'm dreading you leaving, Ronja. 576 01:06:11,480 --> 01:06:13,920 -Where are you going to move? - To Bodø. 577 01:06:14,040 --> 01:06:16,800 What are you going to be? Nurse? 578 01:06:16,920 --> 01:06:21,520 Yes, or I want to be a midwife eventually, but that's a long time away. 579 01:06:21,640 --> 01:06:24,120 Now I'm going to the Health Service. 580 01:06:47,360 --> 01:06:49,880 Have it! Falcon? 581 01:06:50,960 --> 01:06:53,160 I love you a lot. 582 01:06:53,280 --> 01:06:55,000 - Have at it, Nik. - Have at it, Ronja. 583 01:06:55,120 --> 01:06:57,000 - Good luck. -Thanks. 584 01:07:06,920 --> 01:07:10,400 - I'm going to miss you so much! - I'm going to miss you too. 585 01:07:10,520 --> 01:07:14,400 But I'm coming home. And we talk. 586 01:07:22,360 --> 01:07:27,000 To Freya. By the time you read this letter, I have already left. 587 01:07:38,160 --> 01:07:42,320 I want you to know that I am not moving because I want to get away from you. 588 01:07:42,440 --> 01:07:46,080 I'm moving because I need to get away from this place. 589 01:07:46,200 --> 01:07:52,080 I know I haven't always been the best sister, and I'm very sorry for that. 590 01:07:52,200 --> 01:07:55,000 When my mother died, everything became very difficult for me. 591 01:07:55,120 --> 01:07:57,120 I found it difficult to be with you, - 592 01:07:57,240 --> 01:08:00,360 - because everything just reminded me of the life we ​​had. 593 01:08:00,480 --> 01:08:02,880 It was never that I didn't love you. 594 01:08:03,000 --> 01:08:05,720 I have always done that and always will. 595 01:08:05,840 --> 01:08:09,960 You are my only sister and will always have a special place in my heart. 596 01:08:10,080 --> 01:08:15,280 We haven't talked much about mum, and I know that's very much my fault. 597 01:08:15,400 --> 01:08:20,320 I understand if you are upset or upset with me for how I have handled this. 598 01:08:20,440 --> 01:08:24,000 But I think it's very difficult to talk about it. 599 01:08:24,120 --> 01:08:26,000 It may be too late to say now, - 600 01:08:26,120 --> 01:08:29,080 - but if you ever need to talk about it, I'm here. 601 01:08:29,200 --> 01:08:32,640 You can always call me or send me a letter. 602 01:08:32,760 --> 01:08:36,640 Look after the boys for me, they are lucky to have you. 603 01:08:36,760 --> 01:08:41,480 But I'm also lucky to have such a lovely little sister like you. 604 01:08:41,600 --> 01:08:45,840 I love you more than you understand. Hugs from Ronja. 605 01:08:50,840 --> 01:08:53,240 It was a very nice letter. 606 01:09:01,360 --> 01:09:03,640 I was sad. 607 01:09:08,560 --> 01:09:13,680 It's hard to talk about mom, because it makes me sick. 608 01:09:17,280 --> 01:09:20,000 I don't like to show that I cry. 609 01:09:24,080 --> 01:09:27,200 I feel kind of weak. 610 01:09:52,000 --> 01:09:54,720 -Are you doing well? -Yes. 611 01:10:02,320 --> 01:10:05,080 It's just that I miss my mom. 612 01:10:08,840 --> 01:10:12,000 I cried today too. 613 01:10:12,120 --> 01:10:15,320 I don't know why I'm crying, I don't usually cry. 614 01:10:15,440 --> 01:10:18,200 But it's good to cry. 615 01:10:21,600 --> 01:10:24,360 I received a nice letter from Ronja. 616 01:10:24,480 --> 01:10:26,480 - Did you? -Yes. 617 01:11:12,960 --> 01:11:19,600 Why are you only at school three days, and not the others? 618 01:11:19,720 --> 01:11:22,360 Vel... Hi! 619 01:11:22,480 --> 01:11:26,680 Because dad wants us to homeschool. 620 01:11:26,800 --> 01:11:29,560 Can you sleep long, even if you homeschool? 621 01:11:29,680 --> 01:11:33,080 Yes, until about eight or nine. 622 01:11:33,200 --> 01:11:36,400 I'm not very good at sleeping for long. 623 01:11:37,840 --> 01:11:44,080 It sounds kind of delicious. But at the same time it's really fun to be with friends. 624 01:11:44,200 --> 01:11:48,480 You are so lucky to have hens and chickens and such. 625 01:11:48,600 --> 01:11:50,400 Yes. Quite. 626 01:11:50,520 --> 01:11:57,200 I talked a little with dad. We are thinking of buying chickens. 627 01:11:57,320 --> 01:12:02,000 But then there is a bit too much control, - 628 01:12:02,120 --> 01:12:06,960 - because we have to build a chicken coop and stuff like that. 629 01:12:08,160 --> 01:12:12,240 - We can certainly help you. - Oh, that would have been really nice. 630 01:12:12,360 --> 01:12:15,760 - Then we could be together too. -Yes. 631 01:12:15,880 --> 01:12:19,960 We could do something we both like. 632 01:12:20,080 --> 01:12:22,520 -Bake, maybe, sometimes? -Oh, yes! 633 01:12:22,640 --> 01:12:25,600 - We both like that, for sure. -Yes! 634 01:12:32,040 --> 01:12:36,560 Dad, I want to go to school for the rest of the week. 635 01:12:36,680 --> 01:12:38,280 -Really? -Yes. 636 01:12:38,400 --> 01:12:42,280 -OK, why that? - We are going on a trip on Friday. 637 01:12:42,400 --> 01:12:47,600 -Yes! - I thought you could go on Friday. 638 01:12:47,720 --> 01:12:53,200 I want to go on Thursday too, then we will get to know our sponsor children. 639 01:12:53,320 --> 01:12:55,120 And bro. 640 01:12:55,240 --> 01:12:59,600 -And on Wednesday I just want to go. -What? 641 01:12:59,720 --> 01:13:04,880 Tomorrow too. I want to go for the rest of the week, if that goes well? 642 01:13:05,000 --> 01:13:08,400 We were supposed to go camping, Freja. 643 01:13:08,520 --> 01:13:12,400 I don't want to. I want to go to school. 644 01:13:44,080 --> 01:13:47,600 To Ronja. You are the best sister anyone could wish for. 645 01:13:47,720 --> 01:13:52,040 I'm certainly not mad at you, and if there's anything, I always talk to dad. 646 01:13:52,160 --> 01:13:54,840 It's not your fault we haven't talked about mom. 647 01:13:54,960 --> 01:13:59,240 I am very happy for you. I also miss her very much. 648 01:14:00,160 --> 01:14:02,920 We have had piglets. There are seven pieces. 649 01:14:05,040 --> 01:14:07,240 They are very cute. 650 01:14:08,960 --> 01:14:13,840 We have picked up lots of vegetables from the garden and put them in the cellar. 651 01:14:13,960 --> 01:14:19,320 I hope you enjoy your new school. Have you made any new friends? 652 01:14:20,160 --> 01:14:24,840 Ingrid is my best friend. We come up with lots of fun together. 653 01:14:28,400 --> 01:14:31,440 Love you from the moon and back again. 654 01:14:31,560 --> 01:14:35,280 Hope you come home for Christmas. Big hug from Freja. 655 01:14:45,720 --> 01:14:49,560 Is it okay to walk forward alone when they say your name, Wolf? 656 01:14:49,680 --> 01:14:52,400 -No. -What? No? 657 01:14:56,920 --> 01:14:59,600 I think you can do it. 658 01:14:59,720 --> 01:15:02,760 Everyone should do it. 659 01:15:02,880 --> 01:15:08,880 You walk under the arch and stand with your classmates. 660 01:15:16,560 --> 01:15:18,400 Do you have it? 661 01:15:22,800 --> 01:15:25,920 Hey, hey, everybody! 662 01:15:28,280 --> 01:15:30,440 - It's exciting! -Yes. 663 01:15:30,560 --> 01:15:35,000 Oh, now I know I'm excited! The whole body tingles. 664 01:15:35,120 --> 01:15:38,200 I have been so looking forward to this day. 665 01:15:38,320 --> 01:15:41,560 Welcome to Efteløt School! 666 01:15:41,680 --> 01:15:47,880 It's your school now. From now on you will be here with us. 667 01:15:48,000 --> 01:15:50,000 And we are looking forward to that. 668 01:15:50,720 --> 01:15:54,480 Wolf River Water Payne! 669 01:15:57,560 --> 01:15:59,880 Then there is Levi… 670 01:16:20,840 --> 01:16:22,760 Have a nice day, Wolf. 671 01:16:42,120 --> 01:16:46,120 Maria should have been involved in this. 672 01:17:04,200 --> 01:17:06,680 -Hey, dad! -Hey, Nick! How is it going? 673 01:17:06,800 --> 01:17:09,240 -Not so bad. -Hey! 674 01:17:10,560 --> 01:17:12,720 Falk is hiding. 675 01:17:14,320 --> 01:17:19,760 -Wolf, do you still like yourself at school? -Yes. 676 01:17:19,880 --> 01:17:22,120 -Is it fun? -Yes. 677 01:17:22,240 --> 01:17:25,560 Do you have many friends there? 678 01:17:26,480 --> 01:17:31,360 -I have three friends. Or four. -Oi! 679 01:17:32,480 --> 01:17:35,480 -And I have two! -Joy me! 680 01:17:36,880 --> 01:17:40,080 Remember we talked about moving to England? 681 01:17:40,200 --> 01:17:42,120 You talked about it, yes. 682 01:17:42,240 --> 01:17:48,080 Yes. Well, it will have to be put on hold for a while. 683 01:17:48,200 --> 01:17:52,440 We have settled down here, now that the children are at school. 684 01:17:52,560 --> 01:17:58,680 It would be a big change for them, they have their lives here. 685 01:18:03,680 --> 01:18:06,400 I look forward to the future. 686 01:18:07,680 --> 01:18:11,080 Our home is where we are together. 687 01:18:12,120 --> 01:18:19,360 I have slowly but surely come to the conclusion that everyone wants to stay. 688 01:18:22,120 --> 01:18:27,920 -Stop, Wolf! -Stop running, "Forrest"! 689 01:18:29,760 --> 01:18:31,800 Stop running! 690 01:18:36,640 --> 01:18:43,520 Things have changed, but basically we are doing the same thing. 691 01:18:43,640 --> 01:18:48,240 I don't feel like I'm letting Maria down. 692 01:19:05,120 --> 01:19:07,640 It feels like the mustache is falling off. 693 01:19:07,760 --> 01:19:13,240 That was a great moustache, Wolf. Can you talk to it? 694 01:19:13,360 --> 01:19:15,440 - I can. -Yes. 695 01:19:15,560 --> 01:19:19,640 Because it's stuck in your snot? 696 01:19:20,760 --> 01:19:22,400 Hands. 697 01:19:27,720 --> 01:19:29,520 Love. 698 01:19:35,840 --> 01:19:40,000 How is it still stuck? It is suspicious. 699 01:19:40,120 --> 01:19:42,320 You should go with it all the time, Wolf. 700 01:19:42,440 --> 01:19:46,120 -Yes! -And monobrows. 701 01:19:46,240 --> 01:19:50,080 -Can you put it on so I can take a picture? - Then you have to be quick. 702 01:19:50,200 --> 01:19:52,440 Smile, Wolf. 703 01:19:54,760 --> 01:19:57,520 You look like a 40 year old man. 704 01:19:57,640 --> 01:20:00,360 Which is dragged through the forest. 705 01:20:00,920 --> 01:20:03,280 Shall we go? 706 01:20:03,400 --> 01:20:06,960 -Yes. - We have been here a long time. 707 01:20:14,600 --> 01:20:17,640 -Come on, Dad! We have to go! - I'm coming! 708 01:20:20,680 --> 01:20:22,800 I love you, Maria. 709 01:20:29,760 --> 01:20:33,640 I thought we were going to be sorry all our lives, - 710 01:20:33,760 --> 01:20:37,520 - but that was certainly not what we were supposed to do. 711 01:20:37,640 --> 01:20:42,400 Mother is always in the air around us and inside us. 712 01:21:04,240 --> 01:21:07,520 - Mom? Can you lift me up? -Wait a minute, then. 713 01:21:07,640 --> 01:21:13,280 This winter has been all about digging deep - 714 01:21:13,400 --> 01:21:16,800 - and be in the dark. 715 01:21:17,840 --> 01:21:24,000 Know my limitations, but also push past them. 716 01:21:24,120 --> 01:21:27,360 Roll around in my own mud until I've had enough - 717 01:21:27,480 --> 01:21:32,360 - that all I could do was howl and dance. 718 01:21:33,120 --> 01:21:37,200 It has been about forgetting all the difficult - 719 01:21:37,320 --> 01:21:40,360 - and simply choose love. 720 01:21:40,480 --> 01:21:42,120 -And! -And. 721 01:21:42,240 --> 01:21:44,440 -Away? -Away? 722 01:21:44,560 --> 01:21:48,040 Let's not talk about winter now. 723 01:21:48,160 --> 01:21:54,960 Let's go out instead. Out to the sound of trickling water. 724 01:21:55,080 --> 01:21:58,360 And birds singing in ecstasy. 725 01:21:58,480 --> 01:22:02,880 For grass underfoot and butterflies. 726 01:22:03,000 --> 01:22:05,760 And the first spring flower. 727 01:22:07,520 --> 01:22:11,760 Let's stay in the sun until it goes down.